Category: Inspirational

Feeling Appreciative On My Birthday – 10/10 Magical Portal Blessings to You!

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Feeling so appreciative for the birthday wishes I’ve received today, especially on my facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen!

Letting in the love & offering it to you too on this magical 10/10 Portal Day! It can be A LOT to let in what comes to us on our birthday….parts of us can go almost ‘numb’ to it. Opening up my higher heart EVEN wider is helping!

Here are some beautiful birthday cards and VERY touching words from my BEloveds that I wanted to share with you!

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What a day this day is, Jelelle Awen…

Though some parts of me have needed to normalize being with you to be able to tone down the beauty and bounty a little, so as to not walk around with a weird grin in every moment, that weird grin really is there all the time.

I feel the magic in any moment that I’m wanting and willing to breathe it in deeply. It’s like escaping to a fantasy world, except that the fantasy is real, where all time feels like the first time, and strangely too, like the last time.

You so arise anew, again and again and again. I desire for you on this day of remembrance, a deep and full letting-in of the magic that you are, of the gifts you bring to life and to love, by being you.

I love you down to my toes. I miss you even when I’m with you. I long for the next time, even when we’re barely done the last time. Time with you is time with time, time with the Beloved, and time with all beloveds.

Happy Birthday, beloved….

Raphael

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Sending huge waves of love today to Jelelle Awenon her birthing day into this dimension! She is a gift to all of us seeking to feel and know ourselves in a way that is beyond what we could ever imagine. Her wisdom and purity of heart are what sets her apart in my opinion and long history with her.

I have known her for close to 30 years and she has been a big part of my growth as a healer, a man, and bridging the galactic into my consciousness and body. Her passion for service and ambassadorship is an inspiration. There are very few beings that my inner parts have trusted to guide me/them out of the old and into the new, even if there was, and can be, resistance to what is being offered.

I am honored and blessed to have had Jelelle a part of my life and send her all the love and gratitude that she deserves on this day and all that follow.

Happy Birthday Jelelle! I created this mandala in your honor,

Gabriel

 

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For Jelelle Awen on her birthday…

I had to write you something new this year. I was going to go find the poem I wrote for you before, but because you and I are both in such brand new phases right now, I wanted to write something that reflects our re-arising and reNEWing relationship, while honouring all of our phases together so far over the last few years and all of the challenges we have faced in ourselves and in our bond too.

I am truly, deeply honoured by your powerful presence in my life and the ongoing love and support you ripple out to me in many levels both subtle and obvious.

I have witnessed your growth and healing as you’ve witnessed and helped facilitate my own. I am blessed to call you both “friend” and “teacher” and take neither honour for granted.

It’s not just another trip around the sun
It’s a further dip into the waves of your personal sun
The one that shines brightly
And beacons us all homeward
To our unique heart-homes withIN.

You serve love through the YINspiration
You’ve cultivated,
Worked for,
Planted within your heart and soul bed
Of growth
and dynamic leavings and enterings, both.

You YINspire my own trajectories
And adventures
Inside
And within the love flow between us
Which reflects and informs
All other relationships
I could ever have and do have
In my life and heart today.

You are the continued template
Even as you always give me back to me
And encourage my own uniqueness to shine
And evolve
And grow.

To say I’ve learned a ton from you
Would understate the value
Of everything you’ve led
And continue to lead
With the strength of a lioness
And the softness of a swan.

I love you!!

Kalayna

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This year I feel “mama” as a different energy. You are my mother in the way that you guide, support, love and see me. You are kind to the parts of me that have yearned for love. You are real when it feels so hard to be so. You lead with so much integrity that I really feel seen through love’s eyes, not through a filter.

We are embarking on a new journey and phase in the next few days and if this last month represents the kind of alchemy and catalytic energy that’s to come then I am buckling up for full speed ahead!!

I can’t wait to see what blossoms and grows in your Canadian garden and how many souls will be touched by you in the coming months and years.

Thank you for all the work you have done, all that you have provided for others and all the parts that have broken down in tears just feeling your open and precious heart.

You are epic in soul, expansive in heart and as real as any one human can get. I would not be this much of who I am today if it weren’t for you and this process.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Jelelle!!! Nova and I love you so dearly 💕🎈😍

Raianna

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The Beauty That Is You

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By Raianna Shai

As I watch the sunset tonight I reflect on all the beauty that surrounds me. The beauty that I alchemized for myself. The beauty that is reflected within me.

When we take in beauty like sunsets, we are really taking in ourselves. The beauty of ourselves. You can only let in the love that you have cultivated within. And from there, is where you give to others.

I came onto my yoga mat this evening feeling less than perfect. Less than worthy. I’ve always been very sensitive to how I am perceived and what others think of me. So one small thing can send parts of me spiralling into a suffering loop about not being good enough.

I checked in with this part of me while in puppy posture and asked why I felt this sadness every time something like that came up.

He told me “Because I know that if you feel sad or guilty enough, you’ll do everything in your power to prevent it from happening again. So we don’t have to feel the sadness. So no one can judge you. It’s for your protection.”

I felt to say back, “But why am I not perfect exactly where I am now? Why is this not good enough?”

I felt tears start to come as this part of me started to let in the reality that I was talking about him, too.

I transitioned into a new position so that I could take in the sunset amidst this process, and the tears started to flow.

Look at all of this beauty, I thought. The love in my life, the love in my soul, the love in the sky this very moment.

I know there is shadow within me. Darkness, sadness, anger, fear. But that’s all a part of the beauty.

We would have no sunsets without darkness. The colours would not stand out the way that they do.

And my darkness and shadow is not wrong, the way the night sky is not wrong. It is passion and power. It is the part of my essence that can provide me with discernment, boundaries and confidence. It is one of the strongest parts of me, especially when it can let in my love.

I make mistakes. I have the capacity to hurt. I can feel things I would never wish anyone to feel. But I am still worthy. These dark parts of me are still worthy. You and your parts are still worthy of all the love you can possibly imagine. Of every ounce of love you have to give.

It’s time now to go in, take responsibility for the shadow, feel any remorse that comes up, and then forgive. Forgive so that you can let in the beauty that is YOU.

A MANdate For New Earth Now

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

Last night my friend, heart shaman, and MANtor (mentor as a man) Raphael Awen and I enjoyed a night out together for the first time in a while. It was a time we intended to connect with each other in a deeper way beyond the ‘doings’ of our busy lives as we all engage in our next journeys separate, yet together in heart.

It is easy for parts of all of us to normalize relationship to some degree and not take a moment to just be in the goodness of what is, what was, and what we intend to be more of. This also feels to be a challenge for men especially. Taking sacred time with each other in honor and gratitude, or even much-needed truth-telling, wherever that truth is coming from or needs to lead.

Raphael and I took in the goodness of our surroundings, our own usness outside our personal romances with our beloved mates, and our history together as friends and co-conspirators of this starship we call SoulFullHeart. It was a tender moment to feel all that we have been through together in our history and especially here in Mexico. We could feel how unique our bond is as men and to feel how we have had the shades drawn a bit on our own desire for other men to be a part of a larger roundtable of heart and soul kings.

So we took the intentional space to let go of what was, honor it deeply, and open our hearts to more. More real, more galactic, more men, and more More, whatever that turns out to be. It was another layer of deep healing between two men that seek to offer it to other men in search of the same. It felt personal, global, and galactic. All that was missing was the cigarette. (Yup…I said that.)

Raphael and I both open our heart and soul journeys to men and women alike who feel resonate (and even those who may not fully) to explore their own inner world, this one and beyond. To take steps to heal and inhabit the practical, emotional, and spiritual steps to enter into a new relationship with self, other, and the universe at large. To open up your own personal disclosure project, click on the link below for more information.

Thank you for being a part of our living room. We look forward to more connection with you.

Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen
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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Invitation From Divine Mother: Breathe Into The Process As Clarities Unfold

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by Kalayna Colibri

“Stay with your heart in this powerful time. Allow in patience as the next clarity unfolds.”

I hear and feel this message from Divine Mother today, after a day of intense process waves yesterday that ebbed in the late afternoon. Lately, process seems to be coming up for me through what can feel like an intense inner fog and a strong desire for more clarity to happen ‘right now’, in this or that very moment… impatience abounds in moments as I feel the changes moving in and through my life, changes that are desired but also bringing me and my beloveds into the next unknown, which isn’t all that comfortable for parts of us sometimes.

I feel how this is likely a bit of a foggy time for the collective too. As more gets unearthed individually and collectively and disclosure happens in small or even large doses on all fronts, it can be challenging to see clearly what exactly the next steps are, outward or inward, or the reasons for it all to be coming up in the first place. The easy answer is that it needs to come up, no matter how messy things may get, but that’s not the answer parts of us really want to hear.

To have patience now and be ready to set boundaries or take space as needed, and to find your courage to enter into your next phase of growth and healing, is the invitation now. Trusting that everything you’re walking (or stumbling) out right now is leading somewhere. Sometimes you have to enter and re-enter your own inner woods before you can come out the other side with new clarity and an even more blissful sense of love and worth.

I know how hard it can be… how hard we all struggle sometimes to just get through the shame spirals, the feelings of not having a purpose, the feelings of, quite frankly, being ‘f*cked’ existentially and in our daily lives too. God, to even say out loud that this is all very sacred, even this intensity, is a lot to claim in moments. If even one small inch of your heart space can let this in, you’re finding your way back to grace and letting in the love that wants to support you through this so you can find out more of your personal love expression in this world.

Jelelle Awen has created many different guided meditations for you to lean into if you need a dose of Divine and self-love. I highly recommend checking out the SoulFullHeart YouTube channel, SoulFullHeart Experience, to find these and plenty of writings that can help bridge you back to your own sense of power and clarity and connection to the love that you are.

Much, much love to you as you keep courageously feeling and navigating the pain and fog that comes up from just BEing in this world sometimes. The Divine in all forms and faces, including your own, hears you, feels you, and honours the depths you’re willing to go to in each powerful moment of your choosing. 

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My beloveds offer space holding sessions if you need something, someone, to lean into now or any time:www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Message From On High

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

It is time

Time to be free

Free of the ties that bind

The binds that have kept you safe, unknowable, and small

The relations, the assumptions, and the fears

That have all appeared as Love and Truth

Until they no longer did.

It is not so much your Mind and Beliefs that need to be examined or retrained,

But rather your heart that needs to be felt

Your soul that needs to be explored

And called into the court of your curiosity and divine compassion

What storylines have you still in chains, in regret, and in suffering

It is going into the deep well of your hidden, veiled, and protected caverns

That bring the greatest gifts to your arising awareness

That you have always been Free, been Loved, and been Alive

Feel and free yourself

You wonderful, glorious, and human expression

Of power, creation, Love, and beauty.

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Photo by Clever Visuals on Unsplash

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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A Love Transmission For These Times Of Chaos, Change, Evolution (Poem)

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by Kalayna Colibri

Swirling, changing, 
Ever-shifting sands
Of foundations won and lost,
Forged and fought for,
Brought in on waves of alchemy
And set to sail away again.

The ship of your homecoming
Finds those resonant tides
Of needed and necessary movement
Toward everything
Every part, piece, aspect,
You have, are
And will yet uncover yourself to BE.

Life is a recovery dance
Of unknown,
Magic-pitched pipes
No one has ever played before
And yet they are being played just the same
In every cell of your being
In every dimension of your soul…

Love, catch the wave before you
Or wait now for another.
At every turn
The maybes move
As the drawbridge beckons you homeward.

Beloved, now could be your time
The war is over if you choose it.
The battles fought and won
Are reconciled
In the depths of healing soil
Built to bring more depth within.
Your time to re-anchor in new horizons
Could be now…
Or the next now.
Any now of your choosing
As you cannot help
But engage in the process
Of the healing waves coming
In whatever ways felt into.
You’ll know your time,
Your chance,
Your phase,
In ways your mind won’t grasp
Yet your heart will sanctify
And claim…
You’ll know, beloved,
That it’s your growth moment
And the pulse of new blood
Will be unavoidable.

Yet beloved,
Feel this…
You are loved beyond the love you’ve known.
You are needed beyond the needs of others.
You are held beyond the scope of your beholding.
And you are brought into your power
In every step you take towards more love
More worth
And more beyond all you’ve been taught
Is all you’ll ever have…

Much… much love… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Q & A, Guided Meditation W/Raphael and Jelelle Awen (video)

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvvGP-4MMLM&t=2s

Raphael and Jelelle, co-creators and teachers of SoulFullHeart, were live responding to questions and comments that came over FB on September 7th, 2018. They offered their perspectives on the ascension process, emotional body/soul healing through parts work, and working with Metasoul aspects from other timelines.

They also co-lead a guided meditation to connect with high vibe energies and your Inner Protector at around 40 minutes in.

To read more about parts/Metasoul aspects, go here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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The Hearth Of My Opening Heart: A Poem

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by Kalayna Colibri

c: September 2016

Tremors move from your heart space to mine.
An overflow. A love place.
A warm hut with a burning fire.
I seek to understand what I cannot yet,
what I may not ever,
what I may know in spite of myself.
There is a garden behind the heart door.
A secret wooden manifestation of many years of collapsing memories and ever-arising lessons.
Love waits for me there,
with more surprises,
with tourniquets,
with salves,
with the ointment of new life and renewal of my essence’s light.

As the door creaks open wide,
I feel the dust fall from my shoulders, into my healing palms Where I can see it.
Where I can feel it.
Where I can touch its textures and hold it close
As it cries full tears of rippling red shadow pulses and black and blue figures dusty in their own rite
Peeling off the once invisible armors they treasured for so long.

Disarmed yet newly anchored in the safety of my own now opening heart
I rest amongst the silk cushions and wait by the roar of the fireplace
Until you come knocking.

After filling your pockets with your own dusty past and present
And rimming your heart with the sugar-coated candy of a caramel-filled chocolate,
Bringing your sticky-sweetness out to be tasted,
I will meet you here, my love.

In brightness and darkness, with sweets and savories I will wait.
I will work.
I will pry my heart open first for me,
Then for you,
And together we will find the fumbling and not-knowing
To be the greatest fun we ever had
And the biggest challenge we have ever faced,
And the greatest dragon we have ever owned on our own, Together, and with the Divine.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

9/10 Energies Invite Moving On, Seeing Next Process Steps

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By Kalayna Colibri

Today 9 turns into 10… it feels like a double-helix of new beginnings and taking everything you’ve learned and moved through to the next level while the old continues to move. This means applying all that you are now in all of the relationships you have… which could mean completing some, while deepening or even just beginning others.

I feel in myself a new beginning arising inside from much work and dedication to going inward, looking in the books and crannies and rather dark places. This work isn’t over and actually, I don’t want it to be. Yet I’ll take this new platform, this emerging foundation and these brand new wings out for a spin and feel all there is to feel in the process of that.

This is something I feel for many right now. You could be coming out of a deep emotional or physical process or both… I’ve always found that the two are inevitably linked. You could be popping through another ceiling of awakening and trying to integrate what you’ve been realizing and noticing about yourself, your soul, the world, your Star family, etc.

There’s a ton of support coming in, always, to help us feel all of this and more. The way you can let in this support is by feeling the parts of you in resistance to it. Resistance to love can be subtle. We all have resistance in some form or other, yet it’s how we relate to and feel that resistance that matters and has the most opportunity for growth, maturity, and letting in more love.

What reflections is life offering you now of where you’re on deck to go next in your personal process? We need these reflections to see what’s going on with us, as it’s not possible to see everything, every cluttered corner of your heart and soul, completely on your own. Life is a hall of mirrors, always.

As we move into this 9-10 day, let’s remember that we are ALL working to love our shadows and hidden places, feel what needs love inside of us, and that we are also always given a ton of love to help us see and be with this process. Nobody is exempt from this, yet we all get to choose how and if we accept the invitation to dive deeper and fly higher.

It’s your graduation day… just as every day could be. A graduation into your next phase of becoming more love and serving love too!

Much love! 💜

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My beloveds, Raphael, Gabriel and Jelelle are all very gifted space holders with magnificent hearts that are ready to offer deep support and illumination in collaboration with you, your parts, your own heart and soul. For more information, visit this page: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

How To Be The ‘I’ Of Your Inner Storm

Published on by Gabriel Heartman4 Comments

I am going back into my writing vault to bring back a series I did about art and my healing journey. It was a time of going deep into the bowels of my pain and using a charcoal stick to bring out what was lying within. Though the subject matter looks and feels unsavory, the light of a new awareness and relationship to myself was unmistakable. It has taken the time it has taken, but it all began with a movement, a choice, and a desire to own and love my pain. What I am now discovering as my inner feminine seeking her place within the court, and core, of my heart.

You don’t need to consider yourself an ‘artist’ to simply draw what you feel. It is energy and energy expresses itself in a multitude of ways that doesn’t always look like something in particular. The stick figures I drew were perfect for what I needed to express what I was feeling. If I let a punishing or critical voice expect something more I would not have gotten to the real purpose of the drawing.

This one specifically centered around the inner critical voice I had at the time. It was one that had been with me for as long as could remember and does come out at times to be felt. This was an energy that I deeply desired to tap into as it created extreme energy drops and reactive fusions. As we awaken to the largess of our being, we inevitably wake up our inner demons and dragons. The way we relate to them is what brings about the deepest change. Here is a guided meditation I did to meet and love your inner critic/punisher:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cTe6ayIAWk

When this energy would come up it would kick up all my other parts inside me and whirl through me like a tornado wreaking havoc. I did not see that at the time but needed the eyes and open heart of another (through Jelelle and Raphael) to reflect that back to me so that I let that in because I WAS the tornado and not the ‘I’ of the storm. If you wish to read more you can go here:
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/healing-art-day-1-critical…/

Art is a powerful tool to access the nooks and treasure troves of our heart and soul. It is the feminine act of creation and intuition that births the mirror of what it is that we are meant to look at and receive with our heart-eyes. It is not just drawing but any form of creative expression that is the gift of our humanity to cultivate and explore to the depths of our being. If you are curious to feel more into the integration and exploration of your own creative healing journey, please contact me or visit the link below. It is a journey that promises to take you to where you need to go, not necessarily where parts of you may expect to go.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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