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Current Energies Invite The Collective Into An Emerging 4D Reality

Published on January 24, 2018January 26, 2018 by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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It feels like there is much discomfort emerging now, in different ways. There is a sense of these energies leading up to the Super-Blue-Blood Moon, that they are rumbly, shaking the well-known ground within and around us, moving us to new places of desire, new places of growth, re-awakening us in short yet intense tremors to what we came here to do, be, offer. The configuration of our lives as we have known them is being shifted now, shaken up WITH these energies in collaboration with our souls and hearts. For many, it could be a time of crisis, where realizations of true soul purpose and reason for being here are uncovered and initial steps, which can be quite painful in some ways, are inhabited in order to fulfill this purpose and calling. This phase feels so like the chrysalis, as Jelelle Awen has been offering. The phase just before the emergence of a brand new butterfly. So much congestion in the bodies, spiritual, physical, emotional, even astral, are all intensifying as they clear now, and all are asking us to continue looking and working inward, wrapping ourselves and our parts in love, being in the process of letting in and trusting love again.

It’s a continuous map of birth canals, this Collective experience of 4D reality landing in all of us more and more. We need these birthing pains so that we can feel the Love holding it all. We are finding our way through the inner mazes, opening up to shifts, feeling the press of that which still needs to be felt, healed, shifted inside. We are being invited into patience with this process, as the Divine has infinite patience for it too. Layer by layer, contraction after contraction, we have so much still to feel and let in. So many reflections of ourselves, our parts, who we/parts of us have chosen to be throughout different phases of our lives, and we are awakening evermore to the feeling that there’s so much more we CAN and WILL be.

The brevity and gravity that has been 3D reality… the pain, the anguish, the abuses suffered… these bear down on parts of us until they start to feel, led by a growing YOU, that they are worth so much more. This is a much more challenging process than repeating affirmations, though I do not wish or feel to knock that if this is needed, as there is, of course, huge power in positive thoughts. Yet we all need to continue watching for any overriding of the pain within. The pain will move and heal with love and attention, as it is meant to. There is a lot of trust needed for this process to truly take hold, and that in and of itself is a process that cannot be bypassed, for there are so many reasons that parts of us have, especially our Inner Protectors, to not trust anything or anyone, let alone Love itself…

As our congestions clear in all bodies, we begin to breathe new air. We begin to let in more love, more self-worth, more sense of compassion towards ourselves, our parts, and towards others too. We move through what has been painful to feel, being with the congestion for a while, until it clears with love and care. With purpose and desire. With discernment in this 4D phase where the 3D reality continues to fall away and embracement of new paths, new ways of thinking and being are knocking at our heart doors. The collective awakening is here, rippling through in dynamic waves, and there is much to navigate, yet the Ark built in your heart is the one that will see you through it all. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Your Demons Are Your Angels Unheard – Day 19: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen & Gabriel Heartman (Video)

Published on January 19, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 19 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman joins me to read from and talk about a writing and topic that feels so relevant and timely to the ongoing collective and personal ascension process.

This is an excerpt from his writing: “In this moment I feel you. I feel you because I have been you. There are voices, or intense energies, that just don’t seem to leave you alone. They permeate your BEing, making themselves at home with your mental body and wreaking havoc with your emotional body. You are becoming aware of so much around you. Being as sensitive as you are you pick up on it and it just finds its way INside. Sticking to the stuck places that have yet to be felt and unravel. It can be literally overwhelming. You may be even experiencing intense anxiety over what is going on inside. Wondering how you will ever get any peace of ¨mind¨. It is a daily life of maintaining your sanity in what feels like an insane world.

The thinning of the veil is elucidating your most hidden places. The ones you thought you had under control or weren’t even aware of. The contentedness is slowly losing its hold on your emotional reality. What I want to offer here is that there is a life-line. It is to actually go INsane. Which in this way means to go “into the healthy”. In our fear-sided consciousness, we have turned away from going into the deep emotional as the Holy Grail of our greatest gift to ourselves.

These energies have been called our inner Demons. They have felt like a haunting to some. An intense barrage of thought and emotion that have medicated by all sorts of prescriptions, whether drugs, or sex, or anything else that has aided as a distraction. Some may just be living with it trying to “get by” as best they can. I want to give a voice to these “demons”, for they are actually your unheard and unfelt angels. They have a message to deliver to you and you just haven’t had the means to be able to actually hear without being overwhelmed.”

Here is a link to read Gabriel’s entire writing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/05/01/your-demons-are-angels-unheard/

Gabriel and I then talk about going into deeper feeling states or ‘shadow’ sides of depression, pain, anxiety, and those called our ‘inner demons’. We feel a connection with these energies as parts of ourselves and forming a relationship ‘with’ them is what allows these energies to heal, integrate, and share their gifts. Gabriel shares from his personal, many year process to be with these parts of himself and his process through spaceholding support with me and my mate Raphael.

We talk about how if you don’t have a means to have a relationship with these energies and parts, then you will seek anything to try to cope, divert, and relieve the feelings – such as through alcohol, drugs, sex, habits, suffering loops, even through spiritual practices, etc.

There is more to read here about the Metasoul and parts process: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
About the gatekeeper: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

Here is a playlist of my guided meditations:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Thank you for joining me on this nineteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/watch…

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog athttps://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Meet Your Inner Protector – Day 15: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 15, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 15 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk more about the Inner Protector, the part of people that we connect with first in our SoulFullHeart process. Related to parts work, I mention Hal and Sidra Stone, two psychotherapists who have done extensive subpersonality work including recognizing a “Protector/Controller’ part in people, plus Carl Jung, who recognized subpersonalities as well in his own way and method.

I describe the common characteristics and energies of Protectors, based on people we’ve worked with in session space, especially during the last year. Starting your connection with your Protector gives you access to other parts of yourself, such as the Inner Teenager, Inner Child, Inner Punisher, etc. It is the part that is ‘standing at the door’ to protect these more vulnerable or shadow-based parts.

The Protector energy seems to come in right away, usually at birth, to shield you from the harsh, third dimensional frequencies here. They are a very necessary ‘suit’ to guard you in 3D life, yet get overly protective over time and ‘fused’ to your 3D reality consciousness, forgetting that their more porous and angelic nature. They can return more to this energy as a guide and channel through connection with you.

I recommend doing the guided meditation in Day Six of this series to meet your Protector, then do a letter exchange with them back and forth where you offer that you would like to connect with them and get to know them. Then, write down their response back. You can then do these sentence completions as well with the Protector answering as many times as they want:

Mom always/never; Dad always/never; the good/bad things about mom are; the good/bad things about dad are; current/recent romantic partner never/always; The good things about the 3D world are….;The bad things about the 3D world are….; I feel protective of you whenever….; Love always/never; Feelings are….;The 3D God picture is…;Money is….;The good/bad things about birth family are…

This beginning connection with your Protector can be hugely supported and bridged by engaging in SoulFullHeart sessions with a facilitator, as you can then differentiate further your energy from theirs, plus others parts as well. More about sessions here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Day Six Guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector that I mentioned in this video: https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Go here to read more about the Protector and other parts of you that we connect with in our process: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Thank you for joining me on this fifteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

It’s Ok Not To Be Ok – Day 14: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 14, 2018January 14, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 14 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I offer about a sense of self permission that comes from offering to yourself and parts of you that, “It’s Ok Not To Be Ok”.

I read from a previously shared and popular writing…..”It’s OK not to be OK….putting down the masks of OKness or being positive all the time. Being vulnerable to show what is really going in your heart. Sharing your tears, your fears, your concerns, your pain with those who can feel you. Being real with what parts of you are feeling and reacting to in every moment. This self permission space allows the feelings to BE, to be felt, and eventually to heal.”

Here is the link to read the rest of the It’s Ok Not To Be Ok writing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/10/07/its-ok-not-to-be-ok/

I offer about not going to battle with our feelings or numbing and drugging them, yet rather seeing them as offering a heart and soul story for us and to respond to them with compassionate curiousity. If you had been told “It’s Ok Not To Be OK” as a child and felt in your feelings, you could have learned how to hold space for yourself and your feelings. Instead parts of you learn how to protect, distract, deflect, etc. due to 3D conditioning from your caregivers.

Very often in spiritual offerings it can be about finding the positive; don’t get ‘too low’ in feelings; find only bliss. This creates a gap between your awakening high states and the reality of your emotional bodies’ wounding and reactivity. More bliss and joy can come up when there is no energy going toward transcendence or suppression of feelings. I offer that the Divine wants us to feel ourselves and our parts of us; to be real about what we are feeling; and to feel what is real.

I also share some of my process over the years with parts of myself and my discoveries of my emotive ground of being and where reactions were actually coming from. Go here to read more about parts of you that we connect with in our process: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Thank you for joining us on this fourteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Activations And Integrations – Day 13: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, And Kalayna (Video)

Published on January 14, 2018January 14, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 13 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, we share our previously scheduled monthly group call teachings and sharings. You are seeing the first 35 minutes of the call with sharings from Raphael Awen and I, plus SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman. The rest of the two hour call that the participants experienced offered a guided meditation plus space for individual sharings.

In this video, I talk about the 1:11 codes/information/uploads/downloads/activations that are still coming in to support your ongoing metamorphosis process. I feel that the Divine feminine energies represented by the two Supermoons this month at the beginning and the end. I offer more about the caterpillar/cocoon/butterfly versions of yourself as a model of what is happening during transformation. I talk more about this in this video from Day Seven: https://youtu.be/f-jVLpkU9LI?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Then, Raphael shares about the ongoing disclosure process with star BEings and what it might bring to our personal metamorphosis processes and how much it will change our daily lives. He also talks about his current process of accessing Guides, Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and the integration of these energies that feels very real to me.

Kalayna and Gabriel then both share about the current ascension energies, integration of these energies to activate their highest timeline service of love, and their processes with parts of themselves and with each other in sacred union. They connect how they experience life from the SoulFullHeart perspective.

Thank you for joining us on this thirteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is more information about joining our group calls, the next one is on February 11th: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

3D Protector And 4D Gatekeeper – Day 12: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen & Kalayna Colibri (Video)

Published on January 12, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 12 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Colibri joins me to talk about the SoulFullHeart process and how it has been for her to navigate for the last six years, especially as someone who is 30. Kalayna works with women under 30 in SoulFullHeart sessions and shares about some things she has seen in that work in terms of their pain and challenges. We discuss the feelings of abandonment and not belonging in 3D, such as not wanting a career/family/mortgage that are common to her generation.

Kalayna also shares about her process working with her Protector in different forms, names, and energies over the years that were quite masculine in the beginning of her process. This part has eventually turned into the 4D Gatekeeper named Angelica that is more feminine. Work with the Protector reveals the Inner Child which then uncovers the Star Seed Child, which is the wonder being ‘from the stars’ energy inside of us all. More about these parts here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

The Gatekeeper is a multidimensional aspect of our soul that is guarding and protecting access to our remembrance and access to our other timelines/lifetimes. Access to your Metasoul becomes more fluid as you work with the Gatekeeper. This is the article I mention in the video about Gatekeepers, which are more about protecting your Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and your soul than connected to 3D life concerns: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

To see more videos with Kalayna, along with SoulFullHeart Gabriel, talking about the seven areas of life we address in SoulFullHeart is here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

Thank you for joining us on this twelve day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

The Leading And Trailing Edges Of Our Awakenings

Published on January 7, 2018January 11, 2018 by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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Each and every time you have an awakening experience, though they are coveted and desired and often long-awaited and worked for, these experiences also carry you into a greater unknown. The whole idea of awakening is to shake something up inside, whether it moves your frequency up or drops back in inward into parts of you that need you more than ever. Sometimes awakening experiences bring us both in tandem. Sometimes we call this, ‘leading edge’ and ‘trailing edge’ in SoulFullHeart. ‘Leading edge’ is the experience of true and pure love awakening and deepening inside and feeling your actions, words, expression of you coming from a higher, less reactive and more expansive place, and ‘trailing edge’ is the opposite, or what can feel like the opposite; the parts of you coming up in reaction to the expansion, trying to close the gap between it and them, sometimes flooding you with their lower frequency wounding and reality. The main bridge between the two is consciousness, awareness that this can and will happen and that your job as an arising authentic self is to be an ambassador between the two, not negating or dismissing one or the other, yet bringing them together somehow and letting the newfound expansiveness inside to become the bigger container for the smallness, the pain, the existential terror.

I remember being quite young and awakening to angelic frequencies and love. My birth mother had given me a gift that Christmas of my first deck of Angel cards. They were simple yet sweet, not created by any well-known author or speaker. I was in my early teens at that time, or just about anyways. I remember playing with them, exploring them, reading the little book they came with. I did as the book instructed and asked a question I believe, or simply asked for guidance. I did a little spread of the cards and picked them up to read the other side. The messages that came through hit a chord of resonance inside my heart and soul, both. I felt a rush of energy move through me and suddenly felt Angels, what I called ‘my’ Angels, surrounding and encouraging me. The love I felt was so exquisite, I believe I even had tears… I remember too, that the book suggested dowsing as another method of reading the cards. I grabbed a necklace of mine with a small ring on it – a ring that had a nickname of mine etched into it and was too small for me to wear, so I had put it on the chain instead. I held it out in front of me, above my palm, to ‘tune it in’, asking it which direction it would turn in to mean ‘yes’ and which way would mean ‘no’. To my surprise, oh my God, it MOVED!! Woah!! The rush of adrenaline and excitement that followed I can’t explain in words, but it felt so powerful and I felt so powerful to be holding this tool in my hand!

After this happened, I ran to tell my mother and sister about what I had experienced. Part of me felt a bit shy about sharing, slightly worried about it being invalidated, but too excited to let that in at the time. I shared with them and my heart sank… there was an ounce of validation from my mother, who was exploring some areas of spirituality outside of the Catholic church I grew up in along with me, yet she couldn’t let it in deeply and didn’t ask any questions about it. My sister just sort of looked at me, I recall. I think she said something like, ‘that’s cool’. As my first experience of an awakening, without having much knowledge of what awakenings even were at the time, this sort of set the tone for any of my other awakenings that followed. I do not fault either of them for their reactions… their parts weren’t sure what to do with any of this and they probably both had fear and maybe even comparison come up. What I was doing was not ‘normal’ and I think it actually reflected their own capacities back to them, which of course parts, especially Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers who are busy trying to navigate the dense 3D world, tend to have big reactions to, as it isn’t exactly safe to be outside the norm in most cases.

Nonetheless, this birthed a whole world of spirituality for me. It validated so much of what I had begun to read about in different books by spiritual authors. I feel a young part of me sharing all of this, as she was the one who primarily ‘drove the bus’ on my spiritual adventures for many years of my life. Eventually, this part and I needed to separate from birth family and many other relationships altogether, as the lack of resonance hurt and also wasn’t serving my continued openings and my desire to deeply heal.

What followed was many years of seeking and searching. Being very naturally emotional and reactive and not having a container for it, no matter what spiritual path I/part of me tried on for size. I came close to some version of ‘parts work’ through one particular author and speaker who I even studied with for a while and this path was what then led me to SoulFullHeart, which I now teach and facilitate today. It took me a long time to realize that I needed to bridge to my emotional world, not try to put it away. And in truth, my parts weren’t ever going to let me do that anyway!

Every awakening I’ve had has been a mixed experience of up and down, sometimes at the same time, as I can feel my emotional body and also the wounding in my soul trying to catch up with the higher frequencies pouring in and watering my heart with so much love and dawning awareness. I invite you to feel where and how your own emotional body needs to catch up to your own awakenings and openings… to feel how your relationships currently surrounding you serve or don’t serve you along the way is an essential part of awakening and growing and healing. Every new vista invites us all to feel deeper where and who we are as well as who we want and need to become. And, they also invite us deeper into love, so we can better serve love, especially to others who truly want and need us to and are ready to let in their own capacity for the same!

Love to you in each and every moment of your awakening journey… know that my love and the love of many go into these places WITH you! ❤

Come explore the 7 Key Areas Of Life with Gabriel Heartman and me in our new vlog series called Practical Ascension! The playlist of all of our videos so far can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

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Discernment and Self-Care During Divine Energy Shake-UPs

Published on January 3, 2018 by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Feeling like I am finally myself again after an up and down first 3 days of this year. So much coalescing at one juncture. INtention setting for the new year, outing more of my personal leadership and desire to serve love through this new vlog series with beloved Kalayna, and the now passing supermoon energies that seemed to highlight some old frequencies in me that came in like a weather pattern that swirled around in and out of my field during the days. I was able to show up in heart for this new project and then a funky blah and irritation afterward.

I am being offered a picture of a mixture that has some of the contents settled to the bottom and a big ol’ Divine spoon comes into stir it up. The mass of the energy can be collective in nature. When the UPtick in frequency is moving with celestial support, that which is in resistance to it has a reaction to it. It senses change and can wreak a necessary havoc inside us that we may or may not be conscious of. For those of us that tend to be more sensitive to collective energies, it can enter us sometimes without an apparent evidence of entry point. You are just in a damn funk.

Much of this can be negotiated with what we call our Gatekeeper to feel the root of the temporal downshift, but at times a merging can just be what is real in the moment. If you can feel that is what is happening then you have some holding of the rumblings inside even if you don’t have a clear idea of what it is. More on the Gatekeeper here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

This collective energy can feel like an entity attachment, though it can only attach if there is something to attach to inside of us. Moving through these phases with self-love and curiosity can help to both move the energy and feel its relative source inside. Watching what we take in through media and interactions with others is very critical at these times. Closing portals that are opened in these interactions through creative visualization is an important part of this process.

As we continue on this trajectory, I am feeling the increasing call for self-love and discernment. Connecting with the inner landscape of your emotional and spiritual bodies are essential in maintaining your guidance system and upward journey. This is where the parts work differentiation process is so key to this discernment. Taking the time needed to be with whatever is arising in you and taking in supportive and higher frequency vibrations. Taking in Jelelle Awen’s 33 Day Metamorphosis series is a great place to start. You can find it here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Much is and will be stirring up in the months to follow and the winds of deep personal movement and change are upon us. The turbulence underground is making its way to the surface of the collective consciousness and we are being called to be in our highest heart in service of love, the most important being from you to you. This is where the journey begins and beacons. Love yourself always and in all ways.

In honor of this arising invitation, all five of us in SoulFullHeart are inhabiting more of our purpose and intention to serve through writing, video blogging, healing, exploring, and creating. Kalayna and I are continuing our Practical Ascension vlog series with another episode about the Social Area of life. We so desire to hear you personal stories and questions along the way so please feel free to engage through comments, messaging or email.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

2018 Energies Invite Discernment, Reflections On Your Healing Path

Published on January 1, 2018January 1, 2018 by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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There are many understandable qualms and queries that a wide array of souls have about letting in ‘new’ teachings and perspectives. There’s a way that in a sense, many of us have said ‘yes’ to being a part of abusive groups and leaders – political, spiritual, etc. Perhaps that’s why resonance can be a scary thing for parts and Metasoul Aspects of us, who have been ‘burned’ before, who have walked out (and may still be walking out) abusive relationships on many levels with those who they were once convinced truly loved and accepted them ‘unconditionally’ – which is perhaps one of the biggest hooks of them all and speaks to so much of our collective and personal wounding…

Today, after doing some research into different spiritual leaders and groups, I feel a collective pain and it feels like it pierces and echoes quite strongly. It’s a sense of some heavy influence and infiltration (which was signed-up for and allowed in for good and necessary reasons) from what can be called ‘Archonic’ energies and whispers, which really in a way just feels like the whispers of heavily unowned or outright disowned shadow. To find ourselves in abusive relationships on any blatant or subtle levels reflects an abuse which perpetuates inside of us and the suppression of our own shadows; what has been held in the dark and not only what could be considered ‘dark’ or low vibration. Taking this in as a piece for collective healing is important, yet the more important and power-filled choice is to take it back inward, to find our personal contribution to it, starting from us to us.

The degree to which there is denial that ALL, even the most precious, beloved and highly regarded gurus of our time and beyond also have ‘shadow’ to work and aren’t perfect or above being the human they signed up to be in their life and timeline, is the degree to which it is often suppressed and disregarded within too. We want to blame the others who fall from grace, yet so often there are parts of us, ESPECIALLY Metasoul Aspects of us, that have experienced this themselves in their own timelines and are afraid to face the shadow within that matched and made OK the unowned shadow in the other in THIS timeline.

That might be a lot to digest, yet it feels of great importance if we are truly to ‘clean house’ in this new ‘year’ called ‘2018’, which, it feels like, IS the invitation when it comes to Disclosure’s current unfolding that cannot be avoided personally as it happens globally.

To make the choice to lean into a new offering, such as what we talk about and share in SoulFullHeart, likely brings up quite a bit for some of you who feel resonance and yet feel a need to balk and take it this work in in small doses. This is understandable and actually feels necessary too. There is a need now to truly discern where a teacher, author, guru, speaker, etc is coming from and to vibe-in with their particular views of love and spirituality, to see if they truly work for you at this time. There is an enormous capacity in all of us to let in and lean in and there is a vast amount of distrust that comes with that too, embodied in a part of you that we call the Inner Protector and also the Gatekeeper. Bless this part of each of us for the filtering, the necessary judgments and push-aways, the incredible job they have done and had to do. To be truly led by your deepest heart into healing paths that will not offer abuse but instead continually give you back to you as you find the power of your naked heart and soul again without need of a Protector, is perhaps one of the most profound gifts coming to you this year and beyond and it is definitely my own wish for ALL of us as we continue arising and rearising into our Sacred Humanity, that is powerful, soulful, and above all heartful. ❤

If you wish to feel more into SoulFullHeart, perhaps with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper held consciously in your heart while doing so, you can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess to learn and feel more about what we offer and how we offer it, and ready much about who we are as well in other parts of our website and on our blog. ❤

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Continued Energies Invite Us To Deeper Healing Of Galactic Wounds

Published on December 19, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

1:11 begins this post. Nice timing. It is a gateway into a new emerging relationship inside myself (and yourself) that has been in pregnant pause. I have been connecting with my Gatekeeper on a more consistent basis to bring him more into the room of my daily consciousness. He has been very effusive most of my process yet has had played games of peek-a-boo off and on. He is moving from a guardian of my soul story and gifts to a beloved partner and guide on this journey of inner healing and discovery.
(For more information on how we hold what a Gatekeeper is you can read this article: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeeper)

I found him stuck in the shadowland territory of my soul and through SoulFullHeart energy work and guided meditation brought him into closer proximity to the light of my heart where he could ‘dethaw’ from the experience. As we have connected, he has guided me to a couple of metasoul brothers in other timelines that are connected to Kalayna’s metasoul (my sacred union beloved). He was just with me in those moments being a witness to my connection with them to help heal old frequencies and dynamics in our bond together.

But as those faded and are waiting for further deepening and clarity there has been a struggle within him to feel like he actually has purpose and clarities. Everything seemed like a blurry painting sometimes. Static in the air that was creating doubt. Of course underneath doubt lies a deep fear of actually having what it is you deeply want for fear of it going away.

In the shadowlands, he was held by a Reptilian energy. It had created an open portal into my world through him. Noel, my Gatekeeper was connected to this Reptilian aspect that actually lies within us all. There was a felt sense that Noel needed to meet this Reptilian self, named Salthazar, to help heal the bind that still seemed to connect them and release them both from the downward spiral of the shadowland.

It was an amazing experience to feel this once timid and elusive guide of mine stand in the bowels of this intense energy and hold a loving space of compassion and service of love. He could feel this Reptilian’s truest heart and the source of its wounding. There was a forgiveness and an invitation to feel a new timeline for this part of me. It was quite and extraordinary process of transformation as he went from snarky pot shots to authentic tears even while in reservation that a new life awaits him.

He offered him a new family within my inner court of wayward travelers, kings, and guides. It was like being in the most captivating movie I could ever imagine. Within this BEing is a Lizard King. He held so much of my punishment, judgement, shame, fear, and control. Holding the light amidst the most unsavory within us all is what moves the darkness and births out a new gift that was never thought possible from the fear place.

There is still work to be done. Pain to be felt and trust to be garnered. But it is the first step into a series of other steps that brings new possibilities and new energy to an unending journey of what it means to be alive in this Now….moons, holidays, solstices and all.

The healing that is offered in SoulFullHeart is a doorway into an infinite world of discovery that begins with our 3D anchors and moves us into these epic and storied landscapes of our 4D consciousness that hold the seed of our Star Being connection. Each movement and step is a deeply felt and celebrated event that brings new awareness of what our sacred humanity ready to illuminate.

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