Tag: self love

The Expanding Gap During Awakening

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By Raphael Awen

As our consciousness expands and the veil lifts more and more for each of us, it’s important to feel the part of you who very understandably may be feeling overwhelmed by the expanding gap of where you perceive yourself to be in your everyday life and where you desire to be.

This gap between the two is said to be where all growth and even meaning comes from. It’s where we get our motivation from to reach for more. At root, it is love inviting us into more. Life is essentially about this gap.

But this gap can also be used by a part of us to self inflict judgments. Part(s) of us, it seems feel it necessary to slow this process of awakening by using self punishment for fear we won’t be able to bear it.

I felt several mental trajectories this week about how I was or wasn’t spending my time or money, what I was or wasn’t eating, about how present I was or wasn’t to the moment, etc. As I found space to feel the undertone of self judgment, I could so lovingly feel the part of me reaching for some handrails in the midst of this accelerated growth phase. I had sweet tears as I connected with this part of me and it’s reaction/digestion of so many recent changes going on in my life.

You and I are truly such amazing beings, beyond what we’ve ever dreamed, where even our wildest dreams and even convictions about more only begin to scratch the surface. If that’s true, then it really makes sense that there’s some ongoing inner negotiation and ambassadorship necessary to hold all this from blowing apart.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Energy Update: SOULar Codes Invite You To Process Lower 4D Timelines To Anchor Into 5D Love

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by Kalayna Solais

This is a photo I took of the sun yesterday! Wow!! Lots of codes downloading that want us all to really feel ourselves, really feel the parts/Metasoul aspects that struggle and react to the process of re-anchoring into higher timelines and more self-loving and compassionate frequencies.

It was nice on a high energy day yesterday to “log-off” and unplug for a while! When I came back online to check up on everything yesterday evening, it felt like so much intensity was moving through, almost more than usual in some ways. I highly recommend that if you are feeling especially reactive that you unplug for a while. Even in service of love there is a need to sometimes take a step back and not be on the “frontlines” (not always an easy one to learn or follow through with, I know).

This could be the peak (or one of the peaks) we are feeling in the 3D and lower 4D rumble… Where there is much to react to at every turn yet always an invitation to respond with LOVE and genuine compassion instead. Especially when it feels almost impossible to do so. If this is difficult at this time, the reactions need to be pulled back inward and parts of you felt in their pain and the chaos of their personal worlds.

It feels especially important right now to feel battle timelines in your Metasoul. To meet the Warriors and soldiers where they ARE and to be with what is moving through them instead of placing it all outside of you in YOUR life as you know it right now. This is key to anchoring more into 5D frequencies of peace and a flow of love and compassion that is genuine and integrative.

Personally, I’m feeling much more freed up from my own lower 4D process these past weeks. The energies of the Metasoul timelines I accessed and felt through are shifting more into hope, freedom, love, understanding, compassion… especially for themselves and what they’ve “done”, or in some cases, “not done”.

There are numerous timelines we all need to feel regarding these energies that keep us anchored ultimately into lower frequencies that can make us quite sick in body, heart, mind, and especially soul. They anchor us into hopelessness, fear, feeling like there is always something to push against, feeling as everything and everyone is ultimately against us, and in many cases this may have been true for a phase of your life, yet if it is STILL true, then why are you staying in these circumstances?

The answer to that question may seem complicated to parts of you, yet fear is the one that seems to anchor us all the most into feeling as if these frequencies are realer than the love that wants to come in and light us up, help us move through and heal each of these timelines, and help those Metasoul aspects of us from those timelines move into a new frequency where they can find the healing they need and yes, DESERVE.

This and other meditations from Jelelle may be helpful for you to begin your deep-dive into YOU, to discover what Metasoul aspect(s) could be pulsing through your life and your BEing at this time:

Much love as you navigate your own version of letting in and integrating these codes coming through. ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Bridge To Your Higher Timeline Guided Meditation 5/11 Live Stream with Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

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by Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

Discovering your higher timeline possibilities is a sacred and deep process that also asks you to look at the steps in front of you that you need to take in order to inhabit it or draw it in more.

During this live stream which aired on May 11th 2019, Gabriel & Kalayna Solais offer teachings and a guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector and begin processing with them as you visit your often exciting yet also quite sobering Higher Timeline possibilities and the steps toward them.

The meditation helps you to connect with the different frequencies and pictures of your Higher Timeline. The more often you do this meditation or one like it, you may notice that the picture you see/experience shifts. This is because of your personal healing path/process and where it’s taking you. You may also find that one day your Higher Timeline feels farther away and on another day it feels as if you could reach out and touch it. All nuances in this meditation are there to help you tune into YOU, parts of you that need you and could be afraid of the Higher Timeline or the steps to getting there, and to activate your heart, desires, and soul gifts.

Please feel free to leave a comment if you would like to share what you saw in the meditation!

Much love! ❤

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. 

Exploring And Honoring The Inner Feminine As An Integral Part Of The Ascending Masculine Journey

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

For some time now I have been feeling and acknowledging my inner feminine as a part of me. A very important and beloved part of me. There is a movement collectively for men to become more aware of their ‘feminine side’. This can be related to in a very general way that can just refer to our sense of sensitivity, caring, compassion, and intuition.

However, to take it a step further and give ‘her’ a name and thus a conscious identity within our physical masculine expression, can bring some interesting reactions inside. To claim our inner feminine is to relate to her in a very conscious way. It is to feel her feelings, her needs, her wounding, her story.

What has life been like for her in this male body in the context of a more patriarchal society?

If I explore this will I begin to question my own sexuality?

What will other people say if I claim her as an integral part of my being?

So to another part of me it feels like ‘coming out of the closet’. To my inner feminine part, who goes by Genevieve, this can be a bit unnerving as well considering the experiential history of feeling like she has not been welcome among other men in my life. Any hint of sensitivity that could be turned against her and me, Gabriel, was immediately thwarted by my protector.

There was a moment a while back when I could feel how growing up Genevieve would try to be a man the best she could to fit in. Doing and saying things that just weren’t her. When I actually felt this in my heart, we both had tears around it. I felt tears not just for myself but for all the other men who have these feminine parts doing the same exact thing. Men that I knew, that I friendships with.

In feeling her, I got to see and feel myself in a whole new way that actually has allowed my true masculine to emerge to the surface. Not the masculine prescribed by conditioning and trauma, but a more balanced and healthy masculine that can love and respond to his counterpart feminine.

I feel I am part of a band of brothers who live with this everyday but may be unaware or resistant to it for very good reasons. It goes beyond sexual identity and into what lives and breathes in our hearts and souls. I believe She is the next frontier of our collective male healing journey. She connects us to our Higher Heart, our sensuality, our creativity, our compassion, our intuition. She is a bridge to what lies in the shadow of the wounded masculine and his emergence into healthy strength and power.

There is more to this connection and what it means for us as spiritual male human beings. It is a beginning point for further feeling, exploration, and digestion. This comes on the heals of some pretty heavy Orion timeline bleed-throughs that need the feminine to hold and heal. I will be writing more about this as it seems fitting and necessary.

Thank you for taking in this very vulnerable and important part of my process and hope that it lands in the hearts of those it is meant to.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Love Transmission From Divine Mother On ‘The Day Of The Mother’

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by Kalayna Solais

From the beloved Divine Mother on this ‘Mother’s Day’… or what I feel to call, ‘the Day of the Mother’. ❤️

She offers, in all of Her heart for us, the following… as a way to feel Her ongoing INvitation to us and all parts of us…

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“I am proud of your integrity.
Your desire for more of it.
Your journey to deepening and refining it.
Your search for what’s true… about you, about others, about the world around you.

I am proud to watch your journey.
Sometimes as a silent witness, sometimes with cascading sounds, deep cries, or buoyant laughter.
I am proud when you feel proud and when you feel the ways you don’t feel proud too.
I am proud of your courage to be here now, even when your courage feels null to parts of you and they aren’t sure how to carry on.
I am proud when you do carry on and I’m proud when you don’t.

I hold a flag and a candle for you in all weather, in all circumstances, believing in the you I see and feel and know beyond a shadow of doubt.
The you that may take you decades, many timelines to unravel and uncover, many dedicated hours of inner work and self-discovery.
The capricious and ever-shifting emotional landscape of your being that is on its own sacred journey through the woods of reactions, pain, and heartbreak… I am proud, unendingly, of that too.

The energy and frequency of my love is not one always easily let in, yet it flows to you and all parts of you,
to all warring and battling energies inside of you and your soul,
to the collective you are part of that is coming apart so it can come back together in a way more loving and empowered.
I bring you all of the seeds and blooms of new life within and outside of you
and it is, always, your choice if you plant them, water them, and love them.

I am, at all times, witness, Mother, Sister, and divine beacon of what is possible for you to BEcome.
I am you as you are me, in expression of your personal truths and evolving being-ness.
And I am completely, utterly, in love flow
with you and as you.

Much love to YOU
Today… and always.”

~ Divine Mother

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A Man’s Journey To Self Through Feeling His Relationship To His Mother

Published on by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

A man’s relationship to and with his mother has such a big influence in his relationship to women, the feminine (internally and externally), and his ability to let in the kind of love he yearns for. It also has an impact on his individuation as a man in the process of maturation and ascension.

As a man, this relationship has deep roots not just in this life but in our soul. So much of our wounding can be projected onto our mothers, as well as onto other women because of our relationship to our mothers. Unearthing these roots and entanglements takes a man into a sacred journey of finding his truth and his own inner feminine energy.

It makes it very difficult to feel that when in a wounded relationship to mom. This can come in the form of of the Inner Protector, Inner Teenager, the Inner Child, as well as our Inner Mother/Father. There is a natural and necessary phase when a man needs to unachor from his mother to find the depths of its wound and authentic transactability.

At some point, the Divine Mother replaces the deeper need a man has in his soul and a new, conscious relationship can arise between mother and son if each are doing their work. This more vulnerable and authentic relationship can inspire and inform a sacred romance with a woman that is not based in the recapitulation of this wounded mother-son wounding.

On this Day of Mother, I feel a desire to hold all men accountable to their authentic and conscious relationship to their mothers, the feminine, and the Divine Mother of all. Only then can real and true growth happen in the heart, the genitals, and the soul.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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May 9 SOULar Flare Providing 5D Sacred Human Violetprint Codes: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (May 6, 2019)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

The incoming SOULar flares have been stirring up much energy and activating our Sacred Human violetprints. This week’s featured article by Jelelle Awen offers that along with these activations we are experiencing further unplugging from the 3D/Lower 4D Matrix:

“This sunspot and intensity of flare activity IS unusual and rare right now. They are also picking up NEW and unidentified sounds from the sun when they listen to the sound waves produced during these flares. This is a transmission of Ascension codes coming through to activate our light bodies, our galactic consciousness, and to help us unanchor of 3D/Lower 4D control matrix systems.”

Tomorrow May 11th at 10am PDT, Jelelle will be hosting an online transmission for unplugging from the 3D/Lower 4D Matrix and there’s still time to register! The fee is a minimum donation of $11 USD. Jelelle will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your 3D self consciousness to tune into how the unplugging process is progressing. And she provides guidance and support to go to the next level in that process.

Jelelle will be hosting another online group transmission later in the month as well. The focus of this group on May 22, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to assist you in the ongoing activation of galactic activation codes. Jelelle will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper, energy field, and download whatever codes are ‘waiting’ for you there. She provides guidance and support to go to the next level in that process.

You can visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more info and how to donate to join in.

On Sunday May 19th at 10am PDT, Gabriel and Kalayna Solais will lead you in a powerful, high-vibrational guided meditation to connect to your Inner Masculine and Inner Feminine aspects of you as well as meet your Inner Protector in person in Victoria, BC. Your Inner Masculine and Feminine aspects may have many different ways that they express through you in your life, relationships, and even your spirituality. More info on soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Two new video recordings are here for you this week! The first is a recording of a live stream from Raphael and Jelelle Awen on May 5th, where they share some thoughts and teachings about the 5/5 gateway and what it offers of fifth dimensional consciousness reality. They talk about the process of unanchoring from 3D and lower 4D consciousness, especially in relationships, through connecting with parts of your 3D self and aspects from other timelines/lifetimes.

The second is a promo from Jelelle, talking briefly about the two upcoming group transmission online events.

There are several new articles and audio blogs for you this week from Raphael and Jelelle Awen, Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, and Raianna Shai. They include energy updates, digestions of the recent purging of Lower 4D energies, and digestions of personal process and ways to relate to yourself and your parts through your own deep healing process.

Jelelle is now offering Ascension Energy Healing Sessions. They are one-on-one over Zoom offers an self empowering experience of your energy system upgrading and activating into the next level of your Ascension. Coming from the truly unique SoulFullHeart Way Of Life perspective, Jelelle Awen provides a bridge to your Gatekeeper, an aspect of your Metasoul that guards over your energy system, overall soul awakening this life and your veil of amnesia….along with access to other lifetimes/timelines.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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The Great 4D Reconciliation: The Orion Healing

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

There is a library of stories and information held in our DNA. There are more mental sections and more emotional ones. The power of this information is inextricably connected to the emotional state that it is currently in. So while one may understand so much physically or metaphysically, its use is affected by the emotional health of one that wields it.

I have been connecting with an Orion aspect of mine the past few days, and this very idea is what is coming to the surface of his awareness and digestion of such a violent and volatile existence. This connection has been more about his story. Wanting to get to the heart of the information. His said his species has been born and raised in Disregard. He noted that it wasn’t specific, just a general feeling of this nature. He could attach an object to it but the theme remained the same.

There is a high level of technological understanding, yet it sits in the heart of this disregard. The combination has resulted in aeons of violence unlike anything we have seen here on Earth. As we are a soup of this galactic DNA, we humans have this inside of us as well. It can conflict with our other stories from other star family lineages. This is what can produce some of what feels like we are insane at times in my opinion.

We may all have varying degrees of these aspects. Just looking at the political environment of our civilization you can see how this story line is trying to reconcile itself on our planet. It is a lower 4th dimensional loop that this energy finds itself in, like a dog chasing it tail. The polarities are stark and dark at times. The relationship to self, between male and female, and others of different racial, religious, and sexual orientations seem to be a part of this drama. It is where we get the fear that we may destroy ourselves and the planet.

Tapping into this consciousness as an aspect of yourself, helps to bring the energy into a different location outside the body and into the higher heart. Whatever the reactions are that feel intense, rageful, fearful, and/or uncaring can be heard within its story. A relationship to it can occur and the ambassordship of healing can begin. Orion is just one of those that we can connect to to help begin this Great Reconciliation within ourselves and our greater human family.

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To help create a bridge to this lower 4D energy and help it unanchor from its intensity and heaviness, join Jelelle and Raphael Awen for a healing transmission over Zoom this Saturday. More info here-> https://www.facebook.com/events/2283954645187399/

Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

 

Conditioned By Our Conditions

Published on by Raphael Awen2 Comments

By Raphael Awen

It’s my conviction, at least down to the place of it being my working hypotheses, that any and all conditions in our lives, be they outward circumstances, inner emotional realities, relationship configurations, etc. – both the things we treasure and the things that we detest, that all of these conditions are there in our lives for a couple of very significant reasons.

One reason is that as a soul BEing, we chose these challenges. It’s like anyone can be a champion on an equal playing field, so we chose to tie one hand behind our back, just to redefine what true championship could look and feel like. We wanted not just to be challenged, but to be profoundly challenged.

Another reason these conditions are there is because a part of us actually wants them there and keeps them there. A limiting condition is a familiar condition. When we entered this dimension, from where we came from, nothing felt familiar, or known, so parts of us are left in trauma grasping for anything to call or make familiar or to know as ‘family’. We are meant to be comforted. Just because a part of you aches for something to be gone, doesn’t mean other parts of you want it gone.

When we take ownership of this immense power of our souls choices and take responsibility for the very understandable reactions going on for parts of ourselves, we then can recreate our lives in alignment with true self love. We move our being from being grounded in victimhood to the true power expression of our heart and soul. We lead a different frequency expression that seeds profoundly in the collective. We change the world as we change our world.

Our lives look and feel the way they do not by chance, or by the grace of any god, but by the power and grace of our own sacred BEing that we are either awake or asleep to.

What does awakening look and feel like for you and the life you lead now?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Moving Beyond The Stickiness Of Lower 4D Consciousness

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by Kalayna Solais

4D consciousness, especially Lower 4D, is a place where parts of you or aspects of your soul dwell and fixate on something they feel isn’t working for them, usually outside of you. When they’re in this dimensional space, which is more of a frequency and consciousness moving through you instead of a literal ‘place’,  they tend to feel that they want something about themselves or life around them to change PRONTO and they don’t necessarily want to wait very long for that change to happen. There can be an urgency about it, like something needs to shift right NOW, coupled with a fear that things will NEVER change, that life as you now know it and how it’s configured (and especially the way these parts/aspects seem to be feeling about it) will never shift into what you/they really want.

In 4D consciousness, especially lower 4D, it’s easy to forget that what everything, every piece of your walking-around consciousness within you really wants is love… and that there is a piece of not feeling truly worthy of it until this unworthiness can be deeply felt and held and the process of learning to trust love again is walked out, step by step.

It can feel sometimes like you’re drowning in plasma when these energies come up, as 4D consciousness is like a thick fog at times, shrouding what’s good and trustworthy and often projecting a ton of your own shadow onto something or someone outside of you. The wrestling with life, with love, with energies, is always playing out somewhere inside.

It seems like this experience of 4D is peaking in a way right now. It’s wanting us to move beyond it, even though it can feel as sticky as flypaper with so much darkness still purging and shadows still emerging, which is actually very compelling. It has such a strong gravitational pull that is hard to extract from or bring love to at times. It has a feeling of an endless abyss or void where pain can just writhe and squirm forever. Yet, it wants us to move beyond it and take it with us somehow so we can heal it starting from our own inner draw to be in it.

Connecting with different aspects of you from other timelines/lifetimes and especially those in galactic warfare, like any Orion aspect stuck in a battle of sorts that you may have come online right now (as I’m starting to really feel inside myself) can help you understand your own pull towards this darkness and why it’s there. Any of the darker timelines your soul has experienced, including in the dark side of Hollywood (one I’m learning that my soul knows well) or the underbelly of politics in any era or phase of ‘time’, are coming to light now as they need to start being held with love and compassion. We cannot damn them, for we are damning ourselves if we do. We can only open our hearts to feel them, to let in the remorseful tears, and to let Divine love help us hold everything that is just aching to be held.

Now is the perfect time to start really feeling all of this, as the support seems to be there from the incoming energies and, like always, from the Divine. We are ALL being challenged to walk out what we teach or offer to others, to fill in any gaps of integrity with our real-life experience in every arena of healing and moving back into love in ALL ways and on ALL levels of our being. This is next-level love ambassadorship and Service of Love and we’re all invited to take our next steps inward that bring us into alignment with an ever-purifying self-love overflow that can’t help but serve and support others to cultivate the same within them.

On Saturday May 11th, Jelelle is hosting (with support from Raphael) a virtual Group Transmission over Zoom which you can attend live or receive the recording for. The theme is Unplugging From the 3D/4D Matrix which would be a huge support if you are really feeling these energies right now!

Also, we offer ongoing 1:1 sessions to support you personally, which you can find more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.