Category: MetaSoul / Other Lifetimes

A Day In My Life During High Energies

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments
By Jelelle Awen
We are acclimating to these higher energies coming in….all days it seems, even as we can feel an increase in them during specific portal openings, gateways, and repeating number dates. This calibrating process feels like it is going on at all levels for all of us (whatever degree our consciousness can let it in)….cellular (definitely ‘every living cell’ is being UPgraded), emotional, mental, chakral/energetic, social. This is our NEW normal. How to BE with this activating and integrating of these energies is something that we are all learning as we BEcome sacred humanity together.
Yesterday, as the HIGH energies continued to flood in (I often ‘see’ them as waves, swooshing into Gaia’s atmosphere and our inner shores too), I felt myself naturally responding and adjusting to them. I wanted to share here a sort-of energy diary/journal of my day spent as a highly intuitive and sensitive person (as YOU are too, I imagine if you are reading this) during these higher peak energy days. This also shows how the SoulFullHeart way of life and parts process just weaves organically into my days as I respond to my soul purpose around offering it here.

February 27 – I begin my daily check-in with myself in the morning after my usual breakfast of smoothie and hot cacao tea. I start to get a sense of how my body is feeling, how my heart is feeling, how whatever parts or Metasoul aspects I am connecting with in the moment are feeling. I can feel intense dreams still lingering with me, the details starting to fade, the left over sensations of my astral self traveling to other dimensions and timelines during sleep. I begin to get a sense of the cosmic energies pressing ‘down’ on me from above and receive a visual of them flowing down into Gaia’s orbit too. My inner energy gauge offers that they are at a “8” on a scale of 10.
With the energies so high today, it is a time to be gentle with myself and to breathe. The inner time is particular important on these days as I have experienced if I try to push through them and just do things without consciously bringing the energies into my body and heart, it is more difficult and even painful. Meditation space for me changes every day, depending on what my personal needs are and where the Divine, my Higher Self, and Guides are leading me. Sometimes my meditations are quiet and still with little thought; sometimes they are epic feeling, multidimensional journeys to engage in galactic love ambassador work on a collective level; sometimes they are very personal with tears and pain moving through while connecting with my Metasoul and parts.
Today is a recalibration day. This means that I place my beloved crystals and stones over sacred geometric cutouts laid over my chakras. I move my selenite wand over all of my chakras, checking in as I do, cutting cords if necessary, moving energies from others that are stuck in my field back out again. I do this with love in my heart and gently, not with a desire to ‘cast out’ negative entities or coming from a place of fear. If I feel fear then, again, I check in with my parts to see what is going on. I listen to activating music that pulses through me, that seems to shift every molecule and every cell in just taking it in. Today, I am guided to this new one from Lokos TV: https://youtu.be/-8odB7lxjUc
My Arcturian Metasoul sister named Binkh is here, smiling at me sweetly. She tells me that I am backed up in terms of letting in the new energies from not going into self care spaces enough recently. I understand immediately what she means and soft tears start to flow as I reconnect with my inner spaces and her love. My focus has been more outward during the last week as we have all been working hard in SoulFullHeart to launch our new programs and I am designing a new year-long process for us as well. It is love work, soul joy work that just flows out….BUT on higher energy days it is even more necessary for me to take spaces for self love too.
I let the binaural tones flutter through me, feeling Kundalini start to activate, swirl, and twine up and down my spine in response. I ask the current ascension energies to infuse me, activate me, and invite them into my every living cell. Doing this consciously allows parts of you that might be resistant to the process to hear and feel your declaration that you actually WANT these upgrades. If I feel resistance to the latest activations, I then check in with my parts or Metasoul Aspects to connect with them and see what is going on. Today, there is no resistance, especially as I have recently integrated a big shadow piece from my Metasoul that was playing out karma and self sacrifice patterns in my service of love with others. My most recent Metasoul sister (an Aryan Draco named Metsbet) is ‘tucked in’ and happy, safe, and loved in the moment when I check in with her. I feel a new flush of even deeper self worth that is grounding into my Metasoul and multiple timeline expressions too, along with my emotional body. I feel Divine Sophia smiling at me, sending love.
I take in an hour or so of ‘energy therapy’ with Binkh hovering over me, working on me in ways that I can’t track with my mind, yet always make me feel better. My trust in her has deepened greatly over the last couple of years as I healed from trauma held by my Star Seed (4D Inner Child) from being ‘abducted’ for many years in my childhood. When this therapy is done, I then ground it into my body by doing yoga for awhile. We all in the SoulFullHeart Community love to engage in yoga with Adriene programs as she is funny, approachable, and brings a seemingly fresh spin to it. Her videos are available online here: https://www.youtube.com/user/yogawithadriene Finding a way to ground the current ascension energies into your body through some form of physical activity and exercise really seems to help lessen the intensity of ascension body systems. Stretching especially offers a deeper integration into every cell.
I then help Gabriel, Raphael, and Kalayna to film an introduction video to our new programs, enjoying to be in the alchemy process with them. Because I have given myself some ‘me spa time’ with meditation and yoga, I’m able to be more expansive and present with them as we collaborate together. We all live in the same building, so we see each other quite often and lately have been meeting every day as we work together on the new programs. Living in a close community like this, I find that I need my inner space even more and also in order to serve others in session space and to share my writings and respond to them.
Throughout the day, I keep feeling into if writing will come today to share on my blog and on facebook, and to make into a video to share. My writing (soul scribing really, as someone has sweetly called it) is not planned or strategized, as the inspiration for it usually comes in the moment. I have the idea for this energy journal writing while I am doing yoga, yet it feels like it is not ‘ripe’ to share today. My writing on the recent energy surges has gotten a lively response with many shares and comments, for which I read every comment, took them into my heart, and responded to almost every one of them. I ‘hold’ response to my writings this way and my videos too. This is the service of love aspect of it that goes beyond recognition as a ‘good’ writer or even for the ‘goal’ of sharing my ideas or perspectives in an educational way. It is about the energy exchange, the love collaboration that happens as two souls see each other through a shared, resonant experience. THIS is why I write, to engage in this energy, to serve love through this exchange….and also to share the SoulFullHeart way of life perspective and energies too to those who may be resonant with them.
I don’t have a space holding session today, so my focus turns toward SoulFullHeart projects. An outline for a new, year-long SoulFullHeart Process births out of me. This process brings together all the things that I have heard and felt as needs, desires, and interests from those that we’ve served in sessions over the last year, plus over the last 15 years of working with parts and soul awakening. This birthing of the new process is a welcome surprise as I have felt it gestating in me for awhile. Creativity such as this is possible on these high energy days especially, once the codes have been let in and you are in the flow with it rather than parts of you resisting it.  You can read more about our new programs here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
I finish my day by enjoying a dinner at a veggie buffet restaurant with my beloved mate Raphael and my daughter Raianna. We laugh, we share stories, we engage in lighter content even as the deeper soul context holds it all. I look at them across the table from me and feel such gratitude for their presence, their sharing of this reality with me….so grateful for their love. THIS, then, is one of the biggest ways that I can integrate the energies of New Earth coming in…through being in and with this commUNITY of beloveds and our group Merkabah together that flows abundantly with love and gratitude.
Thank you for taking in this sharing of my day into your heart! Maybe it inspired you to feel and approach your integration of these ascension energies in new ways. Much love to you as we undergo this exciting and transformational time of transition into the NEW…..together.
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Keep Feeling, Keep Wondering

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We are always at the edge of our own largess no matter where we are on our journey as long as we keep feeling and keep wondering.

Feeling is the root of our true knowledge. It guides you and delivers you into the world of experience…the precipes of what parts of you have been afraid to walk up to and stare into. The deep chasms and dark caves, as well as the highest vistas of what you are actually capable of inhabiting because of all that is at stake in doing so.

These experiences are both ‘this’ life and from your metasoul lives. This life wounding is informed by the inner parts of your heartmind. The places you got hurt in this dimension. Your metasoul is a vast planet of experience that acts as your own Akashic record embedded in your DNA.  The other Now lives that hold so much of your spiritual and emotional wounding from the fall of Atlantis to the far off reaches of the galaxy. The only qualification you need for access is curiosity and the willingness to heal it…as well as the negotiation of what we call your Gatekeeper, the guide turned guard of your expansive inner universe. Kind of like a Soul Librarian.

This curiosity leads to feeling, which leads to healing, which leads to wonder. The reverence of what IS, what has been, and what is possible keeps this wonder alive as well as the desire to know and feel More. The continued reaching at the edges of your own inner universe as it collides and dances with others in intimacy to feel and see more of what you are all about…what you are capable of and meant to BE.

The only thing between you and Creation is all the places you hid your selves. Your pain, your fear, your power, and your love. This is the journey and path of recollection and remembrance. Putting it all back together again taking one curious, courageous, heartfelt step at a time.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: 2:22 Offers NEW Beginnings, Inner Feminine & Masculine Balance

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By Jelelle Awen

Today is February 22 or 2:22. These kind of dates of repeating number sequences have significance because of the meaning that we place on them. We create the meaning and manifestation, even as, from a higher dimensional perspective, linear time is an illusion. We turn our attention toward them and, so, the Divine responds to us with synchronized ascension energies becoming available on these dates. Portals and gateway openings offering specific codes/messages/invitations also ‘come through’ on these dates with more pronounced frequency….as if they have been turned up in broadcast depending on what we most need at that time.

Repeating number sequences that just ‘show up’ in our lives invite us to pause and to consider. To feel a Divine connection for a moment and a sweet ‘hello’ from higher dimensional aspects. I feel that they can be applied very personally by feeling into them yourself when you receive them. Asking, “What does this mean to me and my ongoing awakening and ascension journey?” You might be surprised by the answers that come! This feels most valuable to me rather than seeking for a general interpretation, although they an be useful as well if you feel resonance with them.

And, that’s what I am offering here, of course. My sense of what is being offered on this date of 2:22 through the guides and Metasoul aspects that I have access and connection with. This is not the ‘absolute truth’ of what is available, yet just what my guidance and wisdoms are presenting in this moment that of course is filtered through my subjective experiences. Take it in as you will and see what your heart feels about it.

2:22 provides this sense of balance, of finding and achieving and experiencing balance from within primarily. It seems a pressing and important thing during this phase that we find balance INside between our feminine aspects and our masculine aspects. To heal and transmute the wounded, fear-based vibrations of the masculine inside of us to allow the healing and emerging feminine to arise. When speaking of feminine and masculine, many people speak about it in generalized terms and only connected to the person’s actual physical gender. I actually feel it is far more complex than that and relates more to the masculine and feminine energies that express as parts of you or subpersonalities within your emotional body, psyche, and soul than it does what gender you have chosen.

As I’ve written about many times, what I have noticed over many years working with my own parts and with others is that the primary presenting energy of the Inner Protector part (which is SO necessary to navigate 3D life) is almost always masculine, as it is a guarding and often warrior-like frequency. This Protector can be a dominant energy in BOTH men and women, sometimes much stronger in women actually. The Inner Punisher is also often masculine, while the Inner Teenager is more connected to your actual gender as is the Inner Child. The Inner Mother is feminine (which is usually a ‘masculinized feminine’) and the Inner Father is masculine. The Gatekeeper usually presents as masculine initially. To read more about parts and Metasoul aspects go here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

So, when I offer about ‘feminine and masculine balance’ or ‘sacred union within’, I am referring to the relationship between masculine aspects of you and feminine aspects of you going from often unconscious and polarized frequencies to unified and collaborative ones. An example of inner polarization is the masculine Inner Protector being overly protective, controlling, and suppressive of your Inner Teenager, who may be a sensitive, artistic, and emotional feminine energy (for both men and women actually.) As you connect with both of these parts of yourself through the SoulFullHeart process, you create a bridge between them; you offer rest to the Inner Protector (no more guarding) and really listen and feel your Inner Teenager (in a way that they didn’t have growing up.) THIS inner ambassadorship is empowering and dynamic and isn’t dependent on anyone else to arise, yet, it greatly changes what you draw in terms of nourishment in relationships with others. 2:22 offers this possibility of inner balance of feminine and masculine that can then be reflected in the outer experience of far healthier relationships, ending toxic and abusive patterns, capacity to set boundaries, and more.

January brought a big surge of feminine illumination of ALL that is within you that needs your compassion and love. Then were the necessary death cycles that came up in response to that, letting goes, and completions. Letting of what was still anchored in the old, in 3D, in previous agreements that no longer fit your arising BEing. These increasing Divine Feminine energies (especially from and with Divine Sophia) amplified by two Supermoons and a lunar eclipse invite you into your shadow, which often holds the playout of wounded masculine by parts of you (as described above) and by your Metasoul aspects in patriarchal dominated timelines.

February seems to be continuing this intensity of clarities coming in with corresponding timeline collapses being felt as you set boundaries and say ‘no’ to what isn’t you anymore. There has been sometimes BIG digestions necessary with parts of you as these timelines collapse and complete and feelings of guilt, shame, anxiety, and distrust come up.  “Ash in the air” as I call it without much sense at times what will replace what has been ‘lost’.

It feels like 2:22 is about the NEW beginnings and fresh starts that arise out of all this collapsing. It is about the NEW timelines that come into play through connections that reflect and fit your soul vibration more and more. It may have been necessary to self lovingly ‘defend your newly forming borders’ for the last several weeks, to show the Divine what you most want and what you don’t. Yet, now, you are starting to draw those souls that GET and resonate with what you are offering and envisioning.

This may be a slow turning, requiring gentle patience. There is a kind of tapping into the inner gardner, who is willing to plant the seeds and ‘wait’ for the results. The inner gardner is the soul’s essence that knows these things sprout and bloom in the ‘right’ time and in phases that reflect when you are ready for it, and when parts of you can let them in.

This process is held in increasing trust that all this inner balancing, inner healing, and advocating that flows from this inner illumination WILL produce the harvest of a life filled and then bursting with love.

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Energy Update: Timelines Bleeding Through Offering Deep Karmic Healing And Unification Of Your Metasoul

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By Jelelle Awen

Timelines have been bleeding through so much in the last week. Timelines in which aspects from your Metasoul are reaching into, coming into, your everyday space and your consciousness. Metasoul has been described to me, remembered by me, as our individuated soul source UP in a much higher dimensional frequency. Your Metasoul Aspects are fractals or projections from this Metasoul source into unlimited number of timelines and eras. This is your individual Metasoul and you do not share it with anyone else, unlike the Monad Soul Group picture, which is at a higher frequency. It also differs from the Twin Flame picture, in which you would ‘share’ a Metasoul with someone else who has incarnated into the same timeline as you, although it has been offered to me that your Metasoul can be strongly connected to another person’s Metasoul with many ‘counterpart pairings’ in many timelines. More about connecting with 3D parts and Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

All these Metasoul timeline expressions are happening in the Now and none are truly ‘ancient’ or ‘in the past.’ We have been so conditioned to linear time and ‘history’ and ‘time spans’ in 3D consciousness that even religions and spirituality can tend to relate with ‘past lives’ rather than actually feeling that these timeline expressions are happening in the Now.

The Ascension process that is ongoingly raising and expanding our awareness and consciousness (and Gaia’s vibration too) is allowing for more experience of these other timeline realities. The compartments that used to be held in place by the ‘veil of amnesia’ within us are now flooding. We are waking up. We are remembering. We are actually FEELING these other realities as if they were our own and we are living them out. The need before to undergo some kind of hypnosis process or past life regression is not as necessary because access to what had previously been repressed or suppressed is opening up now on its own.

It is becoming possible now to connect consciously with your Metasoul Aspects that exist in these other timelines. You can then feel their pains, their struggles, their tears, and ‘shift’ and change their timelines if they and you desire to do so. This is truly quantum healing that happens in an organic way as you open up to these multidimensional realities. This conscious connection also allows you to separate from the often very intense (and sometimes very dark and dense) timelines that are not yours, yet exist for a Metasoul sister or brother of yours as their reality. Relating with these timelines as happening for your Metasoul Aspects rather than as your ‘past lives’ is more effective and allows for more objective healing and less ‘fusion’ to the realities. You become more compassionate witness to what you discover rather than having to process and digest as much as your own.

A key compontent of this Metasoul healing is the healing, awakening, and connecting with your 3D Inner Protector, who then transmutes into your Gatekeeper. The Gatekeeper of the Metasoul is a specific fractal aspect that has been ‘assigned’ by the Divine and by your Metasoul/Higher Self to protect and guard the timelines and awareness of them. The Gatekeeper moving from guard to guide is a significant awakening that leads to fluid access to your Metasoul and mega leaps in your consciousness too. There is more about the Gatekeeper here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

You can do a guided meditation to meet your Gatekeeper here: https://youtu.be/-IZQYBoE6Cg

Healing karma is possible now in ways that we haven’t known before, not since the Atlantis falling timeline. Each Metasoul aspect holds and vibrates a karmic theme and serves as a piece of your overall soul puzzle coming together. As you connect with them, they awaken to your reality and all the other Metasoul aspects as well. Your Metasoul becomes this unified, powerful, and amazing ‘team’ leading the next and next exploration into healing timelines. What had previously felt murky and overwhelming in terms of soul themes and karmic reactions now becomes more and more trackable, healable, and obvious to you.

I’ve been connecting with these aspects for a few years, establishing deep and meaningful relationships with many of them. I’ve written about this process of connection in my books if you are interested to learn more. I believe there are over 17 of my Metasoul sisters at this point that have awakened and I recently started a spreadsheet just to track them all (although they live in my heart deeply!) One from Avalon timeline; an Arcturian, Pleaidian, Lemurian, three from ‘Ancient Greece’ timelines, etc. Much of the healing and galactic love ambassadorship work that my Metasoul is engaged with is now happening beyond my conscious awareness of it. I can feel the positive effects of it though when I check in with my Metasoul ‘team’ on a near daily basis. I can let go of what isn’t my responsibility to respond to from this dimension, being a “Gaian” (as the Metasouls call me) and tasked as I am with such a challenging process of Ascension in my timeline.

This also takes ‘shadow work’ to a much deeper level as you connect with energies such as Archons, Dracos, Reptilians, and more within your Metasoul. You connect in a way that is not polarized to fear or push away or ‘casting out’, yet to embrace them, understand them, and offer compassion. This is what the Divine Mother has offered for me and to me and with me over and over. I am finding this unification of what could be called ‘malevolent’ or ‘shadow’ aspects back into the heart of my Metasoul to be deeply touching and nourishing.  These aspects most seem to want forgiveness for what they have done and been involved with. My heart full of Mother’s forgiveness of me (You are ALREADY forgiven, She says over and over), then it is an overflow that I can offer these ostracized and disowned aspects of my Metasoul.

This Metasoul healing process offers SO MUCH self empowerment and access to the gifts that live in both the shadows and in the light. With the thinning out of densities that used to cloak these realities so much more, we are being given an opportunity to heal themes and patterns in a way we have never done before. This feels crucial to happen on a personal level AND on a collective level as we continue to ascend. Our personal healing IS collective healing, especially when it is engaged with on the Metasoul level as ALL the Metasouls ultimately come from the same Divine Source. This is a path to return to wholeness from within, from the grounds of your soul, watered by the LOVE from your heart…..arising into the 5D sacred human that it is now possible to BEcome more and more.

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about 1:1 sessions with Jelelle and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

 

The Gifts Of Intimacy And Sacred Union

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Our biggest mirrors lie in our most intimate relationships, especially those that are romantic. That which lies in the deepest shadow places can really only ever be seen and felt in those connections whose dynamics bring us to the edge of our defenses and vulnerability. We get to  feel the depth of our own self and what it is that we have been unaware of in the way we relate to life and love.

True sacred union is meant to offer us the means to explore and feel the ways in which we have kept our shadow and light sequestered for very reasonable reasons. It is an ongoing experiential playground in which we get to grow and learn. Each time we open our hearts to the most vulnerable of places, the parts of us that have been so timid and sensitive to bearing their deepest fears, we bring our being to a precipice or a fork in the road. How will my truth, my needs, my love, land in the person that we, and parts of us, have so much invested in?

These investments have different roots…some more wounded or authentic than others. The true sacred union continually asks questions about what is the authentic feeling ground between both partners. Is there a deepening occurring? Is there a feeling of a new arising, both in yourself and in the other, as you continue to heal all that resists real love and growth?

I have been so used to being in my own personal healing space over the years. It has been a newer experience for me to bring that into the space that is now populated with another. It is a new level of showing up for myself and a union with Kalayna. I do have parts that have had habit of coasting in relationship, both to a mate and myself. Sacred union and intimacy pokes a stick at that to keep the fire of consciousness and romance alive and in continued curiosity and expression.

The edges come when one is feeling a chasm of relationality in the space between. What needs to be felt and expressed that can open a doorway to a more authentic felt reality? The inherent risk, of course, is that there may be a difficult yet necessary acceptance that the ground between lovers and mates is no longer sufficient to keep the current inner need for More alive and transactable.

The ground of metasoul connections, sexual compatibility, intellectual alignments, or emotional dependency are not enough in and of themselves to hold together a Love that wants ALL areas of heart, body, mind, and soul to be met with passion and purpose. The more we are willing to feel and express our own needs, truths, and desires the more we are able to attract the kind of love that we feel for ourselves. The more we are willing to take these in from another, and conflict if need be to sort out what is real, the more we are able to find new places of growth and love within ourselves.

I am so fortunate to be in this with someone who cares so deeply for herself, her parts, and process, as well me, my parts, and my process. There is no way I get to stay stuck in something that may be hard for me to see. I am urged to advocate for my needs and for what I want and desire in her. She is a true gift of realness to me. She is the wind to my sails if I am willing to stick them out there.  I get to show up for that and I am forever grateful to what she means to my continued growth, expansion, and leadership of heart for men and women in the desire for the More they have signed up for.

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SoulFullHeart is healing and integration process that explores your inner world through the connection and feeling of parts and metasoul aspects. This is the self to self relationship that opens the doorway to deeper connection of self to other in intimacy and romance. It is a catalytic and expansive work that opens to a new world of sacred human consciousness and relationality. 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Universe Doesn’t Owe You Anything

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By Raphael Awen

The Universe isn’t actually holding out on you.

The Universe doesn’t actually owe you anything.

The reason this is true is because the Universe has already given you everything it has to offer without holding anything back.

This is a tough one for parts of us to accept, as they have been conditioned to cause-and-effect reality here in 3D experience. ‘I do good and I get good in return’ is the childlike perception that we then project onto the Universe or the Divine, giving it god-like status, that parts of us can then play victim to, or hold responsible for our frustrations or unmet desires.

It’s called ‘unconditional love’ because it has all come to you signed, sealed and delivered without conditions. The only conditions that we all experience are the conditions around us being able to let in this love that is technically all-ready all ours.

Our experience of life in a past, present, and future reality, along with the cause and effect piece, as well as the world of free will can all be used to support this child’s picture of God holding out on us; of God or the Universe not being willing to give us our deepest desires.

What if the whole of that is all about a ploy coming from a part of us playing victim to life, and seeking a strategy to deal with this unfathomable infinite love that we are so fearfully tasked with letting into our very being?

What if you already have it all, and it’s just a process now to let it in?

What if part of that having it all is that even the frustrations, and longings, even the dis-ease in the body, even the breakdown in relationships, are all pointing to this perfection that we have been submerged in and are coming to terms with, here in this very particular Gaian conditioned experience of free will, cause and effect, ‘reality’?

My ‘working hypotheses’ is that this is closer to what is true for each of us. I can’t prove it to be true from a 3D mindset, but I can feel it to be true from a 5D mind.

Now, I am invited to feel and get to know any part of myself, or any aspect in my Metasoul who is still living in the old world of expecting God or the Universe to come through for them. This makes sense when you feel that if I have it all, then all there’s left to do and be is to share it all, beginning with myself and then overflowing to others.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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A Message From Our Other Now

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I am here keeping your place warm and ready for your arrival.
The place you live already and yet are still making your way to

It is an ever-changing journey really
No real end
Just an ever-increasing gift of experience

These arising waves of Love’s vibrations
Sensations that pale in comparison
To the ones you chose to leave behind
In order to make room for more

You are a truly remarkable being
You chose this set of circumstances
This time to be here
In that body
In this dimension

You have been through much, yet you keep believing
Keep trying to wake up to what you feel is true
Yet have struggled to remember for good reason

You may not understand in the moment
But know it has all been laid out
In a fashion that may not make sense….until it does.

You are on time
In line
About to shine

The light is coming in
Through all the cracks of your tired facts
The ones you are slowly losing faith in

The Love is there to meet you when the pain becomes too much
I will be there to greet you at the threshold of your next ceiling-floor
Your next unfolding and birthing
Into the Love you never imagined you would ever feel again.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Magic Of Name

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By Gabriel  Heartman

What’s in a name?

Shakespeare’s Juliet would say that “it matters not what name is bestowed upon thee for thy essence remains the same”. I am channeling of course, but I happen to agree with her in regards to the truth of our Divine BEing. However, we also live in a world of names. It is the nature of the duality of our 3D humanity. I believe even in our 5D reality we still have names as the name itself is a waveform expression of our BEing. It does its best to align with the essence itself.

I explore this because it was a year ago yesterday that I changed my name to Gabriel. Before that I went by Sequoia. Before that Christopher, Christian, and Chris. Each one represented a phase in my growth and dimensional frequency. They are like radio station markers on the FM dial. Each one held and energy or consciousness that still lives inside me as a part that has integrated to much degree. There are times when they come out like a solar flare to be felt as needed in whatever trigger constellated them out of their new home in my heart.

How does your name reflect You?

Does it match what emanates from your core?

How would it feel to you to change your name as a shift into a new version of you?

There may be a resistance to a change and that could be a part of you that is attached to that name for it represents so much. I went from Chris to Christian because when I really began to change I needed something new. ‘Chris’ represented something old, not bad mind you. He became a part of me to help feel all that was shifting and being left behind in regards to lifestyle and relationships. It was a tender holding of what had been ‘me’ for a very long time. One of the precious phases of my life. I have even changed my last name to denote something that no longer resonates for me in what was my 3D conditioning.

In SoulFullHeart, as you begin the exploration and journey withIN, you meet parts of yourself that hold a particular energetic and emotional frequency. They have been given names such as Inner Child, Inner Protector, Gatekeeper, etc. As you personally come in contact with your own, a personal name arises from this energy. It exemplifies and personifies. Makes it more intimate. It is amazing how the energy of the dynamic shifts once it has been birthed with this definitiveness. They become alive inside of us through the magic of naming.

It is all a part of the play that we are being invited to explore and embody. It is where we get to express and learn about ourselves. We may connect to names that represent our 4D metasoul lives both human and galactic. Connecting to these names help us tune into our expanded consciousness and receive the gifts of their vulnerabilities and strengths. They are portals into which we are being invited to feel, heal, and explore. They hold much creative power of our arising sacred humanity.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: Loving Anxiety Into Trust As Timelines Collapse

Published on by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

Anxiety and distrust rumble in the belly, in the third chakra, in the solar plexus of the physical, and the gut of the emotional body too. They can burn and churn there, feeling like a constant tension that rarely eases or loosens its grip. Or anxiety flares up when love comes in and floods the usually well guarded places….when love ‘sneaks in’ beyond the Protector and the risk of getting hurt increases greatly. Anxiety can just BE so consistent inside of you, your emotional body, your chakras, that you don’t really feel it anymore or are conscious of it anymore. It just becomes like a background noise that you hardly ever notice.

Current ascension energies of light, of love, of illumination, of surrender are pushing up these frequencies of distrust and anxiety to the surface to be felt and healed and moved. These energies are making you notice also as they rumble through the old timelines of your life and start shifting you into the New. You may be experiencing a fresh flow of this and wondering, “Where is this tension coming from? Where is this anxiety coming from?” These Divine energies (especially from the Divine Feminine) support the asking of these questions and the answering of them too.

The answering can come from going within, to feel the sources of anxiety within your Inner Protector, who may be maintaining a near constant vigilance ‘against’ life bringing other parts of you any more hurt or harm. In this anxiety-fueled protection though, love can also be filtered out and the healthy digestion of the Divine’s love that wants to come into your BEing and water all parts of you too (including the Protector!). Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Protector:https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA…

Your Inner Protector also may be keyed into and connected to persecution frequencies in your Metasoul field that are playing out in other timelines. These are not ‘past lives’ at all but energizing in the Now. These timelines can create a constant tension in your energetic field (again often centered in the third chakra) as an energetic bleed through moves through of the battles, the persecutions, the betrayals, the violence….whatever storylines your Metasoul (Higher Self Soul Source) is playing out and involved with. We call this aspect of the Protector that remembers and knows about your other timeline aspects, the Gatekeeper. More about this part here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeeper

It can be challenging to connect with anxiety because the vibration of it often can’t settle down enough inside of you to receive love and connection. Situations and relationships in your life may push up MORE anxiety (in ongoing suffering/anxiety producing loops) and the whole ‘system’ repeats itself over and over. To connect with anxiety is to extend BIG self love to the energy of it, to feel the part of you that holds it and why, to become BIGGER than the anxiety and distrust. You become then a bridge for Divine frequencies to flood in, bringing more trust , surrender, and love to all the tense places.

I can feel anxiety quite easily in others and acutely, due to many years of healing mine through parts work integration and Metasoul aspect unification. I can feel the vibration of it in others, it is a distinctive tone….because I have felt it in myself. The first part of myself I connected to that had acute anxiety described herself as “Being as tense as a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs.” THAT described perfectly the extreme tension that lived and breathed in this part of me that had ingested so many volatile frequencies during my childhood that often led to harm and abuse. Through feeling her and many other parts that held anxiety (also Metasoul aspects that live in highly stressful and dangerous timelines), I have been able to relax so much more into trust and surrender to the outcomes of life and trust that Divine love was holding it all.

It’s feeling like the current energies (which seem to have a Dark Mother or catalytic death-rebirth vibration to them) are illuminating what the sources of anxiety are in your life and inviting you to let them go. I have discovered that the biggest source of distrust comes up within relationships of all kinds. Our original hurt and wounding happened in relationship and anxiety stems mainly from the fear that hurt will happen again and the distrust in any sources of love with the projection that they will hurt you again.

The timelines formed around relationships, especially those you are consciously unhappy about, are being rumbled with love so that they will collapse and you can move into the new….with the relationship intact or not. THIS can certainly push up anxiety too as it can be challenging for parts of us to trust that letting go of something will actually lead to something good and different.

The Divine Mother can hold beautiful, still space for anxiety to finally rest inside of you and Her energies are strongly here and have been since the start of the year especially. Calling on a connection with Her brings a soothing balm. Anxiety just needs love ultimately to allow for more trust and surrender for the ongoing navigation of all this shifting, changing, and growing into MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

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A World Ascending: The Sorting Out Of Our Truest Courage

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

By Gabriel Heartman

Timelines are shifting. Sorting. Colliding. Bleeding.

I could see this in my mind’s eye yesterday like large chunks of freeway making grand separations and connections. Concrete shrapnel flying through the air moving with the intense energy of these tectonic movements. The energy that came from this felt quite epic on an etheric plane. I immediately thought of scenes in the movie Inception where a full city was bending in on itself in a puzzle-type motion.

Lightning is striking in the hearts of many. Elucidating many difficult places to feel and choices that are in line to be made in order to move into a new ground of self-intimacy and soul growth. Where there is lightning there is thunder. It rumbles the current world order that has been created by a part’s need for safety and maybe even chaos, for even chaos can hide what needs and wants to be felt and healed.

These energies bring up visions of an almost apocalyptic nature. It is through the lens of our most defended places that it appears this way. The relationships both inside and out are being invited into a deep state of curiosity and compassion which may feel like interrogation and judgement. How to navigate these epic movements with courage of heart is what we are being guided to embody.

If we are ready to stand face to face with our deepest fears and hard to feel reflections, we are ready to birth into new territory of our being that leaves us changed forever. It leaves the old in the rear view while constructing the New in a step-by-step, moment-to-moment reality. It is created from the core of our own self-worth that can integrate the death of what was as we see the future that IS.

There is a container for this all held by our Higher Self, the Divine, and the BEings of multidimensional frequency that we can call upon and integrate. We can call upon those that are in the bliss and the mess of it all as guides and soul explorers. It is in direct connection and negotiation with our Inner Protector and community of Inner Family that brings us the courage we need to make our way through the other side of this sorting and into a world ascending.  

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.