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Connection With The Divine And Guides – Day 4: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle and Raphael Awen (Video)

Published on January 5, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day four of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, my BEloved mate Raphael joins me and you get to be part of one of our soul and heart provoking conversations that happens frequently in our home! He is my most favorite collaborator and conversation partner and I am captivated with how his heart/soul/and mind works even after almost a decade together! This is the blessed experience of a true sacred union with a Counterpart Soulmate….it is stimulating, engaging, and resonant on deep levels.

In this video, Raphael and I talk about feeling Ascension in a personal way, an intimate way, and also relating with guides in a personal way too…..not as ‘better than’ you yet as intimate with you. It’s all personal and meant to be experienced as such, even while being a collective invitation toward ascension.

Making it personal is feeling the unworthiness and shame that can block letting in personal connection with the Divine and higher dimensional and vibrational guides/aspects. This unworthiness and shame come up from undigested traumas in the emotional body and parts of us that hold onto these frequencies until connected with and healed/moved.

Raphael talks about his journey to experience the Divine in a personal way after most of his life as a Christian, parts of him feeling unworthy and sinful to experience direct connection. Connecting with these parts of himself has allowed Raphael to claim, name, and BE with higher vibrational guides/aspects and Divine Frequencies in a playful and yet poignant way too. This has also opened up his intuition and ability to experience powerful altered states and love with guides. Raphael shares about this journey in his journaling series, Journey To The Demiurge. Go here to read the entries in the series: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/by…/journal-to-the-demiurge/

We also talk about using God and spirituality to bypass going into deeper emotions and the ‘mess’ of the emotional body, being ‘delivered’ from feeling, rather than going into feeling with Divine support which is what we offer in our SoulFullHeart process. We experience that Divine frequencies and love hold space for the exploration into the emotional body.

AND, we also talk about experiencing fear-based BEings/energies AS guides and why you might draw this because of undigested fear and soul experiences drawing these experiences to you as a mirror. This can lead to experiences of being ‘attacked’ rather than responding with love and so experiencing love.

Thank you for joining on this fourth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This is the guided meditation to connect with your Ascension chakras and your Higher Self that Jelelle mentions in the video: https://youtu.be/NzpoGL8Gt4I

Jelelle’s new book about ascension Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Embracing Your Bliss Mess – Day 3: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 3, 2018January 3, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day three of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about what I mean by the ‘bliss mess’ of ascension and why I advocate for the embracement of it. Bliss Mess is essentially the recognition and acceptance that we have had a messy emotional experience here in 3D and to desire to feel that in order to heal it…not just attain blissful states all the time. The attainment of bliss states can be used to bypass or transcend more difficult emotional places, woundings, and traumas that NEED to be felt and healed.

I offer a process for feeling any resistance in parts of you that may come up to feeling your ‘messes’ and going into that area. It is most likely your Inner Protector who would feel this way, usually doesn’t think that you can handle what would come up. The Inner Protector often related to you as an Inner Teenager, the energy that it has had to guard all your life. Negotiation with the Inner Teenager and the Inner Protector starts to separate their energies from each other, allowing more space for you to act as ambassador and negotiator. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I also read a passage from my new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension (it is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books):

“We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much more than we have been human BEings. We are here to experience the bliss mess (yes, both) of feeling. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in all its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us, so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely new.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy!!

It is necessary to experience both the bliss and the mess to ascend, awaken your soul, enloven your heart, enlighten your mind, crystalize your body. To just reach for and want the bliss aspects of ascension is to miss out on the gifts that going into your deepest densities and shadows offers you. There is a wealth to your woundedness. Not that you need fixing, yet, going into your woundedness and healing it allows you to free up your essence and bigness from the wounded frequencies. This is a spring loaded process that just happens organically as you open up to experiencing both the bliss and the mess.”

Going into the wealth of our woundedness with MUCH care and compassion for all parts of us allows so many gifts of integration, growth, and, yes, eventually experience of bliss and joy….without leaving anything behind or covering over anything!

Note: Sound is a bit muffled today as we had strange noise from my computer and had to edit it out….will be using my video camera starting tomorrow 🙂

Thank you for joining on this third day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance. An organically arising community may form out of the shared experience and energy of taking in the series….a love-based group Merkabah!

Supermoon Energies And Divine Feminine Meditation – Day 2: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 2, 2018January 2, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

Supermoon and Divine Feminine energies coming through beautifully today during Day Two of Metamorphosis, my 33 Day video series that started yesterday on January 1st and completing on February 2nd!

In this day two video, I invite you to connect with the Divine Feminine frequencies that are coming up and being offered through the Supermoon and throughout January with ANOTHER Supermoon at the end of the month, plus a lunar eclipse. These energies ARE personal, not just cosmic, and provide a mirror to you for feeling, exploring, and BEing. I share my awakening to Divine Feminine frequencies back in 2010, which came after becoming Reiki attuned. I experienced a deeply touching connection with four Divine Feminine forms of Kuan Yin, Magdalena, Mother Mary, and Dark Mother/Kali. My experience of Her energies since then has just deepened and expanded into a very personal and nurturing experience.

I then guide you in a meditation to connect with Divine Feminine/Mother energies through whitish-pink energies, sitting a circle, and letting in lots of love through the heart chakra. You may see and feel Divine Mother quite clearly, or get a sense of your Inner Protector – a masculine energy that guards and protects the feminine experience from both inside and out. Here is more about the Inner Protector: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Mother’s energies were touching as they came through today and I hope they provide some comfort to you as we continue this INtense transition into the new!

Thank you for joining on this second day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

2018 Energies Invite Discernment, Reflections On Your Healing Path

Published on January 1, 2018January 1, 2018 by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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There are many understandable qualms and queries that a wide array of souls have about letting in ‘new’ teachings and perspectives. There’s a way that in a sense, many of us have said ‘yes’ to being a part of abusive groups and leaders – political, spiritual, etc. Perhaps that’s why resonance can be a scary thing for parts and Metasoul Aspects of us, who have been ‘burned’ before, who have walked out (and may still be walking out) abusive relationships on many levels with those who they were once convinced truly loved and accepted them ‘unconditionally’ – which is perhaps one of the biggest hooks of them all and speaks to so much of our collective and personal wounding…

Today, after doing some research into different spiritual leaders and groups, I feel a collective pain and it feels like it pierces and echoes quite strongly. It’s a sense of some heavy influence and infiltration (which was signed-up for and allowed in for good and necessary reasons) from what can be called ‘Archonic’ energies and whispers, which really in a way just feels like the whispers of heavily unowned or outright disowned shadow. To find ourselves in abusive relationships on any blatant or subtle levels reflects an abuse which perpetuates inside of us and the suppression of our own shadows; what has been held in the dark and not only what could be considered ‘dark’ or low vibration. Taking this in as a piece for collective healing is important, yet the more important and power-filled choice is to take it back inward, to find our personal contribution to it, starting from us to us.

The degree to which there is denial that ALL, even the most precious, beloved and highly regarded gurus of our time and beyond also have ‘shadow’ to work and aren’t perfect or above being the human they signed up to be in their life and timeline, is the degree to which it is often suppressed and disregarded within too. We want to blame the others who fall from grace, yet so often there are parts of us, ESPECIALLY Metasoul Aspects of us, that have experienced this themselves in their own timelines and are afraid to face the shadow within that matched and made OK the unowned shadow in the other in THIS timeline.

That might be a lot to digest, yet it feels of great importance if we are truly to ‘clean house’ in this new ‘year’ called ‘2018’, which, it feels like, IS the invitation when it comes to Disclosure’s current unfolding that cannot be avoided personally as it happens globally.

To make the choice to lean into a new offering, such as what we talk about and share in SoulFullHeart, likely brings up quite a bit for some of you who feel resonance and yet feel a need to balk and take it this work in in small doses. This is understandable and actually feels necessary too. There is a need now to truly discern where a teacher, author, guru, speaker, etc is coming from and to vibe-in with their particular views of love and spirituality, to see if they truly work for you at this time. There is an enormous capacity in all of us to let in and lean in and there is a vast amount of distrust that comes with that too, embodied in a part of you that we call the Inner Protector and also the Gatekeeper. Bless this part of each of us for the filtering, the necessary judgments and push-aways, the incredible job they have done and had to do. To be truly led by your deepest heart into healing paths that will not offer abuse but instead continually give you back to you as you find the power of your naked heart and soul again without need of a Protector, is perhaps one of the most profound gifts coming to you this year and beyond and it is definitely my own wish for ALL of us as we continue arising and rearising into our Sacred Humanity, that is powerful, soulful, and above all heartful. ❤

If you wish to feel more into SoulFullHeart, perhaps with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper held consciously in your heart while doing so, you can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess to learn and feel more about what we offer and how we offer it, and ready much about who we are as well in other parts of our website and on our blog. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The SOULstice Reflects Our Next Phases Of Growth Toward Our Sacred Humanity

Published on December 22, 2017December 22, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

The end of one cycle and the beginning of another. Physically in Earth’s orbit and energetically in our collective Gaian heart. We are all connected to Her and the frequencies that She is letting in and moving through. I feel Her with us all during this time. Not just another revolution around the Sun, but a journey UP and IN.

In the Northern Hemisphere, this is time of extended darkness and colder weather that, in our ‘past’, saw us literally holding up inside the hearth of the home, staying warm. Spiritually, a time for reflection and evaluation, even seen in the numbers 12:21. In the Southern Hemisphere, this is an end and a beginning too, in different light frequencies that are more active and yang. Taking action to embody what has been ‘received’ in your highest heart. Whether in reflection, or action, much is being illuminated and transformed.

In SoulFullHeart we take an assessment, or snapshot, of our current life through the lens of 7 key areas: Emotional, Spiritual, Mental, Social, Physical, Financial, and Environmental. As I have been going through these with someone I am currently working with, it has become so evident that these areas shed such an enormous light on our Whole Self rather that just focusing on one in particular.

If there is a place where you feel misaligned in your deepest calling and passion, then it can cause a drag, or anchor, in your fullest expression and BEing during your ascension process. This is a very reflective tool and highlights where you are being invited to go if you want to truly take all of you into the New.

This is where having that mirror can be a blessing and a curse both to parts of you. These energies are making more obvious the places you may need to go into so that you can unfurl our wings. One of the hardest, is the Social area where there can be such entwined relationships with others based on all sorts of conditionings and unconscious agreements. Or you may even find yourself more isolated due to self-protection or even self-love.

In either case, the holidays can really highlight the emotional body in this area. Are you in our fullest expression and truth when around others, or do you ‘shrink to fit’ in order to be a part of the social frequency? Or maybe there is a deep loneliness due to a lack of authentic connection. The emotional reality of this may be hard for a part of you to digest and be with so it can go undercover, but it doesn’t live far from consciousness.

The same holds true for all areas of your life. Feeling the ways in which you are still anchored and misaligned can be hard for parts of you to admit to and take action toward. This is a becomes a compassionate and self-loving process with these parts of you, most specifically your Protector, that has done life as us for so long, and is feeling the long nights of winter (or days of summer) coming to an energetic end. It is running out of gas as the veil between it and your emotional body is thinning.

This is a great time to take some self-reflective moments, in a sacred space, to take a snapshot of your emotional and spiritual bodies and see where your next phase of growth (and thus challenge for parts) lies ahead. Here is the assessment we use in SoulFullHeart to look at all areas and set a course to enter into a process with your Protector to see where the healing needs Love the most to move you UP and INto the next portal of your evolution of your sacred crystalline humanity.

http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

If you go through the assessment and feel a desire to know more about how SoulFullHeart may be able to serve you, we offer a free 30 minute intro session to feel that with you. A lot of support is being offered during these times and all of us in SoulFullHeart send you much love and blessings.

There is also a Live Stream event happening here on Facebook and YouTube this Saturday at 11:11am CST with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. A great way to enter the Christmas Corridor!

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: Winter Solstice Offers New Earth In The HERE And NOW

Published on December 21, 2017December 21, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

This doesn’t feel like an ordinary Winter Solstice….is there such thing as ‘ordinary’ anymore? So much is accelerating in activity on in the collective, on a Galactic level with Star BEings, and from within each of of us on the Ascension path.

This Winter Solstice is the beginning of a NEW season where it feels like rapid change will become more of the new normal in the year 2018. Change on all levels inside of your bodies becoming crystal; your chakras becoming crystal; your hearts becoming crystal; your emotional bodies becoming crystal; your Merkabahs becoming crystal. Clearer, brighter, and freer, you feel more and more and on deeper levels than ever before!

You may be amazed at how much is moving from within you in just one ‘day’ and how much you are integrating, letting in, and letting go. What has previously been ‘lived with’ on some level, still anchored to 3D, is straining and fading. Maybe you are able to LET GO more quickly, more easily with less protest and resistance from parts of you and more sense of Ethereal, Star BEing/Star Family, and Higher Self support. Hiding anything becomes impossible as your frequency shifts more into 4D in all areas of your life.

The Divine Feminine opened UP even more on 12:12, illuminating us all in the glow of Her Supermoon. She continues to beacon us into the deeper regions of ourselves, into our emotional bodies, into the places inside that need the light of our love. She sometimes lights the match to burn away what is false in our lives and within ourselves, yet always, too, She is there to provide a balm of comfort to sooth the mourning pains.

The Divine Feminine makes it safer for disclosures to begin or accelerate on all levels; for the revealing of what has been hidden to come forward for healing. No more hiding. She holds and responds to this disclosure process with a steady compassion that forgives, allowing for genuine remorse from the masculine to flow. She brings out the King that has been hiding in the woundedness of the boy. She supports the continuation of the process of transforming the wounded masculine (in both men and women) into its sacred human essence.

She has invited us into Her womb to INtegrate, to yintegrate, so much of these activations and upgrades that we’ve been receiving and being gifted by the Great Cosmic Sun/Divine Masculine. Her activations are more emotional, about making space and holding space, creating a womb space for the parts of us that need us and our tender care and love. The Divine Masculine gifts seemed to come in more bounty and in earnest acceleration with the total Solar Eclipse in August, as if Her moon blocking the light brought more into alignment.

And, alignment is here during this time of Galactic Alignment over the last days and continuing through the Solstice…as the center of our outer galaxy lines up with the Sun and Gaia, so is the invitation for our inner galaxies to align through the feeling and healing of ALL aspects of ourselves in ALL timelines.

What is of lower frequency, heavy, dark, painful, and frustrated is not so easily suppressed or held away or covered over by parts of you anymore. Your Inner Protector is probably getting tired and wants deeply to rest. Things are leaking through that sometimes they would rather didn’t, yet that need to come up. Other lifetime ‘memories’ are bleeding through, along with childhood/teenage emotional energy congestions formed in parts of you that are often stuck there and want to be freed. Dreams are more intense, plus increase in what feels like ‘outside of you’ activities and energies.

All this could bring up temporarily even more vigilance and guarding from your Protector yet also can lead to burn out and overwhelm. The Protector is tired of guarding and being so vigilant and wants to transition to your guide and Gatekeeper of your Metasoul, channel to Divine love and all your other lifetime/timelines. More about the Gatekeeper healing process here through SoulFullHeart: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

Loving your physical body, loving your emotional body, loving the parts of you that are afraid and resistance, loving your 3D anchors, loving even what feels dark and demonic through these intense energies and with the help of these energies….this becomes easier in the Now. This will just BEcome more natural as we vibrate more and more out of the old fear-based frequencies and into more New Earth/5D.

New Earth is more in the HERE and the NOW on this Solstice and available in ALL moments as you continue to integrate and align from within into your Sacred Human Self!!

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Continued Energies Invite Us To Deeper Healing Of Galactic Wounds

Published on December 19, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

1:11 begins this post. Nice timing. It is a gateway into a new emerging relationship inside myself (and yourself) that has been in pregnant pause. I have been connecting with my Gatekeeper on a more consistent basis to bring him more into the room of my daily consciousness. He has been very effusive most of my process yet has had played games of peek-a-boo off and on. He is moving from a guardian of my soul story and gifts to a beloved partner and guide on this journey of inner healing and discovery.
(For more information on how we hold what a Gatekeeper is you can read this article: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeeper)

I found him stuck in the shadowland territory of my soul and through SoulFullHeart energy work and guided meditation brought him into closer proximity to the light of my heart where he could ‘dethaw’ from the experience. As we have connected, he has guided me to a couple of metasoul brothers in other timelines that are connected to Kalayna’s metasoul (my sacred union beloved). He was just with me in those moments being a witness to my connection with them to help heal old frequencies and dynamics in our bond together.

But as those faded and are waiting for further deepening and clarity there has been a struggle within him to feel like he actually has purpose and clarities. Everything seemed like a blurry painting sometimes. Static in the air that was creating doubt. Of course underneath doubt lies a deep fear of actually having what it is you deeply want for fear of it going away.

In the shadowlands, he was held by a Reptilian energy. It had created an open portal into my world through him. Noel, my Gatekeeper was connected to this Reptilian aspect that actually lies within us all. There was a felt sense that Noel needed to meet this Reptilian self, named Salthazar, to help heal the bind that still seemed to connect them and release them both from the downward spiral of the shadowland.

It was an amazing experience to feel this once timid and elusive guide of mine stand in the bowels of this intense energy and hold a loving space of compassion and service of love. He could feel this Reptilian’s truest heart and the source of its wounding. There was a forgiveness and an invitation to feel a new timeline for this part of me. It was quite and extraordinary process of transformation as he went from snarky pot shots to authentic tears even while in reservation that a new life awaits him.

He offered him a new family within my inner court of wayward travelers, kings, and guides. It was like being in the most captivating movie I could ever imagine. Within this BEing is a Lizard King. He held so much of my punishment, judgement, shame, fear, and control. Holding the light amidst the most unsavory within us all is what moves the darkness and births out a new gift that was never thought possible from the fear place.

There is still work to be done. Pain to be felt and trust to be garnered. But it is the first step into a series of other steps that brings new possibilities and new energy to an unending journey of what it means to be alive in this Now….moons, holidays, solstices and all.

The healing that is offered in SoulFullHeart is a doorway into an infinite world of discovery that begins with our 3D anchors and moves us into these epic and storied landscapes of our 4D consciousness that hold the seed of our Star Being connection. Each movement and step is a deeply felt and celebrated event that brings new awareness of what our sacred humanity ready to illuminate.

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The Fast Track To Your Mystery

Published on December 17, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Staring at the edge of infinitum. A beautiful tapestry of shadow and light. There is a din of music, clanking dishes, and unrecognizable conversation. The magic of our being is on full display and it has been normalized by parts of us even in its exquisiteness. It can be almost too much to bear the burden of its beauty. We can see a reflection or an object. In feeling separate from our Glory, we snap a picture of it so we can remind ourselves that we saw our Self again. “Whoa! There I am again! Get a picture so I don’t forget!”

I can feel that in this moment. It is a tender feeling that a part of me needed that reminder. In the moment of the experience there was a feeling of just being in it. Basking in it. Letting it in. A moment of reverence for it and me. Both. The “wow” that takes your breathe away is the one that is ultimately from you to you, yet we haven’t quite fully been able to let that in in its totality. It is as if we might implode from the possibility of being that amazing. So we take it in the best way we can in that moment. And lasso it with a frame.

It is the healing of all the ways in which we have not been able to see ourselves as unique, special, powerful, and beautiful that leads us to that moment of reconciling what have put outside of us as what IS us. If you have been to an eye examination, the doctor puts a contraption in front of you that you look into. They flip different lenses and turn certain knobs and check to see which one gives you the best clarity. In a way, that is what feeling our parts is like, as each provides a certain lens or filter upon the world. It is not just a mental perspective, but an emotional relationship that alters how we experience our reality before us and within us. Each part with a different focal point and blind spot that can be polar opposites and in conflict. They are 3D parts such as protector, punisher, inner teenager, inner mother/father, and inner child as well as 4D gatekeeper and metasoul lives that span timelines and dimensions.

So while there is a you that can see yourself in the sunset, another part can be diffusing the visceral experience of that for its own reasons. A fear, an unworthiness, an unbelievability. Feeling those parts of you in tender embrace while the Love that IS you is shining upon you is the heart-lens shift that brings the tears of release and integration. Of shedding an old consciousness about yourself into a new dawn of what you were truly meant to feel, experience and share.

I AM the sun, the clouds, the water, and the painted hues of light…as are You. We get to experience it together in the same room of this spaceless and timeless Now. Through the healing of our own personal shadowland do we see the light that cast it. It is through those moments we raise UP in our vibration that carries us into our new territory of healing and experience. We get to do it together and not alone. We get to do it in community and not isolation. We get to expedite the time it would have normally taken and fast-track ourselves into this glorious infinitum. Healing requires relationship, from within and with other. This is part of what you are here to do. The rest is an unfolding beautiful mystery.

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Energy Update: Galactic And Personal Alignments

Published on December 17, 2017December 17, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Galactic Alignment frequencies are happening in the Cosmos and the INNER Cosmos too. These are occurring over these next days (activated since the Super Moon, 12:12 Divine Feminine INtegration energies) and extending through the December 21 Solstice and into MORE Super Moon energy integrations in January. This is an alignment of Gaia (Feminine), the Moon (Feminine), the Sun/Great Cosmic Sun (Masculine), and the Galactic Center (Feminine/Masculine Balance/Zero Point). Seemingly and previously divergent energies and timelines come together, creating a bridging way toward Unity.

This Galactic Alignment offers a sense of the Divine Align energy that wants to bring us all together while honoring our individual expressions, especially our gender expression. Gender expression clashes are where the deepest densities and polarizations exist in our collective and personal emotional bodies. Healing our gender expression woundings is a ripe ground right now, as represented in the collective disclosure of sexual abuse that is currently happening. This disclosure invites us to feel what has been our experiences of these kind of abuses, on both sides of the ‘coin’, from this life and from our Metasoul/other lifetimes. Feeling these textures leads us to parts of us with feelings of distrust that stem from betrayal, dominance, and suppression. Read more here about how this distrust can be held onto and amplified by our masculine Inner Protectors and Gatekeepers: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/12/14/moving-from-anxiety-to-trust-and-surrender/

Being ‘in synch’ at a Cosmic level provides a sense for us of what this might feel and look like for each of us as this alignment is embodied from within. You may be feeling a press from these energies, especially related to romantic relationships and the completion of them or just difficulties and increasing conflicts and tensions.

These energies are always personal. They can be taken in and applied in a personal way by asking questions like these, “How do these energies relate to me and my ongoing awakening/Ascension process? How am I (and parts of me) being impacted by these energies? What are these energies inviting me (and parts of me) to feel?”

This inner alignment shows up in healing the splits that exist in the emotional body from unhealed traumas from 3D childhood experiences from this life. Inner alignment occurs as you are with your Inner Child or your Inner Teenager that still need you and are stuck in energetically charged scenes that keep their frequencies from being current and in the flow of Now. You can tell what these scenes are by the stories that come to you (with usually newly fresh feeling tears and emotions) when someone asks you about what causes pain from your childhood/teenagehood. These are fresh emotions because the traumas still exist in the now; they are not ‘past’ at all; and parts of you are living them out in seemingly endless loops of suffering. These loops of pain complete and end when your love is able to shift the energy through connection and separation from the parts. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

This inner alignment also expresses in the healing of the other lifetimes in your Metasoul (individuated soul source) of persecution and, again, the betrayals of trust and love that led to them. This is coming up for me with the revelation of a Metasoul pairing between Raphael and I offering these themes for us to feel into. The two Metasoul Aspects that we are starting to feel bleed through are needing our healing, feeling, and BEing with them in order to shift their timeline and heal some karmic binds between our Metasouls on a quantum level. When I feel this timeline (which is in the early 100 AD’s in Ireland), I can feel the sadness and loneliness of my Metasoul Aspect named Beatrice who just wants to experience love and the offering of her Celtic healing gifts, which are very controversial and forbidden by the Christian Roman rulers. Beatrice is in love with a man (from Raphael’s Metasoul) who is ‘destined’ to betray her and she risks this in order to experience even temporary moments of bliss with him…especially in bed with their ginger-colored cat lying between them.

I’ll be sharing more about Beatrice in the future as her timeline becomes clearer to me and our connection together deepens. I like to share what my personal process is around being with my Metasoul Aspects (and other parts too) as it offers a window into how you could work with these energies yourself and become your own space holder for these movements that bring such gifts of inner alignment. And, also, to give you a sense of what it feels like to receive support from us as facilitators to bridge to these places inside yourself during SoulFullHeart sessions.

Our Metasoul Aspects also express in projections into higher consciousness timelines, such as I shared about this week in connecting with my Blue Avian Metasoul Aspect named Beslopah, who awakened me in a deeper way to my Merkabah or 5D (and higher) light body vehicle. Both Beslopah and Beatrice have gifts for me and for each other, even as one is in higher vibrational frequencies of consciousness and the other is in lower ones due to undigested karmic wounding. Alignment happens from within as we embrace these divergent frequencies in our Metasouls and bring them together with love.

Alignment from within creates a space where love can bloom, grow, and show us that the previous misalignments were only temporary and served our growth. Love wants to align us. To bring us into flow with our Divine Essence again. To bring us into the Now moment as a unifying Sacred Human consciousness that celebrates the gender form that have chosen to express and BE!

I am releasing a new book called Bliss Mess on January 1st, which offers more sharings about my Metasoul Aspect awakenings and unifications, along with more context for this process. You can also read more about my openings, journeys, and how I respond and hold them through the SoulFullHeart process/way of life in my book Keep Waking Up: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

Moving From Anxiety To Trust And Surrender

Published on December 14, 2017December 14, 2017 by Jelelle Awen7 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

What seems to be UP for healing in this now is the distrust that LIVES in parts of us that really have very little reason to trust life, us, others in relationships, or the Divine. This distrust expresses as anxiety, sometimes so acute as to make it difficult to even BE in life and be social with others. Definitely making it challenging to let in and receive love.

Feeling this kind of anxiety is not a ‘disorder’, not something to be medicated with the latest pharma drugs. (same with depression, what is labelled as ‘bipolar’, etc. etc.) This distrust is rooted in the emotional body, the 3D Self aspects such as the Protector who HAD to come in when you were born here and create a shield to protect you from the harsh energies around and surrounding you. This protection was formed, to some degree, out of a distrust that you would actually be safe in 3D if you remained vulnerable, unexposed, innocent, pure…which is highly likely that you wouldn’t have been. This protection couldn’t prevent ALL harm from happening as your soul signed up to grow and to learn. The Protector can feel so guilty about this, like he/she failed you and the precious ones inside you that it feels like it was supposed to protect from all harm. The distrust can come from this place of guilt too. More about the Protector here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Distrust also stems from existential, soul roots too. Can be deep in the Metasoul timelines and lifetimes where betrayal and persecution and backstabbing are so common. You have Metasoul Aspects that are living these scenarios out in the now (not past at all, not ancient at all.) The energetic karma trauma created from the playouts of this distrust can run deep. It can greatly impact your romantic relationships especially as wounded masculine expressions create ‘no go’ zones related to intimacy, sexuality, and sacred union.

The aspect of your Metasoul that is in charge with guarding and keeping the veils in place until there is enough YOU there to handle the remembering is what we call the Gatekeeper. This Metasoul Aspect often has deep layers of distrust in the Divine especially, who it feels has left it, abandoned it, and given it a near impossible mission to protect you (and the other Metasoul aspects) in difficult densities. Even if you feel a trust in the Divine, this Aspect may not at all, which can be interesting to feel how this polarity lives inside. More about the Gatekeeper here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

The Divine Feminine is here to hold space for these masculine aspects to begin to rest. To infuse you with feminine compassion for these energies and what they have so vigilantly DONE and BEEN for you. Inner negotiation opens up as you become ambassador to all these aspects of yourself, supported by the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine too. You become loving witness to their distrust, understanding and feeling the reasons why.

Distrust can be moved to trust with love and by love. What previously felt like resistance and fear moves into acceptance and surrender. What was before shut down, now opens UP to receive LOTS more love!

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