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SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Peace At The Cost Of Passion

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It’s the release of our weekly museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!  Go here to read

In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart facilitator Gabriel Heartman feels into peace and passion – how certain parts feel about both, how they are viewed in the collective, and how they exist and play out within us:

“The only peace we can truly have is in the divine trust that our passion leads us to more of our authentic Self. It is in the feeling and healing of the wounded expressions of our passion, in relationship to our Inner Protector and Gatekeeper, that we can open up again to that which has been so needing to be connected with again. It is the healing of what this passion is here to offer us that can bring us to new arenas of our emotional and spiritual lives. It has the capacity to change it all on a dime when we heal the fear of what that change looks like on the other side.”

We have many other beautiful digestions this week from facilitator Kalayna Colibri, as well as insights from our co-creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen.

Join SoulFullHeart co-creator Jelelle Awen for her 33 Day video series, Metamorphosis:

“In this FREE daily video series, Jelelle Awen invites you to join her as she guides you on an arising, spontaneous, and potentially life shifting journey of integration leading to metamorphosis and transformation. For 33 days starting, she will show up in the moment to share from her heart and soul. Opening up to the current January, 2018 Ascension energies, she will share her unique perspective on the Cosmic energies of the sun, Gaia, the moon, portal and Gateway openings, etc. as they connect to the emotional body digestion and soul awakenings. She will ‘make it personal’ for you and all parts of you to digest and relate with.”

To follow along with this series, you can visit the YouTube playlist here: https://www.youtube.com/playlistlist=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri bring their own personal experiences of the SoulFullHeart ascension process through a video series titled “Practical Ascension: The 7 Key Areas of Life”:

“SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman are offering a brand new SoulFullHeart vlog series based on the 7 Key Areas Of Life related to your own personal Ascension process! We will be talking about the ways in which Ascension expresses in each area as you continue your healing inside, as well as how you can work with your parts and Metasoul Aspects through the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life healing path and process with regard to each one.”

To follow along with this series, you can visit the YouTube playlist here:

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

SoulFullHeart co-creator Raphael Awen continues his “Journal to the Demiurge” in a writing series describing his journey of an ambassadorship to connect with the Demiurge. The Demiurge is the Christian male ‘God’, who is also known as Jehovah or Yahweh in the Bible:

“I know the Christian God very well from a Christian perspective, having journeyed through my childhood along with 26 adult years as a devout Christian before I came to finally and openly renounce ‘Jesus as my personal savior’ in 2005, and from there to re-feel my entire relationship with ‘God’ or the Divine.

Please join me now as I feel called to set out through a daily journal journey to create an Ambassadorship from within to meet with and communicate with this Demiurge, Yahweh, or Jehovah.”

To follow along with this series, you can visit our blog here:

https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-raphael-awen/journal-to-the-demiurge/

In addition to these projects and our articles, many of these writings have been turned into audio blogs for you to either listen to or read along with our voices. We also offer podcasts of our audio blogs, livestreams, group calls and teachings for you to take in wherever you are! Available on SoundCloud or iTunes under SoulFullHeart Experience.

Jelelle Awen’s newest book, Bliss Mess,is now out! It is available as a PDF and Print edition at http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.


Our next upcoming event is a Group Call scheduled for March 10th at 11:11am CST.


We also offer a 30 minute FREE introductory session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator for you to connect what we offer in the SFH process with your life and journey. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offering. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these museletters directly, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Here’s another link to this week’s museletter:

http://mailchi.mp/f80d27b53073/soulfullheart-weekly-museletter-peace-at-the-cost-of-passion

Energy Update: Solar Eclipse Offers Joy Again And Setting Boundaries

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By Jelelle Awen

Partial solar eclipse today…visible with our third eyes mostly, felt in our hearts, registered by our souls and Higher Selves as the codes come streaming in. This eclipse offers that your SKIES can open up again….that the sun of love is meant to come in and arise again after you’ve been in shadow, in some craziness timelines, feeling parts of you in distrust and anxiety (as I’ve written about recently.)

The beaming joy of after birth; the relief of catharsis; and the exhale as tensions relax ARE needed and available in this Now. Without this experience of peace too, then parts of you are ‘suffering over your suffering’ and remaining in loops of reactivity to crisis leading to more reactivity leading to more crisis, etc. etc. Parts of you may be drawn to the comfort of the dark without balance of light and love to HOLD the next necessary exploration into shadow integration.

The eclipse also offers a showing of edges that are sometimes necessary; to see and claim boundaries that sometimes need to be set with others so that you can feel like YOU again, so that you can find inner peace again, so that you can cease the suffering loops that they produce and reflect of you to you.

You can see the overlap between your sun and their moon and feel if it still serves you and if you still want it in your galaxy or not.

Conscious choices in ALL areas of life are so important right now as so many timelines shift, collapse, and new ones, higher ones want to birth and emerge. The fear-based timelines can tug hard to keep you anchored into the old. Are you choosing from love or from habit of suffering? Are you choosing from love of yourself or from a place of self hatred and fear? Are you choosing from the newest and highest or from the known and the safe?

The planetary bodies eclipse and merge and overlap in moments such as this….and so offer us mirrors to see our own movements too. This is a time to fill up again with LOVE as the momentous journey of ascension continues on, along with the Divine align…..

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life and offers space holding sessions with women. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

PRACTICAL ASCENSION: 7 KEY AREAS OF LIFE – Spiritual Area Intro

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by Kalayna Colibri & Gabriel Heartman

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, discuss the spiritual area of life and the different ways parts of every human being may relate to it on a 3D, 4D and 5D level.

Spirituality tends to be the main focus for many as we live into Ascension, and all too often at the cost of the other areas of life that really can’t help but be connected to it. As arising and healing Sacred Humans wanting to co-create and experience a New or Golden Earth experience, grounding into our spirituality and feeling all of the different ways in which parts of us have related to it, is an important step to healing towards this new reality starting from the inside. Kalayna and Gabriel invite you to feel the different ways that parts of you may relate or not relate to spirituality, how your awakenings may play out in your life, and what can happen if you ‘pop’ into 4D and 5D spiritual consciousness without taking steps to reconcile your wounding in other areas of your life and your spiritual or existential wounding too.

As Gaia continues her ascent into more 4D consciousness, Her inhabitants (us) are being shaken to the core and sometimes awakened without prior sense of this coming or conscious desire for it. Awakening can happen spontaneously or can be sought through other experiences, such as with psychedelics. Moving more into 4D spirituality often means asking many questions, beginning to feel that spirituality starts within and that the Divine is as much a part of us as we are a part of it. Tidy compartments put into place by parts of us that have tried to keep our spirituality separate from other areas of life are being broken open and it is becoming harder and harder to keep these compartments in place. This is all happening with love and is necessary for our spiritual evolution as a species… though the road can be long, winding, and sometimes quite dark and full of thorns too.

Sometimes the spiritual area of life is related to with so much over-focus that other areas of life are neglected and thus different parts of us are neglected too. In SoulFullHeart, we experience ever-deepening and expanding spiritual awakenings and consciousness shifts through deep-diving within and looking at all areas of life as they are meant to flow and grow together. If you would like to take in more writings and videos on this topic, you can visit our blog and also check out more of our Youtube channel, as this is inherent in what we embody on this healing path and where we go inside of ourselves as well as with facilitants as they begin to feel parts and Metasoul Aspects of themselves, too.

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here on the blog, on the Youtube video, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. 

 Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Highest Timeline Illuminations And Clarities Teachings & Guided Meditation

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In this video and audio, SoulFullHeart co-creators, teachers, and facilitators Raphael and Jelelle Awen teach and share, along with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman.

In this video, Jelelle talks about the codes/information/uploads/downloads/activations that are still coming in to illuminate and push up esp. anxiety and distrust from inside that can get projected outside. Relationships are being shaken up by this as the previous grounds no longer ‘hold’ the unfelt anxiety and lack of safety and resonance. This mirrors the relationships going on inside. The feminine is leading this, inviting the masculine to feel genuine remorse and forgiveness and compassion for ALL, starting from within.

Then, Raphael shares about the about the inner connection process with the Protector, who can become healthy boundary setting as the healthy boundaries develop from inside. Taking action and choice points that are connected to trust and self love.

Kalayna and Gabriel then both share about the current ascension energies, integration of these energies to activate their highest timeline service of love, and their processes with parts of themselves and with each other in sacred union. They connect how they experience life from the SoulFullHeart perspective.

Raphael and Jelelle then lead a guided meditation to connect you with Divine Feminine and Masculine frequencies through Archangel Metatron and Goddess Sophia. You receive activations from the current energies as well. You then connect with your Inner Protector to allow a look into a pool of water to ‘see’ whatever your higher timeline vision is for your future and life.

We want to thank all of those that came to the call and vulnerably shared their personal experiences and processes. These are not a part of this recording but are available to those that donate to participate in the live call. If you are interested in being a part of these dynamic calls we are offering another on Saturday March 10. More info can be found on our website under Events.

Energy Update: Craziness Timelines Illuminate Need For Healing Of Inner Polarities

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By Jelelle Awen

We are entering into some ‘craziness’ timelines recently of heightened polarities and clashing dualities. These craziness timelines can bring in frequencies of distrust, suspicion, manipulation, and anxiety for us to see and feel on a collective level as they play out and yet personally too in our emotional bodies and Metasoul lines. This craziness is not judged as bad or evil by the Divine, just a reflection of the shadow that LIVES in us all as a by product of this 3D experiment into separation that NEEDS to heal and be felt. The Divine Feminine especially aches for us to heal this craziness inside of ourselves and in the collective too.

One of the ways craziness manifests is when your emotional reality inside doesn’t have a place to land in your external reality. Part of you, especially the Inner Protector, then create barriers and blocks to suppress your emotional reality, to cap your reactions from flooding into your life and with others. Part of you (what we call the Inner Punisher) can then judge your emotionality and your multidimensional capacity too as ‘being crazy’ which DOES create a sense of being crazy inside you that is reinforced by 3D culture and relationships. You are then comPARTmentalized inside and as you relate with your life, where certain expressions are deemed acceptable or unacceptable depending on the environment as parts of you adjust yourself to ‘fit in’ and ‘shrink in’ with 3D frequencies.

The Mother codes that recently activated with the two Supermoons in January want you to reconcile the craziness within yourself that has been created from the suppression and compartmentalization of your vulnerable feelings, authentic truth, expansive capacities, and genuine essence. She wants to hold space for your inner reconciliation of all aspects and energies of yourself WITH love.

Reconciling comes as you sometimes need to clash and bash into this craziness within relationships with others that draw these energies out, putting them ‘in your face’ for you to respond to and digest through them. You may have noticed an increase of craziness in your relationships lately or a sudden heightening of this frequency and drawing others that project this energy on to you. There is often a lot of unconscious projection going on here, where the other person is not conscious of what you are triggering within them or who you are actually representing for them from their ‘past’ or seeing that their reactions are a mirror of themselves. You may not be aware either of the depth of projection on your side, yet, as you connect more with parts of yourself it becomes easier to feel this and source it. You can then ask parts of you what is ‘really going on’ at the deeper emotional body levels (and soul timelines as well) that are coming forward and being triggered by the other person.

As you become clearer about this as connected to parts of yourself, you can then hold space for yourself, separate from going onto and analyzing the other person’s ‘side’ of things (which is usually a diversion from feeling yourself), and feel what is real for you. You can separate the craziness frequencies inside of you that are just parts of you that want and need your love and attention. You can feel if you want the other person to be in your life or not; what is healthy for you and what is not; what serves your self love process and what takes away from it. More about parts that we connect with in our SoulFullHeart process here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Healing the craziness polarity offers the balance of feminine frequencies of intuition, stillness, compassion, and forgiveness WITH masculine frequencies to take action, advocate, and set healthy boundaries. This is a HUGE healing that is necessary on a collective level as feminine and masculine have so long been ‘against’ each other rather than in dance with each other. This ‘against’ on the inside is another source of craziness.

This sacred union process begins from within and is sourced from the inner polarities healing between one part of you to another as you become more conscious of this. Your inner masculine drops the judgements, the guardedness, the defensiveness as it becomes more compassionate action, clear boundary setting, and wise guidance. Your inner feminine can then lean into this masculine without being diminished or suppressed in any way.

The beautiful dance of healing polarity from within offers unification and goodness…a lived in sense of wholeness and your BEing expression of Infinite Love in sacred human form coming into more and more balance!

~

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life and offers space holding sessions with women. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Loving Anxiety Into Trust As Timelines Collapse

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It’s the release of our weekly museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Click here to go straight to the museletter.

Energies were high this week as old timelines shift into the new. This week was largely focused on digestions of these energies and what they are offering for us to feel. In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart co-creator Jelelle Awen feels into anxiety and distrust. Where these feelings stem from, how the exist within us, and what they are trying to tell us from a parts perspective:

“It’s feeling like the current energies (which seem to have a Dark Mother or catalytic death-rebirth vibration to them) are illuminating what the sources of anxiety are in your life and inviting you to let them go. I have discovered that the biggest source of distrust comes up within relationships of all kinds. Our original hurt and wounding happened in relationship and anxiety stems mainly from the fear that hurt will happen again and the distrust in any sources of love with the projection that they will hurt you again.”

We have many other beautiful digestions this week from facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, as well as insights from our other co-creator Raphael Awen.

Jelelle Awen’s 33 Day video series, Metamorphosis, completes this week with Day 33:

“In this FREE daily video series, Jelelle Awen invites you to join her as she guides you on an arising, spontaneous, and potentially life shifting journey of integration leading to metamorphosis and transformation. For 33 days starting, she will show up in the moment to share from her heart and soul. Opening up to the current January, 2018 Ascension energies, she will share her unique perspective on the Cosmic energies of the sun, Gaia, the moon, portal and Gateway openings, etc. as they connect to the emotional body digestion and soul awakenings. She will ‘make it personal’ for you and all parts of you to digest and relate with.”

To follow along with this series, you can visit the YouTube playlist here: https://www.youtube.com/playlistlist=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri bring their own personal experiences of the SoulFullHeart ascension process through a video series titled “Practical Ascension: The 7 Key Areas of Life”:

“SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman are offering a brand new SoulFullHeart vlog series based on the 7 Key Areas Of Life related to your own personal Ascension process! We will be talking about the ways in which Ascension expresses in each area as you continue your healing inside, as well as how you can work with your parts and Metasoul Aspects through the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life healing path and process with regard to each one.”

To follow along with this series, you can visit the YouTube playlist here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

SoulFullHeart co-creator Raphael Awen continues his “Journal to the Demiurge” in a writing series describing his journey of an ambassadorship to connect with the Demiurge. The Demiurge is the Christian male ‘God’, who is also known as Jehovah or Yahweh in the Bible:

“I know the Christian God very well from a Christian perspective, having journeyed through my childhood along with 26 adult years as a devout Christian before I came to finally and openly renounce ‘Jesus as my personal savior’ in 2005, and from there to re-feel my entire relationship with ‘God’ or the Divine.

Please join me now as I feel called to set out through a daily journal journey to create an Ambassadorship from within to meet with and communicate with this Demiurge, Yahweh, or Jehovah.”

To follow along with this series, you can visit our blog here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-raphael-awen/journal-to-the-demiurge/

In addition to these projects and our articles, many of these writings have been turned into audio blogs for you to either listen to or read along with our voices. We also offer podcasts of our audio blogs, livestreams, group calls and teachings for you to take in wherever you are! Available on SoundCloud or iTunes under SoulFullHeart Experience.

Jelelle Awen’s newest book, Bliss Mess,is now out! It is available as a PDF and Print edition at http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.


Our next upcoming event is a Group Call scheduled for February 11th at 11:11am CST as well as our next Group Call, March 10th at 11:11am CST.


We also offer a 30 minute FREE introductory session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator for you to connect what we offer in the SFH process with your life and journey. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offering. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these museletters directly, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Here’s another link to this week’s museletter:

http://mailchi.mp/68280db56d43/soulfullheart-weekly-museletterloving-anxiety-into-trust-as-timelines-collapse

The Magic Of Name

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By Gabriel  Heartman

What’s in a name?

Shakespeare’s Juliet would say that “it matters not what name is bestowed upon thee for thy essence remains the same”. I am channeling of course, but I happen to agree with her in regards to the truth of our Divine BEing. However, we also live in a world of names. It is the nature of the duality of our 3D humanity. I believe even in our 5D reality we still have names as the name itself is a waveform expression of our BEing. It does its best to align with the essence itself.

I explore this because it was a year ago yesterday that I changed my name to Gabriel. Before that I went by Sequoia. Before that Christopher, Christian, and Chris. Each one represented a phase in my growth and dimensional frequency. They are like radio station markers on the FM dial. Each one held and energy or consciousness that still lives inside me as a part that has integrated to much degree. There are times when they come out like a solar flare to be felt as needed in whatever trigger constellated them out of their new home in my heart.

How does your name reflect You?

Does it match what emanates from your core?

How would it feel to you to change your name as a shift into a new version of you?

There may be a resistance to a change and that could be a part of you that is attached to that name for it represents so much. I went from Chris to Christian because when I really began to change I needed something new. ‘Chris’ represented something old, not bad mind you. He became a part of me to help feel all that was shifting and being left behind in regards to lifestyle and relationships. It was a tender holding of what had been ‘me’ for a very long time. One of the precious phases of my life. I have even changed my last name to denote something that no longer resonates for me in what was my 3D conditioning.

In SoulFullHeart, as you begin the exploration and journey withIN, you meet parts of yourself that hold a particular energetic and emotional frequency. They have been given names such as Inner Child, Inner Protector, Gatekeeper, etc. As you personally come in contact with your own, a personal name arises from this energy. It exemplifies and personifies. Makes it more intimate. It is amazing how the energy of the dynamic shifts once it has been birthed with this definitiveness. They become alive inside of us through the magic of naming.

It is all a part of the play that we are being invited to explore and embody. It is where we get to express and learn about ourselves. We may connect to names that represent our 4D metasoul lives both human and galactic. Connecting to these names help us tune into our expanded consciousness and receive the gifts of their vulnerabilities and strengths. They are portals into which we are being invited to feel, heal, and explore. They hold much creative power of our arising sacred humanity.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life – The Inner Mother/Father (Emotional Area)

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by Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, invite you to feel the emotional tones and origins of your Inner Mother/Father part(s) of you. These parts come from the lineages on our mother and father’s sides in this lifetime, yet they are also shaped by templating received by other sorts of caregivers, authority figures, and pervasive cultural conditioning around what it means to be a man or woman. A signature piece of this templating is often invulnerability in relationships, distrust towards life, love and others, control, and anxiety, all at varying degrees and depths.

The Inner Mother/Father can also be called the Inner Matriarch/Patriarch. Both of these represent the wounded masculine frequencies taken in in 3D reality. Kalayna and Gabriel discuss the different ways in which you can feel these parts within you, such as through feeling the relationship your mother and/or father had with their sexuality and their bodies, members of the same or opposite sex, life, money, etc. All of this templating becomes instilled within parts of us and until we can begin to feel its effect on us and the ways in which parts of us have also taken on this conditioning, it can be very challenging to actually heal this conditioning and begin to move beyond it.

Kalayna and Gabriel also share about their personal processes when working with these parts within themselves, as well as what this process usually looks and feels like for those who inhabit the SoulFullHeart Way of Life healing process and path. All of your committed efforts to being with and healing these parts of you opens up your heart to deeper compassion for how and why these parts originally formed as well as towards those who helped plant this conditioning within you in the first place. The ultimate intention is to begin to uncover and rediscover what it means to express as a ‘man’ or ‘woman’ in an authentic way that comes from a healing and conscious heart.

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here on the blog, on the Youtube video, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. 

 Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Loving Anxiety Into Trust As Timelines Collapse

Published on by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

Anxiety and distrust rumble in the belly, in the third chakra, in the solar plexus of the physical, and the gut of the emotional body too. They can burn and churn there, feeling like a constant tension that rarely eases or loosens its grip. Or anxiety flares up when love comes in and floods the usually well guarded places….when love ‘sneaks in’ beyond the Protector and the risk of getting hurt increases greatly. Anxiety can just BE so consistent inside of you, your emotional body, your chakras, that you don’t really feel it anymore or are conscious of it anymore. It just becomes like a background noise that you hardly ever notice.

Current ascension energies of light, of love, of illumination, of surrender are pushing up these frequencies of distrust and anxiety to the surface to be felt and healed and moved. These energies are making you notice also as they rumble through the old timelines of your life and start shifting you into the New. You may be experiencing a fresh flow of this and wondering, “Where is this tension coming from? Where is this anxiety coming from?” These Divine energies (especially from the Divine Feminine) support the asking of these questions and the answering of them too.

The answering can come from going within, to feel the sources of anxiety within your Inner Protector, who may be maintaining a near constant vigilance ‘against’ life bringing other parts of you any more hurt or harm. In this anxiety-fueled protection though, love can also be filtered out and the healthy digestion of the Divine’s love that wants to come into your BEing and water all parts of you too (including the Protector!). Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Protector:https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA…

Your Inner Protector also may be keyed into and connected to persecution frequencies in your Metasoul field that are playing out in other timelines. These are not ‘past lives’ at all but energizing in the Now. These timelines can create a constant tension in your energetic field (again often centered in the third chakra) as an energetic bleed through moves through of the battles, the persecutions, the betrayals, the violence….whatever storylines your Metasoul (Higher Self Soul Source) is playing out and involved with. We call this aspect of the Protector that remembers and knows about your other timeline aspects, the Gatekeeper. More about this part here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeeper

It can be challenging to connect with anxiety because the vibration of it often can’t settle down enough inside of you to receive love and connection. Situations and relationships in your life may push up MORE anxiety (in ongoing suffering/anxiety producing loops) and the whole ‘system’ repeats itself over and over. To connect with anxiety is to extend BIG self love to the energy of it, to feel the part of you that holds it and why, to become BIGGER than the anxiety and distrust. You become then a bridge for Divine frequencies to flood in, bringing more trust , surrender, and love to all the tense places.

I can feel anxiety quite easily in others and acutely, due to many years of healing mine through parts work integration and Metasoul aspect unification. I can feel the vibration of it in others, it is a distinctive tone….because I have felt it in myself. The first part of myself I connected to that had acute anxiety described herself as “Being as tense as a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs.” THAT described perfectly the extreme tension that lived and breathed in this part of me that had ingested so many volatile frequencies during my childhood that often led to harm and abuse. Through feeling her and many other parts that held anxiety (also Metasoul aspects that live in highly stressful and dangerous timelines), I have been able to relax so much more into trust and surrender to the outcomes of life and trust that Divine love was holding it all.

It’s feeling like the current energies (which seem to have a Dark Mother or catalytic death-rebirth vibration to them) are illuminating what the sources of anxiety are in your life and inviting you to let them go. I have discovered that the biggest source of distrust comes up within relationships of all kinds. Our original hurt and wounding happened in relationship and anxiety stems mainly from the fear that hurt will happen again and the distrust in any sources of love with the projection that they will hurt you again.

The timelines formed around relationships, especially those you are consciously unhappy about, are being rumbled with love so that they will collapse and you can move into the new….with the relationship intact or not. THIS can certainly push up anxiety too as it can be challenging for parts of us to trust that letting go of something will actually lead to something good and different.

The Divine Mother can hold beautiful, still space for anxiety to finally rest inside of you and Her energies are strongly here and have been since the start of the year especially. Calling on a connection with Her brings a soothing balm. Anxiety just needs love ultimately to allow for more trust and surrender for the ongoing navigation of all this shifting, changing, and growing into MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Forgiving Yourself, Opening Up Your Higher Heart W/Divine Mother

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By Jelelle Awen

“You are already forgiven. You are forgiven at the level of your essence as it can only BE love. You are forgiven for your motives as they can only return to purity. You are forgiven what has been judged by you as dark or sinful or destructive or harmful as ALL of it has served a purpose in your journey back to Love. You are forgiven for your distrust and your push aways as it is a necessary phase in the process. You are already forgiven…..NOW, begin to forgive yourself.” ~ Divine Mother

To forgive yourself is to feel the parts of you that struggle to feel these tones of forgiveness from and with the Divine. To become a bridge of forgiving compassion to ALL aspects of you, even the ones in shadow or the ones that have done and been ‘dark’ things; even the aspects in other timelines that have led wars or started battles or killed many people or been persecutors; even the ones that bring up initial fear and resistance to you to acknowledge or BE with.

Going onto your inner battlegrounds and forgiving all the players that you find on the field. Offering the reflection that there are always ‘good’ reasons for the choices in the bigger picture, in the higher sense, from the perspective of the Higher Self, and related to your soul’s growth. Showing these parts of you and Metasoul Aspects/Other Timeline Selves that they in their Divine essence are NOT dark at all and NOT evil either. Being curious about what their actual essence is beyond what they have done or been involved in. Inviting them to be vulnerable and share with you their deeper hurts, pains, and fears.

The Inner Punisher may be the part of you that is leading the charge of ‘wrongness’ message about you. This part of you may judge harshly and without love what you have done, what you have been engaged with, what your soul karmic patterns have been. The Inner Punisher TOO can be offered forgiveness for its judging as it has just been the product of a 3D environment that supports inner contention, distrust, and polarization in this way. Often, the Punisher is the one that needs forgiveness the most, yet most resists it. This Inner Punisher eventually becomes humble discernment, heart-based intuition, and wisdom. With the love or your forgiveness, your harshest critic can become one of your biggest allies.

This is the self forgiveness process that opens up and continues to expand the Higher Heart. The Higher Heart connects us to Unity Consciousness, which becomes challenging if you can’t feel Unity within. It opens up the flow and capacity to forgive others, which is actually often easier than to forgive yourself. You may extend to others a forgiveness that you cannot to yourself. This flow can be turned inward and needs to be in order for the transactable love that comes from self worth and overflows out to others inviting them into compassion, understanding, and forgiveness together.

Divine Mother frequencies are so helpful to support your self forgiveness process. “Forgive me Divine Mother for I feel sinful and like I have sinned, like I am unforgivable somehow” and you will discover that She already HAS forgiven you and all parts of you. You let in that She never sees you as sinful or as a sinner at all, yet a magnificent BEing that is learning, growing, transforming, and BEcoming love once again. Warmed up by this connection, you can offer this forgiveness to all parts of you in a flow that heals and soothes and acts as a blessed balm.

This music offers beautiful frequencies to connect with Sophia, a wise and compassionate form of Divine Mother: https://youtu.be/tFTlr0wGdWw

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.