Category: SoulFullHeart

SoulFullHeartMuseletter: Intense Ascension Energy Happening NOW!

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This week’s museletter is full of heart open digestions by Jelelle Awen that center around the intense waves of ascension energies that are coming at us from the cosmos.  These energies cause our emotional bodies to start to vibrate higher and that accentuates what needs to be felt to lighten it UP.  It is through deep feeling of our stuck emotional energies that we start to let in the Love that wants to make its way into our BEing so we can make room for MORE and serve MORE.   These upgrades are working your crystal body so you can begin to experience and witness more of what you have always been.

Included is information on our upcoming calls, such as this Saturday’s Women’s call over Zoom.  There is also an in-person meditation group that is occurring in Puerto Vallarta this Sunday.  There are our treasure trove of weekly writings that are sure to send you into deep space of feeling and introspection.  More poetry by Kalayna Colibri to delight your inner Muse.  Check out the newest audios and recording from last week’s men’s call.

Go here to visit this week’s museletter and visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com to sign-up to receive it in your email!

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Energy Update: UPgrades Of ALL Bodies, Especially Your Emotional Body (Video With Jelelle Awen)

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By Jelelle Awen

 

Oh, these HIGH energies….they seem to draw out the weather metaphors! Storms, blizzards, tidal waves…..whatever you call them, they feel like electric light and love flashes of goodness from the Universe and Divine Source. Our Star Family and our Ethereal Guides/aspects are witnessing and watching the ‘show’ as we are offered ALL that we need to UPgrade and transform into what we are meant to BE, the BEST of what we can be as sacred humans. These energies offer us tastes of how it IS when we vibrate at a higher rate and with more expanded consciousness from what we have been conditioned to in 3D life.
 
I felt to offer a video today talking more about the UPgrades that are available to us right now through these energies, and related to our emotional bodies specifically. The emotive ground of our BEing is one of the most magical and amazing things about us as humans. Our capacity to FEEL is admired by Higher Dimensional BEings. Our hearts and tears are a beacon going out into the galactic realms, drawing attention and focus from around the cosmos. ‘Your tears contain so much interesting information!’ one of my Star BEing aspects/guides exclaimed to me once as I was crying. And it feels so true!
 
To turn around our 3D conditioning that our emotions are ‘bad’, ‘wrong’ or ‘need to be suppressed’ or ‘need to be drugged or numbed’ is an important aspect of embracing the UPgrades that are available to us related to our emotional bodies. To instead feel that our emotions are ‘sacred’ (whatever they are) and are offering us important information and data about our hearts, mind, souls, and bodies. It becomes then about how we RELATE with our emotions, not resisting that we have them in the first place.
 
Reacting or reactivity is when we BECOME our emotions rather than feel them. It is a charged energy that just bursts out or is trying to be suppressed by a Protector Part of us and the whole energy can feel uncomfortable and awkward too because part of us is resisting to feel AND to be felt. When we are relating WITH our emotions as parts of us (identifying specific emotional tones with certain aspects of self), then we can get objectivity, separation, and self LOVING energies can come in. We are able then to understand and relate WITH what the feelings are, where they originate from, and help them transform into higher vibrational frequencies with eventual integration into the wholeness of our BEing.
 
I experience that people are the MOST beautiful when they cry and are feeling themselves. The MOST tender, precious, vulnerable, and even magical frequencies can come up in this emotional expression when it is allowed the space to BE and come and Arise. Not to suffer over suffering, but to feel, heal, transform, and, so, BEcome love, which is what these energies seem to be supporting us to BE! ~
 
I explain more about this process in the video below and there is much more information about how we work with this through individual and couples sessions in SoulFullHeart here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess. Also, Kalayna Colibri and I will be offering teachings and facilitation, plus I will be leading a guided meditation related to the sacred feminine emotional body, and how wounded masculine aspects show up, during a woman’s group call this Saturday: https://www.facebook.com/events/398188883914916
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Insatiable Appetite For More Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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The heart of a little girl, turns toward her mother and asks, “How do I get your love?”

The heart of a young woman in a new relationship, turns toward her partner and asks, “How do I keep your love?”

The heart of a young nun in her morning prayers asks, “How do I earn your love?”

The awakening heart turns to Love itself and asks, “How do I remember you, Love?”

These journeys begin with feeling as if Love is elusive, a butterfly to capture and keep, a path to master, something to make, do, take, have, possess…

These journeys continue with receiving ‘answers’ from outside, with only letting in that which can be seen or learned, until one day, the love that you simply ARE reminds you from inside of you that it was always there…

Abuses of all kinds create a struggle inside, bruised heart walls, parts that hate ourselves, push away others, trauma and drama attraction, resistance to Love and all of its tones and frequencies both challenging and comforting. To be in the heat of Love’s reawakening is to feel what’s blocking it, to feel the need for more of it, to realize the areas of life where it’s not flowing, to ask the questing questions that lead us to clarities of this step followed by that one… if you are used to crumbs, crumbs is all you’ll expect, but once you’ve allowed in a taste of the real thing, the real thing is all that can suffice and yet ironically is what stimulates the appetite for MORE.

Be insatiable. Every pore of your body, every cord of your heart song, every tone of your multi-dimensionality wants to want more, wants to BE more. The having and receiving of more comes from making room, from flowing over with love withIN, from letting it flow to others FROM you and WITH you, from feeling the parts of you that won’t let it, don’t want to trust it, have been burned, hurt, wounded by ‘love’ before, that can’t see or feel or let in just yet that within their hurt and pain lies a pearl – an exquisite gift – of experience, wisdom, heart-opening mess and the capacity to pick up the pieces and keep going on and IN as you grow and bloom and shine ever brighter. Hunger for the growth that allows in more love. Let yourself ask those questions you need to ask parts of you and soul aspects of you. And bring it all back to your appetite for more love to let in and crave for.

To live life this way turns everything on its head! It brings in a whole new way of digesting all experiences, all challenges, all processes. It gives you a home frequency to tune into during emotional phases of deeply feeling your wounding. It motivates you to keep going in and through and guides you in the same.

It’s time to remember… and it’s up to you if you decide to now or later, yet it doesn’t matter, because you will never be less love or loved than you already are in this moment. ❤

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In SoulFullHeart, the process is always about leaning back into love in the end, though the journey to do this is complicated and challenging at times. Digesting pain with a heart-open other who can reflect to you what you need to keep feeling in order to heal it, is simply what works. If you’re interested in feeling into having sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Bliss Mess Of Feeling Your Emotional Body During Ascension

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By Jelelle Awen
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High pressure systems of energy, like what we are experiencing in the NOW and for many days/weeks/months, push up INTENSE feelings of what has been previously suppressed. Sometimes what has been judged by the part of you that judges as ‘ugly’ or ‘messy’….those often disowned tones of rage, despair, disdain, disconnect, depression, drama, self loathing….all those parts that have probably been deemed as ‘not fit for company’ or ‘put away in the inner closet.’

Explosive sometimes, these feelings can come up. Triggered by relationships, by situations, by just more moments made for them and by going within. The soul awakening can’t be bubbled off from the emotional body for long….eventually what has been let in (the frequencies of love and light) wash through and push UP reactions. Your Inner Protector may come in then and shut that process down with ‘no feelings allowed!’ messages, or certainly not any ‘negative’ ones that it thinks are NOT ok to see the light of your day.

Somehow it seems like the message has gotten highjacked by the parts of people that don’t want to feel anything difficult, messy, or ‘negative.’ When actually the HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love are what make it SAFE to feel these things. They are being provided by the Divine to ALLOW us to go into our emotional body in a way that we haven’t before as a species as THAT Is the ground that needs the MOST healing and of our attention.

We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much MORE than we have been human BEings. We are HERE to experience the bliss mess (yes BOTH) of FEELING. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in ALL its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely NEW.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy….this I have been offered over and over.

As an emoto-spiritual forecaster (like weather forecaster, yes, that fits….of inner and outer heart and soul energies), I feel it’s important to offer a bridge about what is happening OUT THERE in the cosmos, in the grids, in the galactic spaces TO what may be happening inside, in your emotional body, in your reactions and experiences. Without that bridge, it can be challenging to feel how what is happening in the galactic ascension process has much meaning to your daily life as you are living it as the human BEing that you are.

I struggle sometimes when I am reading an energy update from someone to feel how it would relate to the pain, suffering, confusion, fear that I feel coming up for so many right now (and for parts of me for so many previous years too.) Or, if the energy healer/teacher does offer something about emotions, it is usually to just ‘be with them and allow them to move’ and they will ‘release’ somehow. While, yes, holding space for emotions is important and they can ‘move’ this way, in my sense it is just the surface level off gassing frequencies that move and most likely NOT the deeper root causes and origins that live in the emotional body AND in the soul field.

The emotional body has been my playground, me ground, and service of love ground for 10+ years (almost 15, I think) and it offers SO MUCH clarity, relief, and transformation to just DIVE into it rather than ignore it, suppress it, bypass it, spiritualize it, etc. The soul legacy ground/body has been the same for me and with others…..and it offers SO much richness of integration of soul gifts, soul purpose, archetypal healing to remember, to relieve, to feel, and to go there.

Yes, but, how? How to dive in? This is an important question, it really is, because BEing needs form to follow for awhile so that it can arise, which it will eventually if you are authentically going into the emotional body and the soul body too. The how I have written about many times and ways and you can read much more about the SoulFullHeart process that we offer at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The main how is through connecting directly and with deep love to different aspects of yourself that LIVE in your emotional body and the ones that energize as ‘other lifetime’ aspects in your soul field too. SoulFullHeart Facilitators (including me for women over 30) then hold the space for this deep dive WITH you, yet it is led by you and your discoveries of SELF through journaling and meditation journeys primarily. And we offer a community of others engaged in this same process to provide support, powerful mirroring, intimacy, and connection through group calls, process groups and retreats in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, and a private online group. More of the how is here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and here soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

That’s my how anyway, maybe yours will be and is different. Yet, the importance of going into the emotional body seems difficult to deny when you feel the state of emotional maturity and health in our world and culture. This is like our ‘final frontier of exploration, along with our soul legacy (which was previously shrouded by a necessary veil of amnesia until we are ready). It offers a moon walk of emotional mystery, a bliss mess experience of US that unfolds in unexpected yet magical ways that ALWAYS seems to lead back to the experience of MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Shelter For The Inner Storms

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by Kalayna Colibri

Shelter

 

Cloudy morning feelings

of going IN.

My heart beats through

impending storms

of ‘time’ mixed with LOVE…

 

The land goes through collapsing

timelines

every time the rain pours

and rolling thunder

precedes renewing lightning strikes

of electric and alive possibilities.

 

Ascending hearts meet rolled-over beaches,

ocean waves flushing foreign objects

up to the shore.

Remnants of old phases

needing attention.

 

Weather movements

bring land and sea purges.

Another chance for renewal

that Gaia takes hold of

every single time.

 

And so

the invitation to another this

inside of us

brings us forward

into new places,

lets in more LOVE waves

lightning storms

and churning, renewing

inner selves.

 

Your lighthouse self

grows with every beat

of high ocean tide waves

stirring around

the debris of kicked-up

journey markers

and intensely trodden paths.

 

The light within

is for you to have

be

as the direction of Home

guides you

inside all places

of high pressure patterns

and inner weather maps.

 

For the LOVE of it all

you continue to shine

while collecting windward

clues

and healing cues

for that beacon

you are meant to BEcome…

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

When Love Comes Knocking

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It is HERE.  It is NOW.  The offer and invitation to fully embody all that we chose to embody.  There is no limitation other than the one that we have decided to subscribe to.  There are no obstacles other than the ones we put in our own way.  The ones that we have INside that are reflected on the OUTside.  It is a tough pill to swallow that we have all the power in the world to create the world that mirrors us.  It is so easy to merge with the feeling of powerlessness as that has been the pervasive force in this third dimensional playground.  It is us hiding from our own true power that creates this Land of Confusion.

When you choose a path of healing in earnest, you are asking the universe on a quantum level.  Not just in some ¨give me some peace and tranquility¨ sort of way.  That is what a part of you may want.  Usually the part of you that has been working damn hard to keep you from getting into too much healing.  The kind that turns worlds upside down and inside out.  But just enough to be in a sweet spot of enjoyment and fulfillment.  And that is certainly good medicine and sacred healing……until….something comes knocking on your door that wants to challenge that comfort zone.  In almost every case it is Love that came to remind you that you signed up for something different.

¨Oh,  hello, Love.  Nice to see you again.  Did I mention that things are good now and I don’t think I will be needing your services anymore?¨

¨Hmmm….really?  Okay, well it is hard to separate yourself from your essence, which is me, but I get why you may need some time to let me in a bit more.  I’ll just be waiting in the car.  Don’t mind me if I come back.  Just sort of my job to remind you once in a while.¨

¨That feels a bit pushy.¨

¨I get that.  It is hard to let in that you were meant for love and that you are love, even if it shakes things up a bit.  I have compassion for that. That is why I love you.  But I am also persistent because you ARE me and I am YOU and we were meant to find each other.  It is all up to you on the timing.  But before I go back to the car, can I ask you one question?

¨Hmm..okay.¨

¨Can you ask the heart you are protecting how THEY actually feel?¨

¨I don’t know who you are talking about.¨

¨Hmmm…okay.  I think you do but I can wait.  I’ll be back later to check in with you. I’ll just be sipping my green tea.  Good for heart you know.¨

¨Yeah…that is what I have heard.  I appreciate your visit but I am good thanks.¨

¨Sure..,see you soon.¨

Love doesn’t want us to suffer or remain in a status quo.  It want us to feel our deepest desires and respond to what arises, even if it pushes on some long standing sore spots.  The ones that rightfully created a wall to protect the wound.  They are sacred walls and served a purpose.  As Love’s frequencies are being dialed UP,  its wind starts to buffet these walls and the soldiers at the gates get at the ready.  It is a sign of the power that is HERE and NOW.  Not an enemy to be thwarted but the truest Joy and Passion that we have kept locked up in the vault of our wounded heart.

It is through feeling the part(s) of us that have felt the need to protect us from this ¨INvasion¨.  This unstoppable force of our highest expression and desire as sacred human hearts and souls.  These parts of us are dear to us and have served us well and can guide us on our further journey into the heart of Love.  The one we signed up for ¨so long ago¨ and yet have been experienced into forgetting.  If you are feeling a rumble in your life that is causing you to feel some anxiety or defense this could very well be Love coming to knock on your door.  It tends to come at the most auspicious of times and in the most unlikely of ways.  At least to the conscious self.  Your Higher Self sits back and just keeps on doing what you have asked it to do, even despite the protest and fear.

SoulFullHeart offers a way to go into this rumble and support you to feel it one negotiated step at a time.  We have been through many of these rumblings and even experience them today, and use the container of parts work and space-holding as the way to open up to our next vistas of purpose and letting in more love.  To learn more about this process you can visit here.

Answering the door is the first step.  Letting love into your house is what you came here to experience….after you have some green tea of course.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing 3D Aspects Of Yourself To Draw Your Highest Timelines

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By Jelelle Awen

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HIGH frequencies of light and love are coming in right now, offering an increasingly visceral and real sense of your highest timeline expression of your soul through your humanity. The NEW timelines don’t just happen to you though. They don’t just appear suddenly AS your life. It is the choosing consciously, the energizing consciously, the healing consciously, which creates the NEW. It is sitting in the Now and accepting it with gratitude as it IS. It is accepting WHILE desiring the NEW to unfold. You can feel both inside of you because that is where they live until they manifest as your outer reality.

As parts of you have settled for the current situations, present circumstances, life as you’ve known it so far….as this happens, so this is your choice. You ‘fuse’ to these parts of you and their emotional realities (usually subconscious) and so you ARE them. Even as your awakening self, your authentic self, longs and desires for MORE and for NEW. Other parts of you may suffer over what you want and what is not yet. Or feel at times hopeless or powerless or that the NEW is impossible. Or judge that what you want is not acceptable or that you are not worthy to have it. Or shut down possibilities with concerns, anxieties, and fears over being hurt or hurting others with your choices. So this creates a ‘push pull’ inside of you and very mixed feelings around the NEW and actually pushes away or stalls it from unfolding. And, this may even be happening at a mostly unconscious level for which you aren’t even aware of it.

These parts of you have been conditioned by a 3D world that operates on limiting, controlling, finite, and stuck energies. The prevailing worldview (esp. In Western cultures) is toward the external and the ‘out there’ thinking, orientation, and focus. It pivots self worth off of material gains, attainments, academic and mental achievements. It operates on constant distraction and numbing of feelings. Relationships are hot beds of codependence, clinging and binding, distancing and pushing away, shrinking and settling. All of these frequencies are sponged into you as you adapted and conformed to the environment you were surrounded by and raised in.

You may have mostly left this 3D conditioning and world behind in significant ways yet, inside, it has not ‘left’ the parts of you that been so deeply ingrained and impacted by it. You can see and feel how it shows up in your life when you look at it from a certain way and through the lens of not just a singular “I” or you at the center of your life, but rather many aspects and parts of you influencing and expressing in many different ways in your life. There is more about parts and subpersonalities (formed ‘this life’ and also soul aspects) that we work with in our SoulFullHeart process through sessions and within community here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Even as YOU awaken, you remember more and more the soul reason and purpose you are here, and choose more based on this…..so do parts of you live inside that are still in 3D reality, 3D conditioning, existing and freeze frame stuck in a 3D vibrating emotional body. These aspects act as anchors to your ascension and your soul awakening. They draw situations and looping patterns within relationships from your ‘trailing edge’ of wounding. To the degree these parts remain in shadow and suppressed or undifferentiated, then so do their frequencies draw more of the same.

This is possibly why even those who are very into the law of attraction, thinking positively with intensity, are still drawing circumstances that aren’t what they most want and desire. They have a conscious self which wants to draw the new reality by thinking about it, yet that isn’t actually only what draws the NEW but rather the emotional body and the state of its health too. So you can ‘change your thoughts’ and yet at the deeper level of the emotional body, nothing has actually changed or shifted. So, you will you continue to draw what you most need to see and feel related to your own healing and growth. This is not ‘life’ or the ‘Universe’ acting against you when It doesn’t bring you what you want, but rather it bringing EXACTLY what you most need to heal and parts of you choosing not to look at that or go into it.

Even as you awaken and choose more from your soul self, there are still areas of your life which reflect the trailing edge or wounded frequencies. This may be in your relationships, with a partner that doesn’t ‘get you’ or isn’t awakening with you or where hot romance has been replaced by friendly brother-sister energies. Or it may be in your birth family and friend relationships, with them reflecting judgement at your soul choices and how you are changing, or them feeling abandoned by you or ‘left behind’. This may be in your career or job, your means for earning livelihood that isn’t connected to your higher purpose serving love here yet, and parts of you consciously suffer in this job. Or you ARE offering your healing service with others, but it is not enough to provide you with what you need and want and you are compromising in some other way, such as living with birth family, returning ‘home’ after you have left a 3D based livelihood.This may be in having physical illnesses and diseases and injuries that don’t seem to resolve even with holistic and alternative means of therapies.

BEing with, feeling, and connecting with these parts of you with MUCH love and curiosity moves their stuck energies into the NEW. Your awakening self forms a bridge to these aspects, bringing them higher frequencies of love to help them move out of 3D and into the Now. They integrate into your awakening self eventually; their energies merging in with yours. Your love of self grows exponentially as these previously suppressed and hidden aspects of you receive the goodness of your love. Your Inner Protector and Soul Guardian can then ‘release’ the floodgates of love to flow into ALL areas of your life, which then attracts soul family, soul mates, soul purpose-based livelihood, vibrant health, and whatever else is the expression of your NEW.

The ultimate surrender sometimes is to feel that what you are drawing in this now IS your highest timeline as it is the one that you most NEED for your own growth in the moment. EVEN AS the Universe and the Divine holds what is your most authentic and highest expression. Your higher self embodies this too, who you BEcome more and more as you separate from the 3D aspects that lower your vibrational frequency.

We are being invited into our highest timelines and manifestation of our highest purposes here to serve love. We are being offered HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love to serve this movement, this ramping UP, into the expression of our highest self in human form, our sacred human. We are receiving much support and guidance from higher dimensional BEings and our Metasoul aspects in many galactic forms, whatever forms that we most want and need and are ready to let in. In our willingness and openness to GO IN and BE with these aspects of ourselves do we BEcome what we ARE already, an expression of Infinite Love in sacred human form.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Feminine Stillness In Shifting Times

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

stillness in movement

 

In moments like these, with much rumbling and shifting and changing going on, I feel my feminine stillness arising alongside a deepening trust more and more often. I feel my body, heart, soul and mind too, soaking in a pool of still yet steadily flowing water. A paradox, yes, as we all are too it seems, always in motion somehow or other, always moving with some sort of current, finding our new breath on our way out of birth canals. We find our ways to BE with what IS but still find ways to hold the rumbles, trusting that even as parts of us quake in the emergence of NEW, we will find our desires being answered. Without entitlement, I can feel what is coming and that it’s already here too. I can feel the impending life shifts that are coming and the parts of me that are scared. I can feel the humility this offers too, as I allow in these fears just don’t fuse to them as I used to so often, not all that long ago. MY version of arising feminine stillness and deep trust has been an intense journey of forks in the road, sharp turns around jagged corners, and collapses into the processes of NOW.

I feel so much in my heart that can hold just about anything that comes up now… after having processed so much, I feel as if my container has expanded and can hold as much as it needs to. The next step is really letting in the care of this container, feeling what energies are okay right now, what my body and heart need right now, what my parts or Metasoul aspects need right now.

This process… is the one we are invited into as men AND women. It is a going in to find stillness, to bring this gift into our daily life moments, our relationships, any emotional underpinnings that are being unearthed, any spiritual endeavour or discovery. It finds us like the river finds the ocean. It finds a way to breathe outward while going inward. It is paradoxical and yet it is just what IS, without mental framing necessary. It is the ultimate in self-love that will be more felt by women than by men, in themselves at least, yet this stillness holds an offering to men too, to find their portal in it in a mate, in any feminine connection, and inside of them too to the degree that they can let this in and embody it. More paradoxes there, yes. It is endless.

Where the resistance ends, the stillness begins. And the trust your soul has always somehow had, finds its way to your consciously held life structure, whispering to you of new possibilities, and offering to you some NEW pictures of what is to come, if you can do the work necessary to let it all in… ❤

 

Join Jelelle Awen and I at our next SoulFullHeart Virtual Group Call for Women NEXT Saturday, June 15th. We would love to have you! Go here for more details. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Let’s Fall

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Here is another shot of SoulFullHeart love that will assuredly get your chakras activated!  Featured this week is a beautifully hearticulated poem by Kalayna Colibri that sends out a call to those who are on the edge of romance but have yet to make that impassioned claim to go all-in regardless of where the road may lead you.  It is the process itself that leads to new growth places inside ourselves and a possibility of deepening union with another.

¨I want those scraped knees…and grass-stained jeans. Those ripped up shirts…that tangled hair. The one way…to tear down curtains…over those layers…that need revealing.¨

Added to this heart feast is an invitation to the next men’s group call this coming Saturday, as well as information on the upcoming general group calls, and the next women’s call.  Jelelle writes vulnerably about her experiences with Raphael and their MetaSoul partners that add to this ever deepening of the nature of counterpart romance, as well as her weekly Energy Update.  Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri continue to share there personal experience of the heart and what it is like to ache and enter into sacred romance explorations.

A big celebration for Jelelle’s new book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder, is showcased and links to its purchase in both Ebook and print versions are linked.  New recordings of past writing and the latest group call recording is available as well.  All right there in a quaint package for your viewing pleasure.

Go here to visit this week’s museletter and visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com to sign-up to receive it in your email!

 

Enjoy soaking up the SoulFullHeart sun…. ❤ to you all!

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Rediscovering That Creative Heart In Us, Beyond Self Punishment

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by Kalayna Colibri

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When I was a teenager, creative outlets ‘saved’ me in a way… especially exploring my creativity in private, or at least as private of a setting as I could find. I was doing regular dance classes and you would think that was helpful too, yet there was something about being in a ‘class’ setting such as this, that stoked the fires of comparison to others for parts of me that I couldn’t feel directly. Perhaps if I could have, I wouldn’t have kept doing these classes, but it’s hard to say. They were helpful for many reasons and yet, they were painful too. It was more often the dancing, singing, performing that I did for invisible audiences (likely higher selves of soul family and maybe star being family and guides too at the time!) who would inevitably adore me and enjoy my performances with no cloaked judgments or making parts of me feel self-conscious, that I thoroughly enjoyed. These parts of me so needed this, growing up in this 3D reality where we are taught to judge others and ourselves for just about everything so soon in our lives, and always, it feels like, because our caregivers and teachers are overflowing with this judgement toward themselves first.

These times in my parents’ basement were so sacred… I even remember buying a headset mic that was meant for a computer, so I could wear it like a pop star! Sometimes I sang, sometimes I lip-synched instead. But it was ALL fun and most of the time, I somehow managed to free myself from self-judgment frequencies because from me to me, I had space to enjoy being with ME.

There’s something about our ways of expressing ourselves creatively that pings for me now, especially as just an hour ago I was singing my heart out a bit, for the first time in a LONG time and I have to say it felt really, REALLY good… my heart wanted to sing out in expression and love. Reconnecting with music that I used to listen and sing to many years ago. I could feel part of me feeling self-conscious, wondering if the whole complex that I live in could hear me singing… and worse yet, that they would think I was awful. And then, I also felt how in these precious moments I didn’t actually care if they did and if they judged. So both were true for me and that’s okay. It felt important to give myself permission to just BE in the music, let something roll out of my heart, have some FUN too. Give myself permission to NOT be perfect or seek perfection in any way. Just sing OUT. I feel there is so something in this for all of us, perhaps especially in this process of ascension that’s happening so quickly for so many of us and can have such intense phases physically, emotionally, spiritually, etc. Where did our creativity go that could carry us through and that was given to us to help life feel like MAGIC again and stoke our imaginations so we can blaze like the LOVE stars we truly are?

As our inner-punishment heals, especially through this work we call SoulFullHeart where we work with and deeply feel the parts of us who hold these frequencies, we can begin to be more in our creative magic again. This feels so important to me, because we ARE creating in every single moment as we really can’t help but do and BE this as human beings! We are creation constantly creating… we shift these frequencies of what this creativity draws when we reclaim our power and see what we’ve been drawing instead of what we actually want.

And so, I know that I hope this is only the beginning of me exploring art forms that once brought my heart out to play, though of course writing like this does that too! We are so meant to sing, to throw our heartbeams outward through dance and movement too, to let our lungs fully expel the old air and invite in the NEW. And to encourage everyone to do the same… without polish or perfection but just our human ISness that wants and aches to come out and play again, create and recreate a magical life again, love ourselves everything about us again and again and again…

❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.