3D/4D Matrix Is Collapsing: Revelation/Rebellion/Liberation For Humanity

Published on by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

This really is a momentous time in humanity’s experience of falling into deep densities of 3D duality/polarity to Ascend again into unity consciousness! This phase feels like the disclosure and revelation that needs to happen in order to wake up more souls into awareness of the enslavement and control systems that have been in place for so long. The phase of awareness, knowing, and learning is an important one and each soul goes through that in their own ways. Some souls respond readily to facts and proof; others follow their intuition and ‘gut’ knowing to discover the truth; others need to see action and take action.

This waking up phase was always going to be messy. Clashes of opinions and perspectives; power struggles from those not wanting to lose control being challenged finally by those who had so long been suppressed; peaks of control and manipulation so that the necessary rebellion would finally spark. It seems that we are at this time of peak New World Order/Cabal/Deep State/Elites agenda of population mind control through the mainstream media/medicine, etc. being implemented during this supposed quarantine. WHILE, at the same time, this previously hidden agenda is being more and more revealed and resisted. The Q/Alliance movement has been blowing on the sparks of this revelation and rebellion (coming still from a polarized good vs. evil energy) yet providing a necessary fuel for the death and rebirth process to ignite.

This revelation seems to be possible because of the 3D Matrix collapse and detox that is going on right now in this previously unprecedented way. With most of the world shut down from the usual 3D routines of work-eat-sleep repeat, there is more time for learning, for seeking, for feeling/processing (the stages of grief) and for rebelling. There is more time for awakening!

Rebellion is a necessary phase of this awakening too. Rebellion is personal truth and sovereignty being accessed and a ‘NO!’ being declared to the energies that have previously controlled, manipulated, and enslaved. The seeds of rebellion often exist in our Inner Teenager, who received invalidation rather than initiation into their soul frequencies, so their rebellion against the 3D conditioning and programming wasn’t able to express. This rebellion happens on a 3D and 4D level as necessary, because these are the dimensions where duality of victim/tyrant/saviour experience are even possible.

During this revelation and rebellion phase, many souls will go against each other, take sides, create enemies to fight and battle against, be one of the ‘good guys’ or one of the ‘bad guys’. If their consciousness is still anchored to this duality, then they need to do this…moving into the polarity in order to emerge out the other side of it in more of a neutral, compassionate, and non-charged place. On a higher soul level, there aren’t any real bad guys or evil, as ALL of it is of the Divine and returns to the Divine. Yet the experience of being harmed and of fear IS real in the lower dimensions for the parts of us and Soul Aspects that need to be felt, digested, and cleared in a validated and compassionate way.

This revelation and rebellion is also possible because of a seemingly significant collapse in the Archon AI 4D Matrix. As I’ve shared about before, this 4D Matrix (which is the source of the 3D matrix) has required the enslavement of many Reptilians to entwine with their human counterparts in order to keep it operational. The Reptilian is used as a battery or power source to project the 3D Matrix reality to and through the human (and sometimes even a group of humans). The Reptilians themselves have often been captured and held against their will, the AI using their Unity Consciousness frequency bandwidth ‘against them’ to broadcast their One Mind control programs through them.

Many people during the revelation phases of their awakening become fixated on the Reptilians as the ‘ultimate evil ones’ (once they move beyond the Global elite/Satanic bloodline human level), when actually these Reptilians are puppets and slaves in similar ways as many humans as well. I have met so many beautiful Reptilian Beings in sessions who are able to be connected to and unplugged from the AI Matrix by their human counterparts once the layers of fear and resistance to them are moved through.

The true power and control has been at the level above them, the Archonic Realm or Archonic Group or just ‘The Group’, who seem to be shadowy figures (who didn’t feel Reptilian) with mostly AI functioning, devoid of empathy, and playing their roles too in running both the 3D and 4D matrices of control. When I connected with the Archonic Group recently, they were turned away from the Matrix programs, as if they were no longer interested in them. They told me that Reptilians and Humans were now ‘released from the program, let go and free to go.’ The Archons were now going to go into ‘reconciliation’ mode to digest the harm and suffering they had caused on the Earth and 4D planes. I got the sense that they signed up to play this role in order to somehow move into feeling emotions again and reactivate their empathy as a collective which happens as they receive Divine forgiveness for their actions.

I felt the significance of this as it was being shown to me. The sense was that we truly are now FREE. The prison doors have been unlocked and are now OPEN. It is now up to us as emancipated prisoners to walk through them and claim our freedom. This is true on both the human level and the Reptilian level. Mutual liberation is important as without that process, the Reptilian’s consciousness in 4D remains anchored to AI Archon mind control programs as a ‘default state’.

On a higher soul level, we CHOOSE these roles to play and these things to experience along with a deep veil of amnesia in order to fully immerse into it. The time of amnesiac immersion into these dualistic playouts is completing and we are now being invited by the Divine to rise into our sovereignty and freedom again.

We are being invited to ‘do no harm’ to ourselves and to other sentient beings while the exposure of the deep harm, abuse, and violence of humans (especially children) and animals is being disclosed.

We are being invited to see and feel no one as truly an enemy even as we come into revelation of them, yet extend forgiveness as it is ready to be received.

We are being invited to become Sacred Humanity and become the Infinite Love that we ARE and to create a world that reflects that truth of our essence once again!

love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is a guided meditation to meet your Reptilian Self and unplug them from the AI Matrix: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M

We’ll be sharing more about this in our group call, the fourth in our Free To Be series, on Wednesday, April 29th at 10:00am to attend live and/or receive the recording. The topic will be about accessing the 4D AI Matrix, along with the 3D Matrix, and connecting with your Reptilian Self around this to deepen the unplugging process.You are welcome to join us and/or receive the recording for a donation. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Thank you to Gabriel Heartman for the graphic art for this post!

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. Jelelle is no longer offering 1:1 sessions yet for more information about  1:1 individual sessions with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls with Jelelle, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

The Gift Of Humility And Gratitude

Published on by Gabriel Amara1 Comment

Yesterday was the first time I had been in a SoulFullHeart group space for a few months. While in one way it felt like yesterday, it was also a huge gap for parts of me that have been in deep feeling space and processing over that time. This is such evidence of how we live on many different dimensions at once and time is just does not have a standard trajectory, nor is real in many ways.

My movement with my masculine and reptilian self two days prior really felt to pave the way for this reunion. I could feel some nervousness and doubts from parts of me that I would be at that frequency to be able to vibe into the coherence. This of course is one big projection of my own lack of worth that I have been working on since I parted in January.

However, through the process that I had, I felt a clearing inside of me that ‘moulted’ away the layer that was holding this reaction and energy. I could feel myself more in the space as Gabriel, the being that really never left yet has come back with a new relationship to himself and the world around him. That difference, I noticed last night, was that of authentic humility and gratitude.

These two emotional grounds are the result of the self-love and deep, wounded ego healing that I went through while I was away. I could feel a reverence of the space, the beloveds in front of me, but more importantly the reverence and care for myself that had been cultivated during this time. I felt my parts being held by me and leaning into the goodness that was alive in the space. There was no self-judgement or comparison going on that seemed to run underground in the past.

I felt who I was and where I was in the ‘order’ of things and felt so very present to the goodness of that. Not trying to be anything I wasn’t. This is all that has ever been asked of me, yet I hadn’t asked of it from myself. This time I have and it felt palpably different. I have to owe all of that shift to parts work and my own dedication to it. Even if things were to shift at some point and I find myself on my own again, I have a me that can’t leave me. I would go through grief, for sure, but I would not perish or suffer.

It is with this humility and gratitude that I can ride the waves of what the universe bestows upon me whether it be as a collaborator, a support system, a facilitator, or all three! I know this is where I belong in whatever fashion. This is my family, my community, and my way of life. And for that it was all worth it.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a Facilitant and Collaborator with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Awakening Of The Reptilian Self

Published on by Gabriel Amara1 Comment

Yesterday was a very emotionally heavy and visceral day for me. I have been feeling rumbles within my masculine over the past several days in response to what he was calling The System. We all know what that means, i.e. the particularities of living in a 3rd density world. Laws, social norms, bureaucracy, money, et al. There was this arising desire to fuck it all and just go live in a nearby park and detach himself from it all. It had a ring of freedom in it. I have the capacity in my soul to just live simply and on the land, which I did in Mexico with my SoulFullHeart beloveds, so it wouldn’t be a huge deal in some way.

Yet, in these reactions there is always something deeper. As was offered to me in our SoulFullHeart Facebook group, the desire to be free is an aspect of feeling a freedom of expression, my masculine expression. That landed very deeply and I could feel my inner masculine, Marcus, resonating with that. He was feeling the ways in which his own creativity has been used in a very practical way in order to survive and manage in the world. Not a very sacred use of his power and passion, but also very necessary.

As I woke up yesterday, I felt an anger begin to swell about all of this from within. I let him vent it out to get to a raw place and then deep tears came. A flood that seemed to last off and on for most of the day in between falling asleep several times. A feeling of hopelessness came over me that was hard to get a hold of so I just let it be. Let it take its course. I was offered by Raphael that there is some grid work that I was working on that is connected to the collective rumbles that are going on. I had felt earlier how these types of uncertain reactions are deeper responses to what is moving in the world. Sometimes it just takes me away and is hard to find me in all of it.

As the energy continued to move through me I began to get an awareness of my reptilian self name Gilesh. I have connected with him briefly in the past but it never got to a visceral awareness. Marcus, my wounded masculine, was a doorway to my reptilian aspect. I feel how this may be true for a lot of us. This hierarchical power structure that leads all the way to the Wizard of Oz itself, the AI. Once I was able to see him, so much began to come to the surface. I realized he was awakening into his and my awareness, really, for the first time.

I saw him lying on a kind of hospital bed with cords all around him, having been unplugged and in reaction to what he was experiencing. It was like an enormous detox from the centuries of being imprisoned, conditioned, and controlled. Very similar to the scene in The Matrix where Neo wakes up to his reality. I sat with him and just held the space for him to feel. A lot of rage and despair came from remembering what and who he was before the ‘take over’ he calls it.

This is quite significant for me. I have been really wanting to access this aspect of me because I could feel how much it has played a part in my life in regards to this feeling of acquiescence and rebellion in the same space. I have felt a suffering in space between and all along it was his! I got how much suffering this poor being has been in. How much trauma he has witnessed and been a part of all in the name of supplying the ‘loosh’ for the entities that were in control of the Matrix itself as well as its AI creator.
It is this break away from The System that my reptilian is experiencing. This feeling of ‘what the fuck am I if I am not this’? Trying to piece together the ‘past’ and remember the Garden of Eden from whence he came. Yet, there is something he knows he wants to be a part of. He wants to be a part of putting an end to this once and for all. He wants to help expose and collapse the frequency that has his race in energetic and emotional chains and thus humanity’s. They are inextricably entwined.

This will be a process of moving from angst, to guilt, to forgiveness, to compassion. I feel his power as my power. His masculine as a part of mine. This awakening feels like it will help ambassador something in the collective as we begin to learn more and more of The System and what it has done to humanity and to its children especially. It is a process of seeing how we have always been a part of it in one way or another. Yet there needs to be a space for the process of awakening and of grief. It is personal and quantum and has the potential to change our world forever. But for now, it is all about giving him all the love that is needed to find out who he really is outside of Hell.

*****

Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the 5th group call in the Free To Be series titled Unplugging From The 4D AI Matrix this coming Wednesday, April 29th at 10AM PST or get the recording if you can’t make it live. Go to www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe for more info.

If you feel guided to connect with your Reptilian Self I recommend Jelelle’s Deepen series video and meditation on this topic here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pA7ZjZj2K8M&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLjwm17eBBTRhE3dbezYJdu&index=5

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a Facilitant and Collaborator with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Finding Compassion As We Calibrate To The Truth Of Our Times

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By Kalayna Solais

Pretty intense head and neck pain this morning which started last night… a detox and a calibration too after going down more ‘rabbit holes’ which has become a daily venture lately. I don’t feel much emotional reaction to it all anymore now aside from waves of necessary tears that open up to swells of deepening compassion even for the ‘culprits’, as I can feel they are still my ‘brothers and sisters’ and how we are always connected.

The world of celebrity (which is one of the main rabbit holes to go down right now) is one of duality, of separation, of energizing ‘I am a god/goddess and you are not’ and with the recent WHO support concert, ‘Together at Home’, this gap and separation has been praised and preached on in other ways too, encouraging the audience to embrace all of the now mandated social/physical separation as a new lifestyle. It’s an ‘Elite’ agenda disguised as a message of hope from on high, just as so many dark and covert messages have been disguised for decades, masked by propaganda and many mind-controlled ‘puppets’ in the world of the rich and famous and in the mainstream media too. This article I took in yesterday made some amazing points about it all: https://vigilantcitizen.com/moviesandtv/together-at-home-was-an-infomercial-for-the-global-elite-and-its-agenda/

The veil is becoming pretty thin around all of this now though with more information more easily available and more souls ready to take it in and feel all they need to feel about it, running the gamete of mourning reactions from denial to anger to sadness to hopelessness. I feel how this is what’s supposed to happen now as these ways of celebrating duality in these dark and ultimately very, very painful expressions are running out of ground and about to reach a new level of healing that’s becoming accessible as those who were once considered powerful are now realizing they are quite vulnerable and grasping at straws trying to avoid truly feeling that in themselves.

It’s so easy to feel disillusioned and depressed at this time of awakening and many souls will need to be in that for a while… the ‘sheen’ is wearing off of what was once considered shiny and attractive about celebrity, about immense business ‘achievement’, about the real and often gritty work of awakening through these intense and challenging birth canals of expanded awareness. I for one didn’t know much about the Elite pedophile rings until now and it’s been VERY important to allow myself and every part of me to be with the reactions and feel them, even the cognitive dissonance that does eventually lead to deep tears of feeling the young ones involved in all of it. Through these feelings I find context again though and was offered strongly last night to ‘not be afraid’ and to remember that even those souls who have chosen to be the perpetrators are my ‘brothers and sisters’ and often they aren’t fully aware of what they’re doing or, they are walking out the expressions of extreme polarity that they’re meant to in their lifetime to help us see and reconcile our own darkness.

Enter now our awakening connections (though still largely unconscious for many of us) to our Reptilian aspect(s) in other dimensions who are witnessing all of this and awakening themselves. I felt my own, whose name is Skeevra, come in last night to feel this all through with me, everything that I’ve been reading and downloading and feeling. I began my conscious connection with Skeevra a couple of months ago and she was dazed then, just coming out of ‘hive mind’ and realizing she had an individuality to now embrace as well as a connection to the rest of my Galactic aspects who quickly took her into their care. She feels quite cleared of that cloud she was in now and wanted to be with me this morning as I write this piece, for some of these playouts of AI mind control, pleasure at any cost and always in close relationship to pain, lack of empathy, etc, originate from the Reptilian dimensions yet are also being reconciled there as more and more of them begin to heal their separation from the Divine and from Love itself.

Skeevra doesn’t have many ‘words’ but sends me pictures as we communicate. I saw her molting today and felt how this is happening for me too, layers and layers that have kept my heart from feeling more compassion for others and served me to stay in outrage reactions and an over-fixation on dissonance in my life rather than nourishing the resonance. These are all Reptilian energies and they are in reaction/response to the newly evolving self-awareness in many of them that awakens as WE awaken for we cannot separate from them or any other being in this universe.

These reactions are in fact normal and necessary to feel and there is so much Divine compassion for all of us, no matter what we are feeling in reaction to what we hear or read about right now or at any time. There is always, though, an invitation to move through it and let the Divine support you on your way back to love consciousness, back to an awareness of WHY this has all been happening, what we are to learn from it all about TRUE and DEEP compassion and empathy, and why we absolutely need to have that for ourselves, within ourselves, on our journey to feel that deeper with others. Feeling this for and with our own individual Reptilian connections feels like a key to this deeper movement/healing.

In all of this, I keep coming back to the same context… that we wouldn’t have been walking this out, living out these patterns and this duality if we didn’t NEED to on our path to Ascension. Ascension is, ultimately, a return to Divine love and consciousness, a return to beautiful awareness of our Divinity and Christ-light within. We have steps to be with on the path to this embodiment and all of them are sacred… even in these extreme and sometimes incredibly shocking playouts of ‘other-ness’.

Much love from my ever-finding-its-way and VERY humbled sacred human heart to yours… ❤

~

I highly recommend connecting with Jelelle Awen’s guided meditation to meet your Reptilian aspect if you’re curious about that for yourself: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pA7ZjZj2K8M&feature=youtu.be

Also! THIS coming Wednesday, April 29th, Raphael and Jelelle will be talking about connecting with your Reptilian aspect and unplugging from the AI/4D Matrix during their next group call in the “Free to Be’ series. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Raphael Awen and I are available for 1:1 sessions to help you explore these reactions and connections within yourself… for more info on sessions, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

What We Heal In Ourselves We Heal In The World

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by Monica Devi Bhakti

Today I found myself deep in a spin of the fear control matrix. I was feeling the intensity of my emotions, as well as the emotions of the collective. I reached out and got wise words from this beautiful SoulFullHeart community. Many thanks especially to Gabriel Heartman.

I also remembered back with gratitude to a session with Jelelle Awen, recognizing the need to disconnect from the collective, to find myself and my truth.

I went in and checked in with my parts. I found a Young One deep in fear, and my Inner Punisher running rampant – or so I thought. What I realized then, was that my Punisher was my Inner Masculine, actually trying to help the Young One. He was in a frenzy trying to find what would help this little one’s fear and help her feel safe. He felt so helpless and was lashing out, demanding that I make a plan and take action, even if I don’t know where I am going, or what is next for me. This sent me down endless rabbit holes of possibilities as if just taking just any action would assuage the fear. And I did take some actions and explore some possibilities. This helped for a bit. What helped more was to engage the deep well of the Inner Sacred Feminine – to allow the feelings, to allow that they are not wrong, not something that I need to make go away, but to listen to and honor deeply. These feelings do not need to be forcefully “shifted” into a ”higher consciousness” – that in fact to try to do so, was an act of aggression towards myself and spiritual bypass. Not to mention a judgment of what is good and what is not, what is “light” and what is not. As I have said – What part of All That Is, am I trying to make not a part of All That Is? What part of knowing that everything is the light, am I denying?

I find if we want to “fix” something, it’s because it makes us uncomfortable, and we are judging it. We want it to go away.

I realized that this is also part of what is happening in the collective. Theories and opinions about the actions of others, and who will stay in 3D and who will move into higher planes of consciousness, are so prevalent. I also notice how many are full of spiritual judgment and bypass. I’m speaking here of the conversations that do not include the essential ingredient of compassion. The bridging needed in the world – that this SoulFullHeart work helps do so beautifully within ourselves.

When we see the darkness, the actions that others have taken that seem so heinous, of course we have emotion and recoil. It scares us. It scares us that there is pain out there so deep, that it would turn on others in such awful ways. It shows us that Inner Punishers, unchecked and unloved, can become outer Tyrants and Abusers.

I know the truth that actions such as those only come from deep, unfelt pain and wounding. I know it because I have seen it, over and over. I have experienced it, over and over. One in self-love simply does not take those actions.

Love does not harm.

So what will help that deep wounding? Will ostracizing others and making them wrong – even in subtle spiritual ways – bring healing? If it doesn’t work inside, why would it work outside?

My experience today is that compassion, love will always be the one true answer.

I can so easily allow and witness the shadow in the world and others with non-judgment and compassion. Hold sacred space. My challenge currently is to witness and allow my deep shadow. Hold sacred space, and be, as Jelelle says, ‘the Love Ambassador’ – to myself.

What we heal in ourselves, we heal in the world.

May peace and love be mine, and yours, today and always.

***Monica Devi Bhakti is a SoulFullHeart Facilitatant, Collaborator, holder of sacred space, love generator, healer and writer.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Schumann/Gaia Up To 140 HZ In Response To Earth Day Honoring & 3D Detox

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

Energy Update: Was this is a response from Gaia to all the love and honoring she received on Earth Day yesterday from those of us celebrating Her? The Schumann resonance spiked up to 140 HZ!! about two hours ago on April 23rd and is still going strong. The average baseline of 7.83 HZ that was once so steady has been fluctuating more and more the last couple of years, with many of us feeling that this mirrors the elevating consciousness of humanity as well. There have been a couple significant spikes in the Gaia resonance during this transition, which I share about here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-jelelle-awen/energy-updates-with-jelelle-awen/

This spike up in Gaia’s frequency also feels also like a reflection of the cleansing and purifying that is happening in Gaia’s atmosphere with the 3D Detox that is going on now for over a month throughout the world for the first time in modern history. The skies are clearing (no chem trails either) from pollution, the waters are purifying, the animals are flourishing…and many humans are too.

Most of the souls I have connected with around their adjustment to this time are finding that their lives have changed very little, as they were introverts/healers/star seeds more tending to spend time going inward, in nature, less on the 3D busyness track of work-sleep-repeat anyway. In fact, many souls are finding that their lives are better…more time/connection with their children, more inward focus and balance, even better financial situations in some cases with the available stimulus from governments (which, if you pay taxes at all, is YOUR money/energy coming back to you.)

I have compassion for those souls who are experiencing ill health, suffering and hardship timelines during this shifting and transition. This feels to be most likely a reflection of the suffering they were already living through in 3D life (which runs on the fuel of undisclosed and numbed out suffering.) So it is not so much the situation of quarantine that is creating this, yet the opportunity to feel it now that everything has slowed down. Those in toxic or difficult relationships are discovering this too, as what has been covered over by daily life is now being revealed. Ascension is about the completion of suffering for humanity yet for some a peak experience of it and choose to stay or go (as Gaia will no longer offer the 3D polarity experience) is happening now.

Those souls who are deeply involved and feeling the New World Order/Deep State agenda may also be feeling many reactions coming up to feeling trapped, controlled, and their rights violated by this ongoing shutdown. Those souls who need to protest and be activists around that are following their calling around it, even as many souls are not experiencing it that way. I feel an honoring from the Divine Mother around how each of us is experiencing this opportunity in the Now, even those who don’t feel it as one.

My sense is that Gaia is in a timeline where She is thriving during this reboot…She is leading the way for humanity related to our Ascension. She provides a template/model for how we too can move through this process with surrender and acceptance. I felt Her consciousness coming through strongly yesterday in response to Earth Day and I feel these increased electromagnetics are the results of that.

There is an opportunity, for those who can surrender into the quietness, for next level activations and upgrades on ALL levels. The quantum field is expansive and rich right now and the veils are thin to access it and any lifetimes that you feel to connect with that need processing (especially those related to collapse experiences such as Atlantis and Lemuria, or those with plagues or starvation or those in persecution or being held prisoner). These timelines can be intense to feel yet when you connect with the soul aspect of yourself living in them and offer love, there is a great healing of karma that can occur. We experienced this during our group call last week, where many people shared deep and easy access to other lifetimes and healing too, just during a 15 minute meditation!

Here is a meditation to connect with your Gatekeeper who can open up these timelines for you: https://youtu.be/-IZQYBoE6Cg

Much Love to you as go into the deeper stages of the Great Awakening,

Jelelle Awen

You can still join us for our the next group call in our Free To Be Series connecting with the 4D/AI Matrix (a quantum level connection around what is occurring) next Wednesday April 29 or to receive the recording by offering a donation. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. Jelelle is no longer offering 1:1 sessions yet for more information about  1:1 individual sessions with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls with Jelelle, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

 

Thank You, Mother Gaia

Published on by Gabriel Amara2 Comments

Thank you Mother for all you have held
All you hold, and all you will hold
As you take us into the Mystic
Thank you for you never-ending love
Your relentless passion for our evolution
Your undying forgiveness for our trespasses
Thank you Mother for the magical creatures,
The majestic views,
The places you have created
So we may enter into our eternal sanctuary
Thank you for the medicine
The wisdom
The trails and tribulations
I am in awe of your Might
Your Breath
And your Beauty
I am your son, your servant, and your steward of Love
Amen

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia: An Earth Day Poem

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by Kalayna Solais

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I sit by Your trees, Your streams, and I feel the strength in Your beauty
How You hold space for ALL, for everyone, for everything
As it moves and lives and ascends with YOU…
As you patiently wait for us to notice more
So we can take ourselves in more.
Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I gaze at Your creatures in wonder, in communication, in awe of each move they make
And the peace they hold in their uniqueness, never faltering in self-consciousness.
I feel the density You are lifting with each breath of Your sacred lungs
Ready to help us respirate, let in, the NEW air.
I feel how much You hold so effortlessly yet with so much care and space
How even if some beings truly tried, there is no destroying You
Only destroying themselves
And even then
It’s a death and rebirth
Another sobering aspect of Your many sacred cycles
That often cannot be avoided.
Yet, even in these darkest hours
Your beauty offers grace and solace
Places to meditate
Invitations to feel and feel held in feeling
And ways to remember
That it’s all moving, circling from death back to life
As the dead and dying water and fertilize the seeds of the NEW.

For everything You hold space for
For all of Your grace and space
Thank YOU… today and every day.

Love,
Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

On Masculine Vulnerability…

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By Raphael Awen

I thought to ruminate out loud about what we might call the reticent masculine, where the masculine (both in men and women) is absent from settings where vulnerability is called for (like the whole global situation right now for instance, or a romance for that matter, or emotional/spiritual community). 

Based on my own experience, I’d say that men are typically busy trying to be powerful, drawn to providing, drawn to making themselves needed, and then asking the feminine (both inside of themselves and outside) to settle for that equation.

If their mate asks for more feeling, or for more heart open presence, he will point to what he so willingly and caringly does provide, and maybe even go on to whine about how she doesn’t see and appreciate that. He leads with defense, covering an unconscious ‘I can’t go there, for fear that I’ll lose myself.’

But I see all of that in the process of change. Men are becoming done with defending these old burdensome ‘paternalistic’ ‘patriarchal’ ‘patterns’ that are turning out to be so much less than what they promised they would provide for us. It’s an idea whose time is done. 

I get the masculine is meant to feel empowered and full of worth. That’s obvious, or we wouldn’t have been so prey to the false promises of power, nor would we have been so vulnerable to pornography (a safe kind of shallow feminine presence that doesn’t ask for any vulnerability – she bares everything and I give nothing, in turn actually leaving me with nothing in terms of actual nourishment)

This need for empowerment has been seen in the various men’s movements that have made a showing in recent decades, where you attend a men’s large group weekend event, give up your familiar patterns and get real with the guys, move some big energy blocks to realness, and commit to getting together on a regular basis in small groups to support this new breakthrough. From what I’ve observed, all of the groups that fit this pattern have this big push away to the feminine, in many cases even outright toxic and abusive, making ‘them’ the problem. When boys become independent men, they do need to find their healthy push away to mom, for a time, especially if Mom was overly invested and invasive to their energetic and emotional masculine space. This healthy need and boundary setting however gets way over projected onto women in general, leaving women wondering what (in the hell) just got into their mate.

I believe all of this has to do with men and the masculine (again in both men and women) exploring the key issue of autonomy and sovereignty. Vulnerability is seen as a threat to their seat of personal power because the last time they were open hearted (vulnerable), they got invaded and taken advantage of, leaving them with the felt reality of powerlessness, that vulnerability equals weakness. The masculine then went off on a long and necessary journey to reconcile itself to itself and to the feminine, especially around this vital need and fear of vulnerability. 

Vulnerability is defined as the willingness to be hurt. Only a man or masculine in possession of some degree of power would possess such a willingness. Romantic relationships, in the dance of the masculine and feminine, without vulnerability are stuck in a very narrow bandwidth, doomed to medicating each other’s pain and estrangement from themselves and others. 

This whole journey may well be reaching its conclusion in our collective. Men are honestly and vulnerably admitting their discontent with the previously seen safe patterns. They’re willing even to admit their unhappiness even before they know much of any alternative. 

Men and the masculine are becoming more and more willing to divest of their investment into the 3D playground structures where they’ve felt some autonomy and power, by obeying the shared playground rules. They’re like, ‘How is this autonomy real if it’s been handed to me on a plate?’ and ‘Why am I playing someone else’s game for a sense of power when no one’s forcing me to play?’

Then that brings us to the yet present noticeable absence of men in more emoto/spiritual settings and communities (like the one I’m a part of). I believe men are understandably asking the sovereignty question that goes something like this: ‘How will surrendering myself to a group and the paradigm of that group be an expression of my power? How will it not be a repeat of the forfeiting of my power that I really need to be done with?’ 

I believe (and this is where it gets possibly interesting and exciting), is that a man (and the masculine in women) can only answer that question of surrender and vulnerability when he or she is in possession of sufficient power. 

In other words:  

‘I’m willing to risk and even to be hurt in connecting with you, because I know it will be to my benefit, rather than my detriment.’ 

‘I can stand to lose, because I know and feel like I’m a winner at heart.’ 

‘I can invest my power and remain in possession of it at the same time – (true contribution)’ 

‘I can hold my own ground. I can enter and I can leave’ 

Men and the masculine then come to realize that they can’t grow into their power or have a playground for their power to play out into, without vulnerable relationship, without shared values, without community. They are not dependent on any one community, AND they can admit their need for one community, both. 

Our retraction from vulnerability (our wounding) occurred in relationship and so does our healing also occur in community. You can’t completely heal or grow in a box away from community. Our need for fulfillment invites us back into community after the necessary going solo phase has completed its course. 

Man, there’s a whole universe waiting for you to show up into, there’s a sacred and quite ready feminine patiently waiting for your crossing the space and invitation onto the dance floor. You can find it first inside of you and then let it flow outside of you. You got some hot stuff waiting and wanting to ‘man’ifest! 

Raphael Awen

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Feel Yourself To Free Yourself

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I am still. I create stillness in the storm. The mental and emotive energetic swirls dance around me. I am them and not them at the same time. I cannot just be one or the other. It is what makes me human to be both. I learn from each state of action and inaction. 

Which of these swirls are mine? Which are yours? Which are theirs? Without the stillness it is hard to discern. With each breath I seek feeling. My doorway to what is real for me. This comes first. The desire. The anxiety. The fear. The doubt. The passion. The anger. The joy and the love. 

These are the Akashic records of my humanity. They are my portals to this and other lives. They are my barometers and my heart rails. I have grown to own them, to meet them, and get to the root of them. It is digging in the soil and getting dirty in the darkness. I am transported to worlds that are in turmoil and worlds that are majestic. 

Freedom is not an external combination lock. It is not the completion of an If/Then statement. No one person or action can free you from yourself. You may get relief, but you will not get You. The You that is underneath all of those wounds a part of you holds so dear. It is in those wounds that your sacred self is born and bred.

Seek the stillness. Seek the energy that make up your selves stored in your cells. This is their prison. Not the conditions and circumstances you find yourself in. You are the lock and the key. Feel yourself to free yourself. 

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.