Vulnerability In Relationship

By Raianna Shai

I wrote this poem after having just the right day to open up my heart. Whenever this happens every space inside of me that feels like a void fills up with gratitude and appreciation of my environment and the people around me. I was reminded of why I tend to feel guarded around others and how good it feels to be intimate in relationship.

I am very good at being alone. I have always been independent and able to entertain myself quite easily. I thought recently that I would be happier and more opened out living on my own. But the fact that living with others is harder and scarier means it’s probably what I’m meant to be working.

I was feeling how it’s so easy to feel misunderstood or judged by others when you have that living inside of yourself. Whenever my insecurity was high, I found that it was harder to let others in and be vulnerable. I also remembered how much I love physical touch and how important it is to increase the intimacy in relationships. A lingering hug here, a friendly cuddle there. I always saved this for when I was in a romantic relationship because that’s where it felt safe and accepted.

But telling someone what they mean to you and showing physical affection are two things that are bound to be scary. It means you are seeing the other and therefore “risk” being seen yourself. This can bring up a lot of fear if a sense of lack or unworthiness lives inside of you.

I have a big desire to go to the next place in all of my relationships in order to work this push pull inside of me when it comes to intimacy. This poem illustrates the feeling I had of that!

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In the moments that my heart splits open
Gratitude fills every atom of my soul
My body sways with tenderness and care
I want to wrap my arms around every lonely heart
Connecting to oneness and collective love

My fingers trace the edges of my frame
It runs along every crack
Every bump
Every inconsistency
It fills my emptiness with loving energy
It brings out the softness underneath the surface

Soft vulnerability is hard to show
The sweet caress of your own beauty
Uniquely separate from those around you
Yet intertwined in insecurity and fear

I feel overwhelmed by the thought of my loved ones
The way they move through life
The way they see and care for me
When I can’t see myself

You are so brave, dear one
To be a bright green growth
In a grey sidewalk crack
Constantly fearing the underside of passing steps
The shadow side of humanity

I see you, I feel you
I want you, I need you
I feel scared to tell you
That I admire you
And hope you admire me too

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Path To Soul Purpose

Your 20s is a strange and confusing time of your life. It’s the decade when you are entering the “real world”. When there are less handrails and more independence. When you have the space and freedom to choose who and what you want to be.

This can be as equally liberating as it is terrifying. So many people I have talked to, including myself, have moments of feeling like they don’t know what they’re doing with their life or where it’s leading.

There’s a new priority these days of fulfilling a soul purpose rather than living out the traditional lifestyle of older generations. However, we haven’t exactly been taught how to find or live out our soul purpose so we have to feel it for ourselves.

It’s easy to see others who look like they have their life “together” and to judge yourself for where you are at. But one thing I’ve learned is that absolutely everyone is going through something. No matter how much of their life is exactly how they want it to be, there are always moments of self doubt, sadness and frustration.

It’s easy to want to hide away from the world because of this. To not reveal yourself or your intentions until you have it figured out. But the biggest thing we can learn from each other is what it’s like to be in process. Vulnerability is about exposing yourself every step of the way in order to let in more intimacy.

We can spend our whole lives trying to be self sufficient and happy on our own but we do this work in order to share it with others. We are not meant to depend on others but we are also not meant for absolute solitude.

We work towards self love in order to feel love for all. We live through peaks in valleys just like everyone else. The best we can do is feel where we want to be, what’s keeping us from being there, and loving ourselves until our shadow can come to the light of day. It is then that we love out our wildest dreams.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Sobering, Activating, And Powerfully Burning Solar Eclipse Energies

By Kalayna Solais

Darkness, sobriety, landing in what’s real. The bursting of much-beloved (though sometimes also resented) bubbles of what parts of you had held as reality.

This is the energy of the Dark Mother/Madonna face of Divine Mother, powerful and unsentimental yet deeply loving. This is the invitation back inward from this upcoming Solar Eclipse, on the feminine (moon) side of it.

Support to keep feeling what’s real and to make space for the pain that surfaces, yet to FEEL and let in that you ARE supported and deeply loved…

This is the energy of the Father Sun/Metatron face of the Divine Father, helping you activate and step into NEW timelines even through the rubble of what has just crumbled and deeply feeling you and your parts in the sobriety and sadness. This is the invitation of going inward and yet not hiding your newly awakening desires and the Phoenix within you, another energy offered by this upcoming Eclipse. This time from the masculine (sun) side of it.

I feel the sobriety and continuing mirror of this Eclipse and what these energies are offering rumbling through as I write this. It can certainly feel intense at times, especially if you’re shifting from an outward focus and going back inward. This is something I’ve experienced personally with almost every phase of shifting timelines so for me this is an ongoing invitation to keep bringing it ALL back inward, taking in ALL of life’s reflections and letting them help and support me to cultivate more love inside of me, less suffering, more significant movement into the NEW.

Important cosmic events like this Eclipse help bring us back to the foundations upon which we’ve been relating to life and love. They have a way of encouraging old phases and relationships to burn up so we can all begin to see what’s been REAL about them, especially how parts of us have been relating to it all. The masculine and feminine parts of you have their own personal ways with which they relate to all of life and also to each other. It’s important to feel the polarity dance of these energies inside of you in order to understand more of what could be happening, why you could be drawing or not drawing what you are on the outside.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen created a video and guided meditation for connecting with your inner Sacred Union of feminine/masculine that I highly recommend taking in:

I’m finding it especially important and clarifying to check in daily with these energies inside, to see how they’re doing and if they’re flowing together or not. It’s a way to see the ‘state of your INNER union’, if you will. 🙂 Sometimes my masculine is frustrated with my feminine or vice versa. Sometimes one is overwhelming the other instead of actually caring about their impact on each other. When they dance in more harmony and balance and love, alchemy happens. More moments of joy happen. Life just generally feels more empowering and so much better, even if there are still some sobering circumstances moving through.

Eclipses especially seem to bring messages of inner masculine/feminine polarities… the dance between feeling and doing, going inward and flowing outward, INtegration and ACTivation. It’s a highly creative and alchemical time too, even if there’s deep and necessary mourning. There’s always something about returning back home to yourself, your parts, your heart and soul and the consciousness it truly embodies right NOW that helps you step into whatever is ‘next level’ for you, especially next level of love inside.

Much love to you during this much needed and alive, though quite sobering Eclipse phase… collectively and personally. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Will Rise: A Poem For Life’s Changes, Especially When Led By You

By Kalayna Solais

Withered petals

Punctured leaves

Evidence of weathered growth

In soils not fit for your inner garden.

Drained of life force

The life you’ve led

Now taxes the nutrients

That once flowed

To all aspects of your BEing.

To transplant your beautiful Self

To flower once more

And MORE

Brings sometimes dark processes

And NEW ways to relate

To what was once ‘good’

Yet now isn’t enough.

Yet…

All anguish of the unknown

Soon moves into certainty

Courage

And strength

To keep planting in new soils

Until the one that most nurtures

Heart, body and soul

Is the one you’re planted in.

You will rise…

When the darkness feels

As if it never leads to light.

When the tunnel is tight

And the way through is foggy.

The sun rises still

The moon rises too.

There are beacons

And lighthouses

Offering a way

Offering an ‘other side’

As your boat is rowed

Through the din of the old

Letting go.

You will rise

And rise again.

You will arise anew

From the YOU you once knew.

And you will find new ways

To make it through

Moving into

What is truly

Most sincerely

Aligned with YOU. ❤

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For more info on sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator, I invite you from my own ever-shifting and evolving heart and soul to check out: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Solstice As An Invitation To Divine Father Healing, Initiation, And Activation: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (June 17, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Happy Solstice!

Celebrating the SOULstice today brings with it the energy of Divine Father and the Sacred Masculine. He is offering His heart as a space holder for all you are feeling at this time and the new phase you are entering. He is offering many activations and initiations as well.

Launching our Museletter this week is a digestion from Gabriel Solais of the energies, love, and compassion that Divine Father offers us ongoingly yet especially during this Solstice passage:

 

“Divine Father offers us encouragement when we feel stuck, inspiration when we are lost, passion when we fall flat. He also provides us with the care, compassion, and wisdom of a tribal elder. He means a lot to each of us, both man and woman, as the counterpart to Mother’s Love.”

 

The next virtual event will be a Group Transmission on July 2nd.

The focus of this group on Tuesday, July 2, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to connect to the codes and activations available during the first total SOULar eclipse since July, 2017. Jelelle will teach about how SOULar energies provide a sacred masculine activation of clarity, soul purpose, empowerment, next actions and choice points toward your higher timeline. Eclipses offer a truly powerful boost of this energy with many people reported major life changes and transformations happening during and after them.

There are many new writings and audio blog recordings this week from Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna. They include energy updates about a recent crop circle, the full moon that occurred this week, different Divine love downloads and sharings, as well as windows into some personal processes.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

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Check out the latest Museletter here.

The Solstice As An Invitation To Divine Father Healing, Initiation, And Activation

With each gateway and portal we are being offered an invitation to be initiated. For me personally, this Solstice is a sacred masculine initiation. It is about letting in the love and guidance of the Divine Father. This relationship is one that He is in deep desire for healing and transmuting. So much of the wounded masculine has been projected unto Him, and it makes it difficult for parts of us to let His true love enter us, to activate us into new states of consciousness.

While we are in need to balance the effects of this wounded masculine upon our planet with the Divine Feminine, we are also in need to rework this relationship to Father. Our own 3D experiences with our fathers, and metasoul experiences with duty, judgment, oppression, etc. have a lasting impact in this relationship to Him.

Going into our wounding via the emotional and spiritual bodies can help to regain a more loving and open channel from and to His aching heart. He wants so much to be a part of our lives in a new way. He is helping me to move through a very difficult time in my life, as well as offering me guidance to what is possible and desirable for me as an ascending human man.

Divine Father offers us encouragement when we feel stuck, inspiration when we are lost, passion when we fall flat. He also provides us with the care, compassion, and wisdom of a tribal elder. He means a lot to each of us, both man and woman, as the counterpart to Mother’s Love.

We are in need of sacred activism, first from within and then without. We are in need of building a new world grounded in self-love overflowing into those who need it the most. We are in need of the courage to face our darkest faces and bring them into the court of compassion. This is the way of the Father. This is his new legacy in union with Mother and the feminine. We do that by choice for He comes when we invite him, when we intend, and when we feel.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Initiation Into The Sacred Masculine On Father’s Day

Today Father’s Day is happening inside of me. Today I open my heart to my inner boys. My inner child and inner teenager. The ones that didn’t get the initiation into the world of the divine masculine. This is not a knock against my 3D fathers. They did all they could do with what they were here to initiate me into. I have had my own personal healing process around what I did or didn’t receive as a growing and maturing boy. I had tears last night for what could have been.

Yet, in that moment I realized I can do that for myself. For them. I can connect to the divine masculine within via my masculine guides, metasoul brothers, and the Divine Father. Big Papa Love. He says he is here to continue my initiation. He is here to lead me to my True Man self. The one where my truth is felt and expressed in equal parts. The one where the courage to Be is as important as the courage to lead.

I am to continue this deepening quest for self-love, self-worth, and self-pride. One that heals and integrates the feminine within. It is an ongoing process of claiming Her inside of me. Of reconciling the judgments and the suppression. It is letting go of what was to let in what IS and can Be. It is falling in love with yourself so deeply that it has nowhere else to go but out. Out into the world in the service of humanity. In service of Love Itself.

In a world where masculinity has searched for answers and control, it is time to be initiated into a new vision of the ascending masculine. One in which love, peace, passion, and creativity are the leading edges of our quest while healing, and not denying, our trailing shadow edges.

From this day on, shall Father’s Day represent New Man Day. Initiation Into The Vulnerable Man Day. It is a fire walk but a sacred walk. I want us all to walk this one together…from the inside out.

Happy Father’s Day to you…the father of your inner boys.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

 

Ascension Energies Offering Healing From Fear/Resistance/Self Doubt/Unworthiness: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (June 10, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Much Divine support coming through this week to help you see and feel your next places to go within where resistance, fear, self doubt still live. Featured this week is a piece from Jelelle Awen, inviting you to step into the light and deep love of these energies that want to enliven and empower you to keep feeling and keep trusting the process and the choices:

“The energies of the sun and its Sacred Masculine activations through SOULar geostorms and CMEs and Flares and Auroras rumbles through our inner magnetics and inner skies. It reveals the polarities inside and where parts of us have become polarized in fear….they are invited to return to love through CHOICES and ACTIONS. To move beyond the fear of change and the unknown to align with your highest timeline. To complete relationships that don’t let you SHINE your brightest light because the other person is too afraid of their own. To shift geographies to those that MOST support you to feel like your authentic self.”

Several virtual group transmissions with Raphael and Jelelle Awen are coming up soon!

The focus of the group on Friday, June 21st, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to celebrate the seasonal Solstice, which is an energetic time of seasonal transition into summer for those in the southern hemisphere. The Solstice often acts as a portal gateway to your Next Level of soul expression, soul activation, and transformation. Jelelle will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to the Solstice codes and bring them into your Ascension Chakras with your Protector and other parts that may join in. You will journey to Stonehenge, where the Solstice is ritually celebrated.

The group on Tuesday, July 2, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is intended to connect to the codes and activations available during the first total SOULar eclipse since July, 2017. Jelelle will teach about how SOULar energies provide a sacred masculine activation of clarity, soul purpose, empowerment, next actions and choice points toward your higher timeline. Eclipses offer a truly powerful boost of this energy with many people reported major life changes and transformations happening during and after them.

There are several new articles for you to take in from Raphael Awen, Jelelle Awen, and Kalayna Solais. These writings include personal process reflections and a message downloaded from a recent crop circle.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

6 Things To Remember On 6/6

By Kalayna Solais

1) It’s just as important to take the time to breathe, integrate, INjoy, as it is to dig deep and continue to uncover/discover what it is you came here to do but more importantly, what/who you came here to BE.

2) Feeling what is true is more important than ‘truth’ based on facts. Whether or not your intuitions, gut instincts, senses of things are exactly ‘right-on’ with what science or other sources are saying is THE truth, YOUR truth is what is the most important in this Now moment and is subject to change as you do.

3) Serving the body vessel is one of the most critical things you can do for your overall well-being, especially as parts of you feel the trauma they’ve long held or hidden in a deeper way (which so often will reveal itself through the body somehow). One of the most essential ways to love yourself and them UP is to love the body. Doing yoga, even for 10-20min a day, is one way. Feeling into eating lighter, more nutrient-dense, and non-violent foods is also helpful… and eating less in general can be too as this aids detox symptoms in so many ways!

4) Every day is sacred… every day is a portal/gateway into new possibilities and alchemy, into new revelations of Love…

5) Being YOUnique is what you came here to do… to return to Oneness and Unity within so you can return to Oneness and Unity outside of you while taking everything you have learned, remembered, revealed on the inside with you.

6) You are always loved, always supported, even during those times when you feel as if the Divine is far, far away. You are, beyond any shadow of a doubt, LOVED… just for being WHO you are and WHERE you are right now, bravely walking out everything you are.

Much, much love to you on this 6/6 day! 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Of Love And Limitations: Freedom Is In The Healing

There were many times in my life I just wanted to feel Free. Free to say what I wanted. Free to do what I wanted. Free to have what I wanted.

Yet I couldn’t feel this so-called “freedom”. I only felt ‘limited’. Which eventually turned into ‘imprisoned’. I turned that outward as the fault of my situational circumstances, of capitalism, the Powers That Be, and then eventually the totality of the 3rd Dimension.

Then as I turned my gaze inward I saw the warden WAS me. I was the one that created this reality that validated this imprisonment. This containment. I was choosing stasis, not death and rebirth. It’s not that I was dying, it was that parts of me were just too damn afraid to live!

There are still times I feel this lack of freedom. I know in my essence it is an illusion. A construct. A protection. A veil. It is there for a reason. A message. A place to go to heal and expand the gates a bit more.

You see, I have learned that we all have this limitation. We were gifted with it so that we could learn about ourselves. Learn about what Love can truly do. What it is capable of in the most horrendous of circumstances. That feels a bit insane to a part of me but when you experience that moment when Love finds its way into the Dark, it somehow all makes the most unimaginable sense.

It just IS. Right there waiting for us to let go of the trauma and the fear of what it means to be the Greatness Of Being Divine that we ARE. The power of love is so intense that we need this limitation so that we take it in like the most beautiful sunset ever-imagined after a very long night.

This is the process of our healing and our opening. One part, one soul aspect, one galactic being at a time.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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