Vulnerability In Relationship

By Raianna Shai

I wrote this poem after having just the right day to open up my heart. Whenever this happens every space inside of me that feels like a void fills up with gratitude and appreciation of my environment and the people around me. I was reminded of why I tend to feel guarded around others and how good it feels to be intimate in relationship.

I am very good at being alone. I have always been independent and able to entertain myself quite easily. I thought recently that I would be happier and more opened out living on my own. But the fact that living with others is harder and scarier means it’s probably what I’m meant to be working.

I was feeling how it’s so easy to feel misunderstood or judged by others when you have that living inside of yourself. Whenever my insecurity was high, I found that it was harder to let others in and be vulnerable. I also remembered how much I love physical touch and how important it is to increase the intimacy in relationships. A lingering hug here, a friendly cuddle there. I always saved this for when I was in a romantic relationship because that’s where it felt safe and accepted.

But telling someone what they mean to you and showing physical affection are two things that are bound to be scary. It means you are seeing the other and therefore “risk” being seen yourself. This can bring up a lot of fear if a sense of lack or unworthiness lives inside of you.

I have a big desire to go to the next place in all of my relationships in order to work this push pull inside of me when it comes to intimacy. This poem illustrates the feeling I had of that!

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In the moments that my heart splits open
Gratitude fills every atom of my soul
My body sways with tenderness and care
I want to wrap my arms around every lonely heart
Connecting to oneness and collective love

My fingers trace the edges of my frame
It runs along every crack
Every bump
Every inconsistency
It fills my emptiness with loving energy
It brings out the softness underneath the surface

Soft vulnerability is hard to show
The sweet caress of your own beauty
Uniquely separate from those around you
Yet intertwined in insecurity and fear

I feel overwhelmed by the thought of my loved ones
The way they move through life
The way they see and care for me
When I can’t see myself

You are so brave, dear one
To be a bright green growth
In a grey sidewalk crack
Constantly fearing the underside of passing steps
The shadow side of humanity

I see you, I feel you
I want you, I need you
I feel scared to tell you
That I admire you
And hope you admire me too

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Path To Soul Purpose

Your 20s is a strange and confusing time of your life. It’s the decade when you are entering the “real world”. When there are less handrails and more independence. When you have the space and freedom to choose who and what you want to be.

This can be as equally liberating as it is terrifying. So many people I have talked to, including myself, have moments of feeling like they don’t know what they’re doing with their life or where it’s leading.

There’s a new priority these days of fulfilling a soul purpose rather than living out the traditional lifestyle of older generations. However, we haven’t exactly been taught how to find or live out our soul purpose so we have to feel it for ourselves.

It’s easy to see others who look like they have their life “together” and to judge yourself for where you are at. But one thing I’ve learned is that absolutely everyone is going through something. No matter how much of their life is exactly how they want it to be, there are always moments of self doubt, sadness and frustration.

It’s easy to want to hide away from the world because of this. To not reveal yourself or your intentions until you have it figured out. But the biggest thing we can learn from each other is what it’s like to be in process. Vulnerability is about exposing yourself every step of the way in order to let in more intimacy.

We can spend our whole lives trying to be self sufficient and happy on our own but we do this work in order to share it with others. We are not meant to depend on others but we are also not meant for absolute solitude.

We work towards self love in order to feel love for all. We live through peaks in valleys just like everyone else. The best we can do is feel where we want to be, what’s keeping us from being there, and loving ourselves until our shadow can come to the light of day. It is then that we love out our wildest dreams.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Crop Circle Update: Yin-Yang Unification Message During Eclipse

By Jelelle Awen

Crop Circle UPdate: There have been so many crop circles in the last few weeks that I haven’t been sharing about most of them because it is quite a lot to keep UP with. This is a powerful gateway/passageway we are going through in the moment, starting 5/5 and taking us through to 8/8 Lion’s Gate and our star families seem to be stepping up their efforts to communicate and transmit to us during it. During this passageway, connection with Star Family and Lemurian frequencies becomes MORE possible as veils thin more on the amnesia that has been necessary around their existence.

And, today, the day of the first total SOULar eclipse in two years in which the masculine sun and the feminine moon unify in a temporary moment, we get this……a yin/yang symbol appearing in a field in Poland! This is THE symbol I’ve been shown so many times to represent the balance and unification of light/dark and masculine/feminine. So timely to be offered today!

There is ongoing and increasingly heated debate in 3D about how ‘real’ these circles are with human teams creating some of them with planks and measurements. The way that the crops themselves look and feel seems to give away when Star Family tech has been used versus purely human efforts. It is as if the crops have been swayed into perfectly concise swirls rather than flattened and bent by planks. Plus you can feel the energy of the ‘real’ ones.

Here is my energy update for today’s total eclipse, how and where to view it online, and suggestions for how to let in the codes that are coming in from it: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen/posts/801584413575494

Jelelle Awen
Here are other crop circle updates/channelings I have done: https://soulfullheartblog.com/categ…/ascension/crop-circles/

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Energy Update: Total SOULar Eclipse Codes Are A Powerful Bridge To Your Higher Timeline

By Jelelle Awen

Energy UPdate: Eclipse energies have been ramping up!! I felt the momentum of the eclipse in my body yesterday as some tiredness moved through, out, and I had a deep pass-out nap that seemed to be starting the process of letting in the codes. With these major and rare celestial events, we can feel and see them in the Now moment, before they actually occur, without need to physically take them in with our five senses.

This one seems to be offering a bridge to multidimensional access to our Metasoul and bleed through of the timelines/lifetimes that most need our care and attention. As these timelines and our Metasoul sisters/brothers that live in them are felt and connected to, the traumatic timelines can be shifted and healed into a higher frequency. Just as we have that choice in our current timeline in every moment, we also can extend that possibility to our own soul’s experience in other timelines as it all happening in the Now.

This is our first total SOULar eclipse since the ‘Great American’ eclipse in August, 2017. I can still see and tune into that eclipse in my third eye space, available in the Now and ongoingly to be received and let in. Many souls felt a significant, Next Level shift in their lives after that eclipse. They felt new clarities of choice points and actions to take toward their higher timelines.

Although this eclipse today is only visible in its totality in about a 70 mile stretch in South America, its impact is just as catalytic as the last one. Maybe even MORE so as we are that much further in our Ascension process collectively than we were two years ago. Ascension isn’t happening in linear time anyway; it is occurring in each soul’s Now consciousness to be let in and received.

Here is a website to view the eclipse from the National Science Foundation’s Cerro Tololo Observatory in Chile. I highly recommend taking in the whole eclipse while listening to high frequency/solfeggio music as the transmission can be quite powerful. Transmission starts around 1:00pm PDT. https://www.exploratorium.edu/eclipse

Bring the eclipse codes into your Ascension chakras as you watch it, starting with your Personal Sun/Stellar Gateway chakra (about two feet above your head) and flowing down to the others. Tune into personal messages/visions/images that you receive from it. You may get a very clear feeling sense and visual of your higher timeline as you BE with the eclipse.

This is a guided meditation I did this week to connect to your Ascension Chakras (I go through all of them) and your 5D self: https://youtu.be/1KRmab44IBA

Feel the powerful unification energies as the Masculine Sun and the Feminine moon eclipse each other in this Now…..mirroring our ongoing process of inner unification and balancing of Feminine/Masculine as we move into 5D together! 

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group transmissions events with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

The Sobering, Activating, And Powerfully Burning Solar Eclipse Energies

By Kalayna Solais

Darkness, sobriety, landing in what’s real. The bursting of much-beloved (though sometimes also resented) bubbles of what parts of you had held as reality.

This is the energy of the Dark Mother/Madonna face of Divine Mother, powerful and unsentimental yet deeply loving. This is the invitation back inward from this upcoming Solar Eclipse, on the feminine (moon) side of it.

Support to keep feeling what’s real and to make space for the pain that surfaces, yet to FEEL and let in that you ARE supported and deeply loved…

This is the energy of the Father Sun/Metatron face of the Divine Father, helping you activate and step into NEW timelines even through the rubble of what has just crumbled and deeply feeling you and your parts in the sobriety and sadness. This is the invitation of going inward and yet not hiding your newly awakening desires and the Phoenix within you, another energy offered by this upcoming Eclipse. This time from the masculine (sun) side of it.

I feel the sobriety and continuing mirror of this Eclipse and what these energies are offering rumbling through as I write this. It can certainly feel intense at times, especially if you’re shifting from an outward focus and going back inward. This is something I’ve experienced personally with almost every phase of shifting timelines so for me this is an ongoing invitation to keep bringing it ALL back inward, taking in ALL of life’s reflections and letting them help and support me to cultivate more love inside of me, less suffering, more significant movement into the NEW.

Important cosmic events like this Eclipse help bring us back to the foundations upon which we’ve been relating to life and love. They have a way of encouraging old phases and relationships to burn up so we can all begin to see what’s been REAL about them, especially how parts of us have been relating to it all. The masculine and feminine parts of you have their own personal ways with which they relate to all of life and also to each other. It’s important to feel the polarity dance of these energies inside of you in order to understand more of what could be happening, why you could be drawing or not drawing what you are on the outside.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen created a video and guided meditation for connecting with your inner Sacred Union of feminine/masculine that I highly recommend taking in:

I’m finding it especially important and clarifying to check in daily with these energies inside, to see how they’re doing and if they’re flowing together or not. It’s a way to see the ‘state of your INNER union’, if you will. 🙂 Sometimes my masculine is frustrated with my feminine or vice versa. Sometimes one is overwhelming the other instead of actually caring about their impact on each other. When they dance in more harmony and balance and love, alchemy happens. More moments of joy happen. Life just generally feels more empowering and so much better, even if there are still some sobering circumstances moving through.

Eclipses especially seem to bring messages of inner masculine/feminine polarities… the dance between feeling and doing, going inward and flowing outward, INtegration and ACTivation. It’s a highly creative and alchemical time too, even if there’s deep and necessary mourning. There’s always something about returning back home to yourself, your parts, your heart and soul and the consciousness it truly embodies right NOW that helps you step into whatever is ‘next level’ for you, especially next level of love inside.

Much love to you during this much needed and alive, though quite sobering Eclipse phase… collectively and personally. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Balancing Light Activations With Love For Ongoing Digestion And Integration

By Jelelle Awen

You may be seeking MORE light, more activations, more awakening and altering experiences from and with others. For moments, these activations feel GOOD. These activations remind you of your soul essence AS light. 

These experiences jolt and bolt. They vibrate and activate. Their energy is of the churning and burning kind. 

There can be a kind of ‘mode’ in this activation seeking. The mode looks like finding the next thing to join and belong to. The next thing to ‘take’ that will heighten and lift. The next thing that will spark the fire that will light up existence to feel more worthwhile. It is like the thrill seeker wanting ever greater heights to fling themselves off of. 

The afterglow of these profound activations can be temporary. They last as long as the retreat/seminary/workshop/session lasts. They are somehow ‘outside of your life’; they are also, somehow, outside of your body. And, usually, outside of your heart. 

So often there is cost to your well BEing afterwards. There can be intense symptoms felt in the body of this over saturation of activations. There can be undigested traumas that have been pushed up from the lifetimes where this light was called in and then used in an abusive way toward others or yourself. There can be acute frustration for parts of you about WHY the suffering and pain continues in your life even after intense activating experiences…….as if they are in the aftermath of these experiences, rather than being healed and transmuted by them. 

The NEW and NEXT invitation for our Ascension into our sacred humanity is for the focus to be on the digestion of all these activations, not just the seeking out for more of them. It is for us to be aware of how important the INtegration of these light codes IS to our ongoing sense of well being.

Integration happens as LOVE comes in. Love allows for the light to digest into every cell. Love allows for the light to integrate into daily life. Love makes the space for the feeling and healing of the traumas previously in the shadows that also get pushed up by so much light. 

Love comes from the heart and womb of the Feminine and the embracing energy of the Divine Mother. Love is provided by Her compassion, her forgiveness, her NURTURING, her acceptance of wherever you are in your awakening process and journey.

Embodiment (or ‘in-the-body-meant’ as I recently saw it wonderfully called) is about the balance of the light and of the feminine. The balance creates a fireplace so that there isn’t harm as the fire of light sparks up, yet provides place for it to bake into MORE revelations of love. This balance becomes possible as the Protector/Gatekeeper aspects of your soul can be negotiated with to allow more love to come into your BEing. 

Your Gatekeeper aspect may have learned to distrust love in favor of the light even as they resist the light too in some ways. The Gatekeeper may feel that love has been scarce, whereas light has been more bountiful. The feelings of this part of you can often connect very directly to the wound of your mother experience from this life and other lifetimes as well. They connect to the original pain of separation from the Divine during this life and other lifetime incarnations and, therefore, feelings of being ‘kicked out of’ and dispelled from the Divine Feminine womb space.

I wrote more here about healing from the original separation wound from the Divine to return to wholeness: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/06/27/healing-from-divine-separation-3d-experience-to-return-to-wholeness/

You may recognize and resonate with what I am offering here as an up/down indigestion experience that you are repeating for yourself in your awakening journey. To cultivate a space from within that can hold and digest and integrate the light WITH love is what we are being invited to BEcome. A balance of the Divine Feminine and Divine masculine aspects of your being that doesn’t sacrifice your well being for enlightenment (even and esp. to serve others).

The Divine wants us to experience this balance, where joy/magic/alchemy are sustaining in EVERY moment for us. And, we are experiencing the increasing sense that we ARE the light of love finding its way home inside every cell of our very human bodies.

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Gatekeeper aspect, who allows access to other lifetime/timelines and also seems to regulate flow of light/love into your BEing: 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group transmissions events with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

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You Will Rise: A Poem For Life’s Changes, Especially When Led By You

By Kalayna Solais

Withered petals

Punctured leaves

Evidence of weathered growth

In soils not fit for your inner garden.

Drained of life force

The life you’ve led

Now taxes the nutrients

That once flowed

To all aspects of your BEing.

To transplant your beautiful Self

To flower once more

And MORE

Brings sometimes dark processes

And NEW ways to relate

To what was once ‘good’

Yet now isn’t enough.

Yet…

All anguish of the unknown

Soon moves into certainty

Courage

And strength

To keep planting in new soils

Until the one that most nurtures

Heart, body and soul

Is the one you’re planted in.

You will rise…

When the darkness feels

As if it never leads to light.

When the tunnel is tight

And the way through is foggy.

The sun rises still

The moon rises too.

There are beacons

And lighthouses

Offering a way

Offering an ‘other side’

As your boat is rowed

Through the din of the old

Letting go.

You will rise

And rise again.

You will arise anew

From the YOU you once knew.

And you will find new ways

To make it through

Moving into

What is truly

Most sincerely

Aligned with YOU. ❤

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For more info on sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator, I invite you from my own ever-shifting and evolving heart and soul to check out: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

5D Self Activation Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In this video with SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Jelelle Awen, you explore and connect to your your Ascension chakras during a guided meditation (which starts at about 10 minutes in), bringing light codes into them to activate your 5D sacred human ‘tree’ or violetprint.

Jelelle also explains about the 5D self and the differentiation between the 3D/4D/5D selves and how she (and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators) work with them in the SoulFullHeart healing process. This meditation is intended as a boost to your 5D self, your ‘service-of-love self’.

Your 5D self becomes more embodied as you connect to these chakras, heal your emotional traumas from this life and other lifetimes, raise your frequency in ALL areas of life, and separate from your 3D self. With all the intense energies coming in lately through the recent SOULstice and upcoming through the eclipses/Lion’s Gate, visceral and meaningful connection with your 5D self can be VERY helpful. This meditation also helps with integration and digestion of Ascension energies/photonic light/DNA activations.

INjoy and do share with us in the comments what you experience during the meditation!

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart events, visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group transmissions events with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

The New Paradigm Of Being A Healer: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (June 24, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

SoulFullHeart sessions and our community too are all very unique in what we offer, the ways in which we offer it, and the overall intentions behind every session. Featured this week is an article by Jelelle Awen who shares in detail about the empowerment offered in sessions that help you take the reins for your own healing within and not have you rely on your Facilitator or any ‘healer’ outside of you to do any of the work for you:

“YOU are the healer of your own inner world and the manifestor of an outer world that matches that healed state. YOU are actually the space holder that can provide the digestion of trauma that parts of you from this lifetime and other lifetimes most need. Any healer or teacher that offers you any other perspective than this one is still moving through the Lower 4D matrix of fear-based control and undigested abusive power dynamics.”

The next virtual group transmission will be on Lion’s Gate in August.

The focus of this group on Thursday, August 8, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to connect to the Lion’s Gate passageway. Lion’s Gate is also known as “Ascension Christmas” as it offers highly activating, next level gifts of activations and codes to support you to move into your higher timeline. Lion’s Gate creates a bridge to the codes that you’ve been receiving during the last months of Eclipses, SOULstice, and other cosmic/Gaia/SOULar energy fluctuations.

There are several new articles and audio recordings from Raphael Awen, Jelelle Awen, and Kalayna Solais this week. These include digestions of the recent Solstice activations, a message about a recent crop circle in England, and other invitations and ways to feel to your healing and Ascension process as it may be expressing right now.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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I Wish You Could See Yourself As I Do: Message From Archangel Metatron

By Jelelle Awen

Two years ago this touching message came through Archangel Metatron to me and I typed it out with tears streaming down my face…. I’m resharing now as it still rings so true in the heart space…..so much love for us and AS us and with us!

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I wish you could SEE yourself as I do.

I wish that you could SEE your light that wants to glow, show, come through every living cell. A star in human form, walking around star shine BEAMING, and star dust stuff in your every molecule of DNA.

I wish you could FEEL yourself as I can.

I wish that you could feel your precious human heart that is the JEWEL of your species, that which makes you a beacon in all the Universes. Every tear containing the codes to unlock compassion, gratitude, forgiveness, and empathy. So many levels and layers to each feeling!

I wish you could BE yourself as I perceive you to BE.

I wish that you could be authentic without hiding, conforming, shrinking, or denying to anyone or anything. Your self consciousness or self judgement held by parts of you could be released and healed and your TRUE self FREE to BE in all moments.

I wish you could REMEMBER yourself as I remember you.

I wish that you could remember you are a reflection of Divine Source, that you ARE Infinite Love in human form. Your reclaiming of your birthright around this embodiment providing waves of trust and support as you undergo your journey of awakening and remembering.

I wish you could SERVE yourself as I serve you.

I wish that you could serve love TO yourself and all the parts of you that need your compassion, care, and re-parenting. That you could serve love to all the soul aspects from your Metasoul that are hurting, in trauma, suffering, all alone, existing in many timelines.

These wishes are what the Divine holds for you, every individual human, in Its heart for you. These wishes are what the Angels, your Star Family and love-based Ethereal BEings hold for you. To ARISE into the seeing, feeling, serving, and being of what is the BEST of who and what you all ARE.

These are desires from an Infinite Love source for which there are no conditions to qualify to BE with Its love. The Divine holds this potential and capacity for EVERY soul incarnate with Gaia. The Divine lets go of attaching to your outcomes or your choices. The Divine invites you into experiencing the Infinite potential of yourself even as it respects your sovereignty.

Many more of you are LIVING into this. Many more of you are seeing, feeling, being, remembering AND serving your sacred humanity. Many more of you are asking for the love from Angels, Spirit Guides, Star Family…….whatever forms of the Divine that you can more feel and BE with and BEcome too.

Many more of you are claiming your soul purpose here, serving love to yourself and with others, and offering a WAY for others to come WITH you.

Many more of you are so bravely feeling and healing your way forward. You are letting go of what does not come from love in order to let in MORE love. You are aligning your lives to Divine purpose and Infinite Love source.

I hold my wishes for Humanity, as do so many BEings across the Planets/Galaxies/Dimensions/Universes. The Divine holds these wishes for you. We meet and match any NEW and higher vibrational expressions and realities that you are open to receiving.

We are Birthing sacred humanity together with YOU and the gifts on both sides hold Infinite Possibilities of LOVE! And, So It Is and So we ARE! ~

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Love,
Metatron and Jelelle Awen
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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group transmissions events with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.