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The Leading And Trailing Edges Of Our Awakenings

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Each and every time you have an awakening experience, though they are coveted and desired and often long-awaited and worked for, these experiences also carry you into a greater unknown. The whole idea of awakening is to shake something up inside, whether it moves your frequency up or drops back in inward into parts of you that need you more than ever. Sometimes awakening experiences bring us both in tandem. Sometimes we call this, ‘leading edge’ and ‘trailing edge’ in SoulFullHeart. ‘Leading edge’ is the experience of true and pure love awakening and deepening inside and feeling your actions, words, expression of you coming from a higher, less reactive and more expansive place, and ‘trailing edge’ is the opposite, or what can feel like the opposite; the parts of you coming up in reaction to the expansion, trying to close the gap between it and them, sometimes flooding you with their lower frequency wounding and reality. The main bridge between the two is consciousness, awareness that this can and will happen and that your job as an arising authentic self is to be an ambassador between the two, not negating or dismissing one or the other, yet bringing them together somehow and letting the newfound expansiveness inside to become the bigger container for the smallness, the pain, the existential terror.

I remember being quite young and awakening to angelic frequencies and love. My birth mother had given me a gift that Christmas of my first deck of Angel cards. They were simple yet sweet, not created by any well-known author or speaker. I was in my early teens at that time, or just about anyways. I remember playing with them, exploring them, reading the little book they came with. I did as the book instructed and asked a question I believe, or simply asked for guidance. I did a little spread of the cards and picked them up to read the other side. The messages that came through hit a chord of resonance inside my heart and soul, both. I felt a rush of energy move through me and suddenly felt Angels, what I called ‘my’ Angels, surrounding and encouraging me. The love I felt was so exquisite, I believe I even had tears… I remember too, that the book suggested dowsing as another method of reading the cards. I grabbed a necklace of mine with a small ring on it – a ring that had a nickname of mine etched into it and was too small for me to wear, so I had put it on the chain instead. I held it out in front of me, above my palm, to ‘tune it in’, asking it which direction it would turn in to mean ‘yes’ and which way would mean ‘no’. To my surprise, oh my God, it MOVED!! Woah!! The rush of adrenaline and excitement that followed I can’t explain in words, but it felt so powerful and I felt so powerful to be holding this tool in my hand!

After this happened, I ran to tell my mother and sister about what I had experienced. Part of me felt a bit shy about sharing, slightly worried about it being invalidated, but too excited to let that in at the time. I shared with them and my heart sank… there was an ounce of validation from my mother, who was exploring some areas of spirituality outside of the Catholic church I grew up in along with me, yet she couldn’t let it in deeply and didn’t ask any questions about it. My sister just sort of looked at me, I recall. I think she said something like, ‘that’s cool’. As my first experience of an awakening, without having much knowledge of what awakenings even were at the time, this sort of set the tone for any of my other awakenings that followed. I do not fault either of them for their reactions… their parts weren’t sure what to do with any of this and they probably both had fear and maybe even comparison come up. What I was doing was not ‘normal’ and I think it actually reflected their own capacities back to them, which of course parts, especially Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers who are busy trying to navigate the dense 3D world, tend to have big reactions to, as it isn’t exactly safe to be outside the norm in most cases.

Nonetheless, this birthed a whole world of spirituality for me. It validated so much of what I had begun to read about in different books by spiritual authors. I feel a young part of me sharing all of this, as she was the one who primarily ‘drove the bus’ on my spiritual adventures for many years of my life. Eventually, this part and I needed to separate from birth family and many other relationships altogether, as the lack of resonance hurt and also wasn’t serving my continued openings and my desire to deeply heal.

What followed was many years of seeking and searching. Being very naturally emotional and reactive and not having a container for it, no matter what spiritual path I/part of me tried on for size. I came close to some version of ‘parts work’ through one particular author and speaker who I even studied with for a while and this path was what then led me to SoulFullHeart, which I now teach and facilitate today. It took me a long time to realize that I needed to bridge to my emotional world, not try to put it away. And in truth, my parts weren’t ever going to let me do that anyway!

Every awakening I’ve had has been a mixed experience of up and down, sometimes at the same time, as I can feel my emotional body and also the wounding in my soul trying to catch up with the higher frequencies pouring in and watering my heart with so much love and dawning awareness. I invite you to feel where and how your own emotional body needs to catch up to your own awakenings and openings… to feel how your relationships currently surrounding you serve or don’t serve you along the way is an essential part of awakening and growing and healing. Every new vista invites us all to feel deeper where and who we are as well as who we want and need to become. And, they also invite us deeper into love, so we can better serve love, especially to others who truly want and need us to and are ready to let in their own capacity for the same!

Love to you in each and every moment of your awakening journey… know that my love and the love of many go into these places WITH you! ❤

Come explore the 7 Key Areas Of Life with Gabriel Heartman and me in our new vlog series called Practical Ascension! The playlist of all of our videos so far can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Metatron/Sophia & Your Protector Guided Meditation – Day 6: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Six of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I talk more about the process of working with, connecting with, and recognizing different aspects of self or parts or subpersonalities that we offer in SoulFullHeart. The benefits and gifts that I have received from engaging in this process myself with SO many wonderful, amazing, and BEloved energies/aspects/parts of myself over the last 13 years has been just incredible. I have changed SO much. My life has changed SO much. This is the way that has allowed me to navigate the changes and opportunities offered by the Ascension process. I also offer that session space with me or one of our facilitators is the BEST way to differentiate and deepen this process, more information about sessions here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I’ve been sharing in my other videos about the primary 3D Self part, which we feel is the Protector aspect of us. They are a masculine feeling energy, warrior-like, guarded, vigilant, and loyal, in general.

Today, I guide you in a meditation at 11 minutes to meet this part of yourself. We get the help and support of Archangel Metatron and Goddess Sophia. Their high frequencies of Divine wisdom, Divine Masculine and Feminine, Love, and help with the Ascension process opens up your heart space and supports your 5D Self. I guide you to connect with, visualize, feel, talk with your Protector in this meditation. Whatever you experience is PERFECT and meant just for YOU!

Thank you for joining me on this fifth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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Check out our other video series about the seven areas of life covered in SoulFullHeart with Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

This is the group call and guided meditation about the Inner Protector that I mention and there are others on our SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel:https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

More information about our group call on January 13th is here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Practical Ascension Vlog Series: Emotional Area Introduction

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In this video, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, invite you into feeling the SoulFullHeart perspective on the emotional area of life.This is an area that undergirds all other areas in the sense that your emotional reality is alive in every moment. Kalayna and Gabriel talk about what they mean when they say ‘undigested emotional trauma’ and what a ‘part’ essentially is. In their experience and as offered through SoulFullHeart, parts work process is a foundation for healing and Ascension.

We signed up to be human in this lifetime and therefore we have much to work, feel and heal in terms of our emotional realities, which tend to be stuck in an understandable immaturity until parts of us can be deeply felt in their realities, which are often traumatic situations from our ‘past’ in this or other lifetimes. Having an awareness of parts provides much new ground for mutual nourishment and profound intimacy in relationships of all kinds, as Kalayna and Gabriel experience together as a couple and as part of a conscious community. They talk about how conflicts and clashes can help you go deeper within and find more love flow inside that can then transact MORE love between you and another person who is doing the same work inside of them.

In many spiritual offerings, the emotional area of life is typically either bypassed or quickly ‘released’ instead of actually forming a relationship within. In SoulFullHeart, we form this relationship to our pain and wounding by relating with parts or subpersonalities that are alive within us. This offers much ground of inner nourishment, healing, and growing self love and worth as well as many more openings for spirituality and consciousness to broaden and deepen. This makes emotional work an essential aspect of our Ascension as a species in 4D and higher frequencies and realities.  

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. 

 Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

The 3D Self And The 5D Self – Day 5: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day Five of my 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about how parts of us compartmentalize our realities, keeping areas of our lives separate from other areas of it. In SoulFullHeart, we acknowledge seven areas of life that are being impacted by ascension and awakening: spiritual, emotional, social, mental, physical, financial, and environmental. In that way, the compartments are meant to be ‘flooded’ by love with none being separate from each other and with no parts of us dominant over certain areas.

I then talk about the 3D/4D/5D self and how it shows up in your life. We start in the SoulFullHeart process through sessions with this article about these selves and how they show up in each area, which would be a good one for you to take in as well to get more clarity about your desires and frustrations in each area:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

The 3D Self is your conditioned self, ego structure you could call it, and majority of energy is expressed as the energies of the Inner Protector. You can feel it when your ‘guard goes up’ or when you feel ‘defensive’, probably in a more subtle way at this point. The Protector is the vigilant, loyal, masculine energy that has a warrior vibe to them. The Protector came in with lots of armor to help you live in 3D life, especially as a baby. They are often ‘a guard in the room’ of your Inner Teenager and your Inner Feminine. The Protector is usually the most vigilantly guarding the social area and relationships, because parts of you have experienced the most harm and hurt in this area. The Protector usually sees ‘you’ as a Teenager that it needs to protect until you as a 5D self start connecting with it and separating from the Teenager/Child.

These are some questions that I offer in the video that you can ask and answer about your 3D Self/Inner Protector:
How have you felt the energy of protection over you in your life?
In what situations do you feel this guarding energy come up?
What do you feel could be the benefits of connecting with your Inner Protector?
What are your concerns about connecting with your Inner Protector?
What kind of relationship would you like to have with your Inner Protector?

I also offer that there is no ‘past’ in the sense of the emotional body and for parts of us. As these traumas and wounds are happening in the Now, in the moment, and are still being energized. So in responding to what has happened to you, you become less linear and more multidimensional about how you feel it and process it.

The Protector forms a protective bubble around you and you as a 5D self are invited to create a bridge to this energy in order for this bubble to move. Most people are not conscious of this guard in themselves, especially perhaps spiritual people. Not being vulnerable is a sign of this guardedness. Spirituality does not often equate to being vulnerable; healing of the Inner Child and negotiating with the Inner Protector allows for access to the Inner Child in the true frequencies of it.

This is not a quick fix process of just ‘healing in an instant’ these frequencies of Inner Child or other parts; or something that can be done and moved and cleared by someone else in a ‘one time’ healing session. It can feel evasive and even leave a sense of violation too by some parts of you, especially by the Protector, when you experience these kinds of approaches. The Divine Feminine sense of this healing process through parts work is of gestation, of process, of layers being felt and moved. You create a home inside for the Protector and other parts of you to grow trust with them over time and patience and with love.

These are the questions that I offer about your 5D Self, your awakening self, your soul self, your Higher Self aspect in your body, your authentic self, that moves you through all areas of life, etc.:
How would you describe your 5D Self?
What in your life supports your 5D Self to express?
What in your life limits your 5D Self from expressing?
What spiritual activities support the growth and expression of your 5D Self?
When do you feel ‘the most’ like your 5D Self or your authentic you?
What is your sense of your service of love purpose/mission here as your 5D Self?
What gets in the way of you fulfilling and BEing this purpose/mission?

This is the video series about the seven areas of life covered in SoulFullHeart with Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

This is the group call and guided meditation about the Inner Protector:https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc…

Thank you for joining me on this fifth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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 You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.
Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Connection With The Divine And Guides – Day 4: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle and Raphael Awen (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day four of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, my BEloved mate Raphael joins me and you get to be part of one of our soul and heart provoking conversations that happens frequently in our home! He is my most favorite collaborator and conversation partner and I am captivated with how his heart/soul/and mind works even after almost a decade together! This is the blessed experience of a true sacred union with a Counterpart Soulmate….it is stimulating, engaging, and resonant on deep levels.

In this video, Raphael and I talk about feeling Ascension in a personal way, an intimate way, and also relating with guides in a personal way too…..not as ‘better than’ you yet as intimate with you. It’s all personal and meant to be experienced as such, even while being a collective invitation toward ascension.

Making it personal is feeling the unworthiness and shame that can block letting in personal connection with the Divine and higher dimensional and vibrational guides/aspects. This unworthiness and shame come up from undigested traumas in the emotional body and parts of us that hold onto these frequencies until connected with and healed/moved.

Raphael talks about his journey to experience the Divine in a personal way after most of his life as a Christian, parts of him feeling unworthy and sinful to experience direct connection. Connecting with these parts of himself has allowed Raphael to claim, name, and BE with higher vibrational guides/aspects and Divine Frequencies in a playful and yet poignant way too. This has also opened up his intuition and ability to experience powerful altered states and love with guides. Raphael shares about this journey in his journaling series, Journey To The Demiurge. Go here to read the entries in the series: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/by…/journal-to-the-demiurge/

We also talk about using God and spirituality to bypass going into deeper emotions and the ‘mess’ of the emotional body, being ‘delivered’ from feeling, rather than going into feeling with Divine support which is what we offer in our SoulFullHeart process. We experience that Divine frequencies and love hold space for the exploration into the emotional body.

AND, we also talk about experiencing fear-based BEings/energies AS guides and why you might draw this because of undigested fear and soul experiences drawing these experiences to you as a mirror. This can lead to experiences of being ‘attacked’ rather than responding with love and so experiencing love.

Thank you for joining on this fourth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI
You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.
Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This is the guided meditation to connect with your Ascension chakras and your Higher Self that Jelelle mentions in the video: https://youtu.be/NzpoGL8Gt4I

Jelelle’s new book about ascension Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Embracing Your Bliss Mess – Day 3: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

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Today, for Day three of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about what I mean by the ‘bliss mess’ of ascension and why I advocate for the embracement of it. Bliss Mess is essentially the recognition and acceptance that we have had a messy emotional experience here in 3D and to desire to feel that in order to heal it…not just attain blissful states all the time. The attainment of bliss states can be used to bypass or transcend more difficult emotional places, woundings, and traumas that NEED to be felt and healed.

I offer a process for feeling any resistance in parts of you that may come up to feeling your ‘messes’ and going into that area. It is most likely your Inner Protector who would feel this way, usually doesn’t think that you can handle what would come up. The Inner Protector often related to you as an Inner Teenager, the energy that it has had to guard all your life. Negotiation with the Inner Teenager and the Inner Protector starts to separate their energies from each other, allowing more space for you to act as ambassador and negotiator. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I also read a passage from my new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension (it is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books):

“We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much more than we have been human BEings. We are here to experience the bliss mess (yes, both) of feeling. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in all its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us, so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely new.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy!!

It is necessary to experience both the bliss and the mess to ascend, awaken your soul, enloven your heart, enlighten your mind, crystalize your body. To just reach for and want the bliss aspects of ascension is to miss out on the gifts that going into your deepest densities and shadows offers you. There is a wealth to your woundedness. Not that you need fixing, yet, going into your woundedness and healing it allows you to free up your essence and bigness from the wounded frequencies. This is a spring loaded process that just happens organically as you open up to experiencing both the bliss and the mess.”

Going into the wealth of our woundedness with MUCH care and compassion for all parts of us allows so many gifts of integration, growth, and, yes, eventually experience of bliss and joy….without leaving anything behind or covering over anything!

Note: Sound is a bit muffled today as we had strange noise from my computer and had to edit it out….will be using my video camera starting tomorrow 🙂

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Thank you for joining on this third day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance. An organically arising community may form out of the shared experience and energy of taking in the series….a love-based group Merkabah!

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Supermoon Frequencies Offer Energized Alchemy AND Rest, Too!

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by Kalayna Colibri
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Rumbling, rambling, restless, restfulness!
 
OK, that’s the first thing that comes to my mind and heart when I ask myself what I’m feeling during this Supermoon and the frequencies it is relaying onto and into us. I feel the ebb and flow of energized alchemy. There is not too much that can really be ‘done’ over the course of a day as the rest is necessary and deeply desired while detox from the previous ‘year’ continues on in order to make room for the new ‘year’… yet, the heart and soul-based projects calleth and beckon us into their flow nonetheless and evermore…
 
It’s a yummy time for self-discovery and fullness within. A new tide of falling in love with yourself as you and your parts are invited to start to fall in love with life all over again after a time of much upheaval, change, burning away of the old. It is challenging to be in the moment and yet the moment is what calls the most. It is a time of rumbles and shifts and yet a settling into the flow of the ‘new’ that naturally energizes you as you dive into it.
 
Many ironies, I can feel that! I can feel how the preparation to serve and BE love comes hot on the heels of and sometimes simultaneously with personal healing processes… I feel these rumblings and want to offer them through writing, yet too I am feeling them within, feeling what foundations they may be trying to shake up inside of me as I continue to feel them outside of me, too. I feel the shifts in geography and relationship configurations (or simply additions of NEW relationships to replace the OLD) that are coming in 2018 for all of us as we continue moving into deeper territory within, feeling our desires, baking in them, and letting them quake through our lives to bring us into our next places, our next steps closer toward them.
 
At this time, Jelelle Awen is offering an ongoing vlog series called Metamorphosis, which is intended to help you navigate these shifts as she navigates her own in real time as well. Also, Gabriel Heartman and I are entering a new phase of our Sacred Union in offering a vlog series called Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas of Life, which is already bringing us to new places within AND as a couple, while we serve love with you! Plus, Raphael Awen is offering an ongoing blog series called ‘Journal to the Demiurge’ which is beyond epic and is also opening portals to major healing left, right and centre… all of this and MORE are being offered by all of us now and only MORE will come too, as we continue our journeys individually and together.
 
It IS a time for alchemical itches to be scratched and lived into. It IS a time for personal shifts that allow in more space for the service of love and the arising of Sacred Humanity.
 
If you would like to know more about us and what we are offering ongoingly, you can visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess for more information.
 
Big LOVE to you on these Supermoon-energized days and the ongoing intense yet loving energies of 2018 and beyond… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Year We Loved Our Fear

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“It is not freedom from fear you seek, but rather a relationship to it.”

I am in a new conversation with a soul aspect of mine that feels more closely aligned to my Higher Self. More polarized to love and light than the fear and darkness of so many of my other aspects I have had relationships with. His name is Aris and it is a shortened version of Aristotle. He has a Buddhist and Greek philosophers mind with an angelic aura. Very balanced in his guidance and does not seem to judge much about what is or isn’t true. It is all a quest of feeling and curiosity.

This has started as I have been continuing to feel an increased desire and call to out more of my leadership, authority, and embodiment as a healer, teacher, and creator. As a part of a community of healers, teachers, and creators, it can bring up some old frequencies of doubt, comparison, and unworth. “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?” as the famous quote goes. Yes….it is our deepest fear to face our Bigness. But more so our deepest fear is to feel that we are loved beyond infinite measure. That we ARE Inifinite Love. Right now, parts of me are still digesting the “I am loved” part. From me to me first, which lets in the beauty of the love from others and the Divine.

So I have this love flow that is arising INside, overflowing and circulating with my beloved soul family and beautiful sacred union mate. It is a good place to be with so many desires for more arising in all of us. Connecting with new worlds inside of us, growing the intention of vast travel and service of love to all BEings. “So what is the problem with that?!” I hear a voice in me asking.

It is not really a ‘problem’, I would say, but there does come a responsive arising of antithetical feelings that are based in fear, no matter the names I give them. I used to want to feel a freedom from my fear. To extinguish them. To live in a state of fearlessness. But I have come to learn from my experience and my guidance with Aris that Fear is a valuable and essential part of our existence. It is what we move through to feel the Love on the other side. It protects the preciousness of Love and those that are willing to feel the fear and heal it receive the gift in exchange. It is lessing the impact that our relationship to Fear has on parts of us that transmutes us into embodying more Love frequencies. This is the alchemical and transitional 4D consciousness we are going to all be moving into this coming year.

There will be many awarenesses that will come into focus as we move through these next months. Each one asking you to deeply feel your honest truth about your relationship with others, yourself, and daily life. There will be big reactions to those relationships inside of you and what the choice points are for you to feel in regards to what you are truly here to inhabit and how you get there. Feeling the fear undergirding it all is what moves you to the next places. This is where having a relationship with your fear and the parts of you that hold it come into play. Very sacred play. Your Highest Self is there holding space for it all as long as you are willing to feel it.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Transmuting The Fear-Based ‘Love’ Lens Of Modern Spirituality, Starting Within

Published on by Kasha Rosa4 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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It’s becoming more apparent than ever, how ‘love’ has been offered in very many different spiritual healing modalities and practices, and yet not lived into deeply by those who are teaching about it. What becomes very intense to feel, is the way in which love is often mixed in with intense amounts of fear and non-vulnerable responses to others and especially to the self. Words like ‘unconditional love’ are offered, yet often coupled with energies of shaming, criticism, and judgment, subtle or not. Judgment and punishing energies come from parts of us that need our love and attention and their intensity is often off-gassed, put onto others without a sense of personal accountability or consciousness. Judgment, in and of itself, is not ‘bad’ and, in fact, has been a necessary thing when it comes to moving through 3D life, and with work, it can heal to healthy discernment and a letting in of deep compassion. The primary energy though with which we tend to hold judgments is another thing entirely and is typically an expression of a need for more time within you. Healthy discernment and expressions of intuition come from many years of working with Inner Punishers/Judgers, which is a powerful way to find your authentic sense of compassion and Love too, starting, always, from you to you. Until these frequencies are given space to heal within, they actually can run through every area of our lives, dulling our sense of wonder at ourselves let alone others, and taming our reality of and access to higher frequencies of Love.

It has been really coming to light lately, that heavy-handed judgments from healers who are supposed to be offering deep healing to others are actually the norm. There are judgments and invasive read-outs being offered that are disguised as ‘love’ and assumed to BE ‘love’ by those receiving. There have also been SO many fear-based messages given without consciousness and often touted as channellings. Indeed, what we have learned is ‘love’ and have felt to BE ‘love’ so often misses the mark and is actually based in immense fear…. understandably so in some ways, given how harsh and challenging 3D reality has been, yet this reality is being invited to shift in every moment of our ever-expanding consciousness and our ever-opening and healing Sacred Human hearts.

Perhaps this is one of the main sources of pain in all of our bodies, physical, emotional, etc. right now during this phase of Ascension… we need to clear ourselves of the false love we have taken in from so many, so we can re-calibrate and learn what real Love IS… and that the only source of ‘unconditional love’ we can rely on is inside of us and with the Divine. It IS possible to experience deep love in ALL relationships outside of ourselves and in fact, we need to hold out for it, settle for nothing less than it, and we also need to let go of the label or expectation of it ever being ‘unconditonal’ when coming from another. We can recognize each other as expressions of Infinite Love and feel Love and authentic compassion for each other based on this picture, yet this can only really happen if we can feel this inside ourselves first in all ways and in all parts of us too.

The Love we are truly made of and deeply wanting more of, consciously or unconsciously, is right here, waiting for those moments of entry into us. The more we choose to express Love within ourselves, including being with parts of us that need us and Metasoul Aspects too, but also including the food we eat, the ways in which we treat our bodies, the meditation practices we sit in, and the relationships we have and inhabit. There is so much that Love, in all of its many shapes, colours, and textures, wants to come into you and show Itself for what it really is and how it really feels when it is truly, authentically, REALly there inside and beside you… ❤

If you are ready to begin or continue the process of going deeper into your own Love overflow that offers you a real sense of PURE Love starting within, you can have a look at: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and feel into having a free 30min intro session with one of my beloveds or myself. We would love to support you on your journey and the nourishment of doing so, so goes both ways! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The SOULstice Reflects Our Next Phases Of Growth Toward Our Sacred Humanity

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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The end of one cycle and the beginning of another. Physically in Earth’s orbit and energetically in our collective Gaian heart. We are all connected to Her and the frequencies that She is letting in and moving through. I feel Her with us all during this time. Not just another revolution around the Sun, but a journey UP and IN.

In the Northern Hemisphere, this is time of extended darkness and colder weather that, in our ‘past’, saw us literally holding up inside the hearth of the home, staying warm. Spiritually, a time for reflection and evaluation, even seen in the numbers 12:21. In the Southern Hemisphere, this is an end and a beginning too, in different light frequencies that are more active and yang. Taking action to embody what has been ‘received’ in your highest heart. Whether in reflection, or action, much is being illuminated and transformed.

In SoulFullHeart we take an assessment, or snapshot, of our current life through the lens of 7 key areas: Emotional, Spiritual, Mental, Social, Physical, Financial, and Environmental. As I have been going through these with someone I am currently working with, it has become so evident that these areas shed such an enormous light on our Whole Self rather that just focusing on one in particular.

If there is a place where you feel misaligned in your deepest calling and passion, then it can cause a drag, or anchor, in your fullest expression and BEing during your ascension process. This is a very reflective tool and highlights where you are being invited to go if you want to truly take all of you into the New.

This is where having that mirror can be a blessing and a curse both to parts of you. These energies are making more obvious the places you may need to go into so that you can unfurl our wings. One of the hardest, is the Social area where there can be such entwined relationships with others based on all sorts of conditionings and unconscious agreements. Or you may even find yourself more isolated due to self-protection or even self-love.

In either case, the holidays can really highlight the emotional body in this area. Are you in our fullest expression and truth when around others, or do you ‘shrink to fit’ in order to be a part of the social frequency? Or maybe there is a deep loneliness due to a lack of authentic connection. The emotional reality of this may be hard for a part of you to digest and be with so it can go undercover, but it doesn’t live far from consciousness.

The same holds true for all areas of your life. Feeling the ways in which you are still anchored and misaligned can be hard for parts of you to admit to and take action toward. This is a becomes a compassionate and self-loving process with these parts of you, most specifically your Protector, that has done life as us for so long, and is feeling the long nights of winter (or days of summer) coming to an energetic end. It is running out of gas as the veil between it and your emotional body is thinning.

This is a great time to take some self-reflective moments, in a sacred space, to take a snapshot of your emotional and spiritual bodies and see where your next phase of growth (and thus challenge for parts) lies ahead. Here is the assessment we use in SoulFullHeart to look at all areas and set a course to enter into a process with your Protector to see where the healing needs Love the most to move you UP and INto the next portal of your evolution of your sacred crystalline humanity.

http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

If you go through the assessment and feel a desire to know more about how SoulFullHeart may be able to serve you, we offer a free 30 minute intro session to feel that with you. A lot of  support is being offered during these times and all of us in SoulFullHeart send you much love and blessings.

There is also a Live Stream event happening here on Facebook and YouTube this Saturday at 11:11am CST with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. A great way to enter the Christmas Corridor!

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.