Category: Change and Transformation

The Journey To New Pastures Of Growth And Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

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There is a new ground wanting to ripen for you now. It’s calling your roots out of hiding, inviting you to plant them firmly in new soil. ‘New’ only in the sense of not having been lived in by you before… yet not ‘new’ at all, for there are others who have tilled it for themselves too for so long.

Out beyond everything parts of you have expected of themselves, well passed the flat expanses of ‘normal life’ that have held you in stasis, is a reality you’ve only begun to imagine for yourself… a reality where love flows and flourishes freely, pausing only to flood you and help you feel more of where it can’t quite get in. There are stuck places inside you of immaturity, of push-away towards goodness, of disbelief that love actually IS different than what parts of you have been taught it is directly and indirectly. In a pasture that you haven’t yet known, are your deepest, farthest-reaching places of healing and growth. It’s not a mental concept or construct, it can only be felt and experienced and lovingly challenged into being.

Those souls and hearts who have been in this soil before you, want to empower you beyond what parts of you have ever felt possible so far in your life. They want to empower without enabling, without caretaking what needs to be looked at, felt, deconstructed, loved UP… your soul somehow kNOWs the way, understands that it needs to lead and feels how much it wants to. It’s up to your parts, your personas, your willing heart, to feel what needs and wants to shift, what areas of life you especially need help with and illumination for, where love doesn’t seem to be flowing abundance and why love doesn’t seem to feel very nourishing, based on what you’ve lived of it so far.

It takes a lot… it takes a big soul, like yours, to say ‘yes’ to the desire deep within, that wants something different, wants transformation, wants fulfilment in the sweetest way. It takes a capacity to be with what isn’t desired, to find it within your heart to love it for what it was and what parts of you needed it for, and to move on to what awaits you next in the greener pastures of soul family, ever-expanding heart wisdom, and exponential service of love. ❤

Join SoulFullHeart’s Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman this Sunday at 11:11am CST for a Facebook and Youtube LIVE stream: https://www.facebook.com/events/1529926353733589

Feel into the process that I am offering to you in this writing and explore the possibility of having a free 30min intro session by visiting this page: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

‘Business As Usual’ Is Not So Usual: Letting Go Of 3D Anchors In Money/Livelihood And Relationships

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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‘Business as usual’ is not so usual anymore. The routines and patterns that bring a sense of safety and comfort are being interrupted and shifted by all these waves of high frequency light. And, if your life IS continuing to remain exactly the same, it could be that part of your 3D self is holding onto the patterns, routines, safeties, and the knowns for dear life, not wanting to let go, wanting to remain anchored to some degree still to 3D life. It could be a part of you that is understandably afraid to be untethered, free to fly and, therefore, also susceptible to crashing and burning.

Oh, those anchors and those hooks to 3D life can be so deep and invasive! They are what you can feel as ‘business as usual’…sometimes literally a business or a job or a career, especially if it is 3D-based, a long-term source of livelihood, and not serving your passion purpose expression of love here as felt and seen by you. The security and safety of these ‘means of income’ wants to be threatened and sorted out, so that you will start to let go and step out into a more trust-based relationship, 4D and higher frequency relationship to drawing your means of supportive energy in the form of money for yourself. Or, so that you will lean into a community of other resonant souls in a sharing money picture (as we do in our closest circle in SoulFullHeart)….or, with a sacred union mate for which you can collaborate and create your livelihood together.

Sometimes, the anchor to 3D ‘business as usual’ money earning has already been let go off and severed in many ways. But, maybe it was with harshness or suddenness. Maybe it was the rejection of a steady livelihood or 3D career or business in favor of living without true means of supporting yourself in a sovereign and consistent way. This can lead to ultimately compromising situations, such as moving in with birth family to support you as you ‘find yourself’ or to receiving money from the government because you are ‘disabled’ or ‘mentally ill.’ You have let go of 3D life in one way yet, actually, are now anchoring into a birth family safety (in the form of government aid in some cases) that provides another kind of anchoring.

This can be OK and even necessary for a phase, yet, the question becomes: is this way of receiving livelihood (love in the form of money) ultimately serving your higher expression of love here or is it settling, limiting, and/or confining you? Is it based on a picture of you being broken or needing fixing or not being able to manage in life? In some cases, the best service of loving yourself could actually be to get a ‘regular job’ in order to be able to fund the things that most feed your soul, allow you to be independent from family again, and move you closer toward your soul expression being the source of your livelihood here.

‘Business as usual’ also relates hugely to relationships in your life, which can very much have this normalized and flatlined sense about them if based in 3D frequencies of duty, obligation, routine, comfort, and familiarity. This can especially be true in long-term friendships, birth family, and romantic relationships where you are awakening and others are choosing not to. Relationships can and do provide a huge anchoring to 3D reality, which is needed for survival for your childhood and yet can then become have a hampering effect, a dampening on your awakening and growth. Shrinking to fit these long-term relationships can look like pretending to be the same around them ‘on the outside’ even as you are hugely changing on the ‘inside’ and ‘in private.’ Parts of your 3D self, especially the Inner Protector, can wear this mask very well and energize suitable and conforming energies to fit in with these relationships even when you are consciously unhappy in them as a soul/5D and higher self.

It IS possible to experience life as an arising wonder. Every moment open to the surprises and mysteries that could unfold if you can let your relationship to others AND to life and to love arise anew for you. The usual and normal give way to what Infinite Possibilities might bring to each circumstance and how they might be changed into the unexpected and even magical. In this arising wonder relationship to life, you no longer experience boredom and, when you do, you can feel the part of you that is still wanting to anchor to 3D life in some way and WHY they are. These textures of arising wonder happen when your higher self consciousness can come into your body, expanding your heart and opening your mind beyond ‘business as usual’ and into the sublime magic of All That Is.

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In the SoulFullHeart Process experienced through affordable weekly sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, you get to know aspects of your 3D self and how they operate and are still anchored in all areas of your life, including financial and social. You receive support to negotiate with them as your 5D self and navigate choice points toward manifestation of your highest purpose. Read more here about our free intro session with a facilitator: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions. This article identifies the 3D, 4D, and 5D self as it relates to seven areas of life: emotional, spiritual, mental, social, physical, financial, and environmental: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

 

The Desire For Love Underneath It All

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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Beneath the desire to predict, to plan for, to kNOw ‘what’s next’… is the desire for love.

Beneath the shadowy figures of men and women at the helm of leadership, who desire battles, who embody tremendous self-righteousness, who abuse and accuse others… is the desire for love.

Beneath the shut-outs, the push-aways, the cling-to-forevers…. is a desire for love.

Beneath your resistance to love, as expressed outwardly and inwardly, in words, in energy, in self-harm, in harm of others… is a desire for love.

And in that desire, all of the answers to questions of ‘why’ can be illuminated. And so much more can be felt, heard, seen, healed… loved.

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It often feels as if the 3D world really doesn’t want love. Some might even say outright that they don’t want love, claiming that love really isn’t the answer, or that love is only for the fortunate. Deep unworthiness to receive and let in love in the truest, deepest sense, is surfacing more and more now. There is deep unworthiness in our leaders. Deep unworthiness in fear and war-mongering. Deep unworthiness, pain, sadness, woundedness, in our patriarchal expressions as men and women, in relationships, in ourselves, at work, at home, out in the world. In all ‘fights’ we choose to instigate or be a part of in some way, we are expressing resistance to love… and where love wants to move us, what it wants to illuminate for us, what it wants to remind us that we ALL are… LOVE, embodied, ever-present.

Sometimes love is even resisted with love… it is resisted in the sense of what it wants to bring you about your wounding, which can sometimes be most easily found by going into your shadow. It is resisted by the ‘twin flame’ picture, that offers more suffering than goodness, more clinging than letting go. It is resisted in all of the ways parts of you would rather not feel. Love cannot transform or move you to new heights unless a certain facade is allowed to be cracked.

The 3D world wants love, yet is afraid of what love really is. A catalyst, a river, a cliff, a flashlight in the dark, a path less travelled or never travelled before… and an end to the depths of human suffering, starting within.

My beloveds and I offer a process of becoming reacquainted with love in a real sense of it… feeling parts of you that are resistant to truly letting it in and letting it move you in a new direction. If this appeals to you, you can read more about the process here: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Also, Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen will be hosting a live stream on Facebook and Youtube this coming Sunday, where they will talk more about this process and way of life. You can go here for more details: https://www.facebook.com/events/1529926353733589

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

IN-tegration Is Happening On All Levels: Messages From Guides/Aspects

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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“IN-tegration is happening on all levels,” I am hearing this while connecting with three of my guides/aspects in this now. These multidimensional aspects want to communicate with you, although honestly written word is SO challenging sometimes and right now in particular……so linear, so one word after the other. They (and I) would prefer instead to just transmit this to you on waves of love energies for your heart to take in, your mind to digest when it is ready, and your soul to just kNOW. I trust that it does go in this way on some level….

Connection with aspects of ourselves (from 3D to 4D to 5D to higher selves) seems to be more fluid, less veil there, easier to access with so much help from the higher frequency energies available to us. Whether you call them ‘past lives’, ‘parts of me’, ‘spirit guides’ or whatever doesn’t matter so much. Going within and JUST asking to connect with a curious and open heart is ALL it takes.

Being open to whatever happens after that, trusting that you’ll know when it is coming from love, letting your mind help yet not lead. Feeling the other aspects of you that feel unworthy to connect with your higher frequency aspects. There is no attainment in this, just a remembering and reclaiming of YOU. These BEings are not better or higher than you, yet, just represent other aspects of you returning to your consciousness again.

Each of these guides seems to offer messages of integration of energies that are available during this Equinox passage and beyond that invite you to feel different textures of your BEing. They are here to help you see beyond your 3D conditioning that flattens your perceptions of yourself and all of life into a limited feeling, five sense perception reality.

“Everything is rich in meaning and symbology when you are ready to let it in that way,” offers Archangel Metatron in this now. “Integrating your angelic frequencies into every day meaning allows you to open up to what is holy, what is sacred, what is Divine, and what is transcendent.”

“Everything is magical and wild when you let go of the filters that make it ordinary and mundane,” says Ealanthra, Faerie Queen and quite a magical mystery herself. “Integrating your magical and wild frequencies into every day meaning provides a doorway into your soul legacies, into your imagination, into metaphysical realities represented by your wildest dreams.”

“Everything is a celebration of feeling something deeper within your emotional bodies when you orient to it from that place,” says Morgaine, High Priestess of Avalon and becoming a ‘heart priestess’ through connecting with her humanity, compassion, and feeling tones. “Integrating your emotional body and your feelings into every day meaning provides a lived in, loved in, heart ground of self intimacy and intimacy with others that enlivens all of life!”

Angelic, you are. Magical, you are. Mysterious, you are. Emotional, you are. Connected to and coming from both Gaia and the stars. At ONE with the ocean and the galaxies. At ONE with your heart and your soul. At ONE with your roots AND your wings.

IN-tegration is breathing in the multidimensional aspects of your being WHILE holding space for the necessary rumblings of your deepest densities. Holding the hand of your inner child WHILE feeling your angelic wings unfurling. You CAN span all of that as your capacity as a sacred human is much more VAST than you can even imagine. This is what a healing heart can HOLD when allowed to open. IN-tegration is letting in the love that you already ARE. IN-tegration is allowing in ALL aspects of your BEing as you return, process by process, to wholeness again.

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I share more about my experiences, openings, awakenings with these guides/aspects in my books that you can purchase here (with more coming SOON!): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

 

 

 

Healing The Family Legacy That Lives Within

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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Within most (if not each) of us, lies an heirloom that has been handed down over the generations. In a non-linear way of feeling it, this heirloom is a legacy, or a theme, that each soul of a blood family has chosen to work. This legacy is what keeps them bound, until at such point, one or more of the souls chooses to heal beyond it, and into a new legacy that is founded on growth and a deep transformative union with Love.

This legacy is a way most members of a family, through the generations, have chosen to view and relate to the world. It may all come out in different forms and functions, but there is a connector that seems to run underground, or in computer speak, run in the background. It can range from depression, to rage, to anxiety, to control. It can be subtle, or obvious. It can live in us and be expressed in different ways. Some may cover it over with busyness (business), religion, sex, and other pursuits of “happiness”, or others may be deeply steeped in the legacy trying to find answers, or a way “out”.

For either one, it is part of the way back to Self and Love. To Self-Love. It is a very core wound that is almost a secret in a way. The elephant in the family room, so to speak.  When you get down deep enough it eventually leads to Fear and our separation from Source, but it has its own flavor and frequency.  One that acts an anchor to 3D and keeps us coming back to heal what we came here to heal; that which we were born to love and let go of.

For me, I am unearthing a deep family wound that is rooted in self-punishment and a deep distrust in life itself.  I can see and feel the family tree of this theme and it lies at its roots. Watered by the choices I made to keep the tree growing until it was time to leave the tree and be planted in different soil.  Soil that is nourished with Love and not Fear. I have begun connecting with a part of me that is named after my grandfather.  His name holds the legacy, so it is more than just him I am connecting with, but his spirit is also a part of it. You could also connect with a last name that anchors that frequency. It is a very powerful relationship to a very powerful conditioning.

This energy holds a key to our movement from 3D into 4D and beyond. It is a root anchor that can serve as a launching pad as we begin the inner work of connecting, caring, loving, and collaborating with it. At first it is a very intense frequency due to the amount of energy the collective family has put into it. But you wouldn’t have chosen to heal it if you weren’t big enough to handle it. For our 3D self, this is the biggest purpose it has in our ascension process.

Even though I chose to draw a boundary with my family years ago, this legacy continued to inform the way I related to my healing and relationships to others within community.  It is a set of heart glasses that are almost permanently affixed until such time they are ready to be noticed and taken off to see and feel the world in a more truer way. It is a doorway into a whole new way of BEing and feeling myself that has many gifts in its wake. And for that I am feeling compassion and gratitude for what this heirloom has offered me.  May it also serve to heal those that I grew up so intimately with in their pursuit of Real Love.

If you feel resonance with this family legacy and have the desire to go IN and heal it, SoulFullHeart offers a path and process to take you from where you are and guide you through the different aspects and parts of yourself to unearth and heal all the remaining anchors to 3D life that are bringing you pain and a capped relationship to Love.  Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services for more information.  We offer a free 30-minute intro session to how SoulFullHeart could serve you in your healing journey.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

In These Moments Of Enlightening Mind, Awakening Soul, And Enlovening Heart

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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In these moments, your heart opens and whatever IS in that moment…it IS enough. MORE than enough. It is overwhelming actually, when its true essence is seen and felt by your heart.

The love ALREADY in your life through what your soul has so bravely chosen is overwhelming when let in more deeply. You could spend the rest of this life letting in more deeply what you already have and already ARE and still have MORE to let in.

In these moments, the filter raises and the essence of everything arises and dissipates. It is no longer whatever ‘name’ and ‘label’ it has been given, yet, rather magic in the form of energy. Nothing is ordinary or flat or common. Nothing is solid and static. It is ALL alive, pulsating, and constantly shifting. It is not actually the fear energies to which it might temporarily cling, but always sourced in and returning to love.

In these moments, the identities lift and the names, occupations, stories dissolve too. You are free then to BE beyond the labels, judgements, and boxes of five sense reality filtering. You have shed the false skins of your 3D conditioning. In those moments, you are bare flesh experiencing bare reality.

These moments of enlightening mind, enlovening heart, and awakening soul are the WHY of your incarnation here during this era of great ascension. These moments are a motivation and reminder of why you go into your own shadows to reveal the gifts they hide; why you go through death and rebirth and letting go of what no longer serves your expression as love.

Your enlightening mind is expanding beyond all it has been taught, conditioned in, and learned. You are seeking out resources to continue the re-education, the remembering of soul kNOWledge that goes much beyond the logical and rational boxes you may have previously felt trapped in.

Your enlovening heart is opening beyond the barriers and protections that it has needed in order to be around other defended hearts. You are increasingly choosing intimacy….with yourself, with others in relationships that allow an open hearted love flow based on compassion, respect….bonding but not binding, freedom.

Your awakening soul is spreading its angelic wings, unfurling beyond the limits of 3D reality. You are remembering you have stardust in your DNA and angels as ancestors and aspects too. Your multidimensional soul can live in your highest timeline even as it is fully present to your now.

These moments provide the juice and motivation to keep going, keep awakening, keep opening, and keep feeling. As you align your life more and more to your Divine service of love purpose here, so you experience these moments more and more AS your life and yourself as the Infinite Love in human form that you ARE.

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This writing was inspired by re-reading my book, Keep Waking Up! about awakening journeys I experienced (kundalini, non-dual, Archon/Matrix reality, star BEings, travels to Avalon and Golden Earth/New Earth/5D, etc.) during an intense phase in 2015 on a remote, off-grid ranch here in Mexico. I am reminded reading it how these experiences greatly inspired and are the basis for all of my current writings and teachings. You can purchase it on our website here and my other book as well, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

Going Inward With New Layers Of Vulnerability And Humility

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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We are being invited to feel our anchors and what has held us and conditioned us within this dimension we call ‘3D’, ongoingly. It seems that every shift in the weather, every start of a new season, every cosmic occurrence, is all bringing us back inward, or at least opening up the doorway to do so. There is nothing we have done ‘wrong’ to bring these energies in. They are not punishments from a punitive god or goddess that wants to purge the world of the filth that parts of us feel we are or must be. They are reflections back to us of us… of how we’ve treated ourselves, let alone each other. Of what we’ve been willing to claim and what we’ve been willing to leave behind… as well as what we’ve been clinging to that needs to be let go of. Our conditioning tells us that if we are feeling bad as a result of something that is happening outside of us, then we must have done something wrong. I feel to share today, that this is not what’s true… and that even this reaction to your reactions and to the churning of your 3D life and being, are what is being reflected back to you now.

We are asked very often if not regularly right now, to really look at and feel our conditioning, where it has come from and how we relate to it. We have so much of a legacy from those who came before us ingrained within us, that we have necessarily forgotten that we are here to do and be something different… yet this journey must begin within and it must reach into our subconscious to unearth what has been long-buried.

Among these layers that we are being asked to feel, are the layers of protection. It’s actually an expression of self-protection to believe that all things are happening outside of you, to you. This protects you from really feeling yourself and your parts. This keeps you from landing in you, as it keeps your gaze from going inward where the real change and transformation can take place. It is a new place of vulnerability and humility, to realize what we’ve had going on inside of us all along. It heals and dissolves our walls within so that we can eventually have no walls against the world and the people in it too.

Today, if you choose to, you can begin to feel what it is that makes you feel as if you don’t want to go inward. Even feeling this much can bring you to a powerful place of newfound humility and a reconnection to an experience of love and the Divine that you had forgotten about… ❤

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My beloveds in SoulFullHeart and I, offer space-holding sessions for your inner explorations and healing. If you’d like to, you can try a free 30min intro to the process. Just visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Equinox Energy Update: Finding Balance and Trust In The Midst Of UPHeaval

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By Jelelle Awen

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The EQUInox passage happening….an invitation for balance in a phase of seemingly extreme upheaval in Gaia’s weather manifestations and some personal inner chaos too to push up the most tender and core wound levels to be felt and healed. How do you find balance in the midst of such a collective and personal time of transition and shifting consciousness?

Coming into balance has a changing definition during this phase of the ascension process then it did before. It isn’t about just finding calm, peacefulness, centeredness, not being reactive, suppressing all ‘negative’ emotions. It isn’t about just meditating away your tensions and anxieties and fears. It is about integrating what got downloaded to you during the total eclipse in August (and with ALL the intense energies in August) that offered your highest timeline service of love here…integrating this download WITH the reactions that come up in response to this from your emotional body.

You are being given tastes, glimpses, dreams, senses, synchs, new connections, resources, transitions, death AND rebirth opportunities to embody this new timeline choice point by choice point. You are being offered external shifts that are ‘happening to you’ and yet really are happening WITH you on the soul level IF you hadn’t proactively made some of these changes yourself. Experiencing seemingly random ‘weather events’, for example, can offer this opportunity in a catalytic and powerful way (in collaboration with your soul/higher self) that parts of you may not allow you to make otherwise.

Balance in the now comes from the return to a sense of trust and surrender even when (and ESPECIALLY WHEN) your life is in upheaval. Even when loss is much more common than gains; even when you are saying ‘no’ more than ‘yes’. Even when material things have been taken from you; even when what you previously thought was your soul purpose work has fallen away; even when your most beloved animal companions have left you (which seems to be happening quite a lot right now!); even when your previously comfortable relationships no longer work for you and need to complete. When it seems as if the highest timeline dream is farther away than ever AS the old collapses around you, and yet somehow you return to trust that it is ALL right in the bigger picture. You feel how what is being lost is only making room for the new to come in. You are experiencing the necessary void before the new manifests.

The anchors to 3D life seem somehow more obvious than ever in this phase. This can leave you feeling like you aren’t as ‘far along’ in your awakening as you previously thought you were. The 3D anchors of your 3D self are meant to be MORE in your face so that they will receive loving attention from your heart. Sometimes they become painfully obvious as the tug and pull becomes more conscious and the suffering that they cause or the undigested woundings that still need to be felt become more clear. This is about making way for the higher timeline reality, so the previous traumas need to be triggered to be felt some how and in some way. What has been able to be avoided or transcended or diverted no longer can be. Balance is discovered in holding space for the process of feeling it all, reliving it with the 3D parts of you that are experiencing it.

Balance sometimes looks like trusting that you are being guided even as you are more lost than found…..somehow feeling secure even in the jumping off of cliffs into the unknown rather than clinging to what has been known. Turning away from consciousness states that feel good and high in order to ‘go down’ to be with what most needs your attention. We are being invited to TRUST what is happening to us as we align with what we are here to BEcome and live out as we continue to move into the new together……finding a NEW kind of balance from within as connected to Divine Source.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

We Want To Belong Without Feeling Trapped

Published on by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

‘But, I don’t want to sign up for your deal!’

While it’s true that by nature, we don’t want to be trapped, it’s also true that we want to belong.

We want to belong without feeling trapped. This however means different things for different parts of us. If you are at a phase in life where your Inner child is showing up in our emotional body, then there’s likely going to be a deep desire rumbling through you to find and maintain a sense of home socially, a family in which to belong. If however, a Protector Part of us is running the show, as they often are, there can be a sizable protest around belonging to anything. The internal civil war we are left with really explains the shut down so many people live in.

I found myself usually wanting to go deeper into the family at hand I found myself in, and then deeply wanted to change it, until that felt controlling or too pushy and then I was left with leaving, without anywhere else to go. Eventually, however, my soul has always brought me to a new place of home and family, even if that meant creating one from scratch.

What I’ve learned for myself is that none of us really get to not be a part of something. Even the choice to be alone and live like a hermit, is a choice to tune into an archetypal frequency, a belonging of sorts to a community of non-belongers who share commonalities.

I like to say that none of us in this way is exempt from belonging to cults and cultures, we only are able to take responsibility for the cults we choose to be a part of. You get to pick your cult(s), you just don’t get to pick whether you will participate in cults or not! ‘Cult’ is the perfect charged word to describe this too, because it gets us to see how deeply the subconscious ways of life we all participate in shape and dictate our lives.

Coming back to the bigger mysterious picture of who and what we are, It’s like we are individual and that individuality also both dissolves and is manifest in every moment through oneness. We are paradoxically one while we are individual. Talk about being roped into something! Belonging! We are all doing something very similar at a deep core level. Hence our needs for often vain attempts at differentiation through labels and brands. It’s only when our higher self shows up more and more that a consciousness awakening to this ‘what is’ can occur, and we can then take responsibility for our innate needs around belonging. If I can’t actually ‘not-belong’, then I can consciously choose and feel all the what’s, why’s and how’s of my belonging.

This is also true on the personal level of our emotional body, as an individual. What we think of as simply us, and feel to be us is actually just the active part of us in any moment thinking and emoting through us, in the absence of any higher us; a healthy parent kind of us to offer real relationship. What we are left with can be likened to a band of teenagers running the household in the absence of any loving and heart open true parental presence. Even these parts of us form a working club or family of belonging, a hierarchy of roles and means to survive complete with valiant attempts at getting needs met. Even the most obviously dysfunctional among us are really amazing multi-dimensional beings who find a way to function where there simply was no way.

‘We’ are also ‘the one’ who is comprised of ‘the many’, who awaits a higher consciousness to arise that can hold an ambassadorship to the outermost regions of our being.

This is our true belonging, where any deal we sign up for, even if it ends painfully, cannot take away from us, but only add to us, as we now live from an emerging true sovereignty of being. Our vulnerability is now returned to us as our greatest gift.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Visiting With Your Inner Teenager

Published on by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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Our creativity, our ideals, our passions, our angsts, our desires, our despair, our romantic ideas… these are often all aspects of your Inner Teenager – a part of you that has wanted very much to be heard, to be seen, to rebel, yet also to be hidden, to run away, to sneak away, to be a lone wolf, yet be a part of something important too perhaps. There are a lot of conflicting aspects to this part of you. Some of them are represented by other parts of you too, yet so much reaction to life and love happens inside of this one part of you and sometimes it can feel like the biggest polarities are present there too. This is the reality of trying to find your way in a world that you still have an inherent sense of not belonging in… your childhood is not so far behind you and you can still see it in your rearview mirror. Your childhood, that held so much wonder and a thinner veil to the existence of other realities and the realities you came into this life from.

The desire for a romantic partner that ‘checks all the boxes’ on a long list of desires, is one of the biggest pieces here. Maybe you’re still trying on different ideals, exploring different approaches to sex and sexuality, experimenting with drugs that lift the heavy veil that never used to be there before. Maybe you’re still holding life in the 3D sense as something to either be avoided or over-inhabited in some ways without much balance in between. Perhaps you’re still trying to reconcile why you feel certain ways about your birth family and perhaps even your friends and other social or work connections and you aren’t sure why or how this is even possible with the moral standards you’ve been taught your whole life. There is a whole big ‘mess’ here to sort through and often it can feel more like an impossibly tangled ball of yarn than something that is even remotely possible to sort out. These seem to be the common experiences of Inner Teenagers, even in adults who have reached middle age and beyond… they are the place where your emotional immaturity often lands and lives, and the part of you that wants to learn how to grow up yet in a way that feels okay to them and not necessarily to anyone else – the ultimate place of your rebellion and your conformity both. It’s complicated, this world they live in… and they are often stuck here in many unconscious loops and patterns until you can go inward to find and be with them.

You will often find your Inner Teenager still living in your childhood bedroom, or any other room or place that they consider a ‘sanctuary’ for themselves. This place has become a box that holds so many traumas, so many stories of abuses, so much hope and despair, both. It is a place where they can still find and be in their creativity, however it expresses, often as a way to cope with life instead of really be in it and heal through it… they don’t have a guide for that, at least until you can show up and be with them, until they trust you enough to let you in the door and sit next to them, to eventually cry or thrash with them, as they express all they’ve likely bottled up or hidden. Perhaps if they have been over-expressed in your life, you can now feel them in their real vulnerability and likely self-consciousness. There is much pain that they hold that is equal to the joy they have access to as well, not unlike or far from the Inner Child inside of you.

Healing the Inner Teenager means offering this space inside of you for feeling deeply all there is to feel. The process for them often means bringing them back, little by little, step by step, to a place where they feel their ideas and ideals are welcome again, where they can be in their creativity from a non-medicative place that doesn’t numb but instead evokes. My sense of it is that they can evolve in this way too, from a 3D part of you to a 4D and eventually a 5D, integrated part of you. Most Inner Teenagers, at least for those of you reading this, will somehow straddle 3D and 4D in their aches and rebellion and hope too. They may or may not have a sense of spirituality, yet they do seem to have an investment somehow in this domain that can express itself in different ways.

Being with and feeling your Inner Teenager is a process that brings you access to many gifts and new ways to feel all of the different areas of your life.

If you wish to explore this further, you can have a look at our process that we offer in SoulFullHeart, that includes feeling and healing your Inner Teenager along with other parts of you: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.