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Lunar Eclipse Supports Feeling Shadow of Polarizations, Invites Unity

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By Kalayna Colibri

Last night while witnessing the moon’s eclipse and feeling it hanging very close to my field, I was struck by a feeling of emerging sisterhood in my life and process, yet also the potential for it worldwide.

Yet… the temptation for many seems to still be that the way to unify is in anger. The way to find our common ground is to get pissed. To rage. To march. To condemn the masculine… in men yet also in each other. This is masculine versus masculine in the end, leaving the world inside and outside of us without any room for the sacred masculine AND feminine to unite and make love.

Pointing fingers, protesting, arguing without care of where and how it lands in each other is a phase of our relationship to each other that wants to move into something new. It’s a deep shadow expression of our fear of actually loving ourselves and each other. It’s a fear that the cycles of pain will continue while we continue to become a cog in the wheel, contributing to this cycle with that same fear. Real intimacy brings up a lot more than anger and push-away. It brings up tears and vulnerability, it brings up what’s underneath the rage and presses the heart to open in order to keep giving and receiving nourishment.

This picture of relationship I’m describing is not idealized or impossible… I get to live this every day, I get to be challenged by the presence of others who want to keep this flow going within themselves and with me, I get to feel and meet the challenge of continuing to move through my resistance to love and to keep letting it in… knowing full well that doing so means walking into fires of personal funeral pyres as the old way of approaching life and others passes away, and also knowing that it means getting to experience the heaven of a deeper and easier love flow than I’ve ever experienced before.

Even last night… sharing intimacy with my mate Gabriel, feeling his admiration of myself, my body, my heart and soul, I felt my admiration for his and let his male gaze into every pore. I felt so many tears come up and out like a fountain, feeling the pain of my soul and heart in relating to the masculine in ways that weren’t nourishing on either side and feeling afraid of it. Feeling the pain of a collective of women and what they’ve experienced and also the pain of the men who have not ever been initiated into how to make real love with a woman and what it feels like to be truly met or felt on their side either.

The more energy that’s spent in blame-game shaming and pushing away at each other, the less opportunities we create for the deep healing and nourishing intimacy that’s possible, that wants to bloom and blossom starting between parts of you that are polarized to each other but who want love more than anything else in this world. Starting to see and feel these dynamics within is the best and most profound way to shift what you draw in your outer relationships and what you start to see is really possible with each of them. ❤️

For support as you go into this territory and really feel how it all applies or could apply to you, my beloveds and I hold sacred session space for these explorations and more: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Processing Rage Into Passion With Care

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By Kalayna Colibri

Rage sometimes pours out like volcanic lava, ready to burn and melt down, create a reset or reboot as it moves through. We’re barely into 2019, yet already we are feeling what it’s pushing up… more to look at within, more to feel rage at but then find the real hurt and vulnerability underneath it. Anger and the parts that feel it need to be validated. It’s meant to help elucidate what isn’t ok anymore, what needs boundaries set around it, and what needs shifting in any area of your life.

Rage can also become an addiction, like anything else. It can be used by parts of you to self-medicate and avoid feeling vulnerability. It can also be used to avoid feeling others and your impact on them, which, even though they may answer your anger with their own and not seem impacted in a deeper way, they have been… as have you. Your anger has impact on your parts too, especially the ones that do feel more hurt and sadness, self-consciousness, ache for love.

There’s nothing to control here, but there’s a ton to feel and keep feeling. There are so many questions to keep asking. The fire of anger and frustration is needed in phases of awakening and moving forward in your life, yet ultimately it wants to be transmuted into passion and taken in the direction of creation, not destruction. The direction of love… heart-centered and fulfilling.

We cannot skip this step of truly feeling it and getting the good stuff on the other side of it. There’s so much it needs to rumble with yet also so much it needs to shift into as the dust and ashes settle on the new ground being birthed within. The rageful warrior inside holds an invitation to move into a role of ambassador of heart and soul, dropping the sword and baring the heart. This is important to remember, even as the fire burns you up from the inside and wants to spread into your outer world too.

There is ultimately no ‘other’, even when you feel opposition. And if that’s really true… there is always a ton of reflection to take in and be with, get real about, and start loving from these increasingly passionate places within.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Sanity Of Your INsanity: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Jan 14, 2019)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week, our Museletter is launched by SoulFullHeart Facilitator, Gabriel Heartman, as he invites you into a new relationship with what you may feel is your ‘insanity’ or your ‘inner demons’:

“I want to give a voice to these ‘demons’, for they are actually your unheard and unfelt angels. They have a message to deliver to you and you just haven’t had the means to be able to actually hear without being overwhelmed.”

With so much coming up to be felt and being backlit by life and the Ascension process, there is no end to what needs to be addressed and processes within. These words from Gabriel offer a handrail to begin relating to your feelings, light or dark, as they surface.

Jelelle Awen will be hosting another group to digest what has been moving in you during her ‘Deepen’ video series. This virtual group will be on February 2nd and you are welcome to attend once you offer your (minimum) donation of $11 USD. More details here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

The videos from this series from Day 10 – 16 are available for you to take in. They are digestions and meditations for connecting with your Inner Child, your Metasoul/Akashic Records, and New Lemuria energy. There is a video featuring Gabriel Heartman, as he leads you in a meditation to connect with five faces of the Divine Father. There is also a video with Raphael Awen, where he leads you into connection with your Inner Masculine and Inner Feminine aspects of you.

Stay tuned for each daily video as they are released by following Jelelle Awen on Facebook or subscribing to our YouTube Channel: SoulFullHeart Experience.

There are many new articles this week from Kalayna Colibri, Devon Heart Star, Gabriel Heartman, and Jelelle Awen. These pieces digest and share personal process and offer bridges for your own. They also feature energy updates and ways to feel empowered as you move into the next phase of your own inner healing process.

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Ascension Energies Amplify And Support Inner Masculine Healing

Published on by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

This inner quest continues. The quest of the masculine to get to know itself. I use the pronoun “it” to denote an energy rather than a gender. This quest is fueled by curiosity and desire. Not a need to overcome, master, or fix. It wants to feel its power, its strength, and courage. It also knows there is the shadow to look at in response to that.

Recently there has been a mainstream appeal to what is being labeled as “traditional” or “toxic” masculinity and its effect on society. This is receiving praise as much as it is receiving ire. There is a masculine voice within some men that defends against a notion it is responsible for the ills of the world. It feels attacked and judged for the actions of certain individuals.

I can feel where this is true coming from a particular perspective, from this part I should say. As we are becoming more aware of what has been happening in the darkest parts of our collective, there is a rumbling that is occurring. There is a network of voices that are coming out to join forces against a very institutional, subtle, and not so subtle, part of our society. The wounded masculine is getting a light shined on it and it is very uncomfortable.

The reactions can come as far as saying that there is a war on men and that boys are going to be turned into weak and feckless adults. When I hear that all I can feel is this masculine’s judgment toward the feminine. Yes, I can see where boys and men are not inhabiting their power and are in need of heart-open initiation that offers them power WITH the feminine and not OVER the feminine. No, we are not all bad guys, but we have unconscious habits and perspectives that do need authentic and curious exploration if we are going to evolve as a society.

This rush to defense, to me, signifies a soul wound that is in deep protection. I think there is a legitimate caution to not create a generalization that takes us in some polarized reaction. I am not “one of those guys”, but I do know as part of the collective male/masculine psyche I do have things to feel into and uncover within myself. That is the next level for all of us to consider when we talk about ascension and healing. It is not a blame game, but a deep and serious look at what is at play underneath our hoods. This is equally true for women.

My desire is to create a healthy dialogue and personal invitation to what this exploration may reveal about ourselves and our nature as men. It is to take us into a new relationship with our masculinity AND our feminity. This is what I feel we are being offered by Love in all Its energy fluxes and activations. This is the year of the arising sacred masculine within all of us.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Creating Space For Love & Truth Within: A Poem

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by Kalayna Colibri

Find that purchase of space in your heart
To truly let that truth of yours in.

The truth your parts hold back
Out of fear of losing
And the fear of the love that could come in.

It’s a process of feeling
The spaces and places that have been hard to feel.

It’s a phase of awakening
To what has been avoided
Even with the sense that the collapse
Leads inevitably to a rebuilding
And a letting in of more than you’ve ever imagined.

It’s time in this sacred Now
To go where parts of you don’t feel they can go.
To feel the pain of the trauma
That hasn’t been safe to feel. 
The fear of your pain’s alchemy
And capacity to deeply change your life,
Your heart,
Your entire being
Is a real thing
And unfolds the rarity
And uniqueness
Of the heart you most deeply have.

Resurrect that sense of love
The knowing of the love that you are
And let it guide your next journey’s steps
Into the unknown and uncontrollable
Awakening to the more compassionate,
Willing,
And love-serving you
That no one can give you
Except you.

Find that buy-in, that investment
In the truth of your being
To truly let yourself be moved
In the way your soul 
Has always intended.

❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Sanity Of Your INsanity

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

The thinning of the veil is elucidating your most hidden places. The ones you thought you had under control or weren’t even aware of. The contentedness is slowly losing its hold on your emotional reality. What I want to offer here is that there is a life-line. It is to actually go INsane. Which in this way means to go “into the healthy”. In our fear-based consciousness, we have turned away from going into the deep emotional as the Holy Grail of our greatest gift to ourselves.

These energies have been called our inner Demons. They have felt like a haunting to some. An intense barrage of thought and emotion that have been medicated by all sorts of prescriptions, whether drugs, or sex, or anything else that has aided as a distraction. Some may just be living with it trying to “get by” as best they can. I want to give a voice to these “demons”, for they are actually your unheard and unfelt angels. They have a message to deliver to you and you just haven’t had the means to be able to actually hear without being overwhelmed.

You are not crazy. You are becoming very sane. You are being gifted with your soul’s calling and the messengers of Love. You can choose what messages to take in and when, for you are the leader in this new world you will have created for yourself when you have taken the first step to go in and feel all the parts of you that have a voice, and that need you.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Feeling In Every Moment Changes Your Life

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By Kalayna Colibri

Sometimes there’s more to feel than there is to ‘do’. Actions born of your deepest feeling spaces are the ones most connected to your heart, parts, and self-care. They happen while you take yourself with you in all ways.

It feels so natural to me now to be in any situation in my life and be feeling my parts or Metasoul aspects while doing so. I love taking them all with me. It doesn’t feel crazy or weird to me anymore and it doesn’t feel overwhelming either. In fact, learning to feel myself in this way has helped so much with the overwhelm I used to feel in my daily life.

If you’re someone who identifies with anxiety or depression or anything like it, imagine a reality where you can feel these things as parts of you that need your love and attention. Imagine being in a social situation and feeling the activation of the social anxiety a part of you has, but not feeling like this anxiety IS you and instead is something you understand and are learning to love deeply. What if this anxiety comes because you’ve needed it, parts of you have needed it, as a reason to pull out of less-than-nourishing relationships, even for a brief time to collect yourself?

Having a deep consciousness and awareness of your emotional reality on a soul and heart level opens up whole new worlds of understanding your reality, why you’ve drawn what you’ve drawn, and how to start shifting it into health, balance, and more love within and outside of you too.

There’s an invitation and opportunity to dig in instead of accept what has always felt to simply be ‘true’ about you… and to give something brand new the chance to be birthed. Life and this ongoing Ascension process do not want the ailments, pain, and difficulty to endure or remain. Yet, it’s up to your sovereign choice whether or not you are ready to face and heal the trauma by feeling it deeply and giving it air and room to become something different.

My beloveds and I offer powerful and affordable space-holding if you’d like support to go into this: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

When You Don’t Want To Go ‘There’, ‘There’ Is Where You Need To Go

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

When you don’t want to go ‘there’, ‘there’ is where you need to go.

There are times when you can feel that resistance inside. You could be talking with a friend, a loved one, or a healer, and the words “I don’t want to go there” or “I am not ready to go there” come streaming out. The question arises….where is the ‘there’ you don’t want to go to?

In my own process and in my sessions with others, there have been these very poignant moments. The ‘There’ is like a precipice. A cliff that looks down into what appears to be an abyss. The ‘There’ is a very sacred yet scary place. It represents a Pandora’s Box of so much pain and fear. The Higher Self brings us to these places as It knows that there is healing in those places. It lives on the other side of the other side.

The ‘There’ is different for every one of us in content. A relationship. An ownership. A responsibility. A choice. A feeling. An acceptance. A reflection. But what is the same is the resistance. It is so understandable and reasonable. “Who in their right mind would jump into that abyss?” That is the question of our protection.

The answer to that lies in our desire to really move into a new felt reality for ourselves. One where the fear is met with the courage of curiosity and the trust that Love is what holds It all together. The vision of a new way of seeing yourself and what you could create in your life that is a reflection of all the abundance of goodness that lies at the core of the fear and pain.

So when the time is ripe, you will no longer say that you can’t go there, but that ‘There’ is where you need to go bringing the resistance with you in love instead of being bound and defined by it.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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‘New Lemuria’ Energies Supporting Prep For Disclosure, Ascension Through Emotional Healing, Maturation

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by Kalayna Colibri

The 1/11 gateway yesterday brought us some yummy ‘New Mu’ (New Lemuria) energies to feel and let in, as Jelelle Awen shared in her Day 11 ‘Deepen’ video yesterday: https://youtu.be/ClhBXTl112M

It was a day of feeling higher timeline possibilities and also digestion of what’s been rumbling lately. It was wonderful to feel the frequencies of New Lemuria coming through to support this exploration and the restfulness or restlessness, whichever was most needed to support the digestion, that moved through as well during this time. It feels like we are very organically reaching a new stratum of the overall Ascension process… yet, something important is being illuminated continually right now about our overall emotional maturity and ability to digest Ascension in a healthy, grounded way that also expands us out consciously/spiritually.

To fully embody the new Sacred Human BEings that we are in the process of BEcoming, we have a lot to look at. Fear-based teachings, spiritual and otherwise, that continually plant seeds of more fear and more support of emotional immaturity are still very popular. This is something that needs to run its course, it feels like, and it is. We see this reflected in the way so many still hold and relate to politics, change, ‘authority’ figures (including politicians, gurus, etc), and relationships of all kinds, especially and most importantly relationship to Self and parts of you as well as your soul.

To actually see and feel the immaturity can create punishment-shame spirals for parts of you, but really, this seeing of it is meant to help us ask for help and to discern what it is we most need to support a genuinely higher-vibe way of life and way of relating to life, Ascension, and Disclosure, that doesn’t try to find a work-around but instead is willing to walk into and through the sometimes dense forest within.

Everything we see and feel on a daily basis is connected. The way we choose to relate to or take in anything or anybody is the way we ultimately are choosing to relate to ourselves. I don’t see how we can possibly embrace Disclosure, for example, without feeling the fear of it and even the fear of healing the fear of it… parts of you may be putting out a welcome mat for the ways in which our lives as we know them will be turned upside down, but other parts of you are likely quite afraid of what will happen and even afraid of contact, of being initiated in Galactic Love Ambassadorship (which many of us are being called to do already).

The energy of ‘New Mu’ is here to help us ground into the body, into self-care and love, into a healthy sense of our oneness. It wants to help us move into new places of emotional consciousness and budding maturity that can facilitate our budding spiritual consciousness and maturity.
There’s so much to love and embrace about every nuance of feeling we have moving through and to really choose to feel this through is to step into a new phase of letting in what’s possible for us and the collective we are inextricably part of. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.


Each Moment As An Invitation To Self-Love

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

Each moment is an invitation to love yourself in a way that is beyond what a part of you has ever believed was possible or acceptable. The courage to get real with yourself is what leads to vulnerable choice points. The kinds that change the trajectory of your life to what this part of you ever felt worthy of.

It is the getting to the brass tacks of what we truly feel inside that offers us our next steps IF we choose to feel the fear, doubt, and impossibilities that undergirds each one. The trust that is needed is found in space between you and this fear of getting harmed on the other side.

Get to know and feel all your truths, even as they contradict themselves. Which ones are based in fear and which ones in love? There is really no confusion other than what we choose to be afraid of feeling. Feel that and there is only action on the other side. No longer stasis. Hurt may be a part of the equation but you are no longer the same. You are alive and living. You are becoming aware how much you missed yourself.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.