Author: Kasha Rosa

Kasha is a Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.

Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life – Financial Area Personal Process

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by Kalayna Colibri & Gabriel Heartman

In this second video on the financial area of life, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, offer their unique perspective that is based on their own personal processes in this area. This area is one that parts tend to have the most reaction to and therefore it is an excellent area in which you can explore who you are now, have been so far in your life, and who you’d like to be as your process deepens.

The financial area challenges you, like all other areas of life, to feel what you are truly worth and what it is your most deeply want. As Kalayna and Gabriel share in this video, the process in this area is one with many steps and layers as you wade through, feel, and negotiate ongoingly with parts of you that are invested in it in one way or another.

In her personal sharing, Kalayna talks about layers of entitlement that parts of her have had around money-earning or being able to somehow automatically live a life dedicated to her vocation as a healer and have that be the main source of income. Her process has been one of digging deep within to feel and be with the parts who have held this energy of wanting to skip the step of finding financial stability that could provide her with the means to truly invest a growth process that she very much needed. She offers that parts have deep conditioning around what it means to have to work a “3D job” even while you are having profound awakening experiences.

Gabriel shares about his personal process with moving out of a 13+ year career as a tenured elementary school teacher and the dwindling nest egg of savings that part of him had great attachment to and anxiety around. He offers some key pieces to feel around the idea of letting go of 3D-based money-earning and savings from a 3D-based job or career in order to let in the new possibility of earning money with the intention of deepening your awakening experiences and helping them integrate into your life, not dampen them or try to shut them out.

Both Kalayna and Gabriel are part of the emoto-spiritual conscious community of SoulFullHeart, earning income as online ESL teachers online while also earning donation money through their work as SoulFullHeart Facilitators. This money that they earned is shared among the core Facilitators and Teachers and somehow they have found their way in this picture for almost five years now!

If you’re curious to learn about more about how SoulFullHeart digests and feels money and true abundance, you can take in any or all of these videos also from the Youtube channel:

SoulFullHeart Group Call – Money, Abundance, Soul Purpose, Guided Meditation

Conscious Community & 5D Money: Day 30 – 33 Days W/Jelelle Awen & Raphael

SoulFullHeart Patreon Page Launch, Conscious Money, Gift Exchange

And there are many audio blogs too!

There are also many articles written about this topic here on the blog. 🙂

Kalayna and Gabriel work for a company called VIPKID. If you’re interested in applying, they’d appreciate if you would use Gabriel’s referral link and code:
Link: https://t.vipkid.com.cn/activity/popup?refereeId=1395340&refersourceid=a01
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If you have any questions about the application process, please feel free to contact Gabriel directly: gabriel.heartman@gmail.com

7 Key Areas Article w/Questions from the website: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread on Youtube, here on the blog, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com

More on Gabriel and Kalayna:

Gabriel’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/about-gabriel-heartman

Kalayna’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutkalayna

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. 

 Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Shifting From 3D Money Earning To 5D Abundance

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by Kalayna Colibri

Ongoingly throughout your personal Ascension process, there are challenges brought to you in all areas of your life. The financial area of life is one in particular that likely holds much charge and reactivity from parts of you, especially parts that make up the 3D Self, and understandably so given the amount of conditioning there is around it and the amount of suffering too. Parts can truly become attached to the suffering as a sort of handrail. It’s that idea of comfortable discomfort again, which as you continue awakening, becomes only more and more obvious to you!

To enter a more spacious ground around money, it’s a good reminder that truly satiating abundance does not live in numbers… it lives in deep heart and soul nourishment, soul and heart “food” of exchanges with others who you are in deep resonance with on all levels. There is a depth to real abundance that does not show up in the ways that your 3D Self parts have been conditioned to believe that it will. It can only be experienced in your life through your willingness to say “no” to everything that doesn’t feel like it comes from true self-love and worth and all that you are now outgrowing too.

Awakenings are challenging enough… and then there is the money world that you are supposed to somehow navigate as well! There can be SO much energy of money being “against” spirituality, especially coming from the 4D Self and what it could be that your own soul has witnessed or been a part of related to money in other lifetimes/timelines.  Yet, it can be a grounded support of your spirituality and expanding consciousness in this current world where we still need it and an opportunity to help sustain and even boost our spiritual growth trajectory. Money earning sets an intention. It can fuel your deeper awakenings, not dampen them, by being invested in processes, inner work that feels like lifeblood to you, and invested too in helping you make MORE space for yourself and your needs, not less. It is there to be invested with energy and love INTO love.

In SoulFullHeart, we choose to keep our session prices affordable and we do this for many reasons… including the fact that we feel healing should be accessible for all who need it. We feel there is still very much a need for an energy and intention exchange between us as Facilitators and those who choose to become Facilitants. Investing in our picture and what we offer brings it back home to you and your own parts in ways you’ve not yet felt or experienced. It is more than a money investment. It becomes a big part of your heart and soul trajectory and healing. Money is a thing we can tangibly see, touch, smell. Yet it is only one level of the reality of what you bring with you into your overall picture of your desire to heal and to deepen your ongoing Ascension process. For more information on what we offer, visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess.

The old 3D picture of money-earning is one of a cycle of earning money only to spend it and often to maintain a lifestyle that only goes so deep for you… the latest smartphone tech cannot feel you. Dinner at a fancy restaurant with friends or your spouse cannot satisfy you if these connections are not based in having your deepest heart and soul social needs met. Money cannot ever buy parts of you the love that they want MORE of… the heart and soul “food” nourishment that can only come from resonant soul family connections and a deepening connection with yourself, your parts, your galactic and Metasoul aspects, too. Though, when invested in YOU and in your growth path, it CAN and WILL help you draw the resources you need to keep moving inward and UPward, and the most satisfying experiences of love you can imagine and beyond, to boot!

Whatever the current money picture is that you are living out… at the end of the day, this whole process is all about self-love and worth and inhabiting your truest sense of power in the world, and any process that provides you with THAT ground, is one that will truly lead you to where you most want to BE, who you most want to BEcome, and the resonant hearts and souls you most want to BE with! This is 5D abundance in a tangible form. And this is what makes it all worth it. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: You Are The One You’ve Been Waiting For

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week, SoulFullHeart Co-Creator, Teacher and Facilitator, Raphael Awen, sends you into the land of self-worth, inviting you to feel that you are the one you’ve been waiting for – the Event, the Saviour, the Guru, everything! As he emphasizes in this piece, life is the biggest facilitator of your healing, wanting you to find your bigness in heart and soul:

“Life doesn’t see you as broken and needing to be caretaken. Life will honour your sovereign and powerful choice and leave you to the encircling standing stones of circumstance that you call your life as your current reality creation, awaiting your deeper choice point.”

We have other beautiful writings and audio blogs this week by Raphael Awen, Jelelle Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Colibri, including a few more energy updates, digestion of what it means to draw your heart and soul purpose work, claiming your personal power and choices in your life, and sharing your truth in relationships.

You will also find a recording of the latest free Unity Meditation, where you are taken into a guided meditation space to meet your shadow.

A NEW offering comes from Raphael Awen, who now holds Bridging Sessions with men for a $55 minimum donation/90min session. Jelelle Awen continues to offer Bridging Sessions for the same minimum donation price to women. Go here for info: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Here is the link to this week’s Museletter:

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Your Soul Purpose Arises As You Arise Into It

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by Kalayna Colibri

Your truest and deepest heart and soul vocation is not chosen by you or any part of you. It chooses you! It is not so much a process of grabbing at it or “going for it” as becoming it from the inside out, like a sculpture arising from clay, shaped by the hands of love.

Your soul purpose arises organically from the ashes of what you’ve let go of, the fires you’ve walked through, the choice points you’ve navigated. It aligns with your soul bigness, challenges you to continue your growth path, invites you into a deeper trust in the inevitability of your awakenings and offerings to the world around you. This happens even with parts of you that may be polarized to fear, trying to bury your emerging sense of it underneath layers and layers of self-punishment and 3D focus that serve to keep you small. The greatest and most frightening shifts in life, for parts of you, are the ones that challenge you the most to be your biggest self. Their push-pull around it is about the comfortable discomfort of the womb they’ve been waiting to birth from. You are the mother of your parts, gestating your soul expression, and life is the doula awaiting at the end of every birth canal, working to guide and hold you through what can feel like a very long and difficult journey.

Every part of you will relate to this journey of soul purpose differently. Some will shun it or disbelieve it and others will want it so badly that they may become the dominant part of you that holds your spiritual journey and discoveries, often with an agenda and also an overemphasis on “needing” certifications, recognition, etc. along with a feeling of urgency, of needing to be living it out NOW, without really feeling all of the ways in which you already ARE. If your soul purpose is to arise from the process of your life and your choices, then the grabbing and aggrandizing of it won’t bring it any closer any faster and won’t humbly let it in the process of claiming and deeply becoming it, step by step.

Your vocation may not be exactly as parts of you had imagined it to be, as the “self” you’ve been up until this moment thought it would or could be. Or maybe it is! Either way, you CAN trust that it WILL emerge and in fact already is emerging. You can trust that you are finding your way, even when it feels like a fumble in the dark and that the fog stretches for endless miles around you. You are being invited into your service-of-love self and you are popping through your next and next ceilings, being in your bliss-mess, learning how to surrender to love as the biggest facilitator of all and the greatest “boss”, trainer and teacher you’ll ever have! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Embracing Rather Than Resisting Your Galactic Consciousness And Your Star DNA

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It’s the release of our weekly museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

SoulFullHeart Co-Creator, Teacher and Facilitator, Jelelle Awen, launches this week’s Museletter with an important energy update about embracing rather than resisting our galactic consciousness and DNA. In the article and a video discussing the same themes, she invites you to approach even the “darkest” or “most negative” aspects/parts of you with open-hearted curiosity and love instead of fear and polarization.

We have many stunning offerings this week by our Teachers and Facilitators, Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel and Kalayna, including many energy updates about the intense and ongoing April energies, new blogs in Raphael’s Journal To The Demiurge series, and digestions of different aspects of life, Ascension and personal process grounds.

Jelelle has a NEW guided meditation offering in which you can enter a deep process of meeting your shadow aspects. This is the perfect opportunity to put into practice what Jelelle wrote about in our featured article this week… approaching your shadow or that which has been hidden/suppressed inside of you, with all of the love that you have and ARE.
There is also a brand new episode of Practical Ascension with Gabriel and Kalayna for you to take in, which is an intro the financial area of life and how it relates to your Ascension process, through the SoulFullHeart lens and healing path/way of life.
Tomorrow, Saturday April 14th,  we will be having our next Unity Meditation call which we offer for FREE! If you’d like to join, you can message one of us on Facebook or register via Eventbrite, after which you’ll receive a ticket in your email with all details for connecting to the meeting. If you’d like to listen to the last Unity Meditation which was held on April 4th, the recording is available on this Museletter and also on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel.

Jelelle is offering private, one on one 90 minute sessions with her over zoom to bridge to your awakening process, locate where you are, and your highest timeline manifestation. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

 

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Awakening To Your Abundance Within And The Protection Of It Too

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by Kalayna Colibri

When I feel the abundance alive inside of Gaia, of water, nourishment, life, energy, that in 4D awakening experiences often seems deficient or on the decline and frighteningly so, I feel how this parallels our own inner abundance that continues to create and recreate itself continuously, that wants to be remembered and fill us UP! Of course, all of this focus on depleting resources is actually a concern about the depletion/scarcity of love… and there is no stronger source of love than that which can be cultivated, experienced and then overflowed from within.

You are not deficient… you are not in lack or scarcity. You are not in a place of “not having”, though it can feel like this to parts of you who have truly and deeply felt as if life and love itself tend to turn the other way when they are in need or want. Some parts of you may have become “beggars” in a sense of it, desperately wanting, praying, affirming, grabbing at what they feel they do not have already. In some ways, this is what they’ve needed to do. This is what you’ve needed to inhabit in your 3D life, where the conditioning is that you need something, someone, outside of you at all times in order to keep you fed, clothed, embraced, loved. This conditioning does not tell you to go within and feel where this sense of separation first started and ultimately received the most encouragement to go on in your consciousness.

You ache… your parts ache. To be felt above anything else. To be seen and heard and even challenged to start feeling the “deficiency” within… a deficiency that doesn’t really exist, but has seemed to. The lack you’ve felt has actually been about something much deeper inside of you that has gone untapped. There are bottomless wells of everything you need within you. For example, the body knows what it’s doing, yet hasn’t always been given permission to be in its intelligence, its knowledge of self-healing, and hasn’t been given the space to do so either or the foods, the energies it most needs in order to boost its abilities. The heart knows what it feels to be true, where your personal and soul timeline stories have come from and why they are there/here, why and how you are connected to those you are connected to, or why perhaps you aren’t. Above all, it knows what you most need. And, it knows that the only place where this can truly come from in a steady and ongoing way is within.

The abundance you have inside is like the Cave of Wonders from Aladdin. Or maybe it’s the intense Inner Protector energy inside of you that makes it feel that way and is offering me this picture now! Your Inner Protector seems to vibe to you that if you touch the lamp of your abundant flow within, everything will collapse… and in a way, they’re not wrong! The golden lamp is your deepest sense of inner power and worth that is accessed through feeling parts of you who are not only the pain they present to you once you begin to feel them, but who also have many, many gifts to offer and can unlock the doors to your soul gifts and service-of-love 5D Self. Once you start to realize your true power and everything you can provide yourself from within by being with these parts of you, all the areas of your life DO experience a collapse of this cave that has served to compartmentalize and hide away your brightest light within… yet, it’s a death and rebirth cycle, not your ultimate demise, as your Protector and other parts have felt it to be. It’s an invitation to keep going, growing, wanting something NEW, something more fulfilling and nourishing and alive within you, that then creates and draws the relationships to others, to life, to work, to service of love, that you most deeply want and are ready for. The best way to walk out this collapse and reboot is with a hotline to your Inner Protector, who has had very good reason to protect your Cave of Wonders and treasure trove within it of previously suppressed parts of you and ultimately self-love and worth too.

You are more than enough in the deepest sense of it. You are the one who gets to experience shifts in your life that don’t always have to be experienced the “hard way” if you do choose to negotiate and walk it out with parts of you. By taking self-loving steps, you get to feel everything that you have within and everything you are bringing with you into each new life phase. And, along the way, you will discover that life is NOT looking to deplete you or run you down and is, in fact, pressing you inward to find the resources you already have waiting to be claimed. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are A BEacon Of LOVE: Sharing Your Self-Love Overflow In Service Of Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

It can be challenging for parts of you to remember that they need to share love with others in a mutually nourishing bond of openness and vulnerability and sometimes even contention, as much as they need love with YOU as the authentic you, ever-arising into more and more presence within yourself.

We are here to relate to ourselves deeply, to cultivate self-love. We are also here to share the overflow of that love with others – NOT to remain in stuckness or under-nourishing agreements with others, however… While there is likely some layer of love being exchanged there, there is so much more that could potentially open out… this is the ground that can make relationships of any kind scary to be in, yet also is the ground of mutual growth and ultimately a deepening of LOVE within and on the outside TOO.

To not share what you are cultivating inside in self-care, love, worth, advocacy, is to not share your light, the beacon you’re meant to be for the world, with the world. Parts of you may be relating to this with understandable fear and reactions from past social drama-trauma. Yet, to remain in a place of not sharing is to cap your own soul bigness, your capacity to love others as much as yourself, and your potential to truly live into your healing gifts and your deepest soul calling to be in the service of LOVE.

The choice remains in each moment, to breathe with and feel parts of you and their reasons for not allowing your arising and ascending you to emerge from the cocoon. There is a constant invitation into more love, more healing, more self-held grace and space, and more overflow into the destiny you’re meant to lead and live too, with each decision made to BEacon outward what you have so grown and nourished inward! 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life – Financial Area Intro

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by Gabriel & Kalayna

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, discuss the financial area of life and the different ways in which we relate to it from the perspective of our 3D, 4D, and 5D Selves. There is so much projected onto money by parts of us that relate to it in many different ways, often with a lot of charge, fear-polarization, and unworthiness.

There are many different ways in which this area of life is related to and for each generation, the approach is a bit different. For Kalayna and Gabriel, their processes around money and the financial area of life have been very different yet have had some common threads. They share some pieces of their personal processes in this video, though they will share much more in the next video in this area.

How parts of us feel about and relate to money is also how parts of us feel about and relate to love. If it doesn’t feel as if it is in flow and if it feels like a tighter budget means less happiness, then there is likely an over-attachment to money representing love, self-worth, and overall abundance capacity. There is so much self-punishment in this area and acute unhappiness. To genuinely feel the true abundance of life, which encompasses and flows into all areas including the financial area, is a process of really feeling with parts of you where the focus on “lack” is rooted in your templating from birth family, friends and culture, and overall 3D conditioning. Moving more into 4D can mean more financial “crises” arising, as you choose to transition away from jobs/careers that do not match your emerging sense of soul purpose, or as life presses you into moving away from these jobs, sometimes without the open negotiation between you and your parts happening first. Ascending into more of a 5D consciousness in this area means that you are drawing abundance in all forms and do not feel an over-attachment to money as love or an expression of your self-worth. If you are in 5D consciousness while money is still necessary in your life and where you are living, there is an inherent trust that it will work itself out, that you have everything you need, and that you are willing to be with the parts of you that don’t feel this, that aren’t with you in 5D just yet, recognizing how the dips and valleys and layers of this feeling space are what offer you deeper and deeper healing and a deeper conscious connection to abundance of love at the heart of it, once the other side of the process is reached. Actually, this applies to all areas of life from the 5D Self’s perspective!

If you’re curious to learn more about how we feel about this area of life in SoulFullHeart, there are many writings on our blog: www.soulfullheartblog.com and there are other videos on our YouTube channel where we discuss and digest this topic as well.

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here on Youtube or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

More links you may wish to visit for more information on Kalayna, Gabriel and SoulFullHeart:

Blog site:  https://soulfullheartblog.com/

Website:  http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/

Gabriel’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/about-gabriel-heartman

Kalayna’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutkalayna

Practical Ascension, Practical Magic: Bridging Spirituality With Grounded Practicality

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by Kalayna Colibri

Many of my mornings every week are dedicated to working online, specifically as an English teacher for Chinese children. These are early mornings… something my parts and my body have had to get used to and in some ways, the “getting used to it” process is still going on and in!

This is temporary… the heart and soul purpose I’m on this planet for isn’t teaching English to foreign children. It’s a bridge into the magical world OF living into soul purpose, though. It’s a way to keep grounded in terms of income while continuing the work within that draws more of the income desired from offering healing work to others and serving love with them. And, it IS service of love in some form, and this my parts and my Metasoul Aspects too are coming to terms with more and more.

Parts of you may have resistance to the practical, especially while navigating the magical. Reconciling and living into the two sometimes very divergent-feeling worlds is something necessary until it isn’t, yet there is definitely a step-by-step process to manifesting or drawing what we want to feel and become spiritually and as healers too, and this process involves a need, as a human being on this planet at this time, to have some sense of groundedness in practical day-to-day life.

Being “practical” in the way I’m offering means something very, very different to me and parts of me than it used to. To be “practical” in the past meant to become “like them” – like the “adults” around me holding very 3D jobs and careers spanning many years while raising a family, buying a home, staying put in one geography for possibly decades… as a soul born into this world with far less orientation towards 3D life, I had many parts that rebelled, fervently pushing away from this picture, wanting something very different, much more spiritual-feeling. So naturally, parts of me (typically my Inner Teenager yet also my Inner Protector/Gatekeeper) pushed away a grounded sense of financial income, ways to make sure I had some stability in my life, because I was “waiting” for the “perfect” job that would align with my soul purpose… not realizing that every job actually gives us this chance to build up to that and in some ways, simply not wanting to ground or BE here on Gaia. I had different ideas of spirituality and what it meant to be living into your truest soul purpose work back then. I still don’t have a desire for any of the things I listed above, yet I can say that how I picture, feel and live into “practical life” has shifted in a huge way because of my process and working with my parts. I now see “practicality” as something grounded, that puts your hands in the dirt to plant seeds, proverbially or literally. For some souls, this may mean the bliss mess experience of raising children, holding a 10+ year career trajectory, remaining in a long-term marriage “no matter what”, fully inhabiting these choices and then maybe popping out the other side into some deep awakenings that take them in different directions. For myself and so many others, this often means something very different.

The rebel in me lives on and necessarily so, yet not in such a way that tries to push against lucrative opportunities that also give me flexibility in terms of moving around the globe, having full days off other than early mornings, AND, I can take time off whenever I want to technically, yet the practical calls me in the moment to work often (though not so often I burn out!) for the sake of saving enough money to help the community I’m a part of find its way to a new geography where we can really plant our service-of-love seeds in new soul-soil. Creating the space for service of love in other forms, like writing, creating, holding space for others, etc, is something that arises as it needs and wants to and I am still very much in response to that, while bridging it all back to the practical, as I am in this writing in this moment. Being called to serve love does not have to mean self-sacrifice, though of course some of us have needed to walk that one out and we get to the other side of it when it’s time and we choose that. It actually so feels like what it means at the heart of it is being in response from your ever-purifying heart… to your own needs, the needs of those you love and share nourishing bonds with, and the needs of those who you are meant to serve.

It IS possible to live humbly while necessary, to hold a modest income while finding your feet, your heart, your wings in the areas of spiritual healing that you most desire to be part of. It IS possible to hold life in such a way that you are in response to your own practical needs and desires while also in response to serving others. And, it truly feels like a deep invitation from the Divine, from the Ascension LOVE energies themselves, to continue to find ways and means that allow you to continue your inward journey, finding and feeling the parts and Metasoul Aspects that are in resistance and reaction and perhaps wanting this New Earth existence that could be free of some of the old 3D sense of practicality to just be here already… yet there is a process involved and it is ultimately about finding your inner strength, power, worth and confidence through healing the parts that don’t feel this way. And this then can be served outward, from a place of grounded self-healing and discovery and growing self-love and appreciation.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Let Your Inner Tension BE Your Path Through 4D Ascension

Published on by Kasha Rosa4 Comments

Painting by Cristina Bernazzani

 

by Kalayna Colibri

There is no “wrong way”… there is only the way in front of you and inside of you. There is no way or path that is more correct, more aligned with you than what you are currently walking out. The flow you’re already in wants to bring you to your next places of growth and healing, as is inevitable on this Ascension journey where SO much is going on at all times.

It can be especially hard, as you walk out 4D-ascension specifically, to really let this in. To hold that you and parts of you are OK. 4D holds the container for so much churning, so many storms, so much turmoil inside as buried pain surfaces on heart AND soul levels. It isn’t comfortable and it often expresses as messes, conflicts, contention, feelings of being twisted around inside of you into a really uncomfortable pretzel as your Higher Self continues to try and find its way closer to your being. The Higher Self coming into the body causes reactions that aren’t just physical… the emotional reactions, oh, those intense emotional reactions, are all part and parcel of the bigger picture of what needs to be purged, felt, healed. The parts that surface can really inhabit the intensity of this. Parts represent so much of our old ways of being in the world and with ourselves, which is a result of our wounding and conditioning too from culture, birth family, friends, the education system, the medical system, the “Matrix” in general if you want to call it that. The ‘Matrix’ is a charged word and concept for all of the pushing away from it that is happening… it can be held by parts of you as another representation of their pain and anguish, what they want to push away from and forget about. Yet there is still a Matrix within, a very intricately-wired set of responses to life and above all, to love. This is what is being pressed upon the most when we feel this intense birth canal that IS 4D awakening and movement. And of course this is HARD… this is what has been so normalized, so accepted, yet so painful inside of all of us.

In the 4D scramble for answers, it can be understandably hard to find stillness and calm and a place within that is an undying oasis of infinite love… a place that truly believes in and trusts love. This oasis of self-love and worth is worth working for, is worth burning-up from the inside for… and is the passageway to our more consistent 5D moments and eventually whole lifestyle of 5D consciousness and breathing and being. And, though it can be so hard to feel this when the burning and purging is happening, there is SO much love holding it ALL, always and in ALL ways.

For more support and to gather at an oasis of self-love process and experience of infinite unified love with the world, you are welcome to join us at our Unity Meditation gathering happening virtually over Zoom tomorrow and for many other days and times to follow! Please join us and lean into the web of love that has been created and continues to be re-created by each amazing soul that joins in and leans in too. ❤ Go here for more info: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

And, if you want to go deeper, we have 2 process programs that we offer in SoulFullHeart, ranging in price from $33/mo to $222/mo. Check out www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more info! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.