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Introduction To The Parts Of Yourself And Soul

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

The worlds that these parts of us live in are SO real and so available to be visited. I have been so gifted and honored to venture into so many inner worlds with parts and Metasoul aspects of people in the last couple of years especially. There are many commonalities and similarities that these parts seem to share…even as every one of them is VERY unique to the person and soul.

Let me take you on a quick tour of these inner worlds to meet these parts of self and soul. You may feel a strong sense of recognition. You may respond with sudden tears or released sadness. You may hear and feel your own parts of self and soul responding with a desire and need to be felt, connected to, and seen.

First is your loyal Inner Protector, who is so often just standing by, on guard and vigilant. Lonely for company and companionship, yet unwilling to leave their post for any reason. The need for love that Protectors feel is buried beneath the duty and absolute necessity for protection that 3D life has required. They are covered up in various forms of armor to protect their heart and YOURS. They are standing in front of the castle of your essence….waiting, watching, and most of all guarding the precious contents (other parts) inside. Once connected to and loved, they become healthy boundary setting, healthy self protection. They transform into your 4D Gatekeeper who has access to all the timelines of your soul.

Here is a guided meditation to meet your inner protector: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ciJIvrn0xA&t=1170s

Inside of the castle are your Inner Child and Inner Teenager. These ‘girls’ or ‘boys’ are often in shadow….tucked away for safe keeping in the high up turrets or the deeper dungeons. They are often SO sad, lonely…the Inner Child forgetting what it means to be free, to feel joy, to feel magical, to feel connected to your star family…..all frequencies that they can return to when received with love. The Inner Teenager vacillates between rage and hurt….wanting to be alone and wanting so desperately to be loved. This part transmutes with conscious connection to passionate expression, creative/soul purpose expression, and innocent sexuality.

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Child, Protector, and Divine Sophia: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0yuiBDIp2Oo&t=1707s

Here is a guided meditation to meet your Inner Teenager: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vu7nRmyzu0E&t=9s

Your Inner Punisher is usually in the shadows, in the dark….feeling ostracised and lonely…..using self judgements of you and others to repel, yet, mostly, to protect from barbs coming from the outside. Your Punisher has important discernments, intuitions, and truths to share with you….connection with them transmutes their energy from judgement without love to healthy discernment WITH love.

Here is a guided meditation to meet your Inner Punisher: https://youtu.be/0cTe6ayIAWk

There is also your Inner Mother and Inner Father….the internalization of the templating that you received from your parents. They can have quite a polarized relationship to each other, for which exploration with them can help to heal and defuse…..opening up your heart for more healthy gender expression and sacred union.

There are others that come from the source of your Metasoul or your individuated soul source. These Metasoul fragments are your soul brothers and sisters living in other timelines….living out karmic patterns that hold woundings that are repeating/recapitulating in YOUR life too. They express as an infinite range of species, energies, and universes. Connecting with them offers immense and effective gifts of karmic healing, soul gift expression/exchange, and quantum collective healing too!

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

This gives you a glimpse into the wonder world of your self and soul….beyond the ‘I’ that you’ve been taught is who you are is the REALity of the energies that HAD to form into expressions in order to fit in with 3D life. Beyond the ‘past life’ picture that makes things ancient rather than acknowledging how they live in the NOW, there are expressions of your soul that WANT and NEED to unify again.

Separation from these parts allows for a collaborative relationship to form. The original traumas and woundings happened in relationship and heal in relationship too. You become a loving, compassionate, and curious higher vibrational frequency of love that can rescue, save, feel, and BE with the parts of yourself and soul that most need you.
 
This is not just a therapeutic process to connect with these parts of yourself….yet also a deeply spiritual one. It allows your soul frequency to unanchor from 3D trauma places/scenes and woundings in your emotional body as held by these parts of you. As these parts release the trauma, they can ascend and awaken into your 4D and 5D self….they can integrate into your arising sacred human expression as Divine love!
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If you’d like to go on a deeper dive into YOU to meet these parts of yourself with the support of an experienced and very heart open guide, I offer 1:1 bridging sessions with women and Raphael Awen & Gabriel Heartman with women and men to explore this inner terrain. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session
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Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Being With The Journey Of Loving Your Fear

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

By Kalayna Colibri

I don’t know how deeply I have ever truly appreciated the journey of loving your fear until now. It’s a whole other layer of awakening when we can get to this place of realizing that it even IS a journey… and of course it is… look at the intensity of what happens as we awaken into lower 4D frequencies specifically, where we start to feel and even experience the pain of the collective and ourselves too on a whole other bandwith… that alone is a lot to wade through and it can feel like learning to walk all over again to find our way into digestion and integration of these realizations and awakenings. Feeling and loving our fears is all part of the package in order to truly ascend past this stage.

As ironic as it may sound, it feels like one of our deepest lessons is surrendering into feeling our fears and not just “dealing” with them in order to “ascend”. Until we can really feel the fear, we can’t understand its reasons for being there and the parts of us that have truly held it as their dominant reality… and therefore, it doesn’t get truly transmuted and healed, just paved over, coped with, ignored, until we can no longer ignore it.

For me, there has been so much fear around self-image, around becoming invisible, about never feeling like I (or parts of me) are truly powerful in the way they and I most want to be… it becomes a process of feeling the fear that this is just always going to be true. That this reality is all that’s real. What I’m discovering though is that it’s the dropping of the veil around my fears that helps me feel how I have all the power I need in order to be with them and love them like there’s no tomorrow… and, feel the power there is in the surrender to just simply feeling and also letting go of or taking space from whatever/whoever necessary in order for the fears and anxieties to just take centre stage in my inner world until they can feel all the love they need to feel to start feeling something different.

As I briefly journaled before bed last night, I shared with a beloved guide of mine that I feel afraid of “going backwards” in my process, which really is a complicated fear actually, as there are a number of things wrapped up in this for me and parts of me. She offered simply that there is no “going backwards” and that this is actually too linear of a way to think about process. Instead, she offered that I can think of it as “going INward”.

I feel this as an aspect of my personal process right now yet felt to share it too, as I can feel an important reframe of the ways in which many of us may feel about process and moving through life. There really are no “setbacks”, just new journeys and chances to regroup and reboot, maybe also reevaluate the current course too. These phases are true gifts that help us all feel where we are most authentically at and who we would most like to become on the other side of the tougher inner spaces and processes.❤️

Much love!

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My beloveds offer powerful, illuminating (and so affordable) space holding and facilitation if you’d like some support on your own journey through these themes and more… more info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Life’s ‘Perfect Storms’ Support You To Feel All You Need To Feel

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

The perfect life conditions offer us the ‘perfect storm’ to feel what we need to feel.

Parts of us pop-up like pop tarts in a hot toaster, when life offers us the right circumstances, the necessary temperature, for them to come up and out. If parts aren’t ready to ask for you to feel them, you won’t be able to tap into their reality. It’s like waiting for apples to ripen on the tree before you can pick them. A premature picking of unripe fruit does not encourage the digestive system to flow. So too with the digestive system in your emotional body…

This perfect storm of emotional reactions surfacing that were once well-buried or ‘handled’ differently (or not at all), are a tidal wave that can feel like overwhelm and craziness, yet sooner than you realize you wash ashore on a new beach, where you feel and meet a NEW you and feel more joy than before, more settled inside of yourself than before, though your heart may still feel raw for a time. It’s a process of becoming BIGGER than the fears and the resistances, by going through them, feeling them, being with them, not BEING them or all-out transcending them.

You couldn’t have come here to this place of intense feeling inside of you without life lining up the path for it. Even when you feel knocked off balance and like everything is akimbo, this is actually the perfect gift to get to know something deeper inside of yourself, to love yourself more on the other side of deep-seated tension and reactivity. There is a trust that is built inside of you, that can weather these storms and in fact may jump wholeheartedly into them, trusting where they are taking you next.

During these intense waves of feeling as if we aren’t in control, that something or someone else is driving the bus, you might want to write it off as an ‘entity’ or it being imposed on you by ‘bad energies’ or ‘Archons’. It’s not that these things and beings and energies don’t exist, but they can be used by parts of you as a scapegoat for something you need to take responsibility for inside of you and something that actually wants and needs you to go IN and feel what’s going on on the inside, not on the outside…

Life’s ‘perfect storms’ rock the boat in a huge, impactful way, and yet even when parts may feel shipwrecked, it really is just another path to your ultimate wholeness and healing and your triumphant return to the love that you are. ❤

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To support you on this journey of deeply feeling these emotional storms and the sources of them, check out our offering one-on-one Bridging Sessions… a loving space to illuminate and feel your next healing steps: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-sessions ❤️

The Fears/Resistances/Traumas Have Been Necessary Here

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By Jelelle Awen

To make life here work has taken WORK. It has needed parts of you to become the anchoring frequencies; to become the guarding and protecting energies; to become the very means and ways to SURVIVE such a drop into density that 3D is compared to the light air porosity that your soul breathes.

All this efforting by all these parts of you is not a pathology. It is not a disorder. It hasn’t been done as a mistake or any kind of failure. The conforming, the shrinking, the fitting in….these were all NECESSITIES to survive here. The monitoring, the distrusting, the resisting…..these were all the textures of a polarized dualistic reality.

These have been the energies needed for THIS to push against THAT over and over until balance can be found again.

The fear has been a very natural consequence of this pushing against. It has been necessary too as without it, ALL would be love which it already was and IS in its Divine state. Parts of you have fear and hold fear and return to fear because they have HAD to go there in order to survive.

Through the awakening process… love comes more into your BEing, wakeness comes into your soul consciousness, openness comes into your heart. The remaining frictions and tensions become more obvious. The fear becomes backlit by all that love. The parts that have been working so hard allow you to actual feel how tired they are. The tears fall from the remembering and reliving of traumas that have long been suppressed and managed.

The MORE you awaken, the MORE the pain comes UP to be felt and released, and ,eventually, healed. The 3D way was about suffering over suffering in loops that never seem to end. The awakening way is to BE with the pain, create space to relate to the pain and the part of you that feels it, and to LOVE that pain into a higher frequency.

Life becomes LESS work and more play…..even the temporary pain is related to with more curiosity AND play. Your soul can feel the purpose behind it ALL and honors the necessity of it and the growth that it offers. Parts of you ongoingly need that bridge from your soul to experience the trauma/fears/pain in NEW ways.

They need your soul/higher self to start putting pieces together, see the bigger picture, and connect to Divine source timing around it ALL. Parts of you need to relate to the CHOICE that it all was on the Higher Self level.

Life becomes, more and more, about love. For love and with love. Starting from INside of you and all the parts of you that remain in fear frequencies out of habit…..parts that are just waiting for the words, connections, and bridges from you to step out of their dark places and into the light of LOVE again AS their essence.

LOVE to you and all parts of you on this sacred awakening journey, whatever phase/place you are currently IN….

Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator help to create these bridge to parts of yourself that are waiting for your love. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Visiting With Your Inner Teenager

Published on by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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Our creativity, our ideals, our passions, our angsts, our desires, our despair, our romantic ideas… these are often all aspects of your Inner Teenager – a part of you that has wanted very much to be heard, to be seen, to rebel, yet also to be hidden, to run away, to sneak away, to be a lone wolf, yet be a part of something important too perhaps. There are a lot of conflicting aspects to this part of you. Some of them are represented by other parts of you too, yet so much reaction to life and love happens inside of this one part of you and sometimes it can feel like the biggest polarities are present there too. This is the reality of trying to find your way in a world that you still have an inherent sense of not belonging in… your childhood is not so far behind you and you can still see it in your rearview mirror. Your childhood, that held so much wonder and a thinner veil to the existence of other realities and the realities you came into this life from.

The desire for a romantic partner that ‘checks all the boxes’ on a long list of desires, is one of the biggest pieces here. Maybe you’re still trying on different ideals, exploring different approaches to sex and sexuality, experimenting with drugs that lift the heavy veil that never used to be there before. Maybe you’re still holding life in the 3D sense as something to either be avoided or over-inhabited in some ways without much balance in between. Perhaps you’re still trying to reconcile why you feel certain ways about your birth family and perhaps even your friends and other social or work connections and you aren’t sure why or how this is even possible with the moral standards you’ve been taught your whole life. There is a whole big ‘mess’ here to sort through and often it can feel more like an impossibly tangled ball of yarn than something that is even remotely possible to sort out. These seem to be the common experiences of Inner Teenagers, even in adults who have reached middle age and beyond… they are the place where your emotional immaturity often lands and lives, and the part of you that wants to learn how to grow up yet in a way that feels okay to them and not necessarily to anyone else – the ultimate place of your rebellion and your conformity both. It’s complicated, this world they live in… and they are often stuck here in many unconscious loops and patterns until you can go inward to find and be with them.

You will often find your Inner Teenager still living in your childhood bedroom, or any other room or place that they consider a ‘sanctuary’ for themselves. This place has become a box that holds so many traumas, so many stories of abuses, so much hope and despair, both. It is a place where they can still find and be in their creativity, however it expresses, often as a way to cope with life instead of really be in it and heal through it… they don’t have a guide for that, at least until you can show up and be with them, until they trust you enough to let you in the door and sit next to them, to eventually cry or thrash with them, as they express all they’ve likely bottled up or hidden. Perhaps if they have been over-expressed in your life, you can now feel them in their real vulnerability and likely self-consciousness. There is much pain that they hold that is equal to the joy they have access to as well, not unlike or far from the Inner Child inside of you.

Healing the Inner Teenager means offering this space inside of you for feeling deeply all there is to feel. The process for them often means bringing them back, little by little, step by step, to a place where they feel their ideas and ideals are welcome again, where they can be in their creativity from a non-medicative place that doesn’t numb but instead evokes. My sense of it is that they can evolve in this way too, from a 3D part of you to a 4D and eventually a 5D, integrated part of you. Most Inner Teenagers, at least for those of you reading this, will somehow straddle 3D and 4D in their aches and rebellion and hope too. They may or may not have a sense of spirituality, yet they do seem to have an investment somehow in this domain that can express itself in different ways.

Being with and feeling your Inner Teenager is a process that brings you access to many gifts and new ways to feel all of the different areas of your life.

If you wish to explore this further, you can have a look at our process that we offer in SoulFullHeart, that includes feeling and healing your Inner Teenager along with other parts of you: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Beauty and Power Of Feeling And Healing Our Parts

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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Painting by Art of Jaswant

“I fear the hurt.  The rejection. The persecution…if I say what I really want to say. Expose what it is I really feel,” says the wounded inner sensitive parts of us.

“I fear I will harm, destroy, or wound another if I let out this energy that has all been bottled up,” says the guardian of the rage within.

“What if I am wrong, attacked, and made bad for what felt so real to me in this moment?,” says the voice of the perfection, punishment, and shame that lie inside.

“What if all that I genuinely feel inside is not acceptable or desirable to anyone and I am left all alone to live a solitary existence in the void of my heart?” says the deeper pain of our souls experience.

Even as we are held in the solace of Divine Grace and magic, we are human after all. We are more than spirit. We are skin desiring touch, we are mind searching curiosity, we are hearts aching for love. This is the 3D and 4D experience we ultimately chose to sign up for.  The one that created this separation that lead us to the fear place.  The fear is what we are here to feel in order to remember that we are more that it. The fear comes in many different shapes and sizes. Even the those that “Fear Nothing”, fear the Nothing. The fear of not feeling anything at all.

We are made up of fractalized energy fields that are of an unknown quantity and substance.  These energy fields are our emotions, our feelings. They pack intense creative power that when left unchecked and unfelt, are creating circumstances beyond our conscious awareness.  But to reduce them to energy fields, is to diminish their beauty for they are works of art when you get to know them and relate to them.  I had a beautiful moment of feeling all the parts of me I have experienced over the last 5 years and it felt like a reunion.  A homecoming to myself. I felt the tender textures of their wounds and vulnerabilities, and their desire to love and be loved.  It was a heart opening moment to the love that exists in all of us.

If this idea of parts feels weird or you think you have no parts, I would feel that as a part of you that is protecting the going in.  The actual feeling of what it is that lies in the depths of your pain body.  And that is completely understandable. To feel that part helps to open the door to the expanded universe that lies inside you, that was created by you to discover and feel with the largess of heart you really forgot you had. To go into worlds you never really knew you had access too because of the conditioning and fear.

Feeling and healing that which blocks real love from entering our hearts is the root of part work. To identify and begin a relationship with the energetic pain and fear inside.  To go into intimacy with it, and thus yourself. This is where it can get scary because intuitively we know what lies inside.  But when held in the deepest compassion and self-love with another, the healing experience is profound and life-changing. It is one that can’t quite be expressed in words though it has been done beautifully by us as much as possible.  It extends itself to our Metasoul aspects which opens up greater doors of love and consciousness.

The love that is stored within is immense in its scope and depth. We have only a faint clue of what we truly are capable of feeling and expressing.  The unlocking and uncovering of that lies in the healing and feeling of the parts within. If you feel a curiosity or a resonance within you about parts, visit this page for more:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

There will also be Live Stream events on Facebook and YouTube as well as group calls to dive deeper into this magical world.  We offer a free Intro session to those that are wanting to take the next peek around the corner of their Highest Self.  It is a courageous and powerful journey into a more authentic you.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Leaving The Family Dinner Table To Experience The Nourishment Of Love

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By Jelelle Awen

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The family dinner table….you adjust to the awkwardness, the things left unsaid. You learn to hide the REAL feelings that come up as you pass the ‘this’ and the ‘that’. You ignore the tensions that ride and glide under every unspoken truth. You hope to remain unseen and safe in an effort to just ‘get through.’

So much you cannot share here…..as there is no room! You put it back in the closet then, far away, as it has no ‘place’. Your truth, your essence cannot be worn or shown. The food has more room then you do as it serves to distract from the disconnect that seems to season everything with flatness.

No wonder parts of you struggle to digest and to eat! No wonder you never really feel full! No wonder you are left wanting SO MUCH more than what you received! No wonder parts of doubt if you will EVER really get what you most want and really need!

So many meals left with rumbling heart still aching for the food of LOVE. So many meals sat with unexpressed fears and unshed tears. So many meals started with hopes and desires only to be left disappointed. So many meals with unacknowledged elephants sitting in the chairs.

Conforming and ‘fitting in’, putting on the mask and learn to wear it well…..avoiding anything ‘deep’ or ‘too heavy’, helping to steer the conversation away from the real or the true or the difficult to say out loud. Parts of you become experts at this dance and this ‘game’ because they HAVE HAD to be. This is survival of the ‘fittest’, those who can perform in this play acting out, those who can BE on this stage….. have the best chance of ‘making it’ and ‘succeeding.’

Yet, oh how WEARY of this are the parts of you that have shrunk to this place for so long! The masks are slipping off, half gone, one side unstrung and hanging loose. Your soul bright light is starting to SHINE through. Your truth is starting to BURST forward. You don’t want to be passed around so lightly any more You don’t want to be passed over. To be disregarded or seen without curiousity is becoming no longer interesting to you.

You are pushing away from this family dinner table. You are reaching your hand out to help parts of you leave it too that are ‘stuck’ there, even if it has been many years ago. You are opening your heart to hold the fears and tensions and anxieties that come up from leaving the ‘safety’ of this game. You are letting go of reacting to what other’s judge or think or feel about you.

You are open, now, to finding the table of your soul tribe. To taking in the meals of nourishing love in every bite, every exchange, every moment of BEing in the real. All is spoken out, revealed, and shared as THAT is what is most nourishing and, ultimately, most natural. Curiosity and reverence are passed around as the currency that spends between this family. All parts of you come forward to be seen, to be felt, and to be acknowledged.

THIS is the new earth experience of ‘family dinner’, of the gathering together where we offer new energy to a common ritual. THIS is the transition from the old and what so many of us have known and INTO the NEW, where realness is the spice and love flavors every bite.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Inner Child To FREE Up Frequencies of Joy, Magic, And Innocence

Published on by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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A sculpture at Burning Man….

In the heart of the woman is the daughter, waiting to be adored by parents who feel and WANT her. This inner daughter sits often in shyness, cast into the shadows to remain ‘safe’, not able to come out and play. She is freeze framed in her sadness, ‘stuck’ in the scenes that bring pain every time they are replayed by her mind, which is just trying to ‘clear’ them out.

Her voice is suppressed; her innocence is buried under shame; and her self consciousness leaves her unable to break free from the protective energies that judge and criticize her. She is a child without direct access to the JOY and magic that lives inside her as a seed that needs the water of LOVE to grow and bloom.

In the heart of the man is the son, waiting to be initiated by parents who feel and ADMIRE him. This inner son has masks to wear that play at ‘being a man’, even as he feels very small and insecure inside. He pretends to be a super hero, although protective and critical energies judge him as a coward.

This inner son learns to hide his vulnerabilities and his tears and, eventually, his heart behind shields and walls. He is trapped in the mind; in compensations and addictions; in reaction to inner energies that bully and criticism him. His WILDness is tamed by a world that wants him to conform, to wear a suit of conventional life, to ‘play by the rules’. He is a child without access to his childlike essence and the goodness and magic that lives inside of him.

Feel with tenderness this daughter or son inside of you. Invite them out to play with you, to leap with JOY again in every bound. Hold their hands as they cross the inner streets of busy mind and activities. Pass tissues to them as you FEEL their tears and sadness and their fears. Be interested as they tell you their stories. Bridge their hidden world with your outer one, making it safe for them to grow and learn.

Feel with openness where this youngness lives inside of you and the ways that it shows up in your ‘adult’ life. BEfriend this BEloved aspect of yourself as you BEcome what you have needed the most and didn’t have. Bring in Divine Frequencies of Mother and Father to provide Infinite Love energies to help re-parent them. Let Divine Mother wrap them in Her arms. Let Divine Father hold them in his protective embrace.

As you ARE the loving parental energy that these parts of you didn’t have in the way that they needed IN the painful moments that they MOST needed it during your childhood, the energies of your wounded child transform to health. Shame becomes innocence. Anxiety becomes trust. Shyness becomes humble confidence. Depression becomes creativity. Disillusion becomes purity. The wounded 3D Inner Child frequencies vibrate higher and higher, transmuting into the Magical, Star Seed 4D child and eventually into your 5D Crystalline child, who occupies the seat of your Merkabah or light vehicle.

Places of immaturity in your gender expression are then able to mature INTO the mature Queen and the mature King. As the child energies vibrate higher and you show up as an adult more and more to SEPARATE from these energies, you mature in your emotional body, your sexuality, your capacity to transact intimacy in all relationships. BEing with the youngness inside and loving it is what frees UP your mature feminine and masculine, along with letting in frequencies from the Divine to template how to embody and BE this.

Feel the Inner Protector who guards your Inner Child. With fierce loyalty, this protective part of you had to show up probably very early in your life when life was deemed ‘not safe’ for the innocence and purity of your heart. Negotiate with this Inner Protector, get to know them, form a bond and invite them to rest eventually. As they feel and see YOU there being with your Inner Child in a NEW way, your Inner Protector will start to trust and let go more, drop the guards and the walls, allow more LOVE into your BEing and life. Here is a guided meditation and teachings from us to connect with Your Inner Protector, which is necessary before accessing the DEEPER frequencies of the Inner Child: https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

This inner family of yours is waiting for your connection and for your attention. As you embrace this INNER union with different aspects of yourself, you are more able to BE in your authenticity, open heartedness, open mindedness, feel Divine Love and love with others. As you open YOUR own heart, so does this opening flow out to and WITH others. It is from this overflow of SELF love with ALL aspects that allows for TRUE service of love that comes from humble and surrendered desire!

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This writing is inspired by my OWN inner child, once named Evie then Aurora and now an integrated aspect of my higher vibrational BEing. It is also inspired by the BEAUTIFUL (although often initially very sad) inner children that I had the honor to connect with during session space over the years. Here is more to read about the parts that we work with in our SoulFullHeart process during sessions and more about our process as well:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Bliss Mess Of Feeling Your Emotional Body During Ascension

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By Jelelle Awen
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High pressure systems of energy, like what we are experiencing in the NOW and for many days/weeks/months, push up INTENSE feelings of what has been previously suppressed. Sometimes what has been judged by the part of you that judges as ‘ugly’ or ‘messy’….those often disowned tones of rage, despair, disdain, disconnect, depression, drama, self loathing….all those parts that have probably been deemed as ‘not fit for company’ or ‘put away in the inner closet.’

Explosive sometimes, these feelings can come up. Triggered by relationships, by situations, by just more moments made for them and by going within. The soul awakening can’t be bubbled off from the emotional body for long….eventually what has been let in (the frequencies of love and light) wash through and push UP reactions. Your Inner Protector may come in then and shut that process down with ‘no feelings allowed!’ messages, or certainly not any ‘negative’ ones that it thinks are NOT ok to see the light of your day.

Somehow it seems like the message has gotten highjacked by the parts of people that don’t want to feel anything difficult, messy, or ‘negative.’ When actually the HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love are what make it SAFE to feel these things. They are being provided by the Divine to ALLOW us to go into our emotional body in a way that we haven’t before as a species as THAT Is the ground that needs the MOST healing and of our attention.

We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much MORE than we have been human BEings. We are HERE to experience the bliss mess (yes BOTH) of FEELING. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in ALL its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely NEW.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy….this I have been offered over and over.

As an emoto-spiritual forecaster (like weather forecaster, yes, that fits….of inner and outer heart and soul energies), I feel it’s important to offer a bridge about what is happening OUT THERE in the cosmos, in the grids, in the galactic spaces TO what may be happening inside, in your emotional body, in your reactions and experiences. Without that bridge, it can be challenging to feel how what is happening in the galactic ascension process has much meaning to your daily life as you are living it as the human BEing that you are.

I struggle sometimes when I am reading an energy update from someone to feel how it would relate to the pain, suffering, confusion, fear that I feel coming up for so many right now (and for parts of me for so many previous years too.) Or, if the energy healer/teacher does offer something about emotions, it is usually to just ‘be with them and allow them to move’ and they will ‘release’ somehow. While, yes, holding space for emotions is important and they can ‘move’ this way, in my sense it is just the surface level off gassing frequencies that move and most likely NOT the deeper root causes and origins that live in the emotional body AND in the soul field.

The emotional body has been my playground, me ground, and service of love ground for 10+ years (almost 15, I think) and it offers SO MUCH clarity, relief, and transformation to just DIVE into it rather than ignore it, suppress it, bypass it, spiritualize it, etc. The soul legacy ground/body has been the same for me and with others…..and it offers SO much richness of integration of soul gifts, soul purpose, archetypal healing to remember, to relieve, to feel, and to go there.

Yes, but, how? How to dive in? This is an important question, it really is, because BEing needs form to follow for awhile so that it can arise, which it will eventually if you are authentically going into the emotional body and the soul body too. The how I have written about many times and ways and you can read much more about the SoulFullHeart process that we offer at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The main how is through connecting directly and with deep love to different aspects of yourself that LIVE in your emotional body and the ones that energize as ‘other lifetime’ aspects in your soul field too. SoulFullHeart Facilitators (including me for women over 30) then hold the space for this deep dive WITH you, yet it is led by you and your discoveries of SELF through journaling and meditation journeys primarily. And we offer a community of others engaged in this same process to provide support, powerful mirroring, intimacy, and connection through group calls, process groups and retreats in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, and a private online group. More of the how is here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and here soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

That’s my how anyway, maybe yours will be and is different. Yet, the importance of going into the emotional body seems difficult to deny when you feel the state of emotional maturity and health in our world and culture. This is like our ‘final frontier of exploration, along with our soul legacy (which was previously shrouded by a necessary veil of amnesia until we are ready). It offers a moon walk of emotional mystery, a bliss mess experience of US that unfolds in unexpected yet magical ways that ALWAYS seems to lead back to the experience of MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing 3D Aspects Of Yourself To Draw Your Highest Timelines

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By Jelelle Awen

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HIGH frequencies of light and love are coming in right now, offering an increasingly visceral and real sense of your highest timeline expression of your soul through your humanity. The NEW timelines don’t just happen to you though. They don’t just appear suddenly AS your life. It is the choosing consciously, the energizing consciously, the healing consciously, which creates the NEW. It is sitting in the Now and accepting it with gratitude as it IS. It is accepting WHILE desiring the NEW to unfold. You can feel both inside of you because that is where they live until they manifest as your outer reality.

As parts of you have settled for the current situations, present circumstances, life as you’ve known it so far….as this happens, so this is your choice. You ‘fuse’ to these parts of you and their emotional realities (usually subconscious) and so you ARE them. Even as your awakening self, your authentic self, longs and desires for MORE and for NEW. Other parts of you may suffer over what you want and what is not yet. Or feel at times hopeless or powerless or that the NEW is impossible. Or judge that what you want is not acceptable or that you are not worthy to have it. Or shut down possibilities with concerns, anxieties, and fears over being hurt or hurting others with your choices. So this creates a ‘push pull’ inside of you and very mixed feelings around the NEW and actually pushes away or stalls it from unfolding. And, this may even be happening at a mostly unconscious level for which you aren’t even aware of it.

These parts of you have been conditioned by a 3D world that operates on limiting, controlling, finite, and stuck energies. The prevailing worldview (esp. In Western cultures) is toward the external and the ‘out there’ thinking, orientation, and focus. It pivots self worth off of material gains, attainments, academic and mental achievements. It operates on constant distraction and numbing of feelings. Relationships are hot beds of codependence, clinging and binding, distancing and pushing away, shrinking and settling. All of these frequencies are sponged into you as you adapted and conformed to the environment you were surrounded by and raised in.

You may have mostly left this 3D conditioning and world behind in significant ways yet, inside, it has not ‘left’ the parts of you that been so deeply ingrained and impacted by it. You can see and feel how it shows up in your life when you look at it from a certain way and through the lens of not just a singular “I” or you at the center of your life, but rather many aspects and parts of you influencing and expressing in many different ways in your life. There is more about parts and subpersonalities (formed ‘this life’ and also soul aspects) that we work with in our SoulFullHeart process through sessions and within community here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Even as YOU awaken, you remember more and more the soul reason and purpose you are here, and choose more based on this…..so do parts of you live inside that are still in 3D reality, 3D conditioning, existing and freeze frame stuck in a 3D vibrating emotional body. These aspects act as anchors to your ascension and your soul awakening. They draw situations and looping patterns within relationships from your ‘trailing edge’ of wounding. To the degree these parts remain in shadow and suppressed or undifferentiated, then so do their frequencies draw more of the same.

This is possibly why even those who are very into the law of attraction, thinking positively with intensity, are still drawing circumstances that aren’t what they most want and desire. They have a conscious self which wants to draw the new reality by thinking about it, yet that isn’t actually only what draws the NEW but rather the emotional body and the state of its health too. So you can ‘change your thoughts’ and yet at the deeper level of the emotional body, nothing has actually changed or shifted. So, you will you continue to draw what you most need to see and feel related to your own healing and growth. This is not ‘life’ or the ‘Universe’ acting against you when It doesn’t bring you what you want, but rather it bringing EXACTLY what you most need to heal and parts of you choosing not to look at that or go into it.

Even as you awaken and choose more from your soul self, there are still areas of your life which reflect the trailing edge or wounded frequencies. This may be in your relationships, with a partner that doesn’t ‘get you’ or isn’t awakening with you or where hot romance has been replaced by friendly brother-sister energies. Or it may be in your birth family and friend relationships, with them reflecting judgement at your soul choices and how you are changing, or them feeling abandoned by you or ‘left behind’. This may be in your career or job, your means for earning livelihood that isn’t connected to your higher purpose serving love here yet, and parts of you consciously suffer in this job. Or you ARE offering your healing service with others, but it is not enough to provide you with what you need and want and you are compromising in some other way, such as living with birth family, returning ‘home’ after you have left a 3D based livelihood.This may be in having physical illnesses and diseases and injuries that don’t seem to resolve even with holistic and alternative means of therapies.

BEing with, feeling, and connecting with these parts of you with MUCH love and curiosity moves their stuck energies into the NEW. Your awakening self forms a bridge to these aspects, bringing them higher frequencies of love to help them move out of 3D and into the Now. They integrate into your awakening self eventually; their energies merging in with yours. Your love of self grows exponentially as these previously suppressed and hidden aspects of you receive the goodness of your love. Your Inner Protector and Soul Guardian can then ‘release’ the floodgates of love to flow into ALL areas of your life, which then attracts soul family, soul mates, soul purpose-based livelihood, vibrant health, and whatever else is the expression of your NEW.

The ultimate surrender sometimes is to feel that what you are drawing in this now IS your highest timeline as it is the one that you most NEED for your own growth in the moment. EVEN AS the Universe and the Divine holds what is your most authentic and highest expression. Your higher self embodies this too, who you BEcome more and more as you separate from the 3D aspects that lower your vibrational frequency.

We are being invited into our highest timelines and manifestation of our highest purposes here to serve love. We are being offered HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love to serve this movement, this ramping UP, into the expression of our highest self in human form, our sacred human. We are receiving much support and guidance from higher dimensional BEings and our Metasoul aspects in many galactic forms, whatever forms that we most want and need and are ready to let in. In our willingness and openness to GO IN and BE with these aspects of ourselves do we BEcome what we ARE already, an expression of Infinite Love in sacred human form.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.