Category: Awakening Process

Inner Discovery, Outer Changes: Truly Embracing Your Bigness

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by Kasha Rokshana

There are a couple of truths that I’ve lived into and that I’ve supported others in sessions to live into, and they are:

In a world at ‘war’, the only place you can end it is within.

In life circumstances that are abusive on ANY level, the only place you can reconcile that is within.

And then, another even bigger truth, is that there’s a potent invitation from the Divine and your Divine Self as you live into this. This invitation is to take outer action, rooted in the deeper inner work/remembering/healing processes within your clearing heart and soul soil, and rippling out into your life circumstances.

This doesn’t mean joining the ‘war’ that others insist on living out from their own inner worlds, for that self-righteous energy you’ll inevitably become doesn’t serve you or them and will always end in a stalemate (I’ve lived this one out a few times!) and/or some slight openings in your relationship that won’t last unless they are truly on the same page of doing some dedicated deep-diving inside.

It seems like it’s somewhat controversial to offer that not only setting boundaries but sometimes choosing to leave inherently non-resonant relationships of ALL kinds is actually GOOD for you and for them. You weren’t ultimately meant to live only in these grounds which will always lead to battling somehow or a reality of ‘pushing against’ on some level, even if it’s mostly energetic and not so much outright anymore.

The role of the ‘awakener’ or ‘red-piller’ of others is one rooted not in your inner peace or sanctuary but in parts of you that are afraid to be alone and in surrender to the unknown, to experience that biting (yet also alchemical) loneliness and fear that can really hurt and drop you, truly drop you, into what’s REAL inside of you and in your life. Whenever I’ve taken on this role with others, there’s been huge resentment on all sides and a self-centered ‘holier-than-thou’ energy that I had to realize was about tugging on those around me rather than truly loving them. It was about trying to arise into my own bigness and be seen by them rather than letting them go their way as I go mine.

This letting go of your end of the rope is where your real mission and sense of purpose can stem from, as you allow the space to recover from what parts of you once thought of as ‘normal’. The karmic layout of these relationships completes when you, as your awakening/integrating Divine Self, decide that it’s done. So often this is left unrealized, yet it’s the most powerful ‘NO MORE’ you could say on behalf of yourself and all precious parts of you, plus any Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes at play.

I KNOW how difficult this is, as the vitriol and clamour you can draw out of those you are now saying ‘no’ to is painful to take in, revealing the deeper and more accurate reality of your relationships… you see where you have been shrinking to fit in order to keep up appearances or allow a connection to go on and on with some growth happening at times perhaps, yet now the dynamic has run out of ground and you (and they) need something else.

THIS is how you leave the Matrix of false light, false Mother/Father connections, etc. and can begin to reveal and heal how you’ve been a part of this dynamic from within you, where your own false light has lived. This is the ground where you can let the real Divine in, however that resonates for you. And it’s in this void where the truest Soul Family/Tribe connections can arrive and arise, for you’re now more in their frequency and no longer enabling your own suffering OR the suffering of those who know they are losing the parts of you they have known you as and asked you to stay fused to.

Arising into your true bigness is what this is about and as you TRULY do so, you sever the cords and unspoken contracts between yourself and others which are meant to either find new ground (for the sake of their own bigness awakening too) or dissolve completely (also for their sake and not just yours). You choose to walk away and move into your most authentic expression that ‘they’ will probably never get, nor perhaps are they meant to. Maybe that’s the toughest pill of awakening to swallow, to see through the once precious illusion of what has been let in as ‘love’ yet now you can start to see what living into and embodying love is truly about.

This does include walking away from government bodies too, not just your most intimate relationships. Your culture/country can also be said ‘no’ to, or at least the energies of it that aren’t resonant. You’re also invited to go against the grain of what’s normal or expected, choosing your places of rebellion as they fit and arise for you in your growing inner fire and truth.

This process may not suit everyone at this time as it really does have its own timing, yet it does feel so essential to feel into during this time of death and rebirth on the entire planet, let alone in your own precious lifetime… the dying, when it’s surrendered to, becomes the fertile soil from which the buds of the NEW Earth can be seeded and sprouted. With this dying comes a new way of LIVING that needn’t only be a pipe dream.

You don’t have to feel alone or unsupported in any of this as you open up to yourself and the Divine in a new way… if you resonate with what I’m offering from my own experience of this and what I’ve seen move in the processes of others, please feel free to contact me for a 45min intro call that’s free of charge so we can feel together if this process, way of life, and soul and heart community of SoulFullHeart may be a fit for you and you for it/us. You can find more info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Imbolc 2022 ‘Brigid’ Message: “May you continue to awaken as individual flames of humanity’s sacred truth…”

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by Kasha Rokshana

Tomorrow is Imbolc, a festival that takes place at the midpoint between winter and spring and an energy that begins to illuminate the path behind and the way ahead.

Last year at this time I was living in Glastonbury and I found myself deeply connecting to the energies of this time of year. I also connected to the Brigid, the face of Divine Mother who is particularly present at this time. She had a lot to offer about how now is a time when what has only felt possible may become imminent as the winter of waiting overturns and the spring of new arisings and arrivals comes in.

At the time, I could only begin to feel what she meant… yet a day or so later, Gabriel crossed the space to me and we began to reunite and repair our Sacred Union which until then had felt ‘complete’. Raphael and Jelelle had already been exploring their own reunion after a brief period of separation and completion of old ground as well. My mate ache had really been peaking at the time too and it was becoming so challenging to hold it and not feel frustration around it. It was as if I knew somehow that my mate was in my field and close by too, though I hadn’t quite put together yet just HOW close!

This time last year there were also several souls who were deepening in community with us, or would be soon. After their resonance with us dissipated, it brought us all into a place of reevaluating where SoulFullHeart was going and what we were trying to seed in the world. It was an opportunity to look back at what we had held within and with others and what we needed to look at ourselves but also what resolve within us needed to strengthen.

Imbolc and Brigid’s fire of rebirth and illumination started a process of next-level resonance explorations in our intimate relationships, our relationship to this process and way of life we embody and offer, and also our relationship to our geography. The guidance to leave the UK and head to Portugal became clearer and clearer by the onset of spring, and by mid-summer, we were on our way.

This Imbolc, I feel the same message from Brigid with a few additions:

“May the possible become imminent, for the sake of your explorations of all that is truly current in your inner and outer worlds. May the promise of a new, Divine dawn, become sparked within and spread as an awakened sunrise on the horizon with all its colours on display.

May you continue to awaken as individual flames of humanity’s sacred truth… that you were never rendered completely powerless, that you were brought here for a reason, and though the way forward may need more illumination, the candle is in your Divine Self’s hands.

You have a ways to travel yet, but hope is on your side… and though the new world has only begun to seed itself, the sprouts of what is to come arrive like snow drop flowers through the cold and frozen ground.

Whenever you need the light of my fire, just ask. Whenever you need the nourishment of my fields of plenty, growing upward from the soil of the old, simply arrive for the arising.

I love you. I am here for the burning up of what was and celebrating with you all of your steps into the new.

Love,
Brigid 🔥”

I feel tears for the cries of the world as I take in what Brigid is offering us all in this message and I feel her encouraging me personally to continue to embody what I am here to explore and embody… it’s a sad time to be alive, with the Great Passing we are moving through (I wrote about it here) and yet with the Divine connections and support available to us all, I feel a peace and aliveness within at the same time.

We are living through one of the most trying times in our human history since Atlantis perhaps, yet here we ARE, placed here for a reason, choosing to stay or not, and empowered in all of it. It’s a deadly time in one way and so deeply alive in another!

I am sending all my love outward and inward today and as Imbolc’s energies land in your own heart, soul, and sacred life… may this current phase you are completing bring the portal to the next one in with as much grace as possible.

Love,
Kasha

Imbolc/Brigid artwork by Wendy Andrews

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The ‘Great Passing’ Taking Place During This Time Of The ‘Great Awakening’

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by Kasha Rokshana

While the Great Awakening – this opportunity for humanity to truly reunite with its core divinity – continues to move through, we are also experiencing what I’ve been guided to call the ‘Great Passing’ – a necessary and heavy passage where we are grieving the body death of many people and animals, as well as relationships and ways of living too.

The ‘Great Passing’, as Divine Mother has offered it to me, is a time of mourning and sacred letting goes. It’s a rather rough time that asks us to be real with everything we’re feeling… and while it truly is challenging to be with and face all of the dying in our midst, it’s also inviting us to feel the thinning veil around the core truth of what we’ve been invited here to rebuild and make new.

There’s actually so much that death invites us to get real about and to reconcile with. It’s always another portal to our deeper awakening as souls and sacred humans and these portals appear no matter what sort of ‘death’ we’re facing… the letting go of jobs, relationships, life as we knew it before the C-vid-Peak-Fear narrative took hold, are all portals and ways back into our divine consciousness, which embraces everything that needs to be felt and asks us to bypass absolutely nothing.

When I tuned into the Great Passing in meditation, I saw myself as one of many souls who are convicted to remain here on Gaia as long as possible, lined up and facing a great staircase similar to one leading up to a temple in Greece or Rome. So much emotion came up as I watched many souls walk up the staircase… adults, children, and animals by the thousands. My heart wept for the pain they were in before passing and the pain of those who will be facing the physical loss of them. My soul wept too, feeling how much the Divine loves every part of us all through it all and has never ever stopped though the veils to feeling this have been around us for many reasons.

The only place I know I can always find comfort at this time of necessary and sometimes consciously chosen death is in the arms of the Divine. Here is where I feel how death is an invitation for these souls who simply cannot withstand the pressures and pain they’re in that’s only being stirred up more by the escalating energies as Gaia ascends and the ‘old’ collapses, pillar by pillar. I also feel the hope that these deaths offer… that even from another dimension, they will be a part of supporting the process we’re ALL in right now in different ways and forms and at different levels of consciousness.

I’ve been shown as well a ‘suicide dimension’… a place in between this dimension and the one of reunion with the Divine, where many souls are lingering and making choices about either continuing to live or not. I feel Divine Mother especially holding these souls in Her arms, weeping with them, and supporting their choices too. I feel how this is an honouring of free will and of the soul’s individual choice… if they know somehow that they aren’t strong enough to withstand what’s intensifying in life as they’ve known it, they are choosing to move on either through direct action or energetically calling in other ways to pass.

This Great Passing is intended to move us all into the new… and those of us who humbly choose to remain here are the ones ultimately meant to do so. My deepest desire is for us all to continue arising and showing up as the Death Doulas we are meant to be now so that we can become the Rebirth Doulas that usher in the NEW in honour of all of those who are currently or soon moving on.

There’s nothing to fight in any of this, yet there is a whole lot to give love to, starting within each of us.

It’s this love flow within that unites what has become fractured within, keeps us feeling even minimally ok with being here, and makes it doable. It’s this love flow that connects us with resonant souls and calls in our Soul Family/Tribe/Soulmates, no matter the differences we are invited to reconcile and the challenges of life conditioning and parts’ reactions within us all.

It’s this love flow that keeps us moving deeper into the healing of our soul legacies and imprints from other lifetimes as we become more intimate with that as well. And, it’s this love flow that reconnects us to the Divine through the ever-thinning veil of our personal awakenings, rooted in the heart and expanding into the soul… making all of the ‘death and rebirth’ cycles worth living through.

You are held, I am held, we are held…

With so much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Inner Mother & Daughter Guided Meditation: Video 20 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

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In this twentieth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Jelelle Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Kasha Rokshana as we explore Sacred Feminine Embodiment over the next five videos. Kasha and Jelelle have held many women’s group calls together exploring these topics through teachings, guided meditations, and taking in sharing from female participants on the calls.

In this video, we share about the parts of you representing your Inner Daughter and your Inner Mother, plus the dynamics between the two of them. We share about how the internalization of your relationship with your birth mother opens up deeper access to feel the maturation of your inner daughter and your mature feminine essence. We can often be caught up in loops of tension and polarization between the Inner Daughter and Inner Mother, recapitulating our relationship with our birth mothers and limiting our sacred feminine growth and embodiment.

We also share about how the Inner Mother gives us a sense of deeper compassion toward to birth mothers, understanding of how you relate to men and sexuality (as a reflection of her templating), and a bridge to Divine Mother. Your inner daughter holds the pure essence of your sacred feminine which is able to merge with the Divine Mother into an arising sacred feminine Queen expression.

In the guided meditation, you invite your Protector/Gatekeeper to connect you with your Inner Daughter in her room within your castle. You then bring your Inner Mother into the room with the Inner Daughter to get a sense of their relationship dynamic with each other. You are then both inviting to join Divine Mother in Her healing garden outside of the castle and to submerge into the waters of her healing pool.

Here is a link to the descriptions of women’s group calls with Jelelle and Kasha and links to purchase the recordings: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Your I AM 5D Divine Self Essence Guided Meditation: Video 17 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this seventeenth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about what we mean by becoming your I AM 5D Divine Self. We talk about the 3D, 4D, and 5D selves and the qualities such as gratitude, forgiveness, compassion, curiosity, openness, joy, willingness to feel, etc. that are the essence of the 5D Self.

We share about how the I AM is an invitation for embodiment of the Divine within you and not looking to an ‘outside’ source to experience and bridge to the Divine, as has been offered by the False Light Matrix. This is a process of transmutation from the ‘ground up’ of your 3D self meeting the higher dimensional aspects of 5D and higher in a middle place.

In the guided meditation, your Gatekeeper joins you on an exploration to raise your frequency by climbing up stairs to a higher dimensional space. Once you reach the higher 5D space, your 5D Divine Self is invited to come in, along with any higher dimensional soul aspects or star/soul family members.

Here is high frequency music you can listen to during this meditation by Divine Channel Mei-Lan: https://youtu.be/tC1RGAne_yE

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.
We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed
For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

A Digestion Of The Deepen 2022 Video Series

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By Raianna Shai

This SoulFullHeart video series is such an incredible way to get to know yourself to an incredible deep level. They’re full of teachings and meditations that are so valuable for discovering who you are, why you feel and react the way you do, what your gifts are and how to heal even your deepest wounds. I’ve been doing this series for the last two weeks or so and even the more “basic” videos have been so enlivening and core to my current healing process.

There’s something special about connecting to 31 different videos that slowly but thoroughly help you dive into any and all places that need your attention. They can be taken in at any pace and at any time which allows you to go deeper into any process that feels relevant.

I have been on a deep journey of discovering my divine empowered woman and these videos have brought so many connections to light inside of me. They have taught me how much my inner mother wants to care take everyone to the point where it doesn’t allow others, or other parts of me, to live into their bigness and grow into the person they’re capable of. They have taught me that my inner teenager is ready to blossom and become a woman capable of setting boundaries and advocating for herself and the capacity of others.

They have woken up my inner protector enough for him to realize that he can’t keep me small and locked in my bedroom anymore. This journey has strengthened belief in myself and what I have to gift others. I have been able to dive into my shadow in a way that I was way to scared to before and recognize patterns that have been so detrimental to my own growth as well as those around me, even if for a good reason.

So thank you Jelelle, Raphael and soon Kasha and Gabriel for providing me with the tools I need to love and care for myself in a way that serves both myself and the collective ❤️

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days, a playlist featuring each video released so far, and information about the two Deepen 2022 group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

Love, Raianna

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

About Our Personal Journeys & The Process (Video)| Gabriel Amara & Kasha Rokshana

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Join SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Teachers and Sacred Union Mates, Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana, as they share about their own personal journeys with the SoulFullHeart process/way of life and community over the last decade.

They have both been deeply devoted to their own paths of healing and inward journeying, which continues to lead them into deeper territories within their hearts and souls, deeper embodiment as sacred humans, more access to the frequencies of their Sacred Union bond, and into the waters of service to others which starts always within.

They both have many writings about their personal journeys, their own Divine channellings, and digestions about what’s moving in the collective during this time of Matrix peak and collapse which can be found at http://www.soulfullheartblog.com

If you’d like to join the FREE online SoulFullHeart community, The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, go here: http://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

The Deepen 2022 video series with Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be released on Youtube yet also on the SoulFullHeart website/blog, and the SoulFullHeart Portal. For more information on the series, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

More information on 1:1 and couple’s sessions and FREE 45min intro calls with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator can be found here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Choosing The Path Of Love And Growth

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by Raianna Shai

I’ve been in Portugal for over a month now and with so much changing for me in this transition, I felt like it was time to digest it all through writing. We’re currently in a timeline that has caused so many of us to rethink where we are in our lives. Life as we’ve known it is coming to a close and it has come time to reevaluate what is truly and deeply important to each of us as unique souls.

For those who don’t know, I left Canada last month to be with my soul family and community, SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. I spent a year physically away from them exploring my own independent journey of relationship, growth, maturation and self discovery. I had gotten to the point where doing emotional healing work was so hard for me to do alone and remain consistent with. Parts of me wanted the easy way out – to just live life and use various mediums to distract and medicate any sadness or loss of purpose I felt inside of myself.

I’m more than grateful for this phase of my life though as it taught me how to deeply love another, advocate for my needs, re-sparked my desire for independence and also led me to discovering what was really most important for me and my soul.

Healing with the soulfullheart process is not easy, healing trauma and pain never is. It’s so much easier to stay in what’s comfortable and already well known. But what brought me back to it stronger than ever is the idea that any ounce of love that I am able to give to myself is another ounce of love that exists in the world. Every time we heal something deep inside of ourselves it affects the collective in a big way. The way my community can really see and feel me is something that I wish everyone on the planet could experience. And it’s something that everyone deserves.

So as hard as it is for parts of me to feel like I deserve this love or that I’m big enough to show up for this process, I remind myself of the bigger purpose here. We aren’t just healing for ourselves, we’re healing for the world.

Love,

Raianna Shai

Being Part Of ‘The Great Arising’

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by Kasha Rokshana

“You are the Great Arising. 

It is different than the Great Awakening. 

It’s what happens as you move into the Higher Heart space as you awaken. It is the embodiment of your Divine Self (as you step through and into the process of this embodiment).

There’s nothing here to achieve. Yet, there is so much MORE to arise into, rooted always in the heart.”

~ Divine Mother

I feel this invitation and its many layers this morning in particular. This morning, that like many recent mornings and perhaps mornings throughout human history, will lead into a day which for many will feel like suffering to some degree. For such is the state of the world both inside and out… the hiding, the fighting, the pushing and pulling. 

I feel how the cries of the world can seem cinematic in moments and can feel like it’s something happening ‘out there’ rather than anything I am (or any of us who live in a more removed/remote space are) personally involved in so much. The gravitas though of feeling what’s moving through the world and what my own soul has experienced of the world is not something to put away for too long. The invitation calls and I go… and I’ll be going into it deeper still.

I feel the love and grace of the Divine reminding us all that no matter what it is we feel ready to feel in our own inner worlds or in the outer one, we are infinitely held. It’s the letting in of that holding that can truly be the challenge. And the letting in of the Divine’s tears for all of us as it feels us and holds us in its heart is the sort of stuff that blows the heart wide open.

As the sun rays float through my window in this moment as I write this, I’m reminded too of the beacons of hope and love that we all have the capacity to become. This sort of embodiment is not transcendent but deeply alchemical and alive, offering us invitation after invitation to keep feeling what needs us in our inner worlds while feeling connected still to the outer. 

I’ve not ever been able (in this lifetime) to transcend feeling. The bigger piece here for my process has always been about opening up to feeling others deeper and not only myself and my own parts/soul aspects. The compassion from myself to others is ever-deepening, especially when boosted by Divine invitation, inner movements, and holding space for others, which all remind me again and again of how important the inner work is, but also how important the overflow from that inner work is.

To truly arise as Sacred Humans, this process has its downturns and upticks, its wobbles and its straight lines. It’s a chaotic mess at times and extreme bliss at others. It’s the holding of hope and love, expanding out into true forgiveness and compassion toward self and others, and it’s the most humbling thing I’ve ever witnessed and experienced. 

We ARE the Great Arising, as Mother offers. We are expanding beyond ‘awakening’ and moving into much deeper things that in some ways haven’t been lived into by humanity yet. 

As our souls and hearts arise together as one in each of us and all together, we experience what is becoming so possible to truly embody…

Love,

Kasha & Divine Mother

Photo is of my altar which I light every morning for meditation/Divine & inner connection time!

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Meeting Your Divine Self – Our Journey From & Back To Source

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By  Raphael Awen

The farther we journey from source, the greater is our return to source where we are enabled to experience it for the first time.

This is the homecoming that you and I are now in, even as parts of us feel like the separation is growing.

It’s no longer the separation that’s growing, but rather your awareness of it that is increasing.

This week has been marked for me with another reunion with my Divine Orphan self that was triggered by some arising life circumstances, inviting the conditioned-to-this-life parts of me to feel and see this divine orphan self. I’m finding the beholding of this part again to be so moving and deeply rewarding, that answers the deeper questions at hand about the feelings of separation.

We were all initiated out of divine source into experience itself, and this experience needed to begin with what was not source. All of the fears, anxieties and depression we carry hearken back to our being birthed out of our divine bliss/oneness/source essence.

In this, we all were implanted with a great core wound, a wound that would underlie everything we would come to label as neurosis, things wrong with us. All of our attachments and quarrels within and without stem from this wound. But this pain and burden we carry is not only a wound that hurts, it is also an opening, a portal back, back to our true essence.

Your true essence is not conditioned by the conditionings of fear and lack that were needful for the experience journey. Your essence hasn’t participated here in the hijacked, 3D, matrixed, realm. Your essence remained untouched and protected from all of that.

The godhood you long for, you actually still possess and never lost. You just took on the experience of forgetting and of losing. In experience, you did lose divine connection and it hurts like the hell that it is. In essence though, you never lost a single thing. You are both experience and essence. More correctly, you are essence that took on experience.

You set out not to discover faraway lands, but to leave the land of your origin, so that you could return to it and discover it for the first time. As essence, you couldn’t know or feel or appreciate that essence and bliss. Bliss was left wanting to be known and felt and experienced. It was a risky endeavor, but your soul and the divine’s decided to fund this great discovery journey into reverence, awe and wonder.

As the increasing awareness of this separation rumbles in your life, you feel a fever pitch of everything coming apart at the seams. Everything you’ve worked so hard for to make experiential life bearable or even good comes now at this stage to be found to be not enough. In reaction, you may work harder as I have on gratitude and whatever other host of self-prescriptions to attempt to right your relation-ship with life, only to find they are not at all effective like they were before.

What the hell is happening?

You are beginning the return part of your journey home. You are sailing in the opposite direction. You are returning from where you came and the way you came. The return voyage has been negotiated through many lifetimes and so many experiences and you are ready now, equipped and prepared for the return.

The conditioning of lack and scarcity that you onboarded in your journey into experience is still here, and at times feels strangely and troublingly magnified. But this is all to be expected as you are called to feel and reconcile all the parts of you that are adjusting to returning to source – such a different experience than journeying away from source.

Now, you begin to get a sense of how sacred this forgotten core wound opening is. It is the one thing that would guarantee your return to divine source experientially. Your messed-up-ness is actually your perfection expressing and calling out to you. Each arising pain and ache is an intrinsic part of  the ongoing guidance as you restore to each part of you the pieces of their birthright that they are ready to feel.

Your preferences for pleasure over pain are a key part of your being human and of restoring your humanity with your divinity. You are invited not to bypass them any longer in the name of some kind of medicative spiritual practice. You chose to experience. You chose to want and to need. Those wants and those needs will need to be courageously owned and embraced if this voyage is to be completed successfully and on time (and in time).

As you witness the great fever pitch of insanity unfolding around you, ask yourself if you can think of any greater contribution to such a distress call than that of saving yourself, deeply choosing and embracing your own return journey home.

As you continue your return journey home as one being, you are reminding the oneness that we all are and share of this remembrance journey. Those around you in the forgetting phase will need your example when the time of their remembering comes, just as you needed it from others.

May we each embrace the perfection that we are amidst all that seems and feels so imperfect. May we set up a heart home with a great hearth of the warmth that will allow the fullest remembering.

Raphael Awen

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.