Category: Emotional Body Healing

The Portal To Your Wildest Dreams Lies With(yin)

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

 

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Taking in a new arising desire for creativity after yesterday’s deep rest gestation gateway. It has a more balanced masculine approach to it. In a state of creation without production. This writing may not see publication. Who knows? I don’t even really know what I am focusing on today. Just being in the Now with what is moving through me. Letting feeling and intuition guide the way.

This creative motor is the root of our BEing. We are constantly creating. Responding to our inner emotional needs, fears, and desires. I desire to serve others in the name of Love through and with the SoulFullHeart process. I respond to that desire with writing, recording, meditating, connecting, and living the process in my daily life. I desire to heal, so I respond to that with feeling my inner world of parts and metasouls as the need arises in life and relationship triggers. It is not always neat and tidy. Matter of fact, it is rarely so because emotions are just not meant to be that way. If our Higher Self didn’t want to feel and experience all of this, you and I just would not be here. This is still a bit to swallow, especially if you have had, or are going through, some really serious shit.

There is a deep desire for geography change as part of this new timeline of “What is it that you really want?” comes into full view. So many desires sitting at the docks of our harbor waiting for sailing. I can feel myself in new lands, taking in new vistas, and new people to serve in Love. A mobile, responsive healing brigade of Love lovers spreading the gospel (good news) of parts work, metasoul healing, and practical ascension. Love wanting to heal the shadow into more Love. I respond to this by dreaming, imagining, and feeling the resistances and doubts within.

This gift of dreaming is what carries you through each day. It can also be what burdens a part of you too. Like, “How in the hell can I make THAT happen when there is THIS in my way!”. Yeah, good question. Well, the way is feeling what part of you is actually saying that because it ain’t you. If you are seeing the dream, feeling the dream, you are already the dream. But is just doesn’t feel like it because you are still ‘here’. “How can I be there if I am still here?” Yup…good question.

I would ask you where ‘here’ is. What does it feel like emotionally? Not situationally or geographically. Then you would respond to this feeling as being held by a part of you. Most generally an Inner Protector or Gatekeeper. Gaining separation from it so you can have a relationship to it. It is your Relation Ship. The one that you then unanchor from the dock and start sailing the tides of your emotional body with You at the helm. It ebbs and flows but you make forward progress each time to the destination you are dreaming about. In reality, you are already there, it is just these parts of you that are catching up to you. Feeling it that way gives you an empowered process rather than feeling stuck in the mud with your wheels turning. Alchemical traction.

Feeling through all the things that keep you from manifesting your dreams, feeling an inner joy, or discovering your passion purpose is what moves you to the next serendipitous moment of ‘coincidence’ and draw. Thinning out the distance between your heart and your imagination. It is not about HOW you are going to make it happen in a 3D sense, it is about WHAT you want, or are going to make happen. The timing is not up to you, but the choice to feel and heal is. Taking that step to transform your inner world is portal that takes you where you already are…in your wildest dreams.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Going Yin: Birthing Through A Gateway

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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Enjoying some rest time today. I was guided to just BE in quiet yinner space and let my heart guide me. Feel what needs connecting with inside. Then I recalled it was 12/12 today. A significant gateway into a higher timeline. I have been feeling a feminine container around me this last week or so even during occasional masculine production modes. I can actually feel Her during these times. She is wrapping something around me to guide me, and maybe more specifically, an aspect of me into a new ground of balanced creativeness. When I feel the more pressing or pushing energy, I know I hit the wall of Her womb gently inviting me back inward.

It is far less than it used to be in the past, but when it arises it is becoming much more recognizable. So it felt important to take this Yin space and feel this with my parts, more specifically my Gatekeeper, or soul guardian, for whom I am in deepening relationship with. He was feeling how the energy to produce can come from a need to fill a lack or void within. Something that is not being felt from a You-to-You space. It is the void space that holds some of our deepest fears. Fears of rejection, abandonment, and inadequacy. So much doing and achieving can be used to fill and cover this hole yet still not feel Whole.

This is a very kinetic feeling inside. An upward swing of temporal euphoria, like a subtle brush across the forehead that symbolizes a relief that a part avoided the void once again. The reality of course is that no matter what we throw into it or try and cover it with, it will always be there until we feel that part of us that is working overtime and not getting paid for it…meaning it is not feeling the deeper pain and being held in it with love.

I could feel the deeper layers of Noel needing connection with me. Needing help navigating this birthing into being and meaning. So used to being in the shadows, hiding and protecting. Being fused to the more wounded need for being loved by what you do and don’t say rather than who you are and what your truth is. Not being fully aware of what Love truly is wanting him to feel about himself as a part of a bigger picture of service and surrender.

This is where the infusion of divine feminine energy is helping to birth both of us into a new timeline of leadership and expanding vulnerability. Purpose and meaning. The space between motion and rest. There is a great balancing act occurring in my world today as I surrender to it. That feels like the key into this next gateway. Surrendering to the feelings inside that are inside the covered void. Creating a Yin day for yourself and the parts of you that need your love and attention. This is what is offered in SoulFullHeart as a means to feel the deeper layers of your being to allow for more arising of your authentic and glorious creative You.
I feel how the masculine in us all, both male and female, benefits from this rest and going yin time. Not as a means to check out, but a way to feel the next pieces to move into a higher vibration of joy and BEing that makes us whole again.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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e-motion-ALL Ful-fill-ment

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By Raphael Awen

Every impulse that moves through us is a feeling.

Every desire, every despair, every satisfaction, every ful-fill-ment – all of it is e-motion, an energy in motion.

I’m sitting on the patio in a resort town in Mexico where I’ve lived for 2 years, warm in December, with a view of the ocean, where I saw a whale frolicking yesterday, drinking my organic cacao with coconut milk and honey, my beloved nearby, with not a single appointment to show up for for the next several days – sounds like a dream life doesn’t it?

I can tell you it is a dream life, and yet it isn’t one where I don’t have longings and desires, even un-fulfillments that arise into my field.

I’m learning another round of how if I don’t feel the parts of me and what they are feeling, a generalized emotion of wanting or needing something arises, a foggy unhappiness if you will.

Then I am again invited to feel what part of me is feeling what and why.

This week, I felt deeply the part of me I know and love as Wayne, my middle birth name that I went by for 7 years, up until 2 years ago, who was again feeling some angst over not knowing how to move my life forward in the ways that he felt we needed to go forward in. As we felt this intimately together, it didn’t take long to get to the raw emotion underneath where Wayne, in his legacy of moving me through 4D birth canals and navigating practical challenges and epic changes over a decade or so, was now feeling at an impasse of not knowing how to manage or set sail into what’s before us in the present. 2 years ago, Wayne was given an astounding access into Golden Earth while living on a remote ranch through an etheric journey that really set something so beautifully new as well as challenging into my overall emotional body and life trajectory. As we felt this together, it became evident that Wayne felt done with wanting to manage any more 3D to 4D transitions and really wanted to just live in Golden Earth. It really felt like time for Wayne to retire and refire in Golden Earth. I assured him that his really going into Golden Earth’s tones and frequencies would be his greatest contribution to our ongoing shifts and movements. It’s been a couple of weeks now and I feel a pipeline connection to his expanded reality in Golden Earth infusing into mine. This feels so fitting for Wayne to be contributing in this way from the delicious beaches and forests and cityscapes of Golden Earth, having lived more than what most would consider a lifetime here for me in the past 10 years.

At the same time as Wayne and I were having this movement, another part of me named Rhodes who was historically an Inner Protector, who shifted to a Gatekeeper (opening out to new soul domains), and is now shifting again to being a beloved guide is transforming in amazing ways. It seems related to Wayne’s resonance from Golden Earth energizing new things in my field. Rhodes this morning humbly and tenderly asked my main higher self guides, Archangel Metatron and Merlin, my Unicorn if he could be more a part of their world. He admitted fear of not belonging as well as a deep longing for their higher frequencies, and also admitted to being a dampening energy from the higher frequencies in my life in certain ways. Sweet tears of admission and surrender as he humbly spoke his fears and desires, tears of raw emotion as he asked to be a channel for new higher frequencies for me, for us to experience together.

Now, this previously undefined foggy edgy unhappiness is transformed into a most personal connection of me to me, expanding out into my e-motion-ALL space into celebration and deep appreciation – specific full-filled-mints for me to savor and feel, to let in, to acclimate to…

Everyone of us feeling this call to Ascension are being invited into deeper and deeper forms of our own inner resort living. I’m ongoingly adjusting to the reality that living at a higher frequency does NOT mean that I won’t have unfullfillment in my life. Living in new fulfillment actually heightens deeper desires for higher fulfillments. True fulfillment in this way breeds unfulfillments for us to again surrender into and allow to take us somewhere. What I am being offered is that no unfulfillment is meant to remain as a static unmovable reality in my life. Unfullfillment is a vehicle to take me somewhere again and again, if I am willing to find and feel the part of me holding those e-motions.

This is specifically the work we offer and live in as a community in SoulFullHeart, and that I personally (along with Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna) offer through paid weekly spaceholding sessions and process with individuals drawn to this as a soul path and healing path. If you are drawn, we offer a deeper free intro session to help you feel if this is a going place for you. I’d love to hear from you and why you feel drawn if this calls to you.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Higher Self News Flash

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

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This Sunday morning news flash brought to you by your Higher Self.

You are Sovereign. You just don’t possess Free Will you ARE Free Will. Nothing has ever nor can ever have control over you that we haven’t chosen together. In fact you and I are the same, we just have needed to separate ourselves in order to walk out a whole lot of experience that we agreed to before you forgot…on purpose. This holds true between you and the parts of you that were formed in order to be in this dimension of forgetfulness in order to experience some really intense and beautiful moments, no matter how hard they were. That is a tough one to let in. I can only say that when you get to the other side of that healing you will understand why. We created being a victim in order to spark the impassioned remembrance we were always more than that.  You needed to fight for freedom until you realized you were already free.

You are Divine. This moment to moment choosing born of your sovereignty is your Divine birthright. Your ability to choose IS your creative power that is connected to The All That Is. You are Essence and Experience both. You are the bright light of God that cannot nor ever has been separate. The illusion is a construction by our choosing to go into the depth of experience and what it is that Love is truly made of. The Divine is out seeking Itself through you, with you, as you. The separation is what creates the energy of Love to be felt, shared, and expanded. It is experienced as Hell to parts of you until you arise out of the ashes and into awakening to hold and connect to the Heaven within. This is where you and I come together.

You are Human. This beautiful expression of your divine essence. You are the passion, the hope, the fear, the ecstasy, the pain. This form that is a chalice of your light and love awaiting its flight. The container of all your parts that have been through much. The parts that await your conscious presence into their still-framed world playing through the wounded moments that exist in this Now. The parts that beckon your courage and readiness to go into the pages of your storied lives. The healing and integration of all that experience that gets to feel itself anew and redeemed.

You are Unity. The clearing of all the pain and trauma of what kept parts of you feeling alone. Abandoned. Rejected.  The reclaiming and remembering all the aspects of yourself that span time and space. Your Kings, Queens, Priests, Priestesses, Soldiers, and Warriors. Your myriad galactic Star Being and angelic expressions of higher dimensional frequency.  They are all a part of your inner council as you heal the veil between you held by your Gatekeeper, the most precious of them all.  This is a never-ending process that only stops when you want it to. Your growth and experience are as infinite to the degree that you desire them to be.

Now feel your way through the chambers of your human heart, my love and we shall find a glorious road ahead that has no limitation to what we want to create and experience in your sacred humanity.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Invitation To Heal Metasoul ‘Battle’ Legacies On ‘Human Rights Day’

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by Kalayna Colibri

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This morning I felt a desire to feel into what’s sparking up today in the collective. It turns out that today is ‘International Human Rights Day’. A day that holds celebratory energy yet despair too and is the mark of many ‘battles’ from different groups of humans… some still happening today, yet all still happening in the Now as time is not linear… fires, started up and fuelled by separation wounding, starting within and flowing outward, affecting us all and affecting our love flow together.

The meaning of what it is to be ‘human’ has shifted so much over the ‘centuries’ and timelines…. which are actually still very active today, in this Now, and aren’t in the ‘past’ at all. Parts of us and especially Metasoul Aspects feel different events and situations that appear in our linear sense of history, happening in the Now… as time is not now, nor ever really was linear, except for in our 3D sense of reality that we have needed to be in up ’til Now.

The ‘powers that be’ (mostly political and very Archonic/Reptillian feeling to me, at least for the most part) have deemed this race or that gender ‘human’ and granted rights for things like voting and participation in politics, rights to get married, rights to have clean and drinkable water, rights to renewable energy, rights to religion and worship, rights to ‘freedom’ in general. All of this seems to still be argued about, debated about. So much arguing, so many reasons to confirm or deny or acknowledge and especially to feel… to empathize, which is so much more than sympathize. This has been so challenging, as on some level of our being, in different parts and soul aspects of us, we can feel the ways in which we are all a reflection of each other’s pain, wounded motivations and self-punishment, yet desires and soul and heart gifts too. Even after all these ‘years’ of charged events and situations, so much is still in upheaval and so much is still holding up a powerful mirror along with a perpetually pregnant invitation to keep going inward, to feel the origination of all of this turmoil that still rages within, though perhaps the inner battlegrounds have mostly be shrouded in shadow, and even covered over by the coveted elevation into 5D and beyond, with parts and soul aspects of us wanting to ‘just be passed this already’.

When I really feel my own humanity today, I feel how conditioned parts of me have been to project their reality outward. In a sense, it feels like we are all walking projectors. We are all able to create or dismantle our outer realities, based on our inner reality and what is rumbling inside parts and Metasoul Aspects of us. A few months ago, I felt a Metasoul Sister of mine named ‘Meg’. Meg was a Suffragette in her timeline in England. She somehow rose up to become a sort of micro-leader (under a much bigger and elusive leader of the Suffragette movement who they didn’t see very often for she was in hiding and had to be discreet), for a large group of women of mixed ages. The outrage boiled over to the point of burning down government buildings or at least attempting to. Explosives and other weapons were something that Meg learned how to use and taught and led other women to use them too. Together they rallied and fought. Were arrested and released. The suppression and repression of women were not relieved though and were mostly intensified by their efforts. Eventually, yes, they did ‘win’ the vote and a place in the political sphere, yet with so much turmoil, bloodshed, tears and incredible pain inflicted not only on others but on themselves. Their pain was acted out from, thrust outward like a sword. So many of us and parts of us can relate to this, especially after having been wronged in some way, abused, victimized, which is understandable, especially given the lack of templating for how to do and BE something different than this in our 3D sense of reality. The biggest, deepest movement I’ve had with this Metasoul Aspect came during a SoulFullHeart group day, where she could come up and be felt by the tender yet strong and somehow NOT warrior-like feminine heart in Jelelle Awen and the open, healing, and trustworthy hearts in Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen as male witnesses to her plight. The sweet tears of Raianna Shai were there for her too and they could feel a shared Metasoul timeline of sisterhood, which was sweet and heart-opening to let in. She was moved into feeling how the needs of the women could have been brought with spine and vulnerability, both. Without battles and with much more trust. They allowed a seed to be planted in their consciousness, that fighting as the men were doing or seemed to be doing, was the only way to meet them as equals and prove their worth as human women. Yet, Meg could feel and is feeling with me now as I write this with her in my heart, that they were actually being invited to lead something different than this, from a place deep within, rooted in a genuine expression of Yin power and self-leadership which feels so different than outward expressions of OUTrage and warriorship.

In all of our attempts to garner more ‘human rights’, we often forget that the true heart of a human being, and especially that of a Sacred Human as we are invited to keep embodying and healing to more and more, is collaborative, empathic, feeling, and somehow inherently trusting. We have needed to forget this for a time in order to remember it again in fullness and contrast to how we’ve felt and held our power or powerlessness so far. To truly listen to each other, feel each other’s needs in overflow from feeling our own… this is the ongoing invitation from and with Love. It may seem idealistic and honestly, to my Meg, it felt like this at first. Yet the more we go inward, especially with feeling parts of us and Metasoul Aspects too, the more we realize that this doesn’t have to remain an ideal and that the peace we all so want to experience and be a part of in our deepest Sacred Human hearts, has to start within, and this is the only place where we can control whether or not we experience it in this and any timeline. And, once this process has begun, the fictional story of the need to take away anyone’s ‘rights’, human or animal, becomes obsolete, dissipates and eventually dissolves completely as the Golden Earth/New Gaia we are waiting and working for, is then allowed to arise out of our hearts in an organic fashion as it is meant to, instead of fought or battled for as this necessary phase of the illusion of separation has conditioned parts of us to feel is the only way to get, to earn, to create what we really desire to experience and feel worthy of.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Becoming Free From The 3D Matrix Through Healing Unworthiness, Judgement, and Disconnect

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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So much distracted focus outside of the self. They taught your 3D Self to always be looking outward. To be measuring your ‘this’ from their ‘that’. To be comparing your worth to theirs and, ultimately, finding yourself lacking or ‘not enough’. Parts of you became masters of this game of self limitation always played out on someone else’s field. The parts inside of you that can judge you BEFORE other people can are the most valuable players of this game. Parts of you may be able to do this so well that you don’t always notice it is happening until that familiar deflating feeling rises up from inside and you don’t know why. Why does it always seem to be there, limiting your sense of what you can do and be?

So much of 3D life is responded to and lived by the Inner Punisher energies, with usually a strong fusion and collaboration with the Inner Protector. These frequencies of protection and punishment/judgement happened in response to the 3D Matrix. This Matrix is not formed of binary code (that is much too conceptual). The Matrix that ties and binds you the most is actually the one fueled by your unhealed unworthiness, disconnect, and shame. It is created by what remains unfelt inside your emotional body, your Metasoul (soul legacy/other lifetimes/timelines), and other previously forgotten sources.

The 3D Matrix unplugging at a deeper level happens when the emotional body becomes watered by self love, a sense of your innate goodness, and intimate connection with the Divine. Awareness of the limiting control systems ‘put in place’ by fear-based BEings (both of the Stars and of human) is only the beginning. It can be a necessary education and de-conditioning of the mind as you learn so much about all this during the 4D phases of awakening. You learn about Archons, about Annunaki, about Draco..whatever you want to call them and see them as. Sometimes, you learn about these BEings through what feels like ‘attacks’ and lashing outs at you.

These ‘attacks’ feel like they are happening from outside of you. The whole premise of Gaia being a 3D-based ‘prison planet’ is as if it is happening from outside of you TO you by SOMETHING ELSE against your will. As if the whole scenario of your LIFE is a punishment or curse or sentence. The experience of the 3D Matrix, of Archonic activities, of being ‘attacked’, of implants, of serving a ‘sentence’….originates from inside of you and in your Metasoul Aspects too, especially your Gatekeeper. This picture is created from the ‘real to real’ projector of unfelt emotions and unprocessed karmic binds/playouts from other lifetimes. Parts of you feel like you can only watch the ‘show’ and have no control or power to change it or transform it or shift it.

In Divine timing and with Divine align, you wake up to the reality of your capacity and ability to create all of what you experience. Your focus turns lovingly inward to BE with these parts of you and to connect and unify with Metasoul/Other lifetime Aspects that are suffering. Your heart becomes the space holder for your inner heart and soul explorations. Your Inner Punisher can stop using outside proof and self sabotaging, push-pull relationship patterns to try to prove your unworthiness and push up more shame from your Inner Child and Inner Teenager. This part of you eventually transmutes to discernment with love, intuition, and wisdom that is based on self love, innocence, and self worth.

As these parts of you heal through being felt and heard and seen, you truly start to FEEL like your own creator…..even as you are opening up and awakening to a deeper connection and surrender to Divine holding and Divine guidance and Divine timing. You become empowered by the freed up frequencies of trust and self love that flood your BEing. The 3D matrix dissolves, replaced by LOVE flowing through your every loving and living cell. You are freed then. Freed to be inspired and inspire, no longer playing the game of comparison. Freed to feel compassion for yourself and others, not judgement. Freed to express your SELF, without suppression or limitation.

You are free then to realize you have always BEEN free and everything else was just an illusion to bring you back to YOU again. And, back to LOVE.

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These are the self LOVE grounds that we open up through our SoulFullHeart process and weekly sessions with SoulFullHeart facilitators. I work with women over 30 and have some slots left in my weekly schedule still if you are interested/drawn to working with me. And, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna too! soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

More about parts such as the Inner Punisher, Inner Protector/Gatekeeper, Inner Child, etc.: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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Love Is A Feeling

Published on by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

How cool would it be to know what to get yourself for Christmas this year. Something you’d cherish. Something you can afford. Something that brought real joy!

But what?

There’s material things that would be desirable for sure, but they’re not in the budget at the moment (if the size of your desires are anything like mine). There’s social connections you’d like to have, but often, even in physical presence with someone, the desired heart and soul connection that you long for has never been reachable.

The deeper QUESTion is what is it about these wants that point to a deeper want? Then when you ask that question, you find very quickly that parts of you want different things, often opposite things.

Talk about a hard person to shop for!

There is though one thing underneath it all that is the perfect thing. What every different part of you is feeling underneath their desire for something, or some experience is an unfelt feeling. Even these parts of you who feels this way hasn’t yet had space inside of themselves to feel what they feel.

Here’s where you come in. When you can feel what a part of you is feeling, as they are feeling it, you just cracked the code on Christmas shopping. You cracked the code on gift giving. You cracked the code on love. This is what is felt when you receive the perfect gift.

You feel felt. A part of you feels felt.

Love is a feeling. And there’s no one more fitting to receive this gift from, but from you. From you, to you.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Going Yin: Exploring Authentic Sacred Gender Expression

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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I have been on an inner quest this life to feel what authentic emoto-spiritual masculinity truly looks and feels like.  It is what I have called Sacred or Divine Masculine for lack of a better term. I feel a part of me as well in this exploration and question. In my essence, my masculinity is just what IS. It has no delineation. In my psyche, it is an archetype that has many colors and flavors. In my experience, it has shades of healing and trauma.

Through my own personal HIStory, I can feel how my 3D self has been on this quest to get his balls back. The ones he gave up so readily to an angry father, too afraid to stand up and fight back. The ones he gave over to mom for protection and valuation.  It was holding back authenticity in the name of fear and care-taking. It was the need to forsake sovereignty in the name of unconditional love.  But the love was always conditional. On both sides. It was the desire to feel the passion of life and true love unabated.

This quest for reclaiming inner authority, sovereignty, and passion ultimately led to worth. What is a man’s worth in this world? Fused to a more 3D existence it is chock-full of all sorts of ‘this and thats’. Most of which have nothing to do with our own felt sense of inner worth. This is where I was led to seeking love outside of me for assurance and insurance. Insurance against the void and the inner punisher within.

I was not raised religious but found a solace in the idea of a God that had a desire to love me and help fix me. Help feel like I was worth something. This God would be like a father and a mother both to my emotional body.  A part of me related to women as a means to feel what I thought it was to be masculine. They were goddesses to my wounded teenager. A ping ponging of the spiritual and the physical without bridging the two.

As a began my inner journey of parts work I could feel the myriad inner aspects of myself that held so much trauma and templating from my family, while feeling rage and compassion both. I could begin to feel what MY masculinity was and wasn’t. I had projected so much of an ideal onto what masculinity was based on my own this-life experience.

Add on top of that exploring metasoul, or other lifetime aspects, and a world of wounded masculine comes into view.  What it IS is really not the question anymore but what it is not. And that is always up for experiential debate as I live into a sacred romance inside myself and with a woman on a sacred feminine path.

Thus the quest continues as an unfolding of not something to live up to, as a part of me has always related to it, but of a moment to moment, day to day, conscious meditation into what is arising within the emotional body for expression, and felt exploration. What is being reflected by the feminine within and in relationship. This is personal to each individual, yet also has many similar themes and desires.  Beyond our gender healing there is a unification and a sacred dance that feels delicious and magical in what it means to BE in our authentic sacred human expression.

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Tomorrow in our SoulFullHeart Group call we will be talking about the sacred union codes being offered up through both the Sun and the Moon. The union of the feminine and the masculine within and in sacred romance. The sacred feminine energy being held by Magdelena and the sacred masculine by Christiel in the meditation Kalayna Colibri and I will be writing together. Go to https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524/ for more information.

 
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Elbow Deep In Finger Paint!

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

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By Raphael Awen

You may be feeling quite advanced in consciousness, from where you once were, or in comparison to others, but in another way, even the most enlightened among us are all a bunch of kindergarteners, playing with crayons and elbow deep in finger paint!

Which is pretty cool as kindergarten was always the funnest part of school.

We are about to take another big collective consciousness trip, through a piece of space and time known by the numerical name as two, zero, one, eight, or two thousand, one hundred and eighteen.

Be sure to get that right because it’s an address, and we want to remain on the same page, and not get lost, …or…, do we?

Maybe we want to go in the other direction and minus a year, call it 2016, but wait, we can’t do that. We’re in a very crowded corridor of people moving in one direction. Looks like we’re going where everyone else is going.

But if we could open our consciousness out of this main stream, we could go anywhere our consciousness wants to take us! I hear my guides gently telling me this and it feels not so gentle at times as well.

‘It is consciousness itself that is moving time and space ITSELF and it is the shared buy-in of all of us that makes it seem all too real’ they tell me.

But real is completely made up. Real is the right of Royals to decree as they choose.

Even consciousness itself is made up, and it in turn makes everything else up, and so we, as consciousness itself are left not being able to see the forest for the trees, or like the fish who doesn’t have much reference for water. Left in our fog and insecurity, it just feels good for now to settle for the safety of making up the same stuff everyone else is making up.

Will 2018 be a year of great change you ask, and if so how?

Your question, which is a bit low on quest, is about where the main stream is going and seeing yourself as limited to that. Okay, in one way, that’s valid as where the main stream goes, does open out some breathing space for our shared collective consciousness that affects each of us, but you are a sovereign ‘individual’ – a duality that can’t be divided. You get to go where you want to, when you want to. A reality and royalty both.

Your duality is like an anti gravity device that makes your own space travel and time travel possible. You are not as tethered to the collective 3D gravitational reality as you think you are. Your wounds are your portals to your essence, that you never lost, but that just got a bit hung up in the door upon entering this domain.

2018 can literally take you wherever you want to go.

The conditioned mind brings up protests like ‘if that were true, I’d long be somewhere else right now,’ while the heart is asking you to feel an invitation into a new possible reality, one that you will create, one that you can walk into, one step at a time, feeling all there is to feel at every step.

Your Higher Self chose this journey through space and time, a very weird and altered reality, to your essence, and the weirdest thing about it all is how graduated and gradual it is. It all arises in a reality of steps. You step through space and you step through time – weird freakin’ stuff man! The whole intention, however, wasn’t a reduction of your essence, but an expansion on it! You didn’t fall from grace, as our religions once taught us, as well intentioned as they were at the time, you fell into grace! This is the phase step of the new religion knocking on our door Now.

Asking about what will change in the external is a question void of the awareness of how even this question itself is shaping a reality for you, seeing yourself as a victim of life, shaped by life, rather than seeing how you are shaping life, right now.

Life is asking what you will change this next year. Life is waiting on you. You’re the deal here.

All the gravitational pull of the entire too familiar 3D reality isn’t enough to hold you back from your creation, It’s actually a necessary part of your creation, part of your navigation and maneuverability through time and space.

Stepped out in your consciousness are veritable time capsules of your being; stored so beautifully in your psyche; the emotional aspects of you that formed in reaction to human life. These reactions, these wounds, if you will, wounds from the trauma of entering this reality, as a culture shocked foreigner having come from another reality are virtual portals back to this essence. If part of you freeze framed in reaction to entering here, that means that part of you holds what it held at the moment of trauma, and that goodness needs your help to get through the door. It’s still there, as intact as it ever was.

Go back and take THAT through the door and see what life looks and feels like on the other side of that door. When your done with one door, go on to the next.

I’m gonna pause now, as I’m all out of finger paint for the moment…, I think it’s nap time. 🙂

Raphael Awen
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Energies Offer Deeper Connection To Masculine/Feminine Healing Within

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by Kalayna Colibri with Magdalena

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Painting: ‘Sacred Union‘ by Deanne Wolfgram

Ah, these energies of dancing, loving and WARM union and rediscovery of the truly sacred masculine and feminine within… that always finds its way to overflow once it has been deeply and earnestly dived into. This is alchemy, this dance of one WITH the other, acknowledgment of the places both have taken inside of you and where their wounded expressions need to be felt and held space for. There is much that this dance of love in body, heart, soul and mind, ALL, want to bring to you, through you, with you.

I’ve been feeling strongly the connection of Magdalena and Christiel in the last couple of days. I have especially been feeling Magdalena energy coming in to be with me, bake with me in her frequencies that smell like sandalwood and lavender, and feel like a warm spring sun bringing food and life to the creations it shines on. She is a light in the heart of all women and men. She brings with her the true spirit of Tantra, the sensuality of a woman in love with herself in all ways, sharing her love body, her love soul, her love heart, her love mind with her mate. She expects no perfection, for the greatest works of art are the ones often not seen as ‘art’ at first. She teaches us of true feminine unity and healing. What it means to really go inward, to heal to the far reaches of your deepest heart pain, to TRULY let go of competition with or dislike of other women by feeling the layers of why these feelings have been needed. She advocates for the inward and outward phases, both, encouraging your overflow of self love to be shared.

I feel her imbibing my words and my energy these days, as I deepen my connection with her through my process, from the heart UP. I feel Christiel as well, as they are an intimate package to be with and one is never very far from the other, it seems. They offer that our deepest healing surprises come from feeling polarity dances of wounded yet perhaps healing masculine and feminine frequencies inside of each of us. Without counterpart vibrations consciously making music within our hearts and souls, the depths of potential healing stays only as potential.

I feel Magdalena offering directly,

“Beautiful beloved heart and soul, you are… so many of us say this to you through others who are channels for our messages and offer distortions at times too. Yet the positive comes through more often than not that is intended to make way for what is real to fill the space within. It is as important to FEEL now, as it has ever been! It is important to feel all of the aches, the desires, the clinging-on places where parts of you have been afraid to let go and eventually let in… there is so much unknown to trust, yes, and the Divine trusts your soul to navigate this, however it is meant to, in whatever timing it chooses. It is just so, in a simple way that also has many layers and explanations that actually reach far beyond words! To all of my woman hearts and souls… now is the time to deeply dive into your hearts. There is much you have learned and much you have yet to learn too. To simply be with the real, even if it feels messy, is the invitation now and always. For what is at stake is more about whether or not you would like to experience the deepest love you possibly can in this life, or if you would like to wait for another. No ‘loss’, though each may bring you sorrow, can possibly be a loss of your own forever and your own quest for and with love. When you create the space for the awakening within, your awakenings of slumbering alchemy in your life will have room to shake and quake the life you have known, bringing you, ultimately, to MORE of what you have most deeply desired.

In LOVE with YOU my sisters and brothers… Magdalena”.

If you are in a Sacred Union and can feel these energies with your partner, this is a phase to bring them sexually to each other. It is a time to create new timelines together through love making, bringing intentional space between you as the energies caress and exchange. Of course this can be done from you to you, as well, and for many of you, this is what’s necessary in this phase as you work to bring the healing opportunities that are moving you into your own highest timelines, possibly along with drawing a Sacred Union of your own. Engaging in this with Gabriel yesterday brought us both into a space of alchemy and heart-centeredness that is connecting us both to deeper places of healing within and strengthening our bond more and more as we embark on our new timeline together that is arising and emerging Now.

Feeling these energies of Magdalena and Christiel in such accessible ways is a huge gift right now and one that it feels like will keep on giving, as you keep giving to yourself by way of space-holding for what is real inside of you and parts of you. Here we go, deeper into these exquisite energies, and deeper into ourselves too! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.