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Feeling The Inner Masculine Q&A & Guided Meditation (Live Stream Video Recording)

Published on June 7, 2018June 22, 2018 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

SoulFullHeart Co-Founder, Facilitator, Teacher, and WayShower, Kalayna Colibri, held a live stream on June 5th, 2018 to share about her personal process with feeling her Inner Masculine parts and invite you to begin feeling your own, as a man or a woman. She also leads a short guided meditation to meet your Inner Masculine in whatever form or energy he is ready to be seen by you in, and answers some questions about the process of feeling your Inner Masculine.

This process is one of feeling the different ways in which your conditioning from the predominantly patriarchal culture you’ve grown up in has expressed in your life, often in strong suppression of your Inner Feminine, whether you are a man or a woman. This means suppression of your emotionality, of emotions being OK, of flowing with life without needing to try and control outcomes or only a very linear sense of how life should be or should go. The Inner Masculine expresses in the form of many different parts of you, including typically the Inner Protector, especially as a first pathway into this aspect of your being. The Inner Masculine is meant to be negotiated with though, not overridden or ‘fought’ with. There is plenty of need inside of you for the Masculine, especially in an inner Sacred Union experience with your Feminine.

For more on the Inner Masculine, parts, and Metasoul Aspects too, we have much writing on this blog! You can also visit this page on the SoulFullHeart website: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Current Energies Support Emotional Swells, Encourage Taking Space To Feel

Published on June 7, 2018June 8, 2018 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

https://youtu.be/05AqFS6vMBc

There may be much coming up, leaking through, wanting your love and attention right now. It is A LOT to feel, it is a lot hold, it is a lot to be curious about, especially during those times when your curiosity feels inaccessible. Sometimes the depths of the pain that wants and needs to surface feels like it’s going to swallow you whole. But what it really wants is to bring you back into your full wholeness. Yes, you are already whole in some ways, yet the fragmented self, the parts of you that need you, still need the space they need with YOUR open heart, to integrate into your being, to remember that they are not JUST the pain they feel or the scenes they are stuck in from this 3D lifetime or even from other soul timelines.

If pain is coming up, it’s because you’re ready for it to come up. You’ve done enough work now, that the pain and the parts that hold the pain in their reality now have the space inside your heart to make a home there. It may feel like a surprise to you, like a sudden surge of reactivity that you thought was gone and memories of what you’ve thought were timelines long gone by now too. This surprise comes as a gift… another doorway into your deeper caves within that need your exploration so that you can come out the other side even more in your bigness, with even more space in your being, in your heart, and even MORE capacity to serve love with others too.

The space you choose to take, away from social commitments, away from birth family ties, away from work perhaps too, is space that is needed for you and with you. It’s a choice to take care of what needs to be taken care of inside of you, even though your job, relationship, family may have supported you to stay above it somehow by helping you out in different ways in your life. It’s a choice to turn around and face what’s welling up, to cry the tears that are often suppressed, to feel the sometimes existential terror of being on this planet at this time. To feel into the reactions that have maybe even become normalized and expected. This is a time to be with YOU, to dedicate space to feel. And in the meantime, to lean into the Divine within and the Divine energies that want to hold you and love you up as you love yourself up from inside out.

It is not really “too much” to hold, if you just hold it all and discover it all too. Along with this comes gifts you have yet to imagine and healing at a depth you’ve yet to experience… and, the bringing back of dreams you’ve perhaps forgotten that you even had; of a life where this space for you and your parts is the ‘normal’ reality and the love flow you feel within and draw from resonant others outside of you is a part of your Heaven, your Golden/New Earth experience in the Now.

If you feel drawn to what I’m offering as a picture here and this is what’s coming up for you in your process right now too, I offer 1:1, 90min bridging sessions for women around and under the age of 35. They are very affordable at $55/each. For more info, visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Much, MUCH love,

Kalayna

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Opening Your Heart To Feel What Is REAL

Published on June 5, 2018June 5, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Open your heart to feel the pains there, the fear there, the tears there. FEELing this, letting it BE, holding yourself and parts of you in the mourning and the letting go. Opening your heart to be REAL about what your feelings are, especially the ones of unhappiness and distress over current relationships and situations in your life.

Over and over, I invite this heart opened realness in my sessions. It comes back to this so often too with every woman that I hold space for. It is really a space being held for feeling, for reconnection with the emotional body while bridging to the soul. A self permission I reflect back/mirror/offer to feel, to allow the TRUTH of your emotional reality to come up, to hold space for yourself and parts of you to FEEL.

Why does this self permission to FEEL need to be mirrored and offered over and over? Our 3D conditioning is to suppress, to numb, to cover over, to protect, to guard, to settle, to repress. Energies form inside of you (such as the Inner Protector) to block the natural and organic arising of your emotions because it is judged as TOO MUCH. So it is judged by your culture, often by your birth families, maybe even by your mates….your sensitivity is too much, your emotionality is too much, your heart breaking sense of life is too much.

Yet, actually, is it JUST RIGHT. That sensitivity is your heart porosity and your capacity to LOVE. And, as it heals from being allowed to be and flow, so it floods out more and more from healthy compassion, empathy, service with others. You can then feel what others are feeling while they are feeling it because YOU have embodied this WITH yourself and your own parts over and over.

Open your heart to feel the pains there and the joy can come into the space that is made.

Intimacy with self and other can come into the space that is made.

Vulnerability can come into the space that is made.

Love can come into the space that is made. And love can be the FEELING that flows most in most moments.

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I have some available session times next week M-F for women over 35 for a 1:1 90 minute bridging session with me for $55 USD min. donation. And my beloveds/facilitators (Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Colibri) do too if you are drawn to meet with them! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men, along with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators as well…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Energy Update: Moving Into INtegration Now and Tenderhearted Feelings

Published on May 10, 2018May 13, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

So, we are moving ‘out’ of the direct airstream SOULAR energy wind flow that we’ve been in for days now that was bringing in heightened and intense SOULar activations and geomagnetic storms too. They are still available in the atmosphere and waiting to be brought into your every living cell and emotional body and chakra vortexes. These energies were WHEW on the body and you may still be feeling the sleepiness, the flu-like symptoms of aches/pains/congestions, the dizziness/light headedness.

Now…..is the space and time for INtegration. The going within, the checking in, feeling the tears and fears that these activating UPgrades are meant to push up. Seeing and responding to the timelines from your Metasoul that connects to WHY you need the particular upgrades that you do. Soul gifts are really activating in this latest round since the beginning of the year, so notice what you can DO and BE now that you didn’t realize that you could before. To integrate a soul gift is to feel the resistance and fear that comes up (usually connected to persecution from other timelines/lifetimes and this life messages of unworthiness). To be with the part of you that relates with the soul gift and to bring love to this.

I am finding that so much is touching me deeply right now as more soul gift activations come in, like what I shared yesterday about fifth chakra/light language throat gifts. Before that, it was galactic consciousness connection at a DNA level with expanded capacity to connect with my star family at a high vibrational frequency in a way that bridges to my everyday reality. I cry even more easily now in response to kindness or loss or traumas finally being felt and released. I can more feel the world’s emotional body and its aches/pains that once mirrored my own.

The tears feel like Mother Mary’s unwavering compassion, Dark Mother/Pele/Kali’s uncompromising death/rebirth, Gaia’s stunning natural beauty…..these textures and tones of Divine Mother invite us to BE, to feel, to remember the softness and stillness, to remember our HEART most of all. To move into our tenderheartedness again after so much need to be protected and guarded in response to 3D.

Activation and integration can be experienced more in balance, which helps with the intensity. Feeling when activation is happening, recognizing and negotiating your life WITH it, letting go of what doesn’t support the responding to it. Feeling when INtegration is needed and holding space for it. I feel like those of us signed up to be bridges for others in this process are finding more ease, more grace, and more breathing around this ACT and IN process.

THANK YOU for the responses yesterday on this post on facebook: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen/posts/537891113278160. I am so glad that I felt guided to post even when not feeling very good. Thank you for sharing your experiences, bringing insight/resonance to me and to others reading the comments, and for your appreciation as well.

WE ARE TOGETHER on this journey….finding our way home through our hearts and souls arising into LOVE again!

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life – The Inner Punisher (Emotional Area)

Published on January 30, 2018February 8, 2018 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman

https://youtu.be/_MRi02_rfgM

In this video, SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Teachers and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, invite you to feel the tones of your Inner Punisher/Critic. This part is intense to work with, as its name implies, yet it also opens out so much more love flow within and through you, from you to you and you to others. Kalayna and Gabriel both share about their experiences of working with and healing different layers of the Inner Punisher and what they have noticed through working with and supporting healing in others too. It is sometimes the hardest part to be with, at least at first, yet they are one of the parts that needs the MOST love!

In many ways, we are raised by the Inner Punisher and its frequencies in our caregivers/parents and other authority figures that we lean into growing up. This is a part that energizes much criticism inside of you towards parts of you, yet also towards others. As it heals, so does the energy with which your intuition and discernment comes as well. This part is a critical one to work with as a healer or ‘lightworker’, as its energies can very often leak out in unconscious ways towards those who you actually desire to support in their own healing. Feeling this part means feeling the often shadowy conditioning you were raised with and that has become naturalized in your life and culture. The other side of this process leads ultimately to deeper, more profound love and self-acceptance and a keen discernment about life that comes from love instead of fear. The many layers of the Inner Punisher that you would feel in your SoulFullHeart process are all worth it, as you begin to feel your genuine worth and love flow in a much bigger way than you would have otherwise!

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here on the blog, on the Youtube video comment thread, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Current Energies Invite The Collective Into An Emerging 4D Reality

Published on January 24, 2018January 26, 2018 by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

Earth-Magnetic-Field

https://youtu.be/fuMQXzaK97c

It feels like there is much discomfort emerging now, in different ways. There is a sense of these energies leading up to the Super-Blue-Blood Moon, that they are rumbly, shaking the well-known ground within and around us, moving us to new places of desire, new places of growth, re-awakening us in short yet intense tremors to what we came here to do, be, offer. The configuration of our lives as we have known them is being shifted now, shaken up WITH these energies in collaboration with our souls and hearts. For many, it could be a time of crisis, where realizations of true soul purpose and reason for being here are uncovered and initial steps, which can be quite painful in some ways, are inhabited in order to fulfill this purpose and calling. This phase feels so like the chrysalis, as Jelelle Awen has been offering. The phase just before the emergence of a brand new butterfly. So much congestion in the bodies, spiritual, physical, emotional, even astral, are all intensifying as they clear now, and all are asking us to continue looking and working inward, wrapping ourselves and our parts in love, being in the process of letting in and trusting love again.

It’s a continuous map of birth canals, this Collective experience of 4D reality landing in all of us more and more. We need these birthing pains so that we can feel the Love holding it all. We are finding our way through the inner mazes, opening up to shifts, feeling the press of that which still needs to be felt, healed, shifted inside. We are being invited into patience with this process, as the Divine has infinite patience for it too. Layer by layer, contraction after contraction, we have so much still to feel and let in. So many reflections of ourselves, our parts, who we/parts of us have chosen to be throughout different phases of our lives, and we are awakening evermore to the feeling that there’s so much more we CAN and WILL be.

The brevity and gravity that has been 3D reality… the pain, the anguish, the abuses suffered… these bear down on parts of us until they start to feel, led by a growing YOU, that they are worth so much more. This is a much more challenging process than repeating affirmations, though I do not wish or feel to knock that if this is needed, as there is, of course, huge power in positive thoughts. Yet we all need to continue watching for any overriding of the pain within. The pain will move and heal with love and attention, as it is meant to. There is a lot of trust needed for this process to truly take hold, and that in and of itself is a process that cannot be bypassed, for there are so many reasons that parts of us have, especially our Inner Protectors, to not trust anything or anyone, let alone Love itself…

As our congestions clear in all bodies, we begin to breathe new air. We begin to let in more love, more self-worth, more sense of compassion towards ourselves, our parts, and towards others too. We move through what has been painful to feel, being with the congestion for a while, until it clears with love and care. With purpose and desire. With discernment in this 4D phase where the 3D reality continues to fall away and embracement of new paths, new ways of thinking and being are knocking at our heart doors. The collective awakening is here, rippling through in dynamic waves, and there is much to navigate, yet the Ark built in your heart is the one that will see you through it all. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Year We Loved Our Fear

Published on December 29, 2017December 29, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

“It is not freedom from fear you seek, but rather a relationship to it.”

I am in a new conversation with a soul aspect of mine that feels more closely aligned to my Higher Self. More polarized to love and light than the fear and darkness of so many of my other aspects I have had relationships with. His name is Aris and it is a shortened version of Aristotle. He has a Buddhist and Greek philosophers mind with an angelic aura. Very balanced in his guidance and does not seem to judge much about what is or isn’t true. It is all a quest of feeling and curiosity.

This has started as I have been continuing to feel an increased desire and call to out more of my leadership, authority, and embodiment as a healer, teacher, and creator. As a part of a community of healers, teachers, and creators, it can bring up some old frequencies of doubt, comparison, and unworth. “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?” as the famous quote goes. Yes….it is our deepest fear to face our Bigness. But more so our deepest fear is to feel that we are loved beyond infinite measure. That we ARE Inifinite Love. Right now, parts of me are still digesting the “I am loved” part. From me to me first, which lets in the beauty of the love from others and the Divine.

So I have this love flow that is arising INside, overflowing and circulating with my beloved soul family and beautiful sacred union mate. It is a good place to be with so many desires for more arising in all of us. Connecting with new worlds inside of us, growing the intention of vast travel and service of love to all BEings. “So what is the problem with that?!” I hear a voice in me asking.

It is not really a ‘problem’, I would say, but there does come a responsive arising of antithetical feelings that are based in fear, no matter the names I give them. I used to want to feel a freedom from my fear. To extinguish them. To live in a state of fearlessness. But I have come to learn from my experience and my guidance with Aris that Fear is a valuable and essential part of our existence. It is what we move through to feel the Love on the other side. It protects the preciousness of Love and those that are willing to feel the fear and heal it receive the gift in exchange. It is lessing the impact that our relationship to Fear has on parts of us that transmutes us into embodying more Love frequencies. This is the alchemical and transitional 4D consciousness we are going to all be moving into this coming year.

There will be many awarenesses that will come into focus as we move through these next months. Each one asking you to deeply feel your honest truth about your relationship with others, yourself, and daily life. There will be big reactions to those relationships inside of you and what the choice points are for you to feel in regards to what you are truly here to inhabit and how you get there. Feeling the fear undergirding it all is what moves you to the next places. This is where having a relationship with your fear and the parts of you that hold it come into play. Very sacred play. Your Highest Self is there holding space for it all as long as you are willing to feel it.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Emotional Body Meditation, Featuring Magdalena And Christiel

Published on December 27, 2017December 27, 2017 by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

https://youtu.be/VrPYQp6xrzQ

I created this meditation in an effort to help you connect with yourself, perhaps in a way you haven’t yet or perhaps, at least, not very often. I find that so many need this bridging to the emotional body, to the parts of them that are in pain and need, to these places and landscapes within that have been suppressed, often out of necessity, and that now need to be uncovered. Our deepest healing IS offered through access to our emotional bodies, and this healing not only works as far as helping us heal our humanity, but it also helps us bridge to, understand and HEAL our sense of spirituality as well.

This meditation arose rather spontaneously for me one afternoon here in Mexico, while listening to the music you’ll hear playing in the background of the voice track. I found myself in a deep Yin space with Magdalena and it felt like she and Christiel wanted me to simply start recording away, speaking whatever came to my heart and sharing the images I saw with all of you.

I sincerely hope that this reaches those it needs to, that will benefit most from it.

For more support along your emotional and spiritual healing journey, and especially with what you may uncover and feel (or not, as the case may be with parts that aren’t quite ready to come out yet!) during this meditation, please visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information and to feel into having a free 30min intro session with one of us!

LOVE to you!

Kalayna ~

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Poem: This Vessel I Call ‘Me’

Published on December 26, 2017December 26, 2017 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

Every new relationship of every level of depth,
offers me a new mirror,
offers me a new place to go,
offers me much to feel,
even if only for a few moments before the need passes.

Every new place I go in my inner geography,
brings me to a new outer place,
brings me to a new sense of everything,
brings me home to myself in a deeper way,
even if the journey was no longer than 5 minutes.

Every connection place
in my unique sense of time
and timing,
happens in dimensions within,
with-out,
and with you.

All of the journeying,
all of the play,
all of the challenges,
are here and not here, but in here.

This vessel of a body that I call my home,
is the unique one given to me
for this purpose of adventuring,
and for so long,
far too “long”
(though time, in essence, cannot really be measured),
parts of me have held it as something to be tamed
when really, all they need,
is to learn to embrace it as an opportunity.

This life is an opportunity. This skin is the vortex. And this heart is the engine that keeps it all in perspective, moving forward, finding those relationships, both inward and outward, that make me dance in this rainbow of enriching imperfect-ness. For being-ness is what I can’t run away from, and loving-ness is what I strive for, hide longing for, and fly away in joy for. Love… is the essence, the beginning and the end. And the circle that encompasses each fraction of the void between alive and dead, surrounded and alone, grounded and soaring.

I cannot ever master what I feel.
But I can move forward more into my sacred humanity,
to embrace all that I am,
all that I have been,
and all I ever will be…

…Love… in fleshy, warm, human form.

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Moving From Anxiety To Trust And Surrender

Published on December 14, 2017December 14, 2017 by Jelelle Awen7 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

What seems to be UP for healing in this now is the distrust that LIVES in parts of us that really have very little reason to trust life, us, others in relationships, or the Divine. This distrust expresses as anxiety, sometimes so acute as to make it difficult to even BE in life and be social with others. Definitely making it challenging to let in and receive love.

Feeling this kind of anxiety is not a ‘disorder’, not something to be medicated with the latest pharma drugs. (same with depression, what is labelled as ‘bipolar’, etc. etc.) This distrust is rooted in the emotional body, the 3D Self aspects such as the Protector who HAD to come in when you were born here and create a shield to protect you from the harsh energies around and surrounding you. This protection was formed, to some degree, out of a distrust that you would actually be safe in 3D if you remained vulnerable, unexposed, innocent, pure…which is highly likely that you wouldn’t have been. This protection couldn’t prevent ALL harm from happening as your soul signed up to grow and to learn. The Protector can feel so guilty about this, like he/she failed you and the precious ones inside you that it feels like it was supposed to protect from all harm. The distrust can come from this place of guilt too. More about the Protector here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Distrust also stems from existential, soul roots too. Can be deep in the Metasoul timelines and lifetimes where betrayal and persecution and backstabbing are so common. You have Metasoul Aspects that are living these scenarios out in the now (not past at all, not ancient at all.) The energetic karma trauma created from the playouts of this distrust can run deep. It can greatly impact your romantic relationships especially as wounded masculine expressions create ‘no go’ zones related to intimacy, sexuality, and sacred union.

The aspect of your Metasoul that is in charge with guarding and keeping the veils in place until there is enough YOU there to handle the remembering is what we call the Gatekeeper. This Metasoul Aspect often has deep layers of distrust in the Divine especially, who it feels has left it, abandoned it, and given it a near impossible mission to protect you (and the other Metasoul aspects) in difficult densities. Even if you feel a trust in the Divine, this Aspect may not at all, which can be interesting to feel how this polarity lives inside. More about the Gatekeeper here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

The Divine Feminine is here to hold space for these masculine aspects to begin to rest. To infuse you with feminine compassion for these energies and what they have so vigilantly DONE and BEEN for you. Inner negotiation opens up as you become ambassador to all these aspects of yourself, supported by the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine too. You become loving witness to their distrust, understanding and feeling the reasons why.

Distrust can be moved to trust with love and by love. What previously felt like resistance and fear moves into acceptance and surrender. What was before shut down, now opens UP to receive LOTS more love!

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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