Category: Sacred Human / New 5D Human

Choosing A Sovereign New Earth Domain

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In my last session with my facilitator and mentor, Raphael Awen, I found myself at the gates of what parts of me refer to as ‘The System’. In its basic form it is the Institution of Authority (administered by the captive reptilian race that is inextricably entwined with us). The rules, norms, and programs set in place by alleged ‘experts’ and ‘elected’ officials to manage, manipulate, control, and confine our innate, co-creative God self. 

I realized in the juxtaposition of my God self, my reptilian, and this System, that we have been, and still are, willing participants in this arrangement. If I truly feel myself as a spark of Universal Creation, then I have to be willing to accept that I have been in cahoots with this dynamic. Otherwise, I am just a disempowered victim and my only freedom exists from either joining the System or battling It (and thus, my reptilian self), or choosing to suffer in it. Neither of which feels appealing or at all a reflection of my desire to be truly free, sovereign, and in Love. 

In the process, I realized how much I, and parts of me, have accepted the ‘rules’ as such. What if I choose not to lend my energy to the Institutionalized Consciousness, but to give it thanks for what it did offer me, like a parent who raised me for a certain portion of my life, and now choosing emancipation and sovereignty? Can I do that? 

Well, energetically, why the hell not? I can transport myself and my conditioned parts into a new world where there is no virus, no fiat currency, no taxes, lawyers, licensure, registrations, or documents to be signed, sealed, and delivered. I can freely travel there without a ‘valid form of identification’. I can seed that into my consciousness and let it find its way into this ‘physical’ reality the more I feel the parts of me that are skeptical and in doubt. 

The biggest thing to feel is what the hell would I do without those constraints? Is that the biggest fear? Of actually being so damn free that I could actually live and love in abundance and not just ‘dream’ about it? Fuck yeah, man! I choose to believe in that. Matter of fact, science is proving that to be the very case! So while that world is not staring at me square in the face, it does in my heart and my soul. That energy of feeling free is the seed of BEing free. I am under no illusion it will take time to manifest. But the more I continue to say “thanks, but no thanks” to the outer authority, institution, and systems, then I continue to break those chains that keep me and It locked in this dance. 

So, I face the System within. I look square at it. I give it gratitude and appreciation for all that it offered and taught me about myself. Now it is time to do this thing MY way. One felt, conscious step at a time.

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Gabriel Heartman is a Facilitant and Collaborator with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Consciously Becoming A ‘Love Ambassador’

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by Kalayna Solais

To become your ‘Love Ambassador self’ is more than just an intention, though that is a beautiful seed to start off with. It’s a real invitation to embody compassion and empathy. It’s deeper than diplomacy. It’s deeper than simply claiming that you love everything and everyone. It’s a true and deep staircase into the depths of shadow and the heights of Divine love.

To become an ‘ambassador’ is to see and feel your next steps become clearer for this embodiment picture… to be willing to see, feel, experience, and come to know your own shadow so that you can support others in their own explorations. To this same depth, the steps of being able to go higher, to see the bigger, meta-picture of what’s REALLY going on and the Divine glue that’s holding it all together, are just as alive and deeply necessary.

You become through all of this a link, a connection, a bridge between aspects of your own soul, parts of you, parts and aspects of others around you and especially those who come to you for space holding, feeling your experiences and your embodied capacity for compassion.

This is a Divinely appointed leadership that cannot be trained or certified, only lived into and loved with all your heart and soul as you awaken to the desire to become this, as you feel how much you want to move every aspect and part of you beyond polarity and heal any need inside to still experience that as your primary reality. You’re a work in progress, always, and there’s always more to explore, but it’s your integrity in doing this that makes you a Love Ambassador… not perfection.

As we continue to walk out these challenging times on all dimensions and depths of consciousness, the call to become this ‘Love Ambassador self’ is undeniable and also becoming more and more necessary to answer! I myself find the daily challenge of feeling reactions and learning what I need personally in order to find this deeper embodiment to be an enlivening but also sobering process. I feel clarity come in about next steps and what there is to feel through as well as pictures, images, energetic impressions of who I most want to become from the inside, out. I imagine this is similar for everyone on this planet whose soul is choosing to awaken at this time!

We’re in the middle of becoming a planet full of Love Ambassadors, each with our own signature coming straight from our Divinely beautiful and healing souls… even through the messiness of the ongoing process.

Much love,
Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Unplugging From The 4D Matrix Group Call Today!

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by Jelelle Awen

The 3D/4D Matrix is collapsing. The prison doors have been unlocked and are now OPEN. We truly are now FREE!! Still time to join us today live at 10:00am PDT during our weekly group call over Zoom for an important piece of teaching and next level/cutting edge working on the Ascension journey.
I don’t know of anyone else teaching this process in this way or with this ambassador of love energy around it. We will be sharing about the collapsing of the 3D/4D Matrix that is going on with this Coronavirus event, the Reptilian self entwinement at the 4D level and need for mutual liberation, and the ‘Programmers’/Archonic Group that is now letting both species ‘go to be free.’

We will offer a guided meditation for you to connect to your Reptilian Self and help them to unplug from the programming, which allows YOU to unplug and deprogram at a deeper level too! Yeshua and Magdalenes will serve as Divine bridges to bring them into a higher frequency space of liberation and recovery.

You can join us by offering any amount of donation as an energy exchange here: soulfullheart.org/shop or here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

More info here about the series: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

We will send you the recordings to the previous four group calls in this series so you don’t need have attended them to come to this one. You will also receive the recording of this call today too if you can’t join us live!

love,
Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia: An Earth Day Poem

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by Kalayna Solais

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I sit by Your trees, Your streams, and I feel the strength in Your beauty
How You hold space for ALL, for everyone, for everything
As it moves and lives and ascends with YOU…
As you patiently wait for us to notice more
So we can take ourselves in more.
Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I gaze at Your creatures in wonder, in communication, in awe of each move they make
And the peace they hold in their uniqueness, never faltering in self-consciousness.
I feel the density You are lifting with each breath of Your sacred lungs
Ready to help us respirate, let in, the NEW air.
I feel how much You hold so effortlessly yet with so much care and space
How even if some beings truly tried, there is no destroying You
Only destroying themselves
And even then
It’s a death and rebirth
Another sobering aspect of Your many sacred cycles
That often cannot be avoided.
Yet, even in these darkest hours
Your beauty offers grace and solace
Places to meditate
Invitations to feel and feel held in feeling
And ways to remember
That it’s all moving, circling from death back to life
As the dead and dying water and fertilize the seeds of the NEW.

For everything You hold space for
For all of Your grace and space
Thank YOU… today and every day.

Love,
Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Feel Yourself To Free Yourself

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I am still. I create stillness in the storm. The mental and emotive energetic swirls dance around me. I am them and not them at the same time. I cannot just be one or the other. It is what makes me human to be both. I learn from each state of action and inaction. 

Which of these swirls are mine? Which are yours? Which are theirs? Without the stillness it is hard to discern. With each breath I seek feeling. My doorway to what is real for me. This comes first. The desire. The anxiety. The fear. The doubt. The passion. The anger. The joy and the love. 

These are the Akashic records of my humanity. They are my portals to this and other lives. They are my barometers and my heart rails. I have grown to own them, to meet them, and get to the root of them. It is digging in the soil and getting dirty in the darkness. I am transported to worlds that are in turmoil and worlds that are majestic. 

Freedom is not an external combination lock. It is not the completion of an If/Then statement. No one person or action can free you from yourself. You may get relief, but you will not get You. The You that is underneath all of those wounds a part of you holds so dear. It is in those wounds that your sacred self is born and bred.

Seek the stillness. Seek the energy that make up your selves stored in your cells. This is their prison. Not the conditions and circumstances you find yourself in. You are the lock and the key. Feel yourself to free yourself. 

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Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the next Free To Be group call this Wednesday at 10am PST. These are catalytic and self-informative experiences that help support you in your current journey during these evolving times. More info at www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe.

One to one bridging sessions into the SoulFullHeart process are available by Raphael Awen and Kalayna Solais. Go to www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

New Earth Energies Invite Bringing Amnesty To All Darkness/Polarities

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by Kalayna Solais

I remember when I was a child, I would watch movies with ‘bad guys’ in them and be looking constantly for signs of them turning ‘good’ or showing signs that they weren’t ALL ‘bad’. I preferred movies where the ‘villain’ found redemption and amnesty over movies where they would be killed or destroyed. As I think about this, I’m realizing how this was my Love Ambassador switching on at a young age and to this day, it’s still hard to watch anyone who has done ‘wrong’ be destroyed or killed. I think that for this life at least when it comes to finding entertainment in watching ‘evil’ get vanquished, my soul decided ‘enough is enough’ and it doesn’t entertain in the same ways that it likely did in other lifetimes.

That’s not to say that sometimes a ‘morbid curiosity’ doesn’t come over me, but that feels like my Lower 4D orientation in many Metasoul aspects in other timelines/lifetimes and also my ‘Death Doula’ coming online, who can be around death all the while knowing and trusting fully in the rebirth process that comes of it.

I suppose that’s what it could all boil down to, then… the Love Ambassador inside of each of us is also a ‘Death Doula’ who is not afraid of darkness but is instead willing to trust the process of giving it space to unfold in a HELD way. Meaning, it’s not going to overrun the light inside, but will still be given a voice and a place to be felt in the heart. Darkness needs light and light needs darkness for balance and to create an understanding and compassionate world.

There is still a very strong narrative playing out right now of light dispelling darkness. Yet, darkness cannot be destroyed. Your own darkness cannot be destroyed. It needs room to be felt and understood, a chance to make its case and be heard. Those in our world who have chosen to be Satanists are showing a polarity that exists inside of each of us. In some ways, it’s no different than judging narcissists as an empath, or even women judging men/men judging women, etc.

Something powerful happens when we choose to feel the parts of us that are afraid of these polarities and of feeling how they live inside of each of us in this life and other lifetimes. What happens is often that we realize there’s nothing to be afraid of, but a whole lot to bring love to. We realize that there’s nothing to vanquish but a lot of pain to feel. We realize that the Divine has already forgiven every single bit of harm caused to ourselves and others and that the key to letting this in isn’t contrition or punishment in any form, but instead in realizing the reasons for it all. This helps us find the remorse in our hearts and souls. This helps us find those tears of remembrance of Divine love and holding. This helps us open our hearts back up again, feeling Divine support for our explorations of these polarities and an understanding of why we’ve needed to do this.

I don’t feel like New Earth is shaping up to be a reality where all darkness is simply ‘gone from this earth’, moving on to another dimension to work out its ‘stuff’. I feel like it’s all needing a process of integration and amnesty, starting within. The movie Dark Crystal was ALWAYS onto something here… and in the book Prism of Lyra, we see this theme as well, of polarities becoming separate when they are really needing to come back together as one once again, BUT, in a NEW way that honours what both have learned on their sacred journeys of being separate from one another.

I feel this invitation every day, to feel and heal the polarities within so that I can take every single part and Metasoul aspect with me into the new. I feel this invitation always going out to the collective too, to every single soul, waiting for the moment when it can truly land. This could be a very long process, yet, my Love Ambassador trusts the playout and the timing and that this is where we’re all heading.  It’s up to us how long this journey takes, but it IS moving and in another way, it’s already completed and we’re just trying to catch up to that reality!

Much love to you and every expression of your awakening Love Ambassador too. ❤

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Freeing The Inner Masculine From Enslavement To Joyful Embodiment

Published on by Gabriel Amara1 Comment

The Inner Masculine journey of healing is ongoing. Getting to know mine more and more each day has been a gift for both of us. Some days he feels light and airy, other days things just start to pile up one right after another. After having another session with Raphael a couple of days ago, we felt with my Inner Masculine how tired and in fear he has been most of this life. These feelings have been assuaged by lots of problem solving, working, busyness, and information gathering. Sex may have been the one thing that brought any relief, even if that feeling was short-lived.

As we continued to feel with my Inner Masculine, Raphael asked him what would be his ultimate expression if all of those overlording conditions were not present. His response was simply ‘Joy’. Unadulterated joy. That and unending acts of creation and service to others. Joy is a frequency that has been an elusive state of being most of my life. I have felt happy, content, and joyful in moments both short and long-term, but to really have an anchor in a Joy state while still feeling what is real in all moments, seems almost like a pipe dream to him.

What is authentic and genuine Joy as a core place rather than some elusive response based on external conditions? “Your guess is as good as mine!”, he wants to say. Yet there is a very visceral desire and awareness that this state does, in fact, exist. It is being broadcast by my Higher Self and the Divine. So he senses the home frequency, he just hasn’t been able to leave his country of condition to land in his country of origin.

As a tap into my Metasoul around this, as I did on the last SoulFullHeart Free To Be call, I can feel an enslavement consciousness, whereby I can see and feel both the slave holder and the slave. Both are actually held in tyranny. One on the outside and the other from within. The consciousness prevails over both. As the slave holder could feel this, he realized how this energy is a self-fulfilling loop and nobody gets anywhere from it. It is the proverbial self-made prison we create and we are given plenty of evidence that this is alive and well from the outside world.

The masculine has been in such darkness for so long. There is such a passionate desire to break those energetic chains and its punishing consciousness. To raise the sword of our power and cut those chains from within and release the enslavement into enheartenment. Release the Inner Child and the Inner Feminine so they can lead this masculine into the promised land of Joy, Abundance, and Service with Love. That is the daily ‘work’. That is the place where true alchemy can manifest our heaven on earth from within.

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You can still join us for our ongoing six week group call series Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix to New Earth Transition. Our next group call is this Wednesday, April 22nd at 10:00am PDT in which we will discuss navigating relationships during this time, including sharings about the Inner Punisher and meditation to connect to your current relationships and shift to 5D sense of them. You can receive the recordings of any group calls you may have missed and the zoom link to join future ones at any time by open donation. There is more info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

‘Sacred Sisterhood’ Is Emerging More As Part Of ‘New/5D Earth’ Transition

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by Kalayna Solais

I wrote down some feelings of Sacred Sisterhood a few months ago when a new wave of ‘sacred sisters’ was just emerging onto my shores, in my heart and soul field, and in the flesh no less! This was not just about my growing INNER sisterhood, though that is always deepening and being felt more and more… this was about feeling the resonance of other women around my age and beyond that too, feeling us coming together more in realness, uniqueness, yet also a desire to heal and be healed and not leave any part of us or Metasoul aspect behind in the process.

I’m feeling something today about women learning to actually see each other and love each other deeply and how this seems to be happening within my beloved SoulFullHeart community and possibly elsewhere too. There is something to be said for the ‘restriction’ of not being able to go outward and do many outward things right now and feeling, then, the new portals to going inward – going YINward – that I feel is helping us all go to our next levels of feeling why we’ve had a hard time holding deeper friendships and being with other women as women. We’ve been invited to continue the journey of looking within and seeing each other as sacred mirrors of the continued inner work. We’ve been invited to feel the triggers yet actually find some stillness around them too, feeling the parts and Metasoul aspects in other timelines where they could be coming from, which then leads to a more open heart towards each other.

I hear women claiming ‘realness’ when they’re being harsh and even abusive, fusing to their Inner Punishers or other energies in their soul timelines and lashing out as a way to off-gas what actually isn’t about the other person at all. I hear women claim ‘Well, I am just direct and blunt’ when I can’t feel how this directness has heart or care in it for the other person. When I hear words like these, I can feel their Inner Matriarch who is in pain about never being met with actual realness, vulnerability, and care themselves and quite often they’ve also taken in these abusive frequencies, even from the maternal line in their birth families. Underneath this is often a pain of being the biggest soul in the room, who hasn’t ever felt truly initiated into their soul gifts or deeply seen for them either. It’s also an energy that covers over the more vulnerable energies and parts inside that just want to love and want the battles to be over so they can play and connect more with others, like with the Inner Child or even the Teenager once she has finally had some air.

In my deepening relationships with women in my life who have been very consciously working and feeling all this and more within themselves, what becomes new is the way in which it can all be shared… all the nuances of feelings and reactions. These parts don’t have to be any less ‘real’ or even more vulnerable and open than they’re ready for yet, yet they do get to be held now and seen in a new way, acknowledging that these energies they hold that often feel competitive and push away at the deeper love and intimacy that’s possible are NOT their whole story or all that they have within them.

I’ve been so pleasantly surprised (and not!) to feel how much deeper my relationships with these other women can go once we have done the work to be able to hold realness, feel reactions, share them, and also acknowledge the impact of this in every moment. The result of these exchanges is more love, not less, that gets to be shared; more seeing of each other and each other’s uniqueness and gifts; more compassion than was transactable between us before, for now we know more about each other’s backgrounds, stories, and ongoing processes.

This, to me, is a sacred template emerging for Sacred Sisterhood. It’s always in exploration. There are no rules and sometimes messes are made. Abuse is a thing of the past, though sometimes exchanges are intense if necessary. There’s a personal sense of accountability for your own energies and process and there’s a desire to be transparent and deepen the intimacy ground.

This all feels to me like the new ground going forward that’s possible in ALL relationships of all kinds if the time and space are taken to go inward, to lean into work such as this, to dig into those deeper wounds and find gold, and to begin, ultimately, to seed the ground of what New Earth/Golden Earth/5D Earth relationships get to look and feel like! There can only be BLISS as this moves and deepens our healing and the yield of 5D Earth/Sacred Human consciousness within you and in your relationships makes it all worth it. The practice ground for this is always within, yet when these sacred friendships emerge on your radar, this is a chance to really apply all you’ve realized and seek out all you’ve most wanted to experience but were afraid to ask for with another.

Much love!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

Letting In A New World Order Of Love

Published on by Gabriel Amara3 Comments

Two worlds are taking up the same space at the same time. Hell, there are infinite worlds doing that but I feel to keep it simple. These two worlds have an order to them. One is centered on control and fear. The other, on abundance and love. Then there is the space between. The space a lot of us are in right now that can cause quite a bit of a roller coaster feeling.

These New World Orders are not in conflict with each other. They know themselves pretty well. The conflict arises when choosing which one to subscribe to or heal from. When my Inner Protector/Masculine looks out into the external world, he can find lots of evidence that the ‘negative’ Order is in full force ready to take its game to the next level. He is also connected quite intimately to my Reptilian self that has been very much a part of this Archonic world order.

Connecting this morning with these aspects of myself I could feel how hard it is for them to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes. They are getting better. It takes time to turn a ship whose inertia (conditioning) has created a consciousness that lends itself to unworth and fear. The fear, at its core, was not actually about being controlled or a loss of freedom, rather it was a fear of not being able to let in love.

Now that is a new direction! What paves the way to this New World of Love and Abundance is feeling every damn thing that keeps me from letting in this world. It is not waiting for a news conference or an act of Congress, but my own self-empowered, God-given choice to feel! I don’t create New Earth, I LET…IT…IN! It is already here and has always been here. Yet we all have programming and trauma to attend to that are like bricks in the wall between here and there.

This is found by digging in the dirt, not in the news. A part of me may get some sense of hope that the world is changing but if I don’t heal the very thing that co-created this gong show then it will just go right back and then these parts of me will have all the evidence they needed to say “I told you so.”

They need me to show up every damn day. They need a space to express and a space to feel. This removes one more brick in the wall and a clearer picture of what is right in front of me. A kingdom of heaven. One that exists in every single one of us. But it takes work and it takes patient persistence. Feeling can hurt like a mother, but not feeling is its own hell. Having space held is not a weakness, it is a self-loving choice to let go of all the things that keep you free and keep you from Love.

New Earth is here. We just need to claim it by feeling why it’s not.

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Stewarding Your Future Self Through Feeling

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

‘You can have whatever you want, if you’re willing to really let the want live in you, change you, move you.’

This is the message that comes to me as I tune in my future self. It’s a lot to let in, isn’t it?

Our ability as a consciousness to host both desire and despair is one of the most unique things about our being. The life each of us has at present is very much formed of our desire and our despair, often however, without our conscious awareness. Even in our sleep we are creators.

If this is true, then getting familiar and relational with both our desire and our despair is profound life altering work. It’s also the kind of work that is so good that no aspect of it really wants to be skipped over to get to the destination. It’s the journey that our soul signed up for, because it always has had and never actually lost the destination.

If that’s true, then how do we become relational with our desire and despair to the point of being a conscious creator?

It’s kind of like the disillusioned couple sitting down to have finally have the heart to heart discussion they’ve been avoiding, previously hoping would just take care of itself somehow. Simply being honest first with oneself, then being trans-‘parent’ with another parents a new reality into being. Old completions and new beginnings are allowed to flow. Using one another to stay stuck and sequestered from life let’s go.

But all this can happen inside of you – you to you. You can feel the polarized parts of yourself each holding to different desires as well as undigested despairs. You choosing this emotional exploration inside is the true leadership you’ve been waiting and wanting to inhabit for yourself. This is high level ambassador work that truly changes the life you are currently living.

If feeling this awakens your desire and despair, then I feel you can take that as a sign that your future self is wanting your attention. Your own knower knows this is true. Now it’s just a matter of responding to it.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.