Category: Emotional Body Healing

Real Love As Impassioned Advocacy

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Sometimes Real Love can feel like a bully.

Real love presses and invites with compassionate passion. It wants more of Itself to shine and be shown. When it feels that it is being hidden away, defended, or downplayed, Love goes for the cracks. The places that it can sneak under to find more of Itself to heal and flourish.

To the part of us that takes a defensive stance to being “infiltrated” in the name of self-preservation, it is just wanting what is known to stay in stasis because it is all it has ever known…even if this is suffering or crisis. So if love is advocating for itself, which lies on the other side of those walls, then Love would feel like a bully to this defended part of us.

This can only feel true if there is a bully inside that provokes that response. An experience of being punished or persecuted, either this life or others, creates a knee-jerk protective stance toward anything that feels encroaching our inner sanctum of vulnerability.

“Tough love” comes to mind when I ponder this more. Tough love has an edge to it that can be a punishing part of one person that is using this term as an excuse to off-gas abusive energy. There may be a true loving intention, but this energy can be tainted with some toxicity. If there is an experience of this within a spiritual or psychological framework, a part of you most certainly can have some reaction to when Real Love is being offered.

What is the difference? It comes down to feeling our own inner bully dynamic and how that may be being projected out and even drawing these situations. It is also about being vulnerable with the feeling of being bullied that draws out this inner energy. There is a sorting out that takes place to parcel out what is “tough” and what is “real”. Real love can be intense and may be tough to a part of us, but it is never toxic or rough. It does not pry or demand, but invites and passionately advocates.

In any authentic and safe healing space, the healer must also be in tune with their own emotional and spiritual bodies and be willing to feel and see their own “stuff” that may be a part of any advocacy or difficult love offering. This allows the protective part of the one receiving healing and guidance to feel safe and open.

This is why those of us in SoulFullHeart are always asking ourselves, and each other if where we are coming from has tinges of an energy that may feel “off” so that we can feel how that may be affecting our facilitation. As a community, it is a system of checks and balances that is about our own personal growth as well as our commitment to the most authentic healing modality out there.

If you have experienced this wound of toxic love, my heart goes out to you. I am sorry that happened. I want to invite that part of you to experience something different and possible. Something genuine and real. Something that leads you to experience a new relationship to the pain and trauma, with transparency, honesty, and heart-open advocacy.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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How Do Parts Of You Relate To ‘Process’?

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

By Kalayna Colibri

Sometimes parts of you are more used to ‘the work’ more so than the reward. And at other times, parts of you may want to skip ahead to the reward without doing ‘the work’.

Energies right now and lately have been inviting us all to feel our relationship to personal process. Is the tendency to hold it with self-punishing energies and an intensity that often feels heavy, or is there a frequency of looking at the processes of others, wishing to only be where they are now without having to walk out your own steps?

I feel like one of the most challenging pieces here is self-embracement, which translates to a seeing and feeling of your parts on all levels. Sometimes Metasoul timeline bleedthroughs happen too, adding an existential element to all of this… and when you add that with some conditioning that love and deep inner healing and movements cannot happen without shame spirals and long-lasting phases of deep suffering and pain, then you have the perfect cocktail for parts of you to try and avoid process altogether.

The invitation to feel and heal is one that allows for all of this and more to come up, held by love. It’s an invitation into a more yin-feeling space of embracing instead of stifling and encouraging healing within instead of forcing it, much like a mother who is encouraging her child to start walking.

Learning to relate to your healing process differently is as important as the healing itself… it’s the choice of the sort of womb you’d like to bake in before your continual rebirth into someone new, even if these shifts feel subtle in the moment.

Much love to you as your journey unfolds with feeling all of this and so much more… and as you continue your own embracement of your process in these newly emerging ways from within. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Guided Meditation: Meet & Love Your Inner Punisher

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by Gabriel Heartman

One of the most difficult aspects of our healing can be coming to terms with our ‘Inner Punisher’ voice or what is frequently referred to as the ‘Inner Critic’. This voice is the one that keeps other parts of you in a state of guilt and smallness. There is a very good reason for it and it is usually used as a protection to keep you from getting hurt, as ironic as that may feel.

This part, when felt and given a sacred space to bring out its truth, can transform to a deep ally as your healthy discernment, truth-teller, and boundary-setter. This occurs over a back and forth relationship that develops and reveals over time.

This meditation, written by SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Colibri and voiced by Gabriel Heartman, takes you to a hallway of doors where you get to meet and feel the presence of your ‘inner- punishing’ energy. You are escorted and supported by your sacred masculine and sacred feminine guides. You will encounter your ‘Inner Protector’ along the way to make sure that this is the time for this meeting. (More on the Inner Punisher here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/protectorpart)

If you have not met your Inner Protector yet, we advise that you do so before this meditation as the entry point into your emotional body. You can find that at:

The music gratefully used in this guided meditation is from Taos Winds Spirit Music Channel:

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Let’s Get On With The Getting On!

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

A tender response from a wonderful bridging session I had with a male soul yesterday:

“I don’t even know how to say how much I appreciate you and the insights you share! It seems like a process that gives a path to experiences I got to feel and bare witness to in visions. It’s like everything you say is complimenting a notion or sense I have in regards to the 3d/4d/5d”

This is it. The time to get on with the getting on. The letting in. You have dug in the soil, spent time in the darkness, and found your truest gift to the world….the desire to love yourself enough to choose real love. To follow the challenges and choice points that lead you to its ever-expanding and all-encompassing playground. Time to love those parts of you that haven’t been able to see past the dark and trust there is a different, bigger, and sexier world that exists in this very moment.

Keep watering your garden. The one you have tended to with much diligence and self-care even when it was hard as hell. It is not part of your destiny to give up now. You just need to find others to water your garden WITH you, not for you. Those that are doing the same in the name of bearing that magical fruit of pure joy and creative power in the name of more Love.

Let your roots find their strength in your ever-opening heart to let in and serve more love. We are an independent community garden that is interdependent on those hearts and souls that have chosen to plant themselves in and near our raised bed. It is time to choose to be loved by others as you have chosen to love yourself in the name of real explosive growth.

Loving yourself is just the beginning. Sharing and serving that love is what comes next. This is your sacred human calling.
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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Necessity Of The Deep Dive During Awakening

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Awakening is the eventual and inevitable sovereignly led going into the deep dive….into the places, nooks, and crannies of the emotional body and the soul that previously haven’t been known and cared for and seen. This deeper work can be avoided, bypassed, and diverted for only so long. This is true for ALL of us, it seems, no matter what place we claim as teacher, healer, way shower, etc.

Even those souls long awakening and having done ‘so much work’ are finding that there is still deeper to go, especially into emotional body healing. You are maybe discovering that the previously cherished joy and bliss states are becoming more temporary, fueled by transmissions from other souls perhaps more than being self generated and self empowered.

Eventually, the pain bubbles up again….showing itself as a seemingly unshakable depression or an acute anxiety that can move into panic that feels like it is attacking every living cell. Maybe this pain can be covered over for a time by a Protector part with buoyancy but that can be more superficial, like a smile whose joy never really reaches the eyes.

The vibrational frequency of the trauma calls you back again, over and over, in ways that are sometimes conscious and very often not. It mirrors through situations in your life that recapitulate it…through relationships with others primarily…..asking you to see it. Inviting you to finally FEEL it. Wanting you to relate with it rather than resist or push away.

Leading with curiousity….leading with compassion….being able to create space and separation….you are then able to BE with this pain and the parts of your self and soul that feel it. You are able to relate with the traumas expressed in specific scenes that may loop over and over like ground hog’s day until felt by you and offered to be moved into a higher vibration of light and love. You form relationships WITH these parts and aspects of you in this life and other timelines too…not to fix them, yet, rather, to KNOW them.

Through this inner relationality, soul gifts OPEN up in an authentic way that is led by you, empowered by you….owned and managed by YOU. The initial highs experienced from receiving readouts and intuitions from other healers are fading and the questions of ‘now what?’ and ‘how do I integrate this into my life?’ and ‘Why didn’t knowing that take away the pain?’ are becoming more pressing. The necessary phase of looking outside to others to tell you about your soul is completing as you are being invited to lead your OWN exploration and discover your own answers.

Your Protector/Gatekeeper becomes you main collaborator and guide as you journey together to discover, to bridge, and to transform fear to love in whatever forms and ways it shows up. More about this part and Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

This is the way we navigate the deep dive that the Divine is inviting us into during awakening. This is the way that we’ve found in SoulFullHeart leads to transmutation of trauma and pain back into love again. It is one part at a time. It is one journey and exploration at a time.

The Divine supports beautifully the bravery to go into these deeper places and will always reveal the love that is there if you are willing to look, open to feel, and trusting in the process. ~

Jelelle Awen
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Eclipse Energies Supporting Illumination Of Resistance To Love

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

There are still some residual pieces to feel as the Lion’s Gate energies continue to wan and the eclipse today shines its light… a partial eclipse, so it feels like it acknowledges the illuminating work done so far, yet wants to offer this illumination as a way to see and feel what remains in shadow too. One needs the other, needs contrast, in order to be deeply felt and let in…

It’s always amazing to me, how the capacity of our parts to filter out and resist love too is exactly the same capacity they have to hold the tears of collapse INTO love, into you, into their realities and what’s been bubbling underneath the now glassy surface.

Amazing too, how right in line with this, there can be SO much GOODNESS and LOVE to let in while also feeling the baggage to be claimed within, the places where love still needs to go in order to help you move the residue of old conditioning and the remnants of your deepest pain.

I feel this eclipse today offering this and so much more… that there always is and will be so much more, especially more love in the truest, purest sense. Ideas of abundance seem to be falling away or shifting into something new, something not materialistic at all, yet too, there are new invitations now to revisit even ‘material’ abundance and have a new relationship with it.

I feel this all so much on a personal level – the letting in of deeper and deeper love with others yet with myself and my own parts/Metasoul too. So often for me, there can be a heart-wide-open letting in feeling and experience that is like a Kundalini experience x infinity in moments, while in sometimes the very next wave there is also an experience of fear, of resistance, of self-judgment in parts of me that are trying to put the brakes on the goodness. This happens less and less now, yet it does happen. And, I feel how this is true for so many… the more love there is to let in, the more room we need to make for it.

Infinite love to you on this eclipse day… may you shine bright in your own right, in your exploration of your shadow/suppressed parts, in your deeper and deeper embracement of the love that you are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are Eclipsed Abundance

Published on by Gabriel Heartman4 Comments

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You are eclipsed abundance.

The direct 3D experience of life can be used as evidence by a part of us to assume a belief that since A has never, or rarely ever happened, then A is either does not exist or is some random anomaly and therefore should not be assumed as ‘real’ or a permanent fixture of existence.

Take for example….Abundance (you can replace it with Love, Romance, Purpose, etc). If our more limited 3D, or questioning and curious 4D parts of us have had many direct experiences of ‘lack’ (usually defined by these parts as not getting what they want to feel good/comfortable/safe/loved) then the belief that life IS lack is set into the creative programming structure of consciousness and…voila!…life is Lack (whatever that definition is to these parts).

The more the universe brings us that ‘truth’ the more solid the belief and it becomes like quick setting concrete in our consciousness and turning that ship around can be challenging, but not impossible (perceived by these very same parts that created it in the first place, mind you).

Lack is a reflection of our Sacred Forgetting. We veiled ourselves from Abundance to play (experience) in this dimension of This and That, or This NOT That. It is easier for these separated and disowned parts of us to assume this reality since this is the reality they live in. A disconnection from Source and the abundance it IS. So this rush to these quantum judgments and beliefs is always, in my opinion, a protection.

The protection is there to not get too attached to something that is either temporal or just doesn’t plain exist. Fully embodying this ensures that you don’t get hurt, nor abundance. The price of believing in abundance (love, romance, higher timelines, etc) is the pain of not having it, and/or the pain of actually letting it in.

There is an infinite treasure chest buried in the depth of our existential sacred wounding. Feeling the parts of you that are there to keep you from Harm and conversely from Love and Goodness assists in opening this Pandora’s Box. When you understand the Whys? then you can open your compassionate heart to these parts of you and bring them back into the experience of what ‘was’ and actually IS. That you belong in an abundant, infinite, expression of Love. It is not a quick turn around but a process of choosing something new and remembering something forgotten. This takes time, patience, and powerful choices.

This is the message I receive from this alchemical time of year. You are eclipsed abundance. You are the Moon and the Sun both. Give space to that which is veiling and the bright light behind it shall shine.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Road To Lion’s Gate: The Departure From The Third Dimension

Published on by Gabriel Heartman4 Comments

I feel like I have been in a parallel dimension that past couple of days. Feeling very tired and heavy in my body, not so much in my heart. There has been a feeling that I of moving in a field of density that made it hard to really feel motivated to do much. And that was actually a good thing. It gave me an opporTUNEity to tune into what is moving inside me and the collective as we are moving through this gateway.

I could feel how the 3rd dimension is in progress of a deep and immense purging from our spiritual and physical bodies that reverberate through our emotional bodies. It is like our emotions are the bridge between the two. Our own personal dowsing rod to access the direction of our True North.

As we continue to receive the invite from ‘above’ to move UP, to shift into timelines that most reflect our deepest gifts and authentic hearts, we begin to feel all that we have held as 3D energy inside the cells of our bodies and hidden places in our hearts. To the parts of us still with 3D anchors and emotional woundings, this can feel like a prying apart at times and that can manifest in so many varied ways in our bodies and our emotions.

As a sensitive to this purging and shedding, you may feel the collective response as well that adds to or amplifies your own. It can make you a bit mad at times wondering what the hell is really going on with you! There is a lot filtering through the Metasoul as well, as part of the ascension process is to heal that which remains in the karmic holding tanks of your soul.

The third dimension is in the rearview and if we still have energy there it is going to feel intense and draining at times. This is where going IN and doing the deep dive to feel all those anchors that may be spinning you in circles or giving your physical self some fits. This is an exciting yet intense time! It is not all candy corn and rose petals for many. Yet it doesn’t have to be suffering either.

There is a pathway. It is you consciously entering the domain of your heart and soul to navigate the beings inside you we call parts and aspects. They hold the keys, the answers, and more questions. They are ones that have been protected and the ones who have been doing their damnedest to make sure that you don’t get hurt this life, and yet ironically there is a pain in that as well. (More about parts/Metasoul here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts)

Finding, honoring, and feeling these parts of you are what help to release those anchors and help Love find its way into your heart again. To help the process of Ascension take you to your forgotten 5th-dimensional realms of passion, joy, and creation. There is a field of dreams awaiting you, me, and all of us. It is Now and it is Here….on the inside.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Incoming Energy Waves Q & A, Guided Meditation To Meet Gatekeeper/Galactic Metasoul(s) (Video)

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Kalayna Colibri and Raianna Shai were live in this video, sharing their digestions of the incoming Ascension/love waves moving through everyone individually and as a collective during this time of Lion’s Gate. They talk about personal process steps, connecting with your Gatekeeper (more info on Gatekeepers here), and connecting with your Metasoul Aspects too. They also lead a meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper or Inner Protector aspect of you (whichever shows up at this time) and a galactic Metasoul Aspect of yours as well.

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The Road To Lion’s Gate: Enlightening The Metasoul, Embodying Humanity

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Enlightenment is not an achievement.

It is a process of a series of profound and sacred realizations none of which is meant to be an ending place. It is an unfolding of remembrance. A story that we are reading backward and at times you reach the beginning of a chapter. Then there is the space between the beginning and the end of the next one.

You are a process of being, not a state of being. Each state is merely a stepping stone to the next. Whether the state you find yourself in is bliss or despair. The over-attachment to bliss is very similar to an over-attachment to despair. There is a fear of what lies beyond or underneath each. How could an over-attachment to bliss possibly be a ‘bad’ thing?

Any state of bliss is really a deep experience of Self beyond the plot of our karma. This is a state where we are outside the story and if there is a lot of trauma it feels oh so damn good. Why would we ever go back into the story?! We go back because we have a free-willed destiny to bring that very bliss into the story. To recreate the pages with the love that we experience in those bliss moments.

Right now we are walking among the ‘dead’ and unborn. What we have previously thought of as the ‘past’ and ‘future’ is always ever Now. Our story lines, our Time Lines, are converging and merging. This is what we call our Metasoul. Our special story, both individually and collectively. We are in a time of Divine Opportunity to reconcile and bring love to the karma we created as a result of our forgetting. These timelines effect all of our parts whether 3D, 4D, or 5D. Your ‘this life’ wounding is intimately connected to ‘other life’ wounding and vice versa.

This healing is meant to bring more bliss and joy back into our grounded humanity as a fuel to lead us to the next unfolding and deepening. Love is on a joy ride and that doesn’t always mean things are in constant bliss or despair. It is just constantly real and sacred. There is a lot happening underneath our created veils, the protection we needed until it was time to let go, move on, and go IN.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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