Tag: Ascension

Going Yin: Writing A New Constitution From Within

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

So much unhealed masculine taking front stage in the collective. Maybe no more or less than in the past. It is just becoming so obvious in all the geopolitical rhetoric and turmoil. The Right vs. The Wrong. The Ahead vs. The Left Behind. The Truth vs. The Fake. It is wreaking its own havoc in the emotional and spiritual bodies of all that participate. I used to be so deeply involved in the daily mill of the Info Wars. I used to listen to talk radio programs that would send out a barrage of rage and abomination. I would end my days in my own swirl of undigested fear and anger.

This could have only happened because it reflected something in me. I was attracted to the war which parts of me were waging inside. In my disgust of all things political, there was the same disgust going on in me. This was one of the single biggest awakenings for me in my journey.

I needed to meet my inner Bully Pulpit led by the Majority Whip known as my Inner Punisher. They all existed in me…and if you feel a rage against the machine, they exist in you as well. This is an ongoing process of feeling your own personal shadow that leads to a shift in the inner workings of your emotive governance. Pulling out of the din of the 24 news cycle was a much needed Motion that allowed me to feel the reality of this landing in my consciousness and heart.

I write this as the wounded masculine finds Itself a prime candidate in a presidential role. For this is actually a gift. We get to stare right in the face of what is left unhealed in our collective heart. This is exemplified not just in the U.S., but in many countries around the world. It is a spiritual thermometer, and we have a fever.  

As those on the leading edge of a Great Shift, we have an opportunity to help heal this one by taking responsibility for our own healing. Our own rewriting of an Inner Constitution that raises the bar on what it means to have power WITH and not OVER. These power struggles all occur on the inside first. They are tender and delicate in their root. They are an abused and neglected child. A son or daughter in desperate need for a father who could love them and initiate them into a world of integrity and vulnerability. This rewrites HIStory and merges with HERstory.

Going Yin is as much a political movement as it is a spiritual journey.  It invites all of us to feel our own roles, our own misappropriations, as well as a compassion for ourselves and others. It invites us to heal ourselves out of the old and into something not new, just forgotten. We have access to our own Higher Council that lives on a completely different ground yet the same floor. I choose to be a part of this new masculine reLOVEution in the spirit of what it means to be kings of a sacred humanity.  I hope you will join me.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Ascension Process Reveals Hollywood’s Shadow, The Pain, And The Potential Healing

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments
 By Jelelle Awen
I didn’t watch the Oscar’s last night as I don’t have television and haven’t for many years. I was tracking it though as these kinds of events are a good marker and sign of how the ongoing disclosure and Ascension process is playing out in mainstream consciousness. I’m not sure if Hollywood is really ‘mainstream’ though as it feels more like 4D….in a ‘bubble’ of pretended realities, alternative dimensions made up by the imagination/third eye, isolated and insular with wealth and influence that most of us can only imagine. It has felt like a castle up on a hill shrouded in glittery clouds that us ‘common people’ get to go visit on ‘special’ occasions when the King and Queen allow.
Part of me used to track celebrity gossip, relationships, behind the scenes dynamics for many years. I feel it was a replacement for a sense of lacking glamour in my own life. It was a way to project onto ‘celebrities’ all the ways that parts of me felt ordinary, boring, and my daily life to be unglamorous. It was also an anchor to a lower 4D reality that I was increasingly moving out of. I also have always had a very rich imagination and third eye capacities to create scenarios and communicate with spirit guides and Higher Selves, so I would project scenes and play them out in my bedroom during my childhood….just as I feel actors do too.
Actors may mostly be pre-awakening, and yet, too, they are not exactly anchored to 3D reality in so many ways. Their acted-out scenes probably feel more ‘real’ to them than everyday reality. Their characters represent parts of themselves that may be in shadow or more suppressed. They bring in and channel Metasoul frequencies from other timelines to play the archetypal roles of the King, Queen, and Warrior. I think parts of me could relate with this torn-ness, sensitivity, and desire to transcend the ordinary. I could relate to these feelings that what is imagined is more REAL than what is presented as reality….and it seems many people can too.
3D is ultimately dissatisfying to the soul. It is MEANT to be, as a temporary experimental consciousness that we are ‘trying on’ for awhile to see how it fits us. For those of us awakening out of it, 3D reality has never been ‘enough’ and we’ve found ways to compensate for that…sometimes in ways that are healthy for us and many times in ways that may not be. Hollywood feels to me like a big compensation for 3D……a lower 4D reality with its own play outs of heavens and hells. Its own versions of Dark Nights and Awakenings. Not just on the big screens either, yet, now, dramas and traumas in the back rooms and the boardrooms and the ‘casting couches.’
The aura of Hollywood glamour and seeming ‘untouchability’ has been permanently pierced with the Metoo and Time’s Up movements. The emotional immaturity and polarization between the masculine and feminine (that exist in our collective consciousness and within each of us) is revealing the underbelly of itself in increasingly bright lights. The veil is lifting to show the inner monsters that need our love and forgiveness. The spotlight is shifting to illuminate the pain that can no longer be ignored. And even those who have been more pretenders than authentic are HAVING to get more real as outrage replaces complacency; honesty replaces politeness; uniqueness replaces conforming; feeling replaces suppression.
Some actors (such as in the photo) are now becoming more ‘famous’ for what they are willing to be vulnerable and honest about in their real life experiences than what they have portrayed on screen. That THIS is becoming more interesting and touching to more people is a good sign of our collective ache to FEEL. This is a phase of outrage and anger, yet, eventually, it feels like it will move inward to compassion and forgiveness of the wounded masculine that abuses, punishes, and manipulates inside of us and therefore expresses on the outside.
What is shaking up in Hollywood feels to me as a sign of the ongoing Ascension process. It may not be as obvious as what is transforming in your inner and outer worlds as a soul who is in a further along phase. Yet, it still shows that ALL of us are being impacted by these influxes of love and light energies….even those seemingly so removed from it all in their isolated and seemingly more superficial worlds. ALL of us are being invited to be real, to feel, and to heal with love available to support the personal and the collective disclosures that are necessary to move into the NEW.
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Going Yin: Claim Your Gentle AND Your Power, Man!

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What does it mean to be a gentleman?

This came up for me this morning as I was digesting a post by Jelelle yesterday. She was advocating for the energy of gentleness in our lives, in the way we relate to ourselves, others, and the world around us. There is so much going on that has abrasive and abusive energy to it, even as it is coming in the name of ‘love’. I could feel where there are edges still inside of me that still feel a defense and a need for contention at times. I can feel a wound and a hiding of power. One in need of healing, one in need of claiming.

To be gentle does not necessarily mean soft or nice. There is a way in which we can bring our truth that holds a compassionate directness and an openness to be challenged otherwise with respect and goodwill. But this is a reflection of how we feel about ourselves as men, and as the masculine in women.  For some, the Gentle Man is a buried part. Put in shadow due to life experience that told him it was weak or unsafe to be so. For others, the Nice Guy comes out as a way to ward off the hidden anger and inner jackass that has been suppressed out of fear of harming and guilt. An inner rage that is in deep need to be felt and heard. In either case, a big part of what what being a true gentleman might be is tucked away in the recesses of our wounded masculine heart.

Our gentleness is a gift and a strength. It is a sensitivity not just to women in general, but the feminine within. There is battle that wages inside, and collectively, around the balance of our gentleness and our power. In our soul’s HIStory, we have much to atone for and be willing to own. This is a lifelong process of choosing to claim our own shadow and to heal that which has been hidden away out of fear and guilt. There is great Protector and Punisher that has had its reasons for being the way they have been. It is responding to these parts with our gentle hearts that brings the balm of healing to our conscious reality and transforms them into guides and lovers.

Under the wounded outbound expression of our power resides our truth, discernment, and passion to love and create in unison with the feminine. It is a strength and a force that is responsible to its consequence yet steadfast in its resolve.  The IN-fighting becomes an INviting with open heart, clear boundary, clear intention, and INtegrity. The Gentle Man is not push-over or a bully. He is an enigma to himself yet knows what it feels like to be both, and refuses to be either.

There is no badge to be earned. It is a process of choice and desire. It is about being real with all the parts and aspects of you that are tired of the battle and the inner war. It is about choosing something new where the warrior, knowledge-seeker, and unworth get to rest in the bosom of your sacred gentle heart. It is being reborn and remembered back into the true sacred power of your masculine BEing one truth, one claim, one tear at a time.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Information Is An Invitation

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by Kalayna Colibri

We are always downloading, integrating, feeling through information coming in, data parts of us area seeking, answers to questions that may or may not be the ‘right’ ones, but are answers for now, at any rate. Parts of us and Metasoul Aspects too, are searching and finding, seeking and hiding. We are feeling this in every moment as we move through life, embody our Ascension, and heal our way to a higher vibrational way of BEing in life (and in LOVE).

What we read, hear, digest, can only ever be an invitation. The mind looks for doorways and the soul seeks out the paths, sometimes even those that aren’t well-worn at all, yet have some sort of signposts showing a direction or two that can be taken. All of this though, this is all in invitation. And it’s up to us how, when or if we ever choose to wander in wonder through these openings.

There are so many who write and speak of what they feel they ‘know’ and with an energy of ‘this IS THE truth’ and ‘if you don’t believe this, you are doomed’ or worse yet, ‘you are one of THEM…’. It’s not the information or download itself that is in question, for we are all given data to digest one way or another, yet it is the charge with which we offer each other our insights and downloads that bears some transmuting from within.

I checked in with myself about this in meditation this morning. I checked with the Divine Mother too, my beloved guide and source of undying, absolutely infinite love and holding of my worth. She offered this piece about everything always being an invitation, for nothing can be forced. We cannot force each other to follow along with what we’re feeling and being, we can only invite and let go. We can only go inward if we feel something other than invitational energy coming from us towards others. This has been a big part of my personal process over the last several years, and I think for most if not all healers, this is a deep and necessary place to go. We are all gifted, so much so, and have such amazing abilities to tap into and share much that is based on what we are feeling, being downloaded, and above all, experiencing. To really take a sober look at where we are coming from when we do all of this, takes courage, a great deal of self-love, and a desire to deeply and truly love all of humanity.

“It can only ever be an invitation”… I feel these words ring so true and warm inside of me. I feel the freedom they offer, that She offers, from feeling confined to the knowingness of others. I feel the permission to lean into those teachings I feel are resonant, which for me means more and more that these teachings must come from a source that has done much inner work in order to truly and deeply ring true inside of me, and, I feel how this permission is really about an invitation to lean into myself, to feel more trust in my own ‘sources’ of information inside of myself, that are always available if I ask and intend to hear and feel them.

May all of this go into you and your own parts as an invitation, not a mandate. Wow, so this is basically an invitation into an invitation… that feels enlivening! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Keep Feeling, Keep Wondering

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We are always at the edge of our own largess no matter where we are on our journey as long as we keep feeling and keep wondering.

Feeling is the root of our true knowledge. It guides you and delivers you into the world of experience…the precipes of what parts of you have been afraid to walk up to and stare into. The deep chasms and dark caves, as well as the highest vistas of what you are actually capable of inhabiting because of all that is at stake in doing so.

These experiences are both ‘this’ life and from your metasoul lives. This life wounding is informed by the inner parts of your heartmind. The places you got hurt in this dimension. Your metasoul is a vast planet of experience that acts as your own Akashic record embedded in your DNA.  The other Now lives that hold so much of your spiritual and emotional wounding from the fall of Atlantis to the far off reaches of the galaxy. The only qualification you need for access is curiosity and the willingness to heal it…as well as the negotiation of what we call your Gatekeeper, the guide turned guard of your expansive inner universe. Kind of like a Soul Librarian.

This curiosity leads to feeling, which leads to healing, which leads to wonder. The reverence of what IS, what has been, and what is possible keeps this wonder alive as well as the desire to know and feel More. The continued reaching at the edges of your own inner universe as it collides and dances with others in intimacy to feel and see more of what you are all about…what you are capable of and meant to BE.

The only thing between you and Creation is all the places you hid your selves. Your pain, your fear, your power, and your love. This is the journey and path of recollection and remembrance. Putting it all back together again taking one curious, courageous, heartfelt step at a time.

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Energy Update: 2:22 Offers NEW Beginnings, Inner Feminine & Masculine Balance

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Today is February 22 or 2:22. These kind of dates of repeating number sequences have significance because of the meaning that we place on them. We create the meaning and manifestation, even as, from a higher dimensional perspective, linear time is an illusion. We turn our attention toward them and, so, the Divine responds to us with synchronized ascension energies becoming available on these dates. Portals and gateway openings offering specific codes/messages/invitations also ‘come through’ on these dates with more pronounced frequency….as if they have been turned up in broadcast depending on what we most need at that time.

Repeating number sequences that just ‘show up’ in our lives invite us to pause and to consider. To feel a Divine connection for a moment and a sweet ‘hello’ from higher dimensional aspects. I feel that they can be applied very personally by feeling into them yourself when you receive them. Asking, “What does this mean to me and my ongoing awakening and ascension journey?” You might be surprised by the answers that come! This feels most valuable to me rather than seeking for a general interpretation, although they an be useful as well if you feel resonance with them.

And, that’s what I am offering here, of course. My sense of what is being offered on this date of 2:22 through the guides and Metasoul aspects that I have access and connection with. This is not the ‘absolute truth’ of what is available, yet just what my guidance and wisdoms are presenting in this moment that of course is filtered through my subjective experiences. Take it in as you will and see what your heart feels about it.

2:22 provides this sense of balance, of finding and achieving and experiencing balance from within primarily. It seems a pressing and important thing during this phase that we find balance INside between our feminine aspects and our masculine aspects. To heal and transmute the wounded, fear-based vibrations of the masculine inside of us to allow the healing and emerging feminine to arise. When speaking of feminine and masculine, many people speak about it in generalized terms and only connected to the person’s actual physical gender. I actually feel it is far more complex than that and relates more to the masculine and feminine energies that express as parts of you or subpersonalities within your emotional body, psyche, and soul than it does what gender you have chosen.

As I’ve written about many times, what I have noticed over many years working with my own parts and with others is that the primary presenting energy of the Inner Protector part (which is SO necessary to navigate 3D life) is almost always masculine, as it is a guarding and often warrior-like frequency. This Protector can be a dominant energy in BOTH men and women, sometimes much stronger in women actually. The Inner Punisher is also often masculine, while the Inner Teenager is more connected to your actual gender as is the Inner Child. The Inner Mother is feminine (which is usually a ‘masculinized feminine’) and the Inner Father is masculine. The Gatekeeper usually presents as masculine initially. To read more about parts and Metasoul aspects go here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

So, when I offer about ‘feminine and masculine balance’ or ‘sacred union within’, I am referring to the relationship between masculine aspects of you and feminine aspects of you going from often unconscious and polarized frequencies to unified and collaborative ones. An example of inner polarization is the masculine Inner Protector being overly protective, controlling, and suppressive of your Inner Teenager, who may be a sensitive, artistic, and emotional feminine energy (for both men and women actually.) As you connect with both of these parts of yourself through the SoulFullHeart process, you create a bridge between them; you offer rest to the Inner Protector (no more guarding) and really listen and feel your Inner Teenager (in a way that they didn’t have growing up.) THIS inner ambassadorship is empowering and dynamic and isn’t dependent on anyone else to arise, yet, it greatly changes what you draw in terms of nourishment in relationships with others. 2:22 offers this possibility of inner balance of feminine and masculine that can then be reflected in the outer experience of far healthier relationships, ending toxic and abusive patterns, capacity to set boundaries, and more.

January brought a big surge of feminine illumination of ALL that is within you that needs your compassion and love. Then were the necessary death cycles that came up in response to that, letting goes, and completions. Letting of what was still anchored in the old, in 3D, in previous agreements that no longer fit your arising BEing. These increasing Divine Feminine energies (especially from and with Divine Sophia) amplified by two Supermoons and a lunar eclipse invite you into your shadow, which often holds the playout of wounded masculine by parts of you (as described above) and by your Metasoul aspects in patriarchal dominated timelines.

February seems to be continuing this intensity of clarities coming in with corresponding timeline collapses being felt as you set boundaries and say ‘no’ to what isn’t you anymore. There has been sometimes BIG digestions necessary with parts of you as these timelines collapse and complete and feelings of guilt, shame, anxiety, and distrust come up.  “Ash in the air” as I call it without much sense at times what will replace what has been ‘lost’.

It feels like 2:22 is about the NEW beginnings and fresh starts that arise out of all this collapsing. It is about the NEW timelines that come into play through connections that reflect and fit your soul vibration more and more. It may have been necessary to self lovingly ‘defend your newly forming borders’ for the last several weeks, to show the Divine what you most want and what you don’t. Yet, now, you are starting to draw those souls that GET and resonate with what you are offering and envisioning.

This may be a slow turning, requiring gentle patience. There is a kind of tapping into the inner gardner, who is willing to plant the seeds and ‘wait’ for the results. The inner gardner is the soul’s essence that knows these things sprout and bloom in the ‘right’ time and in phases that reflect when you are ready for it, and when parts of you can let them in.

This process is held in increasing trust that all this inner balancing, inner healing, and advocating that flows from this inner illumination WILL produce the harvest of a life filled and then bursting with love.

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life- Spiritual Growth Process

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In this video, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman interviews SoulFullHeart Co-creator Raphael Awen about his personal journey through his spiritual growth and how it affected his practical life in regards to all other areas. His journey exemplifies the transition of each of the 3D, 4D, and 5D selves in relation to spirit uality.

As a young adult, Raphael deeply immersed himself into the Christian faith as his expression of divine service. As he began to see and feel a disintegrity among those he had so felt were leaders, there was a thinning out of all that a part of him had held as the infallible word of God. This led to a letting go of the religion but not to a deeper spirituality. He was also led to draw boundaries with those that were a deep part of his social circle along with a marriage and daughters that were not curious about this epic change of faith.

A new journey of spiritual and emotional awakening and expansion of consciousness ensued with his participation in a group called EBE where he met Jelelle Awen. This experience along with the departure from this group brought Raphael to feel a call to lead something new in co-creation with Jelelle that offered something completely unique to what other spiritualities offered. A new relationship to God within, along with an ever expanding universe of guides and metasouls that have inspired his continued spiritual growth, all mark a path that is dotted with practical sacred choices.  

I felt these words by Raphael really summed up what practical spiritual ascension means for us has human beings: “Life is duality and choice, and the drama and the stories are all about traction points. What do you feel about that? What is moving in you? Are you tempted to the stasis? Life is not about stasis. We can work really hard at maintaining it but life pops you out at the other end.”

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Current Energies Empower Us To Feel Our Choices Within

Published on by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

At any time, you get to push the ‘reset’ button. You get to start again. You get to wake up in the morning and realize that life can become new, can arise for you anew. That the people in your life can too. And that there are many choice points along the way that make this come alive and help YOU come alive again, too.

The only thing that seems to keep us from doing this, letting this in, is what we have still to feel inside of ourselves that really doesn’t trust these choices or see the possibilities in our daily reality. Parts of us that want a quick-fix, get frustrated when everything they’ve tried hasn’t worked or seemed to work (or at least not with any staying power), and then the bottom falls out of our motivation to be IN life… to be a vital part of each relationship we have, especially to ourselves. Or, parts of us get frustrated with simply not finding the solution, not feeling genuinely guided or templated for, not feeling comfortable to be in this skin we’ve chosen as a vessel for our 3D come 4D experience here on Gaia. And THEN the bottom falls out and we are left with quite a bit of inner flatness and apathy.

We get to choose. We get to choose to do and be something different, to have a new approach, to try a new way, a new lens too. We get to do all of this and perhaps that is the very essence of free will. We also get to choose NOT to choose, which is still very much a choice. We can opt-in to our inner power and do the work we need to within, or we can let parts of us continue to opt-out of this invitation to heal and continue on in the same patterns we and they have been used to.

We get to decide our approach to life and to healing. What we don’t really get to choose is how and why our pain surfaces, as this is a collaboration with life and the Divine that we cannot shake off, no matter how hard parts of us may work to keep activity and positivity in place. We get to choose our healing paths and whether or not we fully show up for whatever place we’re at in our lives. We get to lead or follow as much as we want to, as much as parts of us want to… for in the beginning of feeling your parts, you begin to realize how much of your life has actually been a result of the choices parts of you have made, and not necessarily choices the most authentic and raw YOU would make.

Whatever the array of choices are that you make in one day let alone one lifetime, the deepest choices are often the ones that help us look, feel, notice, and heal. These are the choices that don’t ever flatten us out but bring us closer to ourselves and the lives we have truly, most deeply been wanting to live and LOVE. To feel where and how these choices show up for you and within you today feels like the most important revelation you could take in and the biggest, most magical experience you could ever have. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Gifts Of Intimacy And Sacred Union

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Our biggest mirrors lie in our most intimate relationships, especially those that are romantic. That which lies in the deepest shadow places can really only ever be seen and felt in those connections whose dynamics bring us to the edge of our defenses and vulnerability. We get to  feel the depth of our own self and what it is that we have been unaware of in the way we relate to life and love.

True sacred union is meant to offer us the means to explore and feel the ways in which we have kept our shadow and light sequestered for very reasonable reasons. It is an ongoing experiential playground in which we get to grow and learn. Each time we open our hearts to the most vulnerable of places, the parts of us that have been so timid and sensitive to bearing their deepest fears, we bring our being to a precipice or a fork in the road. How will my truth, my needs, my love, land in the person that we, and parts of us, have so much invested in?

These investments have different roots…some more wounded or authentic than others. The true sacred union continually asks questions about what is the authentic feeling ground between both partners. Is there a deepening occurring? Is there a feeling of a new arising, both in yourself and in the other, as you continue to heal all that resists real love and growth?

I have been so used to being in my own personal healing space over the years. It has been a newer experience for me to bring that into the space that is now populated with another. It is a new level of showing up for myself and a union with Kalayna. I do have parts that have had habit of coasting in relationship, both to a mate and myself. Sacred union and intimacy pokes a stick at that to keep the fire of consciousness and romance alive and in continued curiosity and expression.

The edges come when one is feeling a chasm of relationality in the space between. What needs to be felt and expressed that can open a doorway to a more authentic felt reality? The inherent risk, of course, is that there may be a difficult yet necessary acceptance that the ground between lovers and mates is no longer sufficient to keep the current inner need for More alive and transactable.

The ground of metasoul connections, sexual compatibility, intellectual alignments, or emotional dependency are not enough in and of themselves to hold together a Love that wants ALL areas of heart, body, mind, and soul to be met with passion and purpose. The more we are willing to feel and express our own needs, truths, and desires the more we are able to attract the kind of love that we feel for ourselves. The more we are willing to take these in from another, and conflict if need be to sort out what is real, the more we are able to find new places of growth and love within ourselves.

I am so fortunate to be in this with someone who cares so deeply for herself, her parts, and process, as well me, my parts, and my process. There is no way I get to stay stuck in something that may be hard for me to see. I am urged to advocate for my needs and for what I want and desire in her. She is a true gift of realness to me. She is the wind to my sails if I am willing to stick them out there.  I get to show up for that and I am forever grateful to what she means to my continued growth, expansion, and leadership of heart for men and women in the desire for the More they have signed up for.

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SoulFullHeart is healing and integration process that explores your inner world through the connection and feeling of parts and metasoul aspects. This is the self to self relationship that opens the doorway to deeper connection of self to other in intimacy and romance. It is a catalytic and expansive work that opens to a new world of sacred human consciousness and relationality. 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Spirituality And The Politics Of Tragedy

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

We can never truly be separate from any tragedy.

It lives inside of us at the core of our collective experience. When the unthinkable occurs, we are transported to places that we hoped we would never have to visit. The breathless moment of shock and despair. The unending questions of ‘why?’ and ‘how?’. The rage and the sickening pain. All of it thrust into what was just an ‘ordinary day’.

Seventeen human lives were ended, as well as several wounded and countless others in emotional pain after a school shooting in Florida. So much comes up in these moments that are hard to even put into words. I was guided to feel. Feel the totality of the human experience. The terror. The confusion. The helplessness. The rage and the pain. This is a representation of Tragedy itself.  Not any more horrific or appalling to the heart than any other tragedy that occurs daily around the world.

There are understandable rushes to details and blame. Questions seek swift answers and action. Our 3D consciousness needs movement and resolution to ebb the tide of the fear underneath it all. To avoid the deeper feelings inside of ourselves about what this all means.

Politics are our means to deal with it all. A place for parts of us to feel a sense of control in what was unknowable. There will be lots of details that will paint the picture and the debate will intensify.  For those who lost children there has to be a place for this all to go. I can’t blame them for that and would feel the same in their experience. Answers are needed and action taken.

But beyond the rumble of the politics is the human heart. It is shattered. It is seeking solace in a state of chaos. Its relationship to the spiritual comes into a heightened state. Where does God, the Divine, the Light, fit into all of this? Where was God? Is there a God? For many this may raise very serious doubts and for others it will send them deeper into faith, for it is the only means that can offer any breathing.  This often mixes in with politics which creates its own brand of reaction.

Why those particular lives were involved at that time and place can never be answered to the liking of our limited understanding. This a deep pain that their intimates are being summoned to feel inside of themselves and respond to in ways that they are meant to walk out. We can feel their pain as best we can and send love in whatever way is authentic to us.  

There is the life of the shooter that will be contended for. He represents something in us all as ALL. How we respond that is a part of our reflection as a whole. What was happening in this heart and soul is where we need to go and somewhere feel a compassion, not an excuse. There is a violence that is happening in the heart and soul of the body politic that is healed within each of us.

He will be served his consequence and I also feel we are called to go beyond that to feel where the Divine is inviting us to go in our relationship to these moments and circumstances. What are they wanting us to see about ourselves in our humanity, emotionality, and spirituality? Where does it lead us beyond the politics of tragedy and into the depth of our healing and growth? Love is not just candy and roses. It is a vast well of experience that highlights what our human heart is seeking to understand about itself.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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