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SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Be Transparent Within, Share Your Authentic Heart With The World

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week we feature an article by SoulFullHeart teacher and Facilitator, Kalayna Colibri. She invites you to feel your own process of feeling more transparency inside of yourself so that you can transparently and vulnerably share your authentic heart and soul with the rest of the world, whether in relationships with others or in service to others:

“Inner transparency and disclosure are what leads to a healthy navigation of disclosing more of the preciousness of who you are to your outer world, that so NEEDS you, by the way… this ascending world and all of the beings within it need your heart and soul to be in its powerful nakedness. There is nothing more beautiful, especially when you’ve already done this and continually do this within you too.”

SoulFullHeart co-creator, teacher and Facilitator, Jelelle Awen, offers up a new video which is a powerful 5D love transmission and a guided meditation as well. Join her as she rides waves of bliss and feminine integration!

This week there is also a new SoulFullHeart Millennial Digest video offering from Kalayna Colibri and Raianna Shai. The topic this week is “Self Image” and in this video, these two young women celebrate yet vulnerably share their inner processes around self-image and what that has involved for both of them.

Last Sunday night, Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna got together for what is now becoming a regular “sing-along” night and out of this time together arose a spontaneous light language singing experience which Raianna captured on video! They share this video and light language transmission with you this week.

New writings and recordings are present this week as well of course, from Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna too. Many vulnerable sharings along with a few potent energy updates and exploration of your shadow and desires too.

Kalayna, Gabriel, Raphael, and Jelelle all offer 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. They are available for $55 min. donation per session and more information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Recreating HIStory: Day 2- Seeking The Brothers Of The Battlefield

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This is the second in a series of writings that I am feeling guided to share about my personal, yet very collective, journey into the shadow of the masculine heart, and the soul aspects that are contained within. The purpose is to feel and heal what has still been hidden around power and leadership in the service of Love to Self, romance, community, humanity, and Gaia. I look forward to any engagement that you may feel guided to express along the way. You can even recommend a place for me to go that may have some significance for you. I feel this is a co-creative journey between myself and those that take this in. You can find the beginning of the series at https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-gabriel-heartman/recreating-history/

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A few days ago, with the assistance of the divine feminine guidance of Jelelle, Raphael and I took a meditative journey into lands that seemed to shift and change. It was difficult for me to determine a specific timeline. It was as if multiple timelines were presenting themselves at once. But the theme was the same. A carrying out of orders for an emotionally and spiritually devoid leader. Not following our own heart, but projecting our own power unto the throne of dictatorship.

Death was all around. Bodies strewn across a battlefield. The energy in comparison to my own frequency was quite intense. I saw my own ‘brother’ taking things from other fallen men. We were guided to turn ‘off’ the scene, remove the war vibe, and connect to these souls in trauma. In their eyes, I could see and feel the PTSD. The insanity of it all. The vibration of the violence still lived inside. To feel the serenity of the stillness was a stark contrast. At that moment, these men could feel the depth of how far they had ‘fallen’, how much they had given away in their own search for power.

It was important to stay separate from the scene. I have tended to dwell on the story when all that was needed was to ‘grab’ the brother out of the situation and place him in another frequency that is much lighter and higher. It is not about just releasing the energy either. They needed to be placed almost in an ICU environment that Raphael and I are calling New Camelot, a more 5D frequency. This gives these lives a new lease on a new life. A new timeline to integrate.

What I learned from this experience is that our ‘past’ lives, which are really happening right Now, are energetic imprints in time/space. That is where the karma lies. In this rescue mission, led by our Higher Selves, our Protectors/Gatekeepers, and other guides such as Metatron and others, we are seeking out this karmic energy so that it can be transmuted into love and integrated back into the Metasoul. The gifts of these lives, no longer stuck in the karmic swirl, are the increasing sense of true power that is centered in love and not fear.

Raphael felt, too, that it will be important to bring these lives back to their original timeline(s), so that there can be a completion of the ties that bound the hearts and souls to the leader. A loving “fuck you” and an invitation to bring them and the other men into the fold of our Higher Heart. That is where shit gets collective!

Wow… I am seeing this whole new world of what our imaginations are capable of! We truly have the gift of recreating the world from within, one cluster of lives at a time. This is going to be a wild ride. I feel a possible series of writings coming from this experience that will invite other men to seek their own inner quantum multidimensional healing journeys. That is a mouthful, but more importantly heartful and soulful. I look forward to what is arising and will arise in me as we continue to unfurl what lies at the core of our male story.

More to follow…..

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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What Would The Voice Of Your Shadow Say?

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By Raphael Awen

If you were just to let the voice of your shadow speak, what would it say?

‘I’m bored as hell a lot of the time.’

‘I like service of others, it’s just people I don’t like.’

‘I know you come across as confident and together, but I feel afraid and confused much of the time.’

I’m afraid nothing new or good will ever happen for me.’

My dreams the last few nights have been about less-than-comfortable and awkward situations with people and life, not nightmares per sé, but maybe my closest version of one.

One of the dreams had a lot to do with my previous career as a painting contractor in situations where everything was going wrong, and I was stressed and very uncomfortable. That makes sense that for 30 years in a career where the conscious focus was about getting paid to make things go right, that a part of me would hold the awareness and fear of everything going wrong. It’s like a part of me used those fears that were parked in shadow of everything falling apart as a motivator to keep things going right. Parts of us use our fears to create our own in-house energy generators.

Here, the deal is that if you work hard at it on a number of fronts, the reward is ‘coming out on top’, whatever a dominant part of you defined that to mean, but at what cost? What about all the off-the-books costs that had to be taken out of account to hold this deal together? How does it really feel now to be in your skin? How do you fare in the domain of meaningful relationships? Do you feel real to yourself? Is sexuality just a teenagers peek-a-boo ground that you run from or that runs from you? Are you dependent on any number of life patterns to hold a semblance of sanity together? What are your real desires and frustrations in each area of your life? If suicide wasn’t frowned upon, would you want to just hit the delete button, or refresh button?

Going here to these questions will really kill the popular quest for happiness-at-any-cost party. It won’t feel good to go here. It will feel like a shit-hell of all that’s been avoided and parked under wraps in shadow. But, what’s the cost of not going here is the deeper question. What’s the real joy and bliss that you are even more afraid of experiencing?

I’m not sure exactly what triggered it for me, it was more of an accumulation of experiences and feelings, but when the ‘more’ sudden shifts came, I simply felt like I couldn’t breathe without getting real with myself and those in my world. My truth had been parked in my shadow and marked a threat to my happiness, but now it needed to pop out. A tipping point occurred that now determined that there was no longer any real happiness to be had in the pretense game of living to others duty and obligation pictures and belief systems, that parts of me also bought into and energized. ‘Fuck it all’ part of me said with a back pressure sufficient to blow the doors of my false world wide open. I told my beloveds that I was no longer a Christian, that I didn’t believe in heaven and hell like we were taught, or that I wanted to remain in my marriage for duty sake. Boom, entire world changed pretty much overnight, with some lead-in, and lots to live out.

Every one of us, I believe are being asked to come to terms with our shadow like never before. My big experience was thirteen years ago. It feels like the times have way intensified since then as Gaia herself and the collective consciousness are taking on their own shadows like the time is now!

So when will you feel done with excelling in one or two areas of life while losing it in the other areas? When will you own all that you really want and desire?

If this speaks to you, then I just had the privilege of mirroring your own truth to you. I have a new party to get on with and I’d like to invite you to check it out. In a few days, we will be announcing a new self-led, self-paced approach to SoulFullHeart called PREP, as well as redefining what we now call DEEP, involving weekly sessions. Both are life changers.

There’s more where this comes from! 
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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2018 Energies Invite Discernment, Reflections On Your Healing Path

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by Kalayna Colibri

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There are many understandable qualms and queries that a wide array of souls have about letting in ‘new’ teachings and perspectives. There’s a way that in a sense, many of us have said ‘yes’ to being a part of abusive groups and leaders – political, spiritual, etc. Perhaps that’s why resonance can be a scary thing for parts and Metasoul Aspects of us, who have been ‘burned’ before, who have walked out (and may still be walking out) abusive relationships on many levels with those who they were once convinced truly loved and accepted them ‘unconditionally’ – which is perhaps one of the biggest hooks of them all and speaks to so much of our collective and personal wounding…

Today, after doing some research into different spiritual leaders and groups, I feel a collective pain and it feels like it pierces and echoes quite strongly. It’s a sense of some heavy influence and infiltration (which was signed-up for and allowed in for good and necessary reasons) from what can be called ‘Archonic’ energies and whispers, which really in a way just feels like the whispers of heavily unowned or outright disowned shadow. To find ourselves in abusive relationships on any blatant or subtle levels reflects an abuse which perpetuates inside of us and the suppression of our own shadows; what has been held in the dark and not only what could be considered ‘dark’ or low vibration. Taking this in as a piece for collective healing is important, yet the more important and power-filled choice is to take it back inward, to find our personal contribution to it, starting from us to us.

The degree to which there is denial that ALL, even the most precious, beloved and highly regarded gurus of our time and beyond also have ‘shadow’ to work and aren’t perfect or above being the human they signed up to be in their life and timeline, is the degree to which it is often suppressed and disregarded within too. We want to blame the others who fall from grace, yet so often there are parts of us, ESPECIALLY Metasoul Aspects of us, that have experienced this themselves in their own timelines and are afraid to face the shadow within that matched and made OK the unowned shadow in the other in THIS timeline.

That might be a lot to digest, yet it feels of great importance if we are truly to ‘clean house’ in this new ‘year’ called ‘2018’, which, it feels like, IS the invitation when it comes to Disclosure’s current unfolding that cannot be avoided personally as it happens globally.

To make the choice to lean into a new offering, such as what we talk about and share in SoulFullHeart, likely brings up quite a bit for some of you who feel resonance and yet feel a need to balk and take it this work in in small doses. This is understandable and actually feels necessary too. There is a need now to truly discern where a teacher, author, guru, speaker, etc is coming from and to vibe-in with their particular views of love and spirituality, to see if they truly work for you at this time. There is an enormous capacity in all of us to let in and lean in and there is a vast amount of distrust that comes with that too, embodied in a part of you that we call the Inner Protector and also the Gatekeeper. Bless this part of each of us for the filtering, the necessary judgments and push-aways, the incredible job they have done and had to do. To be truly led by your deepest heart into healing paths that will not offer abuse but instead continually give you back to you as you find the power of your naked heart and soul again without need of a Protector, is perhaps one of the most profound gifts coming to you this year and beyond and it is definitely my own wish for ALL of us as we continue arising and rearising into our Sacred Humanity, that is powerful, soulful, and above all heartful. ❤

If you wish to feel more into SoulFullHeart, perhaps with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper held consciously in your heart while doing so, you can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess to learn and feel more about what we offer and how we offer it, and ready much about who we are as well in other parts of our website and on our blog. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Revelation, Healing, And Integration Of Shadow Frequencies

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By Jelelle Awen

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The energies ARE personal. As personal as it gets as you ARE energy. You are a multidimensional, galactic BEing inside of a human form. You are connected to higher dimensional expressions, star BEing aspects of your Metasoul (soul source). You are BEcoming and merging with the consciousness of these star BEings from other timelines, other dimensions, other planets, other galaxies more and more in a process that is MEANT to impact you personally as this happens.

Does it feel sometimes like the ascension energies are outside of you?  The gateways and vortexes opening? The stargates activating? The sun flares and geomagnetic storms churning? Does it feel like these things are happening outside of you in a distant, vast, and irrelevant outer space with little impact on your daily reality? If so, this can lead to a sense of distancing from the ascension process and that it is less meaningful on a personal level.

All of these energies swirling around in the cosmos, all this galactic activity, is also represented inside of you. Making it personal, taking it personally, is where I feel the REAL gift of awareness about cosmic energies comes in and goes in. Connecting what is happening ‘out there’ with how it is impacting your emotional body, your process, your experience of experience leads to more self awareness and capacity to digest what is happening. Providing some context and overall picture to hold what you are living out can help with the digestion of the experience.

There is A LOT happening in the now, in the cosmos, that impacts us as a collective and on a personal basis. It is a major phase of transition for us as the shadows, the darkness, the underground and underbelly, are disclosed and exposed. There is no ‘going around’ this process as what has been so polarized during the 3D experiment needs to come back into balance. The only way is by going through it with manifestations of chaos, upheaval, and death and rebirth happening through intense weather patterns and political/social/cultural crises.

Finding our balance again requires the revealing and eventual release of the dark energies that have had so much underground influence on our culture and the formation of our 3D self AND on our Metasoul too. Making this process personal is feeling and BEing with the traumas created from all this polarization to fear-based frequencies. These traumas can remain undigested in your emotional body in your 3D self AND also in your Metasoul through repeating loops of suffering patterns and cycles and karmic binds.

All the photonic light generation activities in the cosmos creates a SAFE container for the revelation and healing of this shadow on a collective and personal level. The HIGH frequencies provide a padded room for the bombs to explode when needed; the fuses to ignite; the storms to roar….until they run out of fear to fuel them. This padded room of pure love and light is also provided to YOU as a shield from these necessary outgasses. You can connect with your safe padded place through meditation, through connection with your Ethereal guides/aspects, through commUNION with the Divine (and the Divine Mother esp.), through service of love, through BEing in relationships that are nourishing, soul resonant, through drawing the support that you need. Through our SoulFullHeart process, we provide a heartline through aprocess for you to explore the aspects of your 3D and 4D selves, your shadow, your Metasoul/other lifetime expressions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

This doesn’t mean that you transcend out of whatever necessary shadow revealing and integrating process that you need to go through. Yet, rather, you have a sense of being held WHILE you are in this exploration. You are not just becoming the shadow or the darkness OR suppressing it either (that is the old way), yet you are holding space FOR the aspects and parts of you that are overly polarized to it. You get to know and connect with these aspects and invite them into the safe, padded room of your HEART and soul, where they can finally feel safe to share, to be felt, and to BEcome something real….and, eventually, then to heal.

As you digest the shadow revelation that is happening ‘out there’ feel how it is impacting you on a personal level. Feel your reactions inside to what comes out. Feel if your ‘safe padded room of love and light’ is available and if you are using it. Feel what support you need to navigate your own process of shadow revelation. Feel the taking of it all personally and what that means for you in a way that also allows you to FEEL held by love during the process. Feel the integration that wants to happen inside of you as the shadow meets the sun of love and finally finds it way home in your heart.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Halloween Message: Responding With Love, Not Fear, To Your Shadow And Spirits

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By Jelelle Awen

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“It is precisely because we resist the darkness in ourselves that we miss the depths of the loveliness, beauty, brilliance, creativity, and joy that lie at our core.” ~ Thomas Moore

Resisting anything in ourselves just leads to more pain, more resistance, more pushing out of life and not letting it in. Resisting the darkness is understandable when we have been taught in 3D culture to fear that which we don’t understand, that which isn’t socially acceptable, that which may hurt or harm others or ourselves. We have been taught to fear our fear and the fear of others as well. This fearing of fear JUST leads to more fear being generated. This creates a fear fueled energy cloud that rumbles inside of us and through all the strands of the collective emotional body web for fear-based BEings to get more energy from.

On this ‘day’ of Samhain’s and All Saint’s Eve, Halloween, Dia de los Muertos, Diwali…..the shadow is actually acknowledged, recognized, and even celebrated within our cultures. The shadow sides can come out in costume; they can put on masks that are actually more REAL to their frequencies. The darkness can roam a bit without fear suppressing it. Souls that have left their human bodies and passed on can be opened up too and be felt by their loved ones without the fear of ghosts or being haunted blocking the connection.

As we BEcome more of our higher self in our human body, gifts of mediumship naturally arise and become less afraid of the spiritual realm. We see, feel, and hear Ethereal BEings such as Angels, spirit guides, spirit animals, and more. We can connect with our passed BEloveds through our common Metasoul threads and heart cords as none of us really cease from being energized in the Now in SOME form. We can connect to other Metasoul partnerings and playouts with these SAME people, yet in different dances. Maybe, someday, we’ll be able to change or alter timelines to prevent dying and live out in Infinite Awareness with no time together IN a human body that will no longer age or get diseases.

With the veils between dimensions becoming so thin already in this now of intense phototonic light activations, it feels like there IS an opportunity to connect with spirits in a much deeper way today. To lead with your heart and your intention and ask to receive communications, being open to these contacts coming in unexpected ways, and trusting that love wants to see this happen for your own healing AND theirs.

There is also more support to being open as well to how your shadow aspects might be needing you, wanting you. Your shadow often contains sources of power, soul gifts, soul purpose clarities…once the fear and resistance frequencies have been felt, cleared and healed, then these powerful soul gifts can be revealed. More of your power can be revealed and, often, more of your vulnerability as well.

All of this discovery may require negotiation with the part of you that protects and guards your shadow, what we call the Inner Protector in our SoulFullHeart process. The Protector (and also the 4D Soul Guardian) may not feel that you are truly ready to connect with your shadow and embody your soul power expression. They are in a stance of keeping you ‘safe’ rather than allowing you to risk feeling something painful and difficult (even though they will often allow and even contribute to repeating suffering loops inside you).

As your higher self comes into your body and your higher heart opens and expands, you become able to bring love to ALL the fear places inside of you. You can then also bring this love to the fear based energies in others and serve as facilitator to this clearing of fear process in them too. This bringing love to fear then reverberates and expands throughout the entire Universe and the collective emotional body too. Bringing light to the darkness is above all about offering energies of compassion, forgiveness, understanding, and willingness to FEEL what is real.

Becoming a ‘warrior’ or going to battle against darkness just perpetrates the cycles of fear meeting and matching with more fear. This is often just the Protector in another form of ‘light warrior’ that is ultimately based in nonvulnerablity and resistance.

Help parts of you to put down the swords, share with you WHY they are holding them, WHY they are afraid to go into the shadows with you, and you’ll open your heart UP even that much wider, able to experience the love that makes up the essence of it ALL, including your shadow!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Solar Eclipse Offers Illumination Of Emotional Body Shadow, Unification

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By Jelelle Awen
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The shadow of the moon crossing the sun and blocking the light…..for brief moments, day becomes night and alters our experience of reality. The total solar eclipse on Monday August 21st, 2017 offers this opportunity from the cosmos to feel and see life differently within our INNER cosmos and emotional bodies. The eclipse energies project the sense of specialness, of a grand event that can unite us ALL in our common experience and sharing of it. Souls at all different phases of awakening and consciousness are moved to witness this event for the chance to feel into these energies, whether subconscious or conscious.

In the U.S., which has struggled in the transition from 3D to 4D with ‘race wars’ as the seemingly primary outward expression of the wounded separation from within, the eclipse is bringing people together regardless of race or nationality. That it is visible as a total eclipse across the U.S. is an invitation of unification in a ‘country’ that is hurting, lashing, growing, rebirthing, and, in this struggle, actually leading the healing of the false self/ego moving into 5D sacred humanity. The U.S., on an emotional body level, has felt most like a teenager to me…rebellious, curious, finding its leadership and power, struggling, thriving, feeling unworthy, feeling arrogant, WANTing. This teenager wants to mature ultimately, to ‘grow up’, and to unify without devaluing individual expression as ‘one nation with the Divine.’ This is a tall order and an example of the challenges that we face inside too as we bridge the gap from our divinity/soul expression to our emotional body/maturity.

In those brief moments of the eclipse, many ‘American’ eyes and hearts will be fixed UPward in curiosity and wonder. In those moments, a specialness will pervade and invade all who are witnesses to the galactic show in the sky. ‘Ordinary’ 3D life will suspend and alter and perhaps something in the soul will want to turn inward too. Perhaps SOMETHING in the soul will be inspired to feel the magic that is within and the possibilities of NEW in every moment and let go of the angsts and rage that project outward and harm.

During a total solar eclipse like this, shadows within are given ‘permission’ to BE as they momentarily obscure our light and are then integrated back in again. The shadow becomes as beautiful and illuminating as the brightness. In many ways, the shadow brings relief, especially if the light has been used to avoid or bypass deeper feeling realities. These August energies seem to be inviting us to feel and BE with the shadows within…the versions of our 3D self that we may have put aside to bring our soul energies in or the parts of us that we might try to suppress such as the Inner Child or Inner Teenager or Inner Punisher…….as I described in this writing where I share my personal experience of this process: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/08/18/being-with-and-integrating-lower-and-shadow-aspects-of-yourself-during-ascension/

With the lunar eclipse earlier this month, there was a sense of a ‘pause with an edge’ as the edginess was an invitation for new clarities to come in around service of love and purpose here. In the emotional body, this may have brought up frustrations for you and more sense of what doesn’t work for you anymore as you move into the NEW. This seems to especially be true within relationships, where the grounds of connection are rumbled and shifted so you can feel what is real and deepen…..or complete and move on. I wrote about this lunar eclipse energies here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/08/07/tempering-august-eclipse-energies-a-pause-with-an-edge/

The Lion/Lioness/Sirian gateway and portal openings also occurring this month provide renewed frequencies of abundance and unity, especially related to self healing and within sacred union. These energies and ultimately conscious connection with our Sirian Metasoul soul aspects offer expanded perspectives and clearer commitment to service of love missions. They provide infusions of heart open courage to take the next necessary steps….feeling your needs and desires in a deeper way. I wrote about the codes that became available here, along with a message from Archangel Metatron about them: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/08/08/lions-gate-offering-unity-abundance-activation-with-archangel-metatron/

ALL of this cosmic energetic activity in ONE month offers that the process of ascension is being accelerated and fast tracked. This also includes the process of more intense push up of shadow energies to be felt and healed from the collective emotional body. Stronger personal boundaries may be necessary to navigate these shifts as parts of people that are in fear lash out in discomfort, need to stay small, and project unfelt rage and hurt onto others. This is a ‘messy’ time of bittersweet feelings, where the NEW is palatable in so many moments from within us with sometimes seemingly little evidence of it in the mainstream world or ‘out there’.

BEing real about how parts of us are feeling as we navigate this transition of collective awakening is so important, staying connected to our own emotional bodies and allowing what has been suppressed to come out allows more self love to flow within us. This self love flow brings us back home to ourselves, to places of trust and surrender within us, to our ‘home’ from within. Connection with our guides/aspects and especially Star BEings can bring in the bigger picture and sense of the larger movements that are going on to support this shift into 5D New Gaia. Feeling this galactic support can help hold the personal process and the shifting/sorting that it is and continues to BE!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Going Into Your Darkness To Reveal Your Light

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By Jelelle Awen

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To look in the mirror, to REALLY look, is to be OPEN to seeing and feeling inside that which is hard to accept, difficult to love, and most in need of attention. That which lurks in the shadows of your soul, the tight corners of your heart, and the darkest regions of your mind.

Going into this darkness with FULL consciousness is what illuminates the soul spark that you are and reveals the Infinite Love that you are. Going into this darkness with willingness to feel it ALL reveals the Divine light that you are.

Sometimes life will bring you to this darkness and sometimes you will choose it…..whatever way you find yourself there, feel how it is the beginning of the true lifting of the veil that falseness has placed over you. It is the lifting of self delusion that keeps parts of you stuck in suffering and pain.

If you have not had this experience of the crucible of darkness, seek that which will guide you (as we do in SoulFullHeart sessions) in it and through it rather than letting parts of you cling to a light that is but an echo or glimmer of the real thing.

When what is false has been repeatedly burned away in a conscious process which INCLUDES embracement and transmutation of the dark, you can trust the light that emerges from it as being real and a reflection of the Divine spark that you ARE. ~

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A Gatekeeper’s Plea

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By Leena Colibri

Could you love me…
if I showed you the scars,
the wings that aren’t pretty?

 

…maybe they never were…
but I can’t tell anymore.
I’ve forgotten what they look like.
I’ve forgotten how to see them.
I’ve forgotten that there is a mirror
and that that mirror can exist in an open human heart.

 

Can you see tears on my face?
I can’t feel them anymore.
My cheeks are numb.

 

Has life smacked me down or have I?
Has it all been as violent as it feels to me? Who is ultimately responsible? Am I? Are you? Is God?

 

Am I a product of my own faults? If I am, will I ever feel remorse? Could I ever feel remorse?

 

Did the war end or just ebb?
Why am I able to talk to you?
Why are you able to feel me?
Am I dying?

 

Did the soldier I was give way to an angel of peace?
Am I acting out of what was and is no longer?
Or is it all just beginning again and this is the calm before the storm?
I certainly don’t feel calm.
And I certainly do feel the storm…
In fact it is all I can think about.

 

Why can I suddenly see you?
Do you see me?
Are you pretending, as you have before?

 

Are you ready to believe that I am wounded?
Are you ready to believe that something beyond “me” is wounded?

 

All I am is questions,
a quester on an unending quest,
finding no answers, just more questions…
but for the first time,
I am asking them out loud and I am not afraid to let them fall from my lips and drift over to you, and into an unknown love that I no longer fully trust…
but want to…but want to again…as I did before.
As I did before the war. As I did before the battles I was partly responsible for starting.

 

Where am I?
How can you hear me?
Why do you even want to?

 

I could be your essence.
I could be that spark inside you.
I could be a part of all you are outside and inside your body.
I could be a part of everything in the world while also only a speck of dust on this great plane of existence.
I want to be with your essence…
I want to be with the you that could lead me Home.

 

Please…
take me Home.
 

*Find out more about connecting with your daemon/soul guardian here*
 
 
** Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Coming To Terms With Our Light And Our Dark

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By Raphael Awen

Coming to terms with the fact that I am both light and dark may be the single most growthful thing for me this life.

Like the cruise ship that I just watched enter the bay in the predawn light, I just discovered something of monumental proportions about my life.

I’ve always had a love for God, a desire to be in awe, and in reverence. This is something known about myself and that others around me can attest to. It’s part of my light.

But in a recent flow of tension and feeling into it, I felt into an aspect of a part of me feeling entitled to have and know power. The 30 year long career I left 2 years ago was a lot about having a sense of power in the face of life’s powerlessness and indefinability. While most wouldn’t call me materialistic, there was something about the things that money could buy that afforded me (and still do) a way to assuage this pain of powerlessness. Feeling deeper into this need for power hidden in my shadow, I find something very different to the reverence for God that I’ve always known in my light. Underneath the entitlement and need for power is actually an impulse to dethrone God.

Surrender to a higher or greater power leaves part of me in some ‘lesser than’ place struggling to see it as any more than that. So where else would I, or part of me, place this competition with God, but to hide it in my shadow.

What a pretzel! To have both love and hate for God in the same vessel, to revere God on one hand and to need to dethrone God on the other.

The more I come to know (also a kind of quest for power), the more I must surrender to that I don’t know.

It feels to me like the Divine itself is learning the same lessons I am learning. It too has darkness and light. None of it is bad. All of it is a quest to feel, heal, learn and grow in the only true reality there is of infinite love.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.