Tag: metasoul healing

Metasoul/Karmic Healing Brings Clarity To Your NOW

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There are so many timelines that are in play right now. Taking a Star Being’s-eye view, it almost looks like the multitude of tree branches coming out from a central trunk.
That trunk feels like our essential unity. The core of who and what we are in our nature. Our Divine/Galactic connection. Yet there are multiple offshoots all leading to an eventual termination point.

These can be seen and felt as Metasoul timelines that have a varied impact on the Now. These timelines have an effect on what is happening both inside of you and outside. All these personal soul narratives coalescing and merging into one powerful human lower 4D soup.

To feel these timelines, or Metasoul aspects, it gives you a personalized relationship to what is happening on the world’s stage, and the turmoil that it may be causing within. When ‘this life’ trauma and reaction are coupled with ‘other life’ trauma and reaction, there is a large personal power suck that happens.

It is like the energy from the trunk gets moved to the branches rather than the supportive core itself. The trunk loses itself and its holding power, and then can collapse by the energetic weight of the branches.When your branches (parts and Metasoul aspects) are brought inward, toward your trunk (our higher heart and soul expression), the energy can then be transmuted and integrated into your core. This more solid You can then begin to see and feel what is authentically yours and how you want to authentically respond and act.

In our next Free To Be 2 group call, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be talking about the Metasoul, Karmic healing, and the Gatekeeper. They will provide a guided meditation to help you meet your Gatekeeper, who is akin to your personal guardian and guide of your Metasoul. The Gatekeeper is an important aspect to become acquainted with when desiring to do a deep dive into soul karma, trauma, and pattering.

By feeling your personal soul relationship to any external circumstance whether it be global, social, or intimate, it can bring a whole new consciousness around the pain, fears, and reactions to so many things. It has been a huge gift to me on my journey and has really helped to get that Star Being’s-eye view as well as a grounded relationship (roots) to what my needs, desires, and clarities are.
For more information please visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

If you are interested in a free consult with myself, Raphael, or Kalayna you can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

Much love to you during these trying times.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Sacred Journey Of My ‘Black Sheep’ Inner Teenager

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by Kalayna Solais

I harvested some photos from an old Facebook account the other day, at the request of a part of me that you’ll hear about in a moment. The last time I used this account was when I was 25 and walking into it feels like walking into my teenage bedroom, my dorm at university, and all of my ‘first apartments’ I lived in. There’s a treasure trove there of past romantic and would-be romantic connections, creative endeavours, and friendships that my parts then thought were very deep.

This ‘self’ I used to live in, the ‘me’ part of me was constructing, vibrates with so much need to be seen, heard, felt… loved. There was so much performance and not just creatively. There was so much energy around who these parts of me thought they needed to be, what they needed to look like, how they needed to act in order to draw a guy’s attention, to get ‘picked’ for a gig, to become the healer I was driven to be from a very young age, to fit in yet stand out.

Underneath all of that, lies so much sadness. So many feelings of ‘I’ll never make/have it’ despite doing ‘the work’ that I was told then I needed to do.

Underneath all of that, lies so much loneliness. Feelings of ‘I’ll never be loved the way I want to be’ and choosing to try and become a fun party girl and sleep with whoever came into my field for that evening, to feel somehow validated and seen and like people actually did want to be around me…

The ‘me’ I see, the ‘self’ I feel as I share that, is my Inner Teenager who was essentially uninitiated into true femininity and womanhood. Who learned from media pressures what it would take to become anything at all with any real presence in the world, and therefore, what it would take to be loved and to feel like she belonged.

Her name is Katie. And this was the name I went by for all those formative years in my birth family, in early adulthood, and when I first began my SoulFullHeart journey.

Katie struggled with feeling like the ‘Black Sheep’, as have other young parts of me. She felt this way, always, with birth family. She often felt this way too among other young women but also with young men. I haven’t had many relationships with men or close friendships with women my own age. It was very painful for this part, for my awakening Star Seed and Inner Child self too, to really feel any sense of deep connection or belonging with the crowd.

Katie tried many things to cope with these feelings, but none of it ever felt like her… the emptiness and depression remained. When I feel into those ‘Katie’ years, I feel such a soul lineage coming through, of being sometimes the youngest of women in a group, tribe, community of healers and priestesses, or a young, budding, feminine being that couldn’t quite find the initiation she was seeking into true womanhood and Sacred Union, though she so longed and ached for that! It almost feels as if I/Katie would have been diagnosed as manic depressive at the time. The highs were SO high but the lows were nearly catastrophic.

The ‘Black Sheep’ feelings now feel to me like an ache for initiation that our souls actually know very well, for better or worse. The answer to that has to start within and keep coming back to what isn’t happening yet within… the space that isn’t being taken to really feel and honour who you ARE in all the breadth and depth and textures of that. It’s a deep journey of finding the answer to that ache more and more within your Metasoul and in relationship to your parts. Self-initiation, self-belonging, becomes the focus and the desire and also the reality even as you may be drawing resonance and belonging, finally, on the outside.

This is still an ongoing journey for everyone, it feels like, until the veils of separation really vanish for good. It ultimately feels like a pain of ‘not belonging’ with the Divine and a deep desire to move beyond duality. There’s no one person or being outside of us that can do this work for us. Just us being dedicated to ourselves and to being with every single step of this sacred journey back into oneness.

Katie agrees!And is grateful for your heart and soul taking all of this in… πŸ˜€

Much love! ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Healing Expressions Of The Rising Sacred Masculine, Pt. 1

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An epic SoulFullHeart session with Raphael Awen this weekend. So much so, I will need to write this up in two parts. The first half was a revisiting of my inner masculine part named Marcus. Recently, I have been invited to partake more and more into reintegrating back into service by co-leading with Kalayna Solais a Saturday follow-up discussion group with those that attend the Wednesday Free-To-Be group calls. (For more info on the upcoming series go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe2)

This brought up some prior frequencies within my masculine to show up with some compensatory energy, meaning a little more energized and outbound due to some underlying feeling of inadequacies within him to be a leading edge part of this group. What came up for him was an image of a bull in a china shop. Like he is not sure how to be in a space when things get tender. My feminine is quite capable of holding that space, but Marcus, when he is β€˜up’, can be a little more mental in those moments without letting the feeling just do the β€˜talking’. 

He began to wonder, β€œWhat then is appropriate masculinity?”. That was a portal question to what feels like a grappling of the wounded masculine’s relationship to the feminine, as well as a reaction to what is referred to as β€˜toxic masculinity’. There is this fine line of wanting to be in balance and honor with the feminine, express and claim his power and intuitions while avoiding this β€˜toxic’ distinction. 

The first thing that was brought to him is that just this very question alone suggests his reverence for the feminine and the holding of the sacred space. It also mirrors a long-standing notion that the feminine is fragile. This was deeply ingrained in me from early on in my life as my mother was a very sensitive and emotional woman in the despair direction. This set up an unhealthy dynamic between her and my inner child that he had to make sure not to β€˜hurt mom or else who knows what would happen to her’. 

Well, through much of my healing and experience with other powerful women, I recognized that this was a part of her wounded inner child tugging on my inner child. This ended up transmuting into recycled alcoholism and I eventually had to say no more. I had given all I could until it was clear I had to cut the cord of this dynamic. This has played out in multiple Metasoul timelines as well in regards to feelings of guilt and shame over how I had participated in the suppression and persecution of the women. 

Interesting that I find myself within a more feminine offering to explore and heal all of these wounds and beliefs that I have had around the Feminine itself and women in general. It inversely leads me to more of my own masculine expression as I connect with the relationship to my own feminine and how She is a portal into my sacred masculinity and my Love ambassadorship. But I have had to go here first. To my inner masculine and hash out these old dynamics and create a safe environment to let his masculine flourish like the wild stallion he is and wants to be. 

It felt appropriate to share this after Mother’s Day as a reminder that the relationship to Mom is an integral part of any man’s journey. It really needs to be brought into consciousness so that we can truly see and feel how we relate to Womankind and the Sacred Feminine. Thanks so much for taking this in and I hope that it shines some awareness and questions for your own journeys.Β 

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Scorpio Moon Energies Invite Embodiment & Integration

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by Kalayna Solais

We’ve entered a new phase now where embodiment and integration of everything we’ve been feeling and healing so far is the ongoing process, even while there’s still so much more to keep feeling and healing.

Astrology is not my forte this life, but when I feel the β€˜Scorpio’ energy of this full moon, this is what I feel is the invitation. To me, β€˜Scorpio’ or even the energy of a scorpion itself, is about embodiment and integration as well as healthy physical self-protection and care… learning to BE in the body, which includes feeling in touch with our sexuality in such a way that it is tenderly treasured and held close but not suppressed or, conversely, exploited. It also includes taking the steps that are necessary in order to feel the gift of our physicality, even though the human body has been extremely dense and often challenging to inhabit.

The challenges of our embodiment as human beings comes from outside influences of trauma and also the encouragement to bypass or transcend pain instead of feeling it and the parts of us who hold it.

What happens when you start to move WITH the body through your emotional and spiritual processes? For me, this has meant dance, yoga, hiking, sometimes even just walking… and when necessary, giving much space for tears to fall and layers to shed even in the middle of doing any of these things and sometimes even during lovemaking within a deep Sacred Union too.

So many of us know how to be psychically present. Yet, what about the process of becoming PHYSICALLY present? This to me is the deeper process for so many, as you feel the pain of the parts of you who have been traumatized, especially from abuse and neglect of so many kinds.

Feeling trauma is NOT easy… especially in a culture where it’s still encouraged (though this is shifting) to remain outside of ourselves or to transcend or bury it and sometimes this has been necessary too in the name of survival. In order to live inside of our bodies more, the passageway of the emotional body is very real and powerful, and one of the most challenging to be with without healthy modeling around that. This is why you have parts that have formed from the trauma, to try and find a way to self-preserve and even just plain survive the ordeals of life, unable to let in the ideals of a life that is more integrated and stable, starting from within.

What a process this is… and along with that comes so much processing around the body itself, whether through chronic illness, which always can be traced back to emotional wounding and sometimes wounding on a Metasoul level too… or through simply not caring much for the physical body or what it looks like, which usually has roots in deep trauma too and the Inner Punisher part of you will energize this until they are felt in their reasons for seeing your body in this way. Actually, every part of you has a different relationship to your physicality and can often play a role in perpetuating instead of healing chronic illness or trauma.

I feel the Scorpio energy offering to make your body a safe haven for yourself and all parts of you. To set healthy boundaries around who gets access to it in the name of deep self-love and honouring. To treat it like your home and temple and as a place where every emotional or spiritual process can safely happen and move.

This is such a powerful invitation when I feel it! It’s not something we can ever be taught but it IS something we can choose. The process around truly and deeply inhabiting and loving the body is so multi-layered and multidimensional with so many gifts of awakening to the whole of our Sacred Humanity waiting on the other side.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β Visit https://www.soulfullheart.orgΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

What Happens In A SoulFullHeart Bridging Session?

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by Kalayna Solais

 

 

https://youtu.be/Plbl9Ex1-Pg

 

I was inspired to do this video today to offer some picture of what it’s actually like to have a SoulFullHeart session, realizing that we haven’t fully explained it really, and even then, it does shift a lot depending on the soul involved!

I go into how the spaceholding begins really with the first point of contact, when you ask for a Bridging Session. We are feeling you already from the very beginning and feeling what it is you may need bridging to inside of yourself, especially through your answers to the questions found on our Sessions page: soulfullheart.org/sessions.

From here we offer guided meditations to get you started (most likely at least one about connecting with the the Inner Protector, which I offer myself here: https://youtu.be/zg44jCiGZfs).

I explain some more as well about the actual structure of a session and how we approach the process of feeling deep trauma with parts of you.

For more information about sessions, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions! You can also feel free to comment below and I will be happy to answer any questions you may have.

Much love! ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β Visit https://www.soulfullheart.orgΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Consciously Becoming A ‘Love Ambassador’

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by Kalayna Solais

To become your ‘Love Ambassador self’ is more than just an intention, though that is a beautiful seed to start off with. It’s a real invitation to embody compassion and empathy. It’s deeper than diplomacy. It’s deeper than simply claiming that you love everything and everyone. It’s a true and deep staircase into the depths of shadow and the heights of Divine love.

To become an ‘ambassador’ is to see and feel your next steps become clearer for this embodiment picture… to be willing to see, feel, experience, and come to know your own shadow so that you can support others in their own explorations. To this same depth, the steps of being able to go higher, to see the bigger, meta-picture of what’s REALLY going on and the Divine glue that’s holding it all together, are just as alive and deeply necessary.

You become through all of this a link, a connection, a bridge between aspects of your own soul, parts of you, parts and aspects of others around you and especially those who come to you for space holding, feeling your experiences and your embodied capacity for compassion.

This is a Divinely appointed leadership that cannot be trained or certified, only lived into and loved with all your heart and soul as you awaken to the desire to become this, as you feel how much you want to move every aspect and part of you beyond polarity and heal any need inside to still experience that as your primary reality. You’re a work in progress, always, and there’s always more to explore, but it’s your integrity in doing this that makes you a Love Ambassador… not perfection.

As we continue to walk out these challenging times on all dimensions and depths of consciousness, the call to become this ‘Love Ambassador self’ is undeniable and also becoming more and more necessary to answer! I myself find the daily challenge of feeling reactions and learning what I need personally in order to find this deeper embodiment to be an enlivening but also sobering process. I feel clarity come in about next steps and what there is to feel through as well as pictures, images, energetic impressions of who I most want to become from the inside, out. I imagine this is similar for everyone on this planet whose soul is choosing to awaken at this time!

We’re in the middle of becoming a planet full of Love Ambassadors, each with our own signature coming straight from our Divinely beautiful and healing souls… even through the messiness of the ongoing process.

Much love,
Kalayna ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β Visit https://www.soulfullheart.orgΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β 

Inner Love Ambassador Is Awakening As The Cabal Collapses

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by Kalayna Solais

Dream time lately is becoming fuller and more active. Lots of souls are visiting each other in this ‘dream state’ where we can connect even through the ‘social distancing’ measures happening in our waking lives. In a way, it could be because we really are missing more social connections and also detoxing from them too, while letting in ‘new’ ones, even. I feel these visits are also happening because of having more space to go inward and feel, to awaken the heart and enliven the soul in new ways, healing trauma that has lived in parts of us, especially the Inner Child, for a very long time now. This clears the way for us all to unify more within ourselves and with parts of us that maybe we had forgotten about or never knew were there in the first place, and also makes room to connect with others in new ways, from the more authentic places within, rooted in our opening and awakening hearts and souls. We are coming together, and it’s really beautiful and dynamic!

Last night it was pretty ‘crowded’ in my dreams! I had visits with some people I recognized and others I didn’t. I felt some people I’ve been connected to on Facebook but never met before, and some celebrities too mixed in there. If you’ve been going down ‘Q’ rabbit holes and feeling what is now shifting quickly from ‘theory’ to ‘fact’, you may especially be feeling ‘busy’ in your dreams was your inner Love Ambassador becomes more awakened and activated and your soul starts to bring you to higher consciousness states while you digest the heaviness and hope too as you sleep. This is where we all seem to be congregating and unifying more, meeting and reuniting. Interesting!

As your Love Ambassador awakens, you are able to be with the parts of you in reaction to what you’re taking in from a place of curiosity and love. You can feel the trauma of those you’re reading about, the children who have suffered from child trafficking for so long, with tears of remorse for not having seen this all sooner and sheer sadness for what they’ve had to endure. You can feel how hard it is to imagine forgiving the perpetrators while also remembering that cycles of retaliation and ‘eye-for-an-eye’ don’t ever work out for the better. We’ve all acted from our deepest wounding and trauma in ways we’d rather forget about altogether. The Ambassador within though, can face and feel what’s been true inside of you and your own Metasoul without losing faith in your own deep GOODness and God-child self… and likewise, your Ambassador can offer this bridge to others too.

I feel we’re all trying to integrate what we’re reading about and intuiting too while reconciling all of this to the world we’ve just been told we need to ‘stay away from’ for a phase, the world so many parts of you may have trusted was the ‘real one’ until now. Being told we need to pull out of the life we were leading on the outside is actually a deep gift that keeps on giving, even through the hazy moments of detox from 3D consciousness where almost nothing makes sense and reactions within are plenty. We’re taking a step back so we can see the bigger picture (if we choose to). So many of us are glued to our internet connections as a way to take in each other and the outside world, which makes for the perfect opportunity to dig deeper into the endless evidence and information out there that is coming even more to light. Our Love Ambassador selves come ‘online’ with us through all of this and I feel we’re heading into a time when we need to embody this ‘self’ more than ever before!

As exciting as these times are, there is still much to digest as we feel compassion for the pain of those around us who have been suffering in the systems now collapsing and also the pain of those not yet ready to awaken to the bigger picture. One thing feels certain though, we can’t help but all be in this together, because even in whatever ways parts of us are still convinced we are ‘separate’, we are not.

And as Q says…. ‘Where We Go One, We Go All’ …Ambassadors, parts, Metasoul aspects, polarized points of view… et. al!

Much love,

Kalayna

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are going to be offering a 6-week group call series that you can join by donation! It starts this coming Wednesday, April 1st, at 10am PDT on Zoom! Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe for more info. ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

 

 

 

Feeling What You REALLY Want And Need During These Turbulent Times

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by Raphael Awen

When the rumble of the collective fear of death goes viral through the collective by the aid of a media-hyped and created event, we do well to feel each and every part of us that resonates with that rumble.

Trying instead to stay β€˜high-vibe and positive’ invariably proves to be an exercise in denial and lying to oneself and others if we are not willing to be honest about the parts of us that actually are freaked out if they in fact are. You can’t stay high-vibe if you aren’t there already, and you can’t get to high-vibe if you’ve denied yourself a way to feel the parts of you who are low-vibe at the moment.

You were given a range of vibes for a divine creator reason and as a divine creator. That reason becomes very obscured and flattened when you are only permitting one polarity to live in you. What good is a piano with only the high notes?

What this Coronavirus actually is in terms of any real threat and in what scale is something that will only be known in hindsight. What is real is the fear that you feel that is kicked up by the story that is being spread far and wide. Our collective is so long overdue for a collective bowel movement and this one may well be one big dump, one that relieves so much. We’ve all had a hand in creating this need.

Because we are all one in a higher level of reality, we also do well to feel what this collective shift in consciousness is opportuning us to feel personally.

When I feel parts of myself, I feel aspects of me that want the future to be safe and bright and exciting and alive. I feel the parts of me that want purpose and engagement, as well as creature comforts. All of these goodies are threatened by the looming Coronavirus story – asking me to pare down my desires and settle for the story of the goal of survival. I feel the parts of me that aren’t yet assured of a bright and exciting future and wonder if we shouldn’t just settle for an outlook of mitigating disaster rather than full-on thrival.
Now grounded in what’s real in the inside, I get to actually process and create movement inside of myself from fear to love. I couldn’t actually get to the love were it not for the fear as my starting place.

And I also can’t get to the love I’m needing when I’m spending all my time staying up on the agenda of the Dark Illuminati/Cabal/Black Hats versus the Alliance/Q-anon picture of things as a way to distract myself from what’s really going on inside of me to me.

And when I don’t actually get to the love I’m needing and wanting, my vibe is invariably lower, I’m broadcasting that vibe as a reality generator to those around me before I utter a word or take an action. In other words, your and my greatest service to others begins and ends with the greatest service to self. β€˜Selfishness’ isn’t a bad word at all in 5D.

Whoever gave us the β€˜service to self’ versus β€˜service to other’ dichotomy was still living in the reality that there is actually any separation between self and other. This is the old picture of separation of spirit and matter, the separation of good and evil, the battle for supremacy that is being found more and more to be the root of all conflict inside and outside. There isn’t actually a β€˜whoever’ to blame here; we gave that picture to ourselves as a way to live our way to and through a movement of our reality.

We are this big, and our lessons are this epic! We get to do this and we get to do it as a collective and as individuals at the same time.

Allow what you really want, feel, and need, without denial, to guide you through these waters.

I’d be delighted to help you through your personal rumbles if what I’m sharing resonates for you. More here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@renebbernal

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Energy Update: Ripe Time For Awakenings, Deeper Connection With The Divine And Within

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by Kalayna Solais

Yesterday, I paused to feel the panic moving through the collective, how it could easily echo something that needs me inside of me, yet doesn’t seem to at this time…. At least not in the same way as it seems to be for others.

It rippled and ripped around where I stood. It told me, asked me, to keep being as still as I can, to keep holding space for it, to keep being a beacon of love and surrender during a dark time.

Having been through dark times in this life and many others, I know I can do this. I can be the lighthouse on the dark and stormy waters, whether the ships can see me or not.

My soul knows the solace, the solitude, the loneliness too, of being a β€˜healer’ in the midst of chaos. My soul also knows the beauty of the beaconing, the beckoning towards brighter shores of possibility and deeper connection within and with the Divine during such times as these when the death knoll (literal and figurative) sounds and there is an added poignancy and consciousness/awareness in our daily interactions and activities that we couldn’t get to otherwise.

My heart knows that this is all leading us to deeper connections to each other and ourselves as well as our beloved Gaia, as what is rebooting completes its reset cycle, bringing the collective into many different strands and strata of awakening.

All lenses are valid, all viewpoints need acknowledging. None are β€˜wrong’ and none are absolutely ’right’, for this world is not now nor could ever be black and white.

I think the deepest gift we can offer ourselves if we choose to isolate, to pull back and out from β€˜work’ or from β€˜social’ as a precaution is to go inward and feel. The world is on a sort of β€˜pause until further notice’ which is extremely rare. This is an opportunity to see what’s been brewing and moving on the inside of each of us. Where is the stagnancy and stubbornness toward love and surrender? Where is there a poignant fear of death or loss or both? These are existential questions, I know. Not everyone will be able to ask themselves or parts of themselves these just yet, but the invitation is there as always. And, as always, the Divine is here holding us all in whatever explorations we’re having inside and out and in whatever it is we are discovering about ourselves and our worlds, both inner and outer.

We are being invited to see our capacity to create the life we actually DO want and how this all comes from inside of each of us… from these places of panic and worry that are rooted far deeper than simply just being what β€˜is’ and therefore accepted as only what β€˜is’. There is SO much that needs our LOVE in these places. There are so many parts feeling their beloved 3D world being shaken up and so many Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes feeling a recapitulation of what they’re going through as well. Indeed, there are MANY layers all happening at once, so the need to pull it all back inward and make space for feeling it all is very, very real.

In all of this… there is nothing to β€˜vanquish’ but there is a lot to be with and love UP.

It’s from this inward place that it can all change for the better, starting with the chaotic INNER world, the one that tends to get brushed aside or buried far too often.

Much love to you all and everything inside of you that may be in deep reaction at this time….

Kalayna ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Process Of Healing ‘Sisterhood’ Inside and Out

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by Kalayna Solais

Letting in REAL sisterhood… the kind where you aren’t calling each other ‘sister’ because of blood or because somehow spirituality has told you that you ‘should’ in order to honour oneness and acknowledge, even just on the surface, our equality.

Real sisterhood is about calling each other ‘sister’ from the depths of our healing hearts as women. It becomes a declaration of love coming from the sisterhood inside, healing between parts within us who have been against each other for different reasons, and making space for this same frequency and depth of healing to happen between souls we are connected to on the outside.

This is new. This isn’t a process for which the depths of it have really been acknowledged. It’s challenging to look at how deep and often unconscious the competitiveness, comparison, and fear of each other lives and breathes within each of us as women. Simply starting to call each other ‘sister’ only reaches so deep. It so easily becomes a label without a heartbeat and without genuine care about each other.

To care about each other as sisters in soul and heart requires an awful lot of letting ourselves in, of feeling how and why it’s been hard to have deep intimacy with other women both in this life and in other lifetimes too and the karmic binds alive in them. It’s easy enough to let parts of us claim that this is a result of our conditioning and the messages in the media alone… yet, when we bring this inward, we can feel how yes, the outside influences have been there for a very long time, yet where the looping of this conditioning can finally close and heal is on the inside and this is where those lifetimes of persecution and pain can finally heal too.

Since the latest women’s call last weekend and for a few weeks beforehand, I’ve been letting in resonant relationships with other young women around my age who are doing the same SoulFullHeart process work that I’ve been doing for years now. We are taking the space to connect together, sometimes for several hours at a time over video call since we don’t live in the same country at the moment and can’t connect in person. We update each other on our personal processes and feel them together while we also clear anything that needs to be felt and cleared between us, feeling our hearts in the space and the desire to become closer. We feel our soul resonance and soul sisterhood on a deep level wanting to become more of a felt reality between us. This is not something I’ve experienced very often, especially with women my age, and that’s been so painful that parts of me in the past have shut down the desire for it altogether.

This is all an expansion of what I’ve experienced moving in me for years now with Raianna and Jelelle as part of this process too… but to be experiencing this with young women in my actual ‘peer’ group is a whole other thing, not surprisingly!

There are moments of caution that arise in these connections. On my side, I feel where this comes from is how often parts of me have felt ignored or unwanted by other women. The social pain of this continues to be flushed out, as even this morning I felt with a part of me that I’m calling my ‘Inner Sister’, how foreign it feels to really be ‘seen’ in my gifts by women my age and to SEE them in theirs too without feeling jealousy or defensiveness first. There are concerns for this part of me that we are/she is the ‘problem’, always, in every connection that goes sideways or when painful reflections are sometimes offered about how we’ve impacted others when connecting with them. Feeling shame takes over for feeling compassion for where the other person is coming from. This is all so much about intimacy though, and having a deep and real connection with other women needs to just feel strange and foreign and unknown until it becomes the new normal to be in these sort of ‘catalytic’ (not ‘catty’) relationships that get to expand the healing and growth on both sides. And, ultimately, the feelings of shame and being ‘the problem’ live inside of me between parts of me and this is the only place where these reactions and projections can fully heal.

We truly cannot place expectations on other women around us to become ‘sisters’ in a deep way without acknowledging the work that needs to be done within and between each other. This process though is so worth every moment of tension and expansion, because it IS what seeds the ‘reLOVEution’ we’ve been wanting to experience in how we relate to and treat one another, especially as feminine energies who are all here to be in our bigger soul purpose work and Divine Feminine LOVE ambassadorship!

Much love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.