Moving Beyond The Stickiness Of Lower 4D Consciousness

by Kalayna Solais

4D consciousness, especially Lower 4D, is a place where parts of you or aspects of your soul dwell and fixate on something they feel isn’t working for them, usually outside of you. When they’re in this dimensional space, which is more of a frequency and consciousness moving through you instead of a literal ‘place’,  they tend to feel that they want something about themselves or life around them to change PRONTO and they don’t necessarily want to wait very long for that change to happen. There can be an urgency about it, like something needs to shift right NOW, coupled with a fear that things will NEVER change, that life as you now know it and how it’s configured (and especially the way these parts/aspects seem to be feeling about it) will never shift into what you/they really want.

In 4D consciousness, especially lower 4D, it’s easy to forget that what everything, every piece of your walking-around consciousness within you really wants is love… and that there is a piece of not feeling truly worthy of it until this unworthiness can be deeply felt and held and the process of learning to trust love again is walked out, step by step.

It can feel sometimes like you’re drowning in plasma when these energies come up, as 4D consciousness is like a thick fog at times, shrouding what’s good and trustworthy and often projecting a ton of your own shadow onto something or someone outside of you. The wrestling with life, with love, with energies, is always playing out somewhere inside.

It seems like this experience of 4D is peaking in a way right now. It’s wanting us to move beyond it, even though it can feel as sticky as flypaper with so much darkness still purging and shadows still emerging, which is actually very compelling. It has such a strong gravitational pull that is hard to extract from or bring love to at times. It has a feeling of an endless abyss or void where pain can just writhe and squirm forever. Yet, it wants us to move beyond it and take it with us somehow so we can heal it starting from our own inner draw to be in it.

Connecting with different aspects of you from other timelines/lifetimes and especially those in galactic warfare, like any Orion aspect stuck in a battle of sorts that you may have come online right now (as I’m starting to really feel inside myself) can help you understand your own pull towards this darkness and why it’s there. Any of the darker timelines your soul has experienced, including in the dark side of Hollywood (one I’m learning that my soul knows well) or the underbelly of politics in any era or phase of ‘time’, are coming to light now as they need to start being held with love and compassion. We cannot damn them, for we are damning ourselves if we do. We can only open our hearts to feel them, to let in the remorseful tears, and to let Divine love help us hold everything that is just aching to be held.

Now is the perfect time to start really feeling all of this, as the support seems to be there from the incoming energies and, like always, from the Divine. We are ALL being challenged to walk out what we teach or offer to others, to fill in any gaps of integrity with our real-life experience in every arena of healing and moving back into love in ALL ways and on ALL levels of our being. This is next-level love ambassadorship and Service of Love and we’re all invited to take our next steps inward that bring us into alignment with an ever-purifying self-love overflow that can’t help but serve and support others to cultivate the same within them.

On Saturday May 11th, Jelelle is hosting (with support from Raphael) a virtual Group Transmission over Zoom which you can attend live or receive the recording for. The theme is Unplugging From the 3D/4D Matrix which would be a huge support if you are really feeling these energies right now!

Also, we offer ongoing 1:1 sessions to support you personally, which you can find more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Beltane Blessings & Celebrations Of Love & Healing

By Kalayna Solais

Happy Beltane to you ALL… this day is a day to begin anew, to remember what you are worth as man or woman, to be in the ache of your springtime renewal inside, that wants and waits to share and BE with a mate that loves and cherishes you as much as you do… and cherishes themselves too. The Beltane fire helps us to burn away the old, the rigid, the now stale old harnesses of the ‘past’. Being with parts of you who have reactions to this process is important on this and every day…

This poem I composed two years ago and it still stands as one of my deepest, as my soul so knows Beltane from many sides of it and many roles within it. I feel personal themes emerging this year of letting in the bigness of this soul within me that knows how to gestate in inner healing processes and celebrate the emergence of a new sense of my bigness and desire to serve.

I dedicate this poem and all of the frequencies within it this year to my beloved husband/mate Gabriel Solais with whom I share my heart, body and soul and many exquisite layers of each, and I dedicate it to my beloved Inner Masculine too, who has been and always will be an inner rock for my feminine parts to lean into. ❤

I dedicate it to YOU as well, seeker of heart and soul, that you’ll find what’s next for you on your sacred path becoming revealed to you on a deeper level, whether wrapped in self-mateship or mateship with an other.

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This Beltane Call, For The Love Of US

by Kalayna Solais

Beloved that you are,

When the smoke clears

on life’s regulating ways

and gives way to the undulating meadows

of new love’s first spring,

there I’ll be

standing in the light

of the sun shining above me,

firm in the ground I walk on

yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,

singing a song

we will both remember.

In Beltane’s past, my love

we dined and danced

and brought together our intertwining

everythings

to mingle in the love light

of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.

In Beltane’s new arrivals, love

we’ll linger long

in embraces for only us to feel

in the eye of the mind’s connection

until the refreshing breath

of a crisp and ripe chapter

brings us closer

in all elements of this life’s wanderings.

In myself I stay here for you, love

finding more treasure long buried

to show you

in vulnerable ownership

echoing the also deep claim

you have inside of you for you.

The winds of change

and graspings of renewing tides

grip at our thrown-about clothing

to move us closer

to the edges

that keep US alive…

Together we will meet, my beloved

and there we will find

what we have been searching for…

a counterpart

not to bind, but to bond

not to cling, but to sing

not stifle with duty

but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations…

of each new movement

here…

Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love

and see the power of our sunshines mingling

on a new insatiable appetite

of a love reunited

in a way that was agreed to

long ago and yet NOW too.

Even NOW I make a vow to you,

to be all the more loyal to myself

and dedicate overflow to you

to what we will create together

in our messy masses of alchemical baths

and swooning passes.

Love, when we do meet again

here

I will dress the moon in your honor

and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come

and our world that is being reborn…

On this Beltane celebration day,

As I ache for you

I prepare that place in my heart

that is you-shaped

where you already live…

and that place in my body’s life

where your essence will connect

so much

oh, so much…

with mine.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

What Is The Violence Telling Us?

The latest attacks in Sri Lanka have left another gaping hole in the heart of our collective humanity. I could feel my own initial numbness to it as “just another day in the news”. I really didn’t want that to be the case, but it can be hard when tragedy seems to strike in so many different places. I don’t take in too much of the details as I can get be a lot to let in, yet to feel what it is that is going on in our world, in our Heart.

We can’t help but to be affected by each of these acts of violence. They shake something deep inside of us even if we are not paying attention. Our soul knows what is happening. There is an underground river of despair that runs through our shadow. This despair can foment into so much need for resonance. Anything that makes one feel that they are not alone. There is a community that forms around this wound, this need for acceptance, purpose, and empowerment. The manifestation of this level of violence is a reflection of this depth of this pain.

Even the Lone Wolves seek audience.

We are a global community in need of feeling loved. Feeling like we belong to something greater even if that ‘love’ shows itself as violence. We have something deeply guarded in all of us that finds its way to the surface in one form or another. No policy, sanction, or security measure can heal that. It can mitigate it but not truly transform it. The only power we have is Love.

It is healing locally to shift globally. Nothing gets more local than you. What lies in each of us that is seeking our love? What violence still resides inside? What does Love truly mean to you and/or parts of you? Getting away from the chatter of the news cycle, the despair, and the rage, gives us a chance to go within to feel where Love still has its work to do.

I feel this as a sober reminder to myself that there is more to feel. More timelines that are recapitulating and recycling back onto the world’s stage for remembrance and reconciliation. Where do I live in all of that? What is still afraid to be seen in fear of retribution? This is the deeper work of our personal power and responsiveness to ascension.

Heaven is felt into, not fought for.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Message From 5D Gaian Self On Earth Day

Dearest Stewards of Earth’s Ascension,

You are here at a very special and unique time in Earth’s galactic history. She is one of many planetary consciousnesses that are on the precipice of a great transformation and evolution.

Gaia, as She is belovedly referred to, already exists in its crystalline blueprint. It lives and breathes in each one of you in the stores of your Gaian DNA. You are Her and She is You. Just like how the trees are interdependent and symbiotic, so thus are you.

You exist as a microcosm of Her complexity and beauty. What you see afar is what exists within. What you feel about Her is what you feel about yourself. If you feel she is in need of saving, where is that reflected in you? If She is treated with disrespect, how does that happen inside of you?

This is an opporTUNEity to feel and see yourself in a much greater vision. Your personal stewardship IS Her stewardship. You birth Gaia through healing your own beloved polluted waters. Through treating yourself with the same respect and admiration you give to Her.

Connect with the beating heart of Gaia’s compassion and trust in the cycle of death and rebirth. She knows this one well. She can catalyze, transform, and integrate it all with majesty. She is equipped and has chosen to hold this space for you and with you.

Do not worry about Her, for she is taking good care of Herself and Her beloveds. Those that are no longer in physical form have a place in another dimension. The very one that is trying to be embodied by your choices and courage to bring light and love to the shadow within.

Thank you for taking these words into your earthly human hearts.

– transmission from my Gaian 5D higher self Aerius

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Feeling is Healing

By Raianna Shai

Healing and awakening are very often incredibly difficult things to do. It’s not always high frequency, good vibes, and love and light. It’s diving deep into the shadow, letting go of what once meant everything to you, and realizing what needs to be shed and felt in order to continue your growth.

I had a day today where I felt like the last thing I wanted to do was heal and grow. I felt a deep sadness that, when in the middle of it, feels immovable and permanent. It was a process that required many rounds of tears that I couldn’t quite place. They were triggered by something specific, but were clearly about something much larger.

A part of me didn’t care where they came from to be honest, and just wanted to feel sad. She wanted to medicate all of the sadness away and forget about getting to the other side of it. But even though it was hard to feel in the moment, I knew that each time I felt this sorrow, I was healing something deep on a bigger scale.

Each tear that drops from our eyes, each feeling of unworthiness, anger and fear, each time we feel how hard it is to be here as deeply feeling humans, we feel something for everyone else in the world. We cry for every human – past, present and future, for every timeline that affects our here and now, every one we are surrounded by and touch every day.

Everything we feel is sacred and as difficult as it may be, your desire to feel it rather than suppress it is changing the world. We may not be able to rid ourselves of our suffering immediately and certainly not for everyone, but each choice we make towards love (including feeling how far we seem to be from it) is making an impact collectively.

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Living And Healing Into Trust

Photo by WhiteSparks Photography

Trust is one of the hardest things to lean into when it feels like the world around you and/or inside of you is collapsing.

We are comprised of so many experiences that can point to the opposite of trust and thus induce anxiety and despair. This is a big ship to turn around. The energy can be thick and soupy. Yet, when you come to meet this energy inside as a PART of your BEing and essence, a larger container comes to provide a breathing space of compassion and curiosity.

Parts such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child/Teenager, Inner Mother/Father, Gatekeeper, and Metasoul aspects contain a plethora of feeling data that can shed light on this distrust. It is also contained in the collective.

As you begin to unravel and heartfully feel these parts and aspects, within the space of another open-hearted experiencer, the clouds of this distrust begin to give way to the deeper Trust that lives in ALL of us.

What would life look and feel like if you could fully lean into that faint voice of intuition, passion, and desire?

The more you can lean into that and divest of any particular outcome, life takes on a whole new organic and sacredly mysterious quality that can only serve your highest well-being and purpose. The root of this begins where distrust lives and breathes…inside the heart and soul.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Healing Inner Conflict Into Our Embodied Truth And Service Of Love

Over the past few months, I have felt myself in a very awkward space between two of the most influential people in my healing journey. There have been times when parts of me could feel this tug to ‘side’ one way or another.

As a young boy, my parents were in a state of bitter contention at the end of their marriage. I felt the split inside of me to care-take both of them but for different reasons. This conflict found its way inside at an early and impressionable age. What was ‘right’ was more important than what was ‘true’. This theme also plays out in many soul timelines that are looking for connection and resolution.

As I felt this arise in myself once more, I could feel the ways in which this tug was always inside of me regarding my truth and needs. This is the ongoing work for me. It has been a challenge for parts of me this life to be in a seat of self-loving power, personal clarity, and expression. I could not have felt this without this relational experience.

We think we have ‘cleared’ or ‘released’ something inside of us when in reality it is always another turn in the spiral of healing. The energy is less and less but the theme will arise when it needs to in order to feel and heal it again. Each time arising anew and changed. I feel another layer of who I am as I continue to express more of my needs and truths.

This is ongoing. I feel more there to explore, examine, and offer love to. I used to feel that this was a disqualifier for me as a healer and leader. Now I am learning to accept that this is my personal certification process. I can only serve that which I have chosen to witness and heal within myself.

This arena of truth is a big top world, and it has much to teach us about who we are as men, women, humans, and BEings. It is the poultice of our soul.

Join me for my ongoing video series that I began yesterday as I will talk about this and other topics related specifically for men, but intended for all. Thank you as always for your taking in of my journey and how it may serve your own.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Death & Rebirth Cycle Q&A Live Stream and Guided Meditation

In this live stream which aired on Facebook on April 3, 2019, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators, Jelelle Awen and Gabriel Solais, offer a space for digestion of the March Ascension energies and the process of death/rebirth that they are inviting you into. They also offer an update to what the April energies feel like.

Part way through the video, they lead a guided meditation to connect with the ‘death doula’ energy inside of you that allows for the death process for parts of you that need it… and the midwife that can birth the higher-dimensional timeline/reality into the NEW.

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Springing Into The Service Of Love Self

This has been a March for the memory banks. Shuman spikes, supermoons, retrogrades, and the like all swirling the pot of our emotions and soul trajectories. High highs and low lows came in and out like spiritual weather fronts. One of the themes that came out for me this month was “the only constant is change”.

We are changing. You are changing. Gaia is changing. It is a big global birth pang I feel we are going through. As sensitives to this growing shift in consciousness, we are becoming aware of all of it in one gestalt. This can be a LOT to be with, let alone digest. Feeling what is yours to be with as separate from others and the collective feels like a vital part of April.

Going into your own emotional body, feeling where the rumbles lie is an essential part of this continuing wave we are all riding. Self-love is more than just what you feed yourself, the exercise you do, and the rest and relaxation you take. All of that is essential too. It is also about feeling and loving all the energies/parts of you that are in this reaction to all that is occurring in this ascension of your Service of Love Self.

As this higher ‘version’ of you arises with the tide of Gaia’s path, the hidden, rejected, guilty, pained, and shamed parts are coming up for healthy and loving integration. How we are with those parts matter. I don’t feel that they can be just seen and integrated in one fail swoop. They need tender and constant caressing and compassionate feeling. Holding court for their needs and stories to unwind and be felt in the deepest wells of our loving human heart.

This includes so many ‘this life’ parts as well as ‘other life’ aspects that live in other dimensional frequencies. If you can reframe these from ‘negative’ and feel them as they are, a trauma in need of being felt, then you take a whole new direction in the journey of what you came here to do and BE. Serving love to your selves first IS the first step to serving love to others.

I encourage us all to make April be about this invitation to cultivating this inner garden of your heart and soul. There are things to unearth in that soil that become the seeds of your highest and most treasured timeline. The one you already exist on yet have needed to forget in order to learn and remember. The support is here. The energy is there. The time is always Now. The courage of choice and feeling are what can take you there.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Energy Update: Last ‘333 Day’ Of March Brings More Completions, Bridging To The NEW

by Kalayna Solais

Energy Update: March has felt like the longest month in some ways, hasn’t it? It definitely feels like time was stretched over the course of these last 28 days. And now, coming up around the bend, we have our final ‘333’ day of this ‘3’ month in this ‘3’ year. Phew! I, for one, will be happy and relieved with this ‘month’ is over and more concrete steps can be laid for the moving on from the rubble and chaos into more order, even if it’s only temporary.

This month has so felt like a burning inferno of change and destabilization of old timelines. A month of burning and learning. We have been asked to not only walk on but co-create with the Divine (and those close to us too in some cases), NEW bridges to NEW life phases that hold much unknown in them.

It has felt in moments like these new bridges have been veiled in a thick fog too, adding extra mystery as to what could be waiting for us on the other side, yet the invitation to deeply trust the process, trust the Divine, trust that we are LOVED, has been there too. To TRUST that any risks taken this month WILL lead to more goodness, more love, and even more service of love if you’re oriented to that as I am.

Parts of you have likely been reacting to sudden changes in course or personal alchemy, to changes in relationships of all kinds, to sudden shifts at work even, especially if it is work that doesn’t align with your soul calling or what you, your growth, and your Ascension path truly need right now. Consciousness has been shaken up this month too. Lots of pots have been stirred big time by the Divine this month, giving all of us a lot to process!

All of these shake-ups have stirred up other timelines your soul is anchored in too. The veils have been super thin this whole month, giving us the opportunity to work some darker or lower-vibe pieces, integrating the gifts they offer as they teach us so much about ourselves and patterns we’ve fallen into in THIS lifetime/timeline.

A big soul process for me this month has been feeling where my soul aspects are still learning about healthy self-validation, serving love without concern of ‘performing’ or even ‘being seen’, clearing old ways of relating to people in general… it’s been a lot but it’s been right on time too, as the soul calling to step up and get bigger in order to serve more is getting stronger and clearer.

On this next ‘333 day’, it feels like we can expect perhaps some more of the shadows in each of us to become illuminated as they have been all month, along with poignant moments of celebration and excitement for what’s to come too.

I also get the sense that this coming weekend will offer some completions of deep processes held this month and a launch pad for the next phase where yes, there will still be much that is new and unknown, yet clarity will be stronger as long as you can stay the course and keep feeling your parts, your soul, and all of your desires too. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.