Tag: Ascension

Timelines Collapsing As Your Higher One Comes In

Published on by Jelelle Awen5 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Powerful, catalytic energies this month of March already, just starting and yet JUMP starting so much it seems. You may be experiencing a major timeline collapse right now in your life. This may be in the form of relationships, career/job, geography, physical health improvements, etc. The previous, even beloved in many ways, timeline that you called, ‘your life’ is shifting in a rumbling and significant way as supported by these Divine love energies.

A timeline collapse that has been chosen by your awakening and by your soul self feels different than the ones that happen due to more 3D-based trauma or tragedy. In these 3D ones, it feels like something is happen TO you. It can feel like life is ‘against’ you and you are being ‘punished.’ This can lead to many feelings of disempowerment, suffering, distrust, and depression in parts of you. These kinds of 3D collapses seem to most happen when someone is asleep to their greater suffering and needs a ‘wake up call’ to see and feel it.

A timeline that is collapsing due to your soul growth and awakening can be challenging to navigate, yet there is a feeling sense that you are being supported and held by Divine Love. You are connected to the higher purpose reason for the collapse and you trust that it is happening for your greater good. You can feel how it is ultimately in the service of love. This allows for you to hold space for any of the understandable victim reactions that may come up in parts of you (esp. the Inner Child/Inner Teenager) and respond to them with compassionate love. This allows for the necessary mourning and honoring phases as something once beloved is let go.

There has been a strong phase, especially in 2018, of feeling and being real about what is no longer wanted and desired in your life. There is more etheric connection to your higher timeline life in meditation and in more moments too experience AS you. There has been much watering inside of these realities and sense of which parts of you resist letting go and changing and WHY. This is an ongoing process, even to digest the goodness timelines that start manifesting.

Yet, you may start to feel now that your higher timeline is not only possible, it is HAPPENING. Often while the ‘old’ one is collapsing. This is the sometimes bittersweet navigation of the previous while the new is coming in. This is the bliss mess. This is the natural birth/death/rebirth cycle. This is the transition out of 3D and into lower 4D and beyond that you, we, and the collective are all going through. This, also, is the Ascension process that births out of the just as sacred descension process.

Now is an important phase/time to get clearer about what that higher timeline life looks and even more importantly FEELS like. To connect more and more to the essence of you that is the expression of serving love, your 5D self IN your body, that allows for more expression of it.

Here is a guided meditation to connect to your higher timeline and meet your Inner Protector (who becomes an important guide on the journey as he/she shifts from guarding/protecting/battling):

https://youtu.be/T0K7Ti68gNo

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Addiction As A Portal Into The Heart And Soul

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

“What is gripping you as an addiction is actually a profound invitation and portal into what your heart and soul came here to learn.” – words from my teacher and partner Raphael Awen this morning.

Addiction is something anyone can be struggling with regardless of spiritual awareness. It is actually a portal INTO your spirituality that addiction can take you. At the root of this painful loop, is a feeling, an experience, a part of you that is in deep need to be felt. They can range from an inner protector/punisher, inner mother/father, teenager, child, or multidimensional self that is struggling to be and resonate in this dimension of existence.

For men, these addictions can range from alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, pornography, over-working, sex, unhealthy relationship, politics, news, depression, anxiety and even things that are intended to be positive such as spirituality itself. For women it can be closely related yet with differences. It is not the thing one is addicted to that is at question, but rather the relationship we have to it.

What is it that lies under the need for the thing itself? What is it that it is so very much wanting us to steer clear of? By accessing the inner world of parts can you then feel the one that is using the addiction as a safety net, or in many cases an blowhorn for your attention.

YOU are not the addiction. When one can find space between himself and the part that is addicted a whole consciousness comes into view that can lead to a healing relationship that is internally generated and held with support along the way. This part can begin the journey of receiving its needs through YOU, the centered heart, and not the object of the addiction. It can receive Love from the Divine and other spirits through this channel of You.

It is an ongoing and sometimes difficult journey that can only start with one question that leads to feeling. What is it that you need that you are not getting from the inside?

Raphael and I will be discussing this topic in our next sacred masculine live stream this Wednesday. Time to be announced, but it will be in the afternoon Pacific Time. The recording will be shared on our feeds and on our SoulFullHeart Experience channel. We are looking forward to hearing from many of you who are moving, or have moved through difficult addictions.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Dare To Lead With Love: A Message From Archangel Michael

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Son Day. Sacred Masculine activation and Divine Father connection day. I felt an invitation from Archangel Michael this morning to step into a deeper relationship and partnership with him. An invitation for all of us, both man and woman, to feel him differently. He wants us to feel and see him as a bridge and ambassador to the Father Divine. He wants us to lay down our swords and shields so that we can feel the masculine in a whole new way. To remember it back into our hearts.

He says:

“The war is over. There was never really one to begin with. It has always been, and ever will be, within. A need to reconcile the separation from Mother/Father/Source/Love. I cannot, nor will not, protect you from your own shadow. I can support you, guide you, and co-create with you, but I cannot stand in the way of what it is that you were meant to experience by your soul’s choosing.

The masculine is in need of a reboot and a reframe. A return to His nature as a magistrate of the Will of Love to replace the Rule of Law. To embody and integrate the Yin to His Yang. To heal His own relationship to the Feminine and The World. A new archetype is ready to emerge from this courageous journey of vulnerable surrender mixed with impassioned action. A steward of conscious embodied evolution rather than a warrior for peace and justice. For in any war there is no peace and no justice only more separation.

True change begins with your own reflection. See it in its entirety. Feel where Love has been kept at bay by your own understandable protection. You are a leader, my brother. You are an agent of change by the very light you shine to yourself and then to others. Dare to be kind. Dare to be decent. Dare to be truthful with an open heart. Dare to make mistakes yet not be ‘wrong’. Dare to believe that Love will hold it all. I will be there with you every step…if you dare.”

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AA Michael painting by Christie Martin

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

333: ‘Divine Align’ Higher Timeline Opportunities, Next Steps INvitation

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By Kalayna Colibri

It’s 333 Day today! A powerful time to feel where you truly are right now, to acknowledge yourself for where you’ve been, and to see the illumination of where you’ve yet to go… it’s a day for conscious creativity, to see how your creativity has expressed, and to feel your intentions for your creative flow from now on.

‘Divine Align’ comes to mind and heart right now, but of course this can be much easier said than done… the journey into this alignment is truly one of exploring and refining your integrity, feeling parts of you that are afraid of being vulnerable and truly admitting when they are out of integrity, and being courageous enough to take those steps into the deeper truth of this.

We are creative beings. We can’t stop creating. There are new opportunities to create and recreate starting from inside of us in every single moment. We have infinite choices in this world of infinite possibilities. We are choosing, always, whether or not we are ready to take the next step into our higher timeline and if we are truly ready to align with the Divinity within. I feel reassurance today that there are no setbacks and there’s no way to really go ‘backwards’ even when parts of you feel like they have.

Your Inner Protector may especially feel like they’ve ‘failed’ you, failed their ‘mission’ to protect you from hurt, harm, and even love when love is catalytic and feels like a tidal wave coming in to shake up your entire world. Yet, even this very powerful part of you does not have the ultimate say as to what unfolds for your soul and the bigger picture of your life…

If you’re up for meeting your Protector today and feeling their story with them, here’s a powerful video and guided meditation from Jelelle Awen that you can take in:

I have felt many times with an Inner Masculine part of me, which once expressed as an Inner Protector for me too, this fear of ‘failure’ and have felt very tenderly, with many tears, all the ways in which they feel they’ve ‘failed’ or ultimately let you, or (sometimes especially) ‘God’ down. It’s a relief to them when you can let some air into the room and remind them that they haven’t…

Today, with this ‘333’ Divine alignment of numbers, it’s another invitation to let in Divine love in this way and let this love rumble even your most defended parts of you, to help you shift from fear to love on a deeper level, aligning you with clarities about your personal service-of-love expression if it’s truly time for that, and bringing you a sense of empowerment in your life that may show you an array of choices you’re invited to feel into.

The Divine truly celebrates YOU today and always… and is inviting you, without a doubt, into your next co-creative steps with It as you become ready to deeply embrace them. ❤️

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Support To Feel Soul Bigness Coming In

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by Kalayna Colibri

There is SO much support coming in to help you feel your soul bigness, even beyond what you’ve thought of as your biggest self thus far. These codes are activating your true service-of-love possibilities and asking you to show up in a very direct way that may feel more like a demand than a request in moments! These moments are when you are called into action in such a way that stretches your capacity to hold yourself and your parts while also showing up in service to others.

A time to pop out of the old way of responding to life, self, others, and above all, love… and to expand into what is more in line with how your Higher Self would respond to all of these pieces. These waves tend to be sparked in the Inner Masculine in both men and women and you may actually feel this as a more masculine energy than a feminine one… one of heeding a call to loving yet direct action and penetrating through false bubbles (with love… this is where the feminine comes in to help at times), while holding compassionate space for others and for parts of you too as needed.

I sincerely feel this invitation for myself too in this moment and all moments leading up to this one in the last two days at least… the energies coming from the Sun have been especially powerful and activating and I feel how the tides are turning for those of us, myself included, who are here to serve love from the overflow of love now cultivated within after many years of focus on healing the self. For me, I feel the invitation to continue to step into my leadership and bigness, and to be open to how that chooses to express right now.

This is a truly amazing time to continue to awaken and to feel the wounded masculine and feminine aspects/parts within begin to deeply shift into the sacred from the scared… this process is different for everyone, yet palpable just the same and very impactful, inevitably, on the deep healing of self and the collective too.

It definitely feels appropriate to connect with Divine Father or any loving Divine/galactic masculine energy you feel drawn to right now, as these activations are from these energies and are stirring up what needs to be stirred in the here and now to continue this process of birthing the NEW, starting withIN.

Here is a guided meditation led by Gabriel Heartman to connect with different faces of the Divine Father:

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Inevitability Of Rebirth

Published on by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

Rebirth has a way of finding you.

No matter the life circumstances or situations, as we choose ascension we chose death and rebirth. It is purely unavoidable. The things that once seemed so true become untrue until they are meant to be true again, but in a whole new way.

The habits, geopgraphies, relationships, and livliehoods all come a moment of sacred rumble. It is the permanence of impermanence that guides this path of growth and authentic alignment. What you continue to hold onto that doesn’t fully align with where you are heading as an individual, will always be highlighted by the Divine time and again until you get that it is finally time to take a deep hard feel into what is real and aligned…and what is not.

Rebirth isn’t always about letting go. It is also about going INto. Into the fire of passion and purpose. Into the sacred dance of romance and service. Into the shadow and into the light. Into fear and into Love.

The emotional and spiritual bodies hold the keys to unlock these ‘heart spots’. The ones that have been hard to see or just not wanting to be addressed due to the understandable fear of death…OR is it the rebirth that parts of you fear more?

What does rebirth mean? What does it look like and feel like? Who with be there to keep it all afloat? It is an empty canvass and YOU are the artist. YOU are the one that responds to love instead of fear. What would life be like to no longer respond in the old way?


These are the voices that come from within. Your Protector, your inner child, your teenager, your Metasoul timelines. The network of parts that make up the network you call You. These are the parts to hold and feel that help midwife this scary yet alive New.

The solar activations and geomagnetic storms are sending these canaries out of your heartmine. Hear them. Feel them. Hold them. Love them into this new birthing one courageous day at a time. Support is here and now.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Painting by Delawer Omar



Being In All That The Moment Has To Offer: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Feb 25, 2019)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week’s Museletter launches with a piece by Raphael Awen, who invites you to feel the difference between striving to ‘be in the moment’ in order to feel better and choosing to ‘be in the moment’ in such a way that allows you to feel everything you’re currently feeling:

“What if really being in the moment is more to do with a simple willingness to feel all that is moving through in any given moment …..even if it isn’t peaceful, or centered, or loving? Centered, loving and peaceful can only be real if it begins with an acknowledgment of what it isn’t.“

He goes on to highlight how being in this feeling place allows you to become an ambassador of love to all parts of you in each and every moment, allowing them to deeply heal and move out of suffering for good. This is where the most profound life changes stem from, or conversely, if the real pain is not felt, then major and necessary life changes are actually shut down or avoided.

Join us for a meeting at the SoulFullHeart Community House on March 3rd from 1pm to 3pm PST to experience a guided meditation and personal sharing afterwards! We will lead you in a powerful, high vibrational guided meditation to connect to your Higher Self. Your Higher Self is the aspect of your soul that vibrates in a higher vibrational frequency and is available for you to experience, get guidance from, and also embody more and more.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be facilitating an in-person group session on March 10th from 10:00am to 5:00pm PST in Victoria, Canada for $111 CAD minimum donation. The group session offers resonant soul community, individual process digestion space, and high-vibration connections.

For more info on these events, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We have two powerful live stream recordings to share with you this week! Raphael and Jelelle led a live stream during the latest Supermoon, where they shared a guided meditation to connect with the energies and activations coming in and digested their effects plus some new ways to feel everything you could be feeling.

The other live stream was an intro to the ongoing video series that Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman are going to be leading together, about healing the wounded masculine and discovering the sacred masculine within for men and women, both. They led a discussion about the ways in which to discover the masculine energies within and feel how the wounded masculine has likely expressed in your life, and offered guided meditation in which you’re invited to connect with your inner wounded masculine, sacred masculine, and Inner Protector too.

There are many new articles and audio recordings for you to take in this week from Jelelle and Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna Colibri, and Raianna Shai. They all share about the Love Ambassador that you can BEcome to parts of you, energies around you, things rumbling in the collective, your own process, and every single thing you may be feeling.

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Being In All That The Moment Has To Offer

Published on by Raphael Awen3 Comments

By Raphael Awen

Using ‘being in the moment’ as a way to not feel something a part of you doesn’t want to feel isn’t being in the moment at all.

It’s being in something else, quite removed from the moment actually. No wonder another part of us hasn’t really gotten on so well with all the ‘be in the moment’ advice.

What if really being in the moment is more to do with a simple willingness to feel all that is moving through in any given moment …..even if it isn’t peaceful, or centered, or loving? Centered, loving and peaceful can only be real if it begins with an acknowledgment of what it isn’t.

After years of doing emotional work and feeling tons of shifts, movements, and corresponding life changes, I still feel the challenge that wants to ‘get to’ the good feelings and skip over what’s actually in front of me. Maybe it’s something built into our DNA that gravitates us towards order out of chaos. But then, order emerges out of and is born from chaos. Chaos is the soil that bliss and order gets its’ definition from, we could say.

We go through our hells to find and live in our heavens. Again and again.

Choosing to become an Ambassador to all that’s really inside of us is the invitation that we are now being invited into. The parts of us that make up our inner being are very keen to feel if this Ambassadorship we are mounting in our lives is an Ambassadorship of true love, or, instead, just another agenda of control and domination in some new shape or form (like duty and obligation, for example).

Another big one, for those of us who have chosen awareness of what we are actually feeling, is readying ourselves for the life changes that our awareness will lead us to. Our Inner Protector will shut down our awareness if that awareness is causing us to cycle in suffering; to get stuck in our hell, rather than finding traction out of the suffering.

All of this is what makes up a Love Ambassadorship. Feeling all there is to feel, not accepting any domination and control agendas (whether they originate inside of us or outside of us) and moving into our higher timelines.

How could any of that really happen if it wasn’t for a true love Ambassadorship inside? Ascension without this Ambassadorship only makes for more undigested trauma to be felt at a later date.

How cool is it to be lessening rather than adding to the ‘trauma to be felt’ list? Then, and maybe only then, can we, as the love that we are, more fully be in the blissful moments we are all wired to crave and gravitate towards.

Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Telling Your Truth With Both Strength And Compassion

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By Raianna Shai

Telling your truth can be a multi-layered and surprisingly complicated process. It’s rare that we are taught how to truly and lovingly set boundaries, speak honestly, and be vulnerable in our relationships. In order to tell your truth from love rather than fear, there’s a beautiful blend of both the masculine spine and confidence and the feminine heart and compassion.

I’ve been learning a lot about my own process when it comes to telling my truth and I’ve realized how compartmentalized it has been for me. I’ve never been all that confident with telling people how they affect me or what I’m really feeling. I am very open about what is going on in my life but when it comes to anything that could cause conflict, hurt, or harm, part of me avoids it like the plague.

One way that I tell my truth is solely from my unhealed feminine heart. This can be beautiful and soft – but without a more masculine holding of it, it can come out meek and small. This is when I will share how someone made me feel but then follow it up quickly with “but it’s not your fault!”. I have this desperate need in parts of me to make people feel safe and comfortable. But this way of being allows people to think that what I have to say isn’t important. That I don’t need them to see or hear me because it’s my responsibility to take care of it and heal. When sometimes, it really is the other person and their energy that isn’t okay for me.

Wrapping conflict in layers of padding and protection, trying to keep it from exploding or becoming real – this isn’t actually loving to anyone. This hinders rather than supports real growth. Being able to tell someone that something they have said or done hurts you brings you that much closer together. It gives you the opportunity to get to a deeper place around it and actually deepen your bond. It doesn’t have to be something that deeply offends or hurts them, it can actually be a way to show them that you care and that you want MORE of them not less. You just want more of who they really are, not more of the walls or protection that allows them to do or say things that hurt you.

Another way of sharing your truth is through pure, unhealed masculine unsentimentality. This is a powerful part of us that can see the bigger picture and make decisions not based in attachment or codependency. But when I’ve shared my truth from this place alone, I have been able to really hurt another person. It makes people feel judged and small and not cared for at all. It does not allow space for the other person to grow because there is no heart there to really feel them in it. Why would a flower want to bloom in the desert?

Then we look at a blend of these two energies. A part of us that has the spine to make hard decisions that is best for everyone and a loving part of us that can create a compassionate space for hurt to arise, be felt, and potentially move in to something new. Without the heart, there is very little room for anything to shift or change in the way that you want. Without the spine, there are rare moments when the heart is really heard and felt.

I have been feeling the consequences of this compartmentalization lately but I have felt so much gratitude for being able to discover why it’s there inside of me and what was even going on when it happened. Now I can learn and grow from my experiences and offer loving boundaries to anyone I encounter next. These strategies simply came from fear for me. A fear of getting really close to someone, of being seen for who I really am, of shattering an image of perfection, of potentially hurting someone else, and so much more. We all have our reasons for being this way – all we can do is learn, grow, forgive, move on and love as fully as possible!

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Seeing, Feeling, Healing The ‘Past’: Mother Mary Transmission

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By Kalayna Colibri

This came through this morning as I connected with Mother Mary… a face of the Divine Mother that is key to helping us become love ambassadors to all parts of us and all beings around us. I felt this for myself, as a way to forgive what has been and move forward into more of what and who I want to be, and I felt to share it, because Mary offers so many beautiful frequencies of love and forgiveness that are so so needed now and always. ❤️

“To you, and all parts and Metasoul Aspects of you:

Starting from a young age in this very lifetime, you’ve only ever done the best you could with what you’ve been consciously and unconsciously taught by birth family, close friends, your pursuit of love and intimacy, and your pursuit of spiritual fulfillment, too.

You’ve been invited to fire-walk through the shadows, the challenging phases of figuring out what was theirs and what is actually yours in your heart and soul and BEing… a necessary and sacred process of death and rebirth, and sometimes a very painful one.

You are forgiven for all expressions of not-love you’ve had to walk out towards yourself and others in this process… beyond ‘forgiven’ actually, as you are infinitely and intimately loved by the Divine that holds you and is within you.

You’ve needed to push, to grapple, to tumble and fall. You’ve needed these messy times of awakening and realizing what you want and don’t want, sometimes without much explanation… sometimes hurting or maybe harming others in the process of feeling and finding your boundaries, or even in the holding on to relationships that are no longer resonant.

You’ve led yourself to this very place you are in now, and if this is not a place of deep fulfillment, you’re invited to feel this, to feel the discomfort, to feel the loneliness, to let all of this alchemize your next steps inward and outward. You’re invited, always, into your next steps, which are always leading you home: to the heart and soul that holds you, and the love that is always surrounding you.

Your next choices are arising now… they are small or they are big, yet the impact is the same. You can choose to feel and be felt, to arise and become real, and you can choose to feel and heal the past so you can live in your new present… the one that will always arise as you do, as you pursue it from inside, as you feel the seeds of what you most truly want being planted in the nourishing soil of feeling and healing.

With much love for you, your journey, and everything inside of you…

Mother Mary ~ “

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.