What Does It Mean to Love ‘Authentically’?

by Kalayna Colibri

The conditioning is deep around what we’ve been taught real love and care is and looks like. It’s challenging to feel it in different ways, to take a deep look at how we’ve related to love and how we’ve been convinced we’re supposed to embody it.

So often what we think of as loving or caring can have more of a negative impact on others than a positive one. False apologies, empty promises, tugging and grabbing at others… these frequencies can be obvious or subtle. And in any case, we aren’t genuinely caring about our impact on others, only what parts of us want and are afraid they won’t get or look like on the outside. I so know this one from my own process too, and learning to see and feel even the subtle ways in which this happens is illuminating and invites you to shift these patterns for good.

I think so often we (or parts of us) are actually terrified to deeply feel what it would be like to be someone else and genuinely feel our impact on them, whether or not we feel we’ve been ‘loving’ toward them.

This is tricky… and hard to feel too. It can be hard to look inward and challenge how we have been holding love and what it means to love another, whether in official ‘service of love’ or in everyday relationships. It’s amazing what it illuminates within though… which is so often an untouched inner reality of how we ourselves, and parts of us, have felt incredibly unworthy of real love, abandoned somehow, and in a void space that has never been filled by genuine self-love and the journey of unfolding that within.

So what does it look and feel like to actually care and love another person?

To me, it feels like giving space for another’s growth without tugging on them to join in on yours. It feels like inviting someone to share with you what they need and want, but not with a commitment from you to make it happen for them. It feels like the overflow of good inner-parenting, of relating to yourself and getting to know your own quirks and shadowy aspects and energies within you as well as your gifts and growth and flowing this energy to another to support their own inner-parenting to grow and blossom too. It feels like being willing to let go even when your heart really doesn’t want to.

It’s a lot to feel into these pieces and truth be told, I’m not sure any of us can truly master this skill of loving another in the purest way… we and parts of us all have understandable investments in relationships of all kinds and hopes that they will last too. We all have desires and dreams and don’t really ever want to feel lonely (though really landing in the loneliness has so many gifts too)… we all have what we want to experience from others and in our lives in general. Yet love asks us to trust… to invest in the process yet divest of the outcome. To feel what we want most and understand that it won’t always come to us in ways we can control.

Above all, love wants us to remember that it is never against us or anybody else, though it can feel that way at times. It only ever wants us to experience more of it within so that we can share it with others. This flow of love is really all the ‘service of love’ is anyways, though it can be dressed up in many ways and be given many labels and is not always easy to truly embody for ourselves, let alone others.

Much love to you as you continue to experience your own journey into more and more REAL love, and the path of learning to embody love in the most authentic way possible. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Bringing Your Focus Inward In Relationships

By Jelelle Awen

The entanglements in long-term relationships of all kinds can feel SO deep. Like layers and layers of stickiness that may feel difficult to even identify one strata from another. There can be a multitude of binds AND bonds formed from so many moments spent together in an agreement of shrinking, conforming, grasping, and….very often….abusing. The abuse can range from subtle to overt, yet any time love is withheld, there is some frequency of violence transacting instead….there is fear transacting instead of love.

This legacy of entanglement was passed down to you. You inherited this from your parents and their relationship with each other and other people too. Whether based in disconnect or outright conflict or brother-sister flatness or passive aggressive somewhere in between, your parent’s relationship most likely didn’t form from an authentic, consistent, and rich ground of self love and love for each other. Yet, rather, it formed from undigested wounds and traumas, from safety and comforts, from Metasoul karmic playouts, and from the dysfunctional legacy about relationships that they received from THEIR parents too. This is a legacy of scared unions rather than sacred ones.

Parts of you so completely take in this templating of polarizing energy in relationship. Parts of you receive it and take in it in order to survive here. They take it in to provide protection for your vulnerable and innocent Inner Child. Your masculine learns how to be so from your father’s modeling….your feminine from your mother. Some of this templating is consciously rejected, some of it is consciously emulated. And, so much of their templating impacts you and then forms into cohesive personalities that may be unconscious to you even to this day, yet are often hugely interfacing in your current relationships.

Making conscious HOW relationship was modeled for you and how it then LIVES in parts of you can be very illuminating. Very liberating. Rather than the focus outward on your partners or on your parents or on other people……you can pull your focus and your love inward. You can feel and learn about your Inner Teenager/Child, etc. and how they feel, how they hurt, how they express in magical tones. You can meet your Inner Mother/Feminine and feel how she operates and reacts to life situations. You can connect with your Inner Father/Protector/Punisher, etc. and discover how he expresses in your life. You can come to understand how they relate with each other too and transform the scared unions inside you into sacred ones. You can embrace these energies inside of you with total love in your heart and MUCH compassion.

As you BEcome this loving energy toward the inner relationships within you, you can THEN draw less polarized relationships with those outside of you. You can remember then that the clashes and thrashes….the codependencies and attachments…..the struggles and conflicts…….originate always from within…..from one part of you to another.

The hooks to go ‘back in’ to toxic or mostly abusive or fear-based relationships is about what remains unhealed INSIDE of you that resonants still at these frequencies. The draw to stay in relationships that you are shrinking to fit in and are mostly 3D-based (with little to no soul resonance) is often about a conforming that is going on between one part of you and another (usually the Inner Punisher and the Inner Teenager.) It can also be about Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes/timelines who are caught up in traumas and dramas with very strong and influential energies.

More about parts and Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

The questions about relationships of all kinds can be the most troubling and confusing for people, leading to much suffering. It is probably the number one thing that people ask help and support for in sessions. This is mostly because parts of them get caught up in it being OUTSIDE of them and then feel disempowered and out of control (exactly what the Inner Child/Teenager feels in the parental relationship.) Also, this is so being pushed up by the Ascension energies and the awakening process, which invites you to move from fear-based relationships into love-based ones.

To bring the focus and attention inward brings clarity, clam, purpose, AND empowerment. It brings in self love and healthy self management that then leads to advocacy and clear boundary setting with others as well.

We support during 1:1 bridging sessions and ongoing individual/group sessions the explorations of these inner grounds of the relationships inside you….one part to another, from this life and from other timelines/lifetimes as well. It is an illuminating and fascinating journey for which there is much trust held that eventually the MOST nourishing reflections of love in outside relationships becomes infinitely possible as this ground is sowed and grown from within! More info here: Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Here is a video from my 33 Day Metamorphosis series talking about navigating relationships from the inside out. I highly recommend watching this free series for an overview and introduction to the SoulFullHeart process:

https://youtu.be/lrN8DCScPmg

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Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing sessions virtually over zoom and in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Celebrating The Bliss Mess Of Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen

I am feeling so appreciative of the transformational crucible/ground that IS the sacred union I get to experience with Raphael Awen for ten years now. We just spent three days alone together in our new beautiful home….the expansive ocean and mountain views holding the space for our explorations into our USness.

We dove into meaty terrains and tender textures of vulnerabilities together. We experienced the bliss of making love afterglow that lasts for hours…..soaring on higher frequency waves of body-grounded and heart-connected vibrations that can only be formed and created through our union.

We navigated the mess of karmic patterns and cycles that are no longer unconsciousness and can repeat themselves out in recapitulated situations and rare conflicts between us. Being WITH the Metasoul aspects living out the timelines in struggle, in collapse, in dying (such as Atlantis)….in order to be reborn, in order to HEAL, both personally and for the collective too. We allowed these Metasoul aspects to speak to each other, to have their own emotional realities of their relationship come through our consciousness….feeling so much compassion for their experiences, helping to move their fear into love, and feeling the gifts of their connection infuse our present day one.

This dance between us is both very practical and absolutely transcendent and magical. Its range continues to amaze me…..as it is too a mirror of the multidimensional range of me that keeps opening out with this process of meeting and connecting with parts of myself and aspects from other timelines. I am aware in these ‘surrogacies’ with Raphael of unity consciousness from WITHIN primarily as previously polarized energies are able to come into alignment again as reflected by the same process happening inside of him.

This is a sacred union with a deeply resonant soul that is also working with parts/Metasoul aspects of themselves. This is a sacred union where there is transactable connection on ALL levels of heart, body, mind, and soul IN the physical here….in daily life together for as many moments as you can possible BE together. THIS kind of union invites you into the deeper depths of yourself and your Metasoul/other lifetimes/timelines, which is why it can be so challenging to wait for, to want, and to finally BE in.

I feel we ALL have the capacity to be in this kind of sacred union….within and with other. NOT settling for anything less than THIS is what allows it is to come into BEing. Engaging in the process and work to feel/heal/see/be with these parts of ourselves that SO need us is crucial to this draw.

Thank you, my love, my partner, my mirror Raphael…..for this and for many moments to come arising into the bliss mess of existence here together.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging sessions with me or other SoulFullHeart Facilitators allows for the feeling sense of sacred union within that then draws the sacred union with other. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Photos were taken by a professional photographer who just happened to be on the beach at sunset and offered to take pics of us

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing sessions virtually over zoom and in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Lunar Eclipse Energies: Feel/See Your Highest Timeline & Fears Of It Too

 

by Kalayna Colibri

New possibilities… I feel them humming in the background of ‘everyday life’ with a frequency of soft invitation. Nothing is being forced in these moments. You may be experiencing activations, yet you can only ever be invited to step into the bigger container of soul and heart that they co-create with you, not pushed, though if parts of you have resistance to the invitation than it can feel this way to them. Awakening is growth and expansion and eventually, you become too big for the small container your parts have been used to feeling “OK” with in your relationships, job/career, healing path, etc.

‘Activations’, whether from lunar or solar energies, are awakenings into higher timelines… the highest being the one where there are no compartments needed and everything, every aspect of your life, can flow together in a beautiful (though sometimes messy) dance of integration. Maybe you can feel parts of you that are still wanting the compartments and are willing to defend the borders of each area of your life with any ammo they can find. Maybe you can also start to feel that each part who feels this way has good reason to fear the collapse of these borders that they have worked so hard to defend.

This coming full lunar eclipse on the 27th has an energy of feminine invitation… it’s a frequency that doesn’t force, yet illuminates and holds space. It’s an activation of the heart, a gentle flip of a switch on the heart-light, that helps you feel the parts of you that need to be felt through this whole process of Ascension and everything that is being brought to collapse or completion along with it, as well as everything that is being activated in the soul by SOULar energies. Along with feeling and being in relationship with these parts of you, comes the awakening to your highest timeline possibilities, the ones that have felt impossible or at least very far away before. Feeling the push-pull inside you when you feel the picture of your higher timeline opening out is important now, and the feminine helps you make room to feel all there is to feel while also taking steps toward inhabiting/embodying it.

Feeling the “I want it/I don’t want it” polarity dance inside of you is important, especially as you feel the powerful call into service of love and the call to feel your personal desires for your life too. The movement that comes from feeling your parts/Metasoul Aspects around this in a loving container held by you will go much deeper than any “quick fix” or looking only to outside sources to move it for you. The gift of finding that powerful healer within you whose ultimate superpower is the deep love of every part or aspect of you is one that WILL last and is the main ticket to that higher timeline flow you’ve been aching to truly be in.

Much love to you as these eclipse energies continue to flow in and encourage you to just feel… in this moment and every other moment that follows. ❤

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If you’re feeling drawn to asking for support on your journey to illuminating and stepping into your highest timeline(s), I would welcome you to connect with me for a 90min Bridging Session if you are a woman who is 35 or under. My beloveds, Raphael, Jelelle, and Gabriel also offering Bridging Sessions. For more information, you can visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Life’s ‘Perfect Storms’ Support You To Feel All You Need To Feel

by Kalayna Colibri

The perfect life conditions offer us the ‘perfect storm’ to feel what we need to feel.

Parts of us pop-up like pop tarts in a hot toaster, when life offers us the right circumstances, the necessary temperature, for them to come up and out. If parts aren’t ready to ask for you to feel them, you won’t be able to tap into their reality. It’s like waiting for apples to ripen on the tree before you can pick them. A premature picking of unripe fruit does not encourage the digestive system to flow. So too with the digestive system in your emotional body…

This perfect storm of emotional reactions surfacing that were once well-buried or ‘handled’ differently (or not at all), are a tidal wave that can feel like overwhelm and craziness, yet sooner than you realize you wash ashore on a new beach, where you feel and meet a NEW you and feel more joy than before, more settled inside of yourself than before, though your heart may still feel raw for a time. It’s a process of becoming BIGGER than the fears and the resistances, by going through them, feeling them, being with them, not BEING them or all-out transcending them.

You couldn’t have come here to this place of intense feeling inside of you without life lining up the path for it. Even when you feel knocked off balance and like everything is akimbo, this is actually the perfect gift to get to know something deeper inside of yourself, to love yourself more on the other side of deep-seated tension and reactivity. There is a trust that is built inside of you, that can weather these storms and in fact may jump wholeheartedly into them, trusting where they are taking you next.

During these intense waves of feeling as if we aren’t in control, that something or someone else is driving the bus, you might want to write it off as an ‘entity’ or it being imposed on you by ‘bad energies’ or ‘Archons’. It’s not that these things and beings and energies don’t exist, but they can be used by parts of you as a scapegoat for something you need to take responsibility for inside of you and something that actually wants and needs you to go IN and feel what’s going on on the inside, not on the outside…

Life’s ‘perfect storms’ rock the boat in a huge, impactful way, and yet even when parts may feel shipwrecked, it really is just another path to your ultimate wholeness and healing and your triumphant return to the love that you are. ❤

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To support you on this journey of deeply feeling these emotional storms and the sources of them, check out our offering one-on-one Bridging Sessions… a loving space to illuminate and feel your next healing steps: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-sessions ❤️

“Generation Me”: Love Yo’self

By Raianna Shai

Okay peeps, let’s jump back on that Millennial train! All aboard the Generation Express!

I’ve been feeling into this topic more and more and even decided to do a bit of research today to get a feel of how others perceive Millennials. The biggest thing I grabbed from this research that ties it all together is the label “Generation Me”. This feels interesting to me because it covers the perceptions of this generation being both narcissistic and open minded. There seems to be an agreement that technology and the Great Recession have had huge impacts on our generation as well.

That felt a bit like writing an essay but part of me (probably my masculine) wanted part of my digestion to be “informed”. Now to feel my feminine intuition and what the plights, struggles and desires are in general for people around my age.

Feeling into this “Generation Me” label, my first thought is that this feels true on some levels. I feel that technology has not changed anything about who we are, but it has ushered in a new wave of self awareness. How we present ourselves has become more relevant because more people can “see” us online rather than just in person. It’s impossible to say whether an entire group of people is self absorbed or just self aware – the important thing is feeling how this “Me” space can become emotionally and spiritually healthy.

Being self aware does not have to be a negative thing. In fact, nothing is truly “negative” when you feel the layers deep down inside. Someone who seems “materialistic” “narcissistic” or “entitled” really just has parts that are scared. Scared of failure, of losing what they love, of not being good enough or being abandoned. Of course, these parts need a mirror to be able to take responsibility for how they affect others, but they also need love and support. They don’t need to feel wrong or less than any other parts, they just need a boundary and a space to feel their fears. This in turn can transmute into more self loving feelings such as confidence, self acceptance, and trust in the Divine.

On the other end of the spectrum, there are people at this age that are seen as tolerant, open-minded, and selfless. These are all beautiful things to be, but where does the self care come into this? The more narcissistic parts of you may seem “bad” compared to these other parts of you, but their gift is that they know how to put themselves first. Which does NOT make you selfish or unable to serve others. Putting your own process first just means that you feel worthy of love and understand that it’s so important to fill up your own love tank before you can fill up others.

Many of my own parts tend to be more like this and I find it so difficult to speak my truth. My parts don’t quite have the self love built up enough to express love in the form of boundaries and truth telling. They can feel like they’re being “mean” or “unfair” when in reality their truths can be beautiful enough to catapult someone into their next phase of bigness. Tolerance sounds great on the surface, but would you rather be tolerated by someone, or truly loved for the bigness you are?

I still have more to feel into this piece on “tolerance” because it is SO huge today, and I want to feel what my deepest truth is around it. My parts want to love everyone fully and completely and I do feel that I love everyone and every soul here with me in this experience. But this does not equate unconditional love. We have conditions in order to be in relationship. My conditions lie in a healthy and loving relationship to emotions and parts, an ongoing process of getting know and love those parts, and a self awareness that continues to lead to heart openings within and without. That doesn’t mean I don’t have love in my heart for absolutely everyone, that is the difference.

Maybe your conditions are just “don’t be a murderer” but it is a condition all the same. These boundaries show your parts that they matter. That they don’t have to be around any energy that makes them feel less than loved. Even contention can be full of love if it continues to move, flow, and be felt deeply. Boundaries do not make you a mean or selfish person, they show others that you hold them in the highest regard. It shows that you know they have the potential for such bigness and that that is all you can truly support for them. Boundaries held with your heart, are love.

So to “Generation Me” I say, whether you have parts that resonate with any of this or not, you are not wrong and your parts are not wrong. Living in self love and truth every single day takes time and work but it is SO worth it. YOU are worth it. Labels do nothing but hold you back from the absolute bigness that your heart really holds. You are not narcissistic, you are not mean, you are not even perfect. You are you. And THAT is perfect.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Following Your Sacred Union Desires: Our Story

By Jelelle Awen ~

Ten years ago, I received an email from a man asking me to explore a relationship. As soon as I read his words, I felt my entire body flush with a warm, loving energy and an inner knowing. I already knew that this man’s heart and soul were SO big, generous, and powerfully good, that his intentions toward me were pure, and that his dedication to his own healing/awakening process through parts work matched my own. Before that time, parts of me couldn’t handle the mirror that he offered me of me and there just wasn’t enough self worth to claim our connection.

Finally, after three years of knowing each other, I felt a ‘yes’ to letting him in. I felt a ‘yes’ to seeing where the reflection of ME that he offered would take me.

THAT exploration and THAT man have brought me more joy, goodness, reflection, growth, and stepping into my own bigness than I ever could have imagined! Our union expands and deepens each day, with new grounds of co-leadership and collaboration continuing to open out and offer surprisingly meaningful gifts to ourselves and others!

Thank you to my BEloved, Raphael Awen, for every moment since then and all the future ones to come! I’m so glad I said ‘yes’ and I’m so grateful that you pursued what you wanted!

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By Raphael Awen

Ten years ago, my life took another big turn.

Today is Jelelle and I’s ‘nibble on cheese’ anniversary. I sent Jelelle an email that said ‘Would you like to connect soon? We could be like two mice nibbling on cheese.’ I knew it sounded a bit cheesy, but I was determined to be unedited and to be okay with whatever the outcome. In the three years prior, I’d brought her an attraction two other times, and though I accepted and respected the ‘no’ that came back, that didn’t stop me from trying again when another attraction arose. This time, I got a different response.

Today, I live in an ongoing honeymoon phase; a ‘pinch me’ reality. Is this really true? How can this be? What button did I push to make this happen? (part of me is still asking)

This woman who lived ten hours and a country away from was in my orbit to see occasionally over a three year period, but now, for the last ten years she’s hardly more than 25 feet away 24/7/365. We’ve left two countries behind, have plans for many more and can’t wait to walk into the next moments together to feel and experience what wants to be felt and experienced through us.

I so believe that one of the deepest things we came here to earth for, and that we chose human being experience for, was to be willing to enter the place of strong desire; to surrender and be vulnerable to having intense wants. Wanting a sacred romance is probably one of the biggest desires we can surrender to. I feel this to be true, because once you enter the sacred romance, it will call you to deeper and deeper desire and vulnerability and it won’t stop.

Your desire to admit what you want, to never deny it, even if you get told ‘no’, will be the stuff you’ll need to actually walk out the having of what you desire. Your willingness to long and pine for what you don’t have and find really hard to see anywhere in sight, will be what enables you to draw that.

You too, can have it all, for nothing more than the willingness to want it, and want it and want it some more.

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Raphael and Jelelle Awen are Ascension Guides, Sacred Union Mates and Teachers, SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Co-Creators/Teachers. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, writings, and videos with them.

Relationships Are A Mirror: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (July 2, 2018)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Go here to read it!

This week’s Museletter features a piece by Jelelle Awen that digests the mirror that ALL relationships are, for what is going on inside of you. She offers that 3D reality has given us strong conditioning for looking outward instead of inward for answers about life and what we’ve drawn to ourselves in terms of relationship. Going inward is a powerful invitation into more growth and healing and a way to shift out of old relationship patterns:

“You realize, then, that EVERY relationship in your life is a reflection of relationships going on inside of you….from one part of you to another. The polarization with other people represents polarized realities inside of you….the inner child and the inner mother/father, the Punisher and the inner child/inner teenager, the inner feminine and the inner masculine. These parts of you seem to be ‘against’ each other in some way due to not being connected with, seen, and felt. The inner conflicts rage on unfelt and, so, draw the same dynamic on the outside. More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You realize that the outward relationship would not be there if you didn’t need to SEE this inner relationship. Every relationship with another person serves as a mirror in this way. As you become more aware of your inner world and the parts in it, your soul self/5D Self coming into your body and waking consciousness can then choose WHAT mirrors it wants to see of itself.”

There are many new writings and audio recordings offered by Jelelle & Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman this week, digesting the incoming energy waves, the full moon that passed through last week, and many other aspects of your healing and Ascension process, like letting go to let in, embracing the big soul that you are, and allowing your desires to be a sacred part of your journey too.

You’ll also find information about our five-day retreat happening here in beautiful, Puerto Vallarta, Mexico in November, 2018. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We all offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Incoming July Energies Support Change Choices & Integration

by Kalayna Colibri

It doesn’t feel like we’re in a phase of much being activated at the moment, though it depends very much on the phase that you find yourself in. If you’ve recently been navigating some significant life changes, you may find that you’re actually in a phase of integrating them… and if you’re trying to figure out your next step at the moment, or taking some sort of action in order to exit one phase and enter another, you may find that you’re being asked to find some stillness amid challenges that are springing up. It feels like whatever side of “change” you’re on right now, whether in the INcubation or INtegration phase of it, you may be feeling the birth canal of the rebirth these energies coming in are inviting you into. And what’s more is that these changes are a direct result of your awakening journey so far… they are all a graduation point, even the difficult ones, and they all want to lead you to your next places on your journey.

You may be starting to realize that parts of you have been over-focused on ‘making change happen’ in one particular area of your life, whether it’s trying to lose some physical weight, moving to a new home, looking for work, or completing/beginning a relationship. This over-focus feels two-fold to me: first, I feel there is an invitation here to feel how the work to ‘make something happen’ is a part trying to force something that perhaps has its own timing and probably out of a fear of missing out on an opportunity or to bring someone or something closer to you in your life for fear of losing them, or losing your next chance, whatever that may mean; and second, I feel too the invitation to begin seeing the bigger picture of the changes, that they connect to all areas of your life and not just one. It’s like trying to work out by only targeting one muscle group when really it’s your whole body that needs your attention and love. Plus, compartmentalizing is probably losing its ground for you in general, so the focus on only one thing/area or even person in your life is something you won’t actually be able to maintain for long as it all wants and needs to connect and integrate together.

It feels like July is a ‘hot’ month for bringing in and settling into changes too. I get a ‘coming and going’ sort of feeling around it. You may be experiencing a push-pull inside of you around change too, as parts of you want it and others don’t, and this polarization becomes harder and harder to ignore. You can choose to feel the parts and the ways in which they’re attached to what you’re taking steps to let go of and the ways they feel about what/who you’re trying to let in too. Your Inner Protector especially will have opinions and observations to offer, as will other parts of you.

As always with the incoming energy waves, there’s much to feel and awaken to within. You’re always invited to find expanded consciousness and a brighter view of the bigger picture of Ascension, the Cosmos, etc, yet this expanded consciousness landing within you is the one that truly lights up your path, your action steps, your stillness needs, and the parts that need your love as you choose, inhabit, and integrate the changes you most need in this Now. The Divine Mother/Feminine and Her many different expressions are here to be with you and hold space with you too as you explore all of these elements of your being… I feel Her honouring all of your choice points and everything you’re feeling or even ‘not’ feeling along the way, while also encouraging you to keep going, flowing, finding ways to BE with all of the challenges and desires, both.

Love to you as you feel all there is to feel on this next stratum of your ever-deepening healing and ever-increasing desire for everything you’ve ever wanted to have or happen in your life. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Relationships Are A Mirror

By Jelelle Awen

The push and pulls, the mixed feelings, the uncertainties and doubts…..These feelings can SEEM to be so often about circumstances and situations that are outside of you. That person, that relationship, that dynamic….it is easier to focus outside than it is to go inward.

3D life has conditioned you to look outward. 3D reality supports you to project yourself onto others, onto cultures, onto self image-based ‘ideas’ of who you ‘should’ be. This conditioning creates a feeling of not knowing who you are unless it connects to other people. This produces a malleable sense of self represented by a shifting cast of characters/parts covering over core wounds of unworthiness, separation/abandonment, and disconnect.

You may have a Phd in understanding and analyzing other people….your mother, your father, your romantic partner, your friends, your siblings, your teachers, your clients. You may empath other people’s feelings to such a high degree that you BEcome and fuse to their emotional states as if they are your own. You may fixate on other people as the ways and means to obtain happiness and deepen your awakening as if how they are relating with you holds the KEY to how you can be. You may be focused on changing THEM as the way to receive the love you want.

It is challenging to decondition from this 3D focus on the OUTside and other people, yet, during awakening, your soul starts to move your attention INward. With this inward movement, you start to naturally retract away from the previous 3D-based social networks that served to define who you were. Your soul supports you to wake up to see, heal, and feel the traumas that bond you to other people. Your self awareness collaborates with self compassion, self love, and curiosity as you go into a deeper dive into your heart and soul.

You realize, then, that EVERY relationship in your life is a reflection of relationships going on inside of you….from one part of you to another. The polarization with other people represents polarized realities inside of you….the inner child and the inner mother/father, the Punisher and the inner child/inner teenager, the inner feminine and the inner masculine. These parts of you seem to be ‘against’ each other in some way due to not being connected with, seen, and felt. The inner conflicts rage on unfelt and, so, draw the same dynamic on the outside. More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You realize that the outward relationship would not be there if you didn’t need to SEE this inner relationship. Every relationship with another person serves as a mirror in this way. As you become more aware of your inner world and the parts in it, your soul self/5D self coming into your body and waking consciousness can then choose WHAT mirrors it wants to see of itself.

As you heal the inner relationships between parts of yourself, the mirrors represented by others begin to show you ONLY resonance, soul connection, and non-polarized frequencies of love. Then, a healthy sense of unity consciousness can start to transact…love flowing from your open and healing heart/soul/mind to and with the other person’s open and healing heart/soul/mind. You are becoming whole INside and don’t need them to define you in any way. You complement each other rather than compete with each other. Your consciousness can merge together in moments, yet you can still remain individual, sovereign soul sparks.

This is emotionally mature relationality INside and with others. It happens as you connect with each part of you that so needs you and heal the polarized frequencies inside of you. It happens as the integration and unification happening inside of you is able to overflow out to all those you chose to be in relationship with. It happens as you let go of any mirrors and reflections of you that are LESS than the love that you ARE.

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We support you to bridge in self love to parts of yourself during powerful, illuminating 1:1 bridging sessions with me for women or Raphael Awen for men and women. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-sessions

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.