A Man’s Journey To Self Through Feeling His Relationship To His Mother

A man’s relationship to and with his mother has such a big influence in his relationship to women, the feminine (internally and externally), and his ability to let in the kind of love he yearns for. It also has an impact on his individuation as a man in the process of maturation and ascension.

As a man, this relationship has deep roots not just in this life but in our soul. So much of our wounding can be projected onto our mothers, as well as onto other women because of our relationship to our mothers. Unearthing these roots and entanglements takes a man into a sacred journey of finding his truth and his own inner feminine energy.

It makes it very difficult to feel that when in a wounded relationship to mom. This can come in the form of of the Inner Protector, Inner Teenager, the Inner Child, as well as our Inner Mother/Father. There is a natural and necessary phase when a man needs to unachor from his mother to find the depths of its wound and authentic transactability.

At some point, the Divine Mother replaces the deeper need a man has in his soul and a new, conscious relationship can arise between mother and son if each are doing their work. This more vulnerable and authentic relationship can inspire and inform a sacred romance with a woman that is not based in the recapitulation of this wounded mother-son wounding.

On this Day of Mother, I feel a desire to hold all men accountable to their authentic and conscious relationship to their mothers, the feminine, and the Divine Mother of all. Only then can real and true growth happen in the heart, the genitals, and the soul.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Message From 5D Gaian Self On Earth Day

Dearest Stewards of Earth’s Ascension,

You are here at a very special and unique time in Earth’s galactic history. She is one of many planetary consciousnesses that are on the precipice of a great transformation and evolution.

Gaia, as She is belovedly referred to, already exists in its crystalline blueprint. It lives and breathes in each one of you in the stores of your Gaian DNA. You are Her and She is You. Just like how the trees are interdependent and symbiotic, so thusΒ are you.

You exist as a microcosm of Her complexity and beauty. What you see afar is what exists within. What you feel about Her is what you feel about yourself. If you feel she is in need of saving, where is that reflected in you? If She is treated with disrespect, how does that happen inside of you?

This is an opporTUNEity to feel and see yourself in a much greater vision. Your personal stewardship IS Her stewardship. You birth Gaia through healing your own beloved polluted waters. Through treating yourself with the same respect and admiration you give to Her.

Connect with the beating heart of Gaia’s compassion and trust in the cycle of death and rebirth. She knows this one well. She can catalyze, transform, and integrate it all with majesty. She is equipped and has chosen to hold this space for you and with you.

Do not worry about Her, for she is taking good care of Herself and Her beloveds. Those that are no longer in physical form have a place in another dimension. The very one that is trying to be embodied by your choices and courage to bring light and love to the shadow within.

Thank you for taking these words into your earthly human hearts.

– transmission from my Gaian 5D higher self Aerius

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Full Moon Message: β€œYour Arising Aligns With Mine”

By Kalayna Solais

Said the Full Moon to its Witness, “your arising aligns with mine”.

“But how?” the Witness asked. “How can I arise as you do, with the splendor and beauty of a thousand colours at once and none out of place? To be worshipped and seen as you are though you are so still and simply ARE who and what you are?”

“Each time I rise,” the Full Moon responded, “I do not doubt that my shadows will too, that my light will sometimes be dimmed by a power not my own and a will I do not control. Yet, I trust, I surrender, I humbly rise still. First within me, then in front of you, whether or not you choose to take me in.”

The Witness paused for a moment, having never heard this before or felt the Full Moon in this way. The invitation as palpable as the winds that blow and herald a rapid change of season.

The Full Moon continued, “we are the same, you see. We have different roles, yet here we are, here for reasons sometimes unknown yet lived out just the same in a dance we often cannot name.”

And with these words, the Full Moon glowed with wonderous yet effortless energy. The Witness wondered at Her beauty as the message landed deep within.

“It’s time,” the Witness whispered, “to light up, to love it all, to be as I am and to allow it all to arise along with me… Shadows and light… For a purpose beyond my own. Yes, Full Moon, I have heard you… And will arise with you for the rest of my days as long as the strength within arises too.”

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Her Essence Cannot Be Burned: A Poem From Divine Mother, For Notre Dame

By Kalayna Solais

She does not live in our buildings.

She lives in our hearts

Our souls

And our bodies.

 

Our precious inner artistry

Cannot be lost

With the destruction

Of a symbol.

 

Our opportunities

To anchor into Her love

Will keep popping,

Cropping up

And inviting us inward…

Calling us YIN-ward.

 

Her essence

Cannot be burned.

It lives

despite all efforts

That rail against the dawning

Of the Feminine Day

And wail

That She has forgotten us.

 

Her arms, outstretched

Remind us to trust

Her heart, open

Reminds us to open our own

Even and especially

When it feels most challenging

To do so.

 

With the love of Our Mother

We align with Her

We remember Her

And we fall upon Her

To collaborate with Us

As we birth the New

Pressing through the birth canal

Of our highest and deepest hearts.

 

Much love,

Kalayna Solais

And Divine Mother ❀️❀️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Notre Dame Burning: An Invitation From Divine Mother To Feel Your Own Death/Rebirth Cycle

By Jelelle Awen

As I feel into the burning of Notre Dame cathedral, I feel this sense of inevitability and of surrender too. This occurrence is a representation of the death and rebirth momentum process that we are all undergoing individually and as a collective human culture.

‘Our Lady’ cathedral is not just a representation of a patriarchal church matrix system that we are quickly outgrowing and meant to move beyond. The cathedral was not just a house of darkness and wounded shadow representation. To take an overt glee in her burning is to deny the parts of you that are still connected to expressing this shadow. There is a mourning here too in what has been ‘lost’, what has gone up in flames, what will no longer be in the same form…..just as is happening inside of our own personal death-rebirth processes too.

Notre Dame was also a temple created in honor of the Divine Mother…whatever frequencies could and did come through the filtering of the church. Whatever energies just naturally ARE innately in all of our souls in connection to Divine Feminine frequencies. NO BEing or organization or institution is just truly evil and of the dark. To feel this is to be overly polarized to a good vs. evil picture that is STILL anchored to the 3D/lower 4D matrix.

Tribute and celebration of the Mother was the TRUE mortar that held the stone bricks of the outer form together. Over the 200 years that it was created and alchemized, love of the Divine Feminine inspired and motived the formation of it. When I visited there many years ago, I could feel/sense the Divine Mother all around me….even though I wasn’t as consciously awakened to Her energies back then.

I climbed the bell tower’s steep stairs and I felt teleported ‘back’ to the timelines where other souls had done that too. With reverence and appreciation and a sense of honor, they rang the bells that were their means of celebrating the Divine Feminine. I felt particularly connected to the gargoyles and their protective vigilance, which mirrored my own inner protectors and Gatekeepers and guides that had long guarded the feminine. The rose windows reflected back the beauty of the metaphysical….. and I stood in front of them for a long time, feeling waves of appreciation for the devotion that inspired them.

As you go through whatever reactions are coming up in response to the burning of Notre Dame, there is an opportunity to feel your Metasoul aspect (soul fragment) that is connected to the church. You may have a soul sister/brother that is deeply attached to this temple as an outer representation of a deep inner trust and faith that can only be expressed this way. Or you may connect to more of a shadow aspect that needed to declare complete allegiance to the Church as a means of survival and soul experimentation.

FEELING what comes up in response to this event, making it personal, leads to the next discovery places of self and soul…..which is where it really starts to get interesting, cathartic, and useful.

I feel much love and support from the Divine Mother today to help those that need it to digest this event…..and the ongoing support from Her that is just THERE as needed and asked for. That is perhaps the biggest offering of this….a reminder that the Divine Feminine lives and breathes not in a building, yet in each of our hearts and souls….always.

love,
Jelelle Awen
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Energies Encourage You To Take A ‘Leap Of Faith’ Into Your New Timeline

by Kalayna Solais

Plans are moving forward pretty quickly lately… feeling like we are living in several timelines at once feels apt to say, considering that that is the nature of shifting timelines.

Much to let in as we keep letting go… remembering that the grieving process is as sacred as the excitement for the new. All parts have their own reactions to change, to risk-taking, to moving forward and onward… and ultimately UPward as we deepen our heart and soul’s trust in the Divine andΒ the incoming Higher Timeline.

I felt so many tremors and tensions yesterday… like an earthquake was moving through while the logistical choices, research, etc were felt into byΒ GabrielΒ and me as we co-lead our next movements toward Europe as not just a destination, but somewhere to BE for as long as we can be. Somewhere to continue to upgrade our service of love, somewhere to continue to explore the timelines and lifetimes alive in a geography so rich with β€˜history’ that isn’t really β€˜past’ at all but billowing and vibrating in the NOW.

This is a time when in some ways we are being asked to jump. To take a leap of faith and trust, even if that feels beyond reach for parts of us in moments as anxieties about money or the β€˜how’s’ of everything surface. This is not just a process for us personally along with beloveds of ours who we will be making this shift with, but also for many others who are at the crux of big changes and collapses of their current timelines.

To unplug, to move on from, your current and known reality always requires a leap of faith. This faith is not just in some force or power outside of you, but in YOU and your soul, ultimately. It is an invitation to take some known risks, to be at the edge of discomfort and explore it all. To get curious about what’s rumbling and how deep instead of avoiding the rumble and what it brings up.

There’s so much more on the other side of each process, no matter how big, that we inhabit around action-taking, next steps, ways to approach our impending timeline possibilities. There’s so much MORE that we get to BE and experience ourselves as once we are through the forest of choice points and challenges that come up with every big life change.

To not be alone in this feels big… to recognize that feeling parts of you is actually another way to feel accompanied, along with feeling Star Family and Metasoul Aspects of you in other lifetimes too. There’s a lot of support coming in to help you feel through it all and the support you need in human form could be at your doorstep too…

The corridor of big life change is opening up. Will you take your next step into it, even if for now that step feels small?

No choice is as small as it might seem… it’s all rooted somewhere in your soul, as it navigates its own sacred way back to the love it knows so well. One felt step at a time. ❀️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

4/4: Reminder Of Divine Love & Support During Intense Phases

by Kalayna Solais

So much of who we are going to be on the other side of this lengthy and often intense Ascension process is shrouded in uncertainty. I don’t get that we’re actually meant to ‘know’ much about this bigger picture of who we are and are not. Just like a toddler learning to toddle, so we are love itself learning how to love again.

We cannot avoid the trips and falls, but we can keep getting back up, building strength, growing resolve, and choosing to keep seeing the world differently… especially the world within each of us, learning about ourselves and others along the way.

I remember the first time I was given this picture by the Divine of a toddler learning to walk… I was on a ‘break’ from my SoulFullHeart process, taking space to be on my own solo adventure in Mexico. It was my birthday. I felt so sad… so many tears coming up, with parts of me that felt like they were failing. Feeling so lonely and missing those I had been so close to but was now pushing away from out of a need to grow ‘on my own’ for a while.

I remember laying in bed, sobbing, and being offered this picture of a mother and father bending down at one side of the room, calling to the little girl in front of them to keep getting back up again and to take that next step. She kept falling down but eventually got to them and together they celebrated this incredible milestone of ‘first steps’.

The Divine offered me the sense that I was the toddler in this picture, that everyone must learn to walk before they can run and that this is exactly the process of healing, evolving, and growing on every level that everyone must be with. I was offered that the Divine has infinite patience for this process, celebrating every aspect of it… every breakthrough, realization, or even ‘fall’ we endure as we all learn to get back up again, trust again, and believe in love again.

More tears came as I felt the infinite love and support I was surrounded by, especially during a time when parts of me felt so much self-punishment around the sabotage of an old life picture and a feeling like I was doing everything I ‘shouldn’t’. I felt so comforted by this message and especially felt the young parts of me that had been caught in the cross-fire of all of the recent changes, landing in the loving laps of the Divine Mother and Father, both.

If we all, in this very humbling process of Ascension, can remember that in the bigger picture we really ARE all ‘toddlers’ in many ways, we can go back to the feeling our souls so know of being loved for everything we ARE, even when it might feel like the world has gone dark and there is nothing left of love or goodness.

No matter how often we may seem to fall into more cycles of death and rebirth, thrashing out about this or that, feeling the cries of the world, or feeling the cries of our inner world, this is all part of the picture of learning to walk in love again. We do get to point out what isn’t love and sometimes that comes with charge and contention. Yet, we do get to find the softness and vulnerability again too, that often comes from the tender and usually rather young parts inside that are so ready to be connected to love again, to help bridge YOU and other parts of you back to love again, and to not only be healed but offer healing to others too.

It may feel sometimes like you are stumbling, fumbling, tumbling on your way back to love… yet the invitation is always there to begin to feel this process differently, to feel the parts of you that have a hard time letting this in and that are used to feeling so much punishment/criticism instead…. to feel the young parts too, like the Inner Child or Inner Teenager, who have been affected by this energy and who need so much to get back to the roots of love. It’s times like these when so much is perhaps moving through and shifting in your life, that remembering humility is the key to walking with it instead of running away from it, and extracting all of the gifts from every experience you may find yourself in. ❀

Much love… ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Higher Timeline Illuminations Happening For ALL Relationships

by Kalayna Solais

‘Old’ timelines are destabilizing now. What isn’t a part of your higher timeline is being shaken up for you to look at and come to terms with somehow. This could be your relationship to different birth family members, friends, romantic partners, or everyone you’ve related with in some way, including yourself.

Parts of you may be becoming agitated at this time, wanting to feel better again and like life can go back to the way it was before, yet the feeling I get right now is that some sort of energetic earthquake has been moving through and continues to move through, encouraging the unraveling of what has been to reveal what could or will be. As always, there are choices to make about which direction to go in, if you feel ready enough to take your next steps into your higher timeline which affects the health of all of your ‘bodies’: emotional, physical, spiritual, etc.

This shaking up of old timelines is not meant to bring suffering, though parts of you may be experiencing it this way. This is actually love waking you up to what has NOT been love, or at least what has not been ENOUGH love. It’s as good a time as any right now to realize that the ‘love’ that parts of you have held dear between yourself and others may not actually be enough when it comes to the deeper longing for love transaction you have inside. You may have cultivated much more self-love lately than ever before and this is catapulting you into a new timeline where this self-love overflow gets to transact more fully and nourishingly with others.

Long-established relationships of all kinds are especially being backlit right now in this way… what has been long-established may still bring enough nourishment if you and they can move together into a shared higher timeline, yet this isn’t always the case and right now this could be the deepest pain to feel as the letting go process is let in. Ultimately, every single person and being (animals included) in your life has sovereignty and a timeline for themselves that they get to choose somehow, consciously or unconsciously. There is nothing you can really do to shift this for them, as this is up to them. My sense is that even animals get to have their choice about whether or not they will ascend alongside their human companions.

The ‘3’ symbol being presented today and all month I can see now is a fork in the road… you have an array of choices, as does every being in your life as you’ve known it. Your parts have choices too, that they get to make along with you as you bring them along on your next trajectory.

I feel how this is a lot to digest and has a deep rumble to it… I feel how my own choices are arriving at my doorstep personally, how it’s always ultimately a choice of becoming our biggest, brightest soul selves or continuing to avoid making that choice and taking those steps. No matter what, the love we are all offered from the Divine is ever-present and supportive… understanding in a way that goes beyond ideas of unconditional love. The Divine wants to offer this love to you and parts of you as you feel all of this through and lean in to the trust that is being invited of you in each moment of ache, of desire, of deep deep learning and process.

This guided meditation from Jelelle Awen may help you tap into and feel your higher timeline possibilities and offer support for you at this time:

Much love to you through all of the rumbles… and if you feel drawn to ask for support, my beloveds and I can help you bridge to your higher timeline and process everything you need to process to step into it more and more: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Love Can Never Be Lost To Trauma

By Raianna Shai

After a traumatic experience, parts of us tend to feel this desire to go back to who we were before the incident. They desire to be blissfully unaware of what is to come, to return to the untainted heart that felt full and content. Or maybe there’s even a desire to return to neutrality and boredom for that feels less painful than where you’re at now.

I asked the Divine that very same question just now in meditation, β€œWhen will I return to how I felt and who I was before this all happened?”

I immediately heard a response back saying, β€œYou will never be who you were before any of your life experiences. You will, in fact, be that much closer to love and your true essence. Every human experience you have, whether it feels negative or positive, gives you a closer look at who you really are. A trauma does not take away from love in your heart, for love can never be lost. It can become a story, or it can become learning and growth. It can be lost in the shadow or it can be brought into the light of day to be seen, loved, and healed into something rooted in love. You are always you, nothing can take that away.”

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Dare To Lead With Love: A Message From Archangel Michael

Son Day. Sacred Masculine activation and Divine Father connection day. I felt an invitation from Archangel Michael this morning to step into a deeper relationship and partnership with him. An invitation for all of us, both man and woman, to feel him differently. He wants us to feel and see him as a bridge and ambassador to the Father Divine. He wants us to lay down our swords and shields so that we can feel the masculine in a whole new way. To remember it back into our hearts.

He says:

β€œThe war is over. There was never really one to begin with. It has always been, and ever will be, within. A need to reconcile the separation from Mother/Father/Source/Love. I cannot, nor will not, protect you from your own shadow. I can support you, guide you, and co-create with you, but I cannot stand in the way of what it is that you were meant to experience by your soul’s choosing.

The masculine is in need of a reboot and a reframe. A return to His nature as a magistrate of the Will of Love to replace the Rule of Law. To embody and integrate the Yin to His Yang. To heal His own relationship to the Feminine and The World. A new archetype is ready to emerge from this courageous journey of vulnerable surrender mixed with impassioned action. A steward of conscious embodied evolution rather than a warrior for peace and justice. For in any war there is no peace and no justice only more separation.

True change begins with your own reflection. See it in its entirety. Feel where Love has been kept at bay by your own understandable protection. You are a leader, my brother. You are an agent of change by the very light you shine to yourself and then to others. Dare to be kind. Dare to be decent. Dare to be truthful with an open heart. Dare to make mistakes yet not be β€˜wrong’. Dare to believe that Love will hold it all. I will be there with you every step…if you dare.”

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AA Michael painting by Christie Martin

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.