Tag: service of love

‘Returning’ To Service

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by Kalayna Colibri

It was several months ago I decided to bow out of serving actively for whatever amount of ‘time’ felt right, fully surrendered to the process I was in that had to do with service and space holding and my own love overflow that needed much tending to. You can’t exactly share a harvest that is only still in its seedling stage, though the potential and power of the garden itself is there to be felt, seen, and envisioned from the get-go.

The call to serve has lived in me since I was a teenager, if not even before that. I had to go down the route of the “performer” for a while in the name of self-discovery and necessary self-absorption to some degree. I had to venture down the highway of big conferences and spiritual events, thumbing my way to the next teacher and teaching that resonated, which fed the vision of being a sort of sage-on-the-stage. Over the last years of my personal healing process I’ve chosen to really look at this and differentiate from it, especially recently. I’ve realized where there has been more of a performer present than an integrous and heart-centered healer. For some healers, there’s not much difference and in some cases they actually need to be both. This is not what I’ve signed up to inhabit this life however and I would prefer to only be on a platform if I am bringing my heart and soul integrity fully with me into the fray and even the spotlight.

I’m choosing now to step back onto the stage and offer service to others on this beloved path we call “SoulFullHeart”, taking this humbling process I’ve been in along with me. I’m choosing to space-hold for young women age 25 and under only, for this phase. My life, healing, and Ascension experience I’ve had up until now could really serve those who desire to lean into it in a collaborative and empowering space. I’m here to be a love conduit for the Divine Mother and Sister. I’m ready to serve as the needs arise in others for my flavour of service! πŸ™‚

If you’re interested in a Bridging Session with me or one of my beloveds (who serve both men and women), visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session for more info. They are one-on-one and are a $55 USD minimum donation.

Much love to you and your journey, wherever it takes you within and without! ❀

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Service Of Love Invites You To β€˜Come As You Are’

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By Kalayna Colibri

As I was cleaning and packing the other day while listening to music, a certain Christmas song came on (yes, a tad early, but the message from the Divine was in perfect time). It was Little Drummer Boy. A personal favorite.

This particular time that I heard this song, I was debating about β€˜what to do’ with certain things I was thinking of packing or maybe discarding, having already donated the majority of what I ‘owned’. This was the final series of choices to make in this final round of packing up for our move back to Canada. This entire process of moving has been one of deep preparation, inside and out. It’s been a lot to hold, especially, in moments, the letting go or keeping of items or clothing, as I’ve learned about myself that sometimes I seem to attach to β€˜things’ as love… as reassurance that I and everything in my world will be OK. That I would know for sure I was provided for. Suddenly, I paused to take in the feeling tones of the song that was playing… and wept.

Many backed up tears of this and that washed over me and through me. I felt the Divine invite me to feel the message of the Little Drummer Boy. All he had was his music. All he could do for the baby, which in this moment I could feel was really Love itself and service of love too, was play his drum. He had no expensive gifts to offer. No β€˜things’ that would seem fit to give.

I felt how this was about my relationship to the love that I am and the love I want to share and serve too. It was representative of my relationship to love… the giving and receiving of it. For with love, through love and as love, we ARE provided for. We ARE able to show up and respond in order to receive what we need.

In that moment, I felt how no matter what I decided to take with me to Canada, my real intention and purpose in going, is to serve love. To do that, all I need is me. Everything else, every thing I might ‘need’ for my survival and even thrival, could be bought, borrowed, earned in exchange somehow.

I wanted to share this movement because it feels so important and apt for the times we are in and the energies that are moving through… if we are ultimately to serve love somehow, whatever that means and whatever the means we use to do that, then we have nothing in particular that we need to have or attain to do so. We are being invited now and always to β€˜come as we are’. And my god… if we aren’t so loved beyond any imagining within all of that.

Much love to you, with you, and through you too! ❀️

Photo by Elijah Macleod via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess.Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Waves Of Love And Support Through Timeline Collapses

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By Kalayna Colibri

Collapsing old timelines takes a lot of focus. It’s tiring. It’s energizing. The experience of being β€˜twired’ – tired and wired – is a very real thing!

We’re in the middle of collapsing our timeline here in Mexico while inhabiting and energizing our new timeline in Victoria, Canada. We are feeling the press of the birth canal and contractions as we follow love, service, and desire to our next destination.

We’ve collapsed many, many timelines in our lives and processes, including relationships with toxic or just non-resonant others and other geographies too. It’s never entirely easy, though there are flushes and waves of ease as the universe within and without carries you through the next and next steps.

It always amazes me how even though parts and Metasoul aspects have their reactions to change and fears around it, love shows up to support and guide, reminding you and them that you ARE loved and supported by a universe that wants you to feel its love, even and perhaps especially through the loss and letting go… the willingness to let go in order to let in, work for, wait for what and who you really want. It’s actually this process of being willing to say no and let go that prepares you to really let in and claim. So often what we really want can appear in front of us and without this preparation, we sometimes bypass the opportunity or the budding relationship out of fear or because parts of us aren’t quite ready to let in the possibility of the new.

I feel how we are all connected in our very personal ways of feeling and making choices, especially in this now moment of supportive energy and love waves. There are so many to feel through and be with. There is so much love to serve and flow with. There are ample chances to land ourselves in more love within, making choices that suit our deepest sense of well-being and necessary growth, trusting in the fact that the impact of these choices on ourselves and others does ultimately serve love… even though hurt reactions may come up and pain surfaces to be felt.

Much love to you in your own growth crucibles and the intricate web of connection we all are part of as we find our way… ❀️

Photo by Tim Marshall via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess.Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Unanchoring Your 3D Self To Fly The Skies Of Your Highest Timeline

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By Jelelle Awen

In two weeks from today, I will be flying with my BEloved Raphael Awen and daughter Raianna Shai on an airplane from here in Puerto Vallarta to Victoria, Canada. Honestly, it has been YEARS since I’ve flown and I’m so curious how it will feel now with more multidimensional and galactic perspective. We are flying at night, so the stars will be close…the higher elevational frequencies just outside the window. I can already feel my star seed child so excited to be in the air again in the physical (even with many journeys to visit light ships through meditation recently)!!
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While there is a TRUE sense of excitement about this life shift (which is about following Divine guidance to be in a geography that supports more in person service through sessions, retreats, and groups) there have also been rumblings in moments of tensions inside me…mostly brief and calmed with an inner connection to whichever part or Metasoul aspect is feeling them. Then, service of love calls again to write, share, sessions and I am elevated to the bigger picture sense of reason around it ALL.
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Letting go of the comfortable and the known to step into more leadership/service/outedness of our soul gift expression always causes some tension for the parts of us that have become comfortable/safe in the familiar. It’s like we have to unroot these parts of us…….unanchor them with MUCH love and be open to feel their anxieties too without judgement in order for more joy and surrender and bigness to open up and become accessible.
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In a session this week, a 3D self of a facilitant came through and this part of her was SO clear about what 3D consciousness thinks about all this awakening/ascension/spiritual ‘stuff’ as represented by her ‘science-minded’ and practical birth father. The 3D self has been conditioned to ‘maintain the status quo’, to ‘do what everyone else does’, to ‘climb the ladders’ and ‘fit in the boxes’ just like others. To be different is to risk being called crazy…..to reveal your awakening consciousness is to risk being totally alone. There are VERY real fears in these parts of us about being abused, becoming a ‘moving target’ and (in our metasouls) even being killed or persecuted if we step up and out into our gifts. We felt much love for this part of her together (who she really has known herself to BE most of her life) and she began the process of differentiating from this energy in order to continue her process of BEcoming more of her service of love self in ALL areas of her life without compartments and bubbles.
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The versions/parts of you still anchored to 3D consciousness have good reason for being so. They’ve been supported most likely by your birth family, by schooling, by society/cultural standards. They may still be connected to relationships that are more resonant in 3D frequencies.
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These parts of you are waiting to be ‘freed’ from the prison of expectation and conformity. They are waiting for your open heart to invite them out of the prisons and into the free fields of the awakening soul and the expanding heart. To directly connect with these parts of you allows you to separate from them….to become more of your 4D/5D self in that moment that you feel more compassion than judgement toward these energies inside yourself.
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You are being invited to step up and step out. To become a bridge to those who are newly awakening through (firstly and primarily) becoming a bridge to all parts of you that are still clinging to 3D consciousness out of fear and familiarity. This inner differentiation work is critical right now and ongoingly. Gaia/cosmic/SOULar/lunar frequencies support this shifting to higher consciousness and can provide upgrades on ALL levels to ease this shift into flying your highest skies with all parts of you coming along for the ride!
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Jelelle Awen
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1:1 sessions over zoom for women with me and for men/women with Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman are available now. See link above!
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I talk more here in this video about the 3D self and the 5D self:Β 
Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has writtenΒ four booksΒ about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. VisitΒ our donations pageΒ to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

What Does It Mean to Love ‘Authentically’?

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by Kalayna Colibri

The conditioning is deep around what we’ve been taught real love and care is and looks like. It’s challenging to feel it in different ways, to take a deep look at how we’ve related to love and how we’ve been convinced we’re supposed to embody it.

So often what we think of as loving or caring can have more of a negative impact on others than a positive one. False apologies, empty promises, tugging and grabbing at others… these frequencies can be obvious or subtle. And in any case, we aren’t genuinely caring about our impact on others, only what parts of us want and are afraid they won’t get or look like on the outside. I so know this one from my own process too, and learning to see and feel even the subtle ways in which this happens is illuminating and invites you to shift these patterns for good.

I think so often we (or parts of us) are actually terrified to deeply feel what it would be like to be someone else and genuinely feel our impact on them, whether or not we feel we’ve been ‘loving’ toward them.

This is tricky… and hard to feel too. It can be hard to look inward and challenge how we have been holding love and what it means to love another, whether in official ‘service of love’ or in everyday relationships. It’s amazing what it illuminates within though… which is so often an untouched inner reality of how we ourselves, and parts of us, have felt incredibly unworthy of real love, abandoned somehow, and in a void space that has never been filled by genuine self-love and the journey of unfolding that within.

So what does it look and feel like to actually care and love another person?

To me, it feels like giving space for another’s growth without tugging on them to join in on yours. It feels like inviting someone to share with you what they need and want, but not with a commitment from you to make it happen for them. It feels like the overflow of good inner-parenting, of relating to yourself and getting to know your own quirks and shadowy aspects and energies within you as well as your gifts and growth and flowing this energy to another to support their own inner-parenting to grow and blossom too. It feels like being willing to let go even when your heart really doesn’t want to.

It’s a lot to feel into these pieces and truth be told, I’m not sure any of us can truly master this skill of loving another in the purest way… we and parts of us all have understandable investments in relationships of all kinds and hopes that they will last too. We all have desires and dreams and don’t really ever want to feel lonely (though really landing in the loneliness has so many gifts too)… we all have what we want to experience from others and in our lives in general. Yet love asks us to trust… to invest in the process yet divest of the outcome. To feel what we want most and understand that it won’t always come to us in ways we can control.

Above all, love wants us to remember that it is never against us or anybody else, though it can feel that way at times. It only ever wants us to experience more of it within so that we can share it with others. This flow of love is really all the ‘service of love’ is anyways, though it can be dressed up in many ways and be given many labels and is not always easy to truly embody for ourselves, let alone others.

Much love to you as you continue to experience your own journey into more and more REAL love, and the path of learning to embody love in the most authentic way possible. ❀

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess.Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

My Healing ‘Me’ Phase: Sharing My Current Personal Process

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by Kalayna Colibri

Service of love is a crucible for growth… the growth of those you serve and your own growth too.

How many times I’ve learned this and been humbled by this…

We cannot downplay the importance of going inward and soberly evaluating ourselves, feeling if we SHOULD be serving others right now or if there’s something that needs us deep within first.

As my beloved friend, teacher and Facilitator Raphael said to me yesterday, “It feels right to take the space from facilitating. Without that, it would feel like trying to get at a foundation with a house sitting on top of it, which would be a whole lot more involved process.” Bingo.

Because of this, I’ve made the choice to step down as a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for this emerging phase of my healing and deep need of ME. My heart and soul feel a strong desire to serve love, yet the first step to that is becoming MORE love through being with myself and my parts. Without doing this, my space holding isn’t as deep as I desire it to be and not as helpful to the facilitant – the person making the vulnerable and courageous choice to lean into me for that 90min and maybe beyond – either. not to mention that the space held isn’t as safe as it needs to be for the healing to flow from my own love overflow into them to support their own.

I feel too how this process is not just about me as an individual. I feel how this is something that many space holders neglect to look at in themselves and as a result their parts can feel “burnt out” or resentful of their clients instead of in collaboration and heart-openness, which can lead to outright abuse or perhaps something more subtle. I feel how there is something for all of us to feel, whether you call yourself a “lightworker”, “space holder”, “wayshower”, “energy healer”, etc about how much you genuinely care about the person you’re offering healing to, how much respect and love you authentically feel for them, and if there are unowned judgments, triggers, pieces coming up inside of you that need you to show up to feel them in your own space, maybe even taking a break from offering healing to others for a phase, in the name of your own healing and self love growth. The biggest block to being able to vulnerably feel all of this inside of yourself feels to be the block of an overfocus on self-image, forgetting and maybe even hiding that you are also a humbly healing and ascending human being.

My beloveds in this community and healing path of SoulFullHeart have brought me many reflections over this past week that have given me plenty of pause and entry points into my heart too… to see why exactly I’ve been the way I’ve been when what I want is to be and serve love. This was a major sign of something big being out of alignment… we cannot put on the “healer hat” and be one way in sessions while we let parts of us run the show in other areas of our life and relationships with far less care, without one reality spilling over into the other sooner or later. And since the shadow is always wanting to be seen, felt and held, of course this is where the spillover is most likely to happen…

As my process unfolds, I’ll probably share more of the clarities I feel, because in this way I still feel called to serve love and see how what I’m discovering lands in the hearts and souls of others. I hope that even this writing which is more personal lands somewhere helpful inside of you. ❀

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess.Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A Letter To Men, And To The Sacred Masculine: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Aug 13, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Go here to read it!

This week’s Museletter is launched by a powerful piece written by SoulFullHeart Co-Creator, Facilitator, and Teacher, Raphael Awen. In this writing, he vulnerably shares about his latest process with a Metasoul brother (more on Metasoul here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts) and his process of connecting with his own push-pull around serving men. He also digests some themes he feels are moving through all men in the collective:

“What holds any one of us back from our true and deep (even infinite) potential? Why would we settle for good enough, or worse, for ongoing suffering? Why would we believe, and then go on to manifest according to that belief, that this is β€˜as good as it gets’?

…I write to men. I call to men. I write to the Sacred Masculine that lives in men and women alike. I declare my desire and readiness along with acknowledging at the same time my reticence to serve men, and this reticent Masculine; in order to serve my highest timeline. Nothing needs to be overcome or suppressed in order to achieve in these new arising domains of being, but instead lovingly embraced as the seed of our ever-present infinite being out experiencing a full drama of leaving and then returning to the fullness we always were and are, but couldn’t quite come to know and feel, until we enter this Now.”

Raphael, along with his beloved and SoulFullHeart Co-Creator/Facilitator/Teacher, Jelelle Awen, will be hosting a live stream Q & A tomorrow, Aug 18th, at 11:30am CDT on Jelelle’s Facebook feed and on our Youtube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience. Catch them live or on the recording, talking about the incoming Ascension energies and the processes going on right now too, as they also take your questions and comments.

There is a brand new guided meditation offering released this week as well, from SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator/Heartist, Gabriel Heartman. It is a meditation offered to help you connect with the Inner Punisher part of you in order to begin a relationship with this part, get to know it, and start to love it as a part of you that needs you and your love to hold it.

There are a number of new writings offered this week from Gabriel, Kalayna, Raphael, and Jelelle, along with a few new audio recordings too. This week they digest the topics of the latest solar eclipse and the energies it offered; sacred union; and different ways to feel and digest your ongoing personal process.

You’ll find information about our five-day retreat happening here in beautiful, Puerto Vallarta, Mexico in November, 2018. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We all offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

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Full Moon In Scorpio Ignites Passions, Serves Purgings

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by Kalayna Colibri

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WOOOSH…. felt the full moon energies all day yesterday, with an up and down experience inside of myself which was incredibly UP in passion and passion-purpose desires and then also offered purgings of emotional tensions and fears coming UP with them! This is the whole package deal of Ascension. You’re invited to a huge party with lots of lights, excitement and even pure bliss, yet with the waters of love coming in with every invitation, the oil of fears and despair held by parts and MetasoulΒ Aspects has to come out to make room for more.

It doesn’t feel possible to me to ignite your soul purpose work without being willing to feel what it is inside of you that DOESN’T want to serve love. Even if you choose to not feel into this question now, eventually it catches up to you and often in a reticence that develops over time and somehow collapses or sabotages your service-of-love practice, whatever that is for you.

I feel that the full moon always offers you a chance to feel your passions anew. Especially if you’re meant to serve love in this timeline. The full moon in Scorpio is asking you to keep it real. It’s asking you to be real about your passion and to feel the polarity inside that isn’t interested in passion too or really doesn’t buy that you can “make it”. Scorpio as an energy can support you to feel this extreme and not run away from it. Make the investigation of this a part of your passion-purpose, not a detriment to it! I feel and see so many souls trying to dismiss these parts that just don’t want it. Yet they are the most valuable players in the game of serving love, because they are the parts of you that need to be filled up with love and appreciation again. They are also the parts that offer grounding and realness inside you. And with all of this disclosure happening on the outside right now, yes, you need realness and integrity inside of you too. Nay-saying parts can offer that to you if you can let them into your heart. On a soul level, you could be feeling legitimate anxiety over persecution timelines your soul has lived out and is still living out since time is not linear. There are also timelines of being a false King/Queen, leading without integrity and heart. These are all themes that seem to emerge as you feel more and more into your special personal brand of service of love and what that means for YOU during this often intense time of Ascension.

On the other side of feeling all of this always comes more joy, bliss and love than you have experienced before… AND much MORE energy, motivation and passion for the service of love you’re meant to lead, inhabit and offer!

A good way to be with these energies is to just keep feeling them… to be in a process like what we offer through SoulFullHeart that gives you a direct heartline to the parts and Metasoul Aspects in anguish, despair, pain… and perhaps joy too! There are many ways in which you can connect to this work, including through our free Unity Meditations, one of which is coming up this week on May 2nd:Β https://www.facebook.com/events/1895682390725143/Β .Β We also offer private sessions and a program where you can enter your own self-led process using processes we send to you. There are many options for ways in which to dive into your emotional body and feel all there is to feel along the way in your own sacred and very personal journey of Ascension and healing! ❀

LOTS of love to you!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

You Are A BEacon Of LOVE: Sharing Your Self-Love Overflow In Service Of Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

It can be challenging for parts of you to remember that they need to share love with others in a mutually nourishing bond of openness and vulnerability and sometimes even contention, as much as they need love with YOU as the authentic you, ever-arising into more and more presence within yourself.

We are here to relate to ourselves deeply, to cultivate self-love. We are also here to share the overflow of that love with others – NOT to remain in stuckness or under-nourishing agreements with others, however… While there is likely some layer of love being exchanged there, there is so much more that could potentially open out… this is the ground that can make relationships of any kind scary to be in, yet also is the ground of mutual growth and ultimately a deepening of LOVE within and on the outside TOO.

To not share what you are cultivating inside in self-care, love, worth, advocacy, is to not share your light, the beacon you’re meant to be for the world, with the world. Parts of you may be relating to this with understandable fear and reactions from past social drama-trauma. Yet, to remain in a place of not sharing is to cap your own soul bigness, your capacity to love others as much as yourself, and your potential to truly live into your healing gifts and your deepest soul calling to be in the service of LOVE.

The choice remains in each moment, to breathe with and feel parts of you and their reasons for not allowing your arising and ascending you to emerge from the cocoon. There is a constant invitation into more love, more healing, more self-held grace and space, and more overflow into the destiny you’re meant to lead and live too, with each decision made to BEacon outward what you have so grown and nourished inward!Β 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Invites Us To Feel Our Humanity And Serve Love With It Without Martyrdom, Self-Sacrifice

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by Kalayna Colibri

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We are learning to serve love, serve our fellow human beings in stride with love, through our humanity. This is why it can feel so hard sometimes to be around each other’s pain, let alone our own pain. So many attempts are made to bandage the wound instead of healing it because the sight of the festering is too much for parts of us to bear and reminds us intensely of our own places we still need to go. It can be a momentous effort to actually stay in the room with ourselves, let alone each other, and to try and offer any amount of love in that context can be so challenging for parts of us that really would rather try and not go there or look here.

There can be no ‘perfect healer’, at least not in human form, as far as I can feel it… we can work to become purer and purer channels of love through continued work on ourselves, in conjunction WITH service of others, which is actually the bigger mirror for us. We can be transparent and vulnerable with each other about where we are still needing to go inside of us, what shadows seem to be peeking up, what we have gone through and are walking out for the sake of our own healing. Perhaps one of the most beautiful things about our humanity IS our messes and our courage, our insurmountable, wonderful courage to just, keep, going.

I think we have been pre-disposed to going to battle, serving ‘god and country’ because we are actually quite wired for service, period, and instinctively know this, feel this, believe this! We are meant to be in the ‘trenches’, yet not in a literal sense… we are being called to the mistaken, old, worn-out battlefields within others to apply medicine of heart and soul balms. Yet we are called to our own inner worn-out battlefields first. Peace cannot begin to move through our world without this, without our efforts to heal our own hearts and not transcend them or ask anybody else to transcend theirs either. Humanity cannot begin to mature beyond this mentality of needing to fight, needing to ‘other’, needing to find opposition in order to find itself, without looking inward on an individual basis first.

The singular agenda for humanity as a whole feels like this piece of remembering that we are of service… and what this even means. What is service without martyrdom, without self-sacrifice, without climbing up onto a soapbox to shout at the obscene and unfair crucibles of the world, without going to war or battles? What does it mean to be human and still serve love from the deepest hearth of our hearts, admitting when parts of us feel fear, shame, sadness, anger, rage and finding the vulnerability in being with that? Sometimes loving others means setting boundaries. Sometimes healing others means allowing, showing them they have the power to heal themselves, with the genuine love and support that comes from authentic soul family/tribe connections and a heart-based connection with the Divine that is not theoretical but felt and experienced.

How to serve other human beings while serving our own selves and our own humanity is an unfolding quest, actually, and an unavoidable one at that. In SoulFullHeart, we offer parts work and this is what works so deeply for us, as everyone, even and perhaps especially the people we serve, are all reflections for us to take in, of where we’ve gone inside of ourselves, what we’ve already cleared and healed, and what we have left to clear and heal, too. Yet we are also always learning more and more what works best for us, who we are meant to serve, and how. I doubt there could be any human healer on this planet who isn’t meant to feel this humility of not always kNOwing what’s best for another soul, for this is what invites us all into deeper collaboration with each other and with the Divine, who is always working through all parties involved in the healing effort, finding, rediscovering and ultimately healing Itself back to wholeness too.

This all makes serving love as a human being a trial at times and rather challenging, yet we keep going into it because we know, we trust, that LOVE is worth it, that everyone on this planet (and beyond!) is worth it… that WE are worth it. We are heading in the direction of love with every feeling space given to ourselves and others, and with every ounce of our vulnerability we bring to ourselves and the world around us. We are goodness, we are Angelic, we are the ones here to move along with Ascension and love along with Ascension. We are of service. We are beacons. We are amazing. And so it IS. ❀

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.