Category: Awakening Process

Energy Update: Gaia’s Energies Calling For Geography Shifts To Reflect Your Inner Transformations

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By Jelelle Awen

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Gaia is broadcasting BEacons out at all times. Gaia is a grounded frequency of Divine Mother that is just in our DNA and in our cells, easily activated because we are so naturally tuned into Her as our ‘home’ bandwidth. The tones and frequencies of these broadcasts land in your heart and soul at the right time of Divine Align for you as navigated by your Higher Self. In this current phase of Divine Feminine energy upgrades, Gaia is one of the MAIN ways that these are being delivered to us…along with moon activations.

As Gaia’s planetary consciousness ascends truly out of 3D and into 4D and beyond, Her energy lines or ‘ley’ lines vibrate higher…..just like our chakras and energy centers do too. She unanchors from the lower frequency grids connected to our collective consciousness and into the crystalline grids. Where She before has been hostess to our 3D experiment together, She is now shifting her home playing field to a higher frequency.

There is a deep invitation from Gaia to us to come WITH Her. It is not that she is ‘shaking us off like fleas’ as others have offered, yet, rather, She invites those souls who are in readiness and alignment to ascend with Her. She is not against us…..if you have experienced the sense of being deeply held by nature (especially during deep emotional movements), then you recognize this sense of Her complete support for your awakening into your Higher Heart. The ‘damage’ and abuses to Her from so much 3D density expression from humanity’s shadow are forgiven already……and were ultimately Her choice to experience as well. Now, we are being invited to rise above this abusive and polarized frequency that comes from INSIDE ourselves, so that we can then treat Gaia too with the respect and reverence that She deserves.

Her forgiveness is expressed in the offering of connection to Her geographies that most serve us as we show the way and lead the ascension process for ourselves, firstly. We are invited to ask ourselves: which geographies most support my soul growth? Which geographies are a reflection of my Higher Self coming into my body? Which geographies allow me to truly SERVE LOVE as my highest purpose here?

As you tune into these questions, the answers may surprise you. The answers may come in dreams, in synchronicities, during meditations, through connections with sacred union romance and soul family. The answers come, ultimately, in LOVE….meaning, LOVE is the very best reason there is for changing your geography. If you are falling in love with someone and it feels like a sacred union and they currently live far away from where you do…..love may be asking you to move to be with them to serve the love between you and for yourself. If you are drawn to a particular soul family community or spiritual group and their geography is different from yours, love may be asking you to eventually move to be near them to receive the huge GIFTS that come from being near and in a resonant community. If you have repeatedly been drawn to vacation to a particular place for many years, love may be inviting you to live there as your daily reality now that you have acclimated to its higher frequencies through visits.

It can be an interesting exploration to feel into WHY you are in the current geography that you are in. Is it tied to previous connections to birth family or 3D based relationships that you are no longer as drawn to? Is it about convenience, safety, and remaining in comfort zones? Is your Inner Protector wanting to keep you ‘safe’ in a lower frequency geography to limit your awakening process because they are concerned about the next places that you might open up to and remember and inhabit? Are parts of you tied into 3D ideas of mortgages, and ‘set’ geographies out of fear? Is remaining in your current geography keeping you in a romantic relationship that no longer resonates with your heart and soul and vice versa? What does your current geography REFLECT about you and parts of you?

Sometimes people feel that they are guardians over a particular piece of land, to serve Gaia, and decide to stay there even if they are consciously unhappy there. This can feel and be a form of self sacrifice that is actually unnecessary on another level. Gaia has offered to me that She is JUST FINE….meaning, She doesn’t need us to anchor anything at all for Her sake. If we choose to connect to particular geographies and grids that is about us and our process (such as exploring the questions I raised above) rather than about serving Her.

In our SoulFullHeart Community, we are being called to relocate from Mexico to the Glastonbury, U.K. area in the next six months. We’ve been connecting with Avalon as a fourth dimensional timeline for a few years, so the heart chakra energy of the Tor and other spaces is very familiar and comforting. I write about the shamanic visits that I engaged with to Avalon in my book, Keep Waking Up! soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books. Europe as a whole calls us to explore, to experience geographies that trigger Metasoul/other lifetime timelines, to feel and to heal with Gaia as the loving catalyst for it, to offer retreats and seminars serving love through SoulFullHeart there. It feels like the money, means, sorting out details will find its way as our desires for this shift bake inside us as a group……creating a group merkabah fueled by love and desire that allows us to ‘travel’ there.

Our external geographies are a reflection of our internal landscapes. As our inner shifts so, then, will our outer. This may lead to an even more nomadic life phase that is about being ‘called’ to certain places for your own healing process that allows you to serve more love…..and then moving on to the next. Being drawn to spaces that bring out your service of love self and support your energetic growth. Being around other souls in community that resonate with you too. Being on landscapes, inside and out, that reflect the love that you ARE.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Re-Discovering And Loving The Buried Parts Within

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by Kalayna Colibri

Many years ago… I could not have told you that ‘becoming more feminine’ was my goal or intention. I grew up with an older sister who rebelled against femininity and wanted to be like her. I wanted to be friends with the guys that weren’t attracted to me, so at least I could have some way to be close to them regardless, to experience a connection with the opposite gender. I say ‘I’ here because before I was aware that I had ‘parts’ of me running the show of my life, ‘I’ was all ‘I’ had as a reference point for the dramas and desires and pain.

When I was very little, however, I wanted only to wear dresses. I liked big frilly ones with flowers. I liked my pretty shoes and white tights. I especially loved going to ballet class as a 5-year-old and being able to wear the pink skirt that represented my level over top of my leotard. I loved being called a ‘lady’ and would have fantasies about being in ‘princess training’. This was all before messaging of ‘being a girl means you’re weak’ or ‘incapable’ started to leak in and take over. This was before parts of me started to form as a casing, an ever-hardening shell over my natural sensitivity and blooming pre-womanhood. The dresses got put away. The tights could no longer be worn without holes being made in them almost immediately – a symbol, I’m realizing, of my young torn-ness between gender expressions. Skirts didn’t fit or feel right either, and I felt very self-conscious in them. Something was shifting out of wanting to be a girl to wanting to be related to, to be made friends with, to be able to somehow find comfortability in any social situation even if that meant being more like a ‘boy’ in some ways. I stopped feeling ‘pretty’ when I was quite young and thus I stopped trying to be, at least until high school.

I remember all of this in this very moment, especially as I feel a part of me that is my Inner Masculine. I feel how this is a story from him about how he came to be and how he began to form as an Inner Patriarch, coaching and teaching my other parts how to become more masculine in order to survive if not thrive in this world of 3D. I feel the tears of my suppressed, albeit quite young aspect of my Inner Feminine, who it feels like has some pain coming up in response to this… these feelings of being ‘girly’, which was more in my true nature, being deemed ‘not good enough’ so early in my life.

I share this story today because it feels like the story that belongs to so many of us… a story of genuine self-expression, of authentic sensitivity. Unless and until we can begin to feel the parts of us that have (had to) come up in response to life and more often than not, bury or try to dismiss what is actually TRUE about us, it doesn’t really feel possible to feel the layers here and to get to exactly what has been buried for so many ‘years’.

I feel like this extends far beyond authentic gender expression, so much as just what is authentically in our hearts. I feel the richness of a genuine experience of what the sacred masculine and feminine ARE, that can only really be experienced from within, not from other people’s ideas of what it is or is not… in either case when it comes to the masculine and the feminine, we are having to re-learn so much and deeply feel much more.

We have the courage to venture deeper into our own healing, ever-discovering more and more of what has been suppressed within our most inner caverns of what has always wanted to show us the most authentic us we have been waiting and working to BE… and it’s up to us when and if we are ready to lead him/her/them out of the shadows and into the light where they can breathe and play and be themselves again… and this time, without anyone telling them they have to stop being who and what they truly are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Day 6 ~ Journal To The Demiurge

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Journal To The Demiurge with Raphael Awen Day 6

By Raphael Awen

(This is Day 6 of an ongoing series, to begin at day 1, go here: https://goo.gl/CgrWXZ)

Raphael: Hello again, Wow, Day 6 all. Upward and onward to the Demiurge, Shall we?

Metatron: We shall.

Raphael: Any check ins, anyone?

Jim: I’ll go.

Raphael: Perfect.

Jim: I was listening and taking in deeply the sharing of your story, Raphael, over the last few days. At times, I was just so overcome with a deep sadness for what I wasn’t able to begin to see or feel with you as it was happening, as you were growing up, or entering adulthood, while I was the one you called ‘dad’. I can so feel now how your draw to the Demiurge came in as a placeholder for what you and I couldn’t find together, and for what your heart needed. I need to say again how deep that sorrow feeling goes. I am so, so sorry, Raphael. You deserved more, and I so short changed myself as well with what I could have known and experienced with you.

Raphael: Thank you, Jim. That goes in, again. Must still be some pieces for us to feel there together. Infinite healing, I guess we could call it. Aside from any labels though, I feel the genuine heart chord you are vibrating at right now and it feels so good. Marvin gets now that I chose all of this on a soul level, but it still touches deeply the wounds felt in 3D. And it opens the heart more too, to feel any and all remorse as often as it comes up, till it’s done, if it’s ever done.

Jim: When I grow up, I want to be like you, Raphael. Thank you everyone for feeling me this morning. I hope I’m not too much, it’s just a bit of a task helping out from the other side.

Raphael: You are never too much, Jim. I’m glad you checked in. Who else is feeling something?

Rhodes: I’m feeling something…

Raphael: Please, Rhodes…

Rhodes: I guess… I’ll just recap what we felt together earlier today, Raphael?

Raphael: I know I’d love to hear it in your words, Rhodes, and it feels so important to this journey we are all undertaking. And to those still catching up with our story, Rhodes is my personal Gatekeeper, who resonates at a much higher frequency than 3D, and holds access to other dimensions. We all have one, or more maybe, and I’m very glad to have Rhodes!

Rhodes: Okay, so, yesterday, what was really coming up for me was a despair, of not feeling that excited about the next evolution in Raphael’s life. This was hard to admit, and I don’t think I’ve ever really let myself feel that before. Anything to try and stay positive. I wasn’t able to hide that feeling though this morning as it got really pushed up while Raphael shared about his journey this life. I can call it ‘his’ journey now, but that’s another recent development too. It has felt like my journey for as long as I can remember up till recently. As I was saying, this despair came up strong and Raphael asked me to just feel it together. I was able to feel, and to even admit that the next big discovery, or realization, which I’ve always been attached to in the past, just felt aimless to me now.

I know we have a God hunger, or a divine hunger, I should call it, that still lives inside, well on the other side of the Demiurge variety that is so much more alive, and so much more meaningful, but I just wasn’t into it somehow. I couldn’t quite feel why, when Raphael said, ‘Maybe, being with me in the way you have been isn’t where or how you’re supposed to be?’. He meant that I’m to be vibrating at a higher, more native frequency, not so invested this intensely in what’s happening or not happening in Raphael’s life. I just let out a great big bunch of heartache tears about then. I’ve been a bit jealous feeling Wayne and Andy take up residence in Golden Earth, coming back and forth as they please, and I know I’m meant to be there and beyond too. It landed in me that there has been a big mission accomplished here that I couldn’t see.

I hope I’m not taking up too much space with all this.

Raphael: We can take up the next four years with this, if we want to Rhodes. The Demiurge has been around a long time and isn’t going anywhere. And what we feel and heal together rumbles all the way, even to the big old pain the Demiurge is carrying around.

Rhodes: That feels good to feel…

Raphael: Actually,.. or maybe I should ask Metatron for input here, instead of trying to channel him. Metatron?

Metatron: Actually…, I was feeling a rumble, Raphael, and Rhodes, what an epic movement and celebration, wow! This is the real deal. This is the quantum healing we’ve been waiting for. My goodness, so many directions to go in at once. Let me take a moment….

The Demiurge has been born of consciousness, as were all of us, you, me, each and every part of us going through an awakening process, being re-membered back to love as you like to say Raphael. Before the awakening and remembering though was a separation, or what felt like a separation, an unavoidable soul birth trauma as Divine allness or oneness became two. All fear has its roots in this experience of what could only be felt at the time as separation from the Divine. All the world’s religions and every spirituality to this day exist in an attempt to address these fears one way or the other, some legitimately, many questionably.

Consciousness expanded itself into duality, from oneness into twoness. Prior to that, there was no such thing as ‘other’. What we are learning now however, and taking all the time we need to in that learning, is that though we were given individuality, or as we were ‘otherized’ into existence, you could say, there still is nothing that is ‘other’ to the divine. Not even the Demiurge for that matter. There is only that which is still awakening to the oneness that was retained in the separation. It’s separation without losing oneness if you can grok that somehow.

Okay, I’m going a bit ‘meta’ here I realize, but that’s my name, Meta-tron. Rhodes, how’s this landing in you? Is it bridging to what you are feeling?

Rhodes: It does, Metatron, on a high level bridging for sure. As I dial it down a few levels, I feel how all of our life dramas are connected to this soul birth trauma as you are calling it, as well as the subsequent awakening and remembering processes. I’ve already been able to feel some pretty big aches in the Metasoul that were bleeding into my reality, and I’m feeling that some of this despair is about wanting to be in my native frequency as I said, but other pieces of it are about unfelt despair in some of my and Raphael’s Metasoul brothers too. It’s going to get interesting feeling and distinguishing all that. So, the situation report for the moment is that I don’t think I am, or necessarily need to be as disinterested in Raphael’s life as I said I was feeling, AND, I still want to spread my wings to much more of my multidimensionality going forward.

Raphael: I’m feeling you have a perspective on all this Merlin…

Merlin: I do, a really nice warm and fuzzy one, that has enough clarity for my liking at the same time. I’m feeling this process for you, Rhodes, is perfectly on time with the journey at hand.

The Demiurge long ago took to reigning in these lower dimensions, but it so doesn’t feel like he is having fun doing it, or that he is in his native frequency being here. I mean, beings that are having fun don’t need that much control, or duty and obligation to keep their deal afloat. It’s so obvious that we are dealing with an unhappy camper who doesn’t know anything different, but wants to, possibly,… at least, I’m hoping that ‘want to’ is dawning on him; that a new deal is possible and his own deeper desires are coming into his awareness. If that’s true, then your awakening, Rhodes, mirrors his, and is just what’s wanting to move through consciousness now.

Raphael: Wow, like even the Demiurge is going through an Ascension process…?

Merlin: …like even the Demiurge is ascending, yes, or being offered Ascension is actually more accurate. Nothing happens outside of free will, but the window for it is ripening big time.

Raphael: Then, I’m feeling how we can’t offer anything that we aren’t deeply experiencing ourselves.

Merlin: Bingo! And if we are picking up on the bigger rumble, that the Demiurge is getting close to being done with his Heavenly Father persona, that’s the only way this ambassadorship will achieve anything. Timing is everything as they say, for us to approach him while we are in possession of something he longs for. Ambassadorships work through beneficial mutual exchange. We can only expect to gain audience with him if we possess something he wants. Your journey, Rhodes, is an excellent example of coming free, breaking ancient chains, smelling very fresh air, outside the prison doors, overlooking the beautiful inviting valley.

Raphael: Okay, well that expands the picture here again this morning. We’re inviting the Demiurge out of his prison for the first time…. Holeeee!

I know this is all pure blasphemy of the highest order to those still under the Demiurge’s reign, but hopefully, we won’t encounter too much of their resistance. We can just quietly sneak up, unlock their prison doors too, and split. Let them figure it out when they’re ready and we don’t take any buckshot in the process.

I think all this could use some settling and baking time inside all of us, and assuming the Demiurge has us on speed dial now, and is listening and up to speed with everything we’re up to, then I’ll bet, he could use a bit of acclimation time too, right?

Andy: So let’s take out the Merkabah for a Galactic spin then. There’s some galaxies we could visit that are not too far out of our own solar system. There’s major cool stuff there, and no Demiurge.

Raphael: Andy, we so need all that and more, but I’m wondering how that could jive with me taking the time to share more today of our this-life, this-dimension story in Christianity?  

Andy: Okay, How about if we all pile into the Merkabah and I can dial up some scenery then as we do?

Raphael: Sounds Perfect, Andy. I know I can use some higher Starseed frequencies to help going back to reliving some of this stuff. I’ll bet there still is some undigested pieces to feel, or I wouldn’t be drawn to retell the story.

Where was I?

Jim: You said that wasn’t the end of the airport coincidences that day in the airport.

Raphael: Right, let me launch back in there then.

So, Mar-yam and I and our two daughters are making our way across the Pacific at 35,000 feet digesting this wild coincidence, or in our books, a miracle, that happened just before boarding. I didn’t know the word ‘synchronicity’ at the time, or relate to them the way I do now. It gave us a warm feeling to digest an obvious ‘supernatural’ sign of God’s blessing or approval on the mission ahead, and on ourselves if we could feel it as that.

We landed for our short stopover in Tokyo, where we have to switch planes. Seats are in short supply when we check in, so I end up sitting one row ahead with Mar-yam and the girls just behind me on this final leg with a four or five hour flight into Manila.

My desired window seat is a great place to be alone with my thoughts and feel a whole dimension of something that I so rarely get to feel, so I settle into my own cocoon. As the flight begins its descent into Manila, the people on board naturally begin to stir, and I make a motion to greet my seat mate for the first time on my left, a middle-aged Asian man. We did the usual by asking where each other was headed after landing in the capital. I again recited the name of the province we were very soon to be headed by bus. He smiles and says, ‘Oh, that’s where my family is from, but we live in Manila now.’ He of course asks, ‘What city?’, I tell him, and his smile grows wider, he responds, ‘That’s where my family is from.’ I don’t know if I could take this anymore at this point, and luckily, he didn’t personally know of the Pastor I was going to visit, but he did know the family name.

Wow, I was just digesting one coincidence and got another one stacked on top of it. The question of ‘what are the chances…?’ didn’t even enter my mind as I so felt this was outside of the realm of mere chance. It was a personal confirmation of God being in this.

We landed and crowded our way off the plane as I shared this story with Mar-yam, without much time to digest it, making our way through the luggage and customs gauntlet. If I didn’t get the message with the first coincidence, I was given another to make sure I got it. I did get the message, yet I struggled to know what it’s deeper meanings might be.

Within a day of arriving, after another long ride, this one by bus, we met with Marben and Amy, the Pastor couple, along with their family and very welcoming congregation.

Given their esteem for us; along with all of our cultural and logistical bridging needs in a very foreign country; in an out-of-the-way town; our daily travels etc.; we formed a tight knit feeling of bond and community together that we all hoped would naturally extend well into the future with many comings and goings between us as well as our churches.

A few days after arriving, I did meet Marben’s brother and gave him the note I had for him from the Filipino man I had sat beside while boarding in Seattle. He smiled lightly at the coincidence, and simply read the note and stuck it in his shirt pocket. I recall feeling a bit disappointed that it wasn’t somehow anything more significant, or supernatural.

One day, I recall disappointing Marben badly by wearing my overseas footwear of choice; flip flops; while setting out to speak with a large group at a city wide gathering. We found our way through the cultural differences sufficiently to grow deeper and deeper over the short period of time, with a mostly natural ease.

Nearing the end of our time together however, a troubling growing awareness of some huge disintegrities arose that Marben seemed to be keeping well under wraps. It appeared that he was involved sexually somehow with the pretty and vulnerable Bible School students that the church led; that he was also not detached from the local communist party like he claimed he was; and also that church finances were going sideways off the books.

The other leaders from our church group had left a week earlier and had chickened out from addressing any of this, hoping I would surrender to the usual default same face-saving charade and just ‘cool off Marben’s way’ after a ‘nice’ church send-off service. Voila.

I knew all that Marben and we had talked about in regards to ongoing deeper involvement and being overseas ‘sister churches’ was off the table. There was no way we could go home and support any of that now, with what we suspected.

What I couldn’t bring myself to do though was to play the charade card. I knew an extra special send-off service was planned for us the following weekend and so the pressure to keep nice was about as strong as it could get.

The next day, when Marben dropped by as usual, I found my courage and told him about the 3 questions about him that had arose, which left unresolved would hinder all that we had hoped to share together going forward. I made it as easy as possible on myself and rolled it all into one sentence. He let me finish, pierced his eyes like daggers along with his forefinger and said, ‘That’s right, you don’t know’, and headed for the door. Our next time to see him was him smiling warmly as usual for the send off service where the locals piled us high with flowers and even received a love offering to help send us on our way.  

The last thing I did before boarding the return flight home was to find a mailbox in the airport to mail him a letter I wrote him confirming that we would not be continuing with any of the plans we had made until when and if things got resolved.

It was a tough one to digest going from feeling all of this ‘supernatural confirmation from God’ through the coincidences at the outset of this trip to this kind of a death on the way out the door.

Returning back home to our church, the fellow Elders and Pastor weren’t interested in debriefing any of this in any kind of a relational way as it was just an embarrassment, and ‘a bit of spiritual warfare to put behind us’ so the real work of God could go on unhindered.

The again default pattern of not facing and feeling real relational issues inside of our personal and leadership relationships was reaching a boiling point in me. Mar-yam and I had lamented it ongoingly now for years. I knew I wasn’t about to rip anyone’s head off, but I sure as hell couldn’t remain in this kind of a charade forever.

I sadly gave myself to the finding and diving into the next painting contract. In the world of contracting, we made a promise and kept it, and that somehow felt like a balm of integrity in the face of the game playing we did in church, that more and more and more, I was on the edge of losing my stomach for. I wasn’t aware of any misgivings towards God, but we, as his people, were sure a sad pathetic sight is how I felt about it at the time.

Metatron: Wow, Raphael, what a universe!

Raphael: I know, huh. It’s like I’m right back there at the moment, feeling myself as Marvin so looking for a way through the jungle, while being afraid to feel how much of a jungle it was at the same time. What do you make of it all, Metatron?

Metatron: I get it, Raphael. As being part of the church, you were all fired up to take God’s truth to the far flung places on the planet. You had thee instruction guide for meaningful relationships, and this was the best you were able to come up with. That has got to be maddening.

Raphael: That was maddening for sure. But what was even more maddening was the unwillingness to admit any of it. Truth was, and this took me some more years inside of all this to feel, is that there was a lot inside of myself I wasn’t willing to face, that I needed to keep hidden. It wasn’t as glaringly obvious as chasing women, or dipping into church finances, but it was stuff I was subconsciously very geared to not feel or face.

Part of me was using God and the hopeful focus of really making my life ‘count for God’ as a way to not feel what this part of me so wanted to escape feeling, believing that feeling that would be the end of me. At the time however, I couldn’t feel any of that hidden subconscious stuff. I could however feel very clearly that the key to finding our way through the jungle was to get real, to get real with each other, to get real with God, with whatever we could feel as real.

The admission I made in the elders circle, and resignation letter that I mentioned last day, came within months of returning home from this trip. I needed to take my own medicine and get real with myself. Mar-yam and I soon left our beloved all-in church behind, and went on to join one where we had no knowledge of the inner workings. I simply didn’t want to know, and feared that if I did, I wouldn’t be able to hang out there either.

I see now, that it was at this point that my belief and intense focus on the Bible as ‘thee deal’ lightened some, even if I couldn’t admit that either at the time. I opened myself back up to non-Christian music and reading, which I had been conditioned deeply to feel as backsliding. Who’d have guessed, for instance, that a Mormon, a decidedly deceived person, in our particular staunch Christian mindset that is, like Stephen Covey, could write such a grounded and genuinely helpful book like 7 Habits Of Highly Successful People without threatening hell, or sounding like a street preacher?

I knew two things instinctively at the time. One was that ‘God was for us’ and the other was that ‘He needed us to reach for the help we sought.’ I reached for the self-help aisle in the local bookstores and checked in from time to time to see if any Christian authors in the Christian bookstore had got real in the meantime.

It was a journey from this point over the course of the next 14 years, of slowly, but surely, thinning out one ‘pillar of the faith’ after the other. I did come across a small group claiming to still be true Christians, but had dispensed with many of the popular Evangelical claims, teaching a very alternative message. I dove deeply into two particular teachers in that movement for a good while. Mar-yam found it a breath of such fresh air as well, and we were even surprised to find two couples in our circle of long standing friends that were ready and hungry for a similar shift in focus. It allowed us some personal quiet breathing room, to feel into more of what we believed and why, while not jeopardizing our claim to being Christian, at least to ourselves.

A big one came around the halfway point of that stretch coming to the conclusion, as well as to the admission, the latter being the harder part, that I no longer held the Bible as the ‘inerrant, inspired, God-breathed, Word of God’. My intuition was pinging on all cylinders telling me that the only point of an ‘inerrant book’ was simply control, and that any ‘God’ out for control, was no ‘God’ at all. I had to adjust my picture of God and the Bible to a more progressive one in order to continue for the time being and that’s what I did.

This was the point though where Mar-yam became quite uncomfortable with where I was going, realizing that without that conviction, as liberating as it admittedly felt on one level, there also was no guarantee on anything, including our marriage. Our close friends interest in this new message and movement dried up at this time too.

Andy, I’m thinking a break-point is in order soon, can you dial us in an address to park this Merkabah for a bit?

Andy: Got the perfect spot in mind, Raphael. There’s a black hole super portal in our vicinity, and then just a mere 12 million light years from there, so we’re good. I’ll have us with our feet up in no time. Hold tight everyone, you might feel a bump or two.

Raphael: You are thee best, Andy! I’m thinking there’s some more digesting we need to do, but I’m a bit tired from the reliving of all this, and I know there’s more to feel, that I’ll need a nights sleep or two along with Andy’s galactic stay to digest this all, and what we’re fixing to do, from an elevated perspective, we could call it…

Anyone have anything they need to share before we take a pause?

Merlin: Pausing’s good.

Rhodes: I’ll say…

Raphael: Until next day then, everyone. What a day’s Journey this was. Many, many thanks again!
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The Beauty You See In Me Is The Beauty That You ARE: Message From Mother Gaia

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By Jelelle Awen

I spent 18 months at a remote, off-grid ranch here in Mexico where there were more natural surroundings than man-made ones, many more sheep than people. This experience almost two years ago now dropped me into the ‘lap’ of Gaia in a way I had never known before just taking walks in nature everyday or going camping occasionally. I felt myself BEcome Her and our mutual reverence together as I gardened for hours each day, built a house of mud/cobb, swam in the river. Now that I live in town, I mostly connect with Her through an amazing ocean view, visits to the beach and nearby river park, living on a jungle hillside…..it is not as immediate a connection, yet She lives INside me always.

This is a Message from Mother Gaia, who is often the Divine Mother form that people can most easily relate with and let in:

The beauty is you. The beauty you see in me is as beautiful as YOU are. I show you my beauty so that you may see your own. Always, I have been here to provide this for you. Always, I have wanted you to see that you ARE beautiful too.

You come to me. You take me in. You pause to let me in. You swim in my waves. You sit on my sand. You lay on my beaches. In the experiences of this outer places, you find reverence. You feel reverence toward me. You pay much of your ‘money’ to live near this expression of me.

Yet, I want to tell you, as I am a form of Mother to you and as my embrace holds you and supports you…….I want to tell you that the reverence you feel toward me is but a re-minder of the reverence that you ARE.

And, this reverence I reflect back to you. I reflect reverence for YOU in my waves, in my trees, in my mountains, in my breezes, in my landscapes. I offer this beauty of me so that you might finally SEE and FEEL your own.

You who are reading this, taking in these words, you feel the exchange of beauty, the exchange of reverence between us. You pause. You reflect. You walk mindfully on my grounds. My lands are your chapels and your sacred places. My trees are your witnesses and shores your portals. You do not destroy. You are the keeper souls of my energy, my stewards. You are the hope and possibility that burns bright and shines and beacons to others of your species.

It matters, your reverence for me. And it matters even more your reverence for yourself. It matters; it makes a difference; it propels forward the immense changes that are happening now. It propels our Ascension together forward as reverence is the substance of grace, appreciation, acknowledgement of worth.

I offer you many gifts of rejuvenation, nourishment, connection to ALL, connection to cosmos, connection to No-Thing-Ness, connection to my animal children. I offer these with reverence WITH you.

All I ask as you accept these gifts is to feel your reverence in response. I offer you these gifts so that you might see that you have access to all of these frequencies already, that they live inside of you, that they ARE you…..and that I AM YOU too.

I am raising myself UP because it is time for me to do and be so. It is my phase of UPness. I invite you to come along, those of you in reverence and appreciation and goodness for me, all living BEings, and yourself.

I invite you to come along with me into this exploration of your sacred humanity and the expression of the BEST of what your hearts and souls can express in those human bodies.

I invite you to come along on the next phase of this journey together to experience the expression of New Earth Or Golden Earth Or Golden Gaia.

I invite you to come along with the deepest feeling of appreciation and love, from the depths of my inner groundings to the heights of my orbit crowded with star being friends.

I invite you to come with reverence for the beauty expressed by me and that lives inside of you already, just waiting for the water of more LOVE!

Much much love to you my BEloveds,
Mother Gaia

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Going Yin: Claim Your Gentle AND Your Power, Man!

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What does it mean to be a gentleman?

This came up for me this morning as I was digesting a post by Jelelle yesterday. She was advocating for the energy of gentleness in our lives, in the way we relate to ourselves, others, and the world around us. There is so much going on that has abrasive and abusive energy to it, even as it is coming in the name of ‘love’. I could feel where there are edges still inside of me that still feel a defense and a need for contention at times. I can feel a wound and a hiding of power. One in need of healing, one in need of claiming.

To be gentle does not necessarily mean soft or nice. There is a way in which we can bring our truth that holds a compassionate directness and an openness to be challenged otherwise with respect and goodwill. But this is a reflection of how we feel about ourselves as men, and as the masculine in women.  For some, the Gentle Man is a buried part. Put in shadow due to life experience that told him it was weak or unsafe to be so. For others, the Nice Guy comes out as a way to ward off the hidden anger and inner jackass that has been suppressed out of fear of harming and guilt. An inner rage that is in deep need to be felt and heard. In either case, a big part of what what being a true gentleman might be is tucked away in the recesses of our wounded masculine heart.

Our gentleness is a gift and a strength. It is a sensitivity not just to women in general, but the feminine within. There is battle that wages inside, and collectively, around the balance of our gentleness and our power. In our soul’s HIStory, we have much to atone for and be willing to own. This is a lifelong process of choosing to claim our own shadow and to heal that which has been hidden away out of fear and guilt. There is great Protector and Punisher that has had its reasons for being the way they have been. It is responding to these parts with our gentle hearts that brings the balm of healing to our conscious reality and transforms them into guides and lovers.

Under the wounded outbound expression of our power resides our truth, discernment, and passion to love and create in unison with the feminine. It is a strength and a force that is responsible to its consequence yet steadfast in its resolve.  The IN-fighting becomes an INviting with open heart, clear boundary, clear intention, and INtegrity. The Gentle Man is not push-over or a bully. He is an enigma to himself yet knows what it feels like to be both, and refuses to be either.

There is no badge to be earned. It is a process of choice and desire. It is about being real with all the parts and aspects of you that are tired of the battle and the inner war. It is about choosing something new where the warrior, knowledge-seeker, and unworth get to rest in the bosom of your sacred gentle heart. It is being reborn and remembered back into the true sacred power of your masculine BEing one truth, one claim, one tear at a time.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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New Babies Announcement: SoulFullHeart FREE, PREP and DEEP

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By Raphael Awen

We’re having brand new babies and these babies are going to take a beloved community to raise them!

We are launching our new PREP program this week and this has necessitated a transformation and naming of our other two previously nameless babies that we’ve had up till now, as FREE and DEEP.

Our new program offerings are now called, FREE, PREP and DEEP.

We’re so excited we can hardly stand it!

FREE is free, a ton of fresh-baked goodies that we send out almost every day through a host of channels, creating virtual cafes and libraries for you to find your way in. In FREE, you can acclimate to and take in the signature SoulFullHeart energies that we feel you can’t find anywhere else. You can create a lot of movement and shifts in your life just by taking in these free offerings and allowing them to move through you and your view of life and relationships. FREE is actually at the heart of what we offer and we put so much into it, because we want to, and because it’s our funnest fun.

PREP is the next level of significant engagement. For $77 USD minimum donation per month, you can become a PREP member. In PREP, you will receive three weekly SoulFullHeart Process program assignments each month tailored to getting to know and feel aspects of yourself in alignment with your Ascension journey. There are also three facilitated and recorded group calls every month that you can join in live or take in afterwards, at your leisure, with other PREP and DEEP members, to have space to process what you are digesting. Another BIG support structure is the SoulFullHeart Circle, a members-only private forum to share your assignments, digestions, and form new relationships based in the SoulFullHeart way of life. With this expanded engagement of your intentionality along with the weekly process assignments, the group calls, and the Circle, you will be able to make much deeper and grounded life changes that your heart and soul have been wanting to make, with all of that based in getting to know and feel parts of yourself, rather than a self-help regimen overlay of what you ‘should’ do.

In PREP, for an additional minimum donation of $55 USD, you can also schedule a 75 to 90 minute personal session with one of the SoulFullHeart facilitators as you feel the need for specific digestions.

PREP is a self-guided program where you have a ton of resources to choose from that you can engage with at your own pace and allow life to flow with you and your discoveries and shifts.

The details for PREP along with a ‘Buy Now’ button can be found here. If you are ready, you can sign up immediately. All you need to do is make the minimum donation (or more) and we’ll send you our welcome letter and get you oriented. No commitment beyond the month is required.

Then comes DEEP for a minimum monthly donation of $222 USD a month. You can dive in here if you want to, but you may not want to. Depends. We’ll meet with you first to discuss what you are looking for and how we and the DEEP program could serve you. DEEP includes all of the PREP program, as well as the FREE program, which form the foundations for the DEEP program.

What DEEP offers beyond this foundation is going through the same weekly assignments that are offered in PREP, but along with having a recurring weekly personal session space with one of the program facilitators (Gabriel, Kalayna or Raphael, with Jelelle as a senior facilitator working with women who have completed a minimum of three months in DEEP) too. This is all-in for a minimum donation of $222 USD per month.

As you are using all of the tools and means to support your process of getting to discover, know and love parts of yourself, the sessions provide a space for these parts to come to life. They will feel the light and love of a new day, as you are also templated and guided to be this new, loving, authentic self, and curious parent energy to these parts of yourself. Our wounding occured in a feeling space while in relationship and so does our healing, one beloved part at a time. If you know already that you want to go into DEEP, we want to meet with you in a Program Advisory Session led by myself (Raphael) to get you oriented and grounded. If I really feel you would be better served by PREP, we will talk about that together as well. We ask for a minimum donation of $33 USD for this one hour Program Advisory Session. Go here if you’d like to purchase that and I will be in touch to set that up with you.

The details for DEEP can be found here. Information about the brand NEW SoulFullHeart Process can be found here.

We believe this stuff down to our core. We walk what we talk and we live it everyday. Serving it to others is an extension of that. We believe with all of our hearts that you will not find anything like it anywhere. We’ve looked high and low. That’s a bold claim, I know, but how is it that any lesser claim could be enough for you?

If this resonates for you, please join us and become a part of the community that it’s going to take for the raising of these new babies – SoulFullHeart FREE, PREP and DEEP.

We will be more than delighted for each and every one of you that desire to be a part of this and what the road ahead calls us, all together, to show up for.

In Heart,

Raphael Awen, on behalf of all of us here in SoulFullHeart.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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A Day In My Life During High Energies

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By Jelelle Awen
We are acclimating to these higher energies coming in….all days it seems, even as we can feel an increase in them during specific portal openings, gateways, and repeating number dates. This calibrating process feels like it is going on at all levels for all of us (whatever degree our consciousness can let it in)….cellular (definitely ‘every living cell’ is being UPgraded), emotional, mental, chakral/energetic, social. This is our NEW normal. How to BE with this activating and integrating of these energies is something that we are all learning as we BEcome sacred humanity together.
Yesterday, as the HIGH energies continued to flood in (I often ‘see’ them as waves, swooshing into Gaia’s atmosphere and our inner shores too), I felt myself naturally responding and adjusting to them. I wanted to share here a sort-of energy diary/journal of my day spent as a highly intuitive and sensitive person (as YOU are too, I imagine if you are reading this) during these higher peak energy days. This also shows how the SoulFullHeart way of life and parts process just weaves organically into my days as I respond to my soul purpose around offering it here.

February 27 – I begin my daily check-in with myself in the morning after my usual breakfast of smoothie and hot cacao tea. I start to get a sense of how my body is feeling, how my heart is feeling, how whatever parts or Metasoul aspects I am connecting with in the moment are feeling. I can feel intense dreams still lingering with me, the details starting to fade, the left over sensations of my astral self traveling to other dimensions and timelines during sleep. I begin to get a sense of the cosmic energies pressing ‘down’ on me from above and receive a visual of them flowing down into Gaia’s orbit too. My inner energy gauge offers that they are at a “8” on a scale of 10.
With the energies so high today, it is a time to be gentle with myself and to breathe. The inner time is particular important on these days as I have experienced if I try to push through them and just do things without consciously bringing the energies into my body and heart, it is more difficult and even painful. Meditation space for me changes every day, depending on what my personal needs are and where the Divine, my Higher Self, and Guides are leading me. Sometimes my meditations are quiet and still with little thought; sometimes they are epic feeling, multidimensional journeys to engage in galactic love ambassador work on a collective level; sometimes they are very personal with tears and pain moving through while connecting with my Metasoul and parts.
Today is a recalibration day. This means that I place my beloved crystals and stones over sacred geometric cutouts laid over my chakras. I move my selenite wand over all of my chakras, checking in as I do, cutting cords if necessary, moving energies from others that are stuck in my field back out again. I do this with love in my heart and gently, not with a desire to ‘cast out’ negative entities or coming from a place of fear. If I feel fear then, again, I check in with my parts to see what is going on. I listen to activating music that pulses through me, that seems to shift every molecule and every cell in just taking it in. Today, I am guided to this new one from Lokos TV: https://youtu.be/-8odB7lxjUc
My Arcturian Metasoul sister named Binkh is here, smiling at me sweetly. She tells me that I am backed up in terms of letting in the new energies from not going into self care spaces enough recently. I understand immediately what she means and soft tears start to flow as I reconnect with my inner spaces and her love. My focus has been more outward during the last week as we have all been working hard in SoulFullHeart to launch our new programs and I am designing a new year-long process for us as well. It is love work, soul joy work that just flows out….BUT on higher energy days it is even more necessary for me to take spaces for self love too.
I let the binaural tones flutter through me, feeling Kundalini start to activate, swirl, and twine up and down my spine in response. I ask the current ascension energies to infuse me, activate me, and invite them into my every living cell. Doing this consciously allows parts of you that might be resistant to the process to hear and feel your declaration that you actually WANT these upgrades. If I feel resistance to the latest activations, I then check in with my parts or Metasoul Aspects to connect with them and see what is going on. Today, there is no resistance, especially as I have recently integrated a big shadow piece from my Metasoul that was playing out karma and self sacrifice patterns in my service of love with others. My most recent Metasoul sister (an Aryan Draco named Metsbet) is ‘tucked in’ and happy, safe, and loved in the moment when I check in with her. I feel a new flush of even deeper self worth that is grounding into my Metasoul and multiple timeline expressions too, along with my emotional body. I feel Divine Sophia smiling at me, sending love.
I take in an hour or so of ‘energy therapy’ with Binkh hovering over me, working on me in ways that I can’t track with my mind, yet always make me feel better. My trust in her has deepened greatly over the last couple of years as I healed from trauma held by my Star Seed (4D Inner Child) from being ‘abducted’ for many years in my childhood. When this therapy is done, I then ground it into my body by doing yoga for awhile. We all in the SoulFullHeart Community love to engage in yoga with Adriene programs as she is funny, approachable, and brings a seemingly fresh spin to it. Her videos are available online here: https://www.youtube.com/user/yogawithadriene Finding a way to ground the current ascension energies into your body through some form of physical activity and exercise really seems to help lessen the intensity of ascension body systems. Stretching especially offers a deeper integration into every cell.
I then help Gabriel, Raphael, and Kalayna to film an introduction video to our new programs, enjoying to be in the alchemy process with them. Because I have given myself some ‘me spa time’ with meditation and yoga, I’m able to be more expansive and present with them as we collaborate together. We all live in the same building, so we see each other quite often and lately have been meeting every day as we work together on the new programs. Living in a close community like this, I find that I need my inner space even more and also in order to serve others in session space and to share my writings and respond to them.
Throughout the day, I keep feeling into if writing will come today to share on my blog and on facebook, and to make into a video to share. My writing (soul scribing really, as someone has sweetly called it) is not planned or strategized, as the inspiration for it usually comes in the moment. I have the idea for this energy journal writing while I am doing yoga, yet it feels like it is not ‘ripe’ to share today. My writing on the recent energy surges has gotten a lively response with many shares and comments, for which I read every comment, took them into my heart, and responded to almost every one of them. I ‘hold’ response to my writings this way and my videos too. This is the service of love aspect of it that goes beyond recognition as a ‘good’ writer or even for the ‘goal’ of sharing my ideas or perspectives in an educational way. It is about the energy exchange, the love collaboration that happens as two souls see each other through a shared, resonant experience. THIS is why I write, to engage in this energy, to serve love through this exchange….and also to share the SoulFullHeart way of life perspective and energies too to those who may be resonant with them.
I don’t have a space holding session today, so my focus turns toward SoulFullHeart projects. An outline for a new, year-long SoulFullHeart Process births out of me. This process brings together all the things that I have heard and felt as needs, desires, and interests from those that we’ve served in sessions over the last year, plus over the last 15 years of working with parts and soul awakening. This birthing of the new process is a welcome surprise as I have felt it gestating in me for awhile. Creativity such as this is possible on these high energy days especially, once the codes have been let in and you are in the flow with it rather than parts of you resisting it.  You can read more about our new programs here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
I finish my day by enjoying a dinner at a veggie buffet restaurant with my beloved mate Raphael and my daughter Raianna. We laugh, we share stories, we engage in lighter content even as the deeper soul context holds it all. I look at them across the table from me and feel such gratitude for their presence, their sharing of this reality with me….so grateful for their love. THIS, then, is one of the biggest ways that I can integrate the energies of New Earth coming in…through being in and with this commUNITY of beloveds and our group Merkabah together that flows abundantly with love and gratitude.
Thank you for taking in this sharing of my day into your heart! Maybe it inspired you to feel and approach your integration of these ascension energies in new ways. Much love to you as we undergo this exciting and transformational time of transition into the NEW…..together.
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Belief Systems Anonymous

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By Raphael Awen

Life is relating to all of me, and I in turn am relating to all of life.

It’s happening in the background with or without my awareness. I may be thinking about something pressing, but while I’m given to that awareness, a million other potential concerns are moving along effortlessly.

This is such a bizarre reality for each of us, so much so, that we screen it out and normalize it into everyday waking reality. We toss around the ‘hey, how are you’ greeting out of need to do something with the reality that an I and a you coexist somehow together. But behind our polite or impolite interface with life, is this awesome awe that none of us really knows what to do with. We look and we can only sustain contact for brief moments, and we must turn away, for the fear of the awesomeness that will most surely consume us, leave us no more. But, make no mistake, each of us feels this awesomeness and lives in total fear of it, on a deeper level.

This addresses why we form looking glasses and belief systems with which to look at life, for to look without a looking glass would surely be to die. Even everything I just said above and will go on to say is being produced and filtered by my current belief system.

You cannot live without suitable clothing and unprepared in a harsh cold climate and so it is in this harsh climate of duality that we live in everyday. We must choose one thing over the other and then busy ourselves in that pursuit. Our looking glass is what provides the data to interpret what really matters and what doesn’t. Who’d want to be without that? What would be left in life without that?

Feel for a moment the You who doesn’t know life outside of its looking glass. Feel the myriad of different looking glasses that people choose, how different and opposing they are to one another. Feel how defensive we are about our looking glass being challenged. Then feel in this myriad of difference, the commonality of the fact that we all cling to the need to have a belief system.

We should all check into Belief Systems Anonymous. ‘Hi, my name is Raphael and I’m a looking-glassaholic. I’ve been sober for going on thirteen years and while I still use my looking glass everyday, my sobriety is found in my acknowledgement of that. Prior to being sober, I couldn’t admit or take responsibility for my looking glass. So many were the problems of this fusion to my belief system, so many the judgments of myself and others, which led me deeper and deeper into a form of OCD so insidious, for the simple fact that everyone around me were also unrepentant looking glassaholics. My sober years are opening me more and more, with awareness and admission, to more and more glances of unfiltered reality, to the infinity of love that I can’t begin to describe, but my feelers feel it, and I am overcome with tears. These kinds of nervous breakdowns are the best. I need one quite often just to be able to go on. I need to tell you who I am and what my challenges have been and are before I can feel sane attempting to relate to you any further. Thank you for listening to my story.’

Where is life asking you to feel the edges of your belief system now? What parts of you hold different and even often opposing belief systems inside of you? How is life’s relationship with you wanting to change and shift into new ground of your ongoing awakening into the deeper infinite love that you actually are!

Raphael Awen
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There’s a ton of new creativity brewing in our latest program offerings, FREE, PREP, and DEEP. Check them out at the link above.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Energy Update: Sleepiness, Third Chakra Rumbles, Intense Dreams As Big Energy Surges Move Through

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By Jelelle Awen

 

“Big Energy surges the last 24 hours with sleepiness, intense dream activity, solar plexus (3rd) chakra rumbles…..moving UP, going in.” I posted this as a status on Facebook this morning, receiving much resonant response already to it. This kind of statement is a precursor to the deeper feeling that I do into how cosmic energy activities may be impacting you on an energetic, physical, and (most importantly) emotional body level.
The energy surge of the last couple of days brings in a sense of constant sleepiness, feeling groggy no matter how much actual physical sleep you are getting. This can lead to sudden ‘crash’ naps that can last for a couple of hours and sleeping many more hours in a row than usual. Intense dream activity comes during these long sleeping hours to populate the landscapes, sort through subconscious emotions, and offer triggering scenarios to feel emotions that need digesting and processing.
You may have the sense during your recent dreams of truly BEing in parallel dimensions, alternative realities, and other timelines. There are these adventuring kind of dreams that act as portals to these realities that your Astral Self has access to. There has been so much bleed through from other timelines lately that this is also impacting our dream spaces. I write more about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/02/21/energy-update-timelines-bleeding-through-offering-deep-karmic-healing-and-unification-of-your-metasoul.
There are the dreams that seem to push up suppressed emotions of anxiety and unease, even terror sometimes. These don’t feel like nightmares, as much as energetic purges that move usually quickly if you’ve been engaged in shadow work healing and can consciously divert them before they turn into suffering loops.
Our third chakras are UPgrading from being personal will focused (or ‘service of self’ as some people and the Law Of One calls it) to service of others AND self through service of love. We are BEcoming service of love as the ascension process deepens and accelerates. We are moving out of ego-focused, 3D reality processing….and into self love focused IN ORDER to eventually overflow love with others from our healing heart.
The phase of BECOMING self love is what the collective is being invited to embody as well. This is not ego-obsession or selfishness, yet rather tuning into ALL parts of you that need your love and compassion in order to transform in an organic way into your service of love self.
The ultimate purpose of this transformation is not for self image-based glory or just for money earning or gaining influence over others, yet rather to serve love TO yourself and all those that need it to embody their service of love self too. This is about feeling a deep connection to the cries of the world even AS your attention can lovingly turn inward. You recognize in this that the source of your power to change anything on the outside comes from within you. You are serving the ALL when you serve yourself in this way.
These recent ascension energies are cleaning out the third chakra of the 3D conditioning that looks to the outside for identity and sense of self. They are moving you inward, to find your power center THERE. They are inviting you to feel your Inner Protector that has often ‘fused’ to the 3D externalized power structure out of necessity and self survival strategies. The Protector often ‘lives’ in the third chakra, along with the Inner Punisher as well. Through the SoulFullHeart process that we offer, the Protector transmutes to self loving boundary setting and guide to access ALL of your parts and your Metasoul/other timeline aspects. The Punisher transmutes to humble discernment, heart-based intuition, and wisdom. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
The Higher Heart chakra (a combination of the heart chakra and the throat chakra) has been receiving pulses of activations since the beginning of this year. The Higher Heart seems to be replacing the third chakra as the main energy center for which you process energy as you increase your vibrational frequency. Divine Feminine illuminations seems to facilitate and hold space for this process of transformation, along with galactic activations and connections with your Star Family and Metasoul Aspects. Healing your Star Seed woundings experienced during abductions (which are actually Star Family visits) is important to activate the Galactic Higher Heart.
Processing energy through your Higher Heart allows you to expand your capacity to feel the cries of the world with a deep compassion while remaining centered in self love. This process seems to be accelerating as frequencies of self compassion and forgiveness are most needed at this time. The Divine Mother provides these frequencies in a visceral way. She floods love into your heart space, your solar plexus space, your third eye space….all the spaces and places and parts inside that need it. Here is a guided meditation that I recently recorded offering these forgiveness frequencies with Divine Sophia: https://youtu.be/0yuiBDIp2Oo
We are being held in all these activations and integrations with Divine love for us and WITH us at all moments. Connect to this Divine love and support through your Higher Heart. This provides a heartline as you navigate the murkier waters, unify with your shadow aspects, and FEEL the emotions that are sometimes most difficult to BE with. This heartline offers a trusting frequency in the BIGGER process that is going on here….the continual embodiment of your sacred humanity AS love.

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We are now offering NEW programs, PREP and DEEP, to provide the SoulFullHeart process to you with options that range from a self-led experience to more personalized experience with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator. Both include community immersion experience through access to our private SoulFullHeart Circle forum and up to THREE group sessions a month! Monthly minimum donation rates range from $77 USD to $222 USD with TONS of value included!! Read more here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

Keep Feeling, Keep Wondering

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We are always at the edge of our own largess no matter where we are on our journey as long as we keep feeling and keep wondering.

Feeling is the root of our true knowledge. It guides you and delivers you into the world of experience…the precipes of what parts of you have been afraid to walk up to and stare into. The deep chasms and dark caves, as well as the highest vistas of what you are actually capable of inhabiting because of all that is at stake in doing so.

These experiences are both ‘this’ life and from your metasoul lives. This life wounding is informed by the inner parts of your heartmind. The places you got hurt in this dimension. Your metasoul is a vast planet of experience that acts as your own Akashic record embedded in your DNA.  The other Now lives that hold so much of your spiritual and emotional wounding from the fall of Atlantis to the far off reaches of the galaxy. The only qualification you need for access is curiosity and the willingness to heal it…as well as the negotiation of what we call your Gatekeeper, the guide turned guard of your expansive inner universe. Kind of like a Soul Librarian.

This curiosity leads to feeling, which leads to healing, which leads to wonder. The reverence of what IS, what has been, and what is possible keeps this wonder alive as well as the desire to know and feel More. The continued reaching at the edges of your own inner universe as it collides and dances with others in intimacy to feel and see more of what you are all about…what you are capable of and meant to BE.

The only thing between you and Creation is all the places you hid your selves. Your pain, your fear, your power, and your love. This is the journey and path of recollection and remembrance. Putting it all back together again taking one curious, courageous, heartfelt step at a time.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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