Humanity’s Return To Innocence

by Kalayna Solais

Believe it or not… and I’ll bet parts of you feel skeptical (and reasonably so) right now. Yet, I’ve been offered that a huge aspect of the process we’re in right now on Gaia is a great ‘Return to Innocence’. It’s not a simple process by any means. Yet laid out for us, it is. And invited into it deeper, we are.

This ‘innocence’ means seeing and feeling the world through the eyes of wonder and trust, even though there may be tears sometimes when you feel what is burning away in your own life and in the lives of others. Actually, this innocence means there is a renewed sense of your own heart’s purity, which despite the trauma you’ve experienced, remains deep within you. This is what you return to when you’ve healed through so many of the defences parts of you have needed throughout your life. This is the place you interact with others from more than ever before when the younger parts of you who are now much wiser because of life experience but not bitter (anymore) are able to feel this innocence within themselves.

Even all of the purging going on with Cabal, illuminating collective darkness and shadow so that we can dig deeper and move away from this timeline of suppression of love and truth (which can’t ultimately BE suppressed really), is leading us back to our innocence. These darker energies that have influenced and held the larger spaces of politics and fame and even spirituality, are loosening their grip and returning to their own reconciliation within. To meet and match these energies and defend against them as well, parts (especially your Inner Protector) and Metasoul aspects in other timelines have had to adapt and defend, become fiercer than they truly are or want to be, and forget about their realest vulnerabilities and the core of their heart’s desires. This is leading us through a BIG detox of what has NOT been us, individually and collectively, and is challenging us to feel our hearts again.

It may seem sometimes during this purging process that things are getting worse… but when it comes to toxicity, quite often things get worse before they get better. Storms happen before rainbows. And even rainbows happen sometimes while the sky is still clearing of rain and clouds. So it is that our innocence, our Divine Child light, can still find ways to shine through, even though there is still so much churning in the world.

It’s a deep, many-layered process. As I feel my own empowerment in my own process to feel all of this emerging in my own being, I feel how much work it’s taken to get to a space of feeling more of my innocence again. More of the desire to genuinely and heartfully connect, to bring vulnerability even when it feels iffy to do so, is able to emerge now. I can feel this as a new form of leadership that gets to arise now from within me and invite others to find the same within. It’s worth all of the shadow processing to get here and I trust too that this feeling of my own ‘Return To Innocence’ will help hold the space for any more shadow explorations that follow.

And so it can and will be for you… if you keep choosing the curiosity, the inner work, and the desire to hold space for yourself and others as we continue this transition to the most ALIVE-feeling life that we could ever have imagined.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Remembering Our Starseed Essence

By Deya Shekinah

Every week the parts and themes we are feeling and connecting with through the ‘Free To Be Two’ group calls seem to be naturally interconnected, offering me a much bigger picture of myself, the world, and the Universe. 

My Inner Teenager, Yasmin, feels so connected to the collapse of the 3D Matrix. Feeling her is helping me collapse the matrices inside at the same time as I’m witnessing them collapse on the outside. Feeling where she was ‘plugged in’ through the school systems and birth family templating is helping me unravel all the beliefs and ideas she holds about who she is meant to be. 

Last week I could feel her in the school corridors, overwhelmed and unprepared for the huge transition that it was. I could feel her innocence, as she carried my Inner Child in her arms wearing PJ’s and holding a teddy bear. She quickly learnt to ‘grow up’ and hide her Inner Child and innocence so she could ‘fit in’ and ‘survive’. This created so much depression which I can still feel here now, as hidden with her childhood innocence was also her curiosity, her creativity, her sense of purpose, and her multi-dimensional connections.

Something that feels so rich within my Inner Child is this connection to the magic, to the mysterious, and to the stars. As life got denser through living in 3D, I forgot about the magical essence of my Inner Child as she seemed to get further and further away. I am now remembering her and feeling how she has been there all along as the one who was questioning everything and longing for Home. 

She feels like my Starseed, who is revealing herself organically as Yasmin is deeply digesting her experiences this life. She feels expansive, curious, and open to all the possibilities in this Universe. She restores the magic in this existence and reminds me of the bigger picture of all that is happening in our world right now. 

Connecting with my Starseed brings me into a deep peace within, as she helps me remember I have never been alone and that those who I have longed to go home to were always here with me, inside me, every step of the way.

You can join Raphael & Jelelle Awen today for the fourth call in our Free To Be 2 series, Navigating The Matrix Collapse to New Earth Transition, at 10:00am PDT with teachings and a guided meditation to connect to your Star Seed within, Star Family, and galactic consciousness. You can join live and/or receive the recordings for a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Much Love, 

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Desire & Hope For A New World: A Poem

By Raianna Shai

I feel the polarities in the world right now
Power and pain
Passion and heartbreak
Love and fear

I hope for a change
For our parts to be felt
For our hearts to be healed
For our voices to be heard

I dream of a new world
Of peace and joy
Of compassion and understanding
Of healing and awakening

I see us hand in hand
Fighting no longer needed
Shame and guilt fading away
Unity and community in spades

I believe in us as humans
To dive into our shadow
And rise into love
To reach our collective ceiling of fear
And burst into the unknown of trust

I desire so much for humanity
To feel the violence inside
And the violence towards others
To heal it with kindness

For…
I am LOVE
YOU are LOVE
WE are LOVE

Incredible painting by Josephine Wall πŸ’•

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Free To Be group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

3D Matrix Shaking Up To Wake Us Up

By Deya Shekinah

There is an intensity in the world right now that seems to be in a constant ramping up and amping up. It feels like we are in a pressure cooker set at its highest temperature and cooking speed. I see this reflected in the current events happening in 3D right now, how it can feel to parts like it is β€˜one thing after another’.  I am also seeing this in my personal process. It feels like there are so many threads up for healing and completion, other timelines bleeding through, and past relationships coming up for deeper completion. Basically, anything that cannot come with us into the New is calling our attention inwards if we are choosing to go there.

In my own process I am feeling how overwhelming this can get for my parts, especially the Inner Masculine parts like the Inner Protector and the Gatekeeper. They feel like they are wanting to set a self-loving, discerning pace to our process and for us, even as they may use ways of protecting and suppressing us that do not feel that way. I feel them trying to navigate all of what is coming up through a very limited lens created in the 3D way of life, that teaches us to avoid rather than meet what we are feeling.

Inside myself when life sparks things to feel and digest, and with so much anger, injustice, fear, pain and confusion coming up to be felt, I feel an inner struggle at times. I feel a struggle between taking care of myself and my parts, and caring about the world and feeling what is moving within it as the 3D Matrix shakes up, breaks up, and is collapsing. 

For so long my parts approached healing and Awakening as something that needed to be done and quickly because they felt there was β€˜something wrong’ and that they needed to β€˜be fixed’. This created an intensity to how my parts would approach how they felt, a searching, a seeking which was not discerning or self loving. This has created more to heal and digest with them. I sense that happening for us as a collective now too, with Covid, the things happening in the US now, all that is being revealed to us. As we search for answers, deeper meaning and to fix it all, it feels like our parts can get caught up in it all without any space for digesting how they feel about it too. This creates more for us to digest around how we treat ourselves through this whole unravelling.

Through my own deepening with my parts through the SoulFullHeart process, and as higher frequency Aspects of my Metasoul are coming in as I digest the trauma of my 3D self/parts,I am feeling guided from within to take a more gentle approach, a more self-lovingly paced approach to what information I am letting in and how much my parts can actually feel and digest in one go. I am being offered and it feels like an invitation for us all, to move above these Matrices, to look from an overview perspective, which feels like it can happen more as we digest how we feel and the trauma our parts have experienced in 3D. 

This is not a bypassing of what is going on in the world or in our personal processes. I see the image of birds flying high and scanning the waters, which look like the 3D/4D matrix grids. As the bird we can choose where and when we need to go in and fish or be in the waters. I also feel the image of a mermaid, who can dive deep into the depths when she needs or wants to, yet can also enjoy being at the surface, being in/flowing with the ever-changing motion of the ocean with trust in the waves and the ones she is meant to catch. I feel how this picture allows us to go into feeling as and when we and our parts feel strong enough to do so, rather than them having to be led by expectation, guilt or shame. I am feeling these themes coming up at the moment to feel and it is not easy to digest. I feel more and more how much space and tenderness we need around us to feel all we are being called to feel.

A self-loving pace to feeling, healing and digesting feels so important, especially as it feels like the collapse of the 3D matrix will keep getting more intense for us all. I feel us knowing inside when and what we need to go into, to feel for ourselves and in the collective, that what we need in life finds a way to present itself to us. We do not have to keep digging for the healing or the answers anymore. It feels like everything is being revealed to us as needed, and like this is a time of great Illumination for us all now.

I am experiencing through digesting and healing the trauma of my parts and Metasoul how more and more of these higher frequencies aspects are coming in to support me and have always been here supporting me, even as I could not feel them. I feel the energies of Golden Earth, Lemuria, the Pleiades, all wanting to support us and help us through these intense transitions, offering that we do not need to suffer in our suffering if we choose not to. Even though we will be where we need to be until we no longer do, this is a very soothing and accepting perspective that I love in SoulFullHeart. The complete Love and acceptance of where we are at, the trust in our own Soul and its timing, that is validated and encouraged through this process.

I feel we can all bring more Love into the process at any time even if we find ourselves in the deepest, darkest, densest places within ourselves and within the collective, Now. Allowing ourselves to slow down, digest, and feel as we go, feels like it will truly help us all and offers a break for the higher frequencies of Love to come in. To go INside more and more often for our answers and support, rather than look outside as life in 3D has taught us, feels like where we need to go and where we find the torch to guide our way into the New, to illuminate what needs to be met and moved through for each individual. I feel this will be needed more and more as we transition through this 3D collapse and all that is being revealed through the process. 

Yesterday’s Free To Be Two series Group call theme was β€˜’3D Matrix/Cabal Collapse and unplugging w/ your 3D Self”’. The call was full of activating, inspiring and full of connection. These are powerful gatherings with Jelelle and& Raphael Awen offering much to feel, that supports the healing within, that does ripple out into the collective through our innate interconnectedness and oneness essence, it feels like. For more info you can head to soulfullheart.org/freetobe2two where you can purchase the recording for a donation.

So Much Love, 

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Arising Anew From The Collapse Of The 3D Matrix

In the midst before me, I see a dying story. A matrix of beliefs and conditionings that we have all, to one degree or another, found ourselves playing a part of. We have written and acted in the play together, to sheer perfection.

But we have crossed certain markers in our path too many times now to begin to recognize that the house we contracted to build together is burning. It is running on the fumes of a fear of fusing to the building itself. We are not burning. The house is.

This can be a very existential experience to our 3D self as well as a very triggering remembrance to our Metasoul brothers and sisters that have experienced a collapse before. They have not been pretty, nor self-loving. But that doesn’t mean they can’t be.

Deaths are never easy and have their own energies to be with, yet if we can find that essence within us to hold the space of this transmutation then we may find ourselves like the rose among the ashes.

Connecting with your 3D & 4D selves with the aid of your 5D/Higher Self, a managed collapse is possible and also very self-loving. That is not the same as easy, just setting the suffering gauge to as minimal as possible. It is really up to you in the end.

How we leave is who we enter as.

Our fear can come with us as long as we are willing to go into it and feel it. This is the process that is supported in SoulFullHeart. It is holding the Light so that we can transform the Dark. We are both.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Deeper Intimacy With Self Through The Explorations With Money

By Deya Shekinah

Wow, what a topic money is. I feel so many layers and parts wrapped into the explorations with money. One of the things that Jelelle Awen offered in the SoulFullHeart Free To Be Two group call about money this week, was how some can relate to money as a false god. This landed straight away as what I experienced within my family, how earning money gave meaning to life and felt like the only meaning to life as there was no spirituality or religion in my upbringing. I feel how my Inner Masculine, David, took this on and how my Inner Child, Yazzy, was stifled by this. Since she was always so multi dimensional, she didn’t believe this to be true, but as there was no one bringing any other meaning, she became capped by that.

I remembered a time when a male family member said to me that β€˜money is the only thing that matters in the world’. At the time, I was blown away that anyone could believe that. As I feel it now, I feel so much density in that picture of our world, the lack of joy or spaciousness in it. As I feel David, I sense this energy within him as the conditioning he received from birth family members. 

Right now I am in a transition into a new way of being and earning money, that is bringing light to David’s relationship to money.  I hold and feel a lot of trust around money after years of transitioning and exploring money. This transition has grown into a deeper awareness and understanding of a greater meaning of life, as well as what abundance looks and feels like to me. 

I have learnt that abundance is many things. Not only money, but time, connection, vulnerability with others, space to BE. These all feel like abundance to me. I am coming to know and feel that my inner feeling of abundance is what draws abundance on the outside including financial abundance, even as that is still growing. For David, I feel him seeing this abundance coming in and seeing money coming in for offering my Soul Gifts, but he still does not FEEL abundant.

The group call has helped me feel this with him, his reality more of distrust and lack that he has been in and learnt throughout this 3D experience, sure that has been the 3D experience. One of the core beliefs I feel held in David is, β€˜there is never enough money’., I see how much this creates that reality for us because he is so focused on β€˜there is never enough’. He cannot appreciate or acknowledge it as it is coming in. I feel how it is the ability to be grateful for what IS, in the moment, that draws more of that thing to you, which of course is a journey, not something you can create through bypassing feeling the lack of gratitude. 

I feel how this lack of money belief is actually a cover up for lack of love, connection, communication and boundaries, it feels like. Money becomes this huge focal point when there is no other meaning to life. Money has become this huge elephant in the room, where we think about it, worry about it, are anxious about it, but we do not really honestly talk about it, at least in my experience and in this culture of my current geography. The shame, the guilt, the resentment around money is of course going to make it heavy and joyless. This feels like it creates blocks to, and a push/pull within us and our relationship to money, as well as abundance in general. 

I feel the lack of joy the Inner Masculine can hold around life in general, which then seeps into his relationship with/to everything else in life. I feel David feeling joyless, I feel him longing to experience joy as my other parts do, his sadness that he cannot seem to meet them there. Yet I feel how no one has ever asked him what he likes, what the meaning of his life is, and how he has been disempowered throughout this 3D experience too.

So now there is this new ground to walk out with him, where he is included and wanted, where he gets to feel and heal too because he is valued by me through this process. So this is where talking about money leads us, perhaps not straight away to more money, although I feel that coming in but to deeper connection, understanding and intimacy with our parts, and with each other eventually too.

You can purchase the recording of this Free To Be Two group call about money and attendance at/recordings of future group calls in this series by offering a donation of any amount. More information at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

Love,

Deya & David

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Unplugging From The 4D Matrix Group Call Today!

by Jelelle Awen

The 3D/4D Matrix is collapsing. The prison doors have been unlocked and are now OPEN. We truly are now FREE!! Still time to join us today live at 10:00am PDT during our weekly group call over Zoom for an important piece of teaching and next level/cutting edge working on the Ascension journey.
I don’t know of anyone else teaching this process in this way or with this ambassador of love energy around it. We will be sharing about the collapsing of the 3D/4D Matrix that is going on with this Coronavirus event, the Reptilian self entwinement at the 4D level and need for mutual liberation, and the ‘Programmers’/Archonic Group that is now letting both species ‘go to be free.’

We will offer a guided meditation for you to connect to your Reptilian Self and help them to unplug from the programming, which allows YOU to unplug and deprogram at a deeper level too! Yeshua and Magdalenes will serve as Divine bridges to bring them into a higher frequency space of liberation and recovery.

You can join us by offering any amount of donation as an energy exchange here: soulfullheart.org/shop or here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

More info here about the series: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

We will send you the recordings to the previous four group calls in this series so you don’t need have attended them to come to this one. You will also receive the recording of this call today too if you can’t join us live!

love,
Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author ofΒ three booksΒ about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…moreΒ information here.Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. VisitΒ our donations pageΒ to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Energy Update: Schumann/Gaia Up To 140 HZ In Response To Earth Day Honoring & 3D Detox

Energy Update: Was this is a response from Gaia to all the love and honoring she received on Earth Day yesterday from those of us celebrating Her? The Schumann resonance spiked up to 140 HZ!! about two hours ago on April 23rd and is still going strong. The average baseline of 7.83 HZ that was once so steady has been fluctuating more and more the last couple of years, with many of us feeling that this mirrors the elevating consciousness of humanity as well. There have been a couple significant spikes in the Gaia resonance during this transition, which I share about here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-jelelle-awen/energy-updates-with-jelelle-awen/

This spike up in Gaia’s frequency also feels also like a reflection of the cleansing and purifying that is happening in Gaia’s atmosphere with the 3D Detox that is going on now for over a month throughout the world for the first time in modern history. The skies are clearing (no chem trails either) from pollution, the waters are purifying, the animals are flourishing…and many humans are too.

Most of the souls I have connected with around their adjustment to this time are finding that their lives have changed very little, as they were introverts/healers/star seeds more tending to spend time going inward, in nature, less on the 3D busyness track of work-sleep-repeat anyway. In fact, many souls are finding that their lives are better…more time/connection with their children, more inward focus and balance, even better financial situations in some cases with the available stimulus from governments (which, if you pay taxes at all, is YOUR money/energy coming back to you.)

I have compassion for those souls who are experiencing ill health, suffering and hardship timelines during this shifting and transition. This feels to be most likely a reflection of the suffering they were already living through in 3D life (which runs on the fuel of undisclosed and numbed out suffering.) So it is not so much the situation of quarantine that is creating this, yet the opportunity to feel it now that everything has slowed down. Those in toxic or difficult relationships are discovering this too, as what has been covered over by daily life is now being revealed. Ascension is about the completion of suffering for humanity yet for some a peak experience of it and choose to stay or go (as Gaia will no longer offer the 3D polarity experience) is happening now.

Those souls who are deeply involved and feeling the New World Order/Deep State agenda may also be feeling many reactions coming up to feeling trapped, controlled, and their rights violated by this ongoing shutdown. Those souls who need to protest and be activists around that are following their calling around it, even as many souls are not experiencing it that way. I feel an honoring from the Divine Mother around how each of us is experiencing this opportunity in the Now, even those who don’t feel it as one.

My sense is that Gaia is in a timeline where She is thriving during this reboot…She is leading the way for humanity related to our Ascension. She provides a template/model for how we too can move through this process with surrender and acceptance. I felt Her consciousness coming through strongly yesterday in response to Earth Day and I feel these increased electromagnetics are the results of that.

There is an opportunity, for those who can surrender into the quietness, for next level activations and upgrades on ALL levels. The quantum field is expansive and rich right now and the veils are thin to access it and any lifetimes that you feel to connect with that need processing (especially those related to collapse experiences such as Atlantis and Lemuria, or those with plagues or starvation or those in persecution or being held prisoner). These timelines can be intense to feel yet when you connect with the soul aspect of yourself living in them and offer love, there is a great healing of karma that can occur. We experienced this during our group call last week, where many people shared deep and easy access to other lifetimes and healing too, just during a 15 minute meditation!

Here is a meditation to connect with your Gatekeeper who can open up these timelines for you: https://youtu.be/-IZQYBoE6Cg

Much Love to you as go into the deeper stages of the Great Awakening,

Jelelle Awen

You can still join us for our the next group call in our Free To Be Series connecting with the 4D/AI Matrix (a quantum level connection around what is occurring) next Wednesday April 29 or to receive the recording by offering a donation. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. Jelelle is no longer offering 1:1 sessions yet for more information aboutΒ  1:1 individual sessions with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls with Jelelle, writings/books, and videos, visitΒ soulfullheart.org.

 

Thank You, Mother Gaia

Thank you Mother for all you have held
All you hold, and all you will hold
As you take us into the Mystic
Thank you for you never-ending love
Your relentless passion for our evolution
Your undying forgiveness for our trespasses
Thank you Mother for the magical creatures,
The majestic views,
The places you have created
So we may enter into our eternal sanctuary
Thank you for the medicine
The wisdom
The trails and tribulations
I am in awe of your Might
Your Breath
And your Beauty
I am your son, your servant, and your steward of Love
Amen

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β 

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia: An Earth Day Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I sit by Your trees, Your streams, and I feel the strength in Your beauty
How You hold space for ALL, for everyone, for everything
As it moves and lives and ascends with YOU…
As you patiently wait for us to notice more
So we can take ourselves in more.
Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I gaze at Your creatures in wonder, in communication, in awe of each move they make
And the peace they hold in their uniqueness, never faltering in self-consciousness.
I feel the density You are lifting with each breath of Your sacred lungs
Ready to help us respirate, let in, the NEW air.
I feel how much You hold so effortlessly yet with so much care and space
How even if some beings truly tried, there is no destroying You
Only destroying themselves
And even then
It’s a death and rebirth
Another sobering aspect of Your many sacred cycles
That often cannot be avoided.
Yet, even in these darkest hours
Your beauty offers grace and solace
Places to meditate
Invitations to feel and feel held in feeling
And ways to remember
That it’s all moving, circling from death back to life
As the dead and dying water and fertilize the seeds of the NEW.

For everything You hold space for
For all of Your grace and space
Thank YOU… today and every day.

Love,
Kalayna ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β Visit https://www.soulfullheart.orgΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.