Category: Inspirational

The Magic Of Name

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By Gabriel  Heartman

What’s in a name?

Shakespeare’s Juliet would say that “it matters not what name is bestowed upon thee for thy essence remains the same”. I am channeling of course, but I happen to agree with her in regards to the truth of our Divine BEing. However, we also live in a world of names. It is the nature of the duality of our 3D humanity. I believe even in our 5D reality we still have names as the name itself is a waveform expression of our BEing. It does its best to align with the essence itself.

I explore this because it was a year ago yesterday that I changed my name to Gabriel. Before that I went by Sequoia. Before that Christopher, Christian, and Chris. Each one represented a phase in my growth and dimensional frequency. They are like radio station markers on the FM dial. Each one held and energy or consciousness that still lives inside me as a part that has integrated to much degree. There are times when they come out like a solar flare to be felt as needed in whatever trigger constellated them out of their new home in my heart.

How does your name reflect You?

Does it match what emanates from your core?

How would it feel to you to change your name as a shift into a new version of you?

There may be a resistance to a change and that could be a part of you that is attached to that name for it represents so much. I went from Chris to Christian because when I really began to change I needed something new. ‘Chris’ represented something old, not bad mind you. He became a part of me to help feel all that was shifting and being left behind in regards to lifestyle and relationships. It was a tender holding of what had been ‘me’ for a very long time. One of the precious phases of my life. I have even changed my last name to denote something that no longer resonates for me in what was my 3D conditioning.

In SoulFullHeart, as you begin the exploration and journey withIN, you meet parts of yourself that hold a particular energetic and emotional frequency. They have been given names such as Inner Child, Inner Protector, Gatekeeper, etc. As you personally come in contact with your own, a personal name arises from this energy. It exemplifies and personifies. Makes it more intimate. It is amazing how the energy of the dynamic shifts once it has been birthed with this definitiveness. They become alive inside of us through the magic of naming.

It is all a part of the play that we are being invited to explore and embody. It is where we get to express and learn about ourselves. We may connect to names that represent our 4D metasoul lives both human and galactic. Connecting to these names help us tune into our expanded consciousness and receive the gifts of their vulnerabilities and strengths. They are portals into which we are being invited to feel, heal, and explore. They hold much creative power of our arising sacred humanity.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Finding And Following The Quest Of Your Own Truth

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By Raphael Awen

‘Could it be that a part of you has a very good reason for feeling depressed?’

‘Why does conflict seem to pop out of nowhere?’

‘Why do I see repeating patterns of abuse or neglect in my relationships?’

Deep QUESTions like these are powerful, and taken to heart, they can lead you on a powerful quest, to the heart of your power and self leadership, and self response-ability.

They will lead you to your truth to the degree you are ready to make the quest, your quest.

Remaining comfortably subscribed to someone else’s truth, in an effort to fit in, or in an effort to avoid rejection, when you can see and feel the growing disintegrity of those ‘truths’ can only now provide you with a discomfort in the diminishing sense of belonging.

Choosing to really discover your truth will take you to the edges of everything you belong to, and invite you into seeing what you belong to and why, in a new way.

The first question above took me on a spiritual and emotional journey that I was ripe for in my life, where I simply knew that I couldn’t live with myself, if I didn’t allow the QUESTion to fully take me on its quest.

For me, the only picture that could satisfy my degree of what some might call a ‘maniacal’ quest, was the picture of what is known as ‘Parts Work.’ In fact, I couldn’t even embrace the quest very far without seeing and getting to intimately know the various parts of myself and their investments in my current life structures and relationships. For me, any and every spiritual path and emotional path that couldn’t, or wouldn’t recognize and make central, parts of ourselves, felt to me like they were a band-aid of denial over the screaming reality in the room. The quest took me through a path of one self-lovingly negotiated step at a time of changing my relationship to everything in my life, and it still does to this very day.

Discovering your truth will call you to the edges of everything you’ve believed in and why. I sure wouldn’t wish or advise such an experience on you if you couldn’t open up to feeling the parts of you and their investments in your life as you currently know it.

Your truth will sort you, and everything in your life like nothing else can.

It sounds serious, and it is, but it’s also your funnest fun!, …that you came here to discover and become.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Ascension Invites Us To Feel Our Humanity And Serve Love With It Without Martyrdom, Self-Sacrifice

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by Kalayna Colibri

https://youtu.be/5hm5bGCKnBc

We are learning to serve love, serve our fellow human beings in stride with love, through our humanity. This is why it can feel so hard sometimes to be around each other’s pain, let alone our own pain. So many attempts are made to bandage the wound instead of healing it because the sight of the festering is too much for parts of us to bear and reminds us intensely of our own places we still need to go. It can be a momentous effort to actually stay in the room with ourselves, let alone each other, and to try and offer any amount of love in that context can be so challenging for parts of us that really would rather try and not go there or look here.

There can be no ‘perfect healer’, at least not in human form, as far as I can feel it… we can work to become purer and purer channels of love through continued work on ourselves, in conjunction WITH service of others, which is actually the bigger mirror for us. We can be transparent and vulnerable with each other about where we are still needing to go inside of us, what shadows seem to be peeking up, what we have gone through and are walking out for the sake of our own healing. Perhaps one of the most beautiful things about our humanity IS our messes and our courage, our insurmountable, wonderful courage to just, keep, going.

I think we have been pre-disposed to going to battle, serving ‘god and country’ because we are actually quite wired for service, period, and instinctively know this, feel this, believe this! We are meant to be in the ‘trenches’, yet not in a literal sense… we are being called to the mistaken, old, worn-out battlefields within others to apply medicine of heart and soul balms. Yet we are called to our own inner worn-out battlefields first. Peace cannot begin to move through our world without this, without our efforts to heal our own hearts and not transcend them or ask anybody else to transcend theirs either. Humanity cannot begin to mature beyond this mentality of needing to fight, needing to ‘other’, needing to find opposition in order to find itself, without looking inward on an individual basis first.

The singular agenda for humanity as a whole feels like this piece of remembering that we are of service… and what this even means. What is service without martyrdom, without self-sacrifice, without climbing up onto a soapbox to shout at the obscene and unfair crucibles of the world, without going to war or battles? What does it mean to be human and still serve love from the deepest hearth of our hearts, admitting when parts of us feel fear, shame, sadness, anger, rage and finding the vulnerability in being with that? Sometimes loving others means setting boundaries. Sometimes healing others means allowing, showing them they have the power to heal themselves, with the genuine love and support that comes from authentic soul family/tribe connections and a heart-based connection with the Divine that is not theoretical but felt and experienced.

How to serve other human beings while serving our own selves and our own humanity is an unfolding quest, actually, and an unavoidable one at that. In SoulFullHeart, we offer parts work and this is what works so deeply for us, as everyone, even and perhaps especially the people we serve, are all reflections for us to take in, of where we’ve gone inside of ourselves, what we’ve already cleared and healed, and what we have left to clear and heal, too. Yet we are also always learning more and more what works best for us, who we are meant to serve, and how. I doubt there could be any human healer on this planet who isn’t meant to feel this humility of not always kNOwing what’s best for another soul, for this is what invites us all into deeper collaboration with each other and with the Divine, who is always working through all parties involved in the healing effort, finding, rediscovering and ultimately healing Itself back to wholeness too.

This all makes serving love as a human being a trial at times and rather challenging, yet we keep going into it because we know, we trust, that LOVE is worth it, that everyone on this planet (and beyond!) is worth it… that WE are worth it. We are heading in the direction of love with every feeling space given to ourselves and others, and with every ounce of our vulnerability we bring to ourselves and the world around us. We are goodness, we are Angelic, we are the ones here to move along with Ascension and love along with Ascension. We are of service. We are beacons. We are amazing. And so it IS. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Energy Update: Loving Anxiety Into Trust As Timelines Collapse

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By Jelelle Awen

Anxiety and distrust rumble in the belly, in the third chakra, in the solar plexus of the physical, and the gut of the emotional body too. They can burn and churn there, feeling like a constant tension that rarely eases or loosens its grip. Or anxiety flares up when love comes in and floods the usually well guarded places….when love ‘sneaks in’ beyond the Protector and the risk of getting hurt increases greatly. Anxiety can just BE so consistent inside of you, your emotional body, your chakras, that you don’t really feel it anymore or are conscious of it anymore. It just becomes like a background noise that you hardly ever notice.

Current ascension energies of light, of love, of illumination, of surrender are pushing up these frequencies of distrust and anxiety to the surface to be felt and healed and moved. These energies are making you notice also as they rumble through the old timelines of your life and start shifting you into the New. You may be experiencing a fresh flow of this and wondering, “Where is this tension coming from? Where is this anxiety coming from?” These Divine energies (especially from the Divine Feminine) support the asking of these questions and the answering of them too.

The answering can come from going within, to feel the sources of anxiety within your Inner Protector, who may be maintaining a near constant vigilance ‘against’ life bringing other parts of you any more hurt or harm. In this anxiety-fueled protection though, love can also be filtered out and the healthy digestion of the Divine’s love that wants to come into your BEing and water all parts of you too (including the Protector!). Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Protector:https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA…

Your Inner Protector also may be keyed into and connected to persecution frequencies in your Metasoul field that are playing out in other timelines. These are not ‘past lives’ at all but energizing in the Now. These timelines can create a constant tension in your energetic field (again often centered in the third chakra) as an energetic bleed through moves through of the battles, the persecutions, the betrayals, the violence….whatever storylines your Metasoul (Higher Self Soul Source) is playing out and involved with. We call this aspect of the Protector that remembers and knows about your other timeline aspects, the Gatekeeper. More about this part here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeeper

It can be challenging to connect with anxiety because the vibration of it often can’t settle down enough inside of you to receive love and connection. Situations and relationships in your life may push up MORE anxiety (in ongoing suffering/anxiety producing loops) and the whole ‘system’ repeats itself over and over. To connect with anxiety is to extend BIG self love to the energy of it, to feel the part of you that holds it and why, to become BIGGER than the anxiety and distrust. You become then a bridge for Divine frequencies to flood in, bringing more trust , surrender, and love to all the tense places.

I can feel anxiety quite easily in others and acutely, due to many years of healing mine through parts work integration and Metasoul aspect unification. I can feel the vibration of it in others, it is a distinctive tone….because I have felt it in myself. The first part of myself I connected to that had acute anxiety described herself as “Being as tense as a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs.” THAT described perfectly the extreme tension that lived and breathed in this part of me that had ingested so many volatile frequencies during my childhood that often led to harm and abuse. Through feeling her and many other parts that held anxiety (also Metasoul aspects that live in highly stressful and dangerous timelines), I have been able to relax so much more into trust and surrender to the outcomes of life and trust that Divine love was holding it all.

It’s feeling like the current energies (which seem to have a Dark Mother or catalytic death-rebirth vibration to them) are illuminating what the sources of anxiety are in your life and inviting you to let them go. I have discovered that the biggest source of distrust comes up within relationships of all kinds. Our original hurt and wounding happened in relationship and anxiety stems mainly from the fear that hurt will happen again and the distrust in any sources of love with the projection that they will hurt you again.

The timelines formed around relationships, especially those you are consciously unhappy about, are being rumbled with love so that they will collapse and you can move into the new….with the relationship intact or not. THIS can certainly push up anxiety too as it can be challenging for parts of us to trust that letting go of something will actually lead to something good and different.

The Divine Mother can hold beautiful, still space for anxiety to finally rest inside of you and Her energies are strongly here and have been since the start of the year especially. Calling on a connection with Her brings a soothing balm. Anxiety just needs love ultimately to allow for more trust and surrender for the ongoing navigation of all this shifting, changing, and growing into MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

A World Ascending: The Sorting Out Of Our Truest Courage

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By Gabriel Heartman

Timelines are shifting. Sorting. Colliding. Bleeding.

I could see this in my mind’s eye yesterday like large chunks of freeway making grand separations and connections. Concrete shrapnel flying through the air moving with the intense energy of these tectonic movements. The energy that came from this felt quite epic on an etheric plane. I immediately thought of scenes in the movie Inception where a full city was bending in on itself in a puzzle-type motion.

Lightning is striking in the hearts of many. Elucidating many difficult places to feel and choices that are in line to be made in order to move into a new ground of self-intimacy and soul growth. Where there is lightning there is thunder. It rumbles the current world order that has been created by a part’s need for safety and maybe even chaos, for even chaos can hide what needs and wants to be felt and healed.

These energies bring up visions of an almost apocalyptic nature. It is through the lens of our most defended places that it appears this way. The relationships both inside and out are being invited into a deep state of curiosity and compassion which may feel like interrogation and judgement. How to navigate these epic movements with courage of heart is what we are being guided to embody.

If we are ready to stand face to face with our deepest fears and hard to feel reflections, we are ready to birth into new territory of our being that leaves us changed forever. It leaves the old in the rear view while constructing the New in a step-by-step, moment-to-moment reality. It is created from the core of our own self-worth that can integrate the death of what was as we see the future that IS.

There is a container for this all held by our Higher Self, the Divine, and the BEings of multidimensional frequency that we can call upon and integrate. We can call upon those that are in the bliss and the mess of it all as guides and soul explorers. It is in direct connection and negotiation with our Inner Protector and community of Inner Family that brings us the courage we need to make our way through the other side of this sorting and into a world ascending.  

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Choosing Love Moment By Moment

Published on by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Moment by moment….this is the invitation for ascension, for awakening, for remembering. In the moment feeling what is raising your frequency, feeling what is not. Choosing to continue, choosing to stop. This is the invitation, choosing your consciousness. Awareness is the choice of what you are putting your energy into, what you are participating in and if you want to continue or not. Awareness is realizing the impact of the energy you have taken in, the 3D conditioning you have chosen and parts of you are still anchored to, the conditioning you have experienced by often NOT being aware.

Moment by moment….the dedication of this practice is what brings the transcendent experiences, the sublime, the refined, the blissful, the reunions with aspects of your multidimensional selves. The embodiment of your Higher Self comes from this dedication, this focus, this willingness and openness to shift, to change, to rebel at times, to go against the grain. It BECOMES your life as it feels more ALIVE than anything else and so this choice of dedication becomes easier and more natural.

Moment by moment….you experience what makes it worth it, you experience more and more LOVE. The experience of choosing consciously love in every moment, to rise up into love again if you fall into fear. Even loving the fear that still lives inside. Loving the conditioning, the many, many layers of it, all the parts of yourself, and what is like cob webs over you, as you untangle and loving THAT too. Love makes the HARD worth it and holds the feelings of being lost, being estranged, being isolated, being different. Love makes the HARD worth it when you are being aware when others are not, being conscious when others are not, being aware when others are not, being love when others are not.

Moment by moment…..claiming of your mission, your purpose, the REASON you came here and left the higher frequencies behind voluntarily. Bringing in those higher dimensions, connecting with star family frequencies, angelic realms, Divine source, going within to bring them in reminds you of your purpose. Going within reminds you that you ARE them. Your SOUL’s purpose is in the moment claiming, over and over, reflected in the choices that you make (or don’t make), reflected in the relationships that you put energy into to reflect to you what you need to see of you. In the moment claiming and remembering what you came here to BE and DO. Re-energizing with that reminder and bigger picture in the moment.

Moment by moment…..the invitation is choosing your soul, choosing the bigger picture, choosing the higher energy, choosing the self loving, choosing the resonant ground, choosing to serve love above all else, choosing to hold space for your feelings, choosing to go within, choosing to claim your soul purpose. In every moment, the invitation is to CHOOSE love.  

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Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
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Forgiving Yourself, Opening Up Your Higher Heart W/Divine Mother

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By Jelelle Awen

“You are already forgiven. You are forgiven at the level of your essence as it can only BE love. You are forgiven for your motives as they can only return to purity. You are forgiven what has been judged by you as dark or sinful or destructive or harmful as ALL of it has served a purpose in your journey back to Love. You are forgiven for your distrust and your push aways as it is a necessary phase in the process. You are already forgiven…..NOW, begin to forgive yourself.” ~ Divine Mother

To forgive yourself is to feel the parts of you that struggle to feel these tones of forgiveness from and with the Divine. To become a bridge of forgiving compassion to ALL aspects of you, even the ones in shadow or the ones that have done and been ‘dark’ things; even the aspects in other timelines that have led wars or started battles or killed many people or been persecutors; even the ones that bring up initial fear and resistance to you to acknowledge or BE with.

Going onto your inner battlegrounds and forgiving all the players that you find on the field. Offering the reflection that there are always ‘good’ reasons for the choices in the bigger picture, in the higher sense, from the perspective of the Higher Self, and related to your soul’s growth. Showing these parts of you and Metasoul Aspects/Other Timeline Selves that they in their Divine essence are NOT dark at all and NOT evil either. Being curious about what their actual essence is beyond what they have done or been involved in. Inviting them to be vulnerable and share with you their deeper hurts, pains, and fears.

The Inner Punisher may be the part of you that is leading the charge of ‘wrongness’ message about you. This part of you may judge harshly and without love what you have done, what you have been engaged with, what your soul karmic patterns have been. The Inner Punisher TOO can be offered forgiveness for its judging as it has just been the product of a 3D environment that supports inner contention, distrust, and polarization in this way. Often, the Punisher is the one that needs forgiveness the most, yet most resists it. This Inner Punisher eventually becomes humble discernment, heart-based intuition, and wisdom. With the love or your forgiveness, your harshest critic can become one of your biggest allies.

This is the self forgiveness process that opens up and continues to expand the Higher Heart. The Higher Heart connects us to Unity Consciousness, which becomes challenging if you can’t feel Unity within. It opens up the flow and capacity to forgive others, which is actually often easier than to forgive yourself. You may extend to others a forgiveness that you cannot to yourself. This flow can be turned inward and needs to be in order for the transactable love that comes from self worth and overflows out to others inviting them into compassion, understanding, and forgiveness together.

Divine Mother frequencies are so helpful to support your self forgiveness process. “Forgive me Divine Mother for I feel sinful and like I have sinned, like I am unforgivable somehow” and you will discover that She already HAS forgiven you and all parts of you. You let in that She never sees you as sinful or as a sinner at all, yet a magnificent BEing that is learning, growing, transforming, and BEcoming love once again. Warmed up by this connection, you can offer this forgiveness to all parts of you in a flow that heals and soothes and acts as a blessed balm.

This music offers beautiful frequencies to connect with Sophia, a wise and compassionate form of Divine Mother: https://youtu.be/tFTlr0wGdWw

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Infinite Tug Of More

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Painting by Patrick Ennis

We exist in a contemplative creative space seeking to uncover a mystery that has no finality or destination other than the one we have chosen to make of it. Even the choice of meaninglessness has its its own sacred purpose. That infinite void space of ISness and Presence is the canvas from which we give our soul creative expression. Pressing against the edges of our own chosen limitations and fears.

What is it that you really want from this realistic dream state you have found yourself in?

Understanding?

Love? Union? Interaction?

Fulfillment? Safety? Freedom?

Adventure? Wholeness? A reset?

All of the above?

The answer may not be as easy as it appears for with each choice lies more questions. More specifics. It brings you to a place where the answers may bring you to contradictions and collisions. What does the depth of this exploration ask of your current cosmology and morality? These internal conflictions seek a mediator and a claimer. A trust in something that is just not knowable but intuitively desirable.

Your heart is your homing device in this vast multidimensional arena. Inside lies your clarity, confusion, and delusions all told. They work themselves into BEing as you connect more to your ultimate desires and your hidden truths.  You may be in a tug-of-war with your inner selves as you are feeling the tug of “more” within your soul.

This is the process of choice, feeling, trust, and action. It is the universe birthing Itself through you. Are you creating It or is It creating you? Or are you dancing with It in Holy matrimony? Do you do this alone or in relationship? These are the questions that may be inviting you IN. Calling you forth into seeking the heights of your most unknowable and infinite self.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Completions, Appreciations, Next Steps – Day 33: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 33! of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I summarize the series, emphasizing that the ground I’ve covered about the SoulFullHeart process is more a map of the process rather than the actual territory, which is more felt and experienced on an emotional and spiritual level than possible through explanation. I offer that the next steps, especially if you feel a strong resonance with what I’ve been sharing about the process, are about having a space holder and facilitator who can help mirror and differentiate, which we offer through weekly sessions and group calls. You can find out more information here about sessions with us: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, Gabriel Heartman, and Raianna Shai join me today to offer greetings and messages from their hearts about the completion of the series and possible next steps.

Thank you SO much for joining me in whatever ways you have during these 33 Days, whether watching one video or all of them…..once or many times over. Thank you for the collaboration and co-creation of the infinite possibilities that love offers in every moment!

I hope this series has provided you with a taste of YOUR bigness, multidimensionality, and MAGIC of ALL parts of you that is possible as you lead with self love, curiosity, and compassion.

Thank you for joining us on this thirty-third day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Here is the video series called Practical Ascension with Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

More information about our monthly group calls here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Our email is soulfullhearts@gmail.com. To buy books by Jelelle Awen go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog athttps://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

DAY 15 ~ JOURNAL TO THE DEMIURGE

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By Raphael Awen

(This is Day 15, of an ongoing series, to begin at Day 1, go here: https://goo.gl/CgrWXZ)

In today’s entry, I check in one last time with my guides about the intention to initiate contact with the Demiurge, just before we set out to do just that on our next day.

I invite you to track this series from the beginning if it calls you, so you can be a part of this posse of hearts forming to support this undertaking. It may go down in history and herstory both!

Here is Day 15:

Raphael: Wow, good morning, everyone.

I am feeling a digestion of Sophia’s shift last time.

I am feeling so grateful for each of you and for this journey together. It feels like without intention, we don’t have connection, and I’m feeling how desire and need precedes all of that, like a circle, spiraling in an upward spiral and ascending higher and higher in creative and recreation process.

If the Demiurge was created by the only source of All-That-Is, that is LOVE, then love is always in movement and flow, even while it is the form of the purest stillness at the same time. In this movement, then the purpose and intention of the creation and co-creation of the Demiurge is shifting, or wanting to shift, and this shift is something being felt in us, moved through us. Each of us is being asked to get to know, feel and love our personal shadow, our personal darkness. We are being asked to come to terms with our own personal hell.

What are you all feeling? I’d like to check in with you first, Sophia. It feels good to call you by your new name.

Sophia: Thank you, Raphael. I feel like I have a mantra on my lips that says, ‘I am the bright, bright, bright, light of God’ and each time I repeat it, it’s like a rocket booster that takes me into a cosmic and galactic space feeling the love that truly upholds all things. It’s a bit higher frequency than being here and even being connected to us all here, or to this journey to the Demiurge, but I’m working on integrating it so I can dial all this in together at the same time. Taking on the new name really has opened out new spaces for me to feel into.

Raphael: Okay, I’ll gladly accept being a part of all that! Yumm. Galactic and Cosmic sound pretty close to orgasmic. They can’t be too far away from each other. They do feel a bit removed though from what I was saying earlier about entering our personal hells.

Sophia: If I may, Raphael, I see it that our hell is the portal to our heaven. One has to be just as willing to be present to both. Both are actually a lot to bear, and both take courage and strength to be with.

Raphael: Yes… that feels so true. Thank you, Sophia, lover of wisdom.

Who else? As you check in today, I feel to put this question into the space: ‘How are we feeling about next steps towards contacting the Demiurge?’ We’ve taken our time to get to this next step. I know I have also felt some fogginess creep into my buoyancy about our mission as well; less focus on the purpose and clarity of connecting with the Demiurge. Part of me feels like ‘if I have it so good, why would I want to make this connection with the Demiurge?’ Could it be that we’ve raised our frequency to the place where the Demiurge doesn’t feel that real or important? Has anyone else felt that? Can anyone else help me sort out what I’m feeling?

Metatron: Good Morning, everyone. I can speak to that, Raphael.

Raphael: I knew you could, please…

Metatron: It’s something we all need to feel together. After Sophia took us to the ‘bright, bright, bright, light of God’ territory, as she so beautifully called it and shared it with all of us, thank you, Sophia…it’s natural to feel this just wanting to leave behind any contending with lower frequencies.

We all needed this frequency increase to prepare us for what’s next, but it’s also so tempting to simply leave these lower realms to themselves. This is why we formed a posse of hearts to hold this intention, desire and energy. None of us could have undertaken this journey alone. No one has undertaken this journey before and for good reasons. The Demiurge is born out of the collective, and so it takes a collective to undertake a formal ambassadorship to make connection with him. My deepest awareness in all of this simply is: none of us get to go home, until all of us get to go home. Consciousness is ultimately leaving no one behind. We can all make great strides of growth and change, but each of us will be called upon to assist the ongoing awakening and remembrance, even as it is, at some point, a personal necessity for our own next steps. I feel called to lead and support this, Raphael.

Raphael: Thank you, Metatron. That goes in, deeply. Wow… who else? I’m feeling you have some pieces, Merlin, yes?

Merlin: It feels like we’re at the place where we’ve made all the preparations and all that’s left is to do what we set out to do, and that is simply to reach out to the Demiurge, attempt to make contact and see what happens from there. Another piece to feel here is that we cannot control his willingness to connect with us. Should he choose to simply not respond, we are kind of left feeling like we failed in this mission. I feel this apprehension among us as we get this close now to simply reaching out. Does that feel true for anyone else?

Martin: That feels true for me, for sure, Merlin. The Demiurge, I’ve always known up till now, simply as ‘God’. I can feel how he feels normal and natural being venerated and feared, but I never heard of anyone approaching him with a conviction that his gig is up, and that he’s a false god, like all the rest of the false gods. He even raged about it in the Ten Commandments when he said ‘thou shalt have no other gods before me’. I can only imagine that any willingness on his part to speak with us would be evidence that he’s had some change of heart since all that was put together. If not, I can’t see we have much chance of gaining audience with him.

Merlin: That all feels true, Martin. It also feels like there’s a deeper piece here for you to. Can you feel if that’s true?

Martin: Yes, I can, and thank you for pushing me a bit. I feel how when and if the Demiurge does have a serious change of heart, it shatters so much of my life’s work. Parts of me haven’t fully come to terms with just what I’m participating in here with you all. There will be tons of remorse yet to feel and heal. There is also fear of repercussions from the people. They gave their trust and I accepted it, all too readily I’m feeling now. So much that was built over time, must now come crashing down. When I travel to your dimension and time and feel what a mess the Church is in, under the Demiurge dominion, I so feel how I need to feel a whole bunch inside, just like we’re inviting the Demiurge to feel.

Merlin: Yes, you got it, Martin. A change of heart in the Demiurge makes for a chain reaction in all of his followers, and in all of those who supported his rise to power, and who benefited from his rise to power. This speaks to the deeper hesitancy we are feeling about opening this portal to the Demiurge. The desire to ‘let a sleeping dog lie’ is understandable, but this dog is beginning to wake of his own accord, and the sooner we bridge to him, the sooner we can hold space for a different future than one that is only a shattering without a new reality on the other side. There is much that needs to die and will die, but it is the rebirth that wants to arise out of all these ashes that we can support. We do that by feeling what there is to feel in each of us. Any and all personal remorse, fear of repercussion, all of it. These are the same things that the Demiurge will be faced with feeling, and he will be able to tell if we are genuine in our conviction. We are essentially inviting him to feel, and then to offer to hold space for those feelings.

Raphael: That really expands out this surface reticence to connect with the Demiurge, Merlin, and Metatron. Thank you. It speaks to our personal responsibility for the creation of the Demiurge, that we need to feel if we are to be any part of his un-creation, and re-creation. We’ve covered a lot of territory in our approach over these days together, but today gets to a deeper bedrock of what we are being invited to feel. And to look at that, lying there just below our hesitation to continue.

Does anyone else have any feelings to share here?

Sophia: I’d like to say, Raphael, to all of us, that all of what we are feeling today can so be held in the Mother’s heart. There’s no remorse too deep for Her to feel, no regret that can’t be felt and moved through with Her help. This is the time of the great rebirth, and we are being offered a place in it, simply by being willing to feel, willing to need love, willing to self-forgive, as we offer that same forgiveness to hearts willing to find their own forgiveness.

Raphael: Yes, thank you. Anyone else?

No? Okay then. Feels like you had the last word on that then, Sophia, which is perfect. Demiurge meets the Divine Mother, pretty much sums up what we’d like to support happening.

I’m feeling to shift next day to making our first attempt at direct connection with the Demiurge. We’ve got some things to feel from today. Let’s take those to heart as we seek guidance about how to approach this next step.

Rest up, everyone. We have some serious journaling to the Demiurge to begin.

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