Category: Inner Punisher/Critic

Getting To The Root Of Love And Pain With Our Parts

Published on by Raianna Shai1 Comment

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By Raianna Tydeman

I wanted to share from my own process experience today because I’ve been feeling some self consciousness while working with what we call an Inner Punisher part.

For me, the doubt comes out around writing. This part of me can’t help but to compare myself to how much output my beloveds in SoulFullHeart seem to produce. He doesn’t have as much concern for what I write about and how it is received, although some of that is still there. It’s more about just having the desire for it or not. I felt with him this morning about his desire for me to be able to write from my heart and inspiration rather than out of duty or obligation to those in SoulFullHeart.

I, as Raianna, have a desire to serve love in any way I can. I know that my process can help others to either decide if they are interested in SoulFullHeart or to deepen their process if they are already in the process. Maybe my writing can even help those that have a particular situation that they’re feeling and living out. As my highest self, I know that no matter what I choose to share, as long as it is from my heart and my desire, it will serve someone, somewhere. Even if it’s just me.

So as I think of what to write about I feel this is perfect – the exact feeling that keeps me from writing in the first place. I have a lot more love flow with this part of me than when I first started this process due to a relationship we have grown together. He used to be much more intense, creating stress and anxiety within other parts of me that were scared to upset him. And he was scared to upset anyone outside of me. This became a difficult cycle to be stuck in, as it felt impossible to leave to these parts.

One thing I know I want to offer is that these parts, no matter how much they throw at you, are looking desperately for your love. They may frame it as a desire for love from anyone else except you, but you are the ultimate source of love that will never leave them, if you so choose. This degree of love is so pure, raw and already known in our souls that it comes so naturally once we are healed enough to allow it.

Connecting with this part of me allowed him to realize this for himself, too. He realized that chasing approval was his way of looking for love. Giving him the time and space to feel how he deserves love and that he’s forgiven for anything he feels he has done wrong has shifted something inside me so deeply. This process with him isn’t over but feeling him everyday will get us one step closer to feeling the deeper roots of his pain.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, retreats, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Transmuting The Fear-Based ‘Love’ Lens Of Modern Spirituality, Starting Within

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by Kalayna Colibri

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It’s becoming more apparent than ever, how ‘love’ has been offered in very many different spiritual healing modalities and practices, and yet not lived into deeply by those who are teaching about it. What becomes very intense to feel, is the way in which love is often mixed in with intense amounts of fear and non-vulnerable responses to others and especially to the self. Words like ‘unconditional love’ are offered, yet often coupled with energies of shaming, criticism, and judgment, subtle or not. Judgment and punishing energies come from parts of us that need our love and attention and their intensity is often off-gassed, put onto others without a sense of personal accountability or consciousness. Judgment, in and of itself, is not ‘bad’ and, in fact, has been a necessary thing when it comes to moving through 3D life, and with work, it can heal to healthy discernment and a letting in of deep compassion. The primary energy though with which we tend to hold judgments is another thing entirely and is typically an expression of a need for more time within you. Healthy discernment and expressions of intuition come from many years of working with Inner Punishers/Judgers, which is a powerful way to find your authentic sense of compassion and Love too, starting, always, from you to you. Until these frequencies are given space to heal within, they actually can run through every area of our lives, dulling our sense of wonder at ourselves let alone others, and taming our reality of and access to higher frequencies of Love.

It has been really coming to light lately, that heavy-handed judgments from healers who are supposed to be offering deep healing to others are actually the norm. There are judgments and invasive read-outs being offered that are disguised as ‘love’ and assumed to BE ‘love’ by those receiving. There have also been SO many fear-based messages given without consciousness and often touted as channellings. Indeed, what we have learned is ‘love’ and have felt to BE ‘love’ so often misses the mark and is actually based in immense fear…. understandably so in some ways, given how harsh and challenging 3D reality has been, yet this reality is being invited to shift in every moment of our ever-expanding consciousness and our ever-opening and healing Sacred Human hearts.

Perhaps this is one of the main sources of pain in all of our bodies, physical, emotional, etc. right now during this phase of Ascension… we need to clear ourselves of the false love we have taken in from so many, so we can re-calibrate and learn what real Love IS… and that the only source of ‘unconditional love’ we can rely on is inside of us and with the Divine. It IS possible to experience deep love in ALL relationships outside of ourselves and in fact, we need to hold out for it, settle for nothing less than it, and we also need to let go of the label or expectation of it ever being ‘unconditonal’ when coming from another. We can recognize each other as expressions of Infinite Love and feel Love and authentic compassion for each other based on this picture, yet this can only really happen if we can feel this inside ourselves first in all ways and in all parts of us too.

The Love we are truly made of and deeply wanting more of, consciously or unconsciously, is right here, waiting for those moments of entry into us. The more we choose to express Love within ourselves, including being with parts of us that need us and Metasoul Aspects too, but also including the food we eat, the ways in which we treat our bodies, the meditation practices we sit in, and the relationships we have and inhabit. There is so much that Love, in all of its many shapes, colours, and textures, wants to come into you and show Itself for what it really is and how it really feels when it is truly, authentically, REALly there inside and beside you… ❤

If you are ready to begin or continue the process of going deeper into your own Love overflow that offers you a real sense of PURE Love starting within, you can have a look at: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and feel into having a free 30min intro session with one of my beloveds or myself. We would love to support you on your journey and the nourishment of doing so, so goes both ways! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Drawing Fear From Others; Transmuting It Into Love

Published on by Jelelle Awen4 Comments
By Jelelle Awen

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Maybe you are drawing fear from others right now. This especially can happen during collective events such as the Holiday season when there is so much expectation, conditioning, and conforming to 3D going on. Drawing fear can show up as sudden and intense outbursts from others, being energetically kicked, being ‘insulted’, being judged and pointed fingers at, being unfairly misunderstood, being projected upon without awareness, being excluded. This can seem to happen ‘out of nowhere’ or is the result of increasing advocacy you’ve been doing for more connection and soul resonance with others (as I wrote about yesterday).

Drawing fear from others can happen because parts of them can feel you feeling AND loving your own fears. Because they feel you stepping into your soul purpose and truly being yourself in more authentic ways. Because they want your light to illuminate and transform them too, yet parts of them don’t know how to be vulnerable in this or just ask for it. It can be a sign of YOUR bigness rising actually and increasing capacity to be a transformer and alchemizer of fear into love…for which others are recognizing on some level (even if it is still subconscious to them).

Sometimes drawing fear from others is about seeing something in your own shadow, your Metasoul legacy showing up as karmic patterns, within a part of you that needs you. Sometimes it is the only way to see this aspect, energy, or part of yourself.

It may be difficult to digest for parts of you the drawing of this fear from others. It can bring up feelings of being inadequate, unworthy, ‘crazy’, and wrong. Their judgements may trigger the parts of you that judge you (what we call the Inner Punisher), who forms defense mechanisms during 3D life based on judging you first before others can. Their anger may trigger parts of you to be angry back too and defensive and wanting to state your ‘case’.

The drawing of fear also is happening in the collective as it NEEDS to come up and out. Those leading the way with love and healing their fear into love serve on a quantum way to heal others. Your process around this may feel very personal, yet, your capacity to digest fear and ultimately find compassion for yourself and others, to eventually and authentically feel forgiveness, serves the ALL. BEing with the parts of you that are in reaction to this, who feel sad and confused and lonely, allows the energies to digest in YOUR heart and move into love again.

Holding space for yourself and parts of you not going too much to analyzing, thrashing, and picking apart others (another defense that has been needed in 3D) can allow the energies to move through and out as well. The Divine Feminine especially offers a beautiful, real, and catalytic space for the digestion of these kinds of experiences, which can have deep roots in your Metasoul too (especially if you have been a leader, wayshower, forerunner, in many timelines/lifetimes, etc.)

The drawing of fear is ultimately temporary, a mirror as you still need it, and, sometimes, a deep form of service to yourself, your parts, and to others. Held with self love and self worth, strong boundary setting (to not allow repeating patterns of abuse with others), it can be navigated and even appreciated for the growth it brings and the love it eventually exposes!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

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Continued Energies Invite Us To Deeper Healing Of Galactic Wounds

Published on by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

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1:11 begins this post. Nice timing. It is a gateway into a new emerging relationship inside myself (and yourself) that has been in pregnant pause. I have been connecting with my Gatekeeper on a more consistent basis to bring him more into the room of my daily consciousness. He has been very effusive most of my process yet has had played games of peek-a-boo off and on. He is moving from a guardian of my soul story and gifts to a beloved partner and guide on this journey of inner healing and discovery.
(For more information on how we hold what a Gatekeeper is you can read this article: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeeper)

I found him stuck in the shadowland territory of my soul and through SoulFullHeart energy work and guided meditation brought him into closer proximity to the light of my heart where he could ‘dethaw’ from the experience. As we have connected, he has guided me to a couple of metasoul brothers in other timelines that are connected to Kalayna’s metasoul (my sacred union beloved). He was just with me in those moments being a witness to my connection with them to help heal old frequencies and dynamics in our bond together.

But as those faded and are waiting for further deepening and clarity there has been a struggle within him to feel like he actually has purpose and clarities. Everything seemed like a blurry painting sometimes. Static in the air that was creating doubt. Of course underneath doubt lies a deep fear of actually having what it is you deeply want for fear of it going away.

In the shadowlands, he was held by a Reptilian energy. It had created an open portal into my world through him. Noel, my Gatekeeper was connected to this Reptilian aspect that actually lies within us all. There was a felt sense that Noel needed to meet this Reptilian self, named Salthazar, to help heal the bind that still seemed to connect them and release them both from the downward spiral of the shadowland.

It was an amazing experience to feel this once timid and elusive guide of mine stand in the bowels of this intense energy and hold a loving space of compassion and service of love. He could feel this Reptilian’s truest heart and the source of its wounding. There was a forgiveness and an invitation to feel a new timeline for this part of me. It was quite and extraordinary process of transformation as he went from snarky pot shots to authentic tears even while in reservation that a new life awaits him.

He offered him a new family within my inner court of wayward travelers, kings, and guides. It was like being in the most captivating movie I could ever imagine. Within this BEing is a Lizard King. He held so much of my punishment, judgement, shame, fear, and control. Holding the light amidst the most unsavory within us all is what moves the darkness and births out a new gift that was never thought possible from the fear place.

There is still work to be done. Pain to be felt and trust to be garnered. But it is the first step into a series of other steps that brings new possibilities and new energy to an unending journey of what it means to be alive in this Now….moons, holidays, solstices and all.

The healing that is offered in SoulFullHeart is a doorway into an infinite world of discovery that begins with our 3D anchors and moves us into these epic and storied landscapes of our 4D consciousness that hold the seed of our Star Being connection. Each movement and step is a deeply felt and celebrated event that brings new awareness of what our sacred humanity ready to illuminate.

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 Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for our next Livestream event this coming Saturday at 11:11am CST to digest all that is moving energetically personally, globally, and galactically. A post-solstice celebration of our continued journey into our highest timeline. Go here for more information:https://www.facebook.com/events/2067665806799213/

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Fast Track To Your Mystery

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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Staring at the edge of infinitum. A beautiful tapestry of shadow and light. There is a din of music, clanking dishes, and unrecognizable conversation. The magic of our being is on full display and it has been normalized by parts of us even in its exquisiteness.  It can be almost too much to bear the burden of its beauty. We can see a reflection or an object. In feeling separate from our Glory, we snap a picture of it so we can remind ourselves that we saw our Self again. “Whoa! There I am again! Get a picture so I don’t forget!”

I can feel that in this moment. It is a tender feeling that a part of me needed that reminder. In the moment of the experience there was a feeling of just being in it. Basking in it. Letting it in. A moment of reverence for it and me. Both. The “wow” that takes your breathe away is the one that is ultimately from you to you, yet we haven’t quite fully been able to let that in in its totality. It is as if we might implode from the possibility of being that amazing. So we take it in the best way we can in that moment. And lasso it with a frame.

It is the healing of all the ways in which we have not been able to see ourselves as unique, special, powerful, and beautiful that leads us to that moment of reconciling what have put outside of us as what IS us. If you have been to an eye examination, the doctor puts a contraption in front of you that you look into. They flip different lenses and turn certain knobs and check to see which one gives you the best clarity. In a way, that is what feeling our parts is like, as each provides a certain lens or filter upon the world. It is not just a mental perspective, but an emotional relationship that alters how we experience our reality before us and within us. Each part with a different focal point and blind spot that can be polar opposites and in conflict. They are 3D parts such as protector, punisher, inner teenager, inner mother/father, and inner child as well as 4D gatekeeper and metasoul lives that span timelines and dimensions. 

So while there is a you that can see yourself in the sunset, another part can be diffusing the visceral experience of that for its own reasons. A fear, an unworthiness, an unbelievability. Feeling those parts of you in tender embrace while the Love that IS you is shining upon you is the heart-lens shift that brings the tears of release and integration. Of shedding an old consciousness about yourself into a new dawn of what you were truly meant to feel, experience and share.

I AM the sun, the clouds, the water, and the painted hues of light…as are You. We get to experience it together in the same room of this spaceless and timeless Now. Through the healing of our own personal shadowland do we see the light that cast it. It is through those moments we raise UP in our vibration that carries us into our new territory of healing and experience. We get to do it together and not alone. We get to do it in community and not isolation. We get to expedite the time it would have normally taken and fast-track ourselves into this glorious infinitum. Healing requires relationship, from within and with other. This is part of what you are here to do. The rest is an unfolding beautiful mystery.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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12/12: Divine Feminine Integrates OUTput with INput

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By Raianna Shai
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Today is 12/12, that may not mean much to you, or maybe it means a lot! I never kept track much of numbers or their meaning before this year. But one thing I’ve discovered is that if you can find meaning in something, then why not feel if it resonates for you?
 
A month ago was 11/11, a time for a shift in a higher timeline, a realization and a choice point of living into your highest creativity, progress, and ultimate heart’s desire. This was around the time that I started doing a lot of graphic projects for SoulFullHeart. A new revamp of almost everything visual that we put on the web. I was excited, it was a new way to output my creativity in a way that parts of me didn’t feel I needed technical “skill” for.
 
It was also around the time I started working with an Inner Punisher and previous to that, a part we call an Inner Protector. Both of these parts of me, these energies that have existed within me for years and years it feels like, are both male. I never thought starting this process that I would ever have a male part. I had always associated myself as being “feminine”, which had a very different meaning for me before this process. But the timing of working with these parts went hand in hand with all of the output and projects that I’ve had going on this past month.
 
Whether or not these dates really “mean” or “do” anything, I have felt a supporting of this creative energy lately. Something within me, often feeling like it was outside of me, encouraging the experimenting and pushing and feeling it all along the way. I felt unworthiness, self judgement, frustration, anger, doubt. Everything that comes along with starting and inhabiting something new. Yesterday I finally connected with the energy of my Inner Punisher in the moment of feeling these doubts, rather than afterwards. It felt like such a distinct difference in letting him roll out what he was feeling then and there, with tears along with it. I went about the rest of my day in a much more restful state, allowing projects to arise for me anew and choosing to do what my heart desired.
 
So here we are on 12/12, after a supermoon and preceeding two supermoons in January. As I’ve been learning, femininity can be represented by the moon, as the masculine energy influx was represented by the sun in the August eclipses. And today I feel a stillness and a letting in. I feel an appreciation of what I’ve started this past month and an awareness of its beauty that came from my heart. It’s time now for me to “reap the rewards” of all of the OUTput and INput, too. I will go IN, with love and care, feeling and healing, to give space for my heart’s work and the parts of me that need my love along the way.
 
Happy 12/12 ❤
Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, retreats, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Becoming Free From The 3D Matrix Through Healing Unworthiness, Judgement, and Disconnect

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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So much distracted focus outside of the self. They taught your 3D Self to always be looking outward. To be measuring your ‘this’ from their ‘that’. To be comparing your worth to theirs and, ultimately, finding yourself lacking or ‘not enough’. Parts of you became masters of this game of self limitation always played out on someone else’s field. The parts inside of you that can judge you BEFORE other people can are the most valuable players of this game. Parts of you may be able to do this so well that you don’t always notice it is happening until that familiar deflating feeling rises up from inside and you don’t know why. Why does it always seem to be there, limiting your sense of what you can do and be?

So much of 3D life is responded to and lived by the Inner Punisher energies, with usually a strong fusion and collaboration with the Inner Protector. These frequencies of protection and punishment/judgement happened in response to the 3D Matrix. This Matrix is not formed of binary code (that is much too conceptual). The Matrix that ties and binds you the most is actually the one fueled by your unhealed unworthiness, disconnect, and shame. It is created by what remains unfelt inside your emotional body, your Metasoul (soul legacy/other lifetimes/timelines), and other previously forgotten sources.

The 3D Matrix unplugging at a deeper level happens when the emotional body becomes watered by self love, a sense of your innate goodness, and intimate connection with the Divine. Awareness of the limiting control systems ‘put in place’ by fear-based BEings (both of the Stars and of human) is only the beginning. It can be a necessary education and de-conditioning of the mind as you learn so much about all this during the 4D phases of awakening. You learn about Archons, about Annunaki, about Draco..whatever you want to call them and see them as. Sometimes, you learn about these BEings through what feels like ‘attacks’ and lashing outs at you.

These ‘attacks’ feel like they are happening from outside of you. The whole premise of Gaia being a 3D-based ‘prison planet’ is as if it is happening from outside of you TO you by SOMETHING ELSE against your will. As if the whole scenario of your LIFE is a punishment or curse or sentence. The experience of the 3D Matrix, of Archonic activities, of being ‘attacked’, of implants, of serving a ‘sentence’….originates from inside of you and in your Metasoul Aspects too, especially your Gatekeeper. This picture is created from the ‘real to real’ projector of unfelt emotions and unprocessed karmic binds/playouts from other lifetimes. Parts of you feel like you can only watch the ‘show’ and have no control or power to change it or transform it or shift it.

In Divine timing and with Divine align, you wake up to the reality of your capacity and ability to create all of what you experience. Your focus turns lovingly inward to BE with these parts of you and to connect and unify with Metasoul/Other lifetime Aspects that are suffering. Your heart becomes the space holder for your inner heart and soul explorations. Your Inner Punisher can stop using outside proof and self sabotaging, push-pull relationship patterns to try to prove your unworthiness and push up more shame from your Inner Child and Inner Teenager. This part of you eventually transmutes to discernment with love, intuition, and wisdom that is based on self love, innocence, and self worth.

As these parts of you heal through being felt and heard and seen, you truly start to FEEL like your own creator…..even as you are opening up and awakening to a deeper connection and surrender to Divine holding and Divine guidance and Divine timing. You become empowered by the freed up frequencies of trust and self love that flood your BEing. The 3D matrix dissolves, replaced by LOVE flowing through your every loving and living cell. You are freed then. Freed to be inspired and inspire, no longer playing the game of comparison. Freed to feel compassion for yourself and others, not judgement. Freed to express your SELF, without suppression or limitation.

You are free then to realize you have always BEEN free and everything else was just an illusion to bring you back to YOU again. And, back to LOVE.

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These are the self LOVE grounds that we open up through our SoulFullHeart process and weekly sessions with SoulFullHeart facilitators. I work with women over 30 and have some slots left in my weekly schedule still if you are interested/drawn to working with me. And, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna too! soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

More about parts such as the Inner Punisher, Inner Protector/Gatekeeper, Inner Child, etc.: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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Going Yin: Exploring Authentic Sacred Gender Expression

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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I have been on an inner quest this life to feel what authentic emoto-spiritual masculinity truly looks and feels like.  It is what I have called Sacred or Divine Masculine for lack of a better term. I feel a part of me as well in this exploration and question. In my essence, my masculinity is just what IS. It has no delineation. In my psyche, it is an archetype that has many colors and flavors. In my experience, it has shades of healing and trauma.

Through my own personal HIStory, I can feel how my 3D self has been on this quest to get his balls back. The ones he gave up so readily to an angry father, too afraid to stand up and fight back. The ones he gave over to mom for protection and valuation.  It was holding back authenticity in the name of fear and care-taking. It was the need to forsake sovereignty in the name of unconditional love.  But the love was always conditional. On both sides. It was the desire to feel the passion of life and true love unabated.

This quest for reclaiming inner authority, sovereignty, and passion ultimately led to worth. What is a man’s worth in this world? Fused to a more 3D existence it is chock-full of all sorts of ‘this and thats’. Most of which have nothing to do with our own felt sense of inner worth. This is where I was led to seeking love outside of me for assurance and insurance. Insurance against the void and the inner punisher within.

I was not raised religious but found a solace in the idea of a God that had a desire to love me and help fix me. Help feel like I was worth something. This God would be like a father and a mother both to my emotional body.  A part of me related to women as a means to feel what I thought it was to be masculine. They were goddesses to my wounded teenager. A ping ponging of the spiritual and the physical without bridging the two.

As a began my inner journey of parts work I could feel the myriad inner aspects of myself that held so much trauma and templating from my family, while feeling rage and compassion both. I could begin to feel what MY masculinity was and wasn’t. I had projected so much of an ideal onto what masculinity was based on my own this-life experience.

Add on top of that exploring metasoul, or other lifetime aspects, and a world of wounded masculine comes into view.  What it IS is really not the question anymore but what it is not. And that is always up for experiential debate as I live into a sacred romance inside myself and with a woman on a sacred feminine path.

Thus the quest continues as an unfolding of not something to live up to, as a part of me has always related to it, but of a moment to moment, day to day, conscious meditation into what is arising within the emotional body for expression, and felt exploration. What is being reflected by the feminine within and in relationship. This is personal to each individual, yet also has many similar themes and desires.  Beyond our gender healing there is a unification and a sacred dance that feels delicious and magical in what it means to BE in our authentic sacred human expression.

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Tomorrow in our SoulFullHeart Group call we will be talking about the sacred union codes being offered up through both the Sun and the Moon. The union of the feminine and the masculine within and in sacred romance. The sacred feminine energy being held by Magdelena and the sacred masculine by Christiel in the meditation Kalayna Colibri and I will be writing together. Go to https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524/ for more information.

 
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Going Yin: The Arising Need For Masculine Healing And Leadership

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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Yin energy is coming through this thinned out veil. It follows the initial penetration of the more masculine sun codes. The moon has been a symbol for the feminine and unconscious. It is connected to the shedding and release cycle of the female body. As it increases its presence, it presents invitation. Illumination. Choice points. Awakened feelings and intuitions. This can be felt by many women collectively. Men with their own connection to their inner feminine may be feeling the same.

But how does this translate for men? What are they asking of us? From my own meditations I feel the Deep Sacred Feminine inviting men to go into their hearts. Not to solve an outer ‘problem’, but to feel their inner world. The place that holds the keys to our true sovereignty and power. It is asking the masculine to trust and lean into the arising feminine heart and soul.

In human form, men are born of women. Part of man’s emotional maturity and self-actualization is to push against and separate from mom. This has been done violently absent true sacred masculinity. This has caused much pain and tragedy, for all of mankind. Now this wounded masculine expression is being pressed, with love, to heal and lean into the very thing he needed to push away from. We are being called back into the womb. Being called back into balance with Yin.

This has played out internally in a man’s emotional body as the suppression and protection of the inner feminine both. A polarity, and even a battle, has developed inside Man in relationship to the inner feminine. This is the ground by which I feel most men will be walking on in order to truly heal this split. Most men find themselves in Mind. Just one aspect of our God nature. But in our humanity we have struggled with the heart. The intuition. The vulnerability under the control and the rage. The deep fear of what lies beyond mind and in the heart.

These moon codes are a support and invitation for the masculine to go Yin. To feel the resistant and protective layers of his true essence. That which separates the flood of true passion and emotion from being expressed in the world. A world that is shifting in balance with the Feminine. These parts of us may feel besieged. I have been having my own awakening by being in sacred romance with a very powerful feminine heart and soul. It is a lot for my unhealed masculine parts to lean into at times. A need for sovereignty and control can still reign. Even feelings of inadequacy and unworth rise up as well.

If you are a man on a spiritual journey, you are on a journey toward your feminine. Toward feeling all the parts you in resistance and rage. In control and in love.  This inner union with the feminine will arise your true authentic sacred masculine. Your sexy and integrated power out into the world. You become a co-creator and a collaborator. The gifts that lie within your yin are the seeds of your leadership and soul’s expression. The wings that will set you free into the infinite with your sacred balls still intact.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The ReLOVEution Of Our ELOVEution

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The world stage is churning. Bubbling. The emperors’ clothes are fading and we are beginning to see what lies behind the Wizards of Oz. As this process continues to unfold itself right in front of our very eyes, a grasp at old tactics of fear and disinformation will find their way to our once-conditioned ears.

The old power structure is losing its grasp and the final act of this long drama is in the beginning stages. What this world will look and feel like a year from now is anybody’s guess but what is for certain is that it will be “truth is stranger than fiction” compared to our old way of experiencing what is normal.

This pole shift in consciousness will have a huge affect on those that have yet to awaken to what is and has been happening for centuries. Even to frame it in linear time doesn’t quite have much impact on this Now. What has been illusion based on control and fear is now approaching an event horizon. It is sunsetting. The light of Gaia’s higher climb is creating a bifurcation. A fork in the road that still leads to the same place, just in a different route.

What is happening “out there” is a mirror of what is happening IN here. Your own inner wizards of Oz are possibly kicking up some old stuff to bring you down to a lowered frequency. Your inner protectors, punishers, and gatekeepers are sniffing the new timeline of Love that is rising ever so persistently. Their relationship to Love is a volatile one and if you are not conscious of them as separate to you then it can feel like mayhem is going on inside. They have many reasons for this need to keep you in a lowered frequency as what has seemed to be “safer”. It is one that is the most known even in its suffering.

As this rising continues, I expect more people to feel an inner urgency that they just can’t put their finger on. An emotional and spiritual roller-coaster. From a SoulFullHeart perspective, these are parts of you and not what you would consider “I”. These are 3D parts that have “this life” wounding and metasoul lives that are in other timelines feeling the same rumblings. Those that are on the front heartlines of this reLOVEution have been doing the inner work needed to assist in this epic phase of our eLOVEution.

There are those too that are now waking up and feeling the rumbles within. The path for some is to fight and inform. For others it is going IN, letting go of the old, and preparing for the new. Helping the growing numbers make a self-loving transition into the Golden Age of Golden Earth. SoulFullHeart offers a transitional bridge, through the parts work process, that helps to self-propel you into your Golden Self. It is a unique in its depth and breadth.

If you find yourself in very turbulent times and are wanting to feel a different way of relating to what is happening inside and outside, check out our website for a deeper feel into what we have to offer. If your Higher Self is pinging you, we have a free 30 minute intro session to see how we would serve you if it felt like a path for you.

These are extraordinary times and it requires extraordinary courage, vision, and leadership. SoulFullHeart is on the cutting edge of that. You are on the leading edge of it. It is time now to move into a new gear and let the vestiges of the old be honored and felt with your compassionate heart. It is the way of the Sacred Human birthing from the scared human into true love ambassadorship.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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