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The Pain Of Letting Go Into Love

Published on January 21, 2019February 1, 2019 by Raianna Shai2 Comments

By Raianna Shai

Letting go is one of the hardest processes we go to through in our lives. Whether it’s letting go of a career, a pattern/habit, a geography, or a relationship it can bring up so much for us to process. Letting go is so much harder than holding on.

Parts of us can judge us for our decision – feeling that you made a mistake, that you hurt or disappointed someone, that you did something wrong or will regret your decision. The best thing to do here is to feel compassion for this part. Give it love knowing that it just wants the best for you and it may be scared that it couldn’t protect you from this pain you may feel.

Letting go is painful but it also leads to a beautiful new beginning. Maybe you get that new job you always wanted or a geography that inspires your heart and soul. Maybe you get the chance at a new phase of an old relationship or a new one that reflects the love you have cultivated inside.

It can feel like you’re dying inside during this process. Like you’ll never feel happy or be yourself again. Or maybe you feel hurt and angry and find it hard to feel why it’s all happening, especially if it felt out of your control. Maybe you can’t feel anything or you can’t stop feeling everything.

And sometimes it comes in waves. A comment here or a reminder there can spark tears at the drop of a hat. Then you have a moment of clarity, a moment of knowing it will all be okay. Then you feel the guilt or the shame and it all comes crumbling back down. These are all parts of you that have reasons for feeling the way they do. Feel the pain, but let the clarity and love hold it all.

Whatever you feel there is always another side of it. A realization waiting to happen. A new love for yourself and life will start to creep in. A new view on what you have and what you want to have will fill your heart and inspire you.

All this can happen if you truly let go. Let go of expectations, let go of judging yourself or others, let go of what others might think of you. Mourn the loss, mourn what could have been and the goodness of what was and then let love fill the space. As hard as that may sound right now, it will come. Whether it takes days, months or years it will come and it will be beautiful.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Lunar Eclipse Supports Feeling Shadow of Polarizations, Invites Unity

Published on January 21, 2019February 1, 2019 by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

By Kalayna Colibri

Last night while witnessing the moon’s eclipse and feeling it hanging very close to my field, I was struck by a feeling of emerging sisterhood in my life and process, yet also the potential for it worldwide.

Yet… the temptation for many seems to still be that the way to unify is in anger. The way to find our common ground is to get pissed. To rage. To march. To condemn the masculine… in men yet also in each other. This is masculine versus masculine in the end, leaving the world inside and outside of us without any room for the sacred masculine AND feminine to unite and make love.

Pointing fingers, protesting, arguing without care of where and how it lands in each other is a phase of our relationship to each other that wants to move into something new. It’s a deep shadow expression of our fear of actually loving ourselves and each other. It’s a fear that the cycles of pain will continue while we continue to become a cog in the wheel, contributing to this cycle with that same fear. Real intimacy brings up a lot more than anger and push-away. It brings up tears and vulnerability, it brings up what’s underneath the rage and presses the heart to open in order to keep giving and receiving nourishment.

This picture of relationship I’m describing is not idealized or impossible… I get to live this every day, I get to be challenged by the presence of others who want to keep this flow going within themselves and with me, I get to feel and meet the challenge of continuing to move through my resistance to love and to keep letting it in… knowing full well that doing so means walking into fires of personal funeral pyres as the old way of approaching life and others passes away, and also knowing that it means getting to experience the heaven of a deeper and easier love flow than I’ve ever experienced before.

Even last night… sharing intimacy with my mate Gabriel, feeling his admiration of myself, my body, my heart and soul, I felt my admiration for his and let his male gaze into every pore. I felt so many tears come up and out like a fountain, feeling the pain of my soul and heart in relating to the masculine in ways that weren’t nourishing on either side and feeling afraid of it. Feeling the pain of a collective of women and what they’ve experienced and also the pain of the men who have not ever been initiated into how to make real love with a woman and what it feels like to be truly met or felt on their side either.

The more energy that’s spent in blame-game shaming and pushing away at each other, the less opportunities we create for the deep healing and nourishing intimacy that’s possible, that wants to bloom and blossom starting between parts of you that are polarized to each other but who want love more than anything else in this world. Starting to see and feel these dynamics within is the best and most profound way to shift what you draw in your outer relationships and what you start to see is really possible with each of them. ❤️

For support as you go into this territory and really feel how it all applies or could apply to you, my beloveds and I hold sacred session space for these explorations and more: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Super Blood Wolf Lunar Eclipse Moon Energies/Dark Mother Guided Meditation – DAY 20: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/JELELLE AWEN (VIDEO)

Published on January 20, 2019January 20, 2019 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

DAY TWENTY: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Super Blood Wolf Lunar Eclipse Moon Energies/Dark Mother Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen

This is day twenty of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, I talk about the significance of the total lunar eclipse happening in the evening of January 20th moving into January 21st. This is a supermoon eclipse, so the moon is closest to Gaia’s orbit right now. I share more about what these energies are offering us here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/energy-update-prep-for-sup…/

As with all celestial events, we are offered the opportunity to let go of our current timeline and move into our higher timeline. Divine Feminine energies of the Dark Mother particularly support the completion, mourning, and moving on phase that is so necessary during Ascension and Awakening. Total lunar eclipse energies offer space holding for the revelation of both what is currently in shadow and not serving us and what can arise anew as our desires and passions align.

In the meditation today, you connect with the super blood wolf lunar eclipse codes and energies and bring them into all of your chakras. You create a flow then with these energies that helps with body symptoms related to them. Dark Mother holds the space for this process as you invite revelation of any ‘bleeding’ in your life (and from other timelines) that is not serving you and identification of what needs to be shed (like during the monthly moon menstrual cycles for women.) You also gaze into a pool of water infused with eclipse codes to receive visions and images of your highest timeline.

Thank you for joining me on this twentieth day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Meet Your Inner Punisher Guided Meditation – DAY 19: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/JELELLE AWEN (VIDEO)

Published on January 20, 2019January 20, 2019 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

DAY NINETEEN: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Meet Your Inner Punisher Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen

This is day nineteen of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. Today, I introduce you to another important part of your inner family formed during this lifetime. Your Inner Punisher is an energy that has formed due to receiving punishment and criticism in this life….usually from a caregiver, teacher, mate, etc. It also forms in response to the dualistic judging in 3D consciousness. Most Inner Punishers of empathic and sensitive people direct the punishment frequencies inward rather than outward at others, although both can be true. Directing the energies inward is a self protection strategy.

The Inner Punisher has a relationship with your Inner Child/Inner Teenager in that it punishes/judges and then there is a corresponding shame/unworthiness reaction from the younger parts of you. It is this punishment and shame loop that is often at the root of much self suppression and staying small patterns in relationships, vocations/soul purpose expression, body image, etc.

The Inner Punisher shifts from making judgements without love and care to the capacity to offer discernments WITH love and bring direct truths WITH compassion. These are very important abilities as we move into our service of love self and serving others.

In the meditation today, Yeshua and Mother Mary provide us with lots of compassionate love as we journey to meet your Inner Punisher. You connect first with your Inner Protector to gain access to this part. Then you connect with the energy of your Inner Punisher and discover what their world looks and feel like so you can begin to create a loving buffer between them and your younger parts.

Thank you for joining me on this nineteenth day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Meet Your Inner TeenagerGuided Meditation – DAY 18: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/JELELLE AWEN (VIDEO)

Published on January 19, 2019January 19, 2019 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

DAY EIGHTEEN: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Meet Your Inner Teenager Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen

This is day eighteen of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. Today, I introduce you to another important part of your inner family formed during this lifetime. Your Inner Teenager is the energy represented by the phase and stage after childhood and pre-adulthood…usually between 12 and 18 years old, although that can vary. Your Inner Teenager is often ‘stuck’ in their teenage bedroom with strong feelings of angst, depression, even suicidal feelings. Your soul was most likely coming through during this phase and there wasn’t a capacity and modeling for how to handle and digest that.

Instead of receiving initiation in all areas of life around relationships, sexuality, spirituality, passion purpose, etc., your inner teenager received most likely invalidation in these areas…and 3D-based conditioning that fed fears, dualities, and polarizations. Instead of a healthy phase of individuating from family, there is often push-pull, over attachment and other unhealthy dynamics experienced by our inner teens. Connecting with your inner teenager allows them to receive the initiation and individuation that they most need in order to mature in all areas of life.

In the meditation today, Yeshua and Magdalene join us to get permission from your Inner Protector to meet your Inner Teenager. You go to your teenage bedroom and meet them there. You feel what their world looks and feel like; what their joys and sorrows are; and begin to establish a relationship that leads to the opening out of much magic and love.

Thank you for joining me on this eighteenth day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

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Processing Rage Into Passion With Care

Published on January 18, 2019 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

By Kalayna Colibri

Rage sometimes pours out like volcanic lava, ready to burn and melt down, create a reset or reboot as it moves through. We’re barely into 2019, yet already we are feeling what it’s pushing up… more to look at within, more to feel rage at but then find the real hurt and vulnerability underneath it. Anger and the parts that feel it need to be validated. It’s meant to help elucidate what isn’t ok anymore, what needs boundaries set around it, and what needs shifting in any area of your life.

Rage can also become an addiction, like anything else. It can be used by parts of you to self-medicate and avoid feeling vulnerability. It can also be used to avoid feeling others and your impact on them, which, even though they may answer your anger with their own and not seem impacted in a deeper way, they have been… as have you. Your anger has impact on your parts too, especially the ones that do feel more hurt and sadness, self-consciousness, ache for love.

There’s nothing to control here, but there’s a ton to feel and keep feeling. There are so many questions to keep asking. The fire of anger and frustration is needed in phases of awakening and moving forward in your life, yet ultimately it wants to be transmuted into passion and taken in the direction of creation, not destruction. The direction of love… heart-centered and fulfilling.

We cannot skip this step of truly feeling it and getting the good stuff on the other side of it. There’s so much it needs to rumble with yet also so much it needs to shift into as the dust and ashes settle on the new ground being birthed within. The rageful warrior inside holds an invitation to move into a role of ambassador of heart and soul, dropping the sword and baring the heart. This is important to remember, even as the fire burns you up from the inside and wants to spread into your outer world too.

There is ultimately no ‘other’, even when you feel opposition. And if that’s really true… there is always a ton of reflection to take in and be with, get real about, and start loving from these increasingly passionate places within.

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The Sanity Of Your INsanity: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Jan 14, 2019)

Published on January 18, 2019January 27, 2019 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week, our Museletter is launched by SoulFullHeart Facilitator, Gabriel Heartman, as he invites you into a new relationship with what you may feel is your ‘insanity’ or your ‘inner demons’:

“I want to give a voice to these ‘demons’, for they are actually your unheard and unfelt angels. They have a message to deliver to you and you just haven’t had the means to be able to actually hear without being overwhelmed.”

With so much coming up to be felt and being backlit by life and the Ascension process, there is no end to what needs to be addressed and processes within. These words from Gabriel offer a handrail to begin relating to your feelings, light or dark, as they surface.

Jelelle Awen will be hosting another group to digest what has been moving in you during her ‘Deepen’ video series. This virtual group will be on February 2nd and you are welcome to attend once you offer your (minimum) donation of $11 USD. More details here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

The videos from this series from Day 10 – 16 are available for you to take in. They are digestions and meditations for connecting with your Inner Child, your Metasoul/Akashic Records, and New Lemuria energy. There is a video featuring Gabriel Heartman, as he leads you in a meditation to connect with five faces of the Divine Father. There is also a video with Raphael Awen, where he leads you into connection with your Inner Masculine and Inner Feminine aspects of you.

Stay tuned for each daily video as they are released by following Jelelle Awen on Facebook or subscribing to our YouTube Channel: SoulFullHeart Experience.

There are many new articles this week from Kalayna Colibri, Devon Heart Star, Gabriel Heartman, and Jelelle Awen. These pieces digest and share personal process and offer bridges for your own. They also feature energy updates and ways to feel empowered as you move into the next phase of your own inner healing process.

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Ascension Energies Amplify And Support Inner Masculine Healing

Published on January 18, 2019 by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

This inner quest continues. The quest of the masculine to get to know itself. I use the pronoun “it” to denote an energy rather than a gender. This quest is fueled by curiosity and desire. Not a need to overcome, master, or fix. It wants to feel its power, its strength, and courage. It also knows there is the shadow to look at in response to that.

Recently there has been a mainstream appeal to what is being labeled as “traditional” or “toxic” masculinity and its effect on society. This is receiving praise as much as it is receiving ire. There is a masculine voice within some men that defends against a notion it is responsible for the ills of the world. It feels attacked and judged for the actions of certain individuals.

I can feel where this is true coming from a particular perspective, from this part I should say. As we are becoming more aware of what has been happening in the darkest parts of our collective, there is a rumbling that is occurring. There is a network of voices that are coming out to join forces against a very institutional, subtle, and not so subtle, part of our society. The wounded masculine is getting a light shined on it and it is very uncomfortable.

The reactions can come as far as saying that there is a war on men and that boys are going to be turned into weak and feckless adults. When I hear that all I can feel is this masculine’s judgment toward the feminine. Yes, I can see where boys and men are not inhabiting their power and are in need of heart-open initiation that offers them power WITH the feminine and not OVER the feminine. No, we are not all bad guys, but we have unconscious habits and perspectives that do need authentic and curious exploration if we are going to evolve as a society.

This rush to defense, to me, signifies a soul wound that is in deep protection. I think there is a legitimate caution to not create a generalization that takes us in some polarized reaction. I am not “one of those guys”, but I do know as part of the collective male/masculine psyche I do have things to feel into and uncover within myself. That is the next level for all of us to consider when we talk about ascension and healing. It is not a blame game, but a deep and serious look at what is at play underneath our hoods. This is equally true for women.

My desire is to create a healthy dialogue and personal invitation to what this exploration may reveal about ourselves and our nature as men. It is to take us into a new relationship with our masculinity AND our feminity. This is what I feel we are being offered by Love in all Its energy fluxes and activations. This is the year of the arising sacred masculine within all of us.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: Prep For Super Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse Invites Shadow Integration

Published on January 18, 2019January 23, 2019 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

Energy update: Preparation energies for the Supermoon total lunar eclipse on Sunday evening, January 20th into January 21st. These total lunar eclipses can be QUITE powerful….sometimes in subtle ways, working on the subconscious and emotional body more than in an overt way.

In a total lunar eclipse, Gaia blocks the sun’s light from reaching the moon. The sun casts the moon’s shadow onto the moon’s surface and this is what we see from Gaia as a total eclipse. This will be a supermoon, so the moon will be in its closest proximity to us and VERY visible for those in North and South America, Europe and western Africa. Central and eastern Africa and Asia will see a partial eclipse of the Moon.

The Divine Feminine energies during these days leading up to the eclipse are most like the Dark Mother – great catalyst, midwife of birth-death-rebirth cycles….helping us to rise like a phoenix from the ashes after a series of small, controlled burns. She holds the space for this with almost an unsentimental frequency to allow us to truly move into our OWN power as sacred humans.

This feels like the Divine Feminine energies coming in to create a womb space. The sacred masculine SOULar activations that we’ve been experiencing strongly in waves for the last two years especially ‘rest’ during this time. The womb space is for the birthing of whatever has previously been in shadow to come into illumination. It’s really an honoring of shadow and all of the gifts that come from the brave exploration of it and moving beyond fear into love.

On a body level, you may be feeling the rumblings and even pains in your sacral/womb space and solar plexus area for women, as if pregnant or preparing to give birth. Hormonal levels can be amplified with moon cycle symptoms increasing too. Men go through their own hormonal cycles too and may be feeling the impacts of this lunar cycle.

This is a powerful passage to connect with what feels like deeper places of trauma from this life and other timelines and the parts and Metasoul aspects that hold them. The veils are thin; the stage is ‘set’; the energies are supportive and Divine Mother is here to help in ALL Her forms.

My daily video series is over halfway through yet you can dip into and experience any of the videos/guided meditations that call to you. It’s a good time to go within and explore whatever needs your attention and love. Here is the playlist of them all so far: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

I’m going to release a Supermoon Total Lunar Eclipse guided meditation on Sunday to connect with the eclipse codes and bring them into your body/soul field, chakras, etc.

MUCH love to you during this passage of self exploration and rebirth,

Jelelle Awen

1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with Jelelle for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Meet Your Dragon Guided Meditation – DAY 17: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/JELELLE AWEN & KALAYNA COLIBRI (VIDEO)

Published on January 17, 2019 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

DAY SEVENTEEN: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Meet Your Dragon Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen & Kalayna Colibri

This is day seventeen of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. Today, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Colibri joins me again as we talk about Dragons, Unicorns, and other multidimensional BEings that serve as guides for us. We offer about how it is our Inner Child who opens out access to these BEings through the teleportation portal of the imagination. A wounded Inner Child that is fused to 3D frequencies has ‘shut down’ access to these magical BEings that are here to help with our ascension process.

In the meditation today, Kuan Yin and Archangel Michael go along with your Inner Protector and Inner Child on a journey to connect with these multidimensional BEings. You are invited to meet your Dragon or Unicorn or whatever Elemental BEing comes to you. You then fly around with them and receive whatever guidance and messages they wish to offer you!

Thank you for joining us on this seventeenth day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

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