When You’ve Had Enough Of ‘Never Enough’: A Poem

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by Kalayna Colibri

This long-held mirror, cracks under the hard gaze

of a conditioning that says,

“you’ll never be enough”.

 

The distorted propensity

of not seeing, yet wanting to be seen

and running away still

clings to the self-made ceiling of wanton leadership like ivy.

A stinging, ringing voice that says,

“you’ll never do enough”.

 

The panic of the beating heartbeat inside the soul-beat of consciousness,

the fears of parts, aspects, voices,

sing the words of what they really want

yet with verses of “that, I’ll never have”.

A thousand empty self-promises

somehow grip motivation’s doorway saying,

“you’ll never have enough”.

 

Yet,

sweet fruit of the womb of the Divine,

you’re not here to only be this

or be what you’ve been told you are…

what parts of you are convinced you can only ever be or not be.

You’re here,

Divine son and daughter,

to remember the ceiling was claimed on purpose

and the closed doorways are held shut

by the choice of avoidance

and the lens of lack.

 

Love bursts through and in, in any moment that it can,

reaching a hand to you that says,

“sweet beloved, you ARE enough”…

and the reactions that come from this awakening,

felt in tremors of the physical, the emotional, the spiritual,

 

are the shudders of a heart learning to let in

REAL love,

once and ever… again.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SUPERfoods For Ascension

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By Jelelle Awen

As we move into eclipse season and increasingly powerful energies from Gaia/SOULar/Lunar frequencies, the impact on our bodies can be felt on all levels. Aches and pains, heaviness and lightheadedness, sleepiness or difficulty sleeping, appetite changes and indigestion….there is a wide range of what your body can experience as it ‘takes on’ this massive upgrade from its 3.0 into it’s 5.0 dimensional version.

Every living cell is being invited to UPgrade from carbon to crystalline; from 3D consciousness to transitional 4D to the eventual ‘heaven in the body state’ of 5D consciousness. Being the densest aspect of our BEings, this is a mega upgrading process for our bodies to go through and undertake in one lifetime. This process on the physical level is supported by the awakening of our consciousness about 3D food and realizations about how the mostly toxic fuel known as ‘food’ in 3D consciousness has impacted us.

3D food (examples include processed foods, fried foods in vegetable oil, eating meat and dairy) is not usually the fuel that the ascending body most wants and needs (even as parts of you may look and seek comfort in some of it.) 3D food has often been highly sprayed and poisoned by chemicals; grown in ‘mass’ food conditions; and ‘killing’ frequencies of fear and terror vibrate in meat/dairy whenever you eat anything coming from animals.

The ascending body is asking for higher octane, higher energy, higher light, higher love nutrients. Some of this receiving of fuel comes increasingly through letting in more love light energy into your chakras/aura and into your body through consciously connecting with the activation codes available in the ascension process. I offer a meditation for doing that here: https://youtu.be/qBb3eBzv70A

Some of this receiving of higher octane energy comes from digestion of SUPER boosting frequencies that are available in ‘SUPERfoods’. These foods are major gifts from Gaia, especially in their most raw and organic forms. They provide HIGH levels of nutrients, such as anti-oxidants, which I’ve been guided is really KEY to the detox process from 3D to 5D.

“When antioxidant levels in the body are lower than that of free radicals — due to poor nutrition, toxin exposure or other factors — oxidation wreaks havoc in the body. The effect? Accelerated aging, damaged or mutated cells, broken-down tissue, the activation of harmful genes within DNA, and an overloaded immune system.” From draxe.com.

Your ascending body starts to seriously NEED these SUPERfoods, which is different from craving a 3D food from a place of comfort and routine.

There are many SUPERfoods out there, yet the following list is ones that have come forward into my life (and are more easily available here in Mexico) and process, claiming a place in my cupboard, my stomach, every living cell and, eventually, my heart. The main way I ingest most of these is through smoothies, for which you can include so many of them in one, power-packed and easy to consume drink. I think I have had a smoothie nearly every day for almost ten years!

Spirulina – This is a blue-green algae that is considered one of the most nutritious foods on Gaia. It is high in protein, containing all of the essential fatty acids your body needs. It also provides lots of antioxidants, vitamins, and minerals. It has a strong flavor so is best with a small amount blended into a smoothie or taken as capsules.

Coconut Oil and Coconut – Coconut and coconut oil are both high in ‘medium-chain triglycerides’, a type of beneficial fatty acid that has bacteria-fighting, antioxidant properties. Cooking in organic coconut oil is way higher frequency than vegetable oil, plus it tastes yummy!

CBD Oil  – I’ve been guided very specifically to take this twice a day and I noticed a boost in energy and focus right away. For chronic pain and illnesses, it feels like a true ‘miracle’ cure, plus a preventive one as well for cancer, etc. There are many articles about it out there to help you feel into if you are drawn to it or not.

Chia Seeds and Flax Seeds -I’ve included chia and flax seeds together as I love them both and don’t want to exclude them on this list. Both can be added to smoothies yet also chia seeds in particular taste great sprinkled on fruit, salads, and added to water with some lime (a popular drink here in Mexico.) These seeds are high in many nutrients, plus contain a hearty dose of protein and fiber in each serving.

High Octane Fruits – All fruits provide an energy boost of goodness, yet some you may resonate with more than others. I personally love tropical fruits, such as papaya, mango, pineapple, and cantaloupe. Fruits that are considered SUPERfoods are blueberries, acai berries, and goji berries.

High Octane Vegetables – Leafy greens are great in smoothies and salads too of course…..such as kale and spinach. Avocados and sweet potatoes are considered SUPERfoods.

Ginger and garlic – I couldn’t honestly pick between the two as I love them both and they are key players in Gaia’s medicine cabinet. Ginger is my go-to pain relief for menstrual cramps, which I add to a hot tea (along with Cacao, coming up soon.) Garlic boosts your immune system and is also an anti-fungal, anti-bacterial, and detoxifier of heavy metals in the blood. Plus, eating garlic helps fend off mosquitos!

Almonds – Raw and organic (preferably soaked with skins removed) almonds offer a protein boost and a great source of calcium too (good if you are vegan). I love them sprinkled on fruit with coconut milk and chia seeds.

Cacao – Cacao is a pure form of chocolate that comes very close to the raw and natural state in which it is harvested. It is delicious when you add agave or other natural sweetener to it. It is a good source of Iron, improves you mood/emotional state, is high in anti-oxidants, balances hormones (great for PMS), reduces inflammation, and much more. Organic cacao is really easy to find here in Mexico as it is grown here, yet you should be able to find it in health food stores where you are or to order online.

Matcha (super green tea) – This is a newer discovery for me and I’m including it because I felt recently that I needed something that would help me focus (esp. during sessions with people), yet didn’t want to start drinking coffee again. Matcha is a super potent green tea that is a healthy source of caffeine. It increases memory and concentration (great when you are experiencing ascension sleepiness.) It also increases the metabolism (making light body even lighter)!

See if these SUPERfoods claim you and if not, there are many others to try, explore, and fall in love with! Just google ‘superfoods’ and you’ll see lots of great ideas!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing sessions virtually over zoom and in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Mirrors Of Real Love

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

In any true healing modality that leads to deep conscious transformation, there is a mirror that we inevitably need to face. It may be the Mirror of Validation and Being Seen. This one can feel really good to all the parts of that have yet to get that fully from within. From Self to self. It can also be really triggering as other parts may feel a little distrustful and doubtful of the goodness that is being bestowed as a defense to trauma and a lack of memorable experience in the True Love department.

There is another reflection, too, that is brought by the Mirror of Shadow. The one that parts have ‘unconsciously’ and strategically avoided due to there uncomfortable and unsightly nature. These reflections are just as hard to receive as they are to give. It is a growth edge for the recipient and the reflector, yet in this exchange is the well of Real Love. This can trigger some deep defensive reactions as we are being confronted with something parts of us have been blinded to for a very good reason. Even if the mirror is held in Love, we still may want to shatter it just so we can say we never saw it.

I have been given many mirrors in my process that have been difficult to let in. Even just recently in regards to the state of my previous living situation. There were places that were not kept up, maintained, and not fully cared for. There was a lack of reverence and respect of ‘self’ and ‘other’ from within me. It was not fully seen until the blind spot of defense was pierced through. This was a deep reflection of a fusion to parts of me that did not feel worthy of goodness and leadership, even as I am awash in both to the gills! This is how what we call our ’leading edge’ can illuminate what lies in our ‘trailing edge’. Where there is light, there is shadow.

I feel the vulnerability of this inside me. Of outing a personal process that has an effect on perception, yet it is this very outing that feels to be the root of the very thing that I am a part of leading. To truly lead, we must be willing to see and feel that which is not in the ‘lead of the ship’. Those things that we have still hidden in the hull and can weigh us down until brought out into the openness of the deck. To be fully loved and understood so that we can continue to arise into new territory within our own being that can shine a light to others.

This is the beauty and sometimes hard part of real love. The kind that doesn’t let the hidden and stuck places stay that way because others won’t let themselves stay stuck; who want and need the reflections as well for their own growth. That is catalytic healing and quantum service of love. This is the true ground of ascension when we are able to stare into the dark just as much as we love to stare into the light. I am grateful to be a part of it with those that care enough to keep it real with love.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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“Generation Me”: Love Yo’self

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By Raianna Shai

Okay peeps, let’s jump back on that Millennial train! All aboard the Generation Express!

I’ve been feeling into this topic more and more and even decided to do a bit of research today to get a feel of how others perceive Millennials. The biggest thing I grabbed from this research that ties it all together is the label “Generation Me”. This feels interesting to me because it covers the perceptions of this generation being both narcissistic and open minded. There seems to be an agreement that technology and the Great Recession have had huge impacts on our generation as well.

That felt a bit like writing an essay but part of me (probably my masculine) wanted part of my digestion to be “informed”. Now to feel my feminine intuition and what the plights, struggles and desires are in general for people around my age.

Feeling into this “Generation Me” label, my first thought is that this feels true on some levels. I feel that technology has not changed anything about who we are, but it has ushered in a new wave of self awareness. How we present ourselves has become more relevant because more people can “see” us online rather than just in person. It’s impossible to say whether an entire group of people is self absorbed or just self aware – the important thing is feeling how this “Me” space can become emotionally and spiritually healthy.

Being self aware does not have to be a negative thing. In fact, nothing is truly “negative” when you feel the layers deep down inside. Someone who seems “materialistic” “narcissistic” or “entitled” really just has parts that are scared. Scared of failure, of losing what they love, of not being good enough or being abandoned. Of course, these parts need a mirror to be able to take responsibility for how they affect others, but they also need love and support. They don’t need to feel wrong or less than any other parts, they just need a boundary and a space to feel their fears. This in turn can transmute into more self loving feelings such as confidence, self acceptance, and trust in the Divine.

On the other end of the spectrum, there are people at this age that are seen as tolerant, open-minded, and selfless. These are all beautiful things to be, but where does the self care come into this? The more narcissistic parts of you may seem “bad” compared to these other parts of you, but their gift is that they know how to put themselves first. Which does NOT make you selfish or unable to serve others. Putting your own process first just means that you feel worthy of love and understand that it’s so important to fill up your own love tank before you can fill up others.

Many of my own parts tend to be more like this and I find it so difficult to speak my truth. My parts don’t quite have the self love built up enough to express love in the form of boundaries and truth telling. They can feel like they’re being “mean” or “unfair” when in reality their truths can be beautiful enough to catapult someone into their next phase of bigness. Tolerance sounds great on the surface, but would you rather be tolerated by someone, or truly loved for the bigness you are?

I still have more to feel into this piece on “tolerance” because it is SO huge today, and I want to feel what my deepest truth is around it. My parts want to love everyone fully and completely and I do feel that I love everyone and every soul here with me in this experience. But this does not equate unconditional love. We have conditions in order to be in relationship. My conditions lie in a healthy and loving relationship to emotions and parts, an ongoing process of getting know and love those parts, and a self awareness that continues to lead to heart openings within and without. That doesn’t mean I don’t have love in my heart for absolutely everyone, that is the difference.

Maybe your conditions are just “don’t be a murderer” but it is a condition all the same. These boundaries show your parts that they matter. That they don’t have to be around any energy that makes them feel less than loved. Even contention can be full of love if it continues to move, flow, and be felt deeply. Boundaries do not make you a mean or selfish person, they show others that you hold them in the highest regard. It shows that you know they have the potential for such bigness and that that is all you can truly support for them. Boundaries held with your heart, are love.

So to “Generation Me” I say, whether you have parts that resonate with any of this or not, you are not wrong and your parts are not wrong. Living in self love and truth every single day takes time and work but it is SO worth it. YOU are worth it. Labels do nothing but hold you back from the absolute bigness that your heart really holds. You are not narcissistic, you are not mean, you are not even perfect. You are you. And THAT is perfect.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

When Man Loves Woman: A Tribute To Sacred Romance and Union

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This is in tribute to my beloved Kalayna Colibri  on her birthday. We have shared so many together since we met 6 years ago but this is our first in romance. I wanted to honor her for all she represents to me and thus the male collective. We have been through much together and I have had my share of process around letting in a conscious and sacred romance. This is the real deal and that brings with it challenges and immense joy.

When a man loves a woman he sees Her as She is
The beauty, the pain, the innocence, the queen, the shadow
He claims her for who she is in the moment
Knowing that She is always seeking and striving for Her More

He works within himself to heal the projections
That may be placed upon Her as a reflection of His own mirror
The places that He can’t see without Her
The ones She agreed to hold as part of The Deepening, The Clearing

This woman does not come by often
She can be an epic storm
That rearranges the locks on the Heart Doors
And she is the one that has held the Key

He is not obliged to her nor entitled
Yet He climbs the trellis, scales the walls
He rides his white horse to meet Her on her own
And they ride together, heart by heart, soul to soul

She engages His bigness as He does Hers
She opens the portals and He takes the wheel
She requires the one thing that may be the hardest thing to give
His vulnerability

She is there when the journey, the healing
Become too much for His protected parts to bear
He may get lost in the doing and the creating
But He wants Her to know that She is always the beacon back to Himself

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Coming Out Of Hiding During Awakening

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By Jelelle Awen

Peek-a-boo you….. you can come out of hiding, you can open your eyes beyond the edges of fleshy covering-up-full-view fingers.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can BE without masks, you can feel the air of realness on your unobstructed face.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can venture out of the closet, you can let your soul’s light open ALL the doors that have previously felt closed.

Peek-a-boo you….you can open your heart to intimacy in moments with others as you claim it with yourself.

Peek-a-boo you….you can take it ALL in without fear of being consumed or doomed or shamed as you learn to receive and to give.

They taught parts of you to hide yourself because they felt more comfortable in the hiding. They gave you a mask to wear because they were safely tugged away behind their own. They transmitted energies of fear to you because that is what they inherited. They wanted you to close your heart down because theirs had been shut.

Yet, none of this is who or what they OR you really ARE. It is what has been taught and sought, sold and trained in the 3D world experiment. The currency of fear, non-vulnerability, protection, suppression is NOT the actual gold of anyone’s true capacity as a sacred human.

Seeing life with full vision. Feeling life with an opening heart. Awakening to life with your beaconing soul.

This is YOU beyond the peek-a-boo games with life that ask parts of you to hide.

This is YOU beyond the masks that everyone seems to wear.

This is you face-to-face, heart-to-heart, soul-to-soul, raw to life, and taking it ALL in without layers or false skins.

This is you AS love without anything in the way of your experience of experience….this is you BEing the love that you ARE.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women over 35 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Quantum Healing Opportunities Through Parts Work ( Q & A Video W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen)

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This is a livestream from July 10, 2018 with SoulFullHeart Teachers, Ascension Guides, and sacred union mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen talking about the healing opportunities available through connecting with parts of yourself such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child, etc. They also talked about quantum karmic healing through connecting with Metasoul aspects from other timelines/lifetimes.

They answered questions and responded to comments about the parts process, suffering loops, and more. You are welcome to ask a question or leave a comment on the recording of the broadcast and they will respond to it! They were also streaming onto Facebook so if you want to see the comments they were responding to, please go to: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

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Ending The Inner Wars: Connecting With Your Protector/Inner Masculine

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By Jelelle Awen

The suffering so often comes from the inner polarization, the inner wars between one part of you to another. It can feel as if this suffering is being caused by others outside of you….what they are doing or not doing, how they are behaving or not behaving, what they are giving or not giving. It feels as if the war is happening outside of you and so much calling parts of you to ‘go to battle’ over and over again.
Yet, actually, the wars are happening inside of you and showing up on the outside as a mirror. The wars happen inside because of the templating you received of them in 3D life and what your soul experiences in other lifetime/timelines. The collective 3D culture so wrapped up in defending and battling…….and YOUR intimate cult-ure of birth family engaged in its own battlefields too. What were the warring frequencies that you took in from your parent’s relationship? From the way their masculine and feminine (inside of BOTH of them) related with each other? What did they teach you about fighting, about resisting, about pushing and pulling?
You sponged in this templating as necessary for survival and parts of you formed in response to it. Masculine and feminine polarized parts of you took on ‘roles’ and frequencies of woundedness AND goodnesses too. Parts of you both rejected and accepted your parent’s templating….some of this inherited energy was put in shadow, some was consciously rejected, some was adapted.
The inner dynamic of polarized masculine and feminine leads to SO MUCH of the less than, lack, settling, codependence, and suffering that people experience in relationships and in their lives and in their souls too. It leads to SO MUCH of the patterns and cycles of loneliness/isolation on one end of the spectrum and clinging/overstaying/settling on the other end of it.
I have seen this so many times in sessions with people recently and over the years….and in my own process too. The inner masculine is often waiting in weary vigilance. The Protector (inner masculine) part of you desires for a release to the amped up state of seeing so much as a threat and for so long anticipating or being in battle. He waits to put down the weapons, to take off the armor, to let down his guard. He doesn’t want to be a ‘warrior’ anymore (not for love or light either). He doesn’t want to be the voice of judgement and criticism anymore.
Your Protector wants to be forgiven for ALL that he feels that he has done ‘wrong’ when he wasn’t able to protect you. He has lost the sense of Divine purpose in it ALL, the choices that you make/made on a Higher Self level to experience all that you have. He feels that so much of what you have experienced in this-life and other lifetimes is HIS fault. He is heavy with this fault and the guilt of it…and the shame too. This heaviness anchors him to 3D timelines and other lifetimes/timelines too.
He is the reluctant babysitter to your sensitive, vulnerable feminine, your Inner Child and Inner Teenager. He has so often been disempowered and disconnected from his authentic voice and capacity to set healthy boundaries for these parts of you. Instead, he is caught up in cycles of perpetuator and victimhood and stuck in traumatic, undigested scenes from your childhood unable to actually help feel and heal the parts of you that are still in trauma.
Healing the inner war is about bringing compassionate love to ALL these parts of you. To feel how it has been for your Protector and to be an energy of forgiveness toward him. To listen to his war battle stories and respond when he tells you about other parts of you that need your love. Giving him something to DO that is healthy and active and brings purpose to your life. Being with the younger parts of you so that he doesn’t have to hold them anymore. Being bigger than him in energy so that he can finally rest from being the guard/warrior and become the guide to you that he is meant to BE.
More about the Protector and other parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Protector and begin this empowering negotiation and with this vital part of you: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ciJIvrn0xA&t=1170s
This is the moving into frequencies of inner sacred union and balance. This is what leads to the draw of an outer sacred union with a mate of resonant soul/heart/mind/body energies. Experiencing this primarily from INside of yourself as you understand and feel and heal what had become warlike. Bringing ambassadorship and Divine Mother’s love to even the most polarized of frequencies so that you no longer have to draw and experience them with others as a mirror.
Inner transmutation of polarized gender frequencies is a really vital and important aspect of Ascension. This is what the process looks like on an emotional body, intimate level. This is relational Ascension that allows for experiencing a fulfilling and empowered life in ALL areas of life (not just in the ‘spiritual’ area.) This is personal Ascension that also impacts the collective process on a quantum and archetypal level.
This is BEcoming love as you free up all energies inside of you to express as an unified field of the Infinite Love that you ARE!

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Raphael and I will be talking more about this process of connecting with your Protector during a livestream today at 4:00pm CDT, with the broadcast recording available afterwards on my Jelelle Awen facebook feed and on our SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel.

We support you during 1:1 bridging sessions for $55 USD min. donation with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator to connect with your Protector and heal your inner family: more info here soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

 

 

Following Your Sacred Union Desires: Our Story

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By Jelelle Awen ~

Ten years ago, I received an email from a man asking me to explore a relationship. As soon as I read his words, I felt my entire body flush with a warm, loving energy and an inner knowing. I already knew that this man’s heart and soul were SO big, generous, and powerfully good, that his intentions toward me were pure, and that his dedication to his own healing/awakening process through parts work matched my own. Before that time, parts of me couldn’t handle the mirror that he offered me of me and there just wasn’t enough self worth to claim our connection.

Finally, after three years of knowing each other, I felt a ‘yes’ to letting him in. I felt a ‘yes’ to seeing where the reflection of ME that he offered would take me.

THAT exploration and THAT man have brought me more joy, goodness, reflection, growth, and stepping into my own bigness than I ever could have imagined! Our union expands and deepens each day, with new grounds of co-leadership and collaboration continuing to open out and offer surprisingly meaningful gifts to ourselves and others!

Thank you to my BEloved, Raphael Awen, for every moment since then and all the future ones to come! I’m so glad I said ‘yes’ and I’m so grateful that you pursued what you wanted!

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By Raphael Awen

Ten years ago, my life took another big turn.

Today is Jelelle and I’s ‘nibble on cheese’ anniversary. I sent Jelelle an email that said ‘Would you like to connect soon? We could be like two mice nibbling on cheese.’ I knew it sounded a bit cheesy, but I was determined to be unedited and to be okay with whatever the outcome. In the three years prior, I’d brought her an attraction two other times, and though I accepted and respected the ‘no’ that came back, that didn’t stop me from trying again when another attraction arose. This time, I got a different response.

Today, I live in an ongoing honeymoon phase; a ‘pinch me’ reality. Is this really true? How can this be? What button did I push to make this happen? (part of me is still asking)

This woman who lived ten hours and a country away from was in my orbit to see occasionally over a three year period, but now, for the last ten years she’s hardly more than 25 feet away 24/7/365. We’ve left two countries behind, have plans for many more and can’t wait to walk into the next moments together to feel and experience what wants to be felt and experienced through us.

I so believe that one of the deepest things we came here to earth for, and that we chose human being experience for, was to be willing to enter the place of strong desire; to surrender and be vulnerable to having intense wants. Wanting a sacred romance is probably one of the biggest desires we can surrender to. I feel this to be true, because once you enter the sacred romance, it will call you to deeper and deeper desire and vulnerability and it won’t stop.

Your desire to admit what you want, to never deny it, even if you get told ‘no’, will be the stuff you’ll need to actually walk out the having of what you desire. Your willingness to long and pine for what you don’t have and find really hard to see anywhere in sight, will be what enables you to draw that.

You too, can have it all, for nothing more than the willingness to want it, and want it and want it some more.

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Raphael and Jelelle Awen are Ascension Guides, Sacred Union Mates and Teachers, SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Co-Creators/Teachers. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, writings, and videos with them.

The Magic Of The Metasoul

Published on by Gabriel Heartman5 Comments

From the Soul’s perspective, you have seen and been through more than you can possibly let in at one time. It is a galaxy of experience that has been veiled for your protection and conscious integration. There is so much that lies in between you and Source. Each of our metasouls is like a planet unto itself. A light side and a shadow side. This planet is rich with emotive stories that live in our BEing. The scenes are playing out. Some searching for redemption, some forgiveness, and all for a connection. A connection to you and itself. You are the one you and they have been looking for to be found, witnessed, felt, and brought into the wholeness of your Divine Heart that lay at the center of that galaxy.

The Metasoul is a vibrating, pulsating conglomeration of individuated aspects that hold so many gifts for each of us. We are connected to different timelines for many different reasons be it past, present, or future. This dimension or the multitude of others. The scope of it is immense. Permitting the imagination to fly where it needs to intuitively, you can pick up on a particular consciousness/energy that is meant to be felt at that moment. It can be connected to a specific situation in your life or it can be a general theme that has pervaded over the years and has yet to find its ‘solution’.

There may be some dark and tragic pieces that are at the root of any karmic cycling. It is as if these aspects and parts are caught in a tumble dry. The part of a river that where nothing seems like it can escape for it hasn’t been able to get outside itself. In the course of my own personal process, there have been many of these ‘lives’ that I have come in contact with that seek a closure, a heart to land in, and a perspective to lean into that is not the one that has kept them stuck and in pain. Some have been known figures, but many are just known to us and our heart.

Whether any of this is ‘real’ or not really is beyond the scope of what matters most. How does it feel? Is it alive and breathing inside of you? Can you see it or sense it in your body? Does the pain feel real? Are the tears real? Then it is real as you need it to be to heal. When there is another heart for it to land in then it creates a space that is full of human heart-open lushness that is beyond words.

Set yourself on a path of selves-discovery. There is a treasure to integrate on the way back to Source even as we hold Source close to us in the process. It a value-add for the very reason why we chose these lives in the first place.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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