Tag: life changes

The Profound Experience Of Grief

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

by Gabriel Solais

Grief is a profound experience in the wake of Loss.

It opens the heart to the bedrock of our humanity and our divinity. It can be where the two join hands. Ultimately in our highest heart and soul essence, there is no loss, just a death and rebirth, a transmutation of energy.

Of course, the circumstance and specifics of the loss can be quite jarring and extremely painful. To lose a child or other loved one in a tragic way holds so much energy than if it were in a natural one. Tragic grief is one that has so many dimensions to it that needs the time and space necessary to be as real and expressive as possible.

Grief is held by parts of us for so many reasons. It can be an inner child or teenager, inner shame and guilt, rage, and/or hurt. It is held in our SOULullar memory as another lifetime in our Metatsoul that may have multiple experiences of that same circumstance playing out.

Holding the grief as a part of you, even as you are in the throes of the pain, helps to offer love to it from a different place as opposed to being the grief itself. You can move with it. Love it. Learn from it. Grow from it. It is actually a gift as it opens the heart into realms that were previously hidden and unconscious.

You can arise out of the ashes of grief with a renewed sense of surrender, acceptance, purpose, and self. You can feel yourself as divinely connected to Source, and even the expression of Source Itself. It is not meant to be a suffering loop or to be glossed over with any numerous distractions.

The fear of getting sucked up by grief is what keeps the pain in place. That is another protective part not wanting you to feel any more pain than you already have in this and other lives. That is tender to feel and yet is also important to negotiate with this part how much you really want and need to feel and heal, once and for all.

This experience may be the most alive that many of us have ever felt. That is the gift in it as well. It offers a permission to feel all the pent-up rage, hurt, rejection, and existential pain. It is cathartic and transmutative.

So as we focus on the joyous side of being alive, there is also the sorrow side that gifts us what joy truly feels like in contrast. And for that, we honor it and love it just as we would any other emotion that helps us to authentically feel our humanity.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Energies Support Journey Into Deepest Wants & Needs

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

Feels like timelines are shifting around again now as more of what you don’t want comes to light and more of what you do actually enters your field, almost simultaneously, though this might be hard for parts of you to see. It’s not a time for over-focusing on results so much as being with the process of it all, step by step, feeling in each moment what you want and don’t want and the clarity of why and where these wants are coming from is showing up as well. Even starting to go here with parts of you may feel tense as admitting to wants, desires, and needs, especially those that aren’t being met currently, brings a rumble into every area of your life and parts of you that worked hard to keep the ground from rumbling are afraid of what the outcome could be.

It’s a lot for parts of you, especially parts that have worked diligently and tirelessly to keep you safe and protected, such as your Inner Protector, to admit that they too have wants and needs and cannot deny themselves these feelings any longer. If you’re starting to feel these sorts of rumblings, there’s an opportunity to build a heart-rail within, a fireplace for the fire that wants to create change and transformation in your inner and outer life and awareness. This is a time when you can choose to be with yourself, to give space for what’s arising and see what’s coming through, heeding the alchemy of it and the changes that are being invited into your life and healing process.

My Star Family is offering to me to share that this is all leading somewhere much more nourishing. As each intense phase of our Ascension comes through, we find ourselves in more scenarios where we need ourselves more than ever, where transcending how parts of us feel isn’t working anymore, and the new flow of love within becomes the life blood for changing our hearts, bodies, and souls over to the reality of less tolerance for anything that is not love while being willing to be in the messiness of feeling and navigating this. To continue to trust that this is all worth it is all we can ask of ourselves and work towards deepening with parts of us who feel overwhelmed by it all… this is the continued journey of maturation as a species on all levels.

There is so much support from Love to continue feeling and being, even when it’s necessary to take action and move into some further steps that often involve saying ‘no’ to some things and ‘yes’ to others while setting boundaries and feeling through what’s needed and wanted in each moment. Even moments of feeling lonely or as if something is missing or left-of-centre for you in any area of your life, there is a constant flow of alchemy that is asking you to feel this and let in this reality, to be courageous enough to be with it and have a relationship with it as it transmutes and ascends along with you into all of those desired higher-dimensional frequencies.

If you feel the need for support, you can so reach out to myself or my beloveds for Bridging Sessions. More details here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Current Emotional Fluctuations And Loving Them UP

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

By Kalayna Colibri

There’s a deep fluctuation moving through… swinging from one pole to another inside. It’s a ‘mood swing’ on one level, but it’s deeper too. There are waves of change upending and creating tension, or more like evoking tension that has already been there for eons. It can feel almost crazy-making, the way these swings happen. One minute there’s a feeling of bliss, then the next there’s irritation, and maybe even rage. All feelings are alchemical. All feelings are data. All feelings give you a roadmap into you.

I’ve been feeling my own ups and downs this past week, as moving through big life changes tends to bring up a lot for me, especially around trust. I feel a deepening trust happening now. I feel how I am being asked to keep going into it all, to keep feeling it all, as even the feelings of distrust bring opportunities to feel more love…

I feel even in this moment how bringing out some anxiety and distrust in the bigger picture and ultimately the Divine helps bridge me back to my heart and soul. I feel from my heart too, how nothing is actually ever up to us. It’s up to love. That’s kind of a rough answer sometimes, isn’t it? Because… why would love want us to move through suffering of any kind? I don’t have an answer exactly… but what I’ve experienced is that even through the suffering, we are always held. Even in those dark moments where we don’t have a clue as to the WHY of anything… we are always loved… and we are always love finding its way. You, even in your suffering, are love finding its way to health again, in all ways.

In fact… sometimes we’ve needed the suffering in order to feel love again. Without having a process of feeling what isn’t love inside of you and in your life and relationships, it’s much harder to feel the deep love that the universe has for you.

So, even if you’re feeling some intense swings between this way to feel and that way to feel, there’s an opening to more love wanting to happen in your being. These edges of tension and also happiness are part of these birth contractions waiting and working to pop you out into a new you. Your sacred humanity is awakening and evolving, even with all of these feelings going on… that, I feel no doubt about. That, I trust, with my entire being. ❤️

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Being With Anxiety During Life Transitions

Published on by Raphael Awen2 Comments

By Raphael Awen

After a total crash day of doing almost nothing physically, rest, rest, rest, some tears of longing under a despair of aching for 3D to shift some more in our collective and within my reality inside of that, I was able to feel very held, loved and supported.

With just two weeks and a bit left of our four year sojourn in Mexico, both Jelelle and I, and Raianna are feeling quite done with Mexico. Much of the previous appeal has lost its charm as the universes ‘prickly nest’ push into new timelines leads the way. Like a pregnant mother in her final stages of pregnancy, it’s not all easy or comfortable. We’re feeling not quite here and not quite there at the same time.

These times of transition with less routine are a precious time to feel yourself and parts of you. I’ve made it my practice and joy to deeply ‘go in’, in any time of transition or change.

Day before yesterday, I tallied the numbers of our Canada budget and had some reaction of anxiety about the money. It felt like a fraction of what I’ve ever felt in times past around money, yet, it was still there, a kind of shutdown inside that I had to give space to move through and feel. It’s interesting too, that these much smaller reactions than the ones I’ve known in times past are some offset by the fact that I feel way more sensitive to my emotional body, so in another way, they feel almost as big in the moment. They certainly feel big enough to call my attention and heart and feel what parts of me or in my Metasoul are wanting and asking for to be felt.

Interesting too, with that signature feeling of anxiety about money pushed up into my feeling space, I was easily able to time travel back to the me in times past, who lived and fueled my life with the anxiety about money. It feels real to me that we can change our lives in the present by going back in time to give love and heart presence to the parts of ourselves that felt trapped in an all too real reality where anxiety (or any other prominent suffering) was the order of the day. When a part of us from our past gets to shift their reality, that creates a waveform that flows into our present.

Last night, I had a dream, a full on night dream, where a woman told me she had a check for us in the amount of $50,000 dollars. At a time when 500 dollars would make a big difference and one thousand would be huge, $50,000 feels like a really strange reality to live into. I so can feel that our collective current relationship to money and anxiety about money is only a reality because of what connection it always was meant to lead us to inside of ourselves. Were it not for an anxiety or a depression, we wouldn’t desire and long for the heaven we are returning to and expanding into. I can feel a new timeline reality emerging for all of us, where money focus and scarcity just isn’t part of our waking consciousness. I’ve made big strides into this new world already of feeling free from the constraints of money pressures, of feeling free to pursue my dreams, but there is a ways to go here yet that calls to me.

You may very much be feeling a call to step into deep changes in your life; decision points about relationships, jobs, careers, bankruptcy possibly, that to a part of you, feel like stepping off a cliff. Yet, you know, you are being invited into deep change. I deeply believe that when we can proactively let these present forms of our life go through the metamorphosis that the universe is bringing to us, by choosing the ripe change timeline, we spare ourselves the trauma and shock of having life implode and explode change into our lives. In other words, we decide (or we don’t) on whether we play victim to change, or whether we consciously lead and live into the changes. Doing this healthily involves feeling the parts of ourselves in their reactions to the potential choices and changes. Simply feeling these parts of ourselves is the magic that lets in the new reality that wants to come into our awareness and reality.

This lived in and experienced reality is then what provides the courage and direction for the next step.

If you’re up for this; congratulations! You’ve just returned to the land of the advent of your adventurous self reaping the fullest benefits of what you came here to feel and manifest.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/bridging-session

A Love Transmission For These Times Of Chaos, Change, Evolution (Poem)

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

Swirling, changing, 
Ever-shifting sands
Of foundations won and lost,
Forged and fought for,
Brought in on waves of alchemy
And set to sail away again.

The ship of your homecoming
Finds those resonant tides
Of needed and necessary movement
Toward everything
Every part, piece, aspect,
You have, are
And will yet uncover yourself to BE.

Life is a recovery dance
Of unknown,
Magic-pitched pipes
No one has ever played before
And yet they are being played just the same
In every cell of your being
In every dimension of your soul…

Love, catch the wave before you
Or wait now for another.
At every turn
The maybes move
As the drawbridge beckons you homeward.

Beloved, now could be your time
The war is over if you choose it.
The battles fought and won
Are reconciled
In the depths of healing soil
Built to bring more depth within.
Your time to re-anchor in new horizons
Could be now…
Or the next now.
Any now of your choosing
As you cannot help
But engage in the process
Of the healing waves coming
In whatever ways felt into.
You’ll know your time,
Your chance,
Your phase,
In ways your mind won’t grasp
Yet your heart will sanctify
And claim…
You’ll know, beloved,
That it’s your growth moment
And the pulse of new blood
Will be unavoidable.

Yet beloved,
Feel this…
You are loved beyond the love you’ve known.
You are needed beyond the needs of others.
You are held beyond the scope of your beholding.
And you are brought into your power
In every step you take towards more love
More worth
And more beyond all you’ve been taught
Is all you’ll ever have…

Much… much love… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Desires, Letting Go Of ‘Settling’

Published on by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

By Kalayna Colibri

I’ve never felt very personally drawn to the sense that eliminating all of your desires is the path to true happiness. It’s in genuinely feeling our unhappiness because we don’t quite have what we desire that we set ourselves up for our next process of embodying the change we want to experience. Feeling desires does not have to feel like torture, though parts of you may relate to it that way. It’s not about over-stretching yourself into a pretzel to try and “make” something happen, either… though a phase of feeling yourself do this may be necessary for you.

This process doesn’t eliminate the need to feel gratitude. It’s actually a marriage of gratitude for what you’ve had and experienced and even letting in a mourning process of what you’re feeling to let go of, and a sense that you’re ready to move on now, that becomes the process of drawing in your next timeline.

As Raphael Awen has said many times, “the way you leave is the way you enter”. This lands quite deeply for me as I choose my next desires to pursue and let them land deeply in my heart too. There are things that I want, but more importantly, there are experiences of myself and also of others that I want, that are driving me onward into letting in more of what I truly want at this time.

I know so well the rumble that feeling the gap between what you want and want you have now creates in your being and your life. I have experienced over and over again the process of letting go while also holding on to that picture and feeling-experience that lives inside of you that tells you want is truly possible and invites you to feel all there is to feel about that.

This can become a scary process, especially if it is your first time navigating big changes or shifts, or if you’ve been through big changes before but want to move through it all differently now. It takes great courage to move through your timelines and into the unknown. This may feel natural to some parts of you, but completely unnatural and maybe undesirable to other parts of you.

If Ascension is anything though, it’s a letting go of the need to know and feeling all reactions there are to the not-knowing. We cannot ‘know’ our way through this Ascension process, only be with the unknowns of it and feel ourselves walking all of that out. This is the invitation of change and inner-rumble… this is the path to that which you’ve been most deeply aching for.

What are the desires you have for your experience of yourself, love, life, Ascension? What are you willing to move through in order to have and embody what you desire? Can you feel the parts of you that have a push-pull around letting that in?

It IS possible to hold what you want with a growing maturity and willingness to stumble through some darkness… and it IS imminent, that your desires are leading you to the happiness you crave beyond any previous ‘settling’ you may have been ok with for a while, and the fulfillment of everything your soul has signed up for. ❤️

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My beloveds, Jelelle, Raphael and Gabriel all offer exquisite space holding sessions if you’re curious to ride this unknown horse of your desires more deeply into the next sunrise of your life: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

From Living Room To Loving Room: Celebrating Sacred Group Process Space, Community Shifts And Changes

Published on by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

By Kalayna Colibri

At first glance, our living room is a mess, yeah? Well, if you could vibe yourself here to be in this room right now, the mess wouldn’t matter… this is the best room in Gabriel and I’s house right now. The warmth as I sit here and digest what moved between Gabriel and I as well as within us individually and within the hearts and souls of my other beloveds in this space today, I feel the warmth of the love container that held us all… the love energies coming from our hearts to our parts, our hearts to each other and each other’s parts. It’s a powerful energy to be in and around and not one that comes without cost, without constant and consistent choice, without courage and a deep trust within that love is carrying us to our next layers within and within relationship to each other too.

This was one of our last group healing spaces together before Jelelle, Raphael and Raianna go back to Canada, where we all came from 4 years ago, nearly to the day. It was a beautiful weekend of connection and process. It was a time of bittersweet celebration and abundance of love… digestions of our journey together so far and how much we are going to miss each other too.

We are choosing this next phase of separation so that Gabriel and I can build our kingdom together as a Sacred Union couple, an arising King and Queen. Jelelle and Raphael have their next phase of leadership too, moving on from this geography to be in a new phase of grist for their own processes and also to continue expanding our community. Raianna will be making connections of her own back in Canada too. In all cases, the intention holding all of it and all of us is to serve love… to ourselves, between each other, and with others. We ultimately want more of YOU to be able to access and experience what we experience together… the gifts and growth crucibles of soul family connections and the catalytic nature of this work.

So, a messy living room to some… but a warm LOVING room to me. And you’re all invited to take part in your next steps, feeling how they may even connect you more to us in the ways you’re ready for.

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I wish you much love… from my heart to yours. ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Incoming July Energies Support Change Choices & Integration

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

It doesn’t feel like we’re in a phase of much being activated at the moment, though it depends very much on the phase that you find yourself in. If you’ve recently been navigating some significant life changes, you may find that you’re actually in a phase of integrating them… and if you’re trying to figure out your next step at the moment, or taking some sort of action in order to exit one phase and enter another, you may find that you’re being asked to find some stillness amid challenges that are springing up. It feels like whatever side of “change” you’re on right now, whether in the INcubation or INtegration phase of it, you may be feeling the birth canal of the rebirth these energies coming in are inviting you into. And what’s more is that these changes are a direct result of your awakening journey so far… they are all a graduation point, even the difficult ones, and they all want to lead you to your next places on your journey.

You may be starting to realize that parts of you have been over-focused on ‘making change happen’ in one particular area of your life, whether it’s trying to lose some physical weight, moving to a new home, looking for work, or completing/beginning a relationship. This over-focus feels two-fold to me: first, I feel there is an invitation here to feel how the work to ‘make something happen’ is a part trying to force something that perhaps has its own timing and probably out of a fear of missing out on an opportunity or to bring someone or something closer to you in your life for fear of losing them, or losing your next chance, whatever that may mean; and second, I feel too the invitation to begin seeing the bigger picture of the changes, that they connect to all areas of your life and not just one. It’s like trying to work out by only targeting one muscle group when really it’s your whole body that needs your attention and love. Plus, compartmentalizing is probably losing its ground for you in general, so the focus on only one thing/area or even person in your life is something you won’t actually be able to maintain for long as it all wants and needs to connect and integrate together.

It feels like July is a ‘hot’ month for bringing in and settling into changes too. I get a ‘coming and going’ sort of feeling around it. You may be experiencing a push-pull inside of you around change too, as parts of you want it and others don’t, and this polarization becomes harder and harder to ignore. You can choose to feel the parts and the ways in which they’re attached to what you’re taking steps to let go of and the ways they feel about what/who you’re trying to let in too. Your Inner Protector especially will have opinions and observations to offer, as will other parts of you.

As always with the incoming energy waves, there’s much to feel and awaken to within. You’re always invited to find expanded consciousness and a brighter view of the bigger picture of Ascension, the Cosmos, etc, yet this expanded consciousness landing within you is the one that truly lights up your path, your action steps, your stillness needs, and the parts that need your love as you choose, inhabit, and integrate the changes you most need in this Now. The Divine Mother/Feminine and Her many different expressions are here to be with you and hold space with you too as you explore all of these elements of your being… I feel Her honouring all of your choice points and everything you’re feeling or even ‘not’ feeling along the way, while also encouraging you to keep going, flowing, finding ways to BE with all of the challenges and desires, both.

Love to you as you feel all there is to feel on this next stratum of your ever-deepening healing and ever-increasing desire for everything you’ve ever wanted to have or happen in your life. ❤

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We are here to serve you should you feel the need/desire for more support on your journey and a very illuminating 90min (for $55 usd min. donation) session to help you find your next steps for your healing and Ascension journey: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Change Your Life By Finding Your Courage

Published on by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

Bravery. It’s a good topic to get into, isn’t it? We’re living in times where we SO need our bravery, both the masculine and feminine versions of it. We all have these energies inside of us. We’re all capable of so much beyond our wildest dreams and somehow you know this and can feel it… but not always. Being born into 3D conditioning is like having a lead balloon over your bigness. That is, until it’s not what’s true anymore and you’re remembering how to soar again!

Yesterday I posted just a couple of lines on my Facebook page that said, “If you don’t feel challenged to find your bravery, you’re living a life that supports your stuckness, not your growth…” and got a really big response! It feels like these are words that so many parts and Metasoul Aspects are NEEDING to hear and feel. It’s an invitation that’s meant to bowl you over with love. You’re always invited into your bigness through finding your courage. You find your true courage by finding your heart. If there’s no heart in your choices, if you aren’t truly feeling them, parts of you are keeping you numb out of fear and wanting to just exit the whole situation or relationship without feeling the loss or mourning. This is more bravado than bravery and comes from the Inner Protector wanting to just get OUT already… there’s nothing “wrong” with this though, especially because leaving abusive relationships can really require you to feel as unsentimental as possible on your way out the door. This is about survival in some cases and bless your Inner Protector for doing their job!

What I just mentioned about the Inner Protector brings us to the point I was making about masculine and feminine expressions of bravery. Since the Inner Protector for both men and women tends to be very, very masculine in energy, a very protected and armored version of bravery is expressed through this part. This is more wounded masculine than healed masculine of course, yet there’s no judgment about that because this is just how this part of you has HAD to be. Masculine bravery also expresses through the inner matriarch/patriarch (Inner Mother/Father). Matriarchy, the way it’s been expressed so far, has been intensely masculine in many ways. Any picture of a warrior woman is a masculine one, for example. Feminine power and bravery are different in my experience than anything that requires contention and battles on any level. The more healed version of masculine bravery lives in the heart. It helps you set intentions and not waiver from the course of action chosen, though your heart is still open to feeling your way through it (which is more feminine). It also helps you set boundaries when necessary and quite often it IS necessary in order to exit one door in your life and enter another.

Feminine bravery expresses through the heart. It’s a deep-seated courage to keep feeling all there is to feel. Courage to be WITH the mourning of leaving relationships, career, etc. Courage to be WITH the entering and letting in of new ones, too. Interesting that I’m using the word “courage” instead of “bravery” when talking about the feminine expression! I think this is because cour-age is of the heart, with “coeur” being the French word for “heart” and the feminine lives and thrives in the heart space. It takes a ton of bravery to stay in your heart, even when the world seems to support parts of you not to stay there and when it’s understandably tempting to follow along with that…

It takes a lot of YOU in your growing and strengthening essence to keep fnding your next steps in your life though every single awakening experience and every integration of these experiences too. You’re not meant to stay the same, and your life isn’t meant to either. You have a choice to be with the parts of you that are afraid and take brave steps anyways, trusting in your heart and soul that you WILL be and ARE held by something bigger within you and that life is on your side, not against you. This is a big one to feel and let in. And it takes a lot of bravery to even begin doing so. ❤

you are living in your stuckness

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Practical Ascension, Practical Magic: Bridging Spirituality With Grounded Practicality

Published on by Kasha Rosa6 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

Many of my mornings every week are dedicated to working online, specifically as an English teacher for Chinese children. These are early mornings… something my parts and my body have had to get used to and in some ways, the “getting used to it” process is still going on and in!

This is temporary… the heart and soul purpose I’m on this planet for isn’t teaching English to foreign children. It’s a bridge into the magical world OF living into soul purpose, though. It’s a way to keep grounded in terms of income while continuing the work within that draws more of the income desired from offering healing work to others and serving love with them. And, it IS service of love in some form, and this my parts and my Metasoul Aspects too are coming to terms with more and more.

Parts of you may have resistance to the practical, especially while navigating the magical. Reconciling and living into the two sometimes very divergent-feeling worlds is something necessary until it isn’t, yet there is definitely a step-by-step process to manifesting or drawing what we want to feel and become spiritually and as healers too, and this process involves a need, as a human being on this planet at this time, to have some sense of groundedness in practical day-to-day life.

Being “practical” in the way I’m offering means something very, very different to me and parts of me than it used to. To be “practical” in the past meant to become “like them” – like the “adults” around me holding very 3D jobs and careers spanning many years while raising a family, buying a home, staying put in one geography for possibly decades… as a soul born into this world with far less orientation towards 3D life, I had many parts that rebelled, fervently pushing away from this picture, wanting something very different, much more spiritual-feeling. So naturally, parts of me (typically my Inner Teenager yet also my Inner Protector/Gatekeeper) pushed away a grounded sense of financial income, ways to make sure I had some stability in my life, because I was “waiting” for the “perfect” job that would align with my soul purpose… not realizing that every job actually gives us this chance to build up to that and in some ways, simply not wanting to ground or BE here on Gaia. I had different ideas of spirituality and what it meant to be living into your truest soul purpose work back then. I still don’t have a desire for any of the things I listed above, yet I can say that how I picture, feel and live into “practical life” has shifted in a huge way because of my process and working with my parts. I now see “practicality” as something grounded, that puts your hands in the dirt to plant seeds, proverbially or literally. For some souls, this may mean the bliss mess experience of raising children, holding a 10+ year career trajectory, remaining in a long-term marriage “no matter what”, fully inhabiting these choices and then maybe popping out the other side into some deep awakenings that take them in different directions. For myself and so many others, this often means something very different.

The rebel in me lives on and necessarily so, yet not in such a way that tries to push against lucrative opportunities that also give me flexibility in terms of moving around the globe, having full days off other than early mornings, AND, I can take time off whenever I want to technically, yet the practical calls me in the moment to work often (though not so often I burn out!) for the sake of saving enough money to help the community I’m a part of find its way to a new geography where we can really plant our service-of-love seeds in new soul-soil. Creating the space for service of love in other forms, like writing, creating, holding space for others, etc, is something that arises as it needs and wants to and I am still very much in response to that, while bridging it all back to the practical, as I am in this writing in this moment. Being called to serve love does not have to mean self-sacrifice, though of course some of us have needed to walk that one out and we get to the other side of it when it’s time and we choose that. It actually so feels like what it means at the heart of it is being in response from your ever-purifying heart… to your own needs, the needs of those you love and share nourishing bonds with, and the needs of those who you are meant to serve.

It IS possible to live humbly while necessary, to hold a modest income while finding your feet, your heart, your wings in the areas of spiritual healing that you most desire to be part of. It IS possible to hold life in such a way that you are in response to your own practical needs and desires while also in response to serving others. And, it truly feels like a deep invitation from the Divine, from the Ascension LOVE energies themselves, to continue to find ways and means that allow you to continue your inward journey, finding and feeling the parts and Metasoul Aspects that are in resistance and reaction and perhaps wanting this New Earth existence that could be free of some of the old 3D sense of practicality to just be here already… yet there is a process involved and it is ultimately about finding your inner strength, power, worth and confidence through healing the parts that don’t feel this way. And this then can be served outward, from a place of grounded self-healing and discovery and growing self-love and appreciation.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.