New Earth Energies Invite Bringing Amnesty To All Darkness/Polarities

by Kalayna Solais

I remember when I was a child, I would watch movies with ‘bad guys’ in them and be looking constantly for signs of them turning ‘good’ or showing signs that they weren’t ALL ‘bad’. I preferred movies where the ‘villain’ found redemption and amnesty over movies where they would be killed or destroyed. As I think about this, I’m realizing how this was my Love Ambassador switching on at a young age and to this day, it’s still hard to watch anyone who has done ‘wrong’ be destroyed or killed. I think that for this life at least when it comes to finding entertainment in watching ‘evil’ get vanquished, my soul decided ‘enough is enough’ and it doesn’t entertain in the same ways that it likely did in other lifetimes.

That’s not to say that sometimes a ‘morbid curiosity’ doesn’t come over me, but that feels like my Lower 4D orientation in many Metasoul aspects in other timelines/lifetimes and also my ‘Death Doula’ coming online, who can be around death all the while knowing and trusting fully in the rebirth process that comes of it.

I suppose that’s what it could all boil down to, then… the Love Ambassador inside of each of us is also a ‘Death Doula’ who is not afraid of darkness but is instead willing to trust the process of giving it space to unfold in a HELD way. Meaning, it’s not going to overrun the light inside, but will still be given a voice and a place to be felt in the heart. Darkness needs light and light needs darkness for balance and to create an understanding and compassionate world.

There is still a very strong narrative playing out right now of light dispelling darkness. Yet, darkness cannot be destroyed. Your own darkness cannot be destroyed. It needs room to be felt and understood, a chance to make its case and be heard. Those in our world who have chosen to be Satanists are showing a polarity that exists inside of each of us. In some ways, it’s no different than judging narcissists as an empath, or even women judging men/men judging women, etc.

Something powerful happens when we choose to feel the parts of us that are afraid of these polarities and of feeling how they live inside of each of us in this life and other lifetimes. What happens is often that we realize there’s nothing to be afraid of, but a whole lot to bring love to. We realize that there’s nothing to vanquish but a lot of pain to feel. We realize that the Divine has already forgiven every single bit of harm caused to ourselves and others and that the key to letting this in isn’t contrition or punishment in any form, but instead in realizing the reasons for it all. This helps us find the remorse in our hearts and souls. This helps us find those tears of remembrance of Divine love and holding. This helps us open our hearts back up again, feeling Divine support for our explorations of these polarities and an understanding of why we’ve needed to do this.

I don’t feel like New Earth is shaping up to be a reality where all darkness is simply ‘gone from this earth’, moving on to another dimension to work out its ‘stuff’. I feel like it’s all needing a process of integration and amnesty, starting within. The movie Dark Crystal was ALWAYS onto something here… and in the book Prism of Lyra, we see this theme as well, of polarities becoming separate when they are really needing to come back together as one once again, BUT, in a NEW way that honours what both have learned on their sacred journeys of being separate from one another.

I feel this invitation every day, to feel and heal the polarities within so that I can take every single part and Metasoul aspect with me into the new. I feel this invitation always going out to the collective too, to every single soul, waiting for the moment when it can truly land. This could be a very long process, yet, my Love Ambassador trusts the playout and the timing and that this is where we’re all heading.  It’s up to us how long this journey takes, but it IS moving and in another way, it’s already completed and we’re just trying to catch up to that reality!

Much love to you and every expression of your awakening Love Ambassador too. ❤

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Freeing The Inner Masculine From Enslavement To Joyful Embodiment

The Inner Masculine journey of healing is ongoing. Getting to know mine more and more each day has been a gift for both of us. Some days he feels light and airy, other days things just start to pile up one right after another. After having another session with Raphael a couple of days ago, we felt with my Inner Masculine how tired and in fear he has been most of this life. These feelings have been assuaged by lots of problem solving, working, busyness, and information gathering. Sex may have been the one thing that brought any relief, even if that feeling was short-lived.

As we continued to feel with my Inner Masculine, Raphael asked him what would be his ultimate expression if all of those overlording conditions were not present. His response was simply ‘Joy’. Unadulterated joy. That and unending acts of creation and service to others. Joy is a frequency that has been an elusive state of being most of my life. I have felt happy, content, and joyful in moments both short and long-term, but to really have an anchor in a Joy state while still feeling what is real in all moments, seems almost like a pipe dream to him.

What is authentic and genuine Joy as a core place rather than some elusive response based on external conditions? “Your guess is as good as mine!”, he wants to say. Yet there is a very visceral desire and awareness that this state does, in fact, exist. It is being broadcast by my Higher Self and the Divine. So he senses the home frequency, he just hasn’t been able to leave his country of condition to land in his country of origin.

As a tap into my Metasoul around this, as I did on the last SoulFullHeart Free To Be call, I can feel an enslavement consciousness, whereby I can see and feel both the slave holder and the slave. Both are actually held in tyranny. One on the outside and the other from within. The consciousness prevails over both. As the slave holder could feel this, he realized how this energy is a self-fulfilling loop and nobody gets anywhere from it. It is the proverbial self-made prison we create and we are given plenty of evidence that this is alive and well from the outside world.

The masculine has been in such darkness for so long. There is such a passionate desire to break those energetic chains and its punishing consciousness. To raise the sword of our power and cut those chains from within and release the enslavement into enheartenment. Release the Inner Child and the Inner Feminine so they can lead this masculine into the promised land of Joy, Abundance, and Service with Love. That is the daily ‘work’. That is the place where true alchemy can manifest our heaven on earth from within.

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You can still join us for our ongoing six week group call series Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix to New Earth Transition. Our next group call is this Wednesday, April 22nd at 10:00am PDT in which we will discuss navigating relationships during this time, including sharings about the Inner Punisher and meditation to connect to your current relationships and shift to 5D sense of them. You can receive the recordings of any group calls you may have missed and the zoom link to join future ones at any time by open donation. There is more info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Letting In A New World Order Of Love

Two worlds are taking up the same space at the same time. Hell, there are infinite worlds doing that but I feel to keep it simple. These two worlds have an order to them. One is centered on control and fear. The other, on abundance and love. Then there is the space between. The space a lot of us are in right now that can cause quite a bit of a roller coaster feeling.

These New World Orders are not in conflict with each other. They know themselves pretty well. The conflict arises when choosing which one to subscribe to or heal from. When my Inner Protector/Masculine looks out into the external world, he can find lots of evidence that the ‘negative’ Order is in full force ready to take its game to the next level. He is also connected quite intimately to my Reptilian self that has been very much a part of this Archonic world order.

Connecting this morning with these aspects of myself I could feel how hard it is for them to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes. They are getting better. It takes time to turn a ship whose inertia (conditioning) has created a consciousness that lends itself to unworth and fear. The fear, at its core, was not actually about being controlled or a loss of freedom, rather it was a fear of not being able to let in love.

Now that is a new direction! What paves the way to this New World of Love and Abundance is feeling every damn thing that keeps me from letting in this world. It is not waiting for a news conference or an act of Congress, but my own self-empowered, God-given choice to feel! I don’t create New Earth, I LET…IT…IN! It is already here and has always been here. Yet we all have programming and trauma to attend to that are like bricks in the wall between here and there.

This is found by digging in the dirt, not in the news. A part of me may get some sense of hope that the world is changing but if I don’t heal the very thing that co-created this gong show then it will just go right back and then these parts of me will have all the evidence they needed to say “I told you so.”

They need me to show up every damn day. They need a space to express and a space to feel. This removes one more brick in the wall and a clearer picture of what is right in front of me. A kingdom of heaven. One that exists in every single one of us. But it takes work and it takes patient persistence. Feeling can hurt like a mother, but not feeling is its own hell. Having space held is not a weakness, it is a self-loving choice to let go of all the things that keep you free and keep you from Love.

New Earth is here. We just need to claim it by feeling why it’s not.

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: 3D/4D/5D Timelines Playing Out During This Great Awakening

This week, we’ve been digesting the different energies moving throughout the whole Coronavirus/Cabal Collapse situation happening right now. Read the latest edition of the Museletter here.

Featured this week is a piece by Jelelle Awen, who outlines and digests deeply the different timelines happening right now on the 3D, 4D, and 5D levels of consciousness. She offers that it’s important to not dismiss any of them as they are truly all playing out right now:

“In this way, from an ambassador of love perspective, ALL of these timelines are true and happening….being created and energized by those who alchemize them and need to be validated as such. We are always creating our own realities in that way; we are THAT powerful. I felt I would share more about the timelines that I am seeing and feeling are playing out and offer some suggestions of where you might go into them in self discovery exploration beyond gathering information, beyond contentions about who is right and wrong, and beyond stuck places of undigested fear or anxiety either.”

The next group call in the ‘Free To Be’ 6-week series is coming up this Wednesday, April 8th! Enrollment for each of these calls in ongoing and if you can’t make them live or you’ve signed up afterward, you will still receive the recordings to take in whenever you’d like to. These calls are by donation, so you can pay whatever you feel to as an exchange of energy for receiving them and the transmissions they offer.

This week’s topic is: Navigating Practical Transition – exploring the ways in which you can practically help yourself and your parts move into the New Earth energies and lifestyle from the 3D Matrix-based one that they’ve become accustomed to.

You can find out more information about these group calls and how to donate in order to receive them by visiting: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe

We have several new articles and audio blogs for you this week from Raphael and Jelelle Awen and Kalayna Solais. These offerings include energy updates, ways to digest current events including the 444 portal day that just passed and creating the life you most desire from the ashes of the one that is coming apart right now all around and within us. There is also an important offering from Jelelle regarding the picture of being a Divine Love Ambassador to all of the incoming energies and activated timelines playing out.

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Feeling What You REALLY Want And Need During These Turbulent Times

by Raphael Awen

When the rumble of the collective fear of death goes viral through the collective by the aid of a media-hyped and created event, we do well to feel each and every part of us that resonates with that rumble.

Trying instead to stay ‘high-vibe and positive’ invariably proves to be an exercise in denial and lying to oneself and others if we are not willing to be honest about the parts of us that actually are freaked out if they in fact are. You can’t stay high-vibe if you aren’t there already, and you can’t get to high-vibe if you’ve denied yourself a way to feel the parts of you who are low-vibe at the moment.

You were given a range of vibes for a divine creator reason and as a divine creator. That reason becomes very obscured and flattened when you are only permitting one polarity to live in you. What good is a piano with only the high notes?

What this Coronavirus actually is in terms of any real threat and in what scale is something that will only be known in hindsight. What is real is the fear that you feel that is kicked up by the story that is being spread far and wide. Our collective is so long overdue for a collective bowel movement and this one may well be one big dump, one that relieves so much. We’ve all had a hand in creating this need.

Because we are all one in a higher level of reality, we also do well to feel what this collective shift in consciousness is opportuning us to feel personally.

When I feel parts of myself, I feel aspects of me that want the future to be safe and bright and exciting and alive. I feel the parts of me that want purpose and engagement, as well as creature comforts. All of these goodies are threatened by the looming Coronavirus story – asking me to pare down my desires and settle for the story of the goal of survival. I feel the parts of me that aren’t yet assured of a bright and exciting future and wonder if we shouldn’t just settle for an outlook of mitigating disaster rather than full-on thrival.
Now grounded in what’s real in the inside, I get to actually process and create movement inside of myself from fear to love. I couldn’t actually get to the love were it not for the fear as my starting place.

And I also can’t get to the love I’m needing when I’m spending all my time staying up on the agenda of the Dark Illuminati/Cabal/Black Hats versus the Alliance/Q-anon picture of things as a way to distract myself from what’s really going on inside of me to me.

And when I don’t actually get to the love I’m needing and wanting, my vibe is invariably lower, I’m broadcasting that vibe as a reality generator to those around me before I utter a word or take an action. In other words, your and my greatest service to others begins and ends with the greatest service to self. ‘Selfishness’ isn’t a bad word at all in 5D.

Whoever gave us the ‘service to self’ versus ‘service to other’ dichotomy was still living in the reality that there is actually any separation between self and other. This is the old picture of separation of spirit and matter, the separation of good and evil, the battle for supremacy that is being found more and more to be the root of all conflict inside and outside. There isn’t actually a ‘whoever’ to blame here; we gave that picture to ourselves as a way to live our way to and through a movement of our reality.

We are this big, and our lessons are this epic! We get to do this and we get to do it as a collective and as individuals at the same time.

Allow what you really want, feel, and need, without denial, to guide you through these waters.

I’d be delighted to help you through your personal rumbles if what I’m sharing resonates for you. More here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@renebbernal

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The Process Of Healing ‘Sisterhood’ Inside and Out

by Kalayna Solais

Letting in REAL sisterhood… the kind where you aren’t calling each other ‘sister’ because of blood or because somehow spirituality has told you that you ‘should’ in order to honour oneness and acknowledge, even just on the surface, our equality.

Real sisterhood is about calling each other ‘sister’ from the depths of our healing hearts as women. It becomes a declaration of love coming from the sisterhood inside, healing between parts within us who have been against each other for different reasons, and making space for this same frequency and depth of healing to happen between souls we are connected to on the outside.

This is new. This isn’t a process for which the depths of it have really been acknowledged. It’s challenging to look at how deep and often unconscious the competitiveness, comparison, and fear of each other lives and breathes within each of us as women. Simply starting to call each other ‘sister’ only reaches so deep. It so easily becomes a label without a heartbeat and without genuine care about each other.

To care about each other as sisters in soul and heart requires an awful lot of letting ourselves in, of feeling how and why it’s been hard to have deep intimacy with other women both in this life and in other lifetimes too and the karmic binds alive in them. It’s easy enough to let parts of us claim that this is a result of our conditioning and the messages in the media alone… yet, when we bring this inward, we can feel how yes, the outside influences have been there for a very long time, yet where the looping of this conditioning can finally close and heal is on the inside and this is where those lifetimes of persecution and pain can finally heal too.

Since the latest women’s call last weekend and for a few weeks beforehand, I’ve been letting in resonant relationships with other young women around my age who are doing the same SoulFullHeart process work that I’ve been doing for years now. We are taking the space to connect together, sometimes for several hours at a time over video call since we don’t live in the same country at the moment and can’t connect in person. We update each other on our personal processes and feel them together while we also clear anything that needs to be felt and cleared between us, feeling our hearts in the space and the desire to become closer. We feel our soul resonance and soul sisterhood on a deep level wanting to become more of a felt reality between us. This is not something I’ve experienced very often, especially with women my age, and that’s been so painful that parts of me in the past have shut down the desire for it altogether.

This is all an expansion of what I’ve experienced moving in me for years now with Raianna and Jelelle as part of this process too… but to be experiencing this with young women in my actual ‘peer’ group is a whole other thing, not surprisingly!

There are moments of caution that arise in these connections. On my side, I feel where this comes from is how often parts of me have felt ignored or unwanted by other women. The social pain of this continues to be flushed out, as even this morning I felt with a part of me that I’m calling my ‘Inner Sister’, how foreign it feels to really be ‘seen’ in my gifts by women my age and to SEE them in theirs too without feeling jealousy or defensiveness first. There are concerns for this part of me that we are/she is the ‘problem’, always, in every connection that goes sideways or when painful reflections are sometimes offered about how we’ve impacted others when connecting with them. Feeling shame takes over for feeling compassion for where the other person is coming from. This is all so much about intimacy though, and having a deep and real connection with other women needs to just feel strange and foreign and unknown until it becomes the new normal to be in these sort of ‘catalytic’ (not ‘catty’) relationships that get to expand the healing and growth on both sides. And, ultimately, the feelings of shame and being ‘the problem’ live inside of me between parts of me and this is the only place where these reactions and projections can fully heal.

We truly cannot place expectations on other women around us to become ‘sisters’ in a deep way without acknowledging the work that needs to be done within and between each other. This process though is so worth every moment of tension and expansion, because it IS what seeds the ‘reLOVEution’ we’ve been wanting to experience in how we relate to and treat one another, especially as feminine energies who are all here to be in our bigger soul purpose work and Divine Feminine LOVE ambassadorship!

Much love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Following My Soul’s Call To New Geographies!

by Kalayna Solais

For years now, traveling to Europe has been in my heart, ignited by a soul ache for frequencies that feel more like ‘home’. I don’t just mean on the level of feeling like my Metasoul aspects from many different ‘priestess’ lifetimes and the like get to return to their cherished sacred sites and monumental megaliths, but I’m also talking about the powerful galactic connections that live in that part of the world, where the veil between the ‘ancient’ and the ‘NOW’ is very thin.

It’s an indefinite ‘goodbye’ to Canada for now, though I can’t know when/if I’ll feel called to return here. I am leaning into the long-felt call of a nomadic soul journey which actually feels much more organic to who I am and always has!

I’ll be flying to the UK with my beloveds, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, to initiate the journey, but after we land we’ll have one night together and then I’m off to Scotland, a place that has been calling me relentlessly for a long time now! I do have ties in this life there, having the legal birth name “Calder” from my dad’s side where there’s definitely some Scottish heritage passed down, but in my soul, I’ve always felt connected to the energy and beauty of the land and have yet to discover on a higher-dimensional level, WHY I’m so drawn there.

After spending May in Scotland (in the Glasgow/Edinburgh area) I’m not sure what’s next. My Avalonian priestess heart feels the call of Avalon/Glastonbury and always has. My Celtic soul longs for the rich countryside of Ireland and the stunning natural beauty of Wales. My woman’s heart leans towards the feminine energies of South of France. I’m beyond excited to let in that I get to see and BE in these places and all of the European countries I’ve wanted to visit for so long. It’s all unfolding and quickly too!

When I reunited with my beloveds in SoulFullHeart after being separated from them, I didn’t think I would be making this journey so soon. I knew I wanted it, but also that I wanted it to be connected to them and to service somehow. I trust my soul on this one, that there’s going to be deep processes coming up for me in these ‘new’ geographies that I can’t access here, and that this all deepens my level of leadership and service in this world. What I heal within for myself I also heal in order to serve love… that is my deepest intention. And if the service of love IS my biggest desire, then there’s nothing to feel ‘afraid of’ on this journey but a whole lot to keep trusting, with every step that unfolds and every new direction I’m asked to take by the Divine.

Can’t wait to share more about this as it flows and moves me onward and into my Higher Timeline more and more! ❤

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Much love,
Kalayna Solais

Quantum Streams Available For Healing: Magdalene, Reptilian, and Divine Orphan Wounds

By Jelelle Awen

Three energy streams on the higher soul family monad and collective unconscious levels seem to be coming through for healing at the same time during this already VERY catalytic 2020. I am experiencing these myself, moving and processing in and out of them and also in sessions lately.

We can choose which one or ones most resonant for us and are the most timely in the moment. These ‘streams’ are invitations to feel into YOUR personal process related to them….beyond linear time, beyond ‘past lives’, your soul participates in fragment/aspect expressions that are ultimately connected to the bigger whole or your Metasoul/Higher Self. 

One of the energy streams is the healing and revealing of the Magdalene consciousness. For ‘her’ to emerge and arise out of the distortion and suppression by the wounded masculine (as was the agreement on the higher level) and into her powerful expression balanced with feminine stillness, compassion, kindness, and empathy. Magdalene is not just one soul (Mary of Bethany or Magdala) as sacred mate to Yeshua, yet an order of Magdalenes, initiates in the mystical gnostic arts of Isis. I’ll be sharing more about this and offering a guided meditation to connect to your Magdalene lineage soon.

You may be feeling the Magdalene piece coming through in waves of outrage, distrust of the Masculine, and need to express your truth, especially if there has been suppression in your life. Energies in the womb/sacral area can be rumbling, shifting menstrual cycles and hormone levels and in the solar plexus chakra as well. If you have been drawn to the Magdalene-Yeshua timeline and studied it, discovering your soul’s involvement in it can be helpful for the next level of healing and soul gift expression/service here.

The other energy stream is the revelation of the Reptilian ‘twinning’ overlay reality onto ours. They are plugged into their AI, 4D Control Matrix and seem to act as ‘spark plugs’ and bridges for our human projection into the 3D Matrix. We are entwined with our Reptilian Self and our Ascension/liberation is intimately connected to theirs. The next step in this ambassadorship process can be to connect with your Reptilian Self directly, which I offer in guided meditation here: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M 

I’ve mentioned before about head/neck/shoulder pain associated with the Reptilian Self related to possible caps over the crown/third eye chakras. And a plug into their Matrix at the back of the head or Causal Chakra area. You may also be dreaming of Reptilians and having interactions with reptiles in some way. This is the ‘next level’ healing that occurs as you awaken to the reality of the Matrix construct and desire to move beyond the rage, shock, stigma, etc. and into ambassadorship that allows for mutual liberation.

Also, there is the feeling and healing of our Inner Divine Orphan. This is the part of us in our Metasoul that has abandonment pain from separating out from the Divine at the Soul Family Monad level and into individuated consciousness. This part is connected to the original wound feeling of being cast out from Oneness. The downstream expressions of this aspect are the more 3D-based, this-life Inner Child and the 4D Star Seed Child. 

Working with the Inner Child for 15 years, I see and feel now with myself and others this deeper layer…the REASON for the pain, hurt, shyness, shame, and more that expresses as the wounded child in this life and other lifetimes. Our Inner Orphans can receive the homecoming they most need in the arms of the Divine again. I’ll be offering a meditation to connect with the Inner Orphan soon.

There is a texture of PTSD symptoms to our Inner Orphans and feelings of anxiety and being deeply hurt can be quite strong. If this is coming through for you, it will feel like not just connected to this-life circumstances yet something much deeper at the soul level. This seems to be coming up for those who have done deeper levels of Inner Child work.

As you read about these streams, your soul will guide you toward what is most timely for you in this Now. There is an opportunity to make this very personal and to connect/see/feel directly how your soul is involved in these streams. SO much can be transmuted with love during this time of our Ascension and NEEDS to be in order for it to progress and continue. These timeline streams are opening up to us as the veils lift and thin out, revealing our TRUE multidimensional natures.

What you feel and discover on a personal level vibrates out into the collective where we are all ONE. Whether it is responding to your Magdalene timeline, your Reptilian Self or your Inner Orphan, the love you offer and extend carries out into the All to be received!

I am currently writing three books to offer an overview of the quantum healing process and way of life that we offer called SoulFullHeart, these will provide a deeper context and information beyond what can be provided in short postings. Along with more guided meditations/videos and eventually online courses that can open up inner access, I provide support and individual bridging to women in 1:1 sessions and Raphael Awen to men and women. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions 

Much love,

Jelelle Awen 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

 

 

 

 

Feeling Held By Divine Mother During Intense Life Transitions

by Kalayna Solais

As usual, when the world on the outside feels intense and hard to be a part of, I feel the arms of Divine Mother enfolding us all… encouraging every one of us to go back inward and start there before we try and ‘do’ anything on the outside, for if we can come from love (especially of self) and not despair or disdain in our action-taking, we are miles, leaps, infinite bounds ahead of the intensity of collapsing timelines and the pain of what’s burning up still in 3D life and conditioning.

It occurred to me yesterday that often when my own life is shifting, I end up making choices that are somehow rooted in wanting to dismiss what ‘isn’t working’ anymore or to have an energy of disdain or even despair and disappointment leading the charge. I began to feel into this as the way that parts of me have ‘had to’ lead decision making oftentimes in the past. But, what if that doesn’t ‘have to’ be true anymore? What if now I can come from a heart that is FULL of trust and love, understanding that sometimes things don’t work out the way parts of me were picturing they would, but that ultimately my soul is leading something GOOD?

And, what if this is an invitation not only for me but for others too? Because if I’m feeling it for myself, it’s definitely something that is rumbling through the Oneness that connects us all…

I know for myself that making space to go back inward and collect the parts that are feeling upset, distraught, unsure, uneasy, etc, helps to settle the energies, remind them that I am here, that they are supported, that they can trust me and trust the Divine. If I don’t feel like I can hold a candle for easing the distress they might be feeling, then I’m not taking enough space to feel myself and to create that Haven/Heaven they need to lean into inside of me.

This is the template that Divine Mother provides us through absolutely everything we face and walk out. She offers too, much much context to lean into if we can be still long enough to hear and feel Her when things feel overwhelming and hard and when life is in upheaval. Patiently she waits by our side as we pick up the pieces of our breaking hearts. Openheartedly she holds compassionate space for what we are learning to hold space for in ourselves and what we are learning to create with Her, with love, in our outer worlds.

So often, even when I’m in the middle of a deep fog and A LOT of pain is coming up from whatever part/soul aspects I’m working with, I hear her say to me, “You are finding your way…” and even when it feels as if I’m not, I know and trust that I am.

“You are finding your way” can sometimes mean we are fumbling in the dark for a while trying to figure out how to turn on the light. It can sometimes mean stumbling upon ‘roadblocks’ on our way to realizing our desires. I’ve never felt Her say to me that I shouldn’t want what I feel I want. I have only ever felt Her encourage me (and especially my masculine aspect who is used to finding ways to just ‘get it done’) to keep surrendering to the timing and the overall unfolding, but not to dismiss the dream altogether, for the ‘how’ is far less important than the dreams of the heart and the overall journey of the soul that we really cannot help but be on.

Much love to you during these ‘Imbolc’ energies that feel like they are inviting transitions into new timelines, all held by Divine love and support…

Support is here in SoulFullHeart should you feel drawn to a session with Raphael or Jelelle Awen and there are many guided meditations that may help you as well on our Youtube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience.

Love,
Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Healing And Transmuting Trauma With Love

By Jelelle Awen

Trauma is coming up to be felt and healed in this clearing out year of 2020. Trauma creates a dense frequency vibration in our emotional bodies, our physical bodies, and our energy bodies and we ALL have it as a residue from the experience of being in 3D reality. Trauma can be deeply subconscious and hidden by our veil of amnesia. Essentially, trauma cannot ‘come with us’ into the New Earth timeline, personally or collectively. Healing trauma is KEY to our ongoing Ascension process into 5D sacred humanity.

The trauma can seem bigger than you……esp. when you are shaking with it, quaking with it, and ‘fused’ to it in those situations that trigger it. In the moments and memories of trauma acting like magnets to keep parts of you stuck in looping around the same suffering seconds over and over again even as your body ages and time ‘goes on’. With the PTSD symptoms that can seem so overwhelming as they move through.

When it feels like the trauma is bigger than you, then the pain becomes more real than joy. When it feels like the trauma is unhealable, the fear claims more ‘real estate’ and space than love. When it feels like the trauma is unknowable, the confusion overcomes any clarity.

You may doubt your capacity to hold space for the feeling and processing of trauma as you haven’t been templated and shown and supported to do this. 3D consciousness offers the next drug, the next diversion, the next quick fix, the next substitution as an answer to this trauma. Even spirituality can answer healing trauma with methodologies and means that actually just create MORE and NEW trauma.

These fixes then will somehow try to take the place of your SOUL big and HEART big presence that is MOST needed here. These things will try to provide a poor replacement for the richness of SELF love that is MOST required here.

During these moments that caused trauma (from this life and other lifetimes), the parts of you that experienced them felt like they were alone and they BECAME the traumatic experience with no way to digest it, especially your Inner Child and Inner Teenager. As you become a loving, compassionate, non-judgemental presence that can BE with them during these traumatic moments, supported by Divine energies and higher dimensional soul aspects/guides, these parts of you can digest the trauma and move into a new timeline beyond the experience of it.

The ONLY energy that offers true transmutation is love. Anything lesser or denser or coming from a fix it/judgemental place can’t offer the transmutation of trauma that love can. As you become this loving transmutational energy, so are all parts of you and their traumas able to become the LOVE again that they truly are in their essence. This can happen miraculously, in the moment when love is offered to the parts of you of self and soul that most need it….even lifetimes of patterned trauma can transmute to love in one moment. I have seen this happen again and again in just minutes in session after session.

The transmutation of the trauma, the lightening up and healing of it that you experienced from this life and other lifetimes is an essential aspect of your ongoing Ascension and awakening process. As you transmute it into love again, so you are able to raise your vibrational frequency TO love.

1:1 healing sessions available to experience the SoulFullHeart Quantum Healing Process to BEcome the love that is needed to transmute the traumas of self and soul for women with me and for men and women with Raphael. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

This video is Day 30 of my Deepen 33 series from last year, offers more teaching about this and a guided meditation to bring a part of you experiencing trauma into a transmutational love experience with Mother Mary and Yeshua. You can watch it here: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.