Tag: inner work

Lunar Eclipse Supports Feeling Shadow of Polarizations, Invites Unity

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By Kalayna Colibri

Last night while witnessing the moon’s eclipse and feeling it hanging very close to my field, I was struck by a feeling of emerging sisterhood in my life and process, yet also the potential for it worldwide.

Yet… the temptation for many seems to still be that the way to unify is in anger. The way to find our common ground is to get pissed. To rage. To march. To condemn the masculine… in men yet also in each other. This is masculine versus masculine in the end, leaving the world inside and outside of us without any room for the sacred masculine AND feminine to unite and make love.

Pointing fingers, protesting, arguing without care of where and how it lands in each other is a phase of our relationship to each other that wants to move into something new. It’s a deep shadow expression of our fear of actually loving ourselves and each other. It’s a fear that the cycles of pain will continue while we continue to become a cog in the wheel, contributing to this cycle with that same fear. Real intimacy brings up a lot more than anger and push-away. It brings up tears and vulnerability, it brings up what’s underneath the rage and presses the heart to open in order to keep giving and receiving nourishment.

This picture of relationship I’m describing is not idealized or impossible… I get to live this every day, I get to be challenged by the presence of others who want to keep this flow going within themselves and with me, I get to feel and meet the challenge of continuing to move through my resistance to love and to keep letting it in… knowing full well that doing so means walking into fires of personal funeral pyres as the old way of approaching life and others passes away, and also knowing that it means getting to experience the heaven of a deeper and easier love flow than I’ve ever experienced before.

Even last night… sharing intimacy with my mate Gabriel, feeling his admiration of myself, my body, my heart and soul, I felt my admiration for his and let his male gaze into every pore. I felt so many tears come up and out like a fountain, feeling the pain of my soul and heart in relating to the masculine in ways that weren’t nourishing on either side and feeling afraid of it. Feeling the pain of a collective of women and what they’ve experienced and also the pain of the men who have not ever been initiated into how to make real love with a woman and what it feels like to be truly met or felt on their side either.

The more energy that’s spent in blame-game shaming and pushing away at each other, the less opportunities we create for the deep healing and nourishing intimacy that’s possible, that wants to bloom and blossom starting between parts of you that are polarized to each other but who want love more than anything else in this world. Starting to see and feel these dynamics within is the best and most profound way to shift what you draw in your outer relationships and what you start to see is really possible with each of them. ❤️

For support as you go into this territory and really feel how it all applies or could apply to you, my beloveds and I hold sacred session space for these explorations and more: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling In Every Moment Changes Your Life

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By Kalayna Colibri

Sometimes there’s more to feel than there is to ‘do’. Actions born of your deepest feeling spaces are the ones most connected to your heart, parts, and self-care. They happen while you take yourself with you in all ways.

It feels so natural to me now to be in any situation in my life and be feeling my parts or Metasoul aspects while doing so. I love taking them all with me. It doesn’t feel crazy or weird to me anymore and it doesn’t feel overwhelming either. In fact, learning to feel myself in this way has helped so much with the overwhelm I used to feel in my daily life.

If you’re someone who identifies with anxiety or depression or anything like it, imagine a reality where you can feel these things as parts of you that need your love and attention. Imagine being in a social situation and feeling the activation of the social anxiety a part of you has, but not feeling like this anxiety IS you and instead is something you understand and are learning to love deeply. What if this anxiety comes because you’ve needed it, parts of you have needed it, as a reason to pull out of less-than-nourishing relationships, even for a brief time to collect yourself?

Having a deep consciousness and awareness of your emotional reality on a soul and heart level opens up whole new worlds of understanding your reality, why you’ve drawn what you’ve drawn, and how to start shifting it into health, balance, and more love within and outside of you too.

There’s an invitation and opportunity to dig in instead of accept what has always felt to simply be ‘true’ about you… and to give something brand new the chance to be birthed. Life and this ongoing Ascension process do not want the ailments, pain, and difficulty to endure or remain. Yet, it’s up to your sovereign choice whether or not you are ready to face and heal the trauma by feeling it deeply and giving it air and room to become something different.

My beloveds and I offer powerful and affordable space-holding if you’d like support to go into this: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

‘New Lemuria’ Energies Supporting Prep For Disclosure, Ascension Through Emotional Healing, Maturation

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by Kalayna Colibri

The 1/11 gateway yesterday brought us some yummy ‘New Mu’ (New Lemuria) energies to feel and let in, as Jelelle Awen shared in her Day 11 ‘Deepen’ video yesterday: https://youtu.be/ClhBXTl112M

It was a day of feeling higher timeline possibilities and also digestion of what’s been rumbling lately. It was wonderful to feel the frequencies of New Lemuria coming through to support this exploration and the restfulness or restlessness, whichever was most needed to support the digestion, that moved through as well during this time. It feels like we are very organically reaching a new stratum of the overall Ascension process… yet, something important is being illuminated continually right now about our overall emotional maturity and ability to digest Ascension in a healthy, grounded way that also expands us out consciously/spiritually.

To fully embody the new Sacred Human BEings that we are in the process of BEcoming, we have a lot to look at. Fear-based teachings, spiritual and otherwise, that continually plant seeds of more fear and more support of emotional immaturity are still very popular. This is something that needs to run its course, it feels like, and it is. We see this reflected in the way so many still hold and relate to politics, change, ‘authority’ figures (including politicians, gurus, etc), and relationships of all kinds, especially and most importantly relationship to Self and parts of you as well as your soul.

To actually see and feel the immaturity can create punishment-shame spirals for parts of you, but really, this seeing of it is meant to help us ask for help and to discern what it is we most need to support a genuinely higher-vibe way of life and way of relating to life, Ascension, and Disclosure, that doesn’t try to find a work-around but instead is willing to walk into and through the sometimes dense forest within.

Everything we see and feel on a daily basis is connected. The way we choose to relate to or take in anything or anybody is the way we ultimately are choosing to relate to ourselves. I don’t see how we can possibly embrace Disclosure, for example, without feeling the fear of it and even the fear of healing the fear of it… parts of you may be putting out a welcome mat for the ways in which our lives as we know them will be turned upside down, but other parts of you are likely quite afraid of what will happen and even afraid of contact, of being initiated in Galactic Love Ambassadorship (which many of us are being called to do already).

The energy of ‘New Mu’ is here to help us ground into the body, into self-care and love, into a healthy sense of our oneness. It wants to help us move into new places of emotional consciousness and budding maturity that can facilitate our budding spiritual consciousness and maturity.
There’s so much to love and embrace about every nuance of feeling we have moving through and to really choose to feel this through is to step into a new phase of letting in what’s possible for us and the collective we are inextricably part of. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.


Entering ‘2019’: Love Within To Experience Love With Others

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by Kalayna Colibri

For many, 2018 was a ‘year’ of mining. Many discoveries and memories have surfaced, especially those kept in the shadow and buried deep. Life and incoming energy waves have helped it all press up to the surface to actually be felt, help you learn ways to be with it, to honour and love it UP. This process continues, because to put it simply, it’s time to love your pain as much as you love your genuine joy and growing sense of wholeness.

Loving the pain and aches that surface as reactions, anxiety, sadness, etc means moving through it not just getting above it as parts of you are used to having to do in order to keep the peace in current relationships or to keep life on an even keel. It’s becoming harder to do this as your inner realities continue to be shaken up and brought to your attention. All gateways and portals this year have had different pieces to illuminate inside of you, showing you where you’re really at so you can grow and move from there, love yourself there, and eventually learn how to flow with ALL of you, including whatever has been held by the shadow, from there, that starting point.

There are so many parts of you that have wanted your attention but haven’t had a way to directly ask for it until the life circumstances are ripe and your heart is ready to feel them. This means sometimes that the pain you thought you had already healed has revealed a new layer and pain you thought was long-buried is now ready to surface. This can be messy but a sacred process nonetheless and you can trust that it’s surfacing because you’re now ready to hold it and actually move through and heal it, as challenging as this can be… the tears and wails are worth it, and the realness and poignancy it brings to each moment of your life is what brings in more love and more sense of being held and loved by a universe that benevolently wants you to heal, grow, and ascend.

In addition to parts surfacing in different ways, there have been many Metasoul/other timeline/lifetime bleed-throughs that have overlaid your consciousness and brought out other shadow pieces from your soul to be felt too. This has also brought in higher vibe energies too to help guide and template for you what your 5D/Higher Self energizes in your life and soul purpose. This year has been cataclysmic for some and also given many openings. Pain is an opening as much as discovering your truest sense of joy and bliss is.

In 2019, I feel we will all continue to be challenged to deepen our experience of ourselves, to love ourselves much deeper on a soul and heart level. It’s all there to move us to new places and integrate into our 5D/Higher Self. This is how we learn to love each other deeper with mutual reverence and respect, by experiencing this between parts of you first. This is what gives us the chance to overcome and heal the harm that has been done by insisting on fighting, over-lording, overpowering, even with ‘love and light’ as a ‘weapon’. 2019 asks us to keep going inward and find the parts that cannot or will not love or serve love, that have resistance to offering love, likely because they themselves need more love from you and to feel you moving into your highest timeline step by step before they can trust and lean into you. Love is the way. Love is the path. And the path has to start within in order to bring our beloved vision of New Earth into the Now.

At midnight tonight the ‘new year’ officially ‘begins’. The gateway into this new energy we’re calling ‘2019’ and the energies of the gifts and growth it wants to bring each of us is available to let in now as we set our sail and follow our hearts into the new Now that is so beyond just being a dream and wants to become more and more of our everyday reality!

Much love and Happy New Year! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Returning To Divine Mother: A Poem

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By Kalayna Colibri

To truly let Her in… you become the poet and the dancer of heart and the deep journeyer of soul.

To truly let Her in… the sword is dropped as you surrender to the embrace of a love and acceptance you’ve forgotten you were worthy of.

To truly let Her move you… means burning away that which doesn’t align as you surrender to the fire of boundary-setting (with care) and the illumination of that which has been in shadow.

This is what it means to be with the Divine Mother in all of her forms and faces… and to begin to understand that you are part of that too.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

2018 Detox Of 4D Inner Awakenings/Shiftings Moving Through

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By Kalayna Colibri

The detoxification of everything that got stirred up in 2018 is moving up and out right now as December moves along and the season brings in Christ/Magdalene Consciousness frequencies forward to help move it all out and replace it with a balm of love and self-care. So much came to the surface to be noticed and felt this year. It feels like more souls have now moved deeper into 4D consciousness awakenings, feeling the turmoil of it all, learning to go inward as the one place where the energies can actually move and heal and transmute into something NEW. This has been a big deal this year, life facilitating the process of ascending into 4D for those who have been so anchored in 3D in ways even they were unaware of until now. This is the process scratching the surface and then choosing to dig and find the gold that lies within and the oil that has to spring up from the depths too in the process.

4D is a place where all of these awakenings to the cries of the world and the need to express outrage from parts of you and aspects of your soul from other timelines too can take place. It’s a corridor and a birth canal into higher frequencies and you can’t bypass it or transcend it for too long. It’s actually your capacity to go here and BE with the pain coming up and being triggered by world or even local issues, and to BE with the desire for life to be more than a baseline of pain and suffering hovering underneath everything in your life all of the time, that moves you more into 5D timelines and frequencies with less need to go back into lower ones to continue your inner healing and transmutation process.

You aren’t meant to stay in this sometimes very tight-feeling corridor for long. The intention of Ascension is to continue to find and hold the bigger picture and an understanding that what’s being moved through is somehow necessary. This becomes easier to do if you can feel your parts and Metasoul. Ascension means that every single aspect of you, from the downtrodden to the high-vibe, is meant to come with you. The reflections offered throughout this past year have been intense but meaningful and deep, if you have the capacity and desire to courageously and vulnerably take them there. There’s no doubt that this process of taking everything with you is intense and yet it’s also beyond rewarding to feel the other side of the process come to be!

2019 has the potential for more churning on one side of it, but an immense capacity to hold the healing of what has had to come up this last year (or any ‘year’) on another. It holds the opportunity for you to complete suffering loops and painful life and love experiences as you move more into what wants to light you up from inside. How you choose to relate to yourself through everything that has surfaced is how you choose to relate to the ‘year’ ahead and anything else that surfaces too, along with any other opportunities for deeper intimacy in relationships with others, with Star Family, and with yourself and your soul.

Much love! ❤

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My beloveds and I offer powerful and affordable space-holding sessions if you feel drawn to connect deeper with parts and soul aspects in other timelines to help you heal deeply as you enter and move through the year ahead: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Bursting Out Of Your Cocoon: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Dec 3, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

It’s our 100th Museletter this week! WOW!! This is a BIG celebration and it could not have happened without the support of you, the readers and subscribers, who engage with it and take in our writings, videos, and audio blogs every week. We love sharing from our hearts and souls everything that this rumbling and opening out, in service of love to and with you!

This week’s Museletter is launched by Teacher and Facilitator, Jelelle Awen, who offers from her heart an invitation to feel and honour your own process of emerging from a much-needed cocoon that has held you and your parts for so long, even in difficult times as you have navigated your awakenings:

“You have been surrendering to the process of BEing the transforming caterpillar until now. Tucked into the birthing space, sometimes gestating, sometimes thrashing, sometimes searching for a deeper and wider understanding. Sometimes missing your previous forms, shapes, and ways that were in the known. You are becoming more comfortable in the unknown and in the space where Infinite Possibilities pose no obvious limits.“

Jelelle goes on to offer that bursting from your cocoon is necessary as you feel, see, and embrace your higher timeline possibilities as they come forward and call to your now awakening wings: “You are BEing created as you are creating the life and timeline that you most want and desire. The timeline shimmers like a mirage in the distance, yet it comes ever closer with every choice of love.”

There will be a SoulFullHeart retreat taking place February 15-19, 2019 in Victoria, BC, Canada. If you’re interested in coming, please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more information.

Jelelle will be leading another 33-day video series this coming January, similar to her Metamorphosis series from this past year. ‘Deepen’ is a video series featuring daily guided meditations and energy update digestions as well as special guest appearances from SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna and Gabriel, her beloved Sacred Union mate Raphael, and her daughter and SoulFullHeart Facilitant Raianna. Join Jelelle for up to 5 live calls where you are invited to digest your personal process movements and digestions of these videos and their topics for a minimum donation of $11 USD per call. For more info, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

There are a few new writings and audio blogs released this week that feature energy updates and offer ways to feel and let in your highest timeline possibilities and deepening personal healing and Ascension process.

1:1 Galactic Activation Sessions with Jelelle are available for booking. They are a $55 USD minimum donation for 75-90min and will involve checking in with your parts and Metasoul/Galactic Aspects, helping you reunite with your Star Family, activating your Ascension Chakra vortexes, and much more… email soulfullhearts@gmail.com to book. For more information, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/galacticsessions

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Intense Energy Waves Lead To Deeper Healing & Change

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By Kalayna Colibri

Been in more waves of change personally as we finally transition to a house where roots can be planted in nourishing soil… this isn’t coming through without tension also moving through, making room for the new and all possibilities. It feels like a time for this, a time for stepping into your highest timeline, and feeling the reactions and tensions moving along with that. It’s a time where stepping into your highest timeline may not look and feel like the perfect picture in the moment, yet you can so trust the vision as it’s unfolding and hold onto it as more than a wish, but something you are deciding to fully show up for… even as there are steps, sometimes many steps, to realizing it in its entirety.

There’s still density to move and be with, to acknowledge and to challenge within, especially as you continue to be invited into new and deeper perspectives. These new strata of seeing yourself, of feeling your parts and how they’ve moved in and reacted to the world, are landing in your field and waiting to be let in as you sometimes shake with old rage and deep hurt as parts of you live into their pain and in some cases have a very hard time letting in healing. Actually, this shaking and vibrating with old reactions often IS part of the healing and is just as sacred as the feeling of release and relief as you let in new waves of love into dark corners of your being that have so needed it.

These higher perspectives want you to see yourself and your parts in a more profound way, to see where the pain is and why and to feel compassion for how you’ve been in this world up ‘til now. The debris of the old needs to come loose before it can be lovingly swept up. And, the timing of this sometimes chaotic-feeling shake-up process is sacred and soulfully personal to you. You can’t know the exact timing of WHEN it will be more healed, yet you can hold onto a trust that it’s all in process and there IS an other side.

Connecting with your Inner Protector might be timely for you, as this part in particular may be quite stirred up right now. Both Raphael and Jelelle Awen have created powerful guided meditations to help connect you with this precious part of you. You can find them and other beautiful guided meditations on our YouTube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience.

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Waves Inviting NEW Alchemy From Inner Work

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by Kalayna Colibri

So many energy waves coming in recently that are wanting to give us more energy for dreaming, intending, and taking action steps too towards what it is we most want. There’s an invitation into a deeper trust within too. A trust in the goodness that waits on the other side of even some painful processes of having to say “no” to what we don’t want and/or completing with different jobs or relationships that just aren’t aligning with who we are becoming anymore. It’s been about a week or so, it feels like, of harvesting from seeds sown long ago, yet also planting new ones in new soil.

As Gaia’s frequency continues to rise up as reflected in all of these recent spikes in the Schumann resonance and so on, this seems to be laying new ground for us to stand on in many ways! We have NEW opportunities to plant ourselves in that are more in alignment with our soul purpose work and NEW motivation to keep moving on and moving through whatever difficulties are arising. This may even show up as NEW ways to lean into others for support too or to begin offering support to others in a more active and engaged way, whatever that may look like for you. You get to choose the nourishment of co-creation and collaboration with resonant others if it feels like time for you… and you get to wonder why it may not feel like the phase for this for you personally and check in with your parts to see what resistances may be there around it.

This sense of new ground arising is a result of ‘composting’ the ‘old’… dedicating your healing within and shedding layers that no longer feel like you as parts of you let you feel them and move more into health than injury, more into dharma than drama and a healthy integration into your unique expression of wholeness and ‘I’-ness. This has been an intense and churning process often times, just as new compost must be churned and in some cases, burned, in order to integrate into the new soil and add nutrients and life to it. There’s nothing in the multi-verse that can ever disappear, just change state. And so, your pain has the chance to be recycled and added back in as an expression of the renewed you – more alive, more present, more trusting, more genuinely loving, more human, and more spiritual too.

Perhaps it’s time for your new soul soil to be laid and planted in. Energy waves moving through are inviting you to feel what you REALLY want and to be with the process of its manifestation, in all of its ups and downs, challenges and easy flow too. ❤

Much love! ❤

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My beloveds and I would so love to hold space for you if you’re looking for support during these times. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Change Outside Requires Making Room For Change Inside

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by Kalayna Colibri

So, here I am…. having landed less than a week ago on the other side of some big big changes. I feel evidence unfolding now that changing geography or anything on the outside inevitably invites and actually requires you to change on the inside too. To continue letting go and letting in. To continue to feel what’s coming up to be felt as your parts acclimate to your new surroundings and circumstances.

Being back in Canada brings up a lot for me. It reminds me of who I was before I left 4 years ago and reflects to me how much and how deeply I’ve changed, healed, shifted. And, it shows me where the residue still is and what still needs to be moved through. I feel so empowered to keep doing this too. I feel so ready to shake off the old now… old reactions and judgements and fears. Old pieces that no longer really matter or are necessary to hold on to. Having been with so many parts of me over the years who have had such deep conditioning from living in a Western country, and especially in an environment outside of the west, I now get to feel and let in the rewards of new perspectives inside of me and let them be more real than the conditioning ever was. I still feel some pieces lingering, some self-consciousness for example, that is starting to fall away more and more.

I’ve begun connecting with a Lemurian aspect named Luta. She has helped me see and feel already some of the old reactions coming up that are ready to be recycled, moved into something new with the help of the Gaia love and support around me. I feel I am more able to move into the NEW with her help right now and my continuing inner process.

I’ll share more as that all unfolds.

Much love to all of you as we all inhabit and let in new possibilities and deep inner and outer change… and everything that comes with for each of us!

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Jelelle recently created a short guided meditation you can follow along with to feel your own Lemurian aspect(s) and to download some of the incredible codes here in Victoria: https://youtu.be/_yKWe2YtFNc

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.