March Energies Update: EQUInox Offering Unity Consciousness, Sacred Union Within

By Jelelle Awen

Unity Consciousness…so many infuses and downloads, activations, of THIS frequency in the last months and in the last WEEK especially. So much offering of this during this EQUInox passage too, providing the template/picture of balanced masculine and feminine within as expressed on the emotional body level, the physical body level, the chakra level. The experience of sacred union within can be the most embodied form of Unity Consciousness and is so critical to experiencing Unity Consciousness with others.

We have as a Metasoul more experience of Unity Consciousness than separation consciousness. Separation is the experiment; it has been the ‘new’ thing we’ve been trying on. There are gifts to separation that emerge as the polarized frequencies of duality heal inside of us. ‘Conscious duality’ is how I have come to feel it and describe it. I’ve felt many Star BEing/Higher Dimensional Metasoul aspects intrigued and drawn to the ‘separate minds’ reality, as they call it.

Yet, where the pain and suffering comes in is from the separation INside….from one part of you to another with polarized, fear-based, self punishing energies going on. These inner battles are all about being separate as the ONLY reality and the complete fusion to it for parts of you that have HAD to buy that to survive in 3D reality. The wounded masculine Protector and Punisher parts have been so guarded at times, so critical at times, so lacking in trust at times, so unable to breathe and just let GO. The wounded feminine is mostly a mystery, hidden away and protected by the masculine….smothered by ‘ideas’ and ‘conditions’ around what it means to be feminine that are actually MORE masculine in frequency. More about parts and Metasoul Aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Bringing Unity consciousness into your inner world is the healing of these rifts inside. To calm and provide love balm to the heightened polarities and extremes. To become your own Love Ambassador. Your own inner marriage counselor. To support the transformation with love of your inner masculine into its healthy expressions of activation, leadership, guidance, and penetration. To allow for the arising with love of your healthy feminine expressions of stillness, intuitive wisdom, collaboration, and responsivity. These energies can then come into dance with each other, falling in love with each other, and merging together too in a naturally arising way when needed.

This inner balance then flows to ALL relationships in your life and especially in your romantic ones. It brings the mirror of this balanced, Unity Consciousness frequency that you have cultivated within to then experience it and see it during a sacred union bond. Unbalanced and polarized relationships are always a reflection of YOUR inner reality, even as it can be so tempting to just focus on the other, the outside, and the partner rather than on the self.

These EQUInox energies are offering a mirror to FEEL where the divides and chasms are from within and where they are sourced from, rooted in, and anchored to. This so often connects back to the templating and conditioning experienced with your parents and other caregivers. To go there again with open heart to discover what parts of you are feeling and holding around these traumatic scenes (that are not in past, yet still vibrate strongly in the Now) brings so many riches! You transform these energies that are stuck in fear…..with love into love.

New Earth Now is the experience of Unity Consciousness from within and increasingly with others too. New Earth allows for the celebration of unique individuality while inviting us to unify in resonant frequencies of love with each other too!

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This inner exploration process to experience Unity Consciousness within and with others is what we support through our SoulFullHeart process offered through a bridging session with me, facilitation programs offering group sessions and individual sessions, events such as our Unity Meditation on March 22nd that you can read more here: https://www.facebook.com/events/455929834824560/.
Please go here to read ALL of my energy updates about the March energies that I’ve shared in the last week, plus two videos offering an energy update and a guided meditation to integrate and activate these amazing energies! https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-jelelle-awen/energy-updates-with-jelelle-awen/

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This inner exploration process to experience Unity Consciousness within and with others is what we support through our SoulFullHeart process offered through a bridging session with me, facilitation programs offering group sessions and individual sessions, events such as our Unity Meditation on March 22nd that you can read more here: https://www.facebook.com/events/455929834824560/.
Please go here to read ALL of my energy updates about the March energies that I’ve shared in the last week, plus two videos offering an energy update and a guided meditation to integrate and activate these amazing energies! https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-jelelle-awen/energy-updates-with-jelelle-awen/
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Incoming Energies Highlight Shift From Wounded Masculine Awareness To Sacred Masculine Consciousness

by Kalayna Colibri

These waves of March energies coming through are largely from the Sun, which I so feel holds much Divine/Sacred Masculine love and pulses through the world and through us the codes of awakening into the Sacred more and more. Because of the more masculine energy of these waves, they are activating, penetrating, and really pressing on the parts of us that still need to be felt and healed. They are a poultice in this way, bringing out more and more of the wounds in the collective and in the self too and of course one is a reflection of the other in immense ways.

The masculine love coming in now is not “manly”, not out to prove or disprove anything, not intending to override anything or anybody with almighty power and an iron fist of justice, revenge, or retribution. It’s a container, this masculine love. It is an all-encompassing bear hug from the Divine Father… warm, strong and tight, wanting to lift us up from where we’ve been, but only with our full permission and surrender into His arms.

And, we can’t really begin to feel what this Sacred Masculine looks and feels like, unless we can feel what it is NOT… meaning that at the same time as we are letting in these frequencies of Divine Love in masculine form, we are witnessing in ourselves, others and the world around us what the wounded masculine is as it pops up, sometimes full-on oozes up, to be felt. Parts of us are coming up out of the inner woodwork that have been holding this conditioning of what it means to be a human being in 3D reality, which also very often means that they are holding vibrations of the wounded masculine, and this is true for both men and women.

If you’re suddenly seeing the ways in which the wounded masculine shows up in your life and in the collective right now too, you’re being invited to be a witness to the arising of the Sacred Masculine… in all its vulnerability, heart-based leadership, genuine care and kindness, gentlemanly-ness, chivalry, and contention when necessary yet with heart and not prowess. There’s no need for it to be a warrior or a knight, either. It simply IS power and protection, with a willingness to let in and to let go, too, with its own needs in mind and heart as well as the needs of others – without duty or obligation – simply arising love in response to love. To be a witness to this arising is to feel what isn’t this inside of you, whether you are male or female, and to feel the parts of you and sometimes Metasoul Aspects too that have these frequencies. This is not to make them “wrong” or “bad”, yet to begin the process of supporting them to make the changes that they likely already want to make inside of themselves anyway. To courageously become a true vessel for and recipient of this new-feeling energy of love and sacred masculinity (and also sacred femininity, as they are not really mutually exclusive) is to be willing to go inward.

With all of this Sacred Masculine gusto coming in, we’re invited into new alchemy in our lives, to enter into phases of creation in tandem with the Divine spark inside of us. Divine Mother is known for Her invitational energy and this is here now too, intertwined with the ongoing invitation from the Divine Father to continue your heartful toil, your work within, your steps to offering service and love-based work to others. He and She are both here to help, to guide, to support, to empower. To feel their unconditional, infinite love for you is wonderful… to truly let it in and let it bake inside of you, spurring you on to new depths and heights from within you, is a whole other level of awesome, and a whole other stratum of really seeing and feeling who you are in your most precious essence as a son or daughter of the Divine. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Learning To Surf The Equinox New Earth Ascension Energies

Woke up at 1:11 this morning. I felt myself restless. I could feel a part of me wanting to presence itself and another part wanting to just go back to sleep. I get up at 3:30 in the morning to prepare for my online English teaching gig. These are the moments when there are inner conflicts and frustrations. Yet with feeling these divergent parts of me I can take space for them that allows me to honor both and negotiate a bit.

I can feel how these current energies are just that. A current, or flux, of activation. They don’t really take stock of what our 3D conditioning has been. “Don’t you realize I need to be up in two hours?”

“I don’t live in Time. Sorry. Well…not so sorry. Just what IS.”

Just what IS indeed. I did a Practical Ascension video yesterday with my beloved Kalayna and we talked about the mental body and its relationship to ascension. I have been feeling this inside myself along with my inner masculine, both of which are so closely connected. This mental masculine feels a press and a frustration with this ISness. It doesn’t always just “go with the flow”.

By that I mean He doesn’t quite know how to surf these Ascension waves sometimes. When there are things to “do” they can just plain get in the way! But this is what these energies are supposed to help us feel. They are activating something beyond our usual and normal. Turning things downside up and inside out. There is an emotional churning that is invited into a conscious feeling space and it is my responsivity (feels less rigid than “responsibility”) to show up for the popcorning going on inside.

These intense energies are meant to shake something up that is in stasis within us. “Busy-ness as usual” is not the order anymore. It is a time to feel what IS. What is your body needing? What are parts of you feeling even in their polarity…especially in their polarity? What truth is rumbling that needs expression as it is being simultaneously repressed? Ascension energies are not just about feeling good, they are about feeling what is real…and sometimes what is real doesn’t always feel good.

This may be a time of cross grain energetics of 3D, 4D, and 5D. Taking the moment to go in and conduct a heart scan of the emotional and spiritual bodies is the call of the day. The mental masculine is in need of the flowing and circular feminine to help assist in this ongoing Equinox UPshift. Feeling what is occurring beyond the mental veil and in our converging Metasoul timelines can bring more clarity to all that may be rumbling inside. This is done through direct negotiation with what we call the Gatekeeper… the doorman, guard, and guide of the veil.

Learning how to surf may be a precursor to learning how to fly. I feel a gratitude for this at the moment even as the eyes are getting heavy and the alarm goes off in an hour. My parts are feeling okay about it as they felt the context and my heart. I can serve love to young children without feeling frustrated. Now there is a movement that feels significant in its simplicity.

There will be a March Equinox Activation New Earth Unity Meditation with Raphael and Jelelle Awen on March 21st at 2:22pm MT. You can find more info and register at this link:
https://www.facebook.com/events/455929834824560/

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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YOU Are The Event: New Earth Teachings And Activation Guided Meditation (video)

By Jelelle Awen

YOU are the event you’ve been waiting for! In this audio recording of our wonderful live group call from yesterday, we teach and share about the ‘event’ and invite you to feel how you are New Earth Now and the ‘event’ is your ongoing embracement and choice of love, embodiment of your sacred humanity, and what may be going on for parts of you related to peak events such as this.

In this video, I talk about the guidance/transmission I received about the ‘event’ as connected to the ongoing process, plus my deepening connection with Gaia frequencies, tuning into an ascending home frequency as an experience of New Earth Now. Here is the writing that I mention in the video:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/you-are-the-event-youve-be…/

Then, SoulFullHeart co-creator and teacher Raphael shares about his recent profound and beautiful movement of his Gatekeeper aspect ascending to New Earth/5D frequencies as tied to the overall ascension process. You can read more about gatekeepers here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel and Kalayna then both share about the current ascension energies, integration of these energies to activate their highest timeline service of love, and their perspectives on the ‘event.’

At 41 minutes, Raphael and I then lead a guided meditation to connect you with Divine Feminine and Masculine frequencies through Archangel Metatron and Mother Gaia. You receive activations from the current New Earth energies. You connect with Gaia Codes through the sunset, ocean waves, river, and gaze into a still water pool to ‘see’ your highest timeline. YUMMY frequencies!

The touching personal sharings that followed from the group participants have been edited out for privacy reasons.

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about future group calls that you can join live , our SoulFullHeart Ascension Programs, writings, community, and more!

To listen to previously recorded SoulFullHeart Group Calls:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Also, info coming SOON about a FREE March Equinox Activation Unity Meditation Call that we are going to do on March 21st. We’d love for you to join us for THAT!

New Earth NOW!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings athttps://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Going Yin: The Healing Gifts of Our Relationship to the Feminine

Today is International Women’s Day. Now, of course, every day is Women’s Day, and vice versa. It is a reverence that just IS. It resonates and harmonizes with the feminine inside the masculine. It is clear that the 3rd-dimensional matrix upon Earth (I use Gaia for its 5D reference) is that of a patriarchal energy. Why else would there be a day to celebrate women? It feels important to let in what the feminine means for all of us men and to feel where our personal shadow may be in relationship to Her.

Since our “fall” from a more balanced union with the feminine there has been a force within the collective wounded masculine that has sought to dominate the feminine in one form or another. It has shown up in personal/social relationships, religious texts or their interpretations, the need to gain control over nature and consume Her resources. In this, I feel a deep fear of separation. The feminine has had a much stronger connection to Source, possibly due to their ability to give birth. It just understands creation and is a vehicle for that in a much more visceral way. I can feel this existential territory the collective masculine has navigated. In this fear of the unknown and unknowable, of which the feminine is so intimate, it seems likely that this need to control would play itself out. It also feels true that the masculine was more influenced by these darker energies and that this “influence” was coded into the DNA/meme of the masculine blueprint. Again, playing here, but something feels true here. The main point to me feels like, as men who have more of the masculine energies in us, that we are a part of that coding and it has had influence.

To truly ascend into what we are calling our Sacred Humanity we must feel any blocks or denser energies that can anchor us into 3D, or wounded densities. Our relationship with women is psychospiritual and has many gifts even in the shadow. By going inward (I call in going “yin”) and feeling the parts of us that hold more “negative” feelings about women, rooted in our relationship to mother and other important influences, we can begin to see what lurks in the background operating system of our projections. Our mothers/female caregivers hold a huge part of that reflection. What was the dynamic between mother and son and how does it play out in our current relationships and perception of the Divine Feminine? I know it is a bit Freudian but it is extremely important. I don’t feel it can be glossed over in regard to ascension.

The era we find ourselves is requiring us to inhabit a more Feminine frequency. We can not control this thing. It is a surrender to Love Spirit that cannot be contained but seeks a container to move with and through. That is tough knuckles for the wounded masculine energy that wants to control and issue its own parameters. I feel it in my being as the days progress. I am still working with it on some level as the Light is shining more on what needs healing. That is why I am being guided write this. But the gift of going in and feeling our relationship the feminine we are given the gifts and guidance needed to make our way into our more natural expression as a Sacred Masculine Human.

We are blessed with the ability to dance in the unknown and the aliveness that that brings to our present experience of life. We are opened in our hearts to let in more of this exquisite love juice that is lapping up on our shores every second of infinity. We are delivered into union with Her impeccable sensuality and sexuality as a portal to the All That Is that careens this magical energy all up and down our chakras. We see with heart eyes with reverence for all of life in all its bountiful and beautiful expressions both of, and outside, this world. There is an unlimited capacity for imagination and creation that sends beyond the machinations of our limited consciousness. She is the Queen of our King.

Gaia is looking for her Kings of Heart to arise out of the necessary ashes of 3D and embody the truly majestic essence of our being. We need to do our due diligence of feeling all there needs to feel in relation to Her and the Feminine. There is a correlate in women as well, but I will leave that to my feminine counterparts for that discussion. I am exploring this with an open heart and I don’t claim to have any definitive truths. I feel the heart says it all and is willing to feel more. Thank you for taking this in today and a special Love shower to all the women, feminine etheric/galactic BEings, Gaia, and Divine Mother on this day. I am in awe and reverence of YOU.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Moving From Energy Of “Against” Yourself to “With” Yourself

By Jelelle Awen
Energy ‘against’ anything INside of you just continues a cycle of inner torn-ness, self punishment, rejection, loss, confusion, suffering, inadequacy and insecurity, self doubt. Energies that offer for you to be against your ego or against your mind or against your body (sometimes supported even by unfelt self punishment frequencies in spiritual offerings) feed these inner cycles of suffering.

This against energy then draws toxic and unhealthy cycles that play out in life….in abusive relationships, in money struggles, in physical body injuries/struggles/illness, in emotional suffering, in capped spiritual growth. These outside circumstances are a reflection of the inner ‘against-ness’. They are a mirror for you to see and feel how this pattern is happening and where it comes from, where it sources from inside of parts of you.

When you bring love, when you bring ‘with’ energy to ALL aspects of yourself, the ‘against’ frequencies start to heal. They start to soften. They start to rest. They start to draw LOVING energies to your life that show up in nourishing relationships, capacity to be with pain yet not suffer, in a vibrant and healthy body, in financial abundance (whatever that means to you.)

YOU can bring this love as you embody more of your Divine Self that becomes a loving observer and witness and spaceholder to parts of you that are in the dark, in pain, in shadow, in ‘control’ (or want to be) and are stuck in the suffering cycles. You become able to identify, feel, and heal the INNER polarization of your feminine and masculine (for women and men) that draws these stuck relationships.

You become the spaceholder and matchmaker for a beautiful and touching sacred union within that deepens into WITHNESS as it moves out of AGAINSTNESS. As ALL parts of you then start to move out of fear and into love….

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Going Yin: Writing A New Constitution From Within

So much unhealed masculine taking front stage in the collective. Maybe no more or less than in the past. It is just becoming so obvious in all the geopolitical rhetoric and turmoil. The Right vs. The Wrong. The Ahead vs. The Left Behind. The Truth vs. The Fake. It is wreaking its own havoc in the emotional and spiritual bodies of all that participate. I used to be so deeply involved in the daily mill of the Info Wars. I used to listen to talk radio programs that would send out a barrage of rage and abomination. I would end my days in my own swirl of undigested fear and anger.

This could have only happened because it reflected something in me. I was attracted to the war which parts of me were waging inside. In my disgust of all things political, there was the same disgust going on in me. This was one of the single biggest awakenings for me in my journey.

I needed to meet my inner Bully Pulpit led by the Majority Whip known as my Inner Punisher. They all existed in me…and if you feel a rage against the machine, they exist in you as well. This is an ongoing process of feeling your own personal shadow that leads to a shift in the inner workings of your emotive governance. Pulling out of the din of the 24 news cycle was a much needed Motion that allowed me to feel the reality of this landing in my consciousness and heart.

I write this as the wounded masculine finds Itself a prime candidate in a presidential role. For this is actually a gift. We get to stare right in the face of what is left unhealed in our collective heart. This is exemplified not just in the U.S., but in many countries around the world. It is a spiritual thermometer, and we have a fever.  

As those on the leading edge of a Great Shift, we have an opportunity to help heal this one by taking responsibility for our own healing. Our own rewriting of an Inner Constitution that raises the bar on what it means to have power WITH and not OVER. These power struggles all occur on the inside first. They are tender and delicate in their root. They are an abused and neglected child. A son or daughter in desperate need for a father who could love them and initiate them into a world of integrity and vulnerability. This rewrites HIStory and merges with HERstory.

Going Yin is as much a political movement as it is a spiritual journey.  It invites all of us to feel our own roles, our own misappropriations, as well as a compassion for ourselves and others. It invites us to heal ourselves out of the old and into something not new, just forgotten. We have access to our own Higher Council that lives on a completely different ground yet the same floor. I choose to be a part of this new masculine reLOVEution in the spirit of what it means to be kings of a sacred humanity.  I hope you will join me.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Gaia’s Energies Calling For Geography Shifts To Reflect Your Inner Transformations

By Jelelle Awen

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Gaia is broadcasting BEacons out at all times. Gaia is a grounded frequency of Divine Mother that is just in our DNA and in our cells, easily activated because we are so naturally tuned into Her as our ‘home’ bandwidth. The tones and frequencies of these broadcasts land in your heart and soul at the right time of Divine Align for you as navigated by your Higher Self. In this current phase of Divine Feminine energy upgrades, Gaia is one of the MAIN ways that these are being delivered to us…along with moon activations.

As Gaia’s planetary consciousness ascends truly out of 3D and into 4D and beyond, Her energy lines or ‘ley’ lines vibrate higher…..just like our chakras and energy centers do too. She unanchors from the lower frequency grids connected to our collective consciousness and into the crystalline grids. Where She before has been hostess to our 3D experiment together, She is now shifting her home playing field to a higher frequency.

There is a deep invitation from Gaia to us to come WITH Her. It is not that she is ‘shaking us off like fleas’ as others have offered, yet, rather, She invites those souls who are in readiness and alignment to ascend with Her. She is not against us…..if you have experienced the sense of being deeply held by nature (especially during deep emotional movements), then you recognize this sense of Her complete support for your awakening into your Higher Heart. The ‘damage’ and abuses to Her from so much 3D density expression from humanity’s shadow are forgiven already……and were ultimately Her choice to experience as well. Now, we are being invited to rise above this abusive and polarized frequency that comes from INSIDE ourselves, so that we can then treat Gaia too with the respect and reverence that She deserves.

Her forgiveness is expressed in the offering of connection to Her geographies that most serve us as we show the way and lead the ascension process for ourselves, firstly. We are invited to ask ourselves: which geographies most support my soul growth? Which geographies are a reflection of my Higher Self coming into my body? Which geographies allow me to truly SERVE LOVE as my highest purpose here?

As you tune into these questions, the answers may surprise you. The answers may come in dreams, in synchronicities, during meditations, through connections with sacred union romance and soul family. The answers come, ultimately, in LOVE….meaning, LOVE is the very best reason there is for changing your geography. If you are falling in love with someone and it feels like a sacred union and they currently live far away from where you do…..love may be asking you to move to be with them to serve the love between you and for yourself. If you are drawn to a particular soul family community or spiritual group and their geography is different from yours, love may be asking you to eventually move to be near them to receive the huge GIFTS that come from being near and in a resonant community. If you have repeatedly been drawn to vacation to a particular place for many years, love may be inviting you to live there as your daily reality now that you have acclimated to its higher frequencies through visits.

It can be an interesting exploration to feel into WHY you are in the current geography that you are in. Is it tied to previous connections to birth family or 3D based relationships that you are no longer as drawn to? Is it about convenience, safety, and remaining in comfort zones? Is your Inner Protector wanting to keep you ‘safe’ in a lower frequency geography to limit your awakening process because they are concerned about the next places that you might open up to and remember and inhabit? Are parts of you tied into 3D ideas of mortgages, and ‘set’ geographies out of fear? Is remaining in your current geography keeping you in a romantic relationship that no longer resonates with your heart and soul and vice versa? What does your current geography REFLECT about you and parts of you?

Sometimes people feel that they are guardians over a particular piece of land, to serve Gaia, and decide to stay there even if they are consciously unhappy there. This can feel and be a form of self sacrifice that is actually unnecessary on another level. Gaia has offered to me that She is JUST FINE….meaning, She doesn’t need us to anchor anything at all for Her sake. If we choose to connect to particular geographies and grids that is about us and our process (such as exploring the questions I raised above) rather than about serving Her.

In our SoulFullHeart Community, we are being called to relocate from Mexico to the Glastonbury, U.K. area in the next six months. We’ve been connecting with Avalon as a fourth dimensional timeline for a few years, so the heart chakra energy of the Tor and other spaces is very familiar and comforting. I write about the shamanic visits that I engaged with to Avalon in my book, Keep Waking Up! soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books. Europe as a whole calls us to explore, to experience geographies that trigger Metasoul/other lifetime timelines, to feel and to heal with Gaia as the loving catalyst for it, to offer retreats and seminars serving love through SoulFullHeart there. It feels like the money, means, sorting out details will find its way as our desires for this shift bake inside us as a group……creating a group merkabah fueled by love and desire that allows us to ‘travel’ there.

Our external geographies are a reflection of our internal landscapes. As our inner shifts so, then, will our outer. This may lead to an even more nomadic life phase that is about being ‘called’ to certain places for your own healing process that allows you to serve more love…..and then moving on to the next. Being drawn to spaces that bring out your service of love self and support your energetic growth. Being around other souls in community that resonate with you too. Being on landscapes, inside and out, that reflect the love that you ARE.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Re-Discovering And Loving The Buried Parts Within

by Kalayna Colibri

Many years ago… I could not have told you that ‘becoming more feminine’ was my goal or intention. I grew up with an older sister who rebelled against femininity and wanted to be like her. I wanted to be friends with the guys that weren’t attracted to me, so at least I could have some way to be close to them regardless, to experience a connection with the opposite gender. I say ‘I’ here because before I was aware that I had ‘parts’ of me running the show of my life, ‘I’ was all ‘I’ had as a reference point for the dramas and desires and pain.

When I was very little, however, I wanted only to wear dresses. I liked big frilly ones with flowers. I liked my pretty shoes and white tights. I especially loved going to ballet class as a 5-year-old and being able to wear the pink skirt that represented my level over top of my leotard. I loved being called a ‘lady’ and would have fantasies about being in ‘princess training’. This was all before messaging of ‘being a girl means you’re weak’ or ‘incapable’ started to leak in and take over. This was before parts of me started to form as a casing, an ever-hardening shell over my natural sensitivity and blooming pre-womanhood. The dresses got put away. The tights could no longer be worn without holes being made in them almost immediately – a symbol, I’m realizing, of my young torn-ness between gender expressions. Skirts didn’t fit or feel right either, and I felt very self-conscious in them. Something was shifting out of wanting to be a girl to wanting to be related to, to be made friends with, to be able to somehow find comfortability in any social situation even if that meant being more like a ‘boy’ in some ways. I stopped feeling ‘pretty’ when I was quite young and thus I stopped trying to be, at least until high school.

I remember all of this in this very moment, especially as I feel a part of me that is my Inner Masculine. I feel how this is a story from him about how he came to be and how he began to form as an Inner Patriarch, coaching and teaching my other parts how to become more masculine in order to survive if not thrive in this world of 3D. I feel the tears of my suppressed, albeit quite young aspect of my Inner Feminine, who it feels like has some pain coming up in response to this… these feelings of being ‘girly’, which was more in my true nature, being deemed ‘not good enough’ so early in my life.

I share this story today because it feels like the story that belongs to so many of us… a story of genuine self-expression, of authentic sensitivity. Unless and until we can begin to feel the parts of us that have (had to) come up in response to life and more often than not, bury or try to dismiss what is actually TRUE about us, it doesn’t really feel possible to feel the layers here and to get to exactly what has been buried for so many ‘years’.

I feel like this extends far beyond authentic gender expression, so much as just what is authentically in our hearts. I feel the richness of a genuine experience of what the sacred masculine and feminine ARE, that can only really be experienced from within, not from other people’s ideas of what it is or is not… in either case when it comes to the masculine and the feminine, we are having to re-learn so much and deeply feel much more.

We have the courage to venture deeper into our own healing, ever-discovering more and more of what has been suppressed within our most inner caverns of what has always wanted to show us the most authentic us we have been waiting and working to BE… and it’s up to us when and if we are ready to lead him/her/them out of the shadows and into the light where they can breathe and play and be themselves again… and this time, without anyone telling them they have to stop being who and what they truly are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Process Reveals Hollywood’s Shadow, The Pain, And The Potential Healing

 By Jelelle Awen
I didn’t watch the Oscar’s last night as I don’t have television and haven’t for many years. I was tracking it though as these kinds of events are a good marker and sign of how the ongoing disclosure and Ascension process is playing out in mainstream consciousness. I’m not sure if Hollywood is really ‘mainstream’ though as it feels more like 4D….in a ‘bubble’ of pretended realities, alternative dimensions made up by the imagination/third eye, isolated and insular with wealth and influence that most of us can only imagine. It has felt like a castle up on a hill shrouded in glittery clouds that us ‘common people’ get to go visit on ‘special’ occasions when the King and Queen allow.
Part of me used to track celebrity gossip, relationships, behind the scenes dynamics for many years. I feel it was a replacement for a sense of lacking glamour in my own life. It was a way to project onto ‘celebrities’ all the ways that parts of me felt ordinary, boring, and my daily life to be unglamorous. It was also an anchor to a lower 4D reality that I was increasingly moving out of. I also have always had a very rich imagination and third eye capacities to create scenarios and communicate with spirit guides and Higher Selves, so I would project scenes and play them out in my bedroom during my childhood….just as I feel actors do too.
Actors may mostly be pre-awakening, and yet, too, they are not exactly anchored to 3D reality in so many ways. Their acted-out scenes probably feel more ‘real’ to them than everyday reality. Their characters represent parts of themselves that may be in shadow or more suppressed. They bring in and channel Metasoul frequencies from other timelines to play the archetypal roles of the King, Queen, and Warrior. I think parts of me could relate with this torn-ness, sensitivity, and desire to transcend the ordinary. I could relate to these feelings that what is imagined is more REAL than what is presented as reality….and it seems many people can too.
3D is ultimately dissatisfying to the soul. It is MEANT to be, as a temporary experimental consciousness that we are ‘trying on’ for awhile to see how it fits us. For those of us awakening out of it, 3D reality has never been ‘enough’ and we’ve found ways to compensate for that…sometimes in ways that are healthy for us and many times in ways that may not be. Hollywood feels to me like a big compensation for 3D……a lower 4D reality with its own play outs of heavens and hells. Its own versions of Dark Nights and Awakenings. Not just on the big screens either, yet, now, dramas and traumas in the back rooms and the boardrooms and the ‘casting couches.’
The aura of Hollywood glamour and seeming ‘untouchability’ has been permanently pierced with the Metoo and Time’s Up movements. The emotional immaturity and polarization between the masculine and feminine (that exist in our collective consciousness and within each of us) is revealing the underbelly of itself in increasingly bright lights. The veil is lifting to show the inner monsters that need our love and forgiveness. The spotlight is shifting to illuminate the pain that can no longer be ignored. And even those who have been more pretenders than authentic are HAVING to get more real as outrage replaces complacency; honesty replaces politeness; uniqueness replaces conforming; feeling replaces suppression.
Some actors (such as in the photo) are now becoming more ‘famous’ for what they are willing to be vulnerable and honest about in their real life experiences than what they have portrayed on screen. That THIS is becoming more interesting and touching to more people is a good sign of our collective ache to FEEL. This is a phase of outrage and anger, yet, eventually, it feels like it will move inward to compassion and forgiveness of the wounded masculine that abuses, punishes, and manipulates inside of us and therefore expresses on the outside.
What is shaking up in Hollywood feels to me as a sign of the ongoing Ascension process. It may not be as obvious as what is transforming in your inner and outer worlds as a soul who is in a further along phase. Yet, it still shows that ALL of us are being impacted by these influxes of love and light energies….even those seemingly so removed from it all in their isolated and seemingly more superficial worlds. ALL of us are being invited to be real, to feel, and to heal with love available to support the personal and the collective disclosures that are necessary to move into the NEW.
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.