Category: Sacred Union (With Self, Other And The Divine)

Feeling The Existential Part Of You To Heal Beyond Medication

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I felt to share a response I gave to someone around the use of medication to alleviate deep depression and even thoughts of suicide. There is a lot that has been done to help many with this crippling and tragic dynamic inside, yet it is a way to get on rather than truly go IN and get to the deep roots of this very existential situation. I honor what medication has meant to those that have needed it, I had my own. If the desire is there to be curious and courageous then that is the first step in living a life of authentic feeling and joy:

“You are tapping into some deep existential territory. In my personal opinion, psychology has a hard time grappling with this existential quandary, so drugs are prescribed as a runaround. I don’t feel it as evil per se, just the only way to provide relief and a sense of control. But ultimately we need to reconcile this within ourselves so that we can feel what is the root in our souls around this.

The particular story is different for everyone, and we all have our own bone to pick with God. A fear, a rejection, persecution, abandonment, etc. We are to feel what our relationship is to this feeling if we want to ‘get back to God’, so to speak. If we truly believe or even want to believe that God is Love and that It/He/She exists in all things and has never abandoned us, then there is a story there. A reason for this feeling of being tried, tested, or played with. It is up to us to ask the questions, hold the space, and go into the murky territory that is this sacredly difficult place.

I believe that true awakening is a challenge but not one that we are in alone or outside of God’s Love. I feel this burden of proof from God needed by a part of you. Feeling our Higher Self and tapping into its own knowingness is what can bring us the much-needed space to go into this journey if we are willing and ready.”

Gabriel Heartman
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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Our First ‘Year’: Celebrating A Year Of Sacred Union Romance

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By Kalayna Colibri

I wrote this poem last year, as Gabriel Heartman and I began to revisit the romantic love we once had for and with each other…

It (re)started one year ago. We were sitting on Jelelle and Raphael’s sofa on opposite ends. I don’t remember exactly what we were talking about but then Jelelle looked at us both and said, “why don’t you two explore together?” We knew what she meant and as we let this invitation sink in, I couldn’t help but feel myself trying to suppress a grin.

Since this day, Gabriel and I have been in sacred exploration of sacred union. We have experienced quite a bit together in this past year, both within us as individuals and within our ‘Us-ness’ – the bond that forms between two lovers in sacred union commitment. Neither of us are the same as when we began to dive into this a year ago. Neither of us can know just how much more we are both about to change deeper still…

I love this man… so much so that it’s hard to be away from him. In some moments I have to check in and see if this is a codependency between us, and yet, lately, the missing has been sweeter and deeper, not one of a longing or ache for fulfillment that can only come when the other is around. This is what it would have felt like for me in the past. But no, not so much now. Now it’s more of a missing of his entire being. Of everything that makes him him and makes me me in dance and contrast to him. Of the deep bond we have cultivated together since our first meeting back in 2012, while going in and out of relationship both romantic and otherwise.

Gabriel… I love you, appreciate you, and can’t wait to see where our path together brings us now, both in ourselves and in our shared life. Sometimes I can’t believe I get to be with you. And then, when I do let it in, I feel myself breathing with hot desire and cool passion, both…

Happy Anniversary, beloved. ❤️🔥

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With ease we love.

As love we breathe.

In each moment with you
with us…
a place of golden hues
and sinews of silky love tones
uniting our hearts, souls
and bodies too…

Years, lifetimes
and no time
bring poignant everythings
and love flow
like crashing waves upon a hungry shore.

In you I see me and the mateship within
With you I feel us and the starships of all
and in constancy the ceiling above
continues its upward flight
on cotton clouds of whispered rememberances
and newly arising constellations.

May we love until the stars fall backward
into laps of ancient gods unknown.

And our inward glances
bring new tidings
of a love that is meant for all!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Hearth Of My Opening Heart: A Poem

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by Kalayna Colibri

c: September 2016

Tremors move from your heart space to mine.
An overflow. A love place.
A warm hut with a burning fire.
I seek to understand what I cannot yet,
what I may not ever,
what I may know in spite of myself.
There is a garden behind the heart door.
A secret wooden manifestation of many years of collapsing memories and ever-arising lessons.
Love waits for me there,
with more surprises,
with tourniquets,
with salves,
with the ointment of new life and renewal of my essence’s light.

As the door creaks open wide,
I feel the dust fall from my shoulders, into my healing palms Where I can see it.
Where I can feel it.
Where I can touch its textures and hold it close
As it cries full tears of rippling red shadow pulses and black and blue figures dusty in their own rite
Peeling off the once invisible armors they treasured for so long.

Disarmed yet newly anchored in the safety of my own now opening heart
I rest amongst the silk cushions and wait by the roar of the fireplace
Until you come knocking.

After filling your pockets with your own dusty past and present
And rimming your heart with the sugar-coated candy of a caramel-filled chocolate,
Bringing your sticky-sweetness out to be tasted,
I will meet you here, my love.

In brightness and darkness, with sweets and savories I will wait.
I will work.
I will pry my heart open first for me,
Then for you,
And together we will find the fumbling and not-knowing
To be the greatest fun we ever had
And the biggest challenge we have ever faced,
And the greatest dragon we have ever owned on our own, Together, and with the Divine.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

From Living Room To Loving Room: Celebrating Sacred Group Process Space, Community Shifts And Changes

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By Kalayna Colibri

At first glance, our living room is a mess, yeah? Well, if you could vibe yourself here to be in this room right now, the mess wouldn’t matter… this is the best room in Gabriel and I’s house right now. The warmth as I sit here and digest what moved between Gabriel and I as well as within us individually and within the hearts and souls of my other beloveds in this space today, I feel the warmth of the love container that held us all… the love energies coming from our hearts to our parts, our hearts to each other and each other’s parts. It’s a powerful energy to be in and around and not one that comes without cost, without constant and consistent choice, without courage and a deep trust within that love is carrying us to our next layers within and within relationship to each other too.

This was one of our last group healing spaces together before Jelelle, Raphael and Raianna go back to Canada, where we all came from 4 years ago, nearly to the day. It was a beautiful weekend of connection and process. It was a time of bittersweet celebration and abundance of love… digestions of our journey together so far and how much we are going to miss each other too.

We are choosing this next phase of separation so that Gabriel and I can build our kingdom together as a Sacred Union couple, an arising King and Queen. Jelelle and Raphael have their next phase of leadership too, moving on from this geography to be in a new phase of grist for their own processes and also to continue expanding our community. Raianna will be making connections of her own back in Canada too. In all cases, the intention holding all of it and all of us is to serve love… to ourselves, between each other, and with others. We ultimately want more of YOU to be able to access and experience what we experience together… the gifts and growth crucibles of soul family connections and the catalytic nature of this work.

So, a messy living room to some… but a warm LOVING room to me. And you’re all invited to take part in your next steps, feeling how they may even connect you more to us in the ways you’re ready for.

Follow along on all our Facebook feeds, our website (soulfullheartwayoflife.com) our blog (soulfullheartblog.com), our YouTube (SoulFullHeart Experience), and/or sign up for our free weekly Museletter on our website.

I wish you much love… from my heart to yours. ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

When Man Loves Woman: A Tribute To Sacred Romance and Union

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This is in tribute to my beloved Kalayna Colibri  on her birthday. We have shared so many together since we met 6 years ago but this is our first in romance. I wanted to honor her for all she represents to me and thus the male collective. We have been through much together and I have had my share of process around letting in a conscious and sacred romance. This is the real deal and that brings with it challenges and immense joy.

When a man loves a woman he sees Her as She is
The beauty, the pain, the innocence, the queen, the shadow
He claims her for who she is in the moment
Knowing that She is always seeking and striving for Her More

He works within himself to heal the projections
That may be placed upon Her as a reflection of His own mirror
The places that He can’t see without Her
The ones She agreed to hold as part of The Deepening, The Clearing

This woman does not come by often
She can be an epic storm
That rearranges the locks on the Heart Doors
And she is the one that has held the Key

He is not obliged to her nor entitled
Yet He climbs the trellis, scales the walls
He rides his white horse to meet Her on her own
And they ride together, heart by heart, soul to soul

She engages His bigness as He does Hers
She opens the portals and He takes the wheel
She requires the one thing that may be the hardest thing to give
His vulnerability

She is there when the journey, the healing
Become too much for His protected parts to bear
He may get lost in the doing and the creating
But He wants Her to know that She is always the beacon back to Himself

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling The Inner Masculine Q&A & Guided Meditation (Live Stream Video Recording)

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SoulFullHeart Co-Founder, Facilitator, Teacher, and WayShower, Kalayna Colibri, held a live stream on June 5th, 2018 to share about her personal process with feeling her Inner Masculine parts and invite you to begin feeling your own, as a man or a woman. She also leads a short guided meditation to meet your Inner Masculine in whatever form or energy he is ready to be seen by you in, and answers some questions about the process of feeling your Inner Masculine.

This process is one of feeling the different ways in which your conditioning from the predominantly patriarchal culture you’ve grown up in has expressed in your life, often in strong suppression of your Inner Feminine, whether you are a man or a woman. This means suppression of your emotionality, of emotions being OK, of flowing with life without needing to try and control outcomes or only a very linear sense of how life should be or should go. The Inner Masculine expresses in the form of many different parts of you, including typically the Inner Protector, especially as a first pathway into this aspect of your being. The Inner Masculine is meant to be negotiated with though, not overridden or ‘fought’ with. There is plenty of need inside of you for the Masculine, especially in an inner Sacred Union experience with your Feminine.

For more on the Inner Masculine, parts, and Metasoul Aspects too, we have much writing on this blog! You can also visit this page on the SoulFullHeart website: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Our Love-Style: A Sacred Union Poem

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By Kalayna Colibri

Love… this love we’ve found together, we already are.

These movements we inhabit together,
inside our USness
and inside our ISness,
are ones that bring along
new surprises and prizes.

Beloveds we are,
remembering we have been,
and in this next Now moment,
we find the bond over again
in a deeper sea than before…

The quake and shake
of our Sacred Union dance together
is a treasure to hold and behold
and an opening-out
of our brightest timeline possibilities…
starting, always, within…
flowing together
in a style all our own.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: The Magical Portal Of Your Own Darkness

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week’s Museletter features an article by SoulFullHeart co-creator, teacher, and Facilitator, Raphael Awen. He invites you to get curious about your more ‘negative’ emotional spaces and the tension between what you want and what you have right now. He offers that feeling and embracing all of this is the journey to the more whole and healthy-feeling you that you long to become:

“This tug-of-war polarity and tension between what you desire and what you actually experience is the pathway into navigating between the two in the direction you want to go. You are like this anti-gravitic travel device in this way.

You wouldn’t even be able to feel tension, were it not for rest. You couldn’t feel love were it not for fear. You couldn’t feel trust were it not for anxiety. One is needed to give reality to the other.”

Our latest and last (for now at least!) Unity Meditation virtual gathering took place this past week and you can find the recording of the teachings and meditation in this Museletter. The guided meditation offers you a sense of your inner masculine and feminine frequencies and the relationship they have to each other. This helps to illuminate for you the patterns you’ve been experiencing in your relationships.

Last weekend, Jelelle Awen held a live stream on Facebook where she offered another Energy Update experience. You’ll find the recording of this live stream, including the guided meditation she led is also featured this week, in addition to another video where Jelelle shares her experience of drawing and being IN a Sacred Union relationship with a soul mate. She talks about the inner work involved, especially with feeling and growing the Sacred Union within that then gets to be reflected in relationship to another person.

Kalayna Colibri and Raianna Shai have offered another episode of Millennial Digest, this time digesting the relationship between Millennials and 3D reality. They share about their personal experiences with 3D growing up as well as their heart and soul-felt observations of the patterns that appear in the lives of these “young” Sacred Humans arising.

Many beautiful writings and recordings from Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman are available for you to take in, including several new energy updates and digestions from different areas of life and different aspects of the ongoing Ascension process.

Kalayna, Gabriel, Raphael, and Jelelle all offer 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. They are available for $55 min. donation per session and more information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

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Sacred Stories W/Raphael & Jelelle On The Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show (Audio Recording)

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by Jelelle Awen

This is the recording of a wonderful interview that we did last week on the Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show with resonant host Crystalline Diamondloveheart. It is almost TWO HOURS of interesting conversation sharing our stories. We talk about coming together in sacred romance as well as how we moved from 3D money earning, to giving it all up to live on an off-grid ranch to reset our relationship to abundance and gratitude for is truly the most important…the inner journey to self-love and deepening union with each other. We also connect the gifts and wisdoms they gained from challenges in their lives to the parts work process that allowed them to navigate them.

This provides a great INTRO to us, our journeys, and our SoulFullHeart work. We also have a special offer discount package on a session, my books, etc. that you can read more about here: http://www.theenlightenedloveheartandsoulshow.com/jelelle-…/

Go here to register to receive and be involved live in all future Enlightened LoveHeart & Soul shows: http://www.theenlightenedloveheartandsoulshow.com/

 

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Raphael & Jelelle On The Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show: Recording

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by Jelelle Awen

This is the recording of a wonderful interview that we did last week on the Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show with resonant host Crystalline Diamondloveheart. It is 90 minutes of interesting conversation about embracing rather than resisting your shadow aspects and difficult emotions. We talk about how in spirituality the shadow can be bypassed or try to be ‘cleared’ or seen as ‘negative’ and the gifts of embracing yours through conscious parts work process.

This provides a great INTRO to us, our journeys, and our SoulFullHeart work. I also lead a guided meditation to meet the Protector part of you at close to an hour into the call. We also have a special offer discount package on a session, my books, etc. that you can read more about here: http://www.theenlightenedloveheartandsoulshow.com/jelelle-…/

INjoy and we’ll be appearing on the show again this Thursday, April 26th at 8:00pm BST to share some more of our sacred journey and stories together as a couple on an awakening path. More details coming soon about that and how you can either join us live or to listen to the recording afterwards.

One listener said this about the show on YouTube: “So glad you posted your interview with Crystalline. I was on the live call & the energy you and Raphael brought was out of this world. I’m looking forward to hearing it again. And your meditation was magnificent. So glad your teachings are spreading, the planet is lucky to have you both.”

Go here to register to receive and be involved live in all future Enlightened LoveHeart & Soul shows: http://www.theenlightenedloveheartandsoulshow.com/

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.