In the course of living into the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, we have felt that there are certain areas of our personal and practical lives that can be compartmentalized, or not brought into alignment with our highest timeline. These areas are ways that we can assess where you may be feeling some frustrations and desires for more. Each area has its own unique dynamic depending on the conditioning and wounding that is associated with it. Each area is looked at through a 3D, 4D, 5D lens.
Where one tends to have the most anchoring in 3D is where we would want to feel the part that is holding on, which is usually well-guarded by what we call the Inner Protector. To fully embody and experience our higher 5D energy and frequency, healing and letting go of these anchors is a vital part of the ascsension process in our personal experiences and of those that we serve.
SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman are offering a brand new SoulFullHeart vlog series based on the 7 Key Areas Of Life related to your own personal Ascension process! We will be talking about the ways in which Ascension expresses in each area as you continue your healing inside, as well as how you can work with your parts and Metasoul Aspects through the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life healing path and process with regard to each one.
Join us on our Youtube channel or here on Facebook! Have a conversation with us, ask questions, etc. We would love to engage with you along the way, in whatever way fits for you and your parts at this time. You can comment on the blog or on our You Tube channel, as well as send us an email to soulfullhearts@gmail.com. This will be an ongoing series over the course of the next couple of months.
Here is our first video in the series introducing the 7 Key areas and what they mean to us in relationship to what we call Practical Ascension. This new day of a new year felt like a great day to embark on this journey with you. We look forward to an open-hearted connection with you around this very personal process.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual menβs and womenβs facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β
Here’s an introduction video to my Metamorphosis – 33 Days Video Series which I will post every day starting Monday, January 1st until February 2nd. I share in this video the inspiration for the series (which came only a couple of days ago although I could feel something brewing!) and also my INtention for it as well, what I will cover, places I will go, etc. I will be posting these videos here on this blog every day for you to take in, comment on, and share. They will also be posted on my Facebook page and on the SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel.
I can feel the metamorphosis being offered ME too in showing up for this every day….to share, to serve, to grow, to teach, to learn, to BEcome more sacred human and aligned with my service of love purpose here. AND, I can feel this is possible for YOU too!
For more information about the series:
Note: The videos will be posted at different times during each day, usually in the morning MST, although you can watch them at your convenience once they are posted.
In this FREE daily video series, SoulFullHeart Co-creator/Teacher/Facilitator and Emoto-Spiritual Ascension Author Jelelle Awen invites you to join her as she guides you on an arising, spontaneous, and potentially life shifting journey of integration leading to metamorphosis and transformation. For 33 days starting on January 1, 2018 and going until February 2, she will show up in the moment to share from her heart and soul. Opening up to the current January, 2018 Ascension energies, she will share her unique perspective on the Cosmic energies of the sun, Gaia, the moon, portal and Gateway openings, etc. as they connect to the emotional body digestion and soul awakenings. She will βmake it personalβ for you and all parts of you to digest and relate with.
Teachings about the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life process and community that Jelelle has lived in and co-led for several years will provide NEW points of view about the seven main areas of life; 3D self parts such as the Inner Protector, Inner Teenager, Inner Mother/Father; Metasoul/other lifetime connection and healing; Sacred Union; disclosure; Star BEing contact; light body physical transformation; Divine Feminine connection; and much more!
Some days, Jelelle will lead guided meditations in the moment to take you into high vibrational spaces, connect with your emotional body, and parts of yourself. Energy healing processes will allow for activation, clearing, and connection with your Ascension Chakras, which can be a huge boost to your process.
She will also share her personal process connecting with parts of the 3D and 4D self and unification of the Metasoul, aspects from other lifetimes and other timelines. Special guests from SoulFullHeart will join her to contribute to the conversations, such as her Sacred Union mate Raphael Awen and SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, plus SoulFullHeart facilitant and her daughter, Raianna Shai.
You just never KNOW what will happen during these 33 Days, but it promises to be heart opening, mind expanding, soul awakening, and body crystallizing! It invites you to go to your βnext levelβ of metamorphosis with an energy of compassion, lack of judgement, and lots of love. If you are reading these words right now, your Higher Selves and Guides might be urging you to join in on the journey, to see where it takes you and where it leads! Infinite Possibilities await as you open UP to a New You and to experiencing New Earth Now!
You are invited to share comments on FB or on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which Jelelle will respond and offer reflections/guidance, plus through her PM via FB as well. An organically arising community may form out of the shared experience and energy of taking in the series….a love-based group Merkabah!
It’s becoming more apparent than ever, how ‘love’ has been offered in very many different spiritual healing modalities and practices, and yet not lived into deeply by those who are teaching about it. What becomes very intense to feel, is the way in which love is often mixed in with intense amounts of fear and non-vulnerable responses to others and especially to the self. Words like ‘unconditional love’ are offered, yet often coupled with energies of shaming, criticism,Β and judgment, subtle or not. Judgment and punishing energies come from parts of us that need our love and attention and their intensity is often off-gassed, put onto others without a sense of personal accountability or consciousness. Judgment, in and of itself, is not ‘bad’ and, in fact, has been a necessary thing when it comes to moving through 3D life, and with work, it can heal to healthy discernment and a letting in of deep compassion. The primary energy though with which we tend to hold judgments is another thing entirely and is typically an expression of a need for more time within you. Healthy discernment and expressions of intuition come from many years of working with Inner Punishers/Judgers, which is a powerful way to find your authentic sense of compassion and Love too, starting, always, from you to you. Until these frequencies are given space to heal within, they actually can run through every area of our lives, dulling our sense of wonder at ourselves let alone others, and taming our reality of and access to higher frequencies of Love.
It has been really coming to light lately, that heavy-handed judgments from healers who are supposed to be offering deep healing to others are actually the norm. There are judgments and invasive read-outs being offered that are disguised as ‘love’ and assumed to BE ‘love’ by those receiving. There have also been SO many fear-based messages given without consciousness and often touted as channellings. Indeed, what we have learned is ‘love’ and have felt to BE ‘love’ so often misses the mark and is actually based in immense fear…. understandably so in some ways, given how harsh and challenging 3D reality has been, yet this reality is being invited to shift in every moment of our ever-expanding consciousness and our ever-opening and healing Sacred Human hearts.
Perhaps this is one of the main sources of pain in all of our bodies, physical, emotional, etc. right now during this phase of Ascension… we need to clear ourselves of the false love we have taken in from so many, so we can re-calibrate and learn what real Love IS… and that the only source of ‘unconditional love’ we can rely on is inside of us and with the Divine. It IS possible to experience deep love in ALL relationships outside of ourselves and in fact, we need to hold out for it, settle for nothing less than it, and we also need to let go of the label or expectation of it ever being ‘unconditonal’ when coming from another. We can recognize each other as expressions of Infinite Love and feel Love and authentic compassion for each other based on this picture, yet this can only really happen if we can feel this inside ourselves first in all ways and in all parts of us too.
The Love we are truly made of and deeply wanting more of, consciously or unconsciously, is right here, waiting for those moments of entry into us. The more we choose to express Love within ourselves, including being with parts of us that need us and Metasoul Aspects too, but also including the food we eat, the ways in which we treat our bodies, the meditation practices we sit in, and the relationships we have and inhabit. There is so much that Love, in all of its many shapes, colours, and textures, wants to come into you and show Itself for what it really is and how it really feels when it is truly, authentically, REALly there inside and beside you… β€
If you are ready to begin or continue the process of going deeper into your own Love overflow that offers you a real sense of PURE Love starting within, you can have a look at: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and feel into having a free 30min intro session with one of my beloveds or myself. We would love to support you on your journey and the nourishment of doing so, so goes both ways! β€
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Ah, these energies of dancing, loving and WARM union and rediscovery of the truly sacred masculine and feminine within… that always finds its way to overflow once it has been deeply and earnestly dived into. This is alchemy, this dance of one WITH the other, acknowledgment of the places both have taken inside of you and where their wounded expressions need to be felt and held space for. There is much that this dance of love in body, heart, soul and mind, ALL, want to bring to you, through you, with you.
I’ve been feeling strongly the connection of Magdalena and Christiel in the last couple of days. I have especially been feeling Magdalena energy coming in to be with me, bake with me in her frequencies that smell like sandalwood and lavender, and feel like a warm spring sun bringing food and life to the creations it shines on. She is a light in the heart of all women and men. She brings with her the true spirit of Tantra, the sensuality of a woman in love with herself in all ways, sharing her love body, her love soul, her love heart, her love mind with her mate. She expects no perfection, for the greatest works of art are the ones often not seen as ‘art’ at first. She teaches us of true feminine unity and healing. What it means to really go inward, to heal to the far reaches of your deepest heart pain, to TRULY let go of competition with or dislike of other women by feeling the layers of why these feelings have been needed. She advocates for the inward and outward phases, both, encouraging your overflow of self love to be shared.
I feel her imbibing my words and my energy these days, as I deepen my connection with her through my process, from the heart UP. I feel ChristielΒ as well, as they are an intimate package to be with and one is never very far from the other, it seems. They offer that our deepest healing surprises come from feeling polarity dances of wounded yet perhaps healing masculine and feminine frequencies inside of each of us. Without counterpart vibrations consciously making music within our hearts and souls, the depths of potential healing stays only as potential.
I feel Magdalena offering directly,
“Beautiful beloved heart and soul, you are… so many of us say this to you through others who are channels for our messages and offer distortions at times too. Yet the positive comes through more often than not that is intended to make way for what is real to fill the space within. It is as important to FEEL now, as it has ever been! It is important to feel all of the aches, the desires, the clinging-on places where parts of you have been afraid to let go and eventually let in… there is so much unknown to trust, yes, and the Divine trusts your soul to navigate this, however it is meant to, in whatever timing it chooses. It is just so, in a simple way that also has many layers and explanations that actually reach far beyond words! To all of my woman hearts and souls… now is the time to deeply dive into your hearts. There is much you have learned and much you have yet to learn too. To simply be with the real, even if it feels messy, is the invitation now and always. For what is at stake is more about whether or not you would like to experience the deepest love you possibly can in this life, or if you would like to wait for another. No ‘loss’, though each may bring you sorrow, can possibly be a loss of your own forever and your own quest for and with love. When you create the space for the awakening within, your awakenings of slumbering alchemy in your life will have room to shake and quake the life you have known, bringing you, ultimately, to MORE of what you have most deeply desired.
In LOVE with YOU my sisters and brothers… Magdalena”.
If you are in a Sacred Union and can feel these energies with your partner, this is a phase to bring them sexually to each other. It is a time to create new timelines together through love making, bringing intentional space between you as the energies caress and exchange. Of course this can be done from you to you, as well, and for many of you, this is what’s necessary in this phase as you work to bring the healing opportunities that are moving you into your own highest timelines, possibly along with drawing a Sacred Union of your own. Engaging in this with Gabriel yesterday brought us both into a space of alchemy and heart-centeredness that is connecting us both to deeper places of healing within and strengthening our bond more and more as we embark on our new timeline together that is arising and emerging Now.
Feeling these energies of Magdalena and Christiel in such accessible ways is a huge gift right now and one that it feels like will keep on giving, as you keep giving to yourself by way of space-holding for what is real inside of you and parts of you. Here we go, deeper into these exquisite energies, and deeper into ourselves too! β€
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
As I felt and ‘saw’ the light codes coming in the early morning from the Supermoon today, they seemed to softly fall like snow or fairy dust upon my beloved and I, as we lay in bed. They looked like sparkling gold and though we weren’t outside, I could feel them come in through the windows and walls, finding their way to us. I hadn’t thought much about light codes coming from the moon and what they could mean or offer. In some ways, the moon hasn’t even been on my radar all that much, though of course, how could a Supermoon go unnoticed?!
They seem to be a sprinkling of something magical, that is also natural to arise now in this stage of Ascension. There is always an alchemical magic, though also a profound and often quite emotional process in letting go and letting in, which is something I’ve written about for the last few days as I have been walking out and feeling deeply my own process of doing just this very thing. So many others seem to be experiencing this too right now, as this IS the process of letting in higher timeline desires and possibilities too… the imminence and immediacy of claiming what we truly want yet also what and HOW our soul wants to serve LOVE, is something we are all invited to feel, feel, feel. It lights us up like a bright torch or beacon, calling us back to us, back to our sacred union within, and into deeper territory with a sacred union outside of us too, for those who have drawn that and for those who are likely about to draw that! It is the goodness of life and of love itself that we can feel now, even and sometimes especially through the painful moments of realizations and dawning truths. The pulsing, purging and pain lead to relief, revitalization, and release and a letting in, lighting up, loving OUT experience of ourselves and of life too.
Residual wounding, core wounding too, can all be held now by you, with the help of guides and this Supermoon fairy dust energy of light code sprinkles. Asking for the help, love and support you need is an invitation for all as the Ascension energies continue to move in and ramp up, amping up the anchors and moving parts of us into the spotlight held by Love. There is no end to the inner love flow that is available to be dipped into as you continue on your journey of healing inside, being with parts of you and soul Aspects too, bringing in and breathing in the energies that want to support not suppress and hold you through the next states and stages necessary for your inhabitation of new and next growth edges and places.
If you wish to discover more about parts of you that may be in resistance to this dance with the Love and Ascension energies coming in, there is much this process of SoulFullHeart can offer you, if you feel desirous and ready for deep transformation and change from the heart UP. http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess
Also, if you’d like to experience a tip-toe into one-on-one SoulFullHeart energies, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be hosting a group call next Saturday, December 9th @ 11:11 am CST (Mexico City). You can join us there for an $11 usd minimum donation and keep the recording of the call afterwards. During the sharing portion of the call, you can share about your experience with anything that has been moving through you, ask questions, and/or just BE. More info here:Β https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524Β β€
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
By now you may have discovered and uncovered the timelines you most want and feel you are most meant to walk out in this life. Now comes the phase of energizing it, letting the pieces fall where they will. This can come in so many forms… some easy, some challenging.
Going inward and feeling all there is to feel as you let go, vacating aspects of different areas of your life that no longer ‘fit’. Even the process of feeling this vacating and willingly walking into some type of ‘void’ space is visceral and deep. Even THIS requires so much feeling and ‘me’ space, as well as space held with soul family/community beloveds, if you have drawn this experience to yourself, who can support and also mirror for you where your next places are to go within yourself and within themselves too, in order for all of you to not only imagine but start living into your own scale of Infinite Possibilities, incoming in the form of new and higher timelines.
As we continue walking through this 11/11 Gateway for another 12 days, this will be and is the process for many… cleaning house, feeling the letting go, getting ready for the letting in, and letting it ALL land equally in your heart of hearts and your soul of souls.
Your readiness is measured in some ways by the parts of you that you have gone inside to deeply feel in this process. Parts that aren’t ready and/or cannot feel a growing authentic YOU at the helm, will often sabotage the forward glide of your ship or draw circumstances that show up as choppy waters and stormy seas. There is nothing ‘wrong’ with this, as it all offers a mirror for where you have yet to go and what you have yet to feel. Indeed, there are NO mistakes on this terrain you’re traveling and it’s all exactly what you need, when you need it…
If you would like some help, love, support and mirroring on this journey and you feel resonant with what we offer in SoulFullHeart, you can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions to feel into having a free intro session with one of us where we can go inward with you and help you map out the territory for climbing the mountain of drawing your highest timeline possibilities. β€
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
It stood before me as a defining moment. From the vantage point I was at, the path before me to the top of what is called Angel’s Landing in Zion National Park seemed a bit daunting. That was how my mind was interpreting it anyway. There seemed to be some pretty tricky places to navigate and for a few moments I wondered if it would be worth it to continue. If I became too immobilized by fear I didn’t want to risk going back with my tail between my legs. There was an internal dialogue going inside me that felt a lot of doubt and lack of courage. Something that had really prevented me from experiencing life in its fullest flavor and education. I was on this trip to feel more into me and what it was that inspired me.
At the time, Zion represented what its name implies. A holy place. Its literal translation apparently is ‘marked’ or ‘distinctive’. I was searching for `I` through an externalized experience. This is how it is in 3D. We begin this journey back to ourselves through the physical landscape. Through the trial and error of our choices and responses. What a part of me was searching for was an internal verification that it was powerful, free, and alive. I was looking for my own Zion within.
It was as if the hike I was taking was along the trail of my heart. It started out fairly easily, and then began to become more stimulating and much harder at the same time. With each progress up the view became more impeccable. There was a part that challenged all my physical weaknesses as a steep and traversing section seemed to want to chide me for even starting. It seemed so repetitive and difficult, yet the result was more spectacular. But it was far from over.
Sometimes we make these incredible changes in our lives and there are parts that feel good with the vista that they have landed on. Yet there is still that continuing voice and desire to keep pressing on because you didn’t come here to watch others make the journey. You realized you were guided here for a purpose. You are actually inspiring those who are still staring at the hike to make that first step, just as those ‘ahead’ of you are inspiring you to make your next step.
Before I even began the hike, I saw myself at the top. Looking out into the majesty of what Gaia had created in her infinite bosom. It was a mission and a destiny that represented so much more than climbing a rock. It was a reconfiguring and reshaping of all that I had wired up inside of me. I could not afford to not meet myself at the top. I was already there.
The moments after that midway point were some of the most exhilarating of my life. So much energy passed through me. Climbing chains, rock walls, and narrow foot ways became a part of my consciousness. The path and I were one. Breathing and experiencing each other as if I had already done this a thousand times before. I remember hearing one person behind me say, “That guy is like a mountain goat!”.Β It validated what was happening inside me. I was just being me in bliss and in joy, even when I had no idea what was around the corner. It didn’t matter. I was already there.
As I crested the top and found myself on Her glorious plateau, the view of the canyon sang to me. It did not disappoint. It only amplified what I felt inside me. This is what I came here to experience and be.Β This particular moment set in motion a series of events that would lead me to reenact this journey from the other direction. Going into my inner emotional geography and find my Angel’s Landing. My inner Zion. The gateway to the Golden Earth within us all.
In the moment I can see myself there as I did the physical location all those years ago. Feeling free, spreading wings, and shining light. Yet I am still on the path. Walking up the challenging spots, feeling the fear places and healing them into the next step. This is the path of parts work. The inner journey that leads to our greatest expression and brightest light…the place where you already ARE.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual menβs and womenβs facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Letting go WITH love… this phrase is becoming more poignant now, bringing with it deeper meanings. We are being invited to really feel it. It can no longer mean letting go and closing a door for good or with numbness. This is being challenged by so many disasters and tragedies, all intended to evoke, not dampen or inspire numbness and escape. A broken wall becomes a doorway into another reality, another timeline. It is happening with our need to feel more now, to be faced with our shadows, to go INto it all, as it flows through and moves us too. No process is without fluidity. It is all a moving current, moving with what you are currently feeling, being and healing.
There is less and less stagnancy possible now. All is moving, even the ‘stuckness’ feelings and patterns. As you are invited to let go, you are invited to do so with love, with a full heart, and with deep care that begins from you to you. There are some things that cannot be let go of right now. Not while parts of you need them still. This is okay. They won’t need them forever. Eventually, these ‘needs’ which can look and feel like addictions, move too as you go inward, holding mourning processes with parts of you while also letting in that this ‘need’ was never all that loving towards you or them in the first place. This can be a romantic relationship, your relationship to your pet, a friend or birth family member. It can be a drug, prescription or not. It can be sex or shopping. It can be a part’s escape through your mobile phone or computer or gaming system. It can be and often is food too. There are so many ways that loops of ‘I want love, but I’m settling for this pattern and stuckness instead’ can express. These too want to be felt and moved WITH love… let go of with love. But only if there is love powerfully present in your heart and in your life, can this become possible for you.
Letting go becomes a practice of being… holding an open hand and open heart, feeling ‘attachments’ where your heart and parts have been invested, holding it all as good, letting in the space for the tears of mourning and eventually the tears of joy. Both sometimes happen at once, as timelines emerge and collapse and emerge again.
Letting go becomes an experience of the heart… feeling the fullness of feeling all there is to feel. Baking in the goodness and the sadness, giving all relationships their due. This is hard, especially for your Inner Protector, as he/she would prefer to just ‘move on’ and suppress the lessons, the mirrors, the love that wants to come to you through these emotional landscapes within, that when taken in deeply could transform your life and end suffering loops too. Your Inner Protector can be felt in this desire to numb out instead of feel and share with you why it has been this way and why allowing you to feel on your way out the door has been scary. Outrage is far easier to lean into at times, wanting to blame many or even just a few… or yourself too. Yet this is numbing somehow too. Numbing to the reality of where the experience wants to take you…. the journey and process to self-forgiveness and a greater sense of your love and worth. The journey and process of finding out what’s underneath it all, what led you here, what is underpinning the whole experience.
Letting go WITH love wants to live and breathe in your being. Letting IN with love is the reality at your doorstep. Perhaps eventually it all leads to simply letting love, period –Β where the comings and goings are not really events anymore, but instead, there is a way to just be and move with it, with fluidity and fluency, stillness and grace. For now, the feeling part is often the hardest…. but the one that will lead you to more of the love flow that so wants to flood your every part and every ache and every single bit of joy too. β€
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
There is a new ground wanting to ripen for you now. It’s calling your roots out of hiding, inviting you to plant them firmly in new soil. ‘New’ only in the sense of not having been lived in by you before… yet not ‘new’ at all, for there are others who have tilled it for themselves too for so long.
Out beyond everything parts of you have expected of themselves, well passed the flat expanses of ‘normal life’ that have held you in stasis, is a reality you’ve only begun to imagine for yourself… a reality where love flows and flourishes freely, pausing only to flood you and help you feel more of where it can’t quite get in. There are stuck places inside you of immaturity, of push-away towards goodness, of disbelief that love actually IS different than what parts of you have been taught it is directly and indirectly. In a pasture that you haven’t yet known, are your deepest, farthest-reaching places of healing and growth. It’s not a mental concept or construct, it can only be felt and experienced and lovingly challenged into being.
Those souls and hearts who have been in this soil before you, want to empower you beyond what parts of you have ever felt possible so far in your life. They want to empower without enabling, without caretaking what needs to be looked at, felt, deconstructed, loved UP… your soul somehow kNOWs the way, understands that it needs to lead and feels how much it wants to. It’s up to your parts, your personas, your willing heart, to feel what needs and wants to shift, what areas of life you especially need help with and illumination for, where love doesn’t seem to be flowing abundance and why love doesn’t seem to feel very nourishing, based on what you’ve lived of it so far.
It takes a lot… it takes a big soul, like yours, to say ‘yes’ to the desire deep within, that wants something different, wants transformation, wants fulfilment in the sweetest way. It takes a capacity to be with what isn’t desired, to find it within your heart to love it for what it was and what parts of you needed it for, and to move on to what awaits you next in the greener pastures of soul family, ever-expanding heart wisdom, and exponential service of love. β€
Feel into the process that I am offering to you in this writing and explore the possibility of having a free 30min intro session by visiting this page: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Artwork:Β The Wanderer Above the Sea of Fog by Caspar David Friedrich
A voice inside that tells you to be careful, and may even encourage you to have your guard so ‘up’ that relaxation feels impossible. A feeling of complete or nearly complete distrust of anyone, maybe even without much explanation or logical reasoning. A heightened sense of needing to protect yourself, that in some ways you may be so used to feeling that it becomes unconscious when it comes up and it comes up so automatically most of the time. A sense that there is a lot ‘out there’ to be wary of in terms of 3D dangers in your everyday life, but also in terms of ‘psychic attacks’ and ‘influences’.
This is the experience of having a sharp and astute Inner Protector, always at the ready, always standing at the helm, always on the lookout. There isn’t much room for feminine softness in this picture if you are a woman, or vulnerable sharing of your inner world if you are a man. There is a sense of finding ways to be in control of the situation you’re in, no matter what, even though underneath that you may feel the rumblings of actually feeling quite the opposite most of the time. In women, this energy tends to express as quite masculine, sometimes calling itself a ‘goddess’ or ‘warrior woman’. In men, this energy tends to express as overly ‘masculine’ in a way that is direct without heart, and penetrative without feeling. In both camps, there is so little vulnerability accessible, that it can feel impossible to feel anything but defensive in interactions with others. Β Maybe when you are at home alone can you finally let this guard down and just be… yet for those of you who have families or a husband or wife, maybe this guard never really drops or relaxes to make room for a real ground of intimacy and love transaction with others.
Your Inner Protector has so needed to be there. In all of those interactions you had as a child, it began picking up on strategies other Inner Protectors were using, ways to control you and other parts of you, while also perhaps controlling others, however, whenever possible. Feeling offended or the need to defend against something that has been said or someone who you’re interacting with is so often a knee-jerk, automated sort of reaction from this part of you. This part has needed to be this way in a world that encourages either intense defensesΒ and fear for one reason or other, or the complete dropping of all protection in order to access sexual or etheric experiences that you are told you are ‘supposed to’ get to. You may gravitate towards peak experiences like taking Ayahuasca or Peyote or other less natural drugs, or workshops and retreats that get you out of the normal day-to-day grind in order to elevate above the protection and find something different. The protection can be a veil on different levels of your being, wanting to keep you from feeling, from accessing YOU and your parts in a deeper way, which would lead to a more profound awakening experience.
As you heal, the need for a strong Inner Protector lessens and dissipates. Impenetrable walls and defensive reactivity turn into healthy, porous boundaries held with love and self-worth. The Protector changes form, helping you to transform as well, allowing for greater, sweeter intimacy with self and others that may challenge you in good ways at times. Ultimately it’s a process of letting more love in, for that is really what the Inner Protector is afraid of… love flowing into you and permanently changing all that it has worked to maintain up ’til now.
If you would like to perhaps try and meet your Inner Protector, you can listen to this SoulFullHeart group call and also try the meditation: Β https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc
If you feel you’d like to venture further into this energy, we offer ongoing sessions and a profound process around getting to know and healing your protector and other parts of you: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
From my heart to yours, sending lots of love to your Inner Protector and all they’ve held and continue to hold… β€
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
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