Change Your Life By Finding Your Courage

by Kalayna Colibri

Bravery. It’s a good topic to get into, isn’t it? We’re living in times where we SO need our bravery, both the masculine and feminine versions of it. We all have these energies inside of us. We’re all capable of so much beyond our wildest dreams and somehow you know this and can feel it… but not always. Being born into 3D conditioning is like having a lead balloon over your bigness. That is, until it’s not what’s true anymore and you’re remembering how to soar again!

Yesterday I posted just a couple of lines on my Facebook page that said, “If you don’t feel challenged to find your bravery, you’re living a life that supports your stuckness, not your growth…” and got a really big response! It feels like these are words that so many parts and Metasoul Aspects are NEEDING to hear and feel. It’s an invitation that’s meant to bowl you over with love. You’re always invited into your bigness through finding your courage. You find your true courage by finding your heart. If there’s no heart in your choices, if you aren’t truly feeling them, parts of you are keeping you numb out of fear and wanting to just exit the whole situation or relationship without feeling the loss or mourning. This is more bravado than bravery and comes from the Inner Protector wanting to just get OUT already… there’s nothing “wrong” with this though, especially because leaving abusive relationships can really require you to feel as unsentimental as possible on your way out the door. This is about survival in some cases and bless your Inner Protector for doing their job!

What I just mentioned about the Inner Protector brings us to the point I was making about masculine and feminine expressions of bravery. Since the Inner Protector for both men and women tends to be very, very masculine in energy, a very protected and armored version of bravery is expressed through this part. This is more wounded masculine than healed masculine of course, yet there’s no judgment about that because this is just how this part of you has HAD to be. Masculine bravery also expresses through the inner matriarch/patriarch (Inner Mother/Father). Matriarchy, the way it’s been expressed so far, has been intensely masculine in many ways. Any picture of a warrior woman is a masculine one, for example. Feminine power and bravery are different in my experience than anything that requires contention and battles on any level. The more healed version of masculine bravery lives in the heart. It helps you set intentions and not waiver from the course of action chosen, though your heart is still open to feeling your way through it (which is more feminine). It also helps you set boundaries when necessary and quite often it IS necessary in order to exit one door in your life and enter another.

Feminine bravery expresses through the heart. It’s a deep-seated courage to keep feeling all there is to feel. Courage to be WITH the mourning of leaving relationships, career, etc. Courage to be WITH the entering and letting in of new ones, too. Interesting that I’m using the word “courage” instead of “bravery” when talking about the feminine expression! I think this is because cour-age is of the heart, with “coeur” being the French word for “heart” and the feminine lives and thrives in the heart space. It takes a ton of bravery to stay in your heart, even when the world seems to support parts of you not to stay there and when it’s understandably tempting to follow along with that…

It takes a lot of YOU in your growing and strengthening essence to keep fnding your next steps in your life though every single awakening experience and every integration of these experiences too. You’re not meant to stay the same, and your life isn’t meant to either. You have a choice to be with the parts of you that are afraid and take brave steps anyways, trusting in your heart and soul that you WILL be and ARE held by something bigger within you and that life is on your side, not against you. This is a big one to feel and let in. And it takes a lot of bravery to even begin doing so. ❤

you are living in your stuckness

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Shifting From 3D Money Earning To 5D Abundance

by Kalayna Colibri

Ongoingly throughout your personal Ascension process, there are challenges brought to you in all areas of your life. The financial area of life is one in particular that likely holds much charge and reactivity from parts of you, especially parts that make up the 3D Self, and understandably so given the amount of conditioning there is around it and the amount of suffering too. Parts can truly become attached to the suffering as a sort of handrail. It’s that idea of comfortable discomfort again, which as you continue awakening, becomes only more and more obvious to you!

To enter a more spacious ground around money, it’s a good reminder that truly satiating abundance does not live in numbers… it lives in deep heart and soul nourishment, soul and heart “food” of exchanges with others who you are in deep resonance with on all levels. There is a depth to real abundance that does not show up in the ways that your 3D Self parts have been conditioned to believe that it will. It can only be experienced in your life through your willingness to say “no” to everything that doesn’t feel like it comes from true self-love and worth and all that you are now outgrowing too.

Awakenings are challenging enough… and then there is the money world that you are supposed to somehow navigate as well! There can be SO much energy of money being “against” spirituality, especially coming from the 4D Self and what it could be that your own soul has witnessed or been a part of related to money in other lifetimes/timelines.  Yet, it can be a grounded support of your spirituality and expanding consciousness in this current world where we still need it and an opportunity to help sustain and even boost our spiritual growth trajectory. Money earning sets an intention. It can fuel your deeper awakenings, not dampen them, by being invested in processes, inner work that feels like lifeblood to you, and invested too in helping you make MORE space for yourself and your needs, not less. It is there to be invested with energy and love INTO love.

In SoulFullHeart, we choose to keep our session prices affordable and we do this for many reasons… including the fact that we feel healing should be accessible for all who need it. We feel there is still very much a need for an energy and intention exchange between us as Facilitators and those who choose to become Facilitants. Investing in our picture and what we offer brings it back home to you and your own parts in ways you’ve not yet felt or experienced. It is more than a money investment. It becomes a big part of your heart and soul trajectory and healing. Money is a thing we can tangibly see, touch, smell. Yet it is only one level of the reality of what you bring with you into your overall picture of your desire to heal and to deepen your ongoing Ascension process. For more information on what we offer, visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess.

The old 3D picture of money-earning is one of a cycle of earning money only to spend it and often to maintain a lifestyle that only goes so deep for you… the latest smartphone tech cannot feel you. Dinner at a fancy restaurant with friends or your spouse cannot satisfy you if these connections are not based in having your deepest heart and soul social needs met. Money cannot ever buy parts of you the love that they want MORE of… the heart and soul “food” nourishment that can only come from resonant soul family connections and a deepening connection with yourself, your parts, your galactic and Metasoul aspects, too. Though, when invested in YOU and in your growth path, it CAN and WILL help you draw the resources you need to keep moving inward and UPward, and the most satisfying experiences of love you can imagine and beyond, to boot!

Whatever the current money picture is that you are living out… at the end of the day, this whole process is all about self-love and worth and inhabiting your truest sense of power in the world, and any process that provides you with THAT ground, is one that will truly lead you to where you most want to BE, who you most want to BEcome, and the resonant hearts and souls you most want to BE with! This is 5D abundance in a tangible form. And this is what makes it all worth it. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Unanchoring From 3D Timelines Into Co-creation of 5D New Earth Timelines

By Jelelle Awen
The previously beloved timelines are becoming outgrown now. These timelines, mostly anchored in 3D consciousness reality, were activated by versions of you that needed them once. The specific settings and details of their environments served to support situations and experiences that you chose on a soul level to experience this life for certain phases. The people in these timelines agreed to be there and go through the duality and polarization between love and fear experiment with you.
 
You co-created these timelines together that would most allow you to heal wounds and traumas based in the emotional body of your Metasoul/Higher Self source. The density of 3D creates a viable ground to ‘land’ into these woundings and offers the opportunity to really viscerally feel them. In this way, 3D is NOT bad, just very different and denser than what our souls are mostly used to in other fractal expressions. It is actually a polarized conditioning that has us judge 3D as ‘bad’ rather than seeing that we chose it on a soul level for the opportunities that it offers to REALLY feel and heal and complete wound-based patterns and legacies.
 
As your soul essence comes IN more to your consciousness and your vibrational frequency begins to rise, these more 3D based timelines don’t resonate in the same ways anymore. You start to create 4D-based timelines through growing spiritual interests, desires to heal and be healthy, and embracing the Divine Feminine process of death and rebirth to burn off the ‘old’ and arise into the new. Rather than creating a harmonious blend, the 3D timelines vibrate with more and more dissonance when you are in them.
 
Others that are STILL anchored in these lower frequency timelines remain in synch with them….yet YOU are shifting and changing. This doesn’t make the souls who are still resonant to the 3D timelines ‘lesser’ than you, they are just choosing to remain longer in these frequencies for their own growth. Again, both the coming togethers and the completions have been agreed to on the soul level…..no one is abandoning anyone else or betraying anyone else or actually rejecting anyone else although it can feel that way to 3D-based parts of you and them.
 
Experiencing this growing dissonance can be very challenging for the parts of you that are still attached to the pervious timelines and relationships that are anchored into them. Parts of you feel the comfort of them and the safety…..the KNOWN of the exchanges and transactions that vibrate at a 3D level. And, mass consciousness is still predominately anchored here, so there is LOTS of collective support for these timelines.
 
Parts of you (and your soul) are becoming more consciously unhappy though, wanting more, dreaming of MORE, aching for love and soul resonance. Awakening experiences such as Kundalini surges, non-duality driplines, glimpses of Divine realization of Oneness are all serving to create your NEW, higher vibrationally-based timeline. You start to draw relationships that are more resonant in these higher vibe timelines…….with souls that, again, have agreed to BE with you in this next phase of the experiment.
 
Negotiation with the parts of you that are attached to these more 3D-based timelines can help with the transition into the NEW. You can connect with a Protector part of you that has just become used to being guarded, used to feeling like you are being ‘attacked’, used to being misunderstood as all aspects of 3D reality (and experiences from your Metasoul/other timelines too). You can offer this part of you compassionate love from your heart that appreciates ALL the Protector has held and responded to. You are inviting them to start to rest from being so vigilant and to trust YOU (your growing 5D Self) to set boundaries when necessary, to make self loving choices, and to be the main caregiver of all the other parts of you (such as the Inner Child). You can get to know the Punisher part of you too that has learned to judge or BE judged by others as part of 3D conditioning.
 
These parts of you can move into the NEW timelines too, bridged to it by your love and acceptance and embracement of them. Their energies become transmuted then from protection to guidance; from punishment to intuition and clarity. Read more here about parts and Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
Here is a simple meditation for connecting with your Protector part: https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA
 
These INtense SOULar, Lunar, and Gaian energies are supporting the creation of soul-based timelines that resonant in ALL areas of your life. These NEW timelines offer a mirror reflection of your goodness and worth in ALL of your relationships. These NEW timelines offer no longer being able to tolerate ANY patterns and playouts of abuse, either with others and within yourself. These NEW timelines activate for you if it is your soul’s choice time for them to manifest and you will be offered much support for their arising manifestation.
 
These 4D and transitioning to 5D timelines, more than anything else, offer LOVE and an experience of yourself as Infinite Love in Sacred Human Form. Make them real through your love-based choices. Create them through letting go of what previously was anchored into fear polarization. BEcome them in THIS now as you offer love to ALL parts of you and to others!
 
MUCH love to you and with you as we create the New Earth/Gaia timelines together!
 
Jelelle Awen
We offer a bridge from 3D timelines (through parts connection) to your higher timeline through a 1:1 bridging session (90 minutes for $55 USD min. donation) with me for women and with Raphael for men! soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Raphael & Jelelle On The Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show: Recording

by Jelelle Awen

This is the recording of a wonderful interview that we did last week on the Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show with resonant host Crystalline Diamondloveheart. It is 90 minutes of interesting conversation about embracing rather than resisting your shadow aspects and difficult emotions. We talk about how in spirituality the shadow can be bypassed or try to be ‘cleared’ or seen as ‘negative’ and the gifts of embracing yours through conscious parts work process.

This provides a great INTRO to us, our journeys, and our SoulFullHeart work. I also lead a guided meditation to meet the Protector part of you at close to an hour into the call. We also have a special offer discount package on a session, my books, etc. that you can read more about here: http://www.theenlightenedloveheartandsoulshow.com/jelelle-…/

INjoy and we’ll be appearing on the show again this Thursday, April 26th at 8:00pm BST to share some more of our sacred journey and stories together as a couple on an awakening path. More details coming soon about that and how you can either join us live or to listen to the recording afterwards.

One listener said this about the show on YouTube: “So glad you posted your interview with Crystalline. I was on the live call & the energy you and Raphael brought was out of this world. I’m looking forward to hearing it again. And your meditation was magnificent. So glad your teachings are spreading, the planet is lucky to have you both.”

Go here to register to receive and be involved live in all future Enlightened LoveHeart & Soul shows: http://www.theenlightenedloveheartandsoulshow.com/

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: You Are The One You’ve Been Waiting For

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week, SoulFullHeart Co-Creator, Teacher and Facilitator, Raphael Awen, sends you into the land of self-worth, inviting you to feel that you are the one you’ve been waiting for – the Event, the Saviour, the Guru, everything! As he emphasizes in this piece, life is the biggest facilitator of your healing, wanting you to find your bigness in heart and soul:

“Life doesn’t see you as broken and needing to be caretaken. Life will honour your sovereign and powerful choice and leave you to the encircling standing stones of circumstance that you call your life as your current reality creation, awaiting your deeper choice point.”

We have other beautiful writings and audio blogs this week by Raphael Awen, Jelelle Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Colibri, including a few more energy updates, digestion of what it means to draw your heart and soul purpose work, claiming your personal power and choices in your life, and sharing your truth in relationships.

You will also find a recording of the latest free Unity Meditation, where you are taken into a guided meditation space to meet your shadow.

A NEW offering comes from Raphael Awen, who now holds Bridging Sessions with men for a $55 minimum donation/90min session. Jelelle Awen continues to offer Bridging Sessions for the same minimum donation price to women. Go here for info: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Here is the link to this week’s Museletter:

https://mailchi.mp/8b9ac4396b3c/soulfullheart-weekly-museletteryou-are-the-one-youve-been-waiting-for

Your Soul Purpose Arises As You Arise Into It

by Kalayna Colibri

Your truest and deepest heart and soul vocation is not chosen by you or any part of you. It chooses you! It is not so much a process of grabbing at it or “going for it” as becoming it from the inside out, like a sculpture arising from clay, shaped by the hands of love.

Your soul purpose arises organically from the ashes of what you’ve let go of, the fires you’ve walked through, the choice points you’ve navigated. It aligns with your soul bigness, challenges you to continue your growth path, invites you into a deeper trust in the inevitability of your awakenings and offerings to the world around you. This happens even with parts of you that may be polarized to fear, trying to bury your emerging sense of it underneath layers and layers of self-punishment and 3D focus that serve to keep you small. The greatest and most frightening shifts in life, for parts of you, are the ones that challenge you the most to be your biggest self. Their push-pull around it is about the comfortable discomfort of the womb they’ve been waiting to birth from. You are the mother of your parts, gestating your soul expression, and life is the doula awaiting at the end of every birth canal, working to guide and hold you through what can feel like a very long and difficult journey.

Every part of you will relate to this journey of soul purpose differently. Some will shun it or disbelieve it and others will want it so badly that they may become the dominant part of you that holds your spiritual journey and discoveries, often with an agenda and also an overemphasis on “needing” certifications, recognition, etc. along with a feeling of urgency, of needing to be living it out NOW, without really feeling all of the ways in which you already ARE. If your soul purpose is to arise from the process of your life and your choices, then the grabbing and aggrandizing of it won’t bring it any closer any faster and won’t humbly let it in the process of claiming and deeply becoming it, step by step.

Your vocation may not be exactly as parts of you had imagined it to be, as the “self” you’ve been up until this moment thought it would or could be. Or maybe it is! Either way, you CAN trust that it WILL emerge and in fact already is emerging. You can trust that you are finding your way, even when it feels like a fumble in the dark and that the fog stretches for endless miles around you. You are being invited into your service-of-love self and you are popping through your next and next ceilings, being in your bliss-mess, learning how to surrender to love as the biggest facilitator of all and the greatest “boss”, trainer and teacher you’ll ever have! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Awakening To Your Abundance Within And The Protection Of It Too

by Kalayna Colibri

When I feel the abundance alive inside of Gaia, of water, nourishment, life, energy, that in 4D awakening experiences often seems deficient or on the decline and frighteningly so, I feel how this parallels our own inner abundance that continues to create and recreate itself continuously, that wants to be remembered and fill us UP! Of course, all of this focus on depleting resources is actually a concern about the depletion/scarcity of love… and there is no stronger source of love than that which can be cultivated, experienced and then overflowed from within.

You are not deficient… you are not in lack or scarcity. You are not in a place of “not having”, though it can feel like this to parts of you who have truly and deeply felt as if life and love itself tend to turn the other way when they are in need or want. Some parts of you may have become “beggars” in a sense of it, desperately wanting, praying, affirming, grabbing at what they feel they do not have already. In some ways, this is what they’ve needed to do. This is what you’ve needed to inhabit in your 3D life, where the conditioning is that you need something, someone, outside of you at all times in order to keep you fed, clothed, embraced, loved. This conditioning does not tell you to go within and feel where this sense of separation first started and ultimately received the most encouragement to go on in your consciousness.

You ache… your parts ache. To be felt above anything else. To be seen and heard and even challenged to start feeling the “deficiency” within… a deficiency that doesn’t really exist, but has seemed to. The lack you’ve felt has actually been about something much deeper inside of you that has gone untapped. There are bottomless wells of everything you need within you. For example, the body knows what it’s doing, yet hasn’t always been given permission to be in its intelligence, its knowledge of self-healing, and hasn’t been given the space to do so either or the foods, the energies it most needs in order to boost its abilities. The heart knows what it feels to be true, where your personal and soul timeline stories have come from and why they are there/here, why and how you are connected to those you are connected to, or why perhaps you aren’t. Above all, it knows what you most need. And, it knows that the only place where this can truly come from in a steady and ongoing way is within.

The abundance you have inside is like the Cave of Wonders from Aladdin. Or maybe it’s the intense Inner Protector energy inside of you that makes it feel that way and is offering me this picture now! Your Inner Protector seems to vibe to you that if you touch the lamp of your abundant flow within, everything will collapse… and in a way, they’re not wrong! The golden lamp is your deepest sense of inner power and worth that is accessed through feeling parts of you who are not only the pain they present to you once you begin to feel them, but who also have many, many gifts to offer and can unlock the doors to your soul gifts and service-of-love 5D Self. Once you start to realize your true power and everything you can provide yourself from within by being with these parts of you, all the areas of your life DO experience a collapse of this cave that has served to compartmentalize and hide away your brightest light within… yet, it’s a death and rebirth cycle, not your ultimate demise, as your Protector and other parts have felt it to be. It’s an invitation to keep going, growing, wanting something NEW, something more fulfilling and nourishing and alive within you, that then creates and draws the relationships to others, to life, to work, to service of love, that you most deeply want and are ready for. The best way to walk out this collapse and reboot is with a hotline to your Inner Protector, who has had very good reason to protect your Cave of Wonders and treasure trove within it of previously suppressed parts of you and ultimately self-love and worth too.

You are more than enough in the deepest sense of it. You are the one who gets to experience shifts in your life that don’t always have to be experienced the “hard way” if you do choose to negotiate and walk it out with parts of you. By taking self-loving steps, you get to feel everything that you have within and everything you are bringing with you into each new life phase. And, along the way, you will discover that life is NOT looking to deplete you or run you down and is, in fact, pressing you inward to find the resources you already have waiting to be claimed. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Guided Meditation Video To Meet Your Shadow Aspects W/ Jelelle Awen

by Jelelle Awen

 

Your shadow contains aspects of you that have been disowned, put away, judged, rejected, protected, and suppressed. Also in shadow can be your soul gifts, soul purpose clarities, and your ‘power’. There are always ‘good reasons’ for this putting away into shadow based on conditioning you’ve received from 3D life and even other lifetimes/timelines, in addition to undigested traumas and karmic patterns. The Ascension process invites you to uncover, feel, and integrate your shadow aspects with love, compassion, and curiousity. Rather than bypass the shadow, it is about embracing it with self love and Divine support.

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teacher, Facilitator, and Author Jelelle Awen leads you on a guided meditation to connect with your shadow. She provides a space of loving support, with help from Archangel Metatron and Mother Mary for you to safely navigate these grounds, to pull back the veil to remember, and to lead this exploration yourself.

You also invite the part of you called the Inner Protector to come along with you on the journey. The Protector can be hesitant and resistant to going deeper into this ground due to concerns about your ability to handle what comes up. This part of you gets to be by your side in this shadow exploration, which can make a big difference in the depth and ways you will feel and digest it. More about the Protector here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

This is the music gratefully used in this video: https://youtu.be/FOOqiUbjr2k

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Practical Ascension, Practical Magic: Bridging Spirituality With Grounded Practicality

by Kalayna Colibri

Many of my mornings every week are dedicated to working online, specifically as an English teacher for Chinese children. These are early mornings… something my parts and my body have had to get used to and in some ways, the “getting used to it” process is still going on and in!

This is temporary… the heart and soul purpose I’m on this planet for isn’t teaching English to foreign children. It’s a bridge into the magical world OF living into soul purpose, though. It’s a way to keep grounded in terms of income while continuing the work within that draws more of the income desired from offering healing work to others and serving love with them. And, it IS service of love in some form, and this my parts and my Metasoul Aspects too are coming to terms with more and more.

Parts of you may have resistance to the practical, especially while navigating the magical. Reconciling and living into the two sometimes very divergent-feeling worlds is something necessary until it isn’t, yet there is definitely a step-by-step process to manifesting or drawing what we want to feel and become spiritually and as healers too, and this process involves a need, as a human being on this planet at this time, to have some sense of groundedness in practical day-to-day life.

Being “practical” in the way I’m offering means something very, very different to me and parts of me than it used to. To be “practical” in the past meant to become “like them” – like the “adults” around me holding very 3D jobs and careers spanning many years while raising a family, buying a home, staying put in one geography for possibly decades… as a soul born into this world with far less orientation towards 3D life, I had many parts that rebelled, fervently pushing away from this picture, wanting something very different, much more spiritual-feeling. So naturally, parts of me (typically my Inner Teenager yet also my Inner Protector/Gatekeeper) pushed away a grounded sense of financial income, ways to make sure I had some stability in my life, because I was “waiting” for the “perfect” job that would align with my soul purpose… not realizing that every job actually gives us this chance to build up to that and in some ways, simply not wanting to ground or BE here on Gaia. I had different ideas of spirituality and what it meant to be living into your truest soul purpose work back then. I still don’t have a desire for any of the things I listed above, yet I can say that how I picture, feel and live into “practical life” has shifted in a huge way because of my process and working with my parts. I now see “practicality” as something grounded, that puts your hands in the dirt to plant seeds, proverbially or literally. For some souls, this may mean the bliss mess experience of raising children, holding a 10+ year career trajectory, remaining in a long-term marriage “no matter what”, fully inhabiting these choices and then maybe popping out the other side into some deep awakenings that take them in different directions. For myself and so many others, this often means something very different.

The rebel in me lives on and necessarily so, yet not in such a way that tries to push against lucrative opportunities that also give me flexibility in terms of moving around the globe, having full days off other than early mornings, AND, I can take time off whenever I want to technically, yet the practical calls me in the moment to work often (though not so often I burn out!) for the sake of saving enough money to help the community I’m a part of find its way to a new geography where we can really plant our service-of-love seeds in new soul-soil. Creating the space for service of love in other forms, like writing, creating, holding space for others, etc, is something that arises as it needs and wants to and I am still very much in response to that, while bridging it all back to the practical, as I am in this writing in this moment. Being called to serve love does not have to mean self-sacrifice, though of course some of us have needed to walk that one out and we get to the other side of it when it’s time and we choose that. It actually so feels like what it means at the heart of it is being in response from your ever-purifying heart… to your own needs, the needs of those you love and share nourishing bonds with, and the needs of those who you are meant to serve.

It IS possible to live humbly while necessary, to hold a modest income while finding your feet, your heart, your wings in the areas of spiritual healing that you most desire to be part of. It IS possible to hold life in such a way that you are in response to your own practical needs and desires while also in response to serving others. And, it truly feels like a deep invitation from the Divine, from the Ascension LOVE energies themselves, to continue to find ways and means that allow you to continue your inward journey, finding and feeling the parts and Metasoul Aspects that are in resistance and reaction and perhaps wanting this New Earth existence that could be free of some of the old 3D sense of practicality to just be here already… yet there is a process involved and it is ultimately about finding your inner strength, power, worth and confidence through healing the parts that don’t feel this way. And this then can be served outward, from a place of grounded self-healing and discovery and growing self-love and appreciation.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Let Your Inner Tension BE Your Path Through 4D Ascension

Painting by Cristina Bernazzani

 

by Kalayna Colibri

There is no “wrong way”… there is only the way in front of you and inside of you. There is no way or path that is more correct, more aligned with you than what you are currently walking out. The flow you’re already in wants to bring you to your next places of growth and healing, as is inevitable on this Ascension journey where SO much is going on at all times.

It can be especially hard, as you walk out 4D-ascension specifically, to really let this in. To hold that you and parts of you are OK. 4D holds the container for so much churning, so many storms, so much turmoil inside as buried pain surfaces on heart AND soul levels. It isn’t comfortable and it often expresses as messes, conflicts, contention, feelings of being twisted around inside of you into a really uncomfortable pretzel as your Higher Self continues to try and find its way closer to your being. The Higher Self coming into the body causes reactions that aren’t just physical… the emotional reactions, oh, those intense emotional reactions, are all part and parcel of the bigger picture of what needs to be purged, felt, healed. The parts that surface can really inhabit the intensity of this. Parts represent so much of our old ways of being in the world and with ourselves, which is a result of our wounding and conditioning too from culture, birth family, friends, the education system, the medical system, the “Matrix” in general if you want to call it that. The ‘Matrix’ is a charged word and concept for all of the pushing away from it that is happening… it can be held by parts of you as another representation of their pain and anguish, what they want to push away from and forget about. Yet there is still a Matrix within, a very intricately-wired set of responses to life and above all, to love. This is what is being pressed upon the most when we feel this intense birth canal that IS 4D awakening and movement. And of course this is HARD… this is what has been so normalized, so accepted, yet so painful inside of all of us.

In the 4D scramble for answers, it can be understandably hard to find stillness and calm and a place within that is an undying oasis of infinite love… a place that truly believes in and trusts love. This oasis of self-love and worth is worth working for, is worth burning-up from the inside for… and is the passageway to our more consistent 5D moments and eventually whole lifestyle of 5D consciousness and breathing and being. And, though it can be so hard to feel this when the burning and purging is happening, there is SO much love holding it ALL, always and in ALL ways.

For more support and to gather at an oasis of self-love process and experience of infinite unified love with the world, you are welcome to join us at our Unity Meditation gathering happening virtually over Zoom tomorrow and for many other days and times to follow! Please join us and lean into the web of love that has been created and continues to be re-created by each amazing soul that joins in and leans in too. ❤ Go here for more info: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

And, if you want to go deeper, we have 2 process programs that we offer in SoulFullHeart, ranging in price from $33/mo to $222/mo. Check out www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more info! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.