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Imagining Your Way To New Earth Reality Through Suppressed Inner Child & Parts Work

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

Imagination is your most important tool for healing and Ascension.

 

You need to be able to imagine the New Now, the New Earth you want to co-create. You need to claim with your whole being what it is you want to REALize into REALity.

 

This is yet another ongoing message from incoming love wave Ascension energies that penetrate and activate so many gifts inside of you.

 

Imagination sometimes gets a bad rap from parts who feel disappointed by what it hasn’t brought them in the past. It could be that parts of you try to dampen your capacity to dream and imagine. This can come from your Inner Protector, your Inner Mother/Father, your Inner Punisher, maybe even your Inner Teenager. It’s part of the dampening and suppression of the Inner Child that so many of you ache to have more access to. You can read more about parts here: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

 

Feels to me like it’s your Inner Child who has the most capacity to dream of this New Earth/Golden Earth/5D reality. He/She has easy access to the possibilities, actually, and the feeling that it’s already here and happening!

 

So how do you work with the parts that are suppressing this precious part of you?

 

In my experience of it, this isn’t something you can do in a weekend workshop because of all of the parts protecting this energy inside of you and for good reason too. Navigating 3D and even 4D reality has meant that your natural-born whimsical nature has had to be suppressed just to stay grounded and find your way. The most powerful thing you can do is LOVE the parts of you that have held this protective energy and expressed it in so many ways. But even feeling these parts, getting to know and love them UP, is something that requires imagination.

 

Can you see it? Can you feel, touch, taste, smell the NEW reality your deepest heart wants to experience in your everyday reality?

 

If you can… you can create it, have it, BEcome it, one step inward at a time.

 

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If this reality of feeling parts of you feels interesting and desirable for you, my beloveds and I offer one-on-one Ascension bridging sessions that are an easy $55 min. donation/90 min. Check out: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-sessions for more info! ❤ If you are a woman around/under the age of 35, I have slots available this coming week and would love to serve you on your journey.

 

Much, much love to you!

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: The Magical Portal Of Your Own Darkness

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week’s Museletter features an article by SoulFullHeart co-creator, teacher, and Facilitator, Raphael Awen. He invites you to get curious about your more ‘negative’ emotional spaces and the tension between what you want and what you have right now. He offers that feeling and embracing all of this is the journey to the more whole and healthy-feeling you that you long to become:

“This tug-of-war polarity and tension between what you desire and what you actually experience is the pathway into navigating between the two in the direction you want to go. You are like this anti-gravitic travel device in this way.

You wouldn’t even be able to feel tension, were it not for rest. You couldn’t feel love were it not for fear. You couldn’t feel trust were it not for anxiety. One is needed to give reality to the other.”

Our latest and last (for now at least!) Unity Meditation virtual gathering took place this past week and you can find the recording of the teachings and meditation in this Museletter. The guided meditation offers you a sense of your inner masculine and feminine frequencies and the relationship they have to each other. This helps to illuminate for you the patterns you’ve been experiencing in your relationships.

Last weekend, Jelelle Awen held a live stream on Facebook where she offered another Energy Update experience. You’ll find the recording of this live stream, including the guided meditation she led is also featured this week, in addition to another video where Jelelle shares her experience of drawing and being IN a Sacred Union relationship with a soul mate. She talks about the inner work involved, especially with feeling and growing the Sacred Union within that then gets to be reflected in relationship to another person.

Kalayna Colibri and Raianna Shai have offered another episode of Millennial Digest, this time digesting the relationship between Millennials and 3D reality. They share about their personal experiences with 3D growing up as well as their heart and soul-felt observations of the patterns that appear in the lives of these “young” Sacred Humans arising.

Many beautiful writings and recordings from Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman are available for you to take in, including several new energy updates and digestions from different areas of life and different aspects of the ongoing Ascension process.

Kalayna, Gabriel, Raphael, and Jelelle all offer 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. They are available for $55 min. donation per session and more information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

 

 

SoulFullHeart Millennial Digest: What Is Millennial Spirituality?

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by Kalayna Colibri & Raianna Shai

 

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teacher and Facilitator, Kalayna Colibri, joins with SoulFullHeart Facilitant and ‘Social Media Maven’, Raianna Shai, to digest this idea of ‘Millennial spirituality’. Raianna shares from her personal experience and observations of others around her age. Kalayna shares her experience as well. Together they cover the age range of 23-30 and so they offer much from their different perspectives and what the spiritual world has meant for them and those they’ve known or been friends with.

They talk about the different roles of spirituality, religion and morals in their generation and how this has shown itself in different parts of people, like the Inner Mother and Father, for example, especially if there has been a religious or moralistic upbringing of any kind. Spirituality is something that seems to be being explored from the inside out in the young people of today, whereas in older generations the focus has generally been from the outside in. It really is an invitation for ‘new school’ spirituality to emerge and challenge with love the ‘old school’ spiritual scaffolding and ideas while nurturing a world that is love-focused in a genuine way.

They also talk about some of the challenges of this process for younger generations, as they reach for ideals of ‘tolerance’ and ‘inclusion’ to mend what isn’t feeling tolerable within in the relationship between parts of them, especially as they arise and grow-up in the midst of an older generation with different ideas of how life works and what love IS.  

They hope you join them on this journey and contribute to the conversation with questions and comments if you feel called to!

If you feel moved to ask questions or leave comments, you can do so here on the blog, on Youtube, or on Facebook, or you can email soulfullhearts@gmail.com

 

About the SoulFullHeart process: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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May Energies: It’s Time To Dream, To Remember, To Move On & UP

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by Kalayna Colibri

Artwork: Emerging Love Opening Heart by Sundara Fawn

“It’s time to dust off your wings!” — I hear this today, right now actually, as I’m wondering about the energies coming in already so intensely this month!

Time to dust off your wings… this is the invitation to step into your gifts. Even the shaky steps are steps. Actually, the shaky ones, the ones where you are feeling the parts of you and Metasoul Aspects too that are scared of what could come your way if you do… these steps are the ones most worth taking. This means you aren’t out to conquer or battle but you’re bringing your heart with you. THAT is something that’s becoming more and more common these days, but not common enough just yet. You get to help lead that new movement. Woah. Not as tall of an order as part of you may think… because flying, actually, is way more natural for you than crawling along in a compressed 3D reality.

Your wings have known the exploration of the unknown. You’ve soared high above the capping clouds of the ‘normal’ and ‘every day’ even just in daydreams. You feel what’s out there and you feel how it’s not ‘in here’ just yet.

It’s time to go and get it, bring it back inward, feel how it all IS possible.

3D reality has taught parts of you to give up dreaming. I’ve never been one to successfully bury my heart and soul aches and desires for very long and I suspect you can’t really do this either, or you wouldn’t be taking this in. I see and feel YOU and what you’ve maybe had to put aside or give up for a while, but know that this invitation is for you… and that any experience you’re having of a prickly nest right now is meant to move you on from where you’ve been settled and settling. It’s time for what parts of you have only tolerated in your relationships, your career, your geography, to become intolerable. Reach for the stars again… go ahead. You’re ready.

Dust off your wings, beloved being. It’s time to fly. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

5/5 Gateway Offers Soul Bigness And Journey Reflections, Movements, Growth

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by Kalayna Colibri

Before we enter these mega gateways, like 5/5, it’s like stopping at airport security. You have to go through a process of checking the stuff you’ve got with you and on you (in this case inside you too) and deciding what can come and what can’t. What is it that you want to bring with you into this next birth canal as you enter its gateway? Do you feel ready to bring your parts with you, even the ones that have been in shadow so that they can be illuminated, felt, and eventually integrated with love? Do you feel ready to look at your relationships and really see if they’re coming with you or not? Is your job or career coming with you or is there something else to feel about that? Do you feel ready to embrace abundance in all forms and let go of previous ideas of what that even is? What resistance do you have to this gateway and what it wants to offer you? ALL of these questions lead to feeling parts of you, or can if you’re ready. And from there the healing potential is exponential.

A gateway is another opportunity to let go of the ‘hell’ you’ve known in different areas of life for the sake of the ‘heaven’ you don’t know yet. It’s another graduation point for your healing and Ascension journey if you’re ready for that. It’s a big mirror too. Reflections of who you’ve been and who you’ve become too are coming your way! It’s not only a time for sobriety and looking at what has been but also celebrating what IS. What opportunities do you have in front of you for some big healing this time around? Can you look at yourself and your parts and feel gratitude for how far you’ve come? If you can’t feel some self-recognition at this point, it’s fair to say that there’s a part there blocking the doorway. A part that needs you to see it before it can allow you to see yourself. This part is often the one that wants so much to protect you that sometimes it also protects you from really letting in your goodness. The Inner Protector and the Inner Punisher are the parts often at play here. Intense stuff, yes! Yet… the process of being with these parts is the process you’re invited to engage with and if you don’t choose to do so now, you can ask your Inner Protector specifically about this.

If you want to connect with your Inner Protector, there are wonderful guided meditations offered by Jelelle Awen, that you can take in on our Youtube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience.

Any fear of doing something “wrong” also seems to become backlit with 5/5. It’s an opportunity to start loving yourself from the inside out and being with the parts that feel this way. There is no “wrong” way to ascend or heal, yet there ARE ways that better support your soul bigness and where your consciousness wants to expand to.

5/5 is a time for reflection and movement. The number 5 has no closings, only openings… interesting, no? I feel the number 5 is known to herald big changes because it can’t hold anything inside of it. It’s a time to truly let go and go inward in order to flow all of that love right back out of you again. Yes, love the feeling of this! It’s a time for changes, big or small… and with every change, we’re invited to feel the impact of that change on ourselves, our parts and our worlds too. We’re invited to feel and see the steps into MORE… more love, more heaven-on-earth feeling, more service-of-love/5D Self moving into the body. Hmmm… maybe instead of moving INTO the body as if it’s something truly outside of us, it’s about helping that inner 5D Self-seed grow and evolve from the inside, out.

LOVE to you on this journey you’re very sacredly walking and feeling out during this and every gateway!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Change Your Life By Finding Your Courage

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by Kalayna Colibri

Bravery. It’s a good topic to get into, isn’t it? We’re living in times where we SO need our bravery, both the masculine and feminine versions of it. We all have these energies inside of us. We’re all capable of so much beyond our wildest dreams and somehow you know this and can feel it… but not always. Being born into 3D conditioning is like having a lead balloon over your bigness. That is, until it’s not what’s true anymore and you’re remembering how to soar again!

Yesterday I posted just a couple of lines on my Facebook page that said, “If you don’t feel challenged to find your bravery, you’re living a life that supports your stuckness, not your growth…” and got a really big response! It feels like these are words that so many parts and Metasoul Aspects are NEEDING to hear and feel. It’s an invitation that’s meant to bowl you over with love. You’re always invited into your bigness through finding your courage. You find your true courage by finding your heart. If there’s no heart in your choices, if you aren’t truly feeling them, parts of you are keeping you numb out of fear and wanting to just exit the whole situation or relationship without feeling the loss or mourning. This is more bravado than bravery and comes from the Inner Protector wanting to just get OUT already… there’s nothing “wrong” with this though, especially because leaving abusive relationships can really require you to feel as unsentimental as possible on your way out the door. This is about survival in some cases and bless your Inner Protector for doing their job!

What I just mentioned about the Inner Protector brings us to the point I was making about masculine and feminine expressions of bravery. Since the Inner Protector for both men and women tends to be very, very masculine in energy, a very protected and armored version of bravery is expressed through this part. This is more wounded masculine than healed masculine of course, yet there’s no judgment about that because this is just how this part of you has HAD to be. Masculine bravery also expresses through the inner matriarch/patriarch (Inner Mother/Father). Matriarchy, the way it’s been expressed so far, has been intensely masculine in many ways. Any picture of a warrior woman is a masculine one, for example. Feminine power and bravery are different in my experience than anything that requires contention and battles on any level. The more healed version of masculine bravery lives in the heart. It helps you set intentions and not waiver from the course of action chosen, though your heart is still open to feeling your way through it (which is more feminine). It also helps you set boundaries when necessary and quite often it IS necessary in order to exit one door in your life and enter another.

Feminine bravery expresses through the heart. It’s a deep-seated courage to keep feeling all there is to feel. Courage to be WITH the mourning of leaving relationships, career, etc. Courage to be WITH the entering and letting in of new ones, too. Interesting that I’m using the word “courage” instead of “bravery” when talking about the feminine expression! I think this is because cour-age is of the heart, with “coeur” being the French word for “heart” and the feminine lives and thrives in the heart space. It takes a ton of bravery to stay in your heart, even when the world seems to support parts of you not to stay there and when it’s understandably tempting to follow along with that…

It takes a lot of YOU in your growing and strengthening essence to keep fnding your next steps in your life though every single awakening experience and every integration of these experiences too. You’re not meant to stay the same, and your life isn’t meant to either. You have a choice to be with the parts of you that are afraid and take brave steps anyways, trusting in your heart and soul that you WILL be and ARE held by something bigger within you and that life is on your side, not against you. This is a big one to feel and let in. And it takes a lot of bravery to even begin doing so. ❤

you are living in your stuckness

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life – Financial Area Personal Process

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by Kalayna Colibri & Gabriel Heartman

In this second video on the financial area of life, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, offer their unique perspective that is based on their own personal processes in this area. This area is one that parts tend to have the most reaction to and therefore it is an excellent area in which you can explore who you are now, have been so far in your life, and who you’d like to be as your process deepens.

The financial area challenges you, like all other areas of life, to feel what you are truly worth and what it is your most deeply want. As Kalayna and Gabriel share in this video, the process in this area is one with many steps and layers as you wade through, feel, and negotiate ongoingly with parts of you that are invested in it in one way or another.

In her personal sharing, Kalayna talks about layers of entitlement that parts of her have had around money-earning or being able to somehow automatically live a life dedicated to her vocation as a healer and have that be the main source of income. Her process has been one of digging deep within to feel and be with the parts who have held this energy of wanting to skip the step of finding financial stability that could provide her with the means to truly invest a growth process that she very much needed. She offers that parts have deep conditioning around what it means to have to work a “3D job” even while you are having profound awakening experiences.

Gabriel shares about his personal process with moving out of a 13+ year career as a tenured elementary school teacher and the dwindling nest egg of savings that part of him had great attachment to and anxiety around. He offers some key pieces to feel around the idea of letting go of 3D-based money-earning and savings from a 3D-based job or career in order to let in the new possibility of earning money with the intention of deepening your awakening experiences and helping them integrate into your life, not dampen them or try to shut them out.

Both Kalayna and Gabriel are part of the emoto-spiritual conscious community of SoulFullHeart, earning income as online ESL teachers online while also earning donation money through their work as SoulFullHeart Facilitators. This money that they earned is shared among the core Facilitators and Teachers and somehow they have found their way in this picture for almost five years now!

If you’re curious to learn about more about how SoulFullHeart digests and feels money and true abundance, you can take in any or all of these videos also from the Youtube channel:

SoulFullHeart Group Call – Money, Abundance, Soul Purpose, Guided Meditation

Conscious Community & 5D Money: Day 30 – 33 Days W/Jelelle Awen & Raphael

SoulFullHeart Patreon Page Launch, Conscious Money, Gift Exchange

And there are many audio blogs too!

There are also many articles written about this topic here on the blog. 🙂

Kalayna and Gabriel work for a company called VIPKID. If you’re interested in applying, they’d appreciate if you would use Gabriel’s referral link and code:
Link: https://t.vipkid.com.cn/activity/popup?refereeId=1395340&refersourceid=a01
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If you have any questions about the application process, please feel free to contact Gabriel directly: gabriel.heartman@gmail.com

7 Key Areas Article w/Questions from the website: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread on Youtube, here on the blog, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com

More on Gabriel and Kalayna:

Gabriel’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/about-gabriel-heartman

Kalayna’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutkalayna

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. 

 Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: SOULar Winds Ebb, Bringing Bliss And Healing

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by Jelelle Awen

SOULar winds bringing in those INtense geomagnetics are moving out now (April 13th), exiting Gaia’s atmosphere mostly although lingering in the far North. You may still be feeling them running and moving through your atmosphere, your energy field and on the emotional body level too as the light continues to penetrate into every living cell and chakras too. The light brings UP the oil/toxicities/denser frequencies to be felt and cleared, moving in like a poultice to pull out what needs to be purged….and that process is ongoing.

Many of you commented about feeling these energies in your heart area as heart palpitations, pain, tremors, etc. The Higher Heart chakra vortex was activated at a stronger level/dose over the last month. Your Higher Heart will be most needed for yourself AND as more souls awaken and look for a beacon of compassion to guide them through the shock and trauma of the ongoing transition. Here is a guided meditation I did to activate and integrate the Higher Heart frequencies and the other chakra vortexes of your Personal Sun and Gaia: https://youtu.be/qBb3eBzv70A

You may have started to feel the moving out yesterday as the pressure eased and more breathing became possible. BLISS could arise then from the space made by the energies of these last few days (and weeks!) Is there ROOM in your life and your heart for that bliss to arise too? Not just the mess? Not just the pain/aches, intense feelings? Yes, these mess states are necessary to purge up, to be felt…..but they are meant to move on too.

Is there room for Bliss in your life? For joy? For magic? For the sense of goodness that holds it ALL? For love?

If it feels like there is not as much room for love as you want and desire or you are not experiencing it as consistently or deep in your body in a grounded way, this is because parts of you are blocking these frequencies from coming in. Layers sometimes of flatness, fears, anxieties, tensions, suffering loops are built up in the 3D Self that block and filter love from coming in. These layers serve to modulate love; open the heart in moments and then ‘close’ it down again.

All this layering can FEEL like it is you. There can be very little separation sometimes from the soup of triggered reactions and undigested traumas. The stories you tell about your life in the current and in the past can feel like there is one singular “I” who has experienced and is feeling this. Objective space and a witness self is created through separation and beginning to feel the different energies and aspects of you in response to it. This doesn’t fragment your personality to look at it this way; it actually brings in MORE wholeness as a centered YOU collects in a loving way all the pieces of you that have been buried, disowned, ‘fused’ to, overly relied on, etc. These are parts/aspects that have just needed to be there as an adjustment to 3D living and just such intense conditioning that supports this. ALL these parts/aspects/frequencies can be transmuted into love with and by love. More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

I have a few slots open next week on the weekdays if you would like to experience a NEW perspective for and of yourself, your journey so far, and your highest timeline manifestation during a 90 minute 1:1 bridging session with me for an affordable minimum donation of $55 USD. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Also, we are hosting a FREE Unity Meditation call tomorrow, April 14th at 11:11am CST. Usually powerful frequencies of activation AND integration come through that can be helpful during this time. You can register through event brite here to auto receive the zoom link to attend:https://tinyurl.com/y9s3mdvp

Again, as always, MUCH love to you in our ongoing journey into remembrance of our essence as Infinite Love….and thank YOU for all your comments on and sharings of my posts this week. It is a beautiful collaboration we create here in this ‘space’ and I appreciate it AND you! Serving love together!

This photo is of me at the beach here in Mexico…letting in and playing with the sun rays. I received such a feeling of GOODNESS from them as I let them in. Which, of course, is so key to receive what is being offered AS love by these codes right now….letting IN! 

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Awakening To Your Abundance Within And The Protection Of It Too

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by Kalayna Colibri

When I feel the abundance alive inside of Gaia, of water, nourishment, life, energy, that in 4D awakening experiences often seems deficient or on the decline and frighteningly so, I feel how this parallels our own inner abundance that continues to create and recreate itself continuously, that wants to be remembered and fill us UP! Of course, all of this focus on depleting resources is actually a concern about the depletion/scarcity of love… and there is no stronger source of love than that which can be cultivated, experienced and then overflowed from within.

You are not deficient… you are not in lack or scarcity. You are not in a place of “not having”, though it can feel like this to parts of you who have truly and deeply felt as if life and love itself tend to turn the other way when they are in need or want. Some parts of you may have become “beggars” in a sense of it, desperately wanting, praying, affirming, grabbing at what they feel they do not have already. In some ways, this is what they’ve needed to do. This is what you’ve needed to inhabit in your 3D life, where the conditioning is that you need something, someone, outside of you at all times in order to keep you fed, clothed, embraced, loved. This conditioning does not tell you to go within and feel where this sense of separation first started and ultimately received the most encouragement to go on in your consciousness.

You ache… your parts ache. To be felt above anything else. To be seen and heard and even challenged to start feeling the “deficiency” within… a deficiency that doesn’t really exist, but has seemed to. The lack you’ve felt has actually been about something much deeper inside of you that has gone untapped. There are bottomless wells of everything you need within you. For example, the body knows what it’s doing, yet hasn’t always been given permission to be in its intelligence, its knowledge of self-healing, and hasn’t been given the space to do so either or the foods, the energies it most needs in order to boost its abilities. The heart knows what it feels to be true, where your personal and soul timeline stories have come from and why they are there/here, why and how you are connected to those you are connected to, or why perhaps you aren’t. Above all, it knows what you most need. And, it knows that the only place where this can truly come from in a steady and ongoing way is within.

The abundance you have inside is like the Cave of Wonders from Aladdin. Or maybe it’s the intense Inner Protector energy inside of you that makes it feel that way and is offering me this picture now! Your Inner Protector seems to vibe to you that if you touch the lamp of your abundant flow within, everything will collapse… and in a way, they’re not wrong! The golden lamp is your deepest sense of inner power and worth that is accessed through feeling parts of you who are not only the pain they present to you once you begin to feel them, but who also have many, many gifts to offer and can unlock the doors to your soul gifts and service-of-love 5D Self. Once you start to realize your true power and everything you can provide yourself from within by being with these parts of you, all the areas of your life DO experience a collapse of this cave that has served to compartmentalize and hide away your brightest light within… yet, it’s a death and rebirth cycle, not your ultimate demise, as your Protector and other parts have felt it to be. It’s an invitation to keep going, growing, wanting something NEW, something more fulfilling and nourishing and alive within you, that then creates and draws the relationships to others, to life, to work, to service of love, that you most deeply want and are ready for. The best way to walk out this collapse and reboot is with a hotline to your Inner Protector, who has had very good reason to protect your Cave of Wonders and treasure trove within it of previously suppressed parts of you and ultimately self-love and worth too.

You are more than enough in the deepest sense of it. You are the one who gets to experience shifts in your life that don’t always have to be experienced the “hard way” if you do choose to negotiate and walk it out with parts of you. By taking self-loving steps, you get to feel everything that you have within and everything you are bringing with you into each new life phase. And, along the way, you will discover that life is NOT looking to deplete you or run you down and is, in fact, pressing you inward to find the resources you already have waiting to be claimed. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Re-Discovering And Loving The Buried Parts Within

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by Kalayna Colibri

Many years ago… I could not have told you that ‘becoming more feminine’ was my goal or intention. I grew up with an older sister who rebelled against femininity and wanted to be like her. I wanted to be friends with the guys that weren’t attracted to me, so at least I could have some way to be close to them regardless, to experience a connection with the opposite gender. I say ‘I’ here because before I was aware that I had ‘parts’ of me running the show of my life, ‘I’ was all ‘I’ had as a reference point for the dramas and desires and pain.

When I was very little, however, I wanted only to wear dresses. I liked big frilly ones with flowers. I liked my pretty shoes and white tights. I especially loved going to ballet class as a 5-year-old and being able to wear the pink skirt that represented my level over top of my leotard. I loved being called a ‘lady’ and would have fantasies about being in ‘princess training’. This was all before messaging of ‘being a girl means you’re weak’ or ‘incapable’ started to leak in and take over. This was before parts of me started to form as a casing, an ever-hardening shell over my natural sensitivity and blooming pre-womanhood. The dresses got put away. The tights could no longer be worn without holes being made in them almost immediately – a symbol, I’m realizing, of my young torn-ness between gender expressions. Skirts didn’t fit or feel right either, and I felt very self-conscious in them. Something was shifting out of wanting to be a girl to wanting to be related to, to be made friends with, to be able to somehow find comfortability in any social situation even if that meant being more like a ‘boy’ in some ways. I stopped feeling ‘pretty’ when I was quite young and thus I stopped trying to be, at least until high school.

I remember all of this in this very moment, especially as I feel a part of me that is my Inner Masculine. I feel how this is a story from him about how he came to be and how he began to form as an Inner Patriarch, coaching and teaching my other parts how to become more masculine in order to survive if not thrive in this world of 3D. I feel the tears of my suppressed, albeit quite young aspect of my Inner Feminine, who it feels like has some pain coming up in response to this… these feelings of being ‘girly’, which was more in my true nature, being deemed ‘not good enough’ so early in my life.

I share this story today because it feels like the story that belongs to so many of us… a story of genuine self-expression, of authentic sensitivity. Unless and until we can begin to feel the parts of us that have (had to) come up in response to life and more often than not, bury or try to dismiss what is actually TRUE about us, it doesn’t really feel possible to feel the layers here and to get to exactly what has been buried for so many ‘years’.

I feel like this extends far beyond authentic gender expression, so much as just what is authentically in our hearts. I feel the richness of a genuine experience of what the sacred masculine and feminine ARE, that can only really be experienced from within, not from other people’s ideas of what it is or is not… in either case when it comes to the masculine and the feminine, we are having to re-learn so much and deeply feel much more.

We have the courage to venture deeper into our own healing, ever-discovering more and more of what has been suppressed within our most inner caverns of what has always wanted to show us the most authentic us we have been waiting and working to BE… and it’s up to us when and if we are ready to lead him/her/them out of the shadows and into the light where they can breathe and play and be themselves again… and this time, without anyone telling them they have to stop being who and what they truly are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.